#next thing i know its already 12 pm

[3idiotsandarainbow]

Day 28: Colloon (part 1)

Color + Balloon = Colloon

A Colloon, anyone?

- Mizu

[kitysugar]

fucked silly ~ bff satoru gojo x inexperienced reader ౨ৎ ♡

satoru is your best friend, and he has been since the first grade. he's never trusted anybody the way he trusts you, apart from get of course. its also abundantly clear that you have the biggest crush on him, its written all over your face; especially when he takes you out somewhere expensive, whenever he compliments you, and especially when he teases you. in true gojo fashion, he want's to tease you until you're bursting out of your seams with pent up frustration, he can't help it when his cock hardens whenever you make that cute pouty face at him whenever he does so! , and today is his lucky day, when he teases you just enough for you to finally come undone. word count: 7000 (whoops) inexperienced! sub! reader x Dom! Gojo. Lots of sweet talking, praise, orgasm control, oral sex, gentle choking, very soft corruption. gagging very very gentle sex. beginning of a relationship tehe. mutual love, confessions.

"gojoooo, my feet are starting to hurt" your face flushes for the nth time as the man behind you pushes you into yet another clothing store. the two of you had been walking for 3 and a half hours around the local Shibuya shopping center since 12 pm. Gojo insisted the two of you go shopping as your birthday was next week, but he couldn't join you on the day because he was busy. so, to make it up to you he decided to take you on an unlimited shopping spree. 

"but we haven't gone in here yetttt, come on there are so many cute things in here" the white headed man squeals as he pushes you at lightning speed, almost causing you to trip over yourself one too many times. 

As you walk into the store, your eyes widen at all the cute articles of clothing the shop carries. you instantly throw all your bags full of other clothes and jewelry right into gojo's arms and he happily stumbles to grab them out of your hands with an amused chuckle, readjusting his blindfold. Suddenly, the pain in your feet disappears when you run around the store, looking at everything they have. 

After shopping around the store for another hour, your eyes land on a gorgeous pastel blue dress with white lace tracing the hem. you turn around, eyes landing on gojo who's walking around in the mens section of the store. 

suddenly, a sneaky idea pops into your head and before you can even second guess yourself, you grab the dress off the hanger and hide it in the pile of clothing you had already picked out around the store and walk towards satoru. 

"you ready?" he senses you before you even say anything, turning around so his body faces yours. with a cheeky smile on your face, you grab his arm and pull him towards the check out area without saying a word. 

"You are one expensive girl, you know that?" his legs spread apart slightly in the back of the bmw his private export is driving the two of you in. you feel your face heat up at his action and quickly punch his arm with a scowl.

"and you're the one who puts up with this expensive girl, you know that?" your snarky reply causes satoru to laugh, throwing one of your many plushies right into your face.

As you arrive back at your apartment, gojo directs the driver to pull into a parking spot and wait for him to return. Just like the man he is, gojo is whining the entire way to your apartment, complaining about how heavy all your bags are. 

"oh shut up, I know you can carry so much more than that so stop complaining" you jokingly snap at him, resulting in a whine coming from behind you. You grab your keys from your purse and unlock your door, setting your purse on its designated hook and walking into your humble abode. Gojo walks into your room and sets all your newly bought items on the bed, you following in his footsteps. 

"its around 5:30 now, what time did you say the reservation is at?" you ask the white headed man and walk towards your closet, looking at all the clothing you have yet to wear from your last shopping trip. 

"I set the reservation time to 8, but if you need more time to get ready I can call them and have a time change arranged" he says, turning around to face you. You hum to yourself, debating on if that's enough time to do the makeup and hair styles you want to do. 

"That should be enough time, that gives me 2 hours to get ready." you turn around to speak to him directly. 

"okay, I'll be back in a couple hours, dress nicely, I'm taking you to the best restaurant in Shibuya for my best girl" his flirting sends a dagger straight to your heart, not knowing he was being 100% serious. 

"get out of here, you're taking up my precious time" You spin him around and push him towards your front door, ushering the man out of your apartment. 

"UH, as if im not worth your time, why do you heart me so, y/n?" you roll your eyes at him for the millionth time today and push him out the door, locking it behind him. 

it takes you a second to regain yourself,,, especially after spending half the day with this stress case. before you're running into the bathroom to take a shower, shaving every nook and cranny of your body. 

Your makeup and hair take up most of the time you have, giving you only 15 minutes to get dressed and put on your perfume. You dig through all your freshly bought clothing before yanking out the beautiful blue and white dress. You set it on your bed, looking at it. You even have an internal debate with yourself on if you should even wear it or not. 

he doesn't see me like that, there is no point in trying to impress him. 

You begin to overthink, your mind racing a million miles per minute. The two of you have gone out to fancy restaurants together before, so how is this time any different? Suddenly, gojo's words ring through your head, reminding you that he told you to dress nicely. The dress is on you in an instant, hugging you in all the right places. Your curves are more prominent and your boobs sit so nicely. You take a look at yourself in the mirror, noticing how good the dress makes you look. the blue makes your face pop and your eyes shine, confidence radiates off of you like there is no tomorrow. 

Just as you are about to grab your shoes, you hear a knock at your bedroom door. You roll your eyes with a smile on your face before opening it. Satoru stands in the doorway, a smile on his face and a dozen of your favorite flowers in his hands. 

"thought I would let myself-" he cuts his sentence short. You tilt your head in wonder as the tall man in front of you raises his free hand from his pocket to grab the top of his blindfold, pulling it downwards so he can get a good look at you. 

His eyes trail up and down your body slowly, making your thighs clamp together and blush rise to your face.. and satoru notices your actions, but decides not to comment on it.

"give me a spin" a smile creeps onto his face as he brings his index finger into the air, signaling you to spin. You giggle to yourself before spinning around slowly, making sure gojo gets a good look at you. Your eyes lock onto his, and you can't help but smile up at him before shaking your head, another laugh forces its way out of your throat. 

"stop staring at me satoru, we're gonna be late" you walk towards him, grabbing the flowers out of his hands and walk past him and into the kitchen, placing the pretty flowers onto your kitchen table. you make a mental note to yourself to put them into water before you go to bed tonight. All gojo can do is clear his throat and brush a hand through his hair, trying not to mess it up too much before pulling his blindfold back over his eyes. 

suddenly, a realization hits him-

"hey wait, I don't remember buying that for you"

The restaurant is beautiful, it's one neither of you have gone to before. there is a big fish tank that compliments the side of the wall as you walk in. the lighting isn't too bright, which is nice since you don't normally like any sort of overhead lighting. The tables in the place are very nicely placed, and there are more private areas in some of the corners of the restaurant as well. Gojo does all the talking for the both of you as you look around at the place in awe. The smell in the building is phenomenal and your mouth waters at the sight of a waiter bringing out someone's dish. 

The hostess takes the two of you into one of the mentioned private corners, placing two menus onto the table before turning her body to gojo to talk to him. 

"im sorry, I'm aware this is very unprofessional of me but.. are you satoru gojo?" she asks and your ears perk up with interest. Gojo doesn't turn his head to face her as she speaks and answers the woman with a blunt

"yes I am" leaving no room for much small talk, but that doesn't seem to shake the hostess very much. 

"oh my god, I just wanna say you're so handsome... blah blah blah" you then decide to tune the two of them out, not wanting to accidentally upset yourself. You can tell by the way gojo moves that he's enjoying the attention, but isn't flirting back, which isn't really like him, but you don't complain. 

a minute goes by of the hostess rambling before gojo shuts down the conversation by asking for the waiter, leaving the hostess to shut her trap in embarrassment before walking off to grab the waiter, her cheeks red. Your ears turn back on as she walks away. 

"done flirting?" you ask, only half joking. He looks at you with a smirk before he responds, taking the fork out of the napkin and plays with it. 

"jealous?" you don't respond to him, all you do is roll your eyes and look down at the table. 

"don't be." it takes you a second to register the man's words before your head shoots up, your eyes widening in question. 

"what does that mean?" gojo laughs at your reaction and shrugs. truth be told, he's known of your little crush on him for a while now, and to say that he's flattered is an understatement. In true gojo fashion, he's been playing with you. not with your feelings, of course not! he cares way too much about you and would rather die than to hurt you in any way possible,,,, except when you're writhing underneath him as you scream his name. he's been letting the pent up frustration you have build over time until you're just about ready to burst. 

He wants you to be the one to confess first. 

"I'm just telling you that there is no need to be jealous!" his voice sounding hurt and his arms dramatically fall onto the table

"do you not trust me? im offended.. and I thought we were friends!" gojo over exaggeratedly look away from you, crossing his arms over his chest, causing you to laugh out loud, covering your mouth in the process. 

"oh stop it, we are! I was just wondering" you bring your hands out and reach over the table, grabbing one of gojo's arms and pulling it down, trying to stop him from making a scene. 

A little while later, the food the two of you had ordered is halfway gone and you're both talking each other's ear off. A comfortable silence clouds the table as you both stare at each other.. kind of, your head in your palms. Gojo doesn't want to ruin the comfortable atmosphere the two of you have created, but he has to tell you.

"y/n, I have to tell you something" his words instantly make your stomach drop and your palms sweat, your head tilts, signaling him to continue. 

"I'm leaving for a couple months on a mission, so I wont be able to see or talk to you for a little while" your smile falters and your palms move from your face to your lap. You look down, thinking of your next words to say. You understood that his job as a sorcerer was dangerous, which causes him to disappear for a long amounts of time, but with your growing feelings, it gets more and more difficult not being able to see him when he has to leave. 

"when will you be back?" your voice is small when you speak, signaling that you're somewhat upset. Gojo crosses his arms across his chest and leans back, getting more comfortable before breaking the news to you.

"this mission could last up to six months at the most, I leave in four days" the more you spend less and less time together the stronger he gets. you feel selfish for even thinking it, but you wish that he could spend more time with you instead of having to go out and exercising cursed spirits and saving people. of course you don't want him to quit saving people, but you just wish you could see him more than a couple times every 3-4 months. 

"just come back safe, that's all I care about" you say, looking back up with a smile, trying your best not to seem upset. an awkward silence looms over the table. 

"im fulllll I can't eat anything else ugh, we're gonna have to come back here some time" you say, trying to push aside the tense atmosphere. gojo completely ignores your sentence

"your dress, I got that for you today, right?" he says, leaning forward to get a closer look at you. You look down at your article of clothing as he mentions it. 

"yeah, you did! I thought it was a pretty color, so I just threw it in with everything else I got" you run your hands over the fabric of the dress, you look back up at the man across the table. 

"it is a very beautiful dress, but" his sentence is cut short. you tilt your head to the side in question as he grabs his glass of water, drawing it to his mouth. 

"hm?" you question in a hum. Before he can take a sip, he speaks. his words shifting the atmosphere in the entire building. 

"it would look better off of you" he says, proceeding to take a sip of his drink. all air was sucked from your lungs and your face instantly changes color into the deepest shade of red. your wide eyes stare at the man in front of you. up until now, he has never flirted with you, let alone anything remotely dirty, and his words have your thighs rubbing against each other within less than a second. 

there is absolutely no way he just said that to me

"stop messing with me," you tell him, completely trying to ignore what he just said to you, looking away from him, trying to focus on something else- anything else. 

"how much did everything come to anyways, I feel kind of bad for getting so much" you question, trying to get onto a different topic. 

"who says I was messing with you.. and as if I would tell you that. it wasn't even that much. even if it was, the price would be worth it" he finishes his drink, his voice making your head spin. 

after gojo pays the bill, the two of you head out of the restaurant, taking his private escort back to your apartment. the car ride consisted of the two of you singing karaoke at the top of your lungs with the windows rolled down. a few passer-bys saw you two going crazy singing TGIF by Katy Perry. 

after arriving back at your apartment, gojo decides to walk you inside, grabbing your purse from out of your hands and unlocking the door for you. You step inside the apartment, taking your shoes off and kicking them by the front door. 

"god, today was so much fun, thank you for taking me out satoru" you stretch your arms above your head, popping your back. the sound of the front door closes. turning around, you notice gojo's hands are in his pockets. he shrugs at you, a small smile adoring his face. 

"anything for you" the silence is awkward again, the clock ticking a quarter passed 10. you play with the hem of your short dress, attempting to think of something to say. 

"I should probably head out, i'm pretty busy these next few days so.." his sentence trails off. you nod your head in response, still not able to come up with anything to say to him. 

Gojo takes his hands out of his pockets, throwing you the most adorable peace sign, his smile growing bigger. 

"i'll try and stop by before I leave okay?I'll see you later, y/n" his hand wraps around the knob, and the sound of the creaky door snaps you out of your haze. just as he's about to close the door behind him on his way out, you call out to him.

"toru!!" you speed walk to the front door, grabbing the frame and push it open so you can see him. 

"hm?" he turns around, facing you fully, all ears on you. 

"I have something I need to tell you" you look down towards the floor, too embarrassed to say it directly to him. 

satoru knows what's coming, he can feel it. his heart skips a beat as his cock starts to twitch slightly. even though he can't actually see it, your face looks so innocent and nervous, he almost feels bad for making you confess first. he knows how shy you get when it comes to feelings or anything that involves sexual activities. and he lives off of teasing you. seeing how red your face gets whenever his body is too close to yours or how you shy away from him whenever he compliments you. it never fails to make his dick hard whenever you get so shy. 

gojo grips the top of the door frame, leaning onto the side of it. you can't seem to get your thoughts to form a coherent sentence, so you say the first thing that comes to mind.

"I really like you satoru.." your voice is so silent, you could barely hear it your self. of course gojo heard you, but he teases you anyways. 

"I like you to y/n" your frustrated huff almost makes him bust out laughing, you're too adorable. Your hands form fists as you shake your head from side to side. 

"no, that's not what I mean." 

"oh? how did you mean it then?" his voice is mesmerizing and it feels like you're going to explode trying to tell him how you feel. 

"god this is so stupid. gojo I love-" your sentence is harshly cut short as the freakishly tall man bends down and cups the back of your head, forcing your lips to collide. you gasp into his mouth before wrapping your arms around his shoulders. with his free hand, he softly grips your waist, pushing you back into the apartment, slamming the door closed with one of his feet. 

Gojo moves his hand from your waist, pressing it against the wall behind you before gently pressing you into it. your hands find their way into his hair, tugging gently. Satoru groans into your mouth at your action, pressing his body into yours. Your face feels hot and your clit begins to throb as you feel every part of his body against your own. Satoru moves his hands to your waist, making you grind your hips into him. You sigh into him, but all of a sudden your mind starts to go into overdrive as you pull your lips away from his.

Gojo takes this opportunity to move his face to your neck, kissing down sweetly at your skin. His lips feel so soft and warm, but you instantly let out a partially loud yelp when starts to suck on the spot behind your ear. Your eyes close on instinct, your hands remaining tangled in his white hair. 

You feel his hands slide from your waist, down to your thighs and all of a sudden everything seems overstimulating and fast. 

"wait wait wait-" your voice laced with heavy breaths. Satoru instantly detaches from your neck, one of his hands moving to cup your cheek in worry.

"what's wrong love? did I hurt you?" his concern makes you smile softly. You trail your hands down to hold his face, reassuring him that you're okay. 

"I've never- I mean I haven't experienced, or had... I feel so dumb" you sigh in-between sentences, embarrassment laced in your tone of voice. one of your hands comes down to play with the tie of the suit he's wearing, fidgeting with the cloth. Gojo chuckles under his breath, biting his bottom lip slightly. 

"I know baby. Do you want me to go slow?" His words make you lightheaded. 

"if that's okay, i've never done anything with anyone so I don't really know what i'm doing.." you whisper the last bit of your sentence, looking at his face. He smiles at you, grabbing your hands and kissing your fingertips. 

"come here" he says, lifting you into the air like a princess, one arm under your knees, the other behind your back all in one swift, quick motion. You squeal in surprise, your arms wrapping around his neck. 

"toru what about the carrrr" you kick your legs in his hold, giving his cheek and jaw light kisses

"I waved him off before I got out of the car, don't worry about it hun" he turns his head, giving you a quick kiss on your lips before pushing your bedroom door open with his foot. Gojo gently sets your body down on the bed, crawling over you, both of his hands planted on the sides of your body. You giggle again, reaching your hands out to wrap around his neck, pulling him down for a kiss.

