#not sure how to tag this in terms of it being a tarot card

[thedrawnherbarium]

was playing around w/ some android!zero AU designs and a tarot deck ideas

my friend circle voted 50/50 for these so have both ig:/ jk i like them both, but the darker vibe is more what i was going for haha

[blackwall-my-tiny-husband]

Tarot Tuesday

Rules: Take inspiration from the drawn card to write a short fic, scene, art, doodle, whatever inspires you. You have the whole week to the following Tuesday. Feel free to tag friends!

This Week's Card (6/10/25): Five of Swords

[Woven Path Tarot] Keywords: Conflict, betrayal, deceit Imagery: Pyrrhic victory, post-battle, looming threat

Thank you for the tag @woundedsoul12 I’m not great at writing arguments but I really wanted to try (and I wanted to do something for @viagoweek day 2 for this as well) was going to keep it short but it got away from me a little

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Flowering vines growing in loops and climbing lines decorated the banister where Zalan sat. Or hid may have been a better term. It was a storage room high up in the de Riva house and the fledgling twirled a bloom between his fingers, a pensive look on his face.

Viago was looking for him, he wasn’t sure why his mentor wanted him but he had a feeling it was for nothing good. It was never for anything good these days. For only being sixteen Zalan felt he was already a master at reading the Crow that took him in, and the man was more angry than not any time he’d spot his younger charge. Zalan could never do anything right no matter how he tried.

Even just earlier he’d been sparring with Gemma, who was about his age and skill level when Viago had stopped them mid fight and told Zalan to go do endurance training instead. The anger had washed over him but he’d left as instructed, but instead of training had scaled the building up to his spot among the blooming morning glories.

And he knew he’d be found sooner or later, that he’d have to face whatever punishment his mentor doled out but for now his anger boiled. Gemma was a fine fighter, sure. He remembered when he was still young and she’d arrived and the two had grown up together. She was quiet and determined, but he didn’t think she was a better fighter than himself. He would have won that match so why did Viago feel the need to stop it.

Petals crumpled in his fist as he crushed the flower in his hands and then still angry he threw the bloom aside letting it fall the several stories to the ground. Bitter resentment was welling in him even as he tried to push it down. Was it because Viago had seen the two in one of the common rooms several days ago? Zalan had kissed her after she’d told him he was cute, coy and teasing. Was his mentor afraid he was going easy in training now just because of that? He resisted the urge to yank another blossom off the vine, to just rip at the vine to destroy something.

The window shutters being pulled open behind him startled him and he wobbled on his perch, throwing his hands out to grasp the banister and steady himself. Turning to glare at whoever had opened the door he was surprised not to see his mentor but Gemma smirking at him. The scowl faded and he grinned, brightening up at her appearance.

“You know if you’re trying to hide being on the outside of the building facing the streets isn’t the smartest place to choose.” She teased, clasping her hands behind her back and rocking back on her heels. Zalan thought she was cute like that, she looked happy here not the intense empty gaze she sported during training.

“Maybe I just was waiting for you.” He joked back with an overly nonchalant shrug and a bright smile. Gemma laughed at him and walked closer, leaning out the window to look over him at the view.

“Brave of you to sit this far up, I’d be far too scared to sit out here.” She told him shaking her head in amusement. Zalan caught the glint in her eyes and he beckoned her up, patting the railing beside him,

“Come sit with me then, I’ll keep you from falling.” It was a boast that somewhere in his brain he wasn’t a hundred percent sure he could back up, he was strong enough but to pull a full human if she slipped would be a struggle. But he was sure he could do it. Sure enough that Gemma was smiling and leaned her body on the windowsill bringing her close to Zalan’s where he’d twisted inwards to talk to her. She was staring at his lips and he leaned in too, eyes starting to droop closed for the kiss he was expecting.

Lips pressed against his sending a tingle through him that for one second he enjoyed before the tingle intensified into a burn and he felt the unmistakable pain of a dagger pressing into his chest. His eyes snapped open again and saw Gemma, no longer smiling, stabbing an ornate dagger into him. She almost looked frustrated that he had broken the kiss so soon and with barely any expression change she shoved Zalan with all her might. He could feel his body begin to tip and he flailed his arms, the appendages already going numb from the poison that he knew was on his lips and could almost guess was on the knife as well.

His mind had blanked, the events not clicking into place and he could only stare at her.

Zalan watched the door to the storage room behind her burst open and Viago was running in, anger clear on his face. Somewhere in his brain he wanted to laugh, of course Viago looked angry at him, somehow he’d messed everything up. Again. But the talon grabbed Gemma by arm and yanked her away throwing the small girl to the ground and lunging forward to grab at Zalan, fingers brushing his armor and almost missing but catching on a boot and suddenly he wasn’t falling he was dangling, head smacking into the wall but he wasn’t being splattered over the ground so he couldn’t complain. The fledgling wasn’t actually sure he could complain if he wanted to, his tongue felt heavy and he heard the sounds of scuffling before the grunt of Viago hoisting him back up and dumping him onto the floor in a heap.

One of the older crows must have been behind Viago when his mentor had burst into the room because they were dragging Gemma away. He couldn’t tell if she was dead or just unconscious but he was too busy laying on the ground fighting through the poisons to care.

Viago grabbed him by the shirt and yanked him close to yell at him, anger clear in his voice.

“What did you think you were doing Zalan!” His voice was raised and the fledgling felt anger of his own roiling up out of him.

“What did I do? Why are you here? Why was Gemma trying to kill me?” He was speaking through clenched teeth, glare equally as intense as Viago’s

“You never listen to me! If you’d listened and gone to endurance training like I instructed-“ He cut himself off, anger getting the better of him but Zalan only felt his own rage surge.

“You knew?! You knew she was going to do this and you didn’t tell me?” He tried to shove Viago’s hands away but his arms were still weak from whatever he’d been dosed with.

“She was showing signs of a traitor for weeks Zalan, I’m sorry you were too enthralled with her to see it.” He wasn’t quite yelling anymore but he was shaking Zalan with every sentence.

“Then why even stop her? You just love telling me how I’m not good enough, keep saying I don’t deserve to be a crow. Why not just let her get rid of the problem?” He spat bitterly, arms still useless.

“I am not wasting all the time and effort I’ve spent training you just because you’re being an idiot!”

“Oh yes all your precious time and effort, can’t have that it’ll look bad for your house if too many of us die right? You don’t care about us, about me, you only care about what the other talons think right?”

“Yes it would look bad for my house if I let too many of my charges be fools and die on me. And so, I will not let you waste all that time and effort.” He glared but wasn’t yelling anymore and with a sharp look he ripped the dagger out and pressed a towel from the shelves nearby to his chest. And with little struggle, picked up Zalan and tossed him over his shoulder,. “We’ll get you patched up and you can sit in your room until the poisons work their way out of your system.”

Zalan was woozy from being tossed around and the poisons and kept his mouth clamped firmly shut though he did briefly think about throwing up on Viago, out of spite but choose to stay silent and let his anger slowly start to burn itself out. Maybe he’d barf in one of Viago’s shoes later, if the poisons really made him feel that bad, that would show him.

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(I hope I really channeled that teenage vibe here for him lol)

Gently no pressure tagging: @davrinsleftpectoral @jukkaricity @kabsey @pixiedurango @chaosherald @hedwigoprah @draco-illius-noctis

[gingergofastboatsmojito]

Sydney's tower moment #Flimsywalls

And Carmy's.

So, as I mentioned here, Emanuel knows her walls are getting flimsier. And on shipping terms that is actually a good thing.

BUT

On Storer's terms, that may ALSO symbolically mean that Syd is about to come crumbling down and that her relationship with The Bear (both, restaurant and chef) is collapsing, which is what S3 was all about, basically.

