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call-me-pup2 · 1 month ago

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Pup is alive and has in fact not kicked the bucket :0

Sooo I was the biiig depresso for a minute there lol but doing better now *shakey awkward thumbs up

Have come to the conclusion I think I am in fact done with official content making but I sort of miss shit posting here so I'm afraid you will once again be cursed with my nonsense in some capacity :3

#silly me thought i was just a lil anxious for the past 3/4 months #nah i was fully in the trenches #but i made it through 😤#i missed postings nonsense and venting on the tumbles #so this toxic situationship continues on even though ive ignored you for a month 😘#you know you love it dont lie ;)#anyhoo take care of your brains people!#also to be totally honest ive had no brain thoughts on ns/fw stuff which im hoping was just the depression and i havent -#- totally lost my freakiness but we shall seeee #i mean id also given up on like everything i found fun so you know there is a decent chance my degenerate self will rise again!#i was sort of meh jan-march then it get real bad #but just like that stubborn ketchup stain on your fav white shirt i aint going anywhere😌#anyways i shall stop waffling because like two folk will read all this nonsense but jokes on everyone else those two get a smooch 😘#love yah!

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kagoutiss · 1 year ago

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as if it was never there at all.

#undertale #deltarune #utdr #gaster #ok little bit of rambling bc ive been catching up on a LOT of deltarune stuff #something something guy(s) who cant be perceived without also ceasing to exist #i had the thought yesterday that. gaster is sort of the anti-chara in a way. if you say his name he ‘disappears’#the game crashes or resets etc. literally the opposite of invoking chara lol #plus how chara is so associated with deletion of worlds. and here gaster is wanting to create new ones #creating new worlds. creating a vessel for the player. creating connections #and its so much more sad when you think about how deltarune is like. fundamentally his attempt to connect with the player #he can maintain a connection with us. but we can’t see him. or show him his own name. or acknowledge his identity in any way #or else that connection will be severed. or he’ll disappear. or he’ll cease to have ever existed #mystery man goes away the moment you interact. egg man was never there but he gave you an Egg #etc etc #the white egg noelle was given in her game makes me think about this too because #that egg remained there the whole time she was afraid of it. it couldnt be thrown away. it wouldnt hatch. it was just There #and then when she comes back later and decides to take care of it like any of her other pets. THEN it disappears #’_____ left home due to happiness.’#how do you form real lasting connections when the connection itself makes you disappear

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drpeppertummy · 2 months ago

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thank u !!!!!

17. What's something you wish you saw more of?

my favorite things when it comes to tummy kink seem to be things that people arent as into as other things, and those are: Just Stuffing (without weight gain or emphasis on fatness/calories/etc) and Smaller/More Realistic Tummy Sizes (as opposed to like, super huge exaggeration). so if anybody knows any artists who specialize in those things please send em my way😭😭😭

also: i honestly really like stuffing with skinny characters. like not that i dont care about fat characters (i am fat myself in fact) but like Purely For The Visual i love that contrast & tightness of a round tummy sticking out from an otherwise skinny body. but since a lot of tummy kink people are into weight gain its not something i see a ton of

#message #ask game replies #i used to check tags/searches every once in a while to find people who post this sort of thing #& i did find a few a while back but ive given up bc the search results are always a mess

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gil-estel · 3 months ago

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wow I wonder what could have happened around 2013 to cause this

#which the article doesn't mention at all of course #look. i can only speak to 1) math instruction 2) on the elementary school level #and middle school level #and only in the districts ive worked with #but ive said this before and I'll say it again. the current way math is taught has the same problems that balanced literacy did #kids who are naturally good at math will figure it out no matter how its taught #in fact they probably ARE benefiting a lot from being exposed a variety of strategies and conceptual thinking #the sort of stuff that would typically be reserved for a pull-out gifted/discovery/links class #but the kids who struggle with math? this does NOT help them #they dont just 'pick up' addition and multiplication facts #the ~more conceptual~ strategies dont actually lead to more conceptual understanding for them. its just a different (more complicated!)#algorithm for them to memorize #and because it doesn't come easily to them #they aren't given the necessary practice (which yes. involves repetition!!) to master any strategy #kids who can't struggle to make big conceptual leaps shouldn't be denied access to basic math skills #and i will die on the hill of 'its easier to think about complex probel #*problems and think conceptually if you aren't devoting mental resources to trying to figure out 8*7 by repeated addition

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themissingnumbers · 9 months ago

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[i will probably delete this later but for other pokepasta blogs hanging around, i (starry) am making interactions open with my currently available characters (ace, fire, glitchy, and leaf sorry blue/mike/steven fans) open for other ask/rp blog's muses/characters.