"you're so beautiful" he whispers right before his lips meet yours, soft and warm. your fingers find their way to his hair, gently playing with his locks as he presses his body into yours. his tongue finds its way into your mouth, exploring it. you sigh deeply into him as he presses his body against yours, slowly grinding his hips into your core. your sigh turns into a hushed moan as the grip in his hair turns into pulling. 

His tongue leaves your mouth as he looks at you with a sly smirk. his face moves down towards your neck, leaving sweet kisses along your jaw and neck. one of his hands comes up to cup your cheek, caressing it with his thumb before trailing his lips down in-between your collar bones. with every gentle kiss, your breathing gets heavier and heavier. 

Satoru reaches the top of your dress after kissing every nook and cranny of your neck and collar bones. He sits up and your hands fall to your sides while his warm palm leaves your cheek. He smiles down at you. 

One of his hands comes down to your thigh, sliding up and under your dress slowly to meet the hem of your underwear. you sniffle a whine with the back of your palm. 

"let me hear you baby" he says, his thumb finding your clit through your damp underwear, tracing tender circles. you move your hand away from your mouth to cover one of your eyes, obeying his words. His thumb presses down a little harder, giving you the friction you need. With every circle he traces, the louder your whines get. He takes your growing whines and removes his thumb from your clothed clit. 

You sit up on your forearms, trying to see what his next move is. He uses both of his hands to grab your panties, looking up at you before removing them. 

"is this okay?" he questions, pulling them down just a hair. your mouth doesn't move, so your head nods up and down for an answer. He pulls your underwear down and below your ankles, taking them completely off and tossing them to the ground next to your bed. then, he hovers back over you, using one of his forearms as leverage to hold himself up right above you, the other hand tracing up your thigh once more before finding your bare pussy. 

Two of his fingers resume massaging your clit, this time with more force. You moan louder this time, looking directly at gojo, wishing you could look into his eyes. 

As if he read your mind, he leans his head down slightly so that he can slide his blindfold up and over his head with the arm that's holding him up, slipping off his blindfold, revealing his crystal blue eyes that stare into yours deeply. 

"wanna see your pretty face" he says and just like that, his long fingers slide into you, curling up and hitting your sweet spot instantly. Your back slightly arches off the bed and your hands fly to his back, nails digging crescent moon shapes into his skin through his suit. 

"oh my god toru" his fingers gently pump in and out of you, curling up to touch your g-spot over and over again. you shut your eyes, pulling him closer to you.

"yeah? you're so adorable, can't wait until you're screamin' underneath me" 

he watches your face contort into one of pleasure with a smile gracing his. his fingers work faster inside you, the only sounds being heard were your moans and the wet noises coming from your pussy, and gojo loves it. He loves hearing all the pretty noises you make just by fucking you with his fingers. One particular press down onto your sweet spot has you much louder than you already were, and he can instantly tell it was your orgasm approaching. 

he kisses your forehead and takes his fingers out of you. before you can protest, he's forcing your body to sit up straight. the sudden change from being gentle to somewhat forceful has you turned on even more. He moves your body to partially sit on his lap, his hands finding the zipper on the back of your dress and pulls it down, unhooking your bra right afterwards. 

You help him take off your dress and bra by reaching your arms above your head. He slips it off with ease and tosses it onto the floor next to your forgotten panties. His lips are on yours in a heartbeat, his pace quickening in the most tender way possible. His hand finds its way to the back of your head, lowering your body back down on the bed and breaking the kiss before you can fully lay down. He takes in the sight of you bare. As he's staring at you, he loosens his tie and takes off his suit jacket and unbuttoning the first few buttons of his dress shirt. 

After he partially undresses himself, he grabs one of your knees and pulls it away from the other, lowering himself directly in your center. He comes down for another kiss, this one hungrier than the last. You reach for him, putting your hands inside his halfway undone shirt and wrapping them around his back, feeling his muscles under your fingers. He grinds his growing bulge into you, a moan erupts within the back of your throat. The hand that rests on your knee moves quickly towards your waist, forcing you to grind on him the way he's doing you. A small wet patch forms on his pants the more your bodies grind together. Satoru bites your bottom lip softly before breaking the kiss, only to start lowering his head down to your chest, never breaking eye contact with you, his hair covering a little of his face. 

He opens his mouth and licks one of your perky nipples. He does this a few times before wrapping his lips around it, sucking the bud in-between his teeth. Your moan sends shivers down his back, only fueling him to suck a little harder. His hand on your waist comes to fondle your other breast, pinching and massaging your other sensitive nipple. You throw your head back as your nails dig into his skin, sliding up into his hair and tugging on it rather hard. The action causes satoru to groan, shaking his head back and forth slightly with a cunning smile. The man above you then lets go of your nipple with a wet pop, moving in-between your breasts and trailing wet kisses down your sternum and passed your belly and abdomen before he stops right in front of your clit. 

His hand on your boob retakes its place on your knee, pushing it down on the bed so you can't close your legs together. 

He looks into your eyes, and without having to say anything, as if you read his mind, you nod your head quicker than you can even think. giving him the answer he needs. With your silent words, he presses a chaste kiss on your clit before darting his tongue out and licking a stripe up your already wet pussy, your bundle of nerves pulsating. 

His lips wrap around your clit, beginning to suck, eating you out. Your head feels light as his mouth works wonders on you. you instinctively tug his hair, slightly grinding your core onto his face. Your moans of delight have him groaning the vibrations ringing throughout your entire body. 

He laps at you as if you were the sweetest thing he's ever tasted, his hand on your knee moving to slide two of his long fingers inside your hole, curing them upwards to that familiar spot that has your back arching off the mattress and right into him. Even though you aren't looking at him, his blue eyes don't falter from watching all the pretty faces you make while he gently tears you apart. his fingers pumping in and out of you, caressing your sweet spot over and over while he eats you out.

Your walls squeeze his fingers. it's to be expected really, since you've never been touched before. but gojo is still pretty shocked with how tight your pussy is, and it's making him so much more obsessed with you. 

"fuck, you're so tight, how on earth are you going to take my cock if you can barely take my fingers, hmm?" he doesn't even move his mouth away from you, his breath fanning your heat.

"oh fuck, please-" your jaw slacks open and your eyes squeeze closed. Gojo creeps back over you, his thumb coming to rub on your clit. Your pussy is beginning to sound wetter, and your hole tightens even more around his fingers. 

"look at me sweetheart" your eyes have never flown open so fast in your life, immediately looking straight into gojo's. A sly smile grows as he looks at you. 

"you about to cum? You're squeezin' me so tight" his sentence ends in a chuckle. you nod your head in response, but that doesn't cut it for the white haired man above you. 

"words love, wanna hear you say it" 

"yes toru, im so close please let me cum please please please" your high pitched whines while you speak make him just about bust in his pants, but he keeps his cool. 

"hold it." you shake your head at his command, trying to hold in your fast-approaching orgasm. your palms trail towards his back once more, digging your nails into his skin as leverage to keep you grounded, as if you were going to float away. his fingers are ruthless, your wetness coming to leak down your ass cheeks and beginning to pool onto your bedding below you. 

an overstimulating feeling comes rushing over you, and it feels like you're going to spill over

"please let me cum I can't- hold it, I need to please toru ple- please" your hiccuped moans become louder.

"you can cum now baby, let me hear you" with his words, you tip over that edge and his fingers make one last thrust inside you, massaging your g-spot over and over as you cum. your juices squirt all over his hand and down into the mattress below you, your knees attempt to close around his body as you finish with a particularly loud whine. 

"good girl, you did such a good job for me" you take a minute to calm down, holding his body close to yours as you finish around his long fingers, it's almost like he's trying to rip you in half. his fingers slide out of your dripping hole as he wipes his fingers on his nice dress pants before cupping the back of your head, coming down to have his lips meet yours. 

The kiss is hungry; desperate as he sits up, you follow after him trying not to break the kiss. your hands move to work on the remaining buttons on his shirt, fumbling with the fabric. Gojo's hands come down to work on his belt, unfastening it quickly. you finish unbuttoning the last button and slide his shirt off of him as he takes his belt off, the both of you throwing the articles of clothing elsewhere in the room. you break the kiss as he goes to stand up off the bed, unbuttoning his pants and taking them off, only leaving his boxers. you come up and loop your fingers under the last article of clothing he has on, looking straight up into his eyes. You wait a second before pulling them down, his hard cock coming up to slap his abdomen. your mouth dries at the sight of it. 

He really wasn't joking when he asked how you were going to take his cock huh?

Gojo looks down at you as you lean back, so he takes this opportunity and leans down, planting both his hands on the bed and stares at you. he slowly creeps towards you on his hands and knees, your back hitting the bed frame as he towers over you. 

"come here" he says, grabbing your thigh and pulls you to lay down on the bed underneath him. gasping at his action, you look up at him, noticing how much taller he is than you, taking in how big his hands are as they wrap around your thigh. 

Gojo then moves his hand to his cock, gripping it in one hand and pumping it a couple times. He looks into your eyes as he does so, taking in your appearance. Your hair is slightly messy and tangled, your eyes looking at his full of love and admiration, his eyes telling the same. 

"toru?" his name twirling off your tongue

"yes pretty girl?" he puts the head of his cock up to your pussy, dragging it across your slit as he coats it in your wetness. Your face heats up in a pretty pink. your eyes locked onto one another as you finally let out the words you've been meaning to for the past couple years

"I love you" your hands are on his shoulders as he pushes his tip into you, hissing as he stretches your hole and stills.

"I love you too beautiful" you feel like your heart is going to burst at his words, pulling his body down into yours, hiding your face in the crook of his neck. Gojo starts to push inside you slowly, more painful hissing coming from you is the only thing being heard. 

"deep breaths baby, doing such a good job for me" you grip onto him tightly as he pushes the remainder of his dick inside of you, his hips on yours. his free hand finds your waist as he keeps you in place. your breathing is heavy, but he decides not to move his his yet, waiting for you to get used to the stretch. a couple minutes go by as the pain subsides and your hips start to move against his

"toru.. please" he takes your words and starts grinding into you slowly, letting you adjust a little more before moving his hips, taking his dick out of you slowly. he turns his head and looks into your eyes and kisses your nose, cheeks, and then your lips. suddenly, he thrusts back into you, fast, bottoming out inside you as your shriek of pleasure goes straight into his mouth. 

chuckling, he begins to thrust his cock in and out of you at a medium pace, keeping a steady rhythm as he fucks himself into you. 

"fuck you're so tight" you whimper at his words, his thrust never faltering as your arms and pussy squeeze him tightly. you move your head to the side, giving him the opportunity to suck deep, purple bruises into your neck and collar bones. Your breasts jiggle with every thrust. one of your hands comes down from his back to the side of your head to grip the sheets next to you. Gojo sees this action and decides to move his hand from your waist to interlock his fingers with yours, holding your hand as he fucks you into the mattress. 

his hand swallows yours as he grips it. 

one thrust in particular has you screaming, crushing his hand as you throw your head back, your mouth open as you moan his name over and over again. a chant that is music to satoru's ears as he moans into your neck. 

"so much, feels so good please toru' don't stop" you choke out, moaning louder and louder. 

"Yeah? tell me all about it sweet girl" satoru praises you, edging you to continue

"so big, m' so full, it's so much oh my god" your back arches off the bed as you continue to moan. satoru lowers his face to your ear and bites your lobe, breathing heavy and letting out husky, low groans that have your pussy getting wetter. 

Your legs start to shake, opening wider for him to thrust deeper inside of you, and it works, his cock brushes your sweet spot in the most delicious way, and it has you screaming, writhing underneath him. 

Your walls squeeze him impossibly tighter, if that's even possible, resulting in louder moans erupting from the back of his throat and directly into your ear. he lets go of your hand and out of nowhere, his blindfold appears in his hand as he stuffs it in your mouth, muffling your sobs and cries. 

"don't want anybody to hear how much of a dirty girl you are, do you, takin' my cock so prettily?" he taunts, your eyes meet his as you cup his cheek, feeling his skin under your fingertips. his palm comes down to the base of your neck, wrapping around your throat ever so lightly, barely even choking you. 

satoru's hips snap against yours rhythmically, but he can barely control himself before he grips the headboard above you, fucking you deeper and your eyes squeeze shut as your whole body starts to shake and your arms are wrapping around his waist. 

You start to nod your head, the words “yes" and "please" being heard through your makeshift gag. gojo feels you flutter around his cock and he himself has been holding back his orgasm so the two of you can finish together. He looks down at you, making eye contact as he speaks. 

"you gonna cum sweetheart?" you nod your head, your eyes begging for release. 

"cum baby, you can do it, i'm right here I got you." your nails dig into his back, scratching his skin over and over again. you close your eyes and turn your head. Gojo's hand comes down to cup your face, turning your head to face him.

"look at me baby, cum with me, such a good girl huh?" your eyes meet his as you flutter around his length, creaming all over his cock as he thrusts into one last time, shooting warm ropes of cum into you so very deeply. 

"fuck, feel's so good " he throws his head back with a loud groan only for a second, then he's hovering back over you, taking the blindfold out of your mouth. he's quick to press his lips onto yours, kissing you so softly compared to earlier. he kisses you a couple more times before painting your entire face in kisses that are so light and gentle, it makes you wonder if this is the same man who was just fucking you into the mattress and forcing his blindfold down your throat. 

you giggle at his actions as he pulls his softening dick out of you. he grabs your thigh and spreads your legs, watching his cum spill out of you. 

"fuck, you're unbelievable y/n" he praises you again, a smile growing on his lips, his eyes filled with admiration. 

"I'll be right back love, don't move" he says suddenly, getting up off the bed and running into the other parts of the house, his butt jiggling as he runs and you can't help but laugh. He walks back into the room with a damp washcloth, a glass of water and a towel. You pout as he hands you the glass of water and starts to clean you up, making sure all the wetness and cum is cleaned up off of you before drying you off. 

After he's finished, he ushers you up, taking the first and second blanket off your bed and throwing them into the corner of the room to be washed later, going into your closet and pulling out two blankets. 

Satoru wraps you in one of them, and wraps himself in the other. the two of you lay down next to one another, your limbs tangled and sore as you stare into each other's eyes. He pushes a strand of hair behind your ear, leaning in and giving you a kiss filled with so much love, you swear you can die on the spot. 

"I wasn't lying,, about what I said earlier." you tell him, not breaking eye contact. 

"I know angel, neither was i." 

[mee30p]

Bourbon and Cigarettes

A/N: this was lowkey nice to write and for once it's not angst i know crazy right? i am the queen of angst i fear like majority of my work is angst so enjoy this purely fluff fic!

(Prompt is from my lovley friend @dixondisease, Go give them lots of love please. The prompt is HERE.)

☽ Summary: After seeing Daryl get hugged by another woman Reader gets jealous and decides to self sooth with a whole bottle of Jack Daniels when they inevitably end up at Daryl's front steps.

☽ Warnings: Drinking, Swearing, nothing else really this is just fluff. Reader and Daryl aren't in a official relationship.

☽ Word count: 1k

You knew you’d had enough by the fourth full glass of Jack Daniels but God it was calling your name like a sweet siren song. What set you off? Well only something so simple as seeing the man you so desperately wanted to be yours being hugged by another woman. You don’t even know her name but you know what millions of things you are wanting to do to her, Daryl hadn’t noticed your jealous glares even as you stood 2 feet away from the hunter. 

It wasn’t even that late at night when you started, if you remember correctly it was 10:00 pm when you took your first sip. Now it’s 12 am and you find yourself walking down the streets of Alexandria, bottle of Jack in hand and a cigarette in the other. Your mind doesn’t know where you’re heading but your body does make its way in auto pilot to the house that you’ve walked to numerous times, almost too many to count. You eventually stumble to Daryl's porch but for once you hesitate to knock even though you know Daryls awake the man never fucking sleeps. Instead you settle down on the grass right next to the pavement, it’s cold and wet from condensation but you’re too plastered to care or even notice. “Mmh where the fuck is my bottle” You mutter drunkenly as you pat the grass beside you feeling for the bottle of Jack when you finally find it you take a long swig before letting out a small giggle.

