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[herdragonknights]

Me (a raging Pansexual): hey babe should I wear my boxer with my binder and crop top or wear my jogging pants, strap and crop top?

My fiancé: *looks up from computer* where are you even going?

Me: no where just wanted to look cute and handsome at the same time

My fiancé: crop top, boxers, no bra and strap *walks past me* bed in 5 minutes

[mama-in-de-stress]

Dear somebody I used to know,

Let's start from the beginning. 1/4/10 the date that forever changed my life. The day I met you and I felt like it was fate. When I first saw you it seemed like time stopped. It was just you and I in the world staring at each other from afar. When you walked up to me I immediately felt safe. In my head I had this idea that you would always make me feel safe and you would love me endlessly. That was my way of thinking throughout our relationship. No matter how hard it got I always had that drilled into my head. Fast forward to 9/21/13 the day we got married. I was the happiest girl in the world. I was on top of the world because the love of my life was forever mine and I was his. The time passed on...we were living in "paradise" and then 7/17/2014 we welcomed our first born into the world. That's when I felt like things started to slip away. Which is so sad to even say that bringing a child into this world made things between us slowly fade away. Becoming a parent isn't easy, but you adapt to it and you try your fucken best to be the best mother fucken parent you can be. Did I have to adapt and lose myself a bit in the process yes I did, but I felt like you saw the changes of motherhood as a bad thing. You saw change and didn't like it so in return you lied and cheated. Even after all of the numerous times you screwed me over and broke my heart I held onto that "endless love" and tried to love you 10x harder. No matter how hard I tried the love wasn't good enough. I wasn't good enough. You still decided to lie and cheat your way throughout our relationship. Fast forward again to 5/23/17....the day we welcomed our second child. Things somewhat got better because you kinda understood what being a parent is. I have to give you props for being there for the kids as much as that stone cold heart of yours could handle. At least you tried with the kids. Things got better for a little bit and then you reverted back to your sneaky cheating ways. You expected me to forgive so easily and trust you over and over again. I am so numb on the inside I don't even know what that is anymore. How can you trust someone who repeatedly proves to you that they don't care about how you feel and that you are the problem. I always felt like I was the problem. I was the one who changed and I needed to get help. I honestly think you are a narcissist and you don't even realize it. For many many years I have dealt with you trying to tear me down and make it seem like I was the crazy one for feeling the way I felt. You still do that to this very day. I hope you realize what you have till it's gone..because I'm at my wits end. I've had enough of the lies, enough of the disrespect and enough of the half assed love you give me. This is my last hurrah and I'm sticking to it. Fuck love at this point...the only love I will accept is the self-love I will finally be giving to myself because I'm a bad ass mother fucker. Cheers to CHANGE..because I'm not afraid anymore.

Goodbye,

The somebody you used to know

[leonchiro]

— MY NEW YEAR’S EVE MOOD AF IN A NUTTSHELL 🎊😆❤️ Happy New Year my beloved Instagram family and a wonderful 2019 full of positive vibes and successes! You will always have all my love and support! 😄 #HappyNewYear #2019 #LeonChiro #NewYear #NewYearsEve #Celebration #mylifeinanutshell #Friends #Geek #Party #Malaysia #kualalumpur #Pijama #DressCode #Jojo #Drink #Party #Fun (at Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia) https://www.instagram.com/p/BsGuHq_DoB1/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=p358n0ty65th

[666drugssexandhairlesscats999]

I can't even lie I've been lonely as fuck🤷‍♀️

[whatahoax-blog]

Distant and Tearing

I can explain the feelings I felt today, it was a rollercoaster or emotions. I felt distant from everyone I spoke to, the feeling was just there and took over around all my so called friends. It was almost as if no one knew me, although now that I think of it does anyone actually know me. I cried as I woke up this morning, I've been stressing so much. Pimples are appearing due to this stress and anxiety. I cry way too much, I ran to the bathroom on Friday during design because I was just in tears. I was overwhelmed and anxious and I just hate this feeling of failure. I feel like an incomplete mess for no reason yet every reason. As soon as I got home I had to make the call to the insurance for my failure back in February. I cried, so much, blazing hot tear; the good kind. I couldn't help the feeling that over came me. Failure. Disappointment. It seems to be a reoccurring feeling. No boys to update on, as usual. H confuses me, she has a problem with L and J but continues to be 100% with L and I hate when she tells both of us the same story, it makes me feel less than. She sometimes leaves me out which is fine I guess because she has other friends too but she makes me feel like I've don't something wrong or I'm less than. perhaps that explains my need to distance my self. I really want my licence. It’s killing my not having it, know that I failed not once but TWICE over minimal things; it’s almost as if the universe is against me which is for sure a cliche thing to say, but I really feel it. This year so far has really opened my eyes to how fake people can be, more so friends. I can't seem to talk to mom normally anymore, I love her to bits but I just feel like I've disappointed her. I can't seem to do anything to my own standard and its killing me. She doesn't expect much but I feel like I need to prove something to be more than what T was. I want be the person she can be proud of and give her the feeling that she did something right with me, as T went down the wrong path. I feel like such a failure in that department and it hurts. Ive wasted so much money on failure that it pains me. 