these will be non-canon, but that also means that even while the main story's on hiatus, i'm open to receiving and answering these in the meantime! ive been seeing other blog interactions circle in the pokepasta ask/rp blog sphere a fair bit more lately and it seems like a lot of fun, esp now that we know what we're doing with mn a bit better. i am also planning/hoping to send a few out to other blogs as well ^^

i'll tag these posts as "mn noncanon" for sorting or filtering purposes. i dont rly have any rules i'll lay down other than like... specify if your muse is interacting with them Physically or via the Drones for the cam crew]

#delete later #mn noncanon #not mn #[given the hiatus has been for the sake of getting things set up for future (we've been truckin away at that)#these will probably be treated a bit more casually in terms of art production n the speed at which i answer ^^'#so please keep that in mind!]#[as for updates on. actual story updates. ive started work on the next Proper Update as we've decided to resume things before the-#secret project is done given. who knows how long that'll take. it'll still be worth it i promise :]#the place we'll resume into will go on to be a sort of... event you could say. we just have to get things ready first.#i consider stuff like this and Descent to be good ways to get back into the swing of writing/illustrating for the blog in the meantime! ^^]

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wackywatchdotcom · 3 months ago

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ohhhhh man like for a while ive been on board w the idea that kinger if he was a bug that hed be a moth and i mostly like it bc it creates a good contrast between him and queenie, plus moths being associated w phototaxis, and how often kinger gets shown w butterflies being kinda evocative of him n queenie. but i was watching a panel and sean mentions the idea of kinger being a rhinoceros beetle. which is ALSO cute. but the idea of the horn being the cross made me have the epiphany that kinger should be!!! a treehopper!!!!!!

i mean for one they have a similar funny horn situation that can easily be designed to look like the cross. but more IMPORTANTLY!!! is that some treehoppers exhibit mutualism with ants (!!!) BUT!!! also some treehoppers are presocial, aka they will live communally and take care of young and its SO SO fitting w his outlook that a bug that hed be a bug that takes care of each other....

(also theyre SUPER jumpy which is FITTING TOO. and they have HUGE EYES)discussion

#tadc #i think itss tempting to also pick a eusocial species for kinger bc of the royalty thing but iirc mainly termites that have kings #and that doesnt feel fitting enough in other ways. the king aspect just doesnt feel worth it #that SAID theres smth there with caine im sure #ohhhh i need to figure out bugs for ALL of them #ive thought abt like. some sort of bee for zooble but thats as far as ive gotten for them #ive also thought abt some type of ant for pomni #WHICH!!! would add even MORE to kinger being a treehopper. theyre FRIENDS!!!#i have actually done bug designs for some of them before ...#ant for pomni just feels mundane enough to work #but also ants are CRAFTY and smarter than theyre given credit #soooo many ideas #idk abt jax ... bc i feel llike any bug i pick will look like im saying that bug is mean...#but i am an ADAMANT defender of 'mean' bugs #<- guy obsessed w parasitoid wasps voice HAHA #maybe i can make ragatha a webspinner i need to think about this i need someone to be a webspinnerrrr #sorry. wait why am i sorry im excited as hell about this YAYYYY #ask to tag #insects #BTW if ur curious you SHOULD look up picks of treehoppers their pronotums get SUPER COOL #circus discussion

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oflgtfol · 1 year ago

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i have like a severe interest in archaeoastronomy and firsthand observations of the night sky and the techniques that humans have been using to observe for like utter millennia. and so this had led me to a weird position where even among my fellow astronomy people i'm like, too knowledgeable about certain aspects of it such that none of them know wtf i'm talking about. like yeah my one coworker will make a metaphor and say that something is like an oscilloscope, and we all nod our heads and agree because we all know what an oscilloscope is and have done experiments using one. but if i mention like, the nebra sky disc. i'm the only one who gets it

#or i start talking about like the golden gate of the ecliptic or the first point of aries etc all essential for like #using the zodiac for timekeeping specifically #and my coworkers are just like. ? whats all that #but like . isnt it so cool? to look up into the sky and see the passage of time reflected in the stars and solar system???#to sort of work your way backwards and affirm yourself of the time of the year not based off your phone calendar or the #air temperature but solely off the position of the sun in the sky at a given time of day #brot posts #astro posting #<- ASTRONOMY #ive genuinely come to love the zodiac so much like its so good and the more you observe yourself the more you come to #understand why the zodiac constellations were so important in antiquity #but every time i try to acknowledge it out loud irl i have to be like. the zodiac BUT ASTRONOMY. NOT ASTROLOGY !!!!!#like literally the physical reality of the stars and shit. i do not care about the astrological zodiac