“Girlie what the fuck are ya doin?” Daryl says with a small huff of laughter but his face is painted with concern as he spots the almost empty bottle laying next to your head. You grin drunkenly at his presence and let out a small giggle as you sit up quickly. “Daryl, i was wonderin’ when.. You were gonna come out or if i was gonna av’ to crawl through the window” You slur as you stumble upwards and towards Daryl like bambi on Ice. 

“Jesus woman, how much do you ad’ to drink?” Daryl says as he catches you as you stumble over your own feet, He grabs you by the waist with two big hands. “Careful dolly” He mutters, a nickname he only uses when you’re drunk out of your mind and you’ll hopefully never remember him uttering such words. As you sway forward and backwards you giggle softly and grin at his face, in this moment you find Daryl beautiful, well you always do but in this moment it is magnified by a million and you can’t help but tell him. “You’re so pretty y’know that?” You say with a giggle in between words as Daryl walks you slowly and carefully up the stairs. “You’re hammered” The archer deflects as he looks at your drunken grin you’re clearly checking him out and he so badly wants you to stop because he is already whipped for you. As Daryl walks you up the stairs to his room you keep tripping over your own feet he sighs stopping to scoop you up bridal style in one quick scoop.

As you feel your feet leave the ground it elicits yet another drunken giggle which Daryl quickly shushes as he isn’t alone in the house. “Shhh dolly, ya gonna wake up everyone” He whispers so softly into your ear it’s painfully sexy. You pout at his words because in your drunken mind all your hearing is that he doesn’t want you to speak again. “What’s th’ pout for?” He says, shaking his head as the bedroom door opens slowly. You fail to keep the smirk off your face when he speaks. “Nothing..” You slur with a cheeky grin as he sets you down on the bed. “Y’know I love you?” You sigh as he helps you take off your boots, you stroke his hair which makes him shiver not that Daryl Dixon would utter that fact to a soul dead or alive. “Who was that woman that hugged you today? That pissed me off y’know?” You keep talking, if you remember this tomorrow you’ll probably stay in your house for the rest of eternity. “I can’t remember her name, I was just helping her fix some shit.. Why?” Daryl mutters suspiciously as he grabs your legs, swinging them into bed. “Good, so she ain’t tryna fuck you?” You say very bluntly, God you lose all filters when drunk. Especially the filter that muffles your huge crush on Daryl. “Tch.. nah” Daryl says shaking his head with a slightly annoyed look. “Good…s’ my job ya  know?” You giggle slowly as you look up at Daryl who has a tint of blush on his cheeks. 

“Yeah baby?” Daryl says with a small smirk as he lays you down slowly and moves the doona over you. At his words you grin harder than you’ve ever grinned in your life and you nod back enthusiastically. “Yah”

Daryl runs his big hand through your hair gently and tenderly for a moment as he looks down at you, then your lips then back to your eyes. God he wants to kiss you so bad but he wouldn’t dare not while you’re the only one drunk. Almost as if you’d read his mind you stare at his lips then his beautiful eyes again and giggle before speaking. “I wanna kiss you so bad right now but i know sober me would be so embarrassed”

“Yeah you would” Daryl says after a few moments of delay as he moves to his side of the bed shrugging off his vest, and jeans before crawling into bed next to you. You’d already passed out the second he’d stopped talking five seconds ago, Daryl didn’t even make it half a foot away from you before you were out cold. Daryl chuckles quietly before freezing as he feels you shuffle closer tucking yourself into his like a puzzle made for eachother. Daryl’s hands automatically find your waist and he pulls your cloer before slowly surrendering to sleep even if he wants to stay up all night looking at your beautiful face as you sleep.

“Good night dolly.. Love ya” Daryl whispers so quietly a pin drop would be louder. Almost as if you’d heard him from deep sleep you smile softly.

[twig-tea]

GL odds and ends 6 October 2024

I haven't been as good at posting about shows as I wanted to be, so I'm trying a round-up format instead because it feels like a lot of GLs skirt under the radar. It's exciting that we're in a time when there's enough GL airing that it's worth doing a round-up! This was a great week for the lesbians to figure themselves out, so it feels like a good week to start. No idea how regularly I'll do this, need to figure out a cadence that makes sense.

Currently airing (with thoughts up to Oct 6):

Reverse 4 U 5/8 (Thai, Tuesdays 1:00 PM EDT, Netflix / YouTube) This week the girls finally sorted themselves and we got set up for the main plot to start next week. I was initially really stoked about this one and then a little bummed that it's not taking it's very cool premise and the stakes it establishes as seriously as it could be, but I'm still hoping it will start to have real stakes in the main plot stretch.

The Two of Us s2 ep 6/6 END (Thai, 29 Aug-3 Oct 2024, YouTube) It was so great seeing women in their 40s being romantic together but I did not love the plot of this one; I find their romantic conflicts too juvenile (lots of easily-triggered jealousy). The moments they're being sweet are great though.

Unlock Your Love ep 4/8 (Thai, Wednesdays, GagaOOLala / YouTube [cut version]) This is the first episode that this series felt a little more assured; I liked the series this production company produced with a short run time, it feels like this series has been worse off for its longer episodes. That being said, when these couples get to do their thing like in this episode, they have good chemistry.

Chaser Game W s2 ep 3/8 (Japanese, Thursdays 12:30 PM EDT, GagaOOLala) @lurkingshan is already doing a great summary of this week to week in her JQL weekly round-up!

Affair the series ep 6/8 (Thai, Fridays 11:15 AM EDT, iQIYI/ YouTube) Finally! I liked that it was Ek pointing out that Wan was unhappy the entire time she was gone that finally got Pleng to give in to her desire to be with Wan. This show is so melodramatic but the emotional threads follow and the character motivations are clear and consistent; I'm enjoying it in spite of not loving melodramatic storylines in general. It helps that the acting in this one is excellent.

The Loyal Pin ep 10/16 (Thai, Sundays 12:15 PM EDT, YouTube) Glad we finally got confirmation of Patt's history! And I'm relieved Anin knows she has an ally, though I feel like it's given her false confidence that worries me. These two are stressing me out by how bad they are at being careful but I do love how desperate they are for each other, as well as how beautiful this show is.

Red Whisper ep 2/8 (Korea, Wednesdays and Sundays, YouTube) Starting with cheating is not my fave but is par for the course with these SukFilm short series; my fave so far has been their first GL so if you haven't seen that yet I'd honestly recommend that instead.

Recent One-offs

Out of Breath (re-release in a bingeable version; Korean, YouTube) Highly recommended! Also the creator, Soo not Sue, announced she's working on another series to hopefully air before the end of the year, which I am super stoked about.

The Suffering of Xiqing Mountain (Chinese (censored), YouTube)

Sastra film app YouTube channel has several short Cambodian GL series that come out weekly Honestly they are not to my taste but I don't like gatekeeping GL especially from smaller markets. I check in on these time to time and if there are any that I think are great I'll give them a shout-out

Ditto above with JPC media YouTube channel for Thai GL shorts if there are any that stand out to me I'll say so

Recently ended that I haven't had the wherewithal to write about:

Hoshikuzu Telepath (fansub) Thank you to @yuiyuihan for your hard work making it possible to watch this series! I I haven't read the original manga but I do know they changed the kiss communication to a forehead rest; Unsurprised that this adaptation, starring idols in the same group, would be left ambiguous in terms of whether their feelings are friendly or romantic. I liked what this series was trying to say, but in all honestly didn't love the execution. It's too bad because I absolutely love the concept of an alien being helped by girls obsessed with building rockets.

The Secret of Us 8 eps [complete] (24 Jun-15 Aug 2024, YouTube) I first included this in my recommendations from the summer and then retracted, but I ended up liking this series and then never updated again. So to set the record straight: Though it lost me in the middle, the ending on this series won be back over. I really appreciated the way this series handled filial piety and balancing that against personal happiness. I appreciated SO MUCH that the main characters decided together how to handle Lada's situation with her mother. I finally understood too late that Earn believed the lies Lada's mother told her in ep1, and that affected some of their decisions in the middle of the series. I still think the execution was wobbly, but the acting and chemistry between the two leads carries this series through. This has some of the best domestic fluff in any GL, as well as my favourite GL counter lift to date. And it's gorgeous. Tentatively recommended with the caveat that you do have to either enjoy or power through the melodrama in the middle.

Starting soon:

Apple My Love, Thai, 12 October, GagaOOLala

Pluto, Thai, 19 October, VIU

The Nipple Talk, Taiwanese, 1 November GagaOOLala

My Ex's Wedding [in theatres in Thailand 14 November]

Petrichor, Thai, 23 November, TBD

[lunarw0rks]

cod dudes with a nurse y/n but make it lowkey realistic: bc lets be real, after a 12 hr shift you do NOT want to hang out with friends, party, or socialize. ur feet hurt from walking and standing all day, your ears are tired from hearing the IV pumps beep all day, and the smell of C.diff makes u want to vomit. nurse y/n just wants to sit down or lay on the couch and be non-verbal... Gaz, price, and rudy are the sweetest. they pick that up real quick after mistakenly asking "hows ur shift" and y/n trauma dumped them for 5 hrs straight. they don't immediately ask for hugs and kisses bc they know u overwhelmed. they just pour u a cup of wine and sit next to you until YOU talk to them first. you lowkey gossip with them on ur day off or randomly be like "omg look at that dude over there next to the parking spot its giving edema". and then theres soap and ghost. Soap is clingy, yall really think hes gonna survive 12hrs of not seeing you? this man was waiting by the door at 7:15 pm. on the dot. wants to hug and kiss you and tell you about his day. but ur just so. fucking. tired. you tried to be as responsive but it always ended up with a tired "mhm". He legit got upset a few times but he'd be a good sport about it tho. eventually he caught on a couple of weeks in and now he just comes and hugs you from behind, kisses ur face, and cuddles you silently (AFTER you throw away ur dirty scrubs and shower. that C.diff smell is yucky yucky). Tells you he appreciates your care and effort for the patients every day :). Ghost.... omgg he said something lowkey offensive to you right after u got home from the worst shift of ur week. and he didnt even know WHAT he said/did, hes kinda bad a picking up ur cues. nurse y/n just turned around slowly, gave him the NASTIEST side eye, and stared at him for a good 2.5 min. This man immediately retreated from ur couch to wherever he was b4 like a hermit going back to its shell lmao. 2 hrs later you find a small written note and ur fave gurl dinner on the dining table.

Alejandro..... this man is SO PROUD of his s/o being a nurse. hes showing you off every chance he gets!!! He takes Nursing week SERIOUSLY. give you massages, spas, gifts, ect. but he doesnt get how tired and overwhelmed you are. you have to physically tell him to stop asking or letting his family asking medical question. "No ale. I will NOT look at auntie's mole on her stomach. when im off the clock im OFF THE CLOCK :("

Valeria threatens to beat up the management for you lol. she hates how you get treated by them sometimes. you didnt get the recognition you deserve. Def bosses her cartel men around to buy you gifts and such. one time she organized a whole day to spoil and pamper you. she gave you her own version of Daisy Award 🥺💞 Konig observes and internally analyzes ur every move. he panics tho. like "OMG she home but she already has a bottle of wine its different from the one she had yesterday.. omg omg she didnt even say hello that means her shifts was extra shitty today.... why is she sipping on the wine for so long and the last sip is longer than all previous sips........" He eventually learned you just need silent company. you were laying on the bed feeling burned out when he came over with some soup, kissed ur hand, and wrapped you in a blanket burrito :).

ah, realistic nurse!y/n. this is a breath of fresh air for me.

they're all trying their best. and honestly, what better pair? they also have an overstimulating, kinda gross (blood and bodily fluids), exhausting career !!

it's a match made in heaven !! (aside from the whole... miscommunication and barely seeing each other thing. but what's a good ship without some gut-wrenching angst?)

[revenantghost]

Kenji Muto's Twitter Posts: Part 1

Before and while Tristamp was airing, Kenji Muto made some amazing Twitter posts giving us lore and production tidbits along the way. And while I don't speak Japanese (so I'm going to have to use Google Translate for this, so take everything you read here with a grain of salt because it may be skewed by mistranslation), there was some fantastic art and really cool concepts shared, and I want to archive anything Trigun-related. If I miss anything, let me know!) It starts a little slow with stuff we already know, but there are some interesting tidbits! If anyone who knows Japanese wants to correct anything, please feel free! Now, without further ado...

Part 1 [here]

Part 2

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12:23 AM · Jul 4, 2022

Twitter始めました。 TRIGUN STAMPEDE監督の武藤です。

I started Twitter. This is Muto, director of TRIGUN STAMPEDE.

1:41 AM · Jul 7, 2022

シリーズ長編初監督です。田島光二さんによる美しいコンセプトアートとキャラクター原案をベースに、壮大な世界観を作っています。順次、新しい情報が解禁されるはず。お楽しみに。 #TRIGUN

This is my first time directing a feature-length series. We have created a magnificent worldview based on the beautiful concept art and character designs by Koji Tajima. New information should be released one after another. looking forward to. #TRIGUN

7:27 AM · Aug 3, 2022

公式HPにある花守さんの「依存と執着」という表現は的確だと思った。最も行動原理を組み立てるのに時間のかかったキャラクター、少年ナイ。服に浮かぶ不思議な模様も田島光二氏によるデザイン。果たして、どんな意味が込められているのか。 写真は、追加で届いたロサンゼルス土産。 #TRIGUN

I thought that Mr. Hanamori's expression of ``dependence and attachment'' on the official website was accurate. Shonen Nai is the character that took the most time to formulate his behavioral principles. The mysterious patterns that appear on the clothes are also designed by Koji Tajima. What kind of meaning does it really contain? The photo shows an additional souvenir from Los Angeles. #TRIGUN

12:15 AM · Aug 23, 2022

公式のコンセプトアート公開、なぜか少年時代編が多いなぁ。原作漫画で、ナイが奏でている、オルガンのような、ピアノのような楽器。どうゆう感情で弾いているのか、誰を想って弾いているのか。 そういえばあのコンセプトアートはいつ公開なのだろう。 いつ解禁になるのだろう。 #TRIGUN

For some reason, most of the official concept art released is from the boyhood version. In the original manga, Nai plays an organ-like or piano-like instrument. How do you feel when you play, and who do you have in mind when you play? Come to think of it, when will that concept art be released? When will it be lifted? #TRIGUN

3:42 AM · Aug 31, 2022

出社したら壁にTRIGUN STAMPEDEのポスターが貼られていた。ちなみにお隣のポスターは、初演出デビュー時代からお世話になっている松見真一監督のTVアニメBEASTARS。 第二弾ポスターも鋭意製作中。 #TRIGUN

When I arrived at work, there was a TRIGUN STAMPEDE poster on the wall. By the way, the poster next to me is of the TV anime BEASTARS, directed by Shinichi Matsumi, which I have been supporting since its debut. The second poster is also in the works. #TRIGUN

5:43 AM · Sep 4, 2022

演出用に作ってもらったマザーシップの立体造形。絶妙に捻れていて、左右対称でデザインされてるわけではないので、３面図起こしがとにかく難しい。 レム・セイブレムは五番艦。 大墜落を免れたのは三番艦。 日曜出社の私は��在、音響ブース。 #TRIGUN

A three-dimensional model of the mothership made for the performance. It's exquisitely twisted and not designed with left and right symmetry, so it's difficult to draw it from three sides. Rem Saverem is the fifth ship. The third ship survived the crash. I come to work on Sunday and am currently working in the sound booth. #TRIGUN

11:10 PM · Sep 13, 2022

相手に説明することで、アタマの中が整理されてゆく。 感覚を理屈に落とし込む、言語化って大切。 雑誌の対談取材、刺激になるので今後も積極的に行いたい。 でも、想定外の質問やアドリブ対応は苦手だったりする。 #TRIGUN

By explaining things to the other person, your mind will be organized. It is important to translate feelings into logic and verbalize them. I would like to continue doing interview interviews for magazines, as they are very stimulating. However, I am not good at handling unexpected questions and improvisation. #TRIGUN