S and K are getting serious and Ive tried to hide the way I feel about it but I wasn't honest with my self. I still love him. I guess I'll always love him, fell for him when I was 10 and i’m now 16. Thats crazy. I can't know if its real love since its the closest ive gotten to actual love but it sure feels like as sort of love. I miss him. Now he’s with the hottest girl in school and well, I can't compete with that. Ive been replaced with B as his best friend and I can help but resent her for it, first E and now S. I guess I had to leg got eventually. I really wanted him to ask me the ball, I knew it was a long shot but I was hoping he'd come over and we’d talk till 2 In the morning on a Sunday night and forget about school the next day because were lost in conversation. Like last time. But no. the universe runs against me. I can't seem to find anyone I love or like. I just can't feel that way for anyone I already know. I want it to be instant, I wanna feel the attraction and chemistry between us from the first meeting. I want ‘After’. I want he feeling I got when I watched the movie.

I really want to read more this year, I had said that at the start of the year and I bought books but never followed through even thought the desire to read has been lingering in my mind the entire time. Ive been obsessed with ‘after’ the fan fiction, which I guess counts as reading a book I mean I read 3 of the books and have bought the book that I could start reading. I decided to take a break from after thought because I know I'll get obsessed again and I want to focus on the novel for class ‘Jasper Jones’ its pretty good but just hasn't hooked me in yet. But I'm enjoying reading the actual book. I really want to read ‘Pride and Prejudice’ I bought it today as well as ‘Withering Heights’. I decided to set a goal to read for at least half an hour or 3 chapters a day. I plan on reading a lot more this year as I want to improve my English. English is my favourite subject, Ive begun to prefer it over art these days which is quite a development. I got a merit in English for the first assessment and I hate myself for it. I should have worked harder, last years bad habits of settling for a merit kicked it and spoiled my excellence. Im just glad my desire to drink or get high hasn't increased due to my mental state.

This was obscenely long for a daily post but its the first one and I had a lot to get out. They won't often be this long...I hope. I have a crazy messy past that id love to talk about or answer questions about. #daddyissues bahhaaha.

[capybaracomics-blog]

Um. So sorry I haven’t posted in like 20 years. GET READY FOR THE NEXT COMIC BOIZZZZ!!!!!

[olivereliocorcordium1983]

Yup this is without a doubt me when it comes to cleaning my house XD 

I’m like I don’t wanna clean right now because if I clean and I think of a badass idea, I will lose it! then I will be stuck in my fanfic and I don’t wanna get stuck! 

*writes nonstop until it is time for bed* 

*looks around the room* 

“Damn this house is dirty I should definitely sweep the floor tomorrow.” 

[alex-ander-louis]

#throwback to when i could wear tons of layers and still freeze 🧤🧣❄☃️ .

[flamespeaks]

The ending of this semester..

I’m feeling like Kanye ready to dropout.

[gabor-fabian-g1]

Such is life 😃 #cestlavie #weather #mylifeinanutshell https://www.instagram.com/p/CAuvhJihnMn/?igshid=1nxh4bfek9mnu

[jew-but-not-really-blog]

Okay so one time in a football game my photography teacher asked me to stay and take pictures for the yearboom because it was the last home game, so I did. Like halfway through I was dying of thirst, and you had stayed for the game so I was looking for let's call her friend #1 to ask if she could buy me a water because the line at the snack bar was too long and I had to get back to taking some pictures. And I thought I saw friend #1 but it wasn't, but friend #2, whom I hadn't seen in almost a year because she moved away, was there and I kinda freaked out because I hadn't seen her in forever so I just went with it and I asked if she could buy me a water, so I gave her a five and freaked out because I didn't even say Hi. So like 5 minutes pass by and she texts me and I tell her I'm in the field and she gave me my water and my change, and I walked away and mentally beat myself up for not even saying a "Nice seeing you by the way" and I got home and lowkey cried myself to sleep for being a disgusting human being and I'm afraid of seeing her basically because I never said Hi to her once and if that isn't anxiety in a nutshell then idk what is

[missscriptor-blog]

Day 6/7 of the #blackandwhitechallenge. Seven days, no people, no explanations, challenge a new person each day. Today I challenge @misterfrancois. #scriptorcoquit #blackandwhiteonly #blackandwhitephoto #blackandwhite #blackandwhitephotography #randomshitisee #lunchhour #mylifeinanutshell #photography #foundobjects #truecooks #truenonnas #cheflife #writerslife #writersofinstagram

[nubianmami1]

In all things give thanks 🙏🏾 Yah is good and all the time . I am thankful for my family and friends . The greatest lessons I’ve learned in my 45+ years of life is that your worst enemy could be the one u love most ,I’ve also learned that the sacred power i hold over those who have wronged me is the power of forgiveness ,also the knowledge that good ,evil live side by side and that your enemies fuel you to succeed . So do not despair when people who know your secrets and failures betray u , laugh at you ,gossip about u or connive behind your back , it is what it is , use their betrayal to grow , everything happens for a reason . There is no success without hardship and as u work towards ur goals don’t shake ,u fall ! u get right up ! #inspiration #ebonyonyxportrayal #mylifeinanutshell #ebonyonyx #ebonyonyxportrayals #israel #naija #nigeria #blessed #thankful #christmas (at لـيـالـيـنـــا - Layalina) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6JOt_2p4q8/?igshid=9ygwiyjqtr79

[jjmoon-is-boss]

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[flamespeaks]

Battling thyself during quarantine 😅 #selfcare #workinghard #relaxing #quarantine #quarantinelife #thoughts #totd #thinking #mylifeinanutshell #selfdiscovery https://www.instagram.com/p/B-4uiKwFBDP/?igshid=18tre1s3wj7mg