I am team Syd threatening to quit Carmy's ass and THAT being the wake-up call he needs to turn it all around, that being said there is a chance that she actually does quit on him and then comes back, -as she usually does- in which case I wish she did that because he crawls and begs and rips Shapiro's head off in the process. Still, in either case, there is NO DOUBT IN MY MIND about Syd staying at The Bear and winning a star there, by Carmy's side, even maybe a JB award too. I'm basing this theory on the fact that they both hit rock bottom in 03x10 but I see that as a BREAKTHROUGH, not a breakdown.

Since Syd is clearly into tarot symbology as her 3 of swords ink indicates

I started thinking outside the box of the flimsy walls analogy I already went over in previous posts, so the image of a building collapsing came to mind, which immediately reminded me of the tower card, and turns out that the meaning of it fits the "Crying game" moment aforementioned.

I really don't wanna dig into it's meaning that deep because I think the superficial meaning fits perfectly, so there's no need to go deeper.

"This card is a powerful catalyst for change and personal transformation. You are being offered a fresh start and a chance to build stronger foundations in your life. This card brings a major life shift and the knowledge that things will never be the same."

How right on the money is that, right?

So both Carmy and Syd are at that evolutionary point of their journeys, they are mirroring each other in a very fucked up way, sure, but also... SOULMATISM.

Syd is at her breaking point and no matter what she chooses, nothing will be the same between Carmy and her after she makes her choice, and the very foundation of their whole relationship is being shaken and will have to be reformulated, re-built in a different and better way because status quo has no chance of being preserved.

"It has to get good or go away".

That's the tower energy that card represents, alongside the traumatic way in which events unfold, where the person feels is no longer in control, and that all those changes, no matter how necessary are being forced upon them. It's harsh.

Again, walls. Sydney is all about walls and for her to make the changes she has to make → (Their Synchronicity) she needed to go through her own tower moment. Carmy also went through his, exactly in the same season → (The end of Carmy). There's absolutely no coincidence in that.

"This card symbolizes the foundation of ashes in which the phoenix is born. The lightning-struck Tower is associated with chaos and destruction of boundaries."

Carmy was her lighting. And in a way, she was his too.

Love is an act of mirroring.

According to the tower card, after this collapse of walls, chaos and destruction, comes the "Phoenix moment". So, we're good. Don't dispair. She's gonna be just fine.

Sydcarmy will be just fine.

More about The tower tarot card → here.

Remember to follow my tag #Gingerpovs 💋

[jasper-tarot-reader]

your preferred name, nickname, or initials: GreenIvyDusk (my blog name)

your pronouns: she/her

your question: I wanna ask the spirits for some help in my retrospectitve work (some know this as shadow work but it is a more broader term for self-reflection) regarding my pagan/witchy path. Just a general advice card is what I need recently.

background information around your question: I wanna do deity work/getting into pagan faiths but I am not really sure where to start, where to go, as I do not accept any level of racism and genderphobia in my craft/fait being LGBTQAI+ myself too. I believe people are equal, and should be such as. How can I start as a yte person so I will not tap into cultural approrpiation? It gives me a lot of anxiety on how to trust resources and find trustworthy sources for learning... I wanna avoid creepy red flags in summary. <3

Hello GreenIvyDusk! As a fellow queer white person who's unfortunately stumbled ass-first into appropriation without realizing it, I understand the stress of trying to get started while not being a super huge dick. Luckily, before we even get started with the reading, I have a few recommendations for you:

on @jasper-pagan-witch, I have a beginner tag, an appropriation tag, and a discernment tag that you can dig through at your leisure

another good resource is @breelandwalker's Advice For Beginner Witches along with her book Grovedaughter Witchery (to date, that is still one of my favorite witchcraft books ever) - and if you're podcast-inclined, this directory of her podcast episodes for beginner witches may also be helpful

if you want to avoid New Age bullshit specifically, check out @creature-wizard's pinned post and resources page

While these resources are mostly witchy instead of religious, there are some bits that apply to deity work and worship, and they build a good base for you that you can then apply to other things.

The key, I have found, is understanding that you will mess up. That's guaranteed. The key is to react well when you realize you messed up. There are always going to be people who hate you for one reason or another, but as long as you make amends (when necessary) and drop the appropriative stuff instead of doubling down on it, most people will give you a break. Don't beat yourself up, simply do better.

(As for avoiding things that have appropriative elements...gods, that is so fucking difficult, as even the best resources have parts that make my eye twitch. Sometimes you just have to accept that you have wasted money and time on something that simply can't be stripped of the parts that make you go yikes, but other times, you can simply ignore the appropriative or suspicious elements.)

(Please note: all of the above was written before the cards were drawn.)

Now, onto the reading! Since you didn't specify the particular spirits you wanted me to ask, I have selected the In-Between Tarot by Janine Worthington and Franco Rivolli, which belongs to Cernunnos. My patron Athena has also now called dibs on the Dungeons and Dragons Tarot by Adam Lee and Fred Gissubel, so we'll be using that too. Their cards for you are the 10-Ace of Swords and the 3 of Intelligence.

Let's start with Cernunnos's advice. This card shows the wife of a now-dead Roman captain being given the news that he was killed in battle. She is now released from the stress of having to wait for news about his fate, despite the fact that his death is hard and her heart is broken. This is the end of the road, where something is over after a long period of stress and pain, but the beginning of something new. The choice is to stand still or move on - onto the next road, into the ditch and underbrush, into the woods or desert or tundra or city, wherever you choose to go next.

Athena's message is similarly Air-aligned. This card, depicting a weeping dryad who is seeking aid from a party of adventurers to save her forest after it was destroyed by orcs, is about finding a way to heal and learn from anxiety and emotional pain. As understandable as your worries are, there is no need to stress yourself to death over them. In time, you will learn ways to figure these things out yourself and how to fix what's wrong. But in the meantime, simply find what works for you to help you. Be respectful, continue learning, and heal your heart.

...Huh, I didn't expect two broken heart references here. Anyway, regardless of where your path - magical, religious, or a blend of both - carves itself, never lose the fact that you are always learning.

I wish you the best going forward! If you feel so inclined, please feel free to send feedback in my ask box, leave feedback in a reblog of this reading, and/or reblog my reading guidelines!

~Jasper

[an-aura-about-you]

my trip has worn me out from doing anything else like unpacking or chores or shopping, so let's do another chapter of Handbook for Mortals! especially because I've been waiting for this one.

warning: I'm about to spend a weird amount of time talking about etiquette.

Chapter 14:

when we last left our hero, Scheherazade had a nice date with Jackson where he confirmed to her he's totally cool with tarot cards, unlike Mac whose hate of them borders on bigotry depending on how you look at it. Handbook for Mortals back at it again.

moving on to Chapter 14: Wheel of Fortune

-*Drunk Brendon of Wait in the Wings voice* I wish I was watching Wheel of Fortune, but here we are.

-I just stopped to count it out and realized that, including this one, there are eight more chapters left in the book. how??? I know what happens in the rest of the book at this point and have no idea how it can possibly stretch over eight more chapters. (ok that's a lie I have an idea and it's tedium.)

-anyway, we're starting out with the crew finishing up the final rehearsal of the show with the new trick included. and apparently they have to make people sign an NDA about it, which I find surprising just because isn't an NDA implied just from the nature of working in a magic show? obviously you're not allowed to blab about how the trick works when you're employed in a magic show. seems like a sort of blanket NDA would have been included in the contracts signed upon hiring.

also, Sarem apparently isn't familiar with the term non-disclosure agreement because this is how she words it:

Everyone had to sign agreements stating that they wouldn't share what they knew and that meant that they couldn't even talk about it with any of the other cast and crew.

I know Sarem enjoys talking down to the reader, but this honestly feels like she doesn't know the term since she never once mentions it typically being called an NDA. this happens after she explains the EDR twice in the same book.

-Zade also seems to think this will keep people from speculating about how impossible the trick is as if it's impossible for one person to figure it out on their own. I for one think Zeb would be able to figure out how it works upon observation given his previous ominous warning.

-Bossman is taking us all out for a company dinner!! time to run up the credit card and let the booze flow like water!