12:25 AM · Oct 17, 2022

ようやくお披露目です。 セルルックのCGで作ったポスター第二弾、見た目以上に手間かかってます。まだ名前を公表できない敏腕スタッフたちが、陰ながら活躍してくれました。よく見ると本編内容のヒントが隠されているので、宝探しのように楽しんでほしい。 予告編第２弾も解禁です。 #TRIGUN

It's finally unveiled. The second poster made with cell-look CG takes more time than it looks. The talented staff, whose names cannot yet be made public, have been working behind the scenes. If you look closely, there are hidden hints about the main story, so please enjoy it like a treasure hunt. The second trailer has also been released. #TRIGUN

11:01 PM · Nov 8, 2022

ダビングも鋭意進行中。 この臨場感、音響効果、ミキシング、そして素晴らしい劇伴音楽。映画館の音響環境で聴いてほしいと思っていたら、なんと先行上映会が開催決定。 勝俣さん的に言うと「グルーヴ感がたまらない！」って事なんだと思う。音の力、恐るべし。 #TRIGUN

Dubbing is also in progress. The sense of realism, the sound effects, the mixing, and the wonderful accompaniment music. I wanted to listen to it in the acoustic environment of a movie theater, but it was decided that an advance screening would be held. In Katsumata-san's words, I think it means "the feeling of groove is irresistible!" The power of sound is terrifying. #TRIGUN

4:35 AM · Nov 28, 2022

同じ内容を繰り返し話すことが苦手で、できるだけテーマや内容を掲載誌ごとに変えるようにしている。多角度から見つめると、作品が立体的に見えてくる。 今後も順次、裏情報満載の対談記事が発表されるはず。 ポスター第三弾も、そろそろ完成予定。 #TRIGUN

I'm not good at repeating the same content over and over again, so I try to vary the themes and content from magazine to magazine as much as possible. When viewed from multiple angles, the work appears three-dimensional. We are sure to continue to publish interview articles full of behind-the-scenes information in the future. The third poster will be completed soon. #TRIGUN

12:02 AM · Dec 5, 2022

不慣れなトークを辛抱強く聴いてくれた、優しいお客様に感謝。優しくも���かい拍手に救われました。役者さんのように笑いを取りつつ、上手く会話を回せないものか。スタンピードチーム陣からは「場数ですよ」とアドバイスを貰う。 場数とやらを踏むためにも、ネクストステージ頑張らねば。 #TRIGUN

Thank you to the kind customers who patiently listened to the unfamiliar talk. I was saved by the gentle and warm applause. Are you unable to carry a conversation while making people laugh like an actor? The Stampede team members advised us, ``It depends on the number of places.'' We have to work hard on the next stage in order to make it to the number of places. #TRIGUN

10:54 PM · Dec 5, 2022

最近、宣伝チームの熱量に圧倒される。 現場スタッフとは違う、これまで接点のなかった役職の人々。こうゆう縁の下の力持ちがいるから作品が広まるんだなぁ。 彼らと飲みに行ったりすると、その人柄にも触れる事ができる。集団戦、集団作業、集団芸術。つくづく学びの多いプロジェクトだ。 #TRIGUN

Lately, I've been overwhelmed by the enthusiasm of the advertising team. People in positions that are different from the field staff and with whom I had no previous contact. It's because of these unsung heroes that my work spreads. When you go out for drinks with them, you can get a feel for their personalities. Group warfare, group work, group art. It's a project with a lot to learn. #TRIGUN

12:30 AM · Dec 22, 2022

新宿アドストリートなどにTRIGUN STAMPEDE看板が多数あるらしい。今後も何やら宣伝チームが面白い事を計画中らしいが、なんだろう、とても楽しみ。何気ない風景の裏にも、陰ながら頑張っている人たちがいる。そうやって作品は更に広がってゆくのだ。ブラボー。 https://youtu.be/oolZJKslJcU #TRIGUN

There seem to be many TRIGUN STAMPEDE signboards on Shinjuku Ad Street and elsewhere. It seems like the advertising team is planning some interesting things in the future, but I'm really looking forward to it. Behind the scenes, there are people working hard behind the scenes. In this way, the work will continue to expand. Bravo. https://youtu.be/oolZJKslJcU #TRIGUN

[Boo, dead Youtube link ):< If anyone knows what it was, let me know and I'll insert that info here]

3:21 AM · Dec 28, 2022

いつの間に、誰かが作ってくれたTRIGUN STAMPEDE年賀状を受け取る。カメラ目線で素朴に座るスタンピード。真摯に作品と向き合っている、そんな現場スタッフの姿勢を感じる一枚。 物語終盤のダビング（ファイナルミックス）に追われている、ラストスパートの2022。 #TRIGUN

Before I knew it, I received a TRIGUN STAMPEDE New Year's card that someone had made for me. Stampede simply sits looking at the camera. This photo shows the attitude of the on-site staff as they approach the work with sincerity. 2022 is the last spurt of dubbing (final mix) at the end of the story. #TRIGUN

6:37 AM · Jan 4, 2023

喫茶店で水出しコーヒーを眺めているとTRIGUN STAMPEDEを連想する。見た目は変化すれど、ちゃんと豆の成分と香りが活きている。内藤先生という豆を炒って、挽いて、一滴一滴丁寧に抽出する。 とびきり今風のコーヒーカップに注いで、さあ召し上がれ。 2023年もどうぞ宜しくお願いします。 #TRIGUN

When I look at cold brew coffee at a coffee shop, I think of TRIGUN STAMPEDE. Although the appearance may change, the ingredients and aroma of the beans are still present. The beans called Naito Sensei are roasted, ground, and carefully extracted drop by drop. Pour into a super modern coffee cup and enjoy. We look forward to your continued support in 2023. #TRIGUN

9:13 AM · Jan 7, 2023

本日からTRIGUN STAMPEDE放映スタートです。 第1話「NOMAN'S LAND」 いろんな思いを、ガツンと込めました。 どうぞ、よろしくお願いします！ #TRIGUN

TRIGUN STAMPEDE will start airing from today. Episode 1 "NOMAN'S LAND" I put all my thoughts into it. Nice to meet you! #TRIGUN

12:37 AM · Jan 9, 2023

シリーズ脚本の第一話、第二話、 第三話は、 ホップ・ステップ・ジャンプだと思う。 まるで、週刊誌の連載ネーム。 #TRIGUN

The first, second and third episodes of the series script are I think it's hop step jump. It's like the name of a weekly magazine serial. #TRIGUN

12:49 AM · Jan 9, 2023

ただのモブからサブキャラへ異例の昇格を果たした愛すべき悪役、チャック・リー隊長。 コンテ描いてると、キャラが勝手に動き出す。 シナリオに無い台詞を話し始めたり、暴れたり。 杉田智和さんの怪演が光る。 #TRIGUN

Captain Chuck Lee is a lovable villain who has achieved an unusual promotion from just a mob to a side character. As I draw the storyboards, the characters start moving on their own. He starts speaking lines that aren't in the scenario, or gets violent. Tomokazu Sugita's mysterious performance shines. #TRIGUN

10:56 PM · Jan 10, 2023

最初期の頃、内藤先生と飲みながら、 「手触り感を大切にしたい」 「実存感を大切にしたい」 ひたすらそんな事を話していた。 惑星の空気感と生活感を見事に再現。 宝石の国の頃からのタッグ、 金子雄司の美術世界。 #TRIGUN

In the early days, while drinking with Mr. Naito, “I want to value the feel of touch.” “I want to value a sense of existence.” That's what I was talking about all the time. The atmosphere and lifestyle of the planet are beautifully reproduced. A tag team from the days of Land of the Lustrous, Yuji Kaneko's art world. #TRIGUN

7:06 AM · Jan 11, 2023

生まれも育ちも第三都市ジュライ。 親の七光りで憲兵隊士官学校に裏口入学。 金ピカの銃は両親からの入学祝い。 画面の外にも彼らの世界は広がり、本編では描かれない彼らの物語もある。 チャック・リー再登場に乞うご期待。 #TRIGUN #杉田智和

Born and raised in the third city of July. With the help of his parents, he entered the military police academy through the back door. The golden gun was a gift from his parents for entering school. Their world expands beyond the screen, and there are also stories about them that are not depicted in the main story. Look forward to Chuck Lee's reappearance. #TRIGUN #杉田智和

9:12 PM · Jan 13, 2023

親子の絆に、善も悪もないんだよね。 どストレート、どシンプルなテーマで挑む、第二話。 ポップ（？）キュート（？）な悪役たちにも注目。 本日23:00〜、よろしくお願いします！ #TRIGUN #トライガン

There is no good or bad in the bond between parent and child. The second episode takes on the challenge of a straight, simple theme. Also pay attention to the pop (?) cute (?) villains. Thank you for your support today from 23:00! #TRIGUN #トライガン

9:12 PM · Jan 14, 2023

二話の絵コンテの修正していたら、 ふと声が聞こえた… 『ゴフセフ』 「え？いま喋った？」 『ゴフセフ…(頷き)』 「そうか、ゴフセフって言いたいんだね？」 『ゴフセフ。(ニッコリと)』 「ゴフセフ！(ニッコリ)」 キャラと対話しながらコンテを描いてゆく。 #TRIGUN #トライガン

When I was revising the storyboard for episode 2, Suddenly I heard a voice... "Gofsef" "Huh? Did you just talk?" “Gofsef…(nods)” “I see, you want to call me Gofsef, right?” “Gofsef. (smiling)” "Gofsef! (smiling)" Draw the storyboard while interacting with the characters. #TRIGUN #トライガン

12:51 AM · Jan 17, 2023

数年ぶりにオキシタケヒコさんに会った。 毎回、東京まで呼びつけていた事に気づく。 次は僕が大阪へ行きたい、行くべき。 大阪でもSTAMPEDEイベントやりたい。 大阪で食い倒れしたい。 #TRIGUN

I met Mr. Oxytakehiko for the first time in several years. Every time, I realized that he had called me all the way to Tokyo. Next I want to go to Osaka, I should go. I want to hold a STAMPEDE event in Osaka too. I want to eat all I can in Osaka. #TRIGUN

7:36 AM · Jan 17, 2023

無口で気弱な青年は、やがて過酷な環境に適応し、 サイボーグとしての「力」を得る。 凶悪犯の仲間入りを果たした青年の名は、ゴフセフ。 語られないバックグラウンドを想像すると、 世界は更に広がる。 #TRIGUN

The taciturn and timid young man eventually adapts to the harsh environment, Obtain "power" as a cyborg. The name of the young man who has joined the ranks of violent criminals is Gofsef. When you imagine the untold background, The world will expand further. #TRIGUN

8:47 PM · Jan 20, 2023

親子の絆？ そんな常識をぶち壊す。 血は水よりも濃い、第三話。 本日、23:00-テレビ東京他にて放送。 是非ご覧ください！ #TRIGUN #トライガン

Parent-child bond? Breaking down that common sense. Blood is thicker than water, episode 3. Broadcast today at 23:00 on TV Tokyo and other channels. Please take a look! #TRIGUN #トライガン

10:53 PM · Jan 23, 2023

ナイというキャラクター性は、 一枚のラフスケッチが語ってくれた。 渋谷で開催された「内藤泰弘の世界」展。 常に優しく微笑む彼。 自身に憑依させて、描きだす。 #TRIGUN

The character of Nai is A rough sketch tells the story. "The World of Yasuhiro Naito" exhibition held in Shibuya. He always smiles kindly. Let yourself be possessed and start drawing. #TRIGUN

11:19 PM · Jan 24, 2023

「人間」という種族を一括りに捉える。 物事を巨視的にみる。 俯瞰した視野で考え、躊躇なく行動する。 コンテを描いていると、僕の中に彼が宿る。 一度宿ると、抜けるまでに時間がかかるところが難点。 #TRIGUN #トライガン

The race of "humans" is lumped together. See things macroscopically. Think from a bird's-eye view and act without hesitation. When I draw storyboards, he lives inside me. The problem is that once you get into it, it takes a while to get out. #TRIGUN #トライガン

9:49 PM · Jan 26, 2023

でも、大丈夫。 きっと逞しく彼も生き抜いていくのだろう。 過酷な環境で、現実を受け入れ、 歪な義手を手に入れ、 青年に成長した彼を想像してみてほしい。 もしかしたらワムズ使いになっているかも。 物語世界は、作り手を離れ、更に広がってゆく。 #TRIGUN

But it's okay. I'm sure he will be strong enough to survive. Accepting reality in a harsh environment, Obtaining a distorted prosthetic arm, Imagine him growing into a young man. Maybe he's using Wams. The story world leaves the creator and expands further. #TRIGUN

[Note that this was shared around episode three and the freckles this guy has--a lot of people theorize this is about Tonis]

8:52 PM · Jan 27, 2023

数年ぶりに田島光二さんと食事。 シャコやカニやエビを注文。 「これは何？」 『シャコワムズ！』 「これは？」 『カニワムズ！』 「これ…」 『エビワムズ！！』 まるで中学生のようなノリ、 同窓会のような時間。 本日23:00-は4話放映ですね。 #TRIGUN

I had dinner with Koji Tajima for the first time in several years. Ordered mantis shrimp, crab, and shrimp. "what is this?" “Shakowams! ” "this is?" “Caniwams! ” "this…" “Ebiwams! ! ” Feeling like a junior high school student, A time like a class reunion. Episode 4 will be aired today from 23:00. #TRIGUN

12:17 AM · Jan 29, 2023

見覚えのあるシルエット。 モーションキャプチャーには重くて使えなかったが、ポージング参考で大活躍した模造品。実際はもっと重いんだろうなぁ、と想像しながら演出する。 外装はロストテクノロジィ、内部は機関銃という合成兵器。 ”パニッシュメント”とは”処罰”の意味。 #TRIGUN #トライガン

A familiar silhouette. Although it was too heavy to use for motion capture, this imitation was very useful as a pose reference. I imagine it's probably heavier in reality when I direct it. The exterior is lost technology, and the interior is a synthetic weapon called a machine gun. "Punishment" means "punishment". #TRIGUN #トライガン

[whatitsdecending]

Chokehold: Pt. III

Vessel x Reader x Noah Sebastian

Disclaimer: I do not know anything more about Vessel than you do, all of this is fiction.

Word Count: 5.7k

Content warning: smut, smut and more smut. Biting, choking, dominate reader, dominate Vessel, submissive reader, submissive Vessel, edging, unprotected sex (wrap it up please, don’t be stupid like this).

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The soft light filtering through the curtains pulled you out from your sleep. You stared at the environment around you, and for a split second you’d forgotten where you were. Once your brain cleared up that bit of fog you snorted at your slight stupidity. You rolled yourself over to the side of the bed that had the clock on the table next to it, 12:52 pm is what it read. A sigh escaped from you as you never let yourself sleep so late, but you came to realize if you’d forced yourself up at the normal time you definitely would’ve hated yourself for it later.

You rolled out of bed and to the window, drawing the curtains and letting the white light flood the room. From between the blinds you could see that snow now covered the ground, and it was still falling at a light rate. You adored whenever it snowed back home, especially the first dusting that just covered everything in white and seemed to bring a different brightness to the world around you.

A soft smile was stuck on your face for the entirety of your morning routine, in the shower and in front of the mirror as you did your skincare. You couldn’t wait to get outside to take in the scenery, you kinda hoped Vessel would join you.

Vessel. You haven’t heard a sound from him this morning, not even the creaking of his footsteps in the hallway or the sound of him in the kitchen. Maybe he was still asleep? You never really figured out if he had a set time he’d wake up, although he would typically go to sleep later whenever you spoke on the phone.

You went with the idea that he was still asleep, so when you left the room you quietly made your way downstairs, doing as much as you can from waking him up with a creak on the stairs. The house was very quiet and the lights were all off, allowing the natural lighting to do its job. It was peaceful. Your apartment wasn’t as quiet as Vessel’s home, only because the walls were thin and your neighbors were loud. Living in the middle of nowhere seemed like the thing you needed to do.

With it being past 1pm already, you decided the window for breakfast was closed and that having lunch would be a much better option. You walked into the kitchen and almost leapt out of your skin when you saw Vessel sitting at the table reading a book.

