#lettingyougo

[thoughtless-ramble]

[ardrareinvention]

I love how I am everything without you.

[thecosmicwind]

Dear you...

It’s been four months since we parted from each other’s lives.

See the thing with people is, they have got to understand that they absolutely cannot keep hurting other people simply because they are hurt. That’s what I tried so hard to get you to understand - we needed to end the cycle of hurting each other, and to heal from what we were dealing with. I didn’t want to end things on a bad note; I wanted to end things with peace and understanding, hence why I agreed to talk to you.

But why did I end up doing all the talking and you basically said nothing, other than accusing me of not caring anymore and breaking your heart? I broke your heart, but what about mine? What about how I felt so low one night and you didn’t support me, you instead turned it around on yourself because you were “triggered as this reminded you of your ex”? What about when I asked time and time again for just simple communication, yet I was accused of doing too much and not caring enough, or not caring about you? I asked you time and time again for the bare fucking minimum, and got NOTHING? I even gave you an out and told you that I would understand if things were too much as I knew you had a lot on your plate, and you got mad at ME? BUT IT WAS OKAY WHEN YOU SUGGESTED IT? Okay.

I guess the gifts and the flowers that I never asked for were supposed to make up for the fact that emotionally, you were unavailable. (I threw everything out by the way, fuck that.)

I don’t understand you, I never understood you. I truly think you needed to heal from your past relationship before you started a new one. I think you latched onto me because I was different from her. I was cool, calm, collected; loyal and brutally honest. You latched on quick because I was different, but how I was I going to erase 10 years of behaviors in the span of 14 months? 

You needed to heal before you got to me.

I truly wish you well. I think of you sometimes and hope that you are rethinking your life, getting help for the things that you needed to get help with. I’m doing me, healing from my past, and learning to thrive on my own.

I pray that the same is happening for you.

But please don’t come back. There’s too much water under the bridge, and I refuse to drown with you if you come back.

Signed, me.

[greatprincesstidalwave]

"I'd tell my twenty-year old self that there is more to life than trying to heal someone else. There is more than having to give up yourself in the process. There's more than building the world around them"

[winlessfights]

my bright yellow light

only one i made an effort to find in darkest nights

my epochal secret

all to the walls, to my missed calls, i had to whisper your existence

my shiniest sauf road that leads us right to our burrow

my stainless gold

no one should hear about you, no one should know

- ivy haze

[phoenixtv]

You'll never find the answers you need in life looking in the rear view mirror

[embeccy]

"I’ve never been very good at leaving things behind. I tried, but I have always left fragments of myself there too, like seeds awaiting their chance to grow."

- Joanne Harris

- Embeccy 🥀

[ms-t-marie]

[mysmia06]

Lesson learnt.

A persons real identity is revealed when you stop giving them everything they want. To judge your intentions, I stopped being there for you and you left me without hesitation. You moved on to find someone new.

-MysMiA

[dontdieonmeyet]

my art, my home, my light

[bigpaddybimpin]

On a day I do not remember

It’s chilly because of the breeze, but warm because it’s humid

The smell of bonfire smoke clings to our hoodies

Just as tight as we used to cling onto each other

We laugh because we are young

I didn’t worry because I did not have to.

On a day I do not remember

We smile every time our favorite songs play

We talk about some days and one days

The moon and stars are so visible during this time of year

We don’t think to cherish these moments

We didn’t worry because we did not have to.

On a day I do not remember

We are all still sober

We think a good time doesn’t need drinks or smokes

We were still a few no-names in a small town

But we swore one day we’d leave our mark before we hit the ground

It’s funny how the end hits you so quick

I didnt worry because I did not have to.

On a day I do remember

It’s chilly because of the breeze, but warm because it’s humid

The smell of the whatever someone nearby was burning clings to my clothes

Just as tight as I’m clinging onto our memories

I cry because you are gone

You said you’d take the blame

I worry because I did not have to

On a day I do remember

I cannot listen to our old playlists

Those days turn into no days

You always knew more about the stars than me

The moon watches me sob

I cherish those memories

I worry because I do not have you

On a day I do remember

I haven’t been sober in weeks

I haven’t had a good time in what feels like forever

No longer a no-name in a small town

But you swore you’d never leave me

[glitterpiglet]

Take a chance

“Take a chance on me. Because the timing’s always going to be wrong and the stars are never going to align but I would break every clock in this city and I’d shut every star down from shining if it meant that for one afternoon we could cast all that aside and give in. Give in to the complete impossibility that something could work here, despite everything that stands in the way.”

-Heidi Priebe, This Is Me Letting You Go

[elderberrie]

we still had so many things to do together

i miss you

but it’s better this way

[itsalicestuart]

Farewell to the past, adieu to you,

Since our breakup, we've been apart, it's true. For a while, we both seemed to thrive, But then, something in your world took a dive.

I felt compelled to share my new love's embrace, And let you know where I'd found my place. I didn't expect your shock, so sincere, As if I should chase after you, hold you near.

My love for you was genuine, beyond measure, I did so much, accepting you, our love's treasure. Though your words could sometimes cut like a knife, I reassured myself, you're not perfect, in life.

Yet, with you, I rarely felt truly whole, Couldn't wear the clothes that nourished my soul. Black was forbidden, and so were the rest, Your grip on me, put my desires to the test.

Your surprise echoed, "How could you move on so fast?" But during our last weeks, I'd moved from the past. I knew you weren't the one, deep inside, And I sensed you felt the same, our love couldn't hide.

Now I understand why you were taken aback, You thought I'd be lost, lonely, off track. But I followed my heart to find someone new, Who cherishes me, loves me, and stays true.

No more unread messages for days on end, No more excuses from a lover or friend. I don't regret moving on with great speed, Happiness, not sorrow, is what I now need.

I won't write much more, it's time to conclude, I hope you find happiness, in moments, renewed. May joy find its way into your heart, And someday, you'll see why I had to depart.

So, for now, it's goodbye, my old friend, Alice's journey continues, around the bend. Take care, find your peace, and thrive, In the chapters ahead, where you'll come alive.

Farewell for now,

Alice x

[tempongener]

Living some of the happiest moments with you knowing all too well that this will be some of the saddest memories later.

[ardrareinvention]

A deep desire.

An unexplainable urge to take a leap, even knowing there’s no safety net.

Why does my mind understand but my body ignores reality?

It had been a while since I felt that sort of magic

It takes a advanced sorcerer to make me feel so safe, so quickly and still provide the thrill that could last a lifetime.

Being a romantic is just as much as a curse as a blessing.

It’s easy to spiral into periods of hope going right when every sign is pointing to the left.

It’s bad for me I know, but the feeling was just too good to release so quickly

Why couldn’t I be gifted with detachment?

Diverting my path effortlessly regardless of change or if things stay the same.

Maybe it’s the loneliness

Alone time is the safe haven, but loneliness is a different beast.

To know, time after time, I wasn’t chosen or wanted more than I was.

To know at first it was, and suddenly it wasn’t

Most endings were ripped like hospital tape

It’s taken all of my strength to convince myself I am good enough because of who I am and not how much I am successfully desired.

But nevertheless, rejection still hurts.

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I get so excited at first, my heart races

I’m like a child, you should see the joy on my face

But there’s always a price to pay

And you see that joy slowly and surely fade away