-oof, the cast is still in full hair and makeup with their street clothes. they weren't even allowed time for a shower after what appears to be an exhausting rehearsal? I know being hungry is a bitch, but so is feeling sweaty and gross and melting in makeup.

-I try not to bully authors for using words the wrong way if they're trying to be inventive about language, but it's still probably not a good idea to do that if the meaning behind the new usage is unclear enough that it makes me look up the definition of the word just to make sure I'm not misunderstanding something.

that in mind, I'd argue, "gleamed," is not a good word to use as a dialogue tag, regardless of how cheery the hostess appears to be.

-we have gotten attacked with random ominous quotes:

The hostess led us to the "left side" of the restaurant...

why are the quotes there??? what does Sarem know about the left side of the restaurant that she's not having Zade tell us?????? is it just another error that's been left in?

-for some reason Charles needs Zade to sit next to him and Sofia is upset that she can't sit next to her boyfriend, as apparently Charles is sitting in a spot with only one seat next to him. that seems weird to me because that means he's probably sitting on one side of a long end table. wouldn't it make more sense for Charles to have a chair pulled to the head of the table? then he would have no one sitting on the same side as him but two spots next to him. and if Charles ISN'T sitting at the head, why sit at the end? he's the bossman, shouldn't he be in the middle like the seating of a wedding party so he can be close to as many of his crew as possible, leaving two spots directly next to him and one immediately opposite him?

the only reason this nonsensical seating choice is here is specifically to keep building up the gross incestuous Zade/Spellman red herring and piss off Sofia and Mac.

-also, why does he even need Zade to sit next to him? I know he's going to recognize her, but that doesn't require her sitting right next to him. she can just stand up when he does it. again, this only serves the red herring.

-Sofia drags Mac along and says they're gonna find a seat at the "kids' table." I love it. she knows Zade and Mac ain't slick, I'm calling it.

-pfffff even Charles is like "yeah Mac you go sit with Sofia since I need Zade to sit next to me." I hope she kills you for letting her drown on your watch, Mac. I hope she gouges your eyes out with a grapefruit spoon.

whew. that went a place. moving on.

-Sofia tells Mac, "Guess we know where we rank now." omg she is either being entirely too kind to Mac or she's gonna kill him.

-Zade is also clueless about why Charles wants her to sit next to him because Of Course The Precious Special Perfect Mary Sue Is Unaware Of How Amazing She Truly Is And Does Not Know This Dinner Is In Her Honor.

-also Jackson sliiiiides on into the seat next to Zade's, which I guess he snagged early since when Sofia stormed off to a seat, the only ones left for her and Mac were over on the far end of the table.

-Charles tells everyone food and drinks are on him but like.

yeah. obviously they are.

that should go without saying.

if the boss takes the entire company out for a meal, then the implication is this is being provided by the company and employees don't have to pay out of pocket. same thing when you get invited to birthday parties held at restaurants: the person hosting is expected to pay the bill.

and I actually have two anecdotes relating to that. I remember once I had my birthday at a restaurant and my sibling was worried that people might not be able to afford to pay, at which point I said, "I was planning on paying for everyone." my friends insisted on dividing it anyway, but I still invited all of them with the intention that I would pay. and honestly, I should have stuck with it so that things could have been easier for the cashier. likewise, I was bewildered when a coworker invited me to her birthday party at a nice steakhouse and all of us were given bills. fortunately, I was able to cover it, but that's just not on.

idk, is that just something people don't understand about etiquette anymore? that if you are hosting the party then you are expected to pay for the party, including the food and drinks?

-then Charles thanks Zade and says she's "elevated us all." that's easy when pretty much everyone looks better than Zade by comparison.

-And Everyone Clapped.

-oh wow. for all the things Zade likes to tell us that she knows, she is clueless about table etiquette. this wouldn't be something I'd harp on except the thing she's confused about is which glass of water is hers. but if Charles is sitting at the end of the table and Zade is sitting right next to him, it should be easy to figure out which glass is hers by knowing Charles must have the glass closest to the end of the table and that hers must be the one in the place next to that. it doesn't even matter if they're set on the right (the traditional placement/safest guess) or the left since there's always going to be one glass closest to the end and that glass is going to be the one for Charles. she's in the second easiest position to figure out which glass is hers without knowing a bit about table placements and apparently that's too much of a riddle for her.

that or Sarem didn't realize that putting Charles in a position where only one person can sit next to him means he must be sitting at one end of the table but not at the head.

so either Zade looks stupid or Sarem looks stupid.

-Zade says Mac is probably not pleased about sitting next to Sofia, and she's probably right, but I mean both Sofia and Mac are frowning. I could see them having some enemy of my enemy energy about Charles right now. also, didn't Sarem have a half-assed attempt at making peace between Zade and Sofia back in chapter 12? we haven't heard anything about Sofia doing anything about Zade since then, not until the death glare Sofia gave her in this chapter for this seating chart nonsense. I'm not saying everyone's gonna jump to be Sofia's friend, but zero recognition that she's being more cordial to Zade. geez, damned if you do, damned if you don't, girl.

-wait, Tad is squished in a booth? what the fuck is the actual seating then? where in the hell is Charles sitting that he only has one seat next to him? were there just not enough tables to make a big long one? and Jackson is still sitting next to Zade. why make the big long table if not everyone can fit at the big long table?

-here it is, the most eloquent exchange Sarem has written in the entire book:

-ugh, either tumblr didn't save my changes when I asked it to or I accidentally hit discard when trying to save a draft so I have to rewrite some things. joy.

-also my cat tried to save me from the book.

anyway back at it!

-Zade is doing a lot of press interviews for someone who wants to live a normal life.

-she hypothesizes that Zeb might have an issue with her because up until now he had been the only one to work on illusions with Charles and might be feeling replaced. I mean I could read this two ways:

No You Walnut Zeb Knows You're Doing Dangerous Shit With Real Magic You Aren't Ready To Do And You Even Admit It's Dangerous In The Very Same Paragraph.

I mean yeah Zeb would probably be pissed if he got replaced by someone who does sloppy work.

-why would anyone do a red carpet premiere for a magic show? the cast don't need to be on the red carpet, certainly not dressed the way one usually does for a red carpet affair if they're putting on a show. they need to get into costumes and makeup. and what magician would even do a red carpet premiere. of all the big and maybe not so big named magicians I can think of from David Copperfield to Penn and Teller, from Lance Burton to The Amazing Jonathan, I can't think of anyone who's a big enough name in magic that would do a red carpet premiere. maybe Penn and Teller would, but they would find some way to subvert it for shiggles. these two who are easily considered a couple of the most talented people in their profession are the same guys who came up with Desert Bus. and to be honest, I really can't see any magician of their level or close to it having any sort of sincere love for the red carpet. the magicians who like the red carpet are probably more along the lines of Mystery.

-oh no I started thinking about The Mystery Method and oh god that philosophy would work to an unsettling degree in this book.

-oh holy shit, I have to specify something I skipped over in the previous chapter because it's just become relevant to a possible continuity error.

so Zade pushes the door to Spellman's office open. we've been in this location a couple of times in the book, but in the last chapter it was specified that the lock on this door is that of a modern hotel lock. this means it requires a keycard to get inside, one that is inserted into the lock. these doors lock automatically when they're closed. how did Zade get in without a keycard?

or did Sarem decide to skip that Zade has a keycard even though she took the time to specify in the previous chapter that Spellman's door had a keycard lock? that was worth talking about before getting to his and Mac's man to man?

-Zade, who is Not Like Other Girls, "squealed with delight" as she walked into the room.

-so wait a minute. we're getting a setup for another scene in which the door is going to be partway open so Mac can peep in, and Zade pushes the door closed but doesn't check that it closes all the way. but in the previous sentence she specifies that it's a heavy door, and it was described as a heavy door back at the end of chapter 2. why WOULDN'T the door close??