“Jesus Christ.” You breathed, clutching your heart as it beat rapidly. “You scared the fuck out of me, Ves!” He placed a bookmark between the pages he was on and closed the book, a look of amusement on his face. “Oh so you think that’s funny.” You crossed your arms in a sassy manner.

“Yes I do actually, you got so scared of me just relaxing in my home.” He responds, placing the book on the edge of the table. His eyes wandered outside to the snow that was falling. “Did you see the snow?”

You stepped closer to the window. “I did. Instantly put me in a good mood the second I saw it.” That same smile from earlier sat on your face again and the urge to go run outside grew stronger.

“You like snow?”

“Oh I love it. It’s one of my favorite parts about winter.” You expressed. He stared at you with wonder in his eyes, taking in your body language as you spoke. The excitement truly radiated off you like a little kid who just learned that a snow day had been implemented and they can spend the entire day at the local sledding hill with their friends. “Do you?”

“I only hate shoveling and driving in it, otherwise it is quite beautiful.” Vessel said as he rose from his seat, picking up the book to put it back into its rightful place in his collection. With your eyes stuck on the snow outside, he came up behind you and placed a heavy coat over your shoulders.

“What’s up with the coat?” You asked, turning around to see him lacing up a pair of heavier boots and a jacket resting on the table.

“Thought you’d maybe want to go outside and sit in the snow together…” He trailed off at the end of the sentence, glancing up at you. “If not, that's totally okay… I can get the leftovers from last night out-”

You pulled the coat over your arms. “I would fucking love to.” Realizing you didn’t have your boots, you rushed back upstairs to your room to put them on. Your heart raced as you tied the boots up as quickly as possible, hands shaking from the lack of nutrients in your body; but you didn’t care. The last time someone ever invited you to sit in the snow was years ago in elementary school. So at your age, this really was an invitation you could not decline.

Running back down the stairs while your boots loudly echoed against the wood, buttoning up the coat as you sped back to the kitchen. Vessel had an amused look on his face once again as you returned, leaving you to throw your hands up in defeat.

“What now?” You asked.

He chuckled. “You need to see how ridiculous you look in my coat.” He pointed over to a mirror that was just a few steps away, leaving you curious to just how stupid you look. Yeah, he was right. You definitely looked ridiculous. The coat hung down to your knees and the sleeves swallowed your hands, with where your boots ended on your legs it made you look shorter than you were.

“Eh, at least I’ll be warm.” You shrugged, pulling the hood over your head and adding to the look. The edge of the hood covered your eyes and you had to tilt your head up in order to see Vessel, he was just shaking his head at you and unlocking the door to the yard. “Are you regretting letting me stay with you now?” You followed him outside, the chill of the air hitting the part of your face that wasn’t covered.

“Nope.” He said. “I’m actually enjoying it.” You flashed a big smile at him and earned a chuckle in response. Taking big steps through the snow, you stayed quiet to determine if the snow was heavy or not. The crunching beneath your feet gave you the answer you needed.

“This snow is perfect for a snowman.” You blurt out, kicking a small pile that had built up. “If you want to build one with me.” You turned back around to face Vessel, noticing he had both hands behind his back and the most devious look you’ve ever seen on his face. “Oh no-” Was all you barely managed to get out before a snowball came barreling at you. You turned to the side quickly as a reflex, letting it hit your arm. “So you want to play that game?”

His laugh filled the air and added to the playful energy between you two. You bent over to scoop snow into your hands, mashing it together into a ball and whipping it at him. It hit him directly in the center of his chest, making him stumble back a bit.

“Goddamn you have an arm. What did they have you doing on tour?”

“Lifting the heavy shit the guys can’t.”

He grinned. “Of course.” He already had another snowball ready to go and launched it at you, missing by an inch. You laughed at him for it and threw another snowball that hit his shoulder. He stood there staring at you, a bit of defeat showing on his face.

“Oh, did you give up already? Didn’t think you were the type to give up so easily.” You egged him on, trying to get under his skin so he’d continue the fight. He raised his brows in a playful way taking a step forward in the snow before taking off in a sprint towards you. You had zero time to react due to how quickly he came up on you, all you could do was brace for him to impact your body. His arms wrapped around you quickly before the rest of his body hit yours, knocking you to the soft ground.

Your breath hitched as you made contact with it. You noticed Vessel had moved one of his hands to rest against the back of your head, making sure you didn’t smack it too hard. He pushed the hood of the coat up so he could see your eyes, but the second you made eye contact you started laughing. It was amusing that he just slammed into you like a linebacker into the snow. He couldn’t help but laugh along with you, the glimmer of the snow and pure joy reflecting in his eyes and leaving you to just stare in awe.

He calmed down the moment he realized your mind had switched to something else. “You okay? I didn’t hit you too hard did I?”

You shook your head. “No… I’m okay. I’m just-” You couldn’t bring the words together, it wouldn’t come out of your mouth the way you wished it would.

“Need me to get off?” He asks, starting to move off of you and the look of worry starting to creep onto his face. Just as his chest lifted from yours, you subconscious reached up for the collar of his coat and pulled him back down to you, pressing your lips against his. The softness of his lips were all you could’ve dreamed of, the way they pushed so gently against yours allowed the butterflies that were being held back to be freed.

You kissed for what felt like only seconds before he pulled away and the ache for air dragged at your lungs. You took a deep breath and could only stare up at him as he hovered only inches away from your face. He pushed himself up off of you and reached out for your hand, drawing you up once you placed your hand in his.

He seemed to be studying your face as his hand rested against your cheek. You watched as his eyes were locked on your lips and he ran his thumb over them. “You’re turning blue.” His words slipped from your mind before he pulled you close to him. “Y/N, your lips are turning blue.” Vessel walked you back to the house, stomping the snow off his boots and you doing the same. “Come with me.” He says, guiding you through the house into a room you have yet to see. A beautiful velvet couch sat in front of a large brick fireplace, more books littered around the room. This room seemed more lived in than the rest of his home, it had a more comfortable atmosphere to it as well.

Vessel had you sit on the floor in front of the fireplace, taking the wet coat off your body and replacing it with a blanket. He quickly removed your boots and placed them off to the side. You watched with awe stuck on your face, he just did all of that without you even asking.

His face lightened as he lit a match for the fireplace, throwing it onto the logs already resting in it. The fire slowly came to life, adding a warm glow to the room around you. Vessel stepped out of the room for a moment, coming back in just his clothes from earlier. He sat down beside you, glancing at the color of your lips before rubbing your hands between his. He was extremely warm, the heat coming from the fireplace and his body was enough to keep you from shivering.

“You warming up okay?” He asked, a genuine expression on his face.

“Mmhm.” You responded and watched as he poked at the fire a bit. “You didn’t have to do all of this for me.”

“You were turning blue, Y/N. Why wouldn’t I make sure you didn’t freeze on me?” He said, the slightest bit of a “duh” tone ringing out.

“Are you sassing me Ves?” You pretended to be offended and clutched at your heart.

“I can get sassy if you want me to.” He joked. You shook your head at him and turned your gaze back on to the fire in front of you. It danced around as the logs burned, the smell filling the room and bringing you to a calm place. Your mind had been going insane since the kiss you had with Vessel, the fact that he put so much care into you after you started getting too cold made it so much worse. Each little thing he did, from removing your boots to replacing the damp coat with a blanket, had your heart flipping around inside of you. It was these small gestures he seemed to do without any hesitation that made you want it all from him, everything he could ever offer to you, you’d take. You’d take it all so fast, but at the same time it scared you. Things were changing and changing rapidly. If you had asked yourself four months ago if you’d see your future self in a position like this, you definitely would’ve said no. From how things were going for you at that time, keeping your extremely casual relationship with Noah going for however long you both needed was the furthest you were willing to go at the time.

Noah. You’d completely forgotten you had promised to call him back… he probably thinks you’re dead at this point. A deep sigh escaped you at the promise you remembered, now felt the guilt creeping up your spine.

“Hey Ves?” You broke the silence, taking your mind out of the forest of thoughts it was just in.

“Hmm?” He mumbled. He lingered close to you, something you hadn’t noticed until now. His arm was draped lazily behind you and pulling you closer to him. The ability to ask the question you’d originally gained his attention for had suddenly gone away, you couldn’t seem to form the necessary words to say. You could feel his eyes on you as he waited for you to say something; they burned into you deeper than the fire ever could.

Instead of asking what you originally wanted to, you decided to ask another question that had been on your mind since September. “Do you remember when we first met?”

“Vividly.”

“There’s always been something I’ve wanted to ask you, especially now with how things have come between us.” You felt him shift his body weight in order to get a better look at you, raising his brow as he waited for the question. “What exactly did you mean by “one on one”? Was it just going to be something random like what me and Noah had been doing or…” You trailed off from there, turning and meeting his gaze. “Or am I reaching too far now.”

“You’re not reaching at all darling.” His voice soothed you. Bringing that up had been something dragging you down for a little while, especially when it became clear that Vessel was turning into a more special person in your life. “I remember leaving you that note with the intention of getting to know you better. The moment I saw you I just had to do it… even though I didn’t know the full extent of what was going on between you and Noah until you had explained it later on to me. It was a risk I was willing to take.”

“Are you still willing to take it?” You whispered just above the crackling of the fire. He held his gaze on yours for a long time, until his eyes started lingering on your lips. Your eagerness got the best of you, knowing damn well he could sit and stare for hours and torture your body by not touching you. You ripped the blanket off your shoulders, letting it fall to the floor before climbing onto his lap and pushing your lips on his. The desperation in this kiss compared to the one you shared in the snow was mind boggling, he was just as desperate for your lips now as you were for his.

His hands furiously tugged at your shirt, giving you the opportunity to pull away for a second and take it off. For just a moment his eyes glowed at the sight of the one part of your body he had yet been able to see. He leaned forward to attach his lips to your neck as his hand that had been placed on your back masterfully unhooked your bra. After you let the garment drop from your body, his other hand instinctively took hold of your left breast and massaged it gently. The stimulation of his lips against your neck on top of this had you moaning, your head leaned back to give him all the access he wanted to your neck. His teeth grazed along your skin and sent a shiver down your spine that made your hips buck.

“You like that huh?” He quipped, leaving another kiss against your neck. “Do you want me to mark you up darling?” A whine left your lips as a response, leaving him to chuckle at how desperate you are for him. He trailed up your neck before finding the area he wanted to mark, he licked it meticulously before sinking his teeth into you. Your body didn’t know how to react to that feeling, a new sensation that trickled through your nerves and sent your brain into overdrive.

“Oh fuck, Ves.” You breathed, gripping the back of his neck to drive him closer to you. He pushed his body up from the sitting position he had been in and began to push you gently down against the floor, his hand never leaving the spot on your back. After you’d laid down, Vessel pulled away to take his shirt off and revealed that physique you had grown to miss. He was glowing with the light from the fire bouncing off his skin, and in that moment it seemed you were about to sleep with a God.

He leaned down to connect your lips once again, this time with a more fiery passion than before. His tongue pushed into your mouth, letting yours fight against his. In the battle for dominance over your mouth, his hand made its way to the spot on your back to push your chest into his. His skin was warm and soft against yours, the heat from the fireplace adding to what radiated off him.

Vessel pulled away from the kiss and sat back on his feet, his hands going to your jeans to undo them and pull them off your legs. He stared at the laced panties you chose to wear that day, the lust that filled his eyes as it took every bit of patience in him to not rip them off of you. His fingers delicately slipped under the fabric that wrapped around your hips and pulled the garment down your legs, not once breaking the eye contact between the two of you. He leaned back fully on his feet as his eyes toyed over your body, taking it all in and memorizing every single detail he could see.

“You are so beautiful.” He breathed, his palms resting on your knees as his fingers circled your skin gently. “I want this to be for you, this moment everything is for you. Y/N, tell me exactly what you want and I’ll do it.” There was a pleading tone in his voice as he spoke. His hands remained where they were, not leaving until you would tell him to move them.

“Vessel…” You say, his body perking up at his name. “I want you to touch me, show me how badly you’ve missed me. Show me all that you wanted back in September that you couldn’t do.” A devilish grin crossed his face as his hands moved their way closer up your thighs, his body leaned forward with them. He placed kisses along the inside of your thighs, slowly moving closer and closer to your core. You grew restless as each kiss made you more wet, the slow inching of his face to where you wanted him most drove you crazy. Just as his cheek brushed up against the skin of your folds, you said one last thing. “And don’t you dare edge my orgasms this time.”

“Wasn’t planning on it darling.” Vessel says before the feeling of his tongue dragging up between your folds overran your body. Your hips bucked upwards into his mouth as a moan escaped from you. He was going slow on you, aware of the fact that it’s been a little while since the last time someone had gone down on you. That did not matter for you though, he knew exactly what he was doing and learned quickly the first time around. He lifted his face up a bit so he could focus his tongue on your clit and watch your face when he slipped two of his fingers into you. Your body arched at the stimulation of his fingers pumping slowly into you and his tongue delicately swirling circles on your clit.

“Ves.” You breathed. “Go faster.” With your instructions, Vessel picked up the pace with both his fingers and tongue. The wave of pleasure that hit you was almost enough to send you over the edge, but you held yourself together. His free hand tapped at your leg, giving you the notion to put them on his shoulders. You obliged and draped them over him, allowing you the power to hold him there for however long you pleased.

You used your heels to push him down closer into you as the knot built in your stomach. The moans that came from you were loud and high pitched, which led to Vessel removing his fingers from you and using both hands to grip your hips. He increased the pressure and pace of his tongue on your clit in order to make you cum. You cried out in pleasure as the ecstasy hit you, your hand gripped tightly on the blanket underneath you as you searched for some piece of reality so you didn't get completely lost in the pleasure.

Vessel kept his mouth on you, watching your body shake as it came down from the orgasm. He did not let you catch a breath before his tongue was back at it again and his fingers pushed into you, the extra slick that came from your orgasm made it simple for him to add another finger to the mix. You whined as his tongue hit your clit, it had grown sensitive from all the stimulation that you haven’t experienced in a while.

“Ves.” You cried out, a hum in response coming from him and sending vibrations through you. “I want you to fuck me.” He lifted his face from your core, the sight of his chin and lips being covered in your slick made a smile pull at your lips.

“Is that what you really want, darling?’’ He leaned back against his feet again, taking your legs off from his shoulders and setting them back down on the floor. You nodded, biting your lip as he began to remove the belt from his jeans. “I wasn’t even worried about getting myself off today, but since you’re insisting I fuck you, how could I resist?” He’d pulled his jeans down, revealing his cock that struggled against the fabric of his briefs. He never broke eye contact with you as he pulled the briefs down, exposing his hard cock. You bit at your bottom lip as you watched him remove the articles from his legs and throw them somewhere in the room. He reached over to the couch and grabbed a pillow, motioning for you to lift your lower back up off the floor so he can place it below you. He let you lay back and adjusted it as you needed until it was comfortable for you.

He leaned into you again, placing a kiss on your lips and then your forehead. “You ready?” You nodded and gave him a reassuring smile. He returned the smile before taking your legs and placing them on his hips, using them as a guide to line his cock up with your entrance. Before he pushed himself into you, he ran it through your folds to slick it up, not wanting to cause that much discomfort going in. He focused on the sight of his cock spreading the muscles of your entrance, going slowly in order for you to adjust to his size.

“Oh fuck.” You muttered, the feeling of him inside of you after not having anyone fucking you since September was intense.

“God you’re so fucking tight, Y/N.” He groaned as he slowly thrusted in and out of you. His grip tightened on your hip, adjusting himself to be able to get a better angle to thrust into you.

“Go faster.” You spat out. He nodded and picked up his pace, the sounds of his thighs slapping against the skin of your ass echoed through the room and mixing in with the moans that came from the two of you. The initial bit of discomfort had completely disappeared now and the pleasure that racked your body was all you could think of. He felt so good, the first time he fucked you was good, really good… but with the circumstances of that time, you don’t think it could ever compare to this now.

His moans had turned to whimpers and his face was beginning to contort, notifying you that he was close. Except, this time you wanted to be the one that edged him. Torture him a bit like he’d done to you. So, you put your hand up and signaled for him to stop. He hesitantly pulled out of you and had a confused expression on his face.