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collgeruledzebra · 2 months ago

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been a while since ive had a spell of anxiety bad enough i genuinely can't tell how much im overreacting

#like AM i overreacting? almost certainly. are the REASONS for being anxious valid? might be tbh!! but then again maybe not #i really really hate this. i hate not being able to judge what is Reasonable what is Rational. most of the time although i cant dispel #the anxiety i can still on another level know that it is irrational and that tempers the effects. not this timeeeee #meeting with my mentor tomorrow im going to try to get things as clear as i can to move forward i just dont know if ill be able to make #myself explain how ive been feeling because im genuinely afraid ive been wasting both of our time by not taking enough initiative #like i think he thinks im much busier than i actually am but i have no idea what he thinks im Doing because he hasnt given me all that much #to do #(unless im missing something major which is very unlikely and not really worth worrying about i dont think)#but regardless i spend a Lot of my time just sort of whiling it away looking at literature that isnt really relevant scrolling thru shit i #dont care about on linkedin staring into space etc #and now the big meeting for the program is coming up and we still havent done the experiment we originally set out to do #and i really honestly think i couldve made more progress by now if id just decided to take things more into my own hands #but for some reason that didnt really occur to me until fairly recently and now it feels like too little too late #idk idk tbf im pretty sure most of the other people in this program have said they feel like they arent prepared for the meeting either #but like im unprepared for REAL for real and i know i couldve taken steps before now to avoid that #and yeah it comes down to feeling like ive wasted time and resources that couldve been used better by someone else #because they SHOULD be used i dont hate my job i dont hate the project or the program i think theyre all worth while #but somehow im just not transferring that into my day to day #BLEH. maybe hopefully i can get on a clearer track for the next month or so at least with this meeting tomorrow #personal tag

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grossdyke · 11 days ago

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A new commandment I give unto you, that ye love one another; even as I have loved you, that ye also love one another. (John 13:34)

He that loveth his brother abideth in the light, and there is none occasion of stumbling him. (1 John 2:10)

Two biblical verses that exemplify Christ call for brotherly love.. I have lately been reading the brothers karamazov and I cannot help myself but give perseus and arcturus the dynamic of alyosha and ivan (well. losely). Have you read it?

I specifically adore the kiss they share on the Grand Inquisitor chapter when Ivan discusses the existence of God with his younger brother, then as an act of unconditional love, like God did with the Inquisitor, Alyosha kisses his brother on the lips. Reminded me a lot of what I imagine Arcturus and Perseus bond would be like. Do you think the wizards pray to a God? I can see perseus being a character devoted to faith and attributed Jesus-like qualities.. kind, loving and sensitive but nonetheless unable to stop his siblings’ suffering. I also believe the incest and the lust would make him spiral Hard and question himself and his faith and where he stands… possibly turning him on the darker side and abandoning his previous beliefs, devoting himself to a completely different cause (aka, his sister). I’ve many thoughts for his character..

Also Ivan, like I imagine Arcturus does, symbolises doubt. specifically in faith but I do not believe that is exactly arcturus’ case. I think perhaps Ivan's main problem is that he wants to understand and comprehend everything. This can actually be said to be the very characteristic of his intellectualism that is the source of his problems. He wants to accept faith through knowledge and awareness, whereas faith comes exactly when knowledge and reason do not give a complete answer. In fact, faith comes to fill the gaps of the mind and reason and to cover the inner void of humans. On the other hand, Ivan does not want to pay attention to the fact that in matters where he is curious (the existence of God and divine wisdom), absolute knowledge and awareness of it mean the meaninglessness of life. Because if he gains knowledge about all these matters, then decision-making becomes meaningless because there will be only one possible answer. In a way this feels like Arcturus doubts and cowardice on where he stands in the war, who he stands and fights for.. he wants clear answers on everything and when he cannot get them. he spirals and bails. and returns to lead a comfortable life where he is aware and in control of every problem and situation. The struggle God vs Devil Ivan faces can simplified to The Good and The Dark side for Arcturus. I do not know if I am making any sense at all😭

I quite like Arcturus and Perseus being mirrors of eachother and symbolising unconditional love.

you sent this to me when i was on my break at work and i’ve read it like ten times since then. do you like want full custody of the regcissa children because im fully prepared to to allow it. oh my god