-so here we go: Mac comes walking by while Zade and Charles talk in his office and stops to watch them. they hug each other and the two say they love each other, then Zade leans in. and Mac is so disgusted he can't watch anymore.

but Sarem can't just leave the red herring at that. and it's the moment we've all been waiting for:

text: Had he only watched just a moment or two longer he would have seen Zade kiss Charles--innocently on the cheek. Mac didn't see that, though, because he looked away before he saw the truth and therefore in his head he had turned around right before he saw them make out with tongue. Furious and upset, he stormed down the hall. He needed to think before he did anything that he would regret.

-"My excited energy had turned to nervous energy..." newsflash: excitement is a type of anxiety!!

-once again Zade is trying to adjust her own safety harness. where the fuck is Riley? isn't he supposed to be her personal rigger? or Mac, who did it the last time when Riley was sick, a thing Sarem mentioned offhandedly during the man to man with Spellman?

-oh Riley is here and trying to do his job, but Mac scares him away. world's best technical director, everybody.

-ok. Zade. when your guyfriend comes up to you pissed as all hell, a disarming smile is maybe not the way to go.

-oh fuck. add a tally to the violent actions. Mac just pulled Zade hard by her harness, jerking her towards him. and he's back to his cold monotone, the same one he used when asking about the photograph before.

-and another tally because Mac straight up grabs Zade's arms and practically shakes her. bro, not cool.

-once again Zade demands honesty and straightforwardness from Mac without offering him any, which is not helping the situation at all.

-Mac demands to know if Zade is in love with someone else. naturally her mind goes to Jackson, so she mentions the movie date but doesn't think it qualifies as being in love with him. this doesn't help, either.

-Mac finally gets Zade to understand that he's talking about Charles, but instead of just telling Mac that Charles is her father, Zade decides to dance around things by saying that she told someone she loves him but not that she's IN love with him.

-Zade tells Mac it's not what he thinks it is but again is refusing to give him the same honesty she expects from him.

-ooooo and then Mac hits Zade with, "You're just like Clara. Maybe worse. At least she had the decency to come clean when I confronted her." and honestly, I think he's right. Zade HAS been stringing him along for MONTHS now with Jackson on the side. she has not made any move to talk about any sort of commitment to him. and if Clara decided to be honest when Mac actually asked her about it? yeah, that DOES technically make Zade worse.

-but Zade is pissed at that and shoots back, "I'm not anything like Clara." which, yeah, you kinda are. we just covered how you kinda are. and Mac even points out that Zade wouldn't even know because she never knew Clara. in fact, unless somebody filled Mac in on this or he talked about Clara to Zade at some point, this would be the first time Zade has acknowledged she KNOWS about Clara at all! and she heard that from Riley who heard that from Tad who heard that from Mac. all of Zade's information about Clara and what she's really like is filtered through at least three people.

-Zade once again avoids the obvious solution and tells Mac things aren't what they seem and asks to talk to him about it after the show.

Oh Look. Their Personal Relationship Is Interfering With Work. The Thing Charles Did Not Want Happening.

-Mac is having none of that because to him it's just a way for Zade to buy time so she can figure out her story, something she wouldn't have to do if she just told him Charles is her father right the fuck now. it's. three. words. what possible reason can Zade have to do this right now that doesn't have to do with preserving the twist?

-in that rant, Mac accuses Zade of sleeping her way to the top. and yeah, that is exactly what the red herring was trying to do.

I wish I could do another poll to find out what would be worse, Zade fucking her boss for her job or Zade getting her job handed to her by her daddy. it blows my mind that Sarem's fantasy in which she gets everything she wants is for her to be a nepo baby.

-"I don't even know why that's where his mind went to..." because you are incredibly dense. Mac is acting like a piece of trash, but I can at least follow his logic given the clues and your apparent unwillingness to tell him that Charles is your father.

-Zade says if he thinks she's that kind of person, he doesn't know her at all.

he agrees.

so do I.

-another tally to violent actions. Mac jerks Zade around in her harness again while clipping it, and Zade actually lets us know it hurts.

-also can I just point out once again she specifies that this hurts but she didn't specify that when the cyclist knocked her purse off her arm? why aren't you using your magic to throw Mac off the catwalk? if I wanted to see some disproportionate retribution, this would be the one I want to see.

-and after all that Zade STILL has to get the last word in while Mac is storming off saying he needs to let Clara go. unbefuckinglievable.

-Mac realizes he's in no fit emotional state to run the main board, which is honestly one of the most professional things he's done in this shitshow.

-Mac gets Cam to run the main board on the fly, a terrible idea for your red carpet premiere show.

now, there was a whole explanation in a previous chapter talking about how everyone has some kind of backup in case something happens. Cam is not Mac's backup for this; Tad is. but Cam logics that Mac called for him instead of Tad because he knows Tad would just refuse and make Mac do his job.

but that doesn't make any sense because Mac went by Tad and Tad SAW how upset Mac is. Tad SHOULD know that Mac is not emotionally fit to do his job right now. if Tad refused, he would be both a dick of a friend AND shirking his professional duty!

and this is how the chapter ends. good lord.

[eddysocs]

Fortunate — Madame Tracy x OC

Summary: Madame Tracy reads Prue's tarot cards, and realizes that she’s part of her future.

Word Count: 290

Warnings: None

A/N: I know very little about tarot, and for the sake of this snippet I didn’t feel like researching. Apologies for any inaccuracies, but accuracy wasn’t the goal.

"Forgive me, but how does this work," Prue asked. She’d never had someone offer to read her cards before.

"The deck does most of the work, really," she confessed. "You just have to infuse it with your energy, lovey."

Prue tried not to let the heat that rose to her cheeks show at the use of the term of endearment. "And how did I do that?"

Madame Tracy passed the deck over to Prue, sandwiching it between her hands with a careful sort of tenderness. "Just hold them, shuffle, whatever feels natural." Prue nodded and fumbled the cards around in her hand for a minute, making sure they were neatly stacked again before she handed them back over.

Madam Tracy pulled the top card and flipped it over between them. "The Lovers. Reversed from your angle. Perhaps some miscommunication, or none at all. A crush you haven’t addressed?" She kept her options minimal, those being the most likely. She was no novice at this, but a lot of the time the cards didn’t give her any strong readings.

Yet Madame Tracy felt a pull from this one. It was not only Prue's reading, but hers as well. It felt personal, anyhow. Was it meant to connect them? She couldn’t be sure, but it was best not to frighten the girl off by telling her everything. If it was meant to be, then so it was.

She pulled the next couple of cards, still feeling that lingering spark between herself and the message they were getting from them. She was fond of Prue for the couple of times they’d crossed paths thus far, so wouldn’t it be fortunate to have her around more often? Only time —and the cards— would tell.

Forever Tag: @arrthurpendragon, @baubeautyandthegeek, @atjsgf, @kmc1989, @curious-kittens-ocs, @fanficanatic-tw, @kissykissymouth

Prue Wakefield: @fyeahgoodomensocs, @freshmoneyalmondathlete

[pomrania]

Here's my second pass on it. I'm not doing to be repeating typos I'd noted or questions I'd asked in the first pass, although there might be some clarifications.

4: In the disclaimer phrase, "living or dead" feels like it would flow better if set off by commas.

5: Correction to my earlier post, "will lead many places" is NOT necessarily an error, it's just a less common way of phrasing things.

6: In the first paragraph, does "per person" just modify the "at least five tokens", or is it also for the dice? …I was going to say something here about including the equivalencies for a tarot deck's minor arcana, for the card randomizers; then I realized that anyone who has easier access to a tarot deck, than to a normal playing card deck, would already know what to do for that.

7: I'd say something to the effect of "if the dice are visibly different from each other", instead of "if they're different colours", for being able to roll both dice for a d66 at once; but I can't say that your way of phrasing it is wrong. Typo, "aformentioned" should be "aforementioned".

Having gone through the whole thing, there's still no clarification on "a few minutes", which is relevant for at least two traits where it mentions them getting deactivated (and thus not being able to be tagged) for "a few minutes"; is this in-game time or around-table time? I'm pretty sure it's in-game time, but I think it should be clarified.