“What-’’ Before he could finish his sentence you cut him off by pointing to the couch.

“Go sit and lean up against the couch.” A tone of demand came from you that was unfamiliar, but you liked it and he clearly did too as he quickly moved to where you told him to go. He watched as you stood up, ignoring the weakness you felt from how hard he’d just been fucking you. His breath hitched as you stood over him, placing one hand on his shoulder while you came down to straddle him. Your other hand wrapped around his cock and aligned it with your entrance, the feeling of it filling you up as you sat down left both of your mouths wide open. You let yourself get used to this position before slowly bouncing yourself on him.

“Jesus Christ Y/N.” Vessel groaned, throwing his head back against the cushion of the couch.

Your hand reached out and wrapped around his neck, making him return his gaze to you in shock. “I don’t think so, Ves. Keep your eyes on me, pretty boy.” You kept your hold on his neck, making sure not to add too much pressure to the point where you were actually choking him. His hands found their way to rest on your hips, but you swatted at them. “Keep them on the couch, I don’t need your help with this.” He smirked at how you demanded him, a new found power that you’ve never had the control over.

A rhythm took you over and Vessel’s eyes constantly rolled back whenever you squeezed both his cock and his neck, each roll from your hips bringing him closer to that release he chased after. You watched his face and listened for that same whiny tone in his moans that informed you he was about to cum. You were getting close too, unsure if he was going to cum before you did or vice versa.

“I’m going to cum.” Vessel cried out and his breathing became more rapid. You clenched tightly around his cock and his neck, clearly sending him over the edge as the warmth of his cum filling you up took you by surprise. Your release happened right after, your moans mixed in with the heavy breathes he took as you rode it out on him. You let go of the grip you had on his neck and fell against his chest, your face pressed against the crook of his neck.

The two of you sat there for a little while, coming down from the high. Admittedly, you sat there because of how numb your legs felt from all of this. Vessel seemed to notice your uncertainty with getting up, so he took matters into his own hands and shuffled his way over to the blanket in front of the fireplace, laying you down on top of it. You hissed at the feeling of him taking his cock out of you, your entire core was extremely sensitive now and any little touch or movement made you squirm.

“Let me get you a warm cloth, I’ll be right back.” He kissed your forehead and stood, walking away to the kitchen. You took the time to regulate your breathing a bit, letting yourself come back from the ecstasy you’d just experienced. Vessel came back into the room just a moment later, a damp cloth in his hand. He sat on his knees between your legs, gently running the cloth along your folds and cleaning up the cum that was dripping out of you. The warmth of it soothed your body and finally brought you all the way down from the high.

Vessel placed the cloth off to the side after he made sure he did a good job cleaning you up. He laid down beside you, letting you lift your head up so he could rest his arm beneath it. His other hand rested on your stomach, watching as it rose and fell with each breath you took.

The two of you laid there in a comfortable silence. The primary reason being the utter exhaustion you felt after the physicality you endured, but also still being a bit jet lagged didn’t help either. Also maybe the fact that you just had some of the best sex in your life had some kind of power over you not being able to speak.

Breaking the silence was a loud grumble from your stomach, reminding you that you never ate today. “Jeez I felt that.” Vessel laughed as he removed his hand from his stomach, leaving you to laugh at it as well. “Is this my sign to make you some dinner?”

“I think so.” You wiped at the tears that sprinkled the corners of your eyes from your laughter. “I’m going to go take a bath while you do that.” You rolled out from his hold and pushed yourself up into a standing position, your legs wobbling as you did so.

“Need me to carry you to the bath?” Vessel asked as he placed a hand on your leg to help stabilize you a bit.

“Nope, I should be good, just need to walk around or else it will stay like this for too long.” You smiled down at him, giving him a thumbs up as you started waddling away, the chuckles that erupted from him as he watched you walk away was enough to make you laugh. You knew you looked ridiculous, but you could not help it. Glancing at the time on a nearby clock, you realize it’d probably be later enough in the morning for you to call Noah and not have to deal with his grumpy ass after waking him up.

As you struggled a bit to get up the stairs and to your room, you decided to call him the second you got the bath running. You couldn’t help but have a nagging feeling that calling him was wrong, especially now right after you’d had sex with Vessel and was running a bath in his home.

But you promised him… and who knows exactly the reason he needed to talk to you. Could be work related, most of the time it is. You knew you were capable of keeping it professional and in this case that’s exactly what needed to happen. Then again, the idea of hurting him by telling him exactly where and what you were doing toyed in the back of your mind. Why? You weren’t sure.

It will be the first time since October that you will be speaking to him, the last time being when you all parted ways at the airport after the US leg of the tour ended. You hate admitting it but you did miss speaking with him, especially music. His face lit up each time he got on the topic of how he wrote a specific song or his plans for the future of the band.

Your hands shook as you picked up your phone that was still on the nightstand, glancing at the overwhelming amount of notifications on the screen before going to your contacts and pressing on Noah’s name. You hovered over the icon that will take you to a call, debating if it was the best thing to do.

You walked into the bathroom and shut the door behind you, starting the water in the tub. You stared at the screen again and took a deep breath before hitting the call icon, your phone coming to life as it rang.

It didn’t take long for the ringing to stop and Noah’s voice to echo through the speakers. “Hey pretty girl, I’ve been waiting for you to call.”

[professor-amaryllis]

What was it that Jaycé showed you yesterday?

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:{ A video file is embedded. Lumiose city, Kalos. 12/26/24 1:32 pm. }:

"This is your big secret, hm?"

Amy leans over a snow dusted stone guard rail on a bridge that overlooks the Lumiose canal. The view is beautiful, and despite this not being one of the more notable bridges there are still more than a few tourists taking pictures of the winter scene.

"Don't misunderstand me, it's beautiful, but when you told me you had some grandiose secret I expected it to be a little less public."

"I'm hurt that you don't believe in me, Riritsu." The teasing tone is clear in Jaycé's voice as they waltz into frame. They carry a box that they didn't have in the last video and they gesture onward with their head. "We aren't there quite yet."

Amy hums, pushing themselves back off of the ledge. a bit reluctant to leave the view despite their words. They follow after Jaycé, leaning heavily on their cane. Delirium, on their heels, was being hounded by another, smaller Houndoom. Amy can't help the small laugh as Clover bothers Delirium a bit, yelping as the larger dog corrects her.

At the far end of the bridge Jaycé leads them both off the path and down a half obscured set of stairs that loop back towards the bridge. They stop before a security gate, various warnings in kalosian scattered over multiple signs on its surface.

"I found out a long while back that this one's never really locked." There's a mischievous look in their face as they easily unlach and open the gate. "I couldn't tell you why, but it was a quiet place away from things."

It's a simple platform, all things considered, a square concrete respite under the base of the bridge itself, wether for support or for ease of inspection you can't be sure. But it's a bit quieter down here sheltered from the wind, and the sound of the lapping water so close is soothing.

"It's certainly an interesting spot." Amy steps towards the water and glances down, watching the canal flow over thad through the reaching sheet of ice that tries unfruitfully to stop it's flow. "You know whatever those warnings were I'm beginning to think they were to ward off you in particular."

Jaycé had already half unpacked their box in the time that Amy had had their back turned, laying down a blanket and setting out a few still steaming containers and a thermos. Their laugh draws the professors attention back and Amy's surprise is obvious.

"What's all this?" Jaycé in response just offers a hand.

"Here, let me help you down. I got us kalosian onion soup and crepes- the real kind, don't get me started on that again, Riritsu."

"I don't need help- is this what we stopped for? Did you cook all of that? When?"

"Will you stop talking and let me help? Come on, I spent time on this. Don't let it get cold." Jaycé laughs and this seems to be enough to convince Amy to relent, taking their hand and settling down into the blanket with a hum, Jaycé settling down next to them.

There's a moment of calm between them, glancing out over the canal. The atmosphere lasts only a moment before the Houndoom come bounding into the blanket, making Jaycé scramble to defend the foods.

"Clover no-"

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[mingiatz]

Summary: Years after breaking up, Nari and Yunho cross paths again—this time under unexpected circumstances. She had walked away from him to avoid holding him back, convinced he would move on without her. But when their reunion stirs up emotions neither of them have truly let go of, they are forced to confront their past, their fears, and the love that never faded. As they navigate old wounds, unresolved feelings, and the pressures of Yunho’s career, they must decide if love is worth the risk—this time, for good

Pairing: Jeong Yunho x OC (Nari)

Trope: Exes to Lovers

Genre: Romance, Angst, Slow Burn, Second Chance

Featuring: Ateez, OCs, mutual pining, lost love

This Series will have multiple Chapters with around 2000 words. I hope you like it. Please be kind this is my first Fanfiction and English is not my first language. (I am open for constructive criticism). I will try to upload a chapter everyday.

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Chapter One

Nari’s POV

The scent of freshly brewed coffee filled the small apartment as Nari moved through her morning routine. She had always been the kind of person who found comfort in structure—waking up at 6 AM, stretching while the coffee brewed, and sitting by the window with her first cup before the world outside fully woke up.

Her apartment was modest but cozy, filled with small touches that reflected her personality. A few framed photographs on the wall, an overflowing bookshelf near the couch, and a small collection of potted plants that she desperately tried to keep alive.

The early morning was her favorite time of day. The city was quiet, and for a little while, she could pretend she wasn’t a part of the chaos.

Taking a slow sip of her coffee, she glanced at the calendar on the fridge.

Tuesday, 7:30 AM – Arrive at school

8:00 AM – First class: Literature

10:30 AM – Staff meeting

12:00 PM – Lunch break

Her schedule was predictable, familiar. Just how she liked it.

With a deep breath, she placed her mug in the sink, grabbed her bag, and slipped on her shoes.

Nari had never imagined herself as a teacher when she was younger.

She had always liked learning, but she had never seen herself standing in front of a classroom, guiding students through their own education. It wasn’t until university that she realized how much she enjoyed helping others understand things—how rewarding it was to see a student’s face light up when they finally grasped something they had been struggling with.

Her school was a mid-sized private academy, known for its rigorous academic programs and well-connected alumni network. Most of the students came from well-off families, but she had a handful who reminded her of herself—students who worked hard, who tried their best even when the system wasn’t built for them.

She made her way through the school gates, greeting a few fellow teachers on the way.

"Good morning, Nari-ssi!"

She turned to see Mr. Kang, the science teacher, giving her a warm smile.

"Good morning," she replied with a nod.

"Did you hear? We’re having a special event this Friday," he said, falling into step beside her.

Nari frowned. "An event?"

Mr. Kang nodded. "A broadcast channel is coming to film a segment here. They’re bringing in a well-known guest to interact with the students."

Her stomach twisted slightly. Broadcast channels meant cameras. And cameras meant attention—something she had carefully avoided for years.

"Do we know who the guest is?" she asked, keeping her tone casual.

Mr. Kang shrugged. "Not sure. Some idol group, I think. The students are already excited about it."

Nari exhaled slowly. It would be fine. She would just keep her head down and focus on her job.

With that thought in mind, she made her way to her classroom, ready to start another day.

Yunho’s POV

The laughter echoed through the dorm, warm and familiar.

Yunho sat on the couch, watching as Wooyoung leaned dramatically against Sophie’s shoulder, pouting as she pushed him away with an exaggerated eye roll. Across the room, Mingi had his arm lazily draped over Emilia’s shoulders as they scrolled through a takeout menu. Jongho and Hana were bickering over what movie to watch, their banter filled with the kind of ease that only came from knowing someone for years.

Couples.

Everywhere.

He sighed, running a hand through his hair. He was happy for them—really, he was. But there was a part of him that felt strangely out of place.

It wasn’t that he wanted a relationship just for the sake of it. He wasn’t the type to jump into something without meaning it. But watching his friends, seeing the way they fit so effortlessly into each other’s lives, made him wonder if he had missed out on something.

If he had let something slip through his fingers years ago.

"Feeling lonely?" Seonghwa’s voice pulled him from his thoughts.

Yunho blinked, realizing Seonghwa had settled next to him. He followed his gaze, looking at the couples around them.

"Not lonely," Yunho muttered. "Just… thinking."

Seonghwa hummed, leaning back against the couch. "You’ve been quiet lately."

Yunho let out a small laugh. "I think I’ve just had too much time to think."

He didn’t say it, but the truth was, no matter how much time passed, he always found himself thinking about her.

Nari.

It wasn’t constant—not every day, not every moment. But some nights, when things were quiet, when the world slowed down just enough for his thoughts to catch up with him, he wondered where she was. If she was happy. If she ever thought about him the way he still thought about her.

She had left him with no explanation beyond "this is for the best."

And yet, it had never felt like the best for him.

Seonghwa studied him for a moment before speaking again.

"You know," he said, "life has a funny way of bringing people back together when you least expect it."

Yunho scoffed, shaking his head. "Yeah, well, I don’t think fate works that way."

Seonghwa just smirked, standing up. "Guess we’ll see."

Nari’s POV

By the time lunch rolled around, Nari was exhausted.

Her students had been particularly talkative that morning, and the staff meeting had dragged on longer than expected. She made her way to the teacher’s lounge, hoping for a quiet moment before her afternoon classes.

But the moment she stepped inside, the air was buzzing with excitement.

"You won’t believe who’s coming for the broadcast event," one of the younger teachers, Jiwoo, practically squealed.

Nari didn’t pay much attention at first, moving to pour herself a cup of tea. But then—

"Ateez!" Jiwoo announced. "They’re coming this Friday!"

Nari froze.

The cup in her hand trembled slightly, and she had to place it down before she dropped it.

"Are you serious?" another teacher asked, eyes wide.

Jiwoo nodded. "I overheard the principal talking about it. The students are going to go crazy. Can you imagine? Actual idols walking through these hallways?"

Nari could hear her own heartbeat in her ears.

Ateez.

Yunho.

Her hands clenched into fists as she tried to steady her breathing. This isn’t happening.

For years, she had stayed out of his world. She had avoided his music, his interviews, anything that would remind her of what she had lost. She had told herself it was for the best.

And now, fate was dragging him right back into her life.

Nari swallowed hard, her mind racing.

She couldn’t see him.

She wouldn’t see him.

Whatever happened on Friday, she would make sure she stayed as far away as possible.

Because if Yunho saw her—if he looked at her with that same hurt in his eyes—she wasn’t sure if she could handle it.

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The day had passed in a blur, but Nari barely remembered any of it.

By the time the last bell rang, dismissing students for the day, she realized she had been running on autopilot. She had graded assignments, gone over lesson plans, and answered questions—but she hadn’t truly been there. Her mind had been elsewhere, stuck in an endless loop of Ateez. Yunho. This Friday.

Her fingers tightened around the stack of papers she had been holding. Why did it have to be them?

After years of carefully avoiding him—after staying in the shadows of his growing career—he was going to be right in front of her again. And he wouldn’t just be a distant figure on a television screen or a name she overheard in passing. He would be real.

And worse? He would see her.

She could almost hear what he would say. The sharp, incredulous way he would say her name. Nari? The disbelief in his voice. The confusion. The hurt.

She could not let that happen.

With a deep breath, she straightened her shoulders and pushed the thought aside. She had work to do—things to focus on that didn’t involve her past.

At least, that was what she told herself.

The next day at school was just as restless.

The students buzzed with excitement about the upcoming event. Even her usually quiet class couldn’t stop whispering between assignments.

“I heard they’re performing Live! Like, right here in the gym!”

“Do you think we’ll get autographs?”

“My cousin saw Ateez in concert once—she said they’re even hotter in person.”

Nari sighed, rubbing her temples. This is going to be a long day.

She tried her best to ignore the conversations, but every mention of his name sent her pulse racing.

Did he still look the same? Had his voice changed? Did he still smile the way he used to?

She shook her head. None of that matters.

Even if he was standing just meters away in a few days, she had no reason to approach him. No reason to let herself slip back into the past.

She had made her choice.

She just had to stick to it.

Yunho’s POV

Yunho had been through countless schedules in his career. Music shows, fan meetings, concerts in different countries—by now, they were second nature.

So why did this one feel different?

He stared at the itinerary on his phone, his brows furrowing.