#like i don’t know what to say……#im speechless.#guys. im getting emotional.#i can’t believe the lives we’ve given these fake children of a fictional non canon ship #fandom is a BEAUTIFUL PLACE !!!!!!!#i love the idea of some sort of religion/a god that wizards pray to #<- and especially within pureblood culture #and perseus being a believer growing up. sort of similar to alicents religious guilt. being repressed in that way #and slowly losing touch with his god / descending into madness (aka devotion towards his sister)#whereas arcturus represents like. love & companionship & brotherhood to perseus #arcturus is someone perseus identifies with and feels a kinship with #and vega represents his perversions and lust and desires #<- because misogyny. lol #perseus doesnt see vega as a person!!!!!#and the arcturus/ivan parallells. it’s making me fucking sick to my stomach #i haven’t read brothers karamazov but ive been meaning to for the longest time #the brotherly kiss to show unconditional love / the biblical meaning behind it has convinced me #i can picture it so clearly with perseus&arcturus #right now im reading strangers on a train #and then im gonna read the passenger & stella maris #<- im on an incest media journey.#and then i PROMISE i will read brothers karamazov #thank you for this lovely ask im obsessed with you forever #lets hold hands.#regcissa marriage au #karamazov anon

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kruxton · 15 days ago

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how it feels heading to school for an exam for your worst subject knowing full well you had been gaming the entire three days before

#igcse blogging #well u see i tried slightly for the paper 1s. and ive sort of just given up for the paper 2s #not like i dont think i can do it im not a bad student #but since ive been selfish this past month i wont be getting straight As anymore. yikes #what a year to choose to slack off rusty way to go!

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unnonexistence · 2 months ago

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i get to work with time series data at work & im excited about it

#one step closer to becoming hermann gottlieb lmao #it's also interesting because it's like. the first job ive had where they just expect me to figure stuff out??#sort of anyway #like i have been given a thing to manage #they taught me how to do parts of that but basically im in charge of analysis #and like. figuring out WHAT needs doing #which means i get to watch stats videos at work 💕#my plan for the next week or so is like. every morning check how the thing is doing & make changes as needed #and then if i have extra time use that to refine my analytics approaches #which for now means setting up R so i can get the data in there lmao #we have a dashboard but the dashboard is best for eyeballin it #personal

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thefandomcassandra · 1 year ago

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Spirit of Justice was a game. It was a game that made me actually feel some kind of way about Dhurke Sadhmadi as a character. (That way was sad, mostly, and also complicated other emotions.)

You see your son for the first time in ten years. He looks happy. He doesn't look happy to see you. (You don't blame him.)

Idk I think he's...he's a complicated man and I do rotate him in my head. He did what he thought was best in a very complicated situation. It just so happened that all this managed to achieve was inflicting Apollo with some of the worst abandonment issues shy of Trucy (which it sure says smthn that Those Two In Particular probably have some extremely awful abandonment issues lmao).

Anyway uh...nothing quite like drawing fanart to keep from falling apart at the seams. Shouts out to Ace Attorney for being pretty evergreen as a fandom for my ADHD brain and good for me rotating my artistic crops. I can write, I can draw, and I never really burn out which is nice! (Knock on wood.)

#the sheepy does art #ace attorney #ace attorney spoilers #spirit of justice #spirit of justice spoilers #aa6 #aa6 spoilers #soj #soj spoilers #image description in alt #sorry for my dogshit pictures of my terrible 4am pain-induced brainfog handwriting #but also ive been experimenting with art lately #mostly pushing poses and so on #and i think im starting to get better at certain aspects #anyway uh i think dhurke is a guy #and that subset of guy is ''somehow not in the bottom ten worst dads of ace attorney''#id rank him above people like mr winner and manfred von karma but below the goat of all aa dads mr damien tenma #hes about the same place as phoenix #aka: not great but not for a lack of trying #anyway apollo is in his right to have compicated feelings towards dhurke #and i think dhurke is the type of guy to (outside of These Circumstances) have given him time and space to sort it our #but also like shit was Bad and he needed to do things Fast so #sorry AJ you gotta suck it up for 48hrs or so

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rpfisfine · 1 year ago

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op of this post is a terf i genuinely find it unbelievable that ive had her blocked for almost 4 years now and i still see so many of her posts regularly on my dash

#i know ppl still follow her and r mutuals with her but ive legitimately kind of given up on hoping that will ever stop being the case #so im just making this post sort of for myself bc its like my white whale #mp #some links from the linked post don't work bc its rly old but i think it still gets the message across #i remember her posting some dumbass apology a few days after being called out but i literally dont care and i dont care abt what shes said #to like retract those statements since then

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willbe-human · 2 years ago

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Cool blue man ☃️💀

He's so fun to draw!!! Great long pointy nose