16: "Hundred-handed", I think "well defined" would look better with a hyphen, but it's not WRONG without it.

17: "Lanky limbs", the list of examples looks slightly awkward because they're separated by commas, but the first example ("unfolding, many-jointed arms") contains a comma within it. "Masterful mimic", there's mention of perhaps another Form allowing something to be louder, but currently I don't believe there's a Form that increases one's volume. "Menacing missiles", I think "closely spaced" should have a hyphen; and the last half of that last sentence feels awkward, because of the verb-type (I forget the term) difference between "taking" and "make".

18: Since "mighty muscles" describes how much you can lift in relation to your weight, is that intended to interact with Forms that increase one's weight?

18: My previous post had a question on "mobile members" under page 16, but it's actually on this page.

21: "Weaving webs", I'm not sure whether "a mass of threads" is grammatically singular or plural; it looks awkward either way to me.

22: The header says "inventing your own Forms", but it only talks about reskinning extant Forms, or interpreting multiple of them as the same thing. If you don't want to talk about how to make new Forms, that's completely fine, but in that case the header should be changed; if you do plan to include guidelines on making new Forms, there should be like a TODO about it.

23: In the grey box, the two examples feel like different ways of phrasing the SAME Expression, while the phrase "both plausible Expressions" implies completely DIFFERENT Expressions.

24: In the second paragraph, I'm not sure if the last sentence, "on the honour system", is supposed to apply to "choose a permanent replacement", "just happen to have a catalyst", or both; I think (just) the penultimate sentence being in brackets is responsible.

26: The instruction on the table -- "optionally, roll 1-3 times" -- feels odd.

27: "Ethos", typo, "inescapabably" should be "inescapably".

30: In the first paragraph, I think "nor" would work better than "or", for what I presume to be the intended poetic tone.

31: "Art of abundance", can it be re-activated multiple times, to get even more instances, or is it limited to one extra re-activation?

41: I think there should be some examples of choosing different Facets for a given action -- say, "making a speech about why people should wear a certain style of hat" -- and what that looks like in practice. Because I know that for Costume Fairy Adventures, it always tripped me up, which thing would logically go with a particular approach. Plus, none of these map to anything from D&D-type games, and the "comedy trio" archetype isn't as commonly used these days, so that's a decent chunk of the audience who won't necessarily have a touchstone here. In the second paragraph, "several different Facets" feels odd when there's only three Facets total.

43: Possible typo, "to add a die to test".

44: It might be good to have an example of "highest die whose value does not exceed the Facet". Also, clarification of "ties have no special meaning"; maybe rephrase it to something like how it doesn't matter if there's multiple dice showing that same value?

46: Typo in the penultimate paragraph, "succeeeded" should be "succeeded". For "taking six", does this involve tagging as many Traits as would apply and rolling the resultant number of dice? In my first read-through, I'd assumed it was just rolling a single d6; even though a more careful pass suggests otherwise, that should prolly be explicitly stated.

47: Does the "five dice limit" apply to cooperative tests too? If so, I think that should be restated here.

48: So if I'm reading this correctly, potential results for a wisdom test are a) you don't do the dumb thing, b) you do the dumb thing and get a point of Obstinacy, or c) you do the dumb thing and get a point of Obstinacy AND there's a Calamity Point.

49: Typo, "basic terminolgy" should be "terminology".

54: So, with the default Stress Limit, at nine points of Stress you're fine, but at ten points you're out? It seems that there's nothing anyone can do to restore a character who's Stressed Out, aside from "end the scene"; is that intentional?

56: Since the text mentions that it's possible for someone to interrupt activating a Rebellious Art… what happens in that case? Can you prevent them from interrupting if you notice they're trying to do that, do you get your point of Obstinacy back if the Art wasn't activated, what? My earlier post had a concern about a paragraph being a near-verbatim repeat; I do not believe that to be correct, now that I've read through the thing again while fully awake.

58: I think the phrase is "alternate timelines", and not "alternative timelines".

59: Typo, "is actually you disguise" should be "in disguise". Does "repair irreversible damage" only apply to inanimate objects? I understand that it's an example for a Limit Break, but it's raised a question in my mind.

61: It's odd to have the "recovering obstinacy" paragraph right after a multi-page section on Limit Breaks; I'd recommend moving it upwards in future versions, since it's way more relevant.

64: Two questions about overloading. First, does anything need to be done to STOP being overloaded; can you be in a situation where you wouldn't be able to make yourself NOT overloaded? In real life, as a human, that's extremely possible with an intricate-enough arrangement of bags, where you literally can't just drop them even if you don't care about their contents; however, I can easily imagine a cartoon character simply slipping out of it. Second, if the fourth item that makes you overloaded is an item of food, can you eat it to no longer be overloaded, or do you have to actively set it down and THEN consume it?

65: I believe "hairbrush" is a single word, and doesn't need a hyphen. "Oversize boots" feels awkward; I'm not sure if it's a typo, a specific meaning you have in mind, or a dialect difference. "Poorly tuned lute" feels like it should have a hyphen.

70: Although I know what "lowers its Calamity Threshold" MEANS, it still FEELS like "reduces its effect" instead of the actual meaning of "it's now more dangerous"; I'd suggest that you consider rephrasing.

72: "Reversal", is that Trait-rewriting permanent? Does it automatically change back to its original form at the end of the scene, is there a way to work to change it back?

73: What kind of NPC would have no Stress Limit? Because that's been mentioned in a number of places, but no description has been given to that.

79: Typo, "limits on on repeated attempts" should just have the one "on".

81: In the second paragraph, "Calamity clock" is missing a capitalization.

82: Typo, "a very momentuous event" should be "momentous".

83: There's two different ways of stating Threat ratings here, "X or greater" and "X+", and I don't know if that's an intended distinction between "talking about an NPC" and "talking about a hazard".

84: With how advancements are currently written, that's a maximum of twelve "normal" ones, plus the mathematically-complicated option of adding or swapping in a new Rebellious Art. At some point, there's going to be no more valid advancements, except for possibly swapping an Art; do you intend to address that situation?

Not associated with any particular page: do you intend to write something about what would be a TPK in a more standard game? Like, a situation where all God-eaters have managed to be Stressed Out at the same time. It seems substantially easier to handle than an actual TPK, because of how they're not DEAD merely unable to act for the moment, but still.

88: Typo, "the layout of the city is circuituous" should be "circuitous".

89: Typo, "involve the Gizmo in some fasion" should be "fashion".

91: "Hand jack", it's written "meters" when elsewhere in the text the spelling is "metres". "Program card", its sentence structure doesn't match that of the other entries; maybe rephrase it to "metal card that can be slotted" etc.

92: "Racing goggles", same sentence-structure issue as "program card" above. "Silver tulip", typo, "or other surpirses" should be "surprises". "Static grenade", ignore my previous reasoning for this entry; however, I still think it should be changed to "it explodes", but for clarify reasons. "Tin of frictionol", the last sentence feels like it needs an extra preposition, even though that would result in two "to"s in a row; I don't know what should be done about it, but I'm bringing it up. "Tiny mechanical horse", same sentence-structure issue; here, I think it should be "Miniature model of a horse that bears visible damage".

94: "The grand baths", I don't think "accouterments" is the intended word here.

From a bunch of different Locations and NPCs, there's a thing about +1 or +2 effect if a certain condition is met; does this stack with other effect modifiers, or subsume them?

100: "The clockwork performers", I don't think the comma in the first description sentence is needed.

102: "The machine preacher", "they'll instantly identify" is grammatically ambiguous as to whether "they" is "the city's residents" or "the machine preacher". "The novice alchemist", I think "mousy looking" should have a hyphen.

105: "Gearquake", typo, "to a maxmium of 6" should be "maximum".

106: "Picket line", typo, "has spring up" should be "sprung". "Slipped a cog", typo, "picked up by the Rampaging Lift-o-Magic" should be "Lift-o-Matic".