Broadcast School Event – Private Academy in Seoul.

It wasn’t the event itself that bothered him. He had done plenty of school visits before. But for some reason, the thought of this one left a weird feeling in his chest.

“Hyung,” San’s voice snapped him out of his thoughts. “You okay?”

Yunho blinked, realizing he had been staring at his phone for too long.

“Yeah,” he said quickly, locking the screen. “Just tired.”

San didn’t look convinced. “You’ve been spacing out a lot lately.”

Yunho chuckled, forcing himself to shake it off. “Just thinking.”

San hummed, unconvinced but not pushing. “Well, stop thinking too hard. We’ve got dance practice in five minutes.”

Yunho sighed, running a hand through his hair. Right. Work first.

But even as he followed San to the practice room, something nagged at the back of his mind.

By the time the school event rolled around, Yunho had forgotten about the strange feeling—at least, that’s what he told himself.

It was just another event. Another schedule.

At least, it was—until they stepped onto school grounds.

Something about being back in an academic setting made something in his chest tighten. Memories of old classrooms, the smell of chalk and ink, the sound of sneakers squeaking against linoleum floors.

And then—

A feeling.

Like something was just out of reach.

A familiar presence.

But that was ridiculous.

Right?

“Yunho, you coming?”

He snapped out of it, realizing the rest of the members were already walking ahead.

“Yeah,” he muttered, shaking his head. “Coming.”

Still, he couldn’t shake the feeling that something was about to happen.

Something he wasn’t prepared for.

Nari’s POV

The moment had arrived.

The students were gathered in the gymnasium, waiting with eager anticipation as the staff made final preparations.

Nari stood to the side, keeping a safe distance from the excitement. She had strategically positioned herself where she could see but not be seen.

Her heart pounded as she watched the doors open, and one by one, they walked in.

The students erupted into cheers as Ateez entered, each of them flashing their signature smiles and waves.

And then—

Her breath caught in her throat.

Because there he was.

Jeong Yunho.

Time had done something to him—sharpened him, refined him. His hair was styled differently, his jawline more defined, his presence even stronger than she remembered.

But his eyes—

They were the same.

And the second those familiar brown eyes swept across the crowd and landed on her, she knew.

He had seen her.

Yunho’s POV

It took less than ten seconds.

One moment, he was walking into the gym, smiling at the students, waving like he had done at dozens of events before.

The next, his entire world tilted on its axis.

He hadn’t been looking for her.

He hadn’t even thought about the possibility of seeing her here.

But the moment his eyes met hers, everything else disappeared.

The noise of the crowd faded into a dull hum. The lights, the cameras, the cheers—all of it blurred.

It was just her.

Nari.

His Nari.

For a second, he thought he was imagining it. That maybe his mind was playing tricks on him after years of wondering, of missing her in quiet moments when no one was looking.

But it wasn’t a trick.

She was real.

And she was right there.

His feet moved before he could think. Before he could process what he was doing.

But then—

She turned away.

And disappeared into the crowd.

Like she had never been there at all.

Just like she had left him all those years ago.

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Disclaimer:This is a work of fiction. The characters, events, and scenarios in this story are entirely fictional and not intended to reflect the real lives of the members of Ateez or any other individuals. This fanfiction is purely for entertainment purposes.

[omegaprotocol]

Hailey Meets Dr. Rovert

Hailey wakes up in her home alone. She takes a shower, gets dressed, and sits down on her couch in front of her TV to open her laptop and read the damage. She checks her emails and sees that she has ten more rejected job offers. She closes her eyes and breathes heavily hoping that when she opens them again that the problem will be gone. She thinks about what she should’ve done differently but she can’t think of anything. She would either have to build an ultimate weapon or lose everything that she worked for since middle school. Its a lose lose no matter how you slice it. She opens her eyes again and checks her phone. Turns out that she has two missed calls. One from Jason, and one from an unknown number. She turns on the voicemails and listens.

“Hey, Hailey, It’s Jason. But you probably already knew from caller ID. Uh, I know that you're having a tough time right now with the jobs and everything so I wanted to say that if you needed help with anything just let me know. I’m gonna be at the Fareway for lunch today so if you want to meet me there we could talk about it. Or just hang out, that works too. Umm, ok bye.” Hailey laughs at the awkwardness of the voice mail. Some things never change. She opens the next voicemail.

“Hello Dr. O’hara, this is Dr. Rovert, the dean of the Rosen Institute of Technology. I wanted to talk to you about your application to be a professor at our school.” Hailey’s face lights up, as this is the first real response she has gotten from anyone in days. “I had some things I wanted to discuss with you if you're interested before offering you the position. If you're still looking for the opportunity, why don’t you stop by my office today at the university at around 1:00. Thank you for your time, have a good one.” After the voicemail ends, Hailey screams. She looks at the time on her phone. 12:40. She immediately enters panic mode and drops everything to get ready and out the door as quickly as possible.

Later when Hailey gets to the university, she walks into the pristine front office. Everything is totally new and spotless. Hailey expected nothing less from an ivy league school. She checked the time, 1:03 pm, hopefully she wasn’t too late. She steps up to the secretary.

“Hello, I’m Dr. O’hara here to see Dr. Rovert.”

“What time was your appointment?”

“1:00”

“Hmm, I’m not seeing anything on Dr. Rovert’s schedule for 1:00, are you sure that is the time?”

“Uh, I’m pretty sure, I had received a voice mail from him asking me to be here at one.”

“Ok, well I’ll let him know you're here, so it will just be a moment. You can go ahead and have a seat until he is ready for you.

“Yeah, no problem, thank you.” Hailey picks one of the many uncomfortable chairs to sit in, and contemplates what she is going to say. After pushing the hair out of her eyes for the millionth time, she worries about whether Dr. Rovert will bring up the latest buzz about her career, or worse, the defense grant. She sits in agony in anticipation as time seems to slow to a stop. It had only been two minutes.

“Dr. Rovert is ready for you, just go ahead and head inside.” Shocked by the break in silence, Hailey jolts up and walks into the office. Inside she finds a well dressed man in a suit, sitting at his desk surrounded by books about various topics.

“Ah, Dr. O’hara, so nice of you to drop by. Please, have a seat.”

“Of course, and thanks for replying to my application.”

“Absolutely, after all it did seem strange to see your name appear on the applicant sheet. The job listing seemed a bit below your station, and I just wanted to make sure you knew that we were just looking for a professor to teach intro level courses.

“Yes I’m aware. I wanted to put my hat in the ring for a change of pace from my usual work, ya’know? Figured I could give teaching a try.”

“Oh yeah, I get it, I mean getting to be on the cutting edge of robotics I’m sure is super tiring work.”

“Yes it is. And to be honest I don’t know if I’m really cut out for it.”

“Oh nonsense. I’ve read your books, and more importantly your dissertation, and I have to say, I am very impressed with your work. Truly you are ahead of your time when it comes to learning algorithms.” Hailey is a bit taken back by the compliment. It’s a nice change of pace from the things her colleagues are saying about her.

“Thank you so much, it really means alot to hear that.”

“Of course.” There is a small pause while Dr. Rovert contemplates how to say what he wants to say next. “I did however want to address the elephant in the room.” Hailey’s heart drops as her worst fears come true. “You lost the International Defense Grant. And despite frankly being over qualified for the position, I wanted to ask from a first hand source what happened. I heard many rumors from word of mouth but it felt unfair to make my own judgment without hearing from you first.” Hailey breathes in deep.

“Yes, well, it was unfortunate what happened. I programmed and made several systems as requested by the government, but unfortunately they were not satisfied with the final product and provided corrections. I changed my programs to compensate and was successful in all my changes and even delivered before the deadline, but the government was moving in a different direction so they decided they would go with someone else.” The words felt like glue trying to leave her mouth. Every word made Hailey angrier and angrier remembering how Roland had dismissed her like nothing. And even worse, now she was trying to relay that to her next potential employer who had no reason to believe her.

“I see… So if you don’t mind me asking, what are you working on now? No one has really heard from you in a few weeks after what happened.”

“Well, right now I’m in the process of writing a new book, it’s only in the beginning stages but I feel like it’s a topic that is very relevant to the future of robotics, true AI.”

“Ah yes, correct me if I’m wrong but that was the topic of your dissertation.

“Yes it was.”

“Have you built any prototypes of a project like that? Even just a proof of concept I feel would be rather impressive.”

“Yes, actually, I do.” Hailey opens up her laptop that she had brought with her and opened her rough drafts for the Omega Protocol. Many of the vital parts of the code were missing, and Hailey had made sure of it so Dr. Rovert couldn't see anything that would compromise Omega’s safety. Dr. Rovert however was very interested in her rough drafts.

“Wow, amazing. Well I think with that we can go ahead and conclude the interview. I think as of right now, you are just far too qualified for the position, and to be honest the pay really doesn’t reflect your academic achievements.” Hailey was overcome with dread as she heard those words. Feeling like she was back to square one, she began to pick up her laptop and was fully ready to cry in the car. “But, I think that we can come to a compromise. The university could really use classes about learning algorithms and AI. Just teach one or two higher level courses, and publish your book through the university press, and I will raise the annual salary to match your merit, and hire you for the start of next semester. What do you say?”

Hailey couldn’t believe the roller coaster of emotions. She was so happy, she felt like she could just scream at the top of her lungs. It was finally over, and now she could get back to getting her life back to normal. However, that would be unbefitting of a new professor.

“That sounds more than generous Dr. Rovert. I would love to teach here.”

“Perfect, I’ll have Susan upfront give you all the paperwork.” Hailey exits the office feeling like the world is finally breaking her way. She signs all the paperwork and goes to her car and immediately calls Jason.

“You’ll never guess what happened!”

“What?”

“I have a new job! I’m a professor at an ivy league school!”

“Hailey, that’s awesome! I knew you could do it! See? It’s only a matter of time before we get everything all figured out, now all we gotta do is handle the whole saving the world thing. Easy peasy.”

Meanwhile back in Dr. Rovert’s Office, Dr. Rovert walks out to talk to his secretary.

“Susan? Can you make sure that a second key is made for Dr. O’hara’s new office? I want to have a spare just in case. And also get agent Roland back on the phone. Tell him that I’m accepting the defense grant offer. I have some new ideas that I think would solve our alien problem.” Susan timidly looks down at her keyboard as if she’s afraid to speak up.

“Yes sir, right away Dr. Rovert.” Without saying a word, Dr. Rovert walks back into his office and shuts the door. He grabs Hailey’s book that he had sitting on his desk and throws it into the trash with a disgusted look on his face

[antisocialgaycat]

(i would like to preface the following crash out by saying that what i am about to talk about was entirely my own fault lol and if its about you and you feel bad; dont)

ok pretty much background information i spent 13 hours on saturday rehearsing and then performing 3 shows and then on sunday i slept in until 11 and then had a rehearsal from 12 to 5 pm. also on friday i had a concert in the evening.

so from wednesday evening (not thursday because i was at another rehearsal) i have been conpletely unable to do more than a little bit of homework

other information: i am currently doing my class production in drama. we had a research booklet and a design booklet due this morning.

anyways basically yesterday evening i tried to access my group's design booklet but i fail miserably (no access) and move on with my life and just do the research booklet (i also deleted like 6 questions from it because i could not be fucked) oh i changed tenses pretend that was in past tense i cbb fixing it

anyways so today i ask why dont i have access to the design booklet anymore and yeah it was because i did jackshit on it which is true. however. I WOULDVE APPRECIATED IF SOMEONE TOLD ME BEFORE IT WAS FUCKING OVERDUE ALREADY.

I HAVE DONE THE SAME THING TO PEOPLE BEFORE BUT AT LEAST FIRST I GAVE THEM THE COURTESY OF TELLING THEM THAT IF THEY DIDNT GET THEIR SHIT TOGETHER ID KICK THEM OFF. AND THEN TELLING THEM WHEN I KICK THEM OFF.

also i thought they fucking knew me better than this but obviously not

and like ofc i shouldve told them abt my inability to do any work before the night before something was due like thats just common fucking sense that i shldve told them but i want to be dramatic and not take responsibility rn so thats what im doing

and so me being me i dramatically left the bio box and went to do manual labour because goddamn i was losing my shit.

also btw tay. if you see this. your conversation after i left to put the cord away was not quiet enough. i heard it. yes i was pissed but at myself.

anyways i then downloaded microsoft word on my phone and did the first third of it before getting too overwhelmed and fucking giving up.

on the program for the show my name was listed third out of 4 in the lighting crew. and idk why that hurt me but it fucking did. even if it was in order by how much we did i still would be third.

also i think ive ruined at least one if not two and possibly even three of my friendships but maybe I'm just being a paranoid bitch

oh and to make matters worse: i bled through my costume on stage and idk if ill get it clean in time for tomorrow's show. if my period didn't come 42 days late this wouldn't be a fucking issue but here we are

also im just so fucking tired i can't deal with any of this shit

and i know i cant trust my judgement after 9 pm however. i really dont want to lose more friends

i currently have 0 at choir and i dont need it to be the same at school goddamn

if i havent ruined it with one friend i know ive made it different at the very least and i dont want that at all

but at least i won't have to deal with her for a bit and I'll have time to get my shit together

i phrased that awfully goddamn

but yeah. im doing great. counting down the days until my next therapy appointment. au revoir je vous aime

[harshadha]

I Bought the iPhone 16 and Immediately Regretted It

I Bought the iPhone 16 and Immediately Regretted It

I fell for it again.

You know how it goes—Apple drops a new iPhone, the internet loses its mind, and suddenly your perfectly good phone feels ancient. So, like a responsible adult, I impulse-bought the iPhone 16 at midnight, fully convinced this would be the upgrade that changed my life.

Spoiler: It wasn’t.

The First 24 Hours: "Wait… This Is It?"

I unboxed it with the excitement of a kid on Christmas morning. Held it up next to my iPhone 15. Squinted. Turned them both over.

The differences?

The cameras are stacked vertically now (revolutionary, I know)

The Action Button is a tiny bit clickier

It weighs, like, two paperclips more

I handed both to my roommate and asked, "Which one’s the new one?"

She guessed wrong. Twice.

One Week In: The Disappointment Sinks In

The Camera: "Better" But Who Cares?

I took 100 identical photos of my dog. My friends couldn’t tell which were from the 16. Night mode is slightly brighter if you zoom in 300%, but let’s be real—nobody’s doing that.

Performance: "Faster" But… Why?

Apps open maybe 0.2 seconds quicker. Games run the same. Scrolling through TikTok? Identical. Unless you’re editing 8K movies on your phone (you’re not), you won’t notice.

Battery Life: The Only Real Upgrade

The 16 lasts about an hour longer than my 15. But here’s the thing—my 15 already gets me through the day. Was an extra hour worth ₹85,900? Absolutely not.

The Price Tag That Made Me Gasp

Phone Starting Price iPhone 15 ₹79,900 iPhone 16 ₹85,900

That’s ₹6,000 more for… what? A slightly different camera bump and a battery that dies at 11 PM instead of 10?

Here’s what else ₹85,900 could get you:

A weekend trip to the mountains

A new PlayStation 5 and a 4K TV

213 avocado toasts at that bougie café

Literally anything more exciting than this phone

Who Should Actually Buy This?

✅ Maybe if…

Your current phone is held together by duct tape and hope

You’re still rocking an iPhone X (you’ve suffered enough)

You make money from smartphone photography

❌ Skip if…

You have an iPhone 12 or newer

Your current phone works fine (it probably does)

You’d rather spend that money on something actually fun

What I Did Instead

In a rare moment of clarity, I:

Returned the iPhone 16

Gave my iPhone 15 a deep clean (it deserved better)

Used the refund to book a spontaneous weekend trip

Best decision ever. That trip gave me more joy than any phone ever could.

The Truth Nobody Wants to Admit

We’ve been tricked into thinking we need a new phone every year. But the upgrades are so tiny now that unless your current one is actually broken, you’re just paying thousands for bragging rights.

Your iPhone 15 (or even 14 or 13) can still:

Take great photos

Run all your apps

Survive being dropped in a panic

Make calls (remember those?)

Save your money. That ₹85,900 could buy you real happiness—not just a slightly different rectangle.

Now if you’ll excuse me, I need to go apologize to my bank account. And maybe buy my iPhone 15 a drink for putting up with me.

iPhone 16: The Phone That Finally Gets Out of Your Way

You know that feeling when your phone just… works? That's the iPhone 16. After using it for a month, I stopped noticing it - and that's the highest compliment I can give.

Here's what actually matters when you're just trying to live your life:

It Never Makes You Wait That tiny pause when opening your camera? Gone. The slight stutter when switching between apps? History. It's like your phone finally learned to keep up with you.

Photos That Look Like Your Memories That sunset last night? The iPhone 16 actually captured it how you saw it - not some oversaturated version your phone thought looked better. And both sizes finally take the same great zoom shots (no more camera envy).

Battery Life You Can Actually Count On Left the house at 7:30 AM with 85% charge. GPS all day, dozens of photos, doomscrolling at lunch. Got home at 10 PM with 18% left. No battery anxiety is the best feature nobody talks about.

That Extra Button You'll Actually Use Mine's set to:

Open the camera (because kids don't pose)

Start a voice memo (for shower thoughts)

Turn on the flashlight (still fumbling in the dark after all these years)

It Just Feels Nice in Your Hand The slight curve fits your palm like that coffee mug you always reach for. The matte back doesn't become a fingerprint museum. It's the first iPhone in years that feels designed for humans.

Should You Buy It?

👉 Yes if:

Your phone dies before dinner

You've ever missed "the shot"

You're still using an iPhone with a home button

👉 No if:

Your current phone works fine

You upgrade just because it's new

You're waiting for Apple to reinvent the wheel (they won't)

The Truth: This isn't a phone that'll impress your friends. It's a phone that'll stop frustrating you. And after years of flashy features that don't matter, that might be exactly what we need.

Now if they could just make the perfect iPhone case…

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[theactsoftheapostles]

"Shebat." From the Acts of the Apostles 7: 11-12.

I am subdivding the story of Jacob/Israel in Egypt into smaller Mishnah in order to find out how each aspect fits into the equation Luke built about the Chosen 7. He mentions the famine that started in Egypt just before slavery started. Canaan is included in the famine area so I am merging the phenonmena into one Number:

Famine all over Egypt and Canaan=1670, י״וע, yetahua, "the ruler of the household led them to a disaster."

We are currently experiencing a famine. The White House has become a cracker barrel, the Congress too, because Mike Johnson is better at making gay porn than governing, the Iranians are planning to attain to the ownership of nuclear arms, and things in Russia are the same.

Luke says just as Moses did in the Torah one thing can fix global unethical behavior: a visit from our Jewish ancestors:

11 Then there was a famine all over Egypt and Canaan, which caused much suffering. Our ancestors could not find any food, 12 and when Jacob heard that there was grain in Egypt, he sent his sons, our ancestors, on their first visit there.

The Value in Gematria is 11701, יאן‎א‎, yaana, "an ostrich".

Jacob made an historic mistake when he sold his son to the Egyptians, followed him there and as we will see in the next frame, failed to return him and the rest of his people to Israel. This resulted in slavery and the near finish of the Jewish people. This sounds familiar. Luke however, has built in a solution:

The final Gemara is יאן‎אי״וע, January, AKA Shebat:

"The verb שבט (shabat) means to smite or beat. The common noun שבט (shebet) describes the staff; a weapon for travelers, a tool for shepherds and the implement with which farmers beat their grains. Later this item became a mark of authority: a scepter, also known as שרביט (sharbit)."

Those Mormons and Republicans et al need to be wiped from the face of the earth for what they did in Gaza on October 7, 2023, and before and since and we must return the hostages to Israel. We must not consort with the Enemy nor show him quarter while one Israelite or one of its allies remains in captivity. Terrorists who keep hostages do not get humanitarian aid, food, water, bandaids, none of it. If the people of Gaza want these things, all they need to do is return those missing Jews and it will be done. Otherwise, you are all already dead.

Please also see my open letter to the International Criminal Court:

Re: Arrest Warrant for PM Benjamin Netanyahu for War Crimes

Dear Sirs, 

I personally overheard numerous United States Senators and Representatives and current and former Presidents planning to attack Israel by force. Which they did on October, 7, 2023. Many of the persons in their presence including Karoline Leavitt and others have been sighted recently behind enemy lines assisting Hamas fighters. 

Netanyahu was correct to use lethal force against the people that attacked Israel on its own soil and took hostages in the manners in which they did. I am asking for you to withdraw the warrant. The Republican Party and its Mormon allies are filthy violent corrupt people and everything possible must be done to stop their infestation of this planet. 

Please let me know if I can provide you with further details. 

Michael 

...

As far as our lesson found in the Acts, re: the Chosen Seven, I believe this is the sort of response to the circumstances in Gaza to which Luke referred.

[kittyfairyblog]

January 28 2025

Meow meow, greetings and welcome to my one and only blog. Well everything is going rather smoothly now that it is blogging time which is 1 pm sometime. My display port to HDMI adapters came in the mail today and I hooked it right up to my new to me desktop. Okay so I got up around 10:40 something in the morning and got ready for the day. I made my bed right off the bat and then grabbed a couple of things to take with me to the front part of the house. I put my breakfast bowl and cup in the kitchen sink and I then made myself something to eat for lunch. I had leftovers for lunch and ate them at the usual place in the dining room. Meow once I finished eating I took out the trash to the carport. After taking out the trash, I took Kylie outside on her morning walk. The grass was a little bit wet but I still took her around the yard a number of times. While taking her for a walk I heard the mail coming so I was a bit upset about hearing the mail early. I came back inside with Kylie and started putting away the dinner dishes from last night and I also did the dishes. Meow once I finished that I sat down in the living room and waited for the mail. The mail came around 11:30 AM and I went outside to check the mail with Kylie. I gathered the mail and brought it inside along with Kylie. I put away the mail and I opened my package which was the Display Port to HDMI adapters for my desktop computer. I went to my room, put in the Display Port to HDMI adapter and it worked on my new computer. Meow well I hadn't used my new computer yet again and its been on my mind while doing other things. I then grabbed my Switch and my laptop and went to the front part of the house. I put my laptop down on the dining room tablet and put my Switch in the living room. I was going to play Animal Crossing on my Switch but I was a little distracted. So instead I went on my phone looked up things. I am thinking about buying a portable monitor for my new computer. Meow this neko boy then watched a couple of YouTube videos until it came to be 12:30 pm and I took Kylie outside around the yard. It was a bit more warmer outside than it had been the first time I took Kylie outside so I didn't bring my coat. Meow I brought Kylie back inside and made myself some tuna and crackers for a snack. I had my snack and then sat down in the living room. I am listening to BoA while I work on wrapping up this entry.

Yesterday I ended up writing a little in my novel. I didn't feel like writing so I put it up and instead played some Animal Crossing. At almost 8 pm my mom had to take my dad's pain medicine to him since he forgot it. My mom left the house and I was alone with Kylie for a while. I didn't know what to do so I searched for some cables but didn't find the one I was looking for. Well my mom came back home. She had to take my sister's car to take the meds to my dad at work because he already took our car.

Well that about covers everything. It is still 1 pm something and I got a while to go. I hope everyone has a good week. My Adult Ballet teacher around to answering my email today of all things and messaged me back saying come next week. So I guess that means next Monday I will get to go to classes as usual. Anyway I might post some pictures this time around. Hopefully you all will like them. Until next time, bye.

[theorist-influencer-untitled]

12.3.24 Tuesday--Still, praying for nana's recovery in a lil while or after few weeks....

12:10 am

Still,have windblow...

Again,angels I hope I can really get my "payout" from "videocosh" ... I will wait for it until December 10 coz according to them just wait for 7 to 30 days....My one month doing the task in "videocosh" will be this coming 10th of December.

I feel bitterish that I can't get a bf that I want and hate being left out... I feel mixed-up... I needed a bf like supposed to be my cousin-white, I can't accept it that he got married and didn't talk to me that I figured out that Aunt Ten2x hated me. Obviously she hated me for her white son coz of our or my situation here... That I wanna do a "I heard the rumuor the thing" ... I hope Daniel as my bf to be? You must help me fulfill these "I heard the rumuor thing" on my cousin-white family coz it hurts me so much that his mother hated me coz of our insanity here and for being cheap these days, perhaps...

Of course,Daniel it hurts me so much that we have a percentage of being connected like a true blood and flesh of being a family...A family not just on fraternity or not just a circle of friends but a family having a percentage of being connected on blood and flesh... It is really ugly that his mother or my Aunt Ten/Tin vomited me coz of our poorish and chaotic situation here....

11:32 am

Still,have windblow...

Done,watching "Inside of Us, Family Switch" both are like 13 going to 30 and Freaky Friday.

Imagine your body will own by a different soul....Can you imagine or are you imagining that you will enter on someone's body and your senses will be on someone's body...

I will feel bad if my most favorite cousin-white is enjoying someone's body right now....You get my point angels?

Uncle Doods said he was married and I can't accept it!!!

How can I see Daniel to talk to him please heal my aching heart, my aching flesh and my aching ego...

Another point of watching these movies that are magical that someone can do religious switching of our soul and spirit... Again, this will be the saddest part of my life if my nana can't go back to her existence...

It is just sad that Mitch and some old friends didn't want me around, supposed to be I will let them have my soul then I changed my mind... Or at least tell me what's going on???

2:38 pm

Still,have windblow...

Just a back-up if in-case and mainly for camping and soup or noodles. Just wanna have it and try it and yeah! It is real... I want mini stuff but with ability...

Planning to buy siopao if I can still insert on my budget... We have siomai, I can do steamish foodish... I love ish...

I'm trying to fry egg without cooking oil coz it is really non-stick!

2:51 pm

Still,have windblow...

Egg is done.... Next steaming siomai and making pancit canton...

3:02 pm

Still,have windblow...

Pancit Canton is done! Hmm... Just a back-up and for camping...

Siomai is done as well...

Steam is better on siomai... I love and enjoy small stuff that has a big ability to make me happy like tail of pig and gummy bears.... Of course we pray to get a goal,in time...

9:25 pm

Still,have windblow...

I hate the windblow sometimes the leads of it are not good, sometimes the leads are nice...

I just don't want anyone here in Cavite to damage me on the man that I want even on my cousin-white but I'm having confusion if he is already married... It is heart breaking for me... Even as well on Daniel Marsh probably other envious people here in Cavite who are having a bad hearts will bash me about my beauty and about my cute face...

I know ever since I was really cute but I was naturally timid or quiet coz of something happened to me... But of course our self-esteem is possible to have its own ups and downs it depends on the situation. I was raised as really religious... I know I have a cute face ever since but there were point of my life that I wanted enhancement and I need some medication on my sinusitis... But I was always muse since birth but beauty is it depends on the situation...

Like what I said a pretty face can fade within 2 months if something happened or it depends on the situation and it depends on the level of stress that you have within you...

I had a therapy remedy for my sinusitis just lately after college... I was really cute...

I was raised to know and learn vanity...Here in these pages or on my first account just few months ago, I became ugly coz of stress when I received a fake serum from Lazadah, remember angels? I was really stressed-out coz I was really excited to receive the serum but they gave me a fake serums that my money was really budgeted and meant for that serum, for my vanity. Someone just put the white liquid of egg then mixed with a laundry powder....When I tried it on my inner arm it felt really itchy...

Another, stressed days that I had here on my pages the time that I tried to learn how to cook coz during the time that I was in Nightingale, ask them my batchmates there, I couldn't cook at all...

Time that I tried and learning how to cook after I passed my theory exams on caregiving and now I'm somehow good at math coz maturity comes in that I needed to learn for me to be able to compute the rightful calories amount that the patient should have...

I sent something on someone's FB's pages that hey! We have pandemic, I'm learning how to cook, I became ugly for a couple of months then I gained weight then I cut my hair, my legs gained a bit then after awhile I told myself time to recover...It was really2x funny in my part... But my life from the past 17 years was really hellish for me....I wasn't happy at all but I've learned so much in life...There were few comedy part like the time that I tried learning how to cook, it was pandemic lockdown days....

I'm naturally conscious but there were days that I lost my awareness time that I had slight amnesia, remember my amnesia days angels?

Then, accidentally I saw "Caroline Girvan" her home workout program on youtube coz something happened, I couldn't go back to "Anytime Fitness"... Then, we had have a "tight budgeting" so, after learning cooking, I told myself time to recover...

Beauty is something that you have to maintain... Gets,angels? Vanity means expenses if you wanna glow forever... Gets? You have to have serums such as retinols, niacinamide, funny "FROWNIES" that supposed to be my lambing on my cousin-white.... Lambing means favour or my sweet request.... If I can do botox that I still plan to do....

Cooking that I did or learned were Filipino everyday dishes like sinigang, adobo, menudo, pata, chicken curry, Fried Bangus with something inside but I created my own version, Paksiw et al... It was really hellish for me when I started learning these foodish... Now, yeah! I can cook even on my eyes close,these are Filipino foodish. But I knew some foreign food like using the "airfyer"....

It was my first " air fryer" it was just a Lazadah but it is good but I hope and pray to have a much bigger and branded "air fryer".

I love cooking on an air fryer....I love marinating chicken on a maple syrup or pancake syrup with a mixed of lemon and a bit of salt and pepper and garlic on it, something like that....

I just hate being bashed in-front of my bf or the man that I want coz I always had have etiquette in life, if I loose it probably it was a provoked situation.

I need a surgical gloves when cooking... I wanted nail polish on me....I wish for gel polish but it is expensive...

11:13 am

Still,have windblow...

I don't know,I think this is for Mitch??? She didn't want me around and some old fakers friends???

Being artist in the society or doing some movement gaining people is one way of liking and loving yourself coz it is X-factor....

[gloam-eyed-radio-tower]

January 20th, 2024

"I already feel like ill quit super fast

Uhmmm May 5th 2023, 12:30 pm" I didn't quit but when I said I would write to myself at chaotic time frames I clearly did mean it. Well I did write in my notebooks more, well in 2 specific ones, one right after may in june where I spent just 1 week writing in it, in a way it was an act of passion and the other one quite the opposite an act of love ( something that goes against passion ). I was thinking of doing a third one as they are cursed notebooks and I wanted to make a Gravity Falls joke but since 1 isnt with me anymore and the 2nd I was writing during a span of 6 months and finished on New Years I thought it was a fitting end of that. I...just need a place for this stuff and its easier for me to write here than in some scrappy notebook sometimes, ill think of a thing to do with them. The first time I wrote something here is when I finally started feeling better ( not again, before that point I never felt good ) at January 10th, 2022., before that point every year I was getting worse and worse over the course of my life but right when I did get better in 2022... my mom died, I ran away alone and planned to run away even further alone until I couldnt ( not because of my mothers passing, just something else I felt) and I came back, no matter how you try and fight it you come back where you are supposed to be. 2023 was a calm year, probably the best one I had maybe, I dont think about that stuff much, I got something back thats extremely dear to me, the only troubles that I did have were managing how I should feel about having it back and maybe some sort of fear of restarting the last 8 years all over again. I started uni, its nice, I am managing, tried to be more social but I feel like there is a disconnect that I cant brake on my own with the world... It snowed yesterday, I have a lot of thoughts always but I cant speak, write or draw a thing. I sometimes want to live more normally but I require other people for that, going places, maybe parties, even if I hate them I would go, drink coffee, maybe, but I need other people for that and I dont really have either family or friends for it. No matter how you look at it and no matter how many times I justify to myself that other people are a problem also and the world its all on me, its on my if I cant change any of that and if I cant change the world in the way that I like so I am at peace, as long as I am at fault for my life, I am at peace. I guess I did feel a little bit gloomy but it is comforting to me. It is still inside I am sure of it, it will always be, you will know what I mean. Anyways what was playing while I wrote this.

I played a lot of persona, done with the Prime Ministers palace, almost done with the game it does feel a bit sad ( and pathetic) saying goodbye, I did spend more time with those characters than with people in real life.

Also 1 photo from the time I spent with my brother and his girlfriend at the mountain, it was nice, there is a lot of pretty pictures tho.

I little bit longer than I wanted, but Ill probably forget about this until next year anyways.