Welp, that took a while. Really glad I did that second pass though, there was some typos I hadn't caught the first time around.

Playtest draft 0.4 of Eat God is up! This version includes a reworking of player character Traits, clarifications (and, in most cases, moderate buffs) for most Arts, a whole new semi-freeform magic system for when none of the standard options are quite bullshit enough, and most importantly, The Clockwork City, a complete playset (this game's version of an "adventure", though they don't work quite as you might expect if you're familiar with pre-written adventures form other games) co-written by @cryptotheism – a name I trust many of this blog's followers will recognise.

Like my previous early access projects, this one has been moved over to itch.io for better exposure. Pay-what-you-want pricing is enabled for those who'd like to contribute to the game's ongoing development, but I encourage you to hit the little "just take me to the downloads" button first; there's no sense paying sight-unseen for something that's still a work in progress!

In terms of player feedback for this one, I'd love to hear any thoughts you might have on any of the newly added rules or playset material, with a particular emphasis on the new Expressions stuff; those currently lack worked examples, and it would be useful to see what people come up with in the absence of any direct guidance.

As always, questions, comments, and bizarre rants are welcome; you can put your two cents in either in the notes of this post, or via the Penguin King Games Discord server – there should be a channel for Eat God set up already.

[sanctus-ingenium]

I was wondering how achieve such a wonderful textured finish on your pieces? They are wonderful and I love their resemblance to aged photographs and the speckles of colors in the backgrounds. Your art is mesmerizing :)

you can see some of the texture brush sets i use in my #info_asks tag but i have some more (procreate) tips aside from just brushes

also hi i made this whole thing and then stupidly hit ctrl z to erase ONE word and i lost the entire bottom half of the post and all my image descriptions so fuck you tumblr i had to make this twice

to get a faded photo or old digital screen look, consider duplicating the canvas (once all the layers are merged) and using a gaussian blur tool on the new duplicated layer. then set that to low opacity to add a misty sort of look. looks nice in combination with some chromatic abberation and a small bloom effect. then a subtle noise filter on top:

for faded print effects, it's really worthwhile to learn how to use layer masks. you can use a layer mask to non-destructively 'weather' blocks of colour or lineart, without erasing the layer itself. the weathered ink/block print effect here was made using layer masks which means that if i just hide the mask, the lineart becomes solid black again and easy to alter or colour in:

for old paper effects you can just set a paper texture on multiply over the art sure, but you can also combine it with the blur & bloom thing, a really subtle drop shadow and canvas tilt, and highlights to make it look like an aged photograph of a card. this originally had a transparent bg but i'll post it here with a white bg so that the drop shadow is more obvious. the scuffed edges of the card (left) were hand drawn, simple white stucco brush. the bigger patch of scuffed ink (top right) was a texture stamp.

for block print looks you can move the colour layer out of alignment by a few pixels - but only after you're absolutely sure you're done with it, otherwise you'll get something like this -

i forgot to erase out her eye before i moved the red layer so now her eye defeats the 'look' of a misaligned print. the black lineart and red layer were also given the same layer mask treatment as described above to make them look faded or like the ink didn't stick down right to the paper

you can do this with multiple colour layers too. if the colour layers are separated and set to multiply (as in this cmyk example), it'll leave halos and edges around each shape which mimic old comic book print

just to show what you can do WITHOUT any special brushes, here's a piece of one of my mez tarot cards from before i got any extra brushsets at all. for this one, i added a green tint over everything to mimic a sun-bleached or faded print (my actual goal wasn't 'medieval illustration' but actually 'trading card from the 60s that got left on someone's windowsill for decades'). the background texture is the procreate noise brush. the texture under the green lion drawing is the procreate concrete brush (to make it look painted onto a wall). the lettering and lineart is procreate's 6B pencil. but to properly aim for The Look of it being a printed physical object, i also used a perspective blur so that the edges are out of focus, and metallic gold highlights which don't match the lighting of the actual illustration and appear to be catching some other external light. that texture was made from the procreate noise brush

it's pretty simple compared to my later stuff but i still really like the effect

in terms of colours, you need to keep them unified so that they all appear to be acting under the same external light source, like if someone is holding up a torch to a painting then the painting colours will be glazed with firelight even if there's no painted fire. a really easy way to do this is to slap a multiply layer over everything in one shade - grey-yellow for a weathered paper look, or greenish blue for sunbleached photos. this unifies all the colours of the drawing. or you can apply a gradient map at a low opacity so that there's only a subtle change. or just do it by hand - if you want everything to be slightly tinted yellow, just pick the colours you normally would, but move the colour wheel towards yellow to get a yellowfied version of the base colour. easy

it's really important to consider how fading and weathering can affect printed colour. white paper yellows, black fades. you will rarely see pure black or pure white. which means you can use pure black or pure white to add external effects like the white scuff marks on the hierophant card. if the whole drawing is yellowed from age but there's some white somewhere, it's an easy shorthand to show that the scuff mark or whatever was not originally part of the drawing (great way to add some nasty stains lol)

[chemicalpink]

Jungkook's Letter to ARMY | Tarot Reading

Disclaimer: This reading is based on my experience and knowledge of tarot, it is not meant to be the absolute truth, as BTS are real people, and tarot can only capture so much about multidimensional humans that have had past experiences and cultural approaches amongst other things, it does not have to resonate with you since this is in no way related to anyone reading it (unless you are a member of BTS in which case, get out of here lol ) This is just for entertainment purposes. Remember that tarot as a form of divination only allows us to read current energy and as time advances it becomes less accurate, so it basically reads up to a 6 months period of time.

Masterlist. | tarot masterlist. | astrology masterlist.

A/N: The oh so long awaited JK reading that I mentioned on this post is finally here! It has been quite rocky days and this reading has come together at such a weirdly timed setting (given the past dates and the announcement from earlier)  so I hope everyone is doing okay, I’m sending you all much love! And I hope you enjoy this reading!

There are a lot of major arcana, which means that there’s most definitely a strict line to follow when it comes to the messages contained in this reading. 

There’s also a mix of pentacles, wands  and cups in equal amounts, meaning that there’s an involvement equal parts  of feelings, his career and his inner self as a higher being. As they come in three, I would point out this matter is a pretty serious one that aims to acknowledge the things that have been surrounding him for some time now. 

Interestingly enough, the ongoing palette for this reading is hues of blues and reds that melt into purples (very on brand) so we know for sure the message coming through is one of truth, clarity with touches of passionate about his place as a celebrity and how those elements mix up or envelop something that has been widely discussed before that is his spirituality/Jungkook being in touch with himself on some other realm of understanding. 

I have said this before but I feel like I have to say it again, be mindful and respectful of what you are about to read. Jeon Jungkook can and is a lot of things, but he is also human just like any of us and it is sometimes hard to look past what we are presented with, grown heavily accustomed to seeing him through a screen. I am by no means saying this reading is something groundbreaking or that I am deeming myself some sort of ‘the chosen one’ to rely a message to you guys reading this. Far from it. Being a celebrity reader is hard. Being a BTS reader is even harder– for a lot of reasons we may sometimes discuss– I just sort of have built a fluid connection after reading for BTS for some time– even more so with Jungkook– and just like any other reading I deliver to you guys, this one just happened to pop up with a ‘urgent delivery’ sort of tag to it. 

Expressing himself is a matter of fairness to him, the way that he feels like people around him (read: ARMY) have given him basically all he is able to achieve as things are now a days, there’s a sense of wanting to give back as much, under the terms of giving himself up for us to see, he is indeed aware of how huge is is in every sphere he exists in, yet he still kicks off the reading with a tag of ‘this is for you’ (again, he’s talking to ARMY) it’s a gratefulness note, one that reads “I ask of you to try and understand where I’m coming from” and I believe that is a perfect tagline to the things that he will lay out for us as the rest of the cards come up. (6 of Pentacles)

The main topic of the reading goes as follows: there’s an ongoing  battle (figuratively of course) emotionally, there’s a lot of drainage from where this reading comes from, a sense of ‘being over with’ that very much obviously conflicts his need to vulnerate himself. There’s a fear of letting himself feel in a lot of ways. It’s like he’s trying so hard to make himself address matters that have been surrounding environments that we do not really take him for being part of, even though he wants to, but fears the backlash he has had to encounter the past few times he did address them.  (9 of Wands) Somewhere in the midst of this card, the idea od rumours popped up in my mind, I was just a casual listener and by no means up to date to every bit they did during 2019-early 2020  so you could imagine my surprise when it felt too much like we were talking about a tattoo artist incident (to be completely honest, I barely remember that one) and the going out during quarantine. Now bare with me, I’ll give you some pointers for this bit. I think it is safe to assume that the ‘ongoing battle’ whether they are inner battles or actually dealing with stuff (eg. sasaeng activities that he’s no stranger to) are all in terms of him being a Korean celebrity. Now, I put an emphasis on ‘Korean’ because even with BTS being a whole global phenomena, all the members as people, have their roots in Korea, it’s only natural their biggest sphere of interaction is Korea– for a lot reasons (friends, family, childhood, culture, legal basis, and even first fandom’s interactions all come round back to Korea). So it makes sense, given the differences of being a western-based celebrity and an eastern-based celebrity, that his mind would hyperfocus on what it means to be one in terms of rumours. 

Given the past context, feelings and subtext, it is to no one’s surprise that Jungkook would be on a consistent overly emotional/vulnerable state– and he has every right to! This man has been feeling like he wakes up only to be walking on egg shells for the past few years (honestly I feel like since a lot is being said in this reading, this feelings may have stopped, but let us see) This card seems to be in a context of retrospective, one where he was asked to take responsibility for his emotions himself, not just his actions in the way that he has always known how to in the industry he grew up in which has been to not give it a second thought, take the blame and turn the page, leaving him feeling the way he has been accumulating so far.  (King of Cups rx)

Truthfully, this feels all too much like an essay format and we are getting to the last part of our introduction. We are able here to say that, in fact, most of these hopeless feelings are being left in the past for good, Jungkook has realised that now it is time for healing, be it the decisions they have made with group activities, him getting to work on his own or just feeling over and done with all the conflicting emotions that have most certainly become tiring after years of living inside them, now his energy is being focused on outgrowing them, funnily enough and very on brand for Jungkook, this cards gives off the energy of beginning to commit to his destiny, just allow himself to accept all part of his human self that make him Jeon Jungkook (Balsamic Moon)

Jungkook’s mum has apparently being a huge part of this new road he has found himself navigating, embracing the not-so-celebrity-like qualities that he grew up in, cause even so his and BTS’ general message has been in terms of letting go of misconceptions on mental health, emotions and whatnot, it is very much easier said than done. His journey these past few years has been one where he has been pushed to learn that ARMY will be right by his side so long as he learns to take care of himself. For so long he has placed ARMY’s wants (read: he has pushed the image that ARMY want him to have) over his own, and has been detrimental for him, throwing his energies to an unbalanced state that has pivoted a lot of other issues that have accumulated and now ate aching to be resolves, which is where he is right now. (The Empress rx)

Emotions are running high (Supermoon) 

It appears like amongst everyone involved in Jungkook’s “scandals” there’s a particular man (between 20-35 years old) that has proven to not be a friend of JK’s even if he considered him one, as he was a huge part of his inner team yet he was only driven by his own greed of what such a job entailed (Knight of Pentacles rx)

Truth be told, as not so great things kept on happening and teams worked around him in terms for JK not to fall prisoner to what many other K-celebrities fall prey to, there was nothing more than he could wish for except to rest. It seems like his own vibe for himself was a reality check of I never knew what I was working myself towards, I don’t like where this is going  (Teacup)

Lost emotional secuirty and friends, he has had to walk away from people andsituations that he deemed made him happier, stronger, in a futile attempt to give back  what he was given. He thought that maybe losing himself was a type of love for his fans, to give back and respect what they had made of him. The price to pay for such success would be his own happiness and for a while he was okay with it. (5 of Pentacles rx)

After some time, Jungkook has seemed to be stuck in a sorrow-ish rampage, although he properly acknowledges and is grateful of the amazing things that have happened to him, in every aspect of his life, everything always seems to have a tint of heartache and sadness, I could almost tell that as these past few days have meant a major growth in his and BTS’ career, he has experienced a major disillusion in terms of what it exactly entails as something much more than just aspirations and dreams. (3 of Swords) 

Somewhere down the reality hit of what it means to be a celebrity of the scale that he is now (read: I’m getting heavy vibes of tabloids,harrasment) he has most definitely been building peace within himself at a slow pace with the help of his members and surrounding himself with people that are able to place him on equal ground (2 of Cups)

As things advanced and activities for BTS started to pick up, he was able to start feeling more at peace, almost as if it was a new and bright beginning. Things had changed on the inside, he had just enough time to ponder a bit more on his place in the world as a celebrity, the “reality checks” of being such a huge scale celebrity had finally kicked in and he felt like he could make do with all that new information. It was almost a maturing sort of things (Ace of Cups)

Jungkook has soon come to realise what he is dealing with, although BTS has become a milestone and example in terms of the ever changing need of the musical industry, there’s no lie in the fact that they’re dealing with an ages old social institution that  is tightly closed. On a personal level, he has come to realise that even if thing could change, he has to play the game by its rules. He doesn’t strip himself of all that he is, he deals with things as they come and has made peace with the fact that he has had to stay within the lines of the rules already set if he wants to prioritise his peace of mind. (This one is a bit all over the place but I’m getting that he has experienced say, the way western celebrities are treated in the west, and is very much aware of what he as an asian celebrity has to do while being held accountable inside the asian industry if he wants to keep being at peace and actively but subtly testing boundaries. EG: his choice for tattoos, but compromising that he has to keep them hidden for national broadcasts)  (The Hierophant)

This card has appeared again, yet it comes with another message within it, one that tells us that within all that has been going on in Jungkook’s life, he is confirming that he has tuned into his inner intuition and spirituality – at least offcially now. It is no longer bratty and overly excited but paced and practiced, things in that department are certainly easier for him now and he is most definitely down the path he is meant to be in (The Empress)

Of course, even as times have been trying for our little Jungkookie, we can never come to forget that in terms of this readings, he is indeed a brat. And we live for it. He is willing to stand up for what he believes in. Yes, things have been hard, and it certainly hasn’t been a walk in the park, but with maturing and knowing how to play your cards, is how step by step you are able to become the change you want to witness. He is determined to not let those that are dying to keep him from his privacy, have it and he is willing to make everything in his hands to stray away from playing the game and losing.(7 of Wands)

It might have been true that it has been quite some time that Jungkook turned a bit too much inside himself, withdrawing himself from friends, reality, social media, all of the sorts, however, he knows that now that the storm has passed for the most part, he has worked on himself and the world around him seems to settle, it is time for him to come back into reality. Although this might not be referring exactly to having a clear posting schedule for him, it does mean that his self reflection and soul searching that is referenced in other cards that mention his not so newly found love for spirituality– is done not from a comfortable side of himself where he doesn’t expose himself, but from the world around him. Even if a littly afraid of whatever thing he might find if he is to look for the answers that he aches to have. (The Hermit rx)

This card is very much rooted to the main principle of the reading, it shows Jungkook being in the middle of a deeply conservative context, one where even as the rules for being an idol have been set for ages, he is navigating and finding his way through, not by evading it but neither by playing by the rules, but by cultivating a very particular way of connecting to the world around him. He is, of course, prioritising himself now, his inner peace and his inner world, and he is making a beautiful work out of every bit of his schedule as of now  (Emily Dickinson)

Things do tend to get chaotic when it comes to Jeon Jungkook, as far as this card goes, and withing the general vibe of the reading, the thing that keeps on being overwhelming for him is consistent with the card, that shows female people sticking their noses all up on his business (read: it is very clear for me that we are talking sasaengs here) The thing with what I’m getting here is that this issue right here is so deeply rooted– even more than usual when it comes to other members– in which it seems recurring even after actions have been taken. It feels very frustrating and quite nerve-wracking. There’s a special call out to someone that has been quite troubling for JK that is especially spiteful and vengeful towards him for whatever reason– most probably someone who is a fire sign/has a lot of fire energy in their chart. (Queen of Wands rx)

Listen- this man is fighting back even if it were the last thing he does. It feels heavy and tiring, it seems to always have been about holding up, waiting for things to get better, play by the rules even a little and keep your eyes on the prize. Yet, it seems like for Jungkook, matters have to be taken care of quite separately. The exception to the rule, if you may. As rock hard as the road has been and probably will continue to be in taking matters into his own hands when it comes to scandals and other prospects of invasion to his privacy, rest assured that he will get out of it victorious. (5 of Swords)

The undertone of this whole reading– as a lot of Jungkook-related things are, is childhood. There is just a ton of energy surrounding the loss of innocence and whatever sense of normalcy to be had when it comes to him. His own life to him feels harrowing in a lot of ways– whether it is hat he is/needs to work on the matter in real scale, it has also become a thing to battle his ideals and resist them the same way he has had to encounter other problems in life. (Mary Shelley)

This is a message of asking for respect. Hate will paralyse your mind– yes, it came just like that. Jungkook is placing himself out there for everyone to see. Has been doing so for quite some time now, yet people refuse to listen. But it seems like he will continue to do so, just out of strength and respect for himself, he’s not afraid to ask those that surround him to please just pay some respect to his name. (Strength rx)

For Jungkook this newly opened road is no longer focused on the what ifs, the somedays or the if onlys– this man is doing things differently once and for all, he’s aiming for it to take root, his mind in the future, overfed with feeling a ceratin way. He is making things happen this time around (New Moon in Taurus) 

All in all, this whole reading felt like a letter– open to be read by whoever that would like to read it. The Jungkook we have been watching these past few months/years especially given the pandemic timeline is a completely changed man. The story behind is that of a man that has fallen victim to the institutionalised conceptions of his artistry and culture of entitlement. He’s a man with a whole lot of baggage that is just trying to stay afloat as he pleads for things to change and allow him to do his work. He’s most definitely healing now, which seems to be the reason as to why I was able to pick up such energy for this reading, and we as fans should be reminded of our place, knowing that all of the energy that surrounds him–and BTS in general– will somehow end up affecting them with the way that the universe tends to work. I also believe the message is a consistent one: trust me, trust us. This is so funny to me, taking into account what has been announced earlier today. 

Decks Used: Tarot del Fuego, Prisma Visions Tarot, Tarot of the Divine, Literary Witches Oracle, Moonology Oracle

[mindofharry]

i had a thought of medium/ghost hunter!Y/N and a clingy ghost!harry…… here’s a small blurb for it <3

“So you’re a ghost hunter?” The girl asked as Y/N sorted her crystals. She smiled and nodded, although she didn’t like the term ghost hunter it was the easiest way to explain her gift. There are people that think it’s the coolest thing ever, to be able to speak and communicate to people who have passed on. But the majority of people in her town really don’t understand, and Y/N can sense their fear. She prefers the term medium, but for the sake of this little girl - who couldn’t be older than ten - she’ll let it go and be Y/N the ghost hunter today.

Y/N opened this store with her mom. It had everything a young medium or spiritual person would need. Although people don’t treat them with the respect they deserve, they fully believe in karma. They give back to the community with their lively spirits and practices, and their shop brings people from all of the country. There’s also teenagers on every corner trying to get ouji boards where ever they can, see Y/N tries to guide them with better things. Ouji boards are not good, Y/N absolutely hates them.

Y/N looked at the little girl, leaving her crystals for a moment. She could sense a lot of things. This girl is gifted too, she just needs a little push. She’s surrounded with good energy and especially good spirits.

“And you’re a ghost hunter too, right?” Y/N asked and the girl gasped.

“I am?”

Y/N giggled and nodded, placing a finger over her mouth as the girls mother came back. The mother had a few crystals, candles and looked exhausted to say the least. Y/N tilted her head at the mother, as she began to look through everything she was going to buy.

“Is there something bothering you?” Y/N asked and the mother sighed.

“Is it obvious?”

Y/N nodded with a soft smile.

“I can help you sage your house if you’d like? Maybe try and get the spirits to leave. My mother taught me everything she knew and she was a smart woman” Y/N stated proudly, the girl squealed.

“She’s a ghost hunter, momma!”

Y/N winked at the mom before handing a tarot card to the girl. “I need to show something to your mom, why don’t you try and sort some of these tarot cards out?” Y/N said and the girl excitedly got to work.

Y/N held the moms hand and walked her into the back of the shop.

“It’s your son, right?” Y/N asked and the woman gasped looking around. Y/N couldn’t sense any fear, she just seemed so tired. The woman sighed and nodded.

While Y/N was looking over her aura she saw the name tag on the woman’s shirt. Anne.

She obviously came straight from work, something is definitely trying to come through. Y/N didn’t sense any malice intent or bad energy, but she’d need to do a proper reading to get a better understanding of this spirit.

“Harry. My son. God, i’m not into those ghost things, i never believed in it. But then so many things are happening and it’s beginning to scare me. I thought if i put a few crystals around that this thing might go away” Anne said and Y/N nodded, wincing at her choice of word for the spirit.

“I see emily, my daughter, talking to herself or leaving notes at the door all the time. I adopted her shortly after harry passed away. And i feel like maybe he didn’t like that?” Anne said shaking her head.

“I’m sorry to drop this all on you, but no one believes me - us”

Y/N smiled and squeezed anne’s hand. “Your daughter is very special, she’s a light. All the things she’s doing is to keep you both safe. And your son? A light as well. There’s is no malice intent with him trying to contact you. He just wants to say hi” Y/N said and she could feel the relief anne was beginning to let herself feel.

“Would you…. Would you still come over? I’ll pay you how ever much you want. I just, I just need to get a full night sleep”

“Of course. I’d be happy to. Let me close up the store and i’ll follow you and emily in my car”

After gathering the stuff Y/N needed and closing up the store, she got into her car and followed anne closely. She could sense the spirit following them, he seemed nice, kind even.

“I know you’re in here” Y/N said tapping her fingers against the wheel. This was rare, new for Y/N. Usually she has to get her candles and crystals out — but this spirit is very prominent and wants to be seen.

“I’m here to help, harry. I want to help you communicate with your family. I do not mean any harm or to disturb you” Y/N said.

“I know”

It was small, a whisper. He was sitting in the back, definitely.

“Your mom is tired, harry. Can you tell me why you need to talk to her so badly? Did something happen to you before you passed on?” Y/N asked and she could hear a sigh. She almost felt excited, she couldn’t wait to talk to her mom about it.

“I miss her”

Y/N pouted and nodded.

“I understand. It’s hard for you, right?”

She couldn’t imagine the pain this spirit was going through — although she feel how kind and calm he is, she could also feel who sad and in pain he was. Emotionally that is. Y/N is going to do everything in her power to make him comfortable.

“So hard. I just want to hug my mum” He said and Y/N nodded.

“Well, i’m going to try and help you as much as i can. Is that ok?” She asked and she could feel him move himself to the front of the car. He was getting more comfortable, that made her feel good. Her job is to make spirits comfortable and happy before they move on. Harry is definitely comfy, but he definitely not moving on anytime soon. She doesn’t mind being stuck with him for the time being.

The car infront of her pulled into a nice driveway, the house is beautiful. Small, but cozy. She could feel harrys annoyance making her giggle a little.

“I think it’s nice. Suits your mom” Y/N said and harry huffed.

“I miss the old house”

Before he could complain more, Y/N got out of her car and skipped up to emily and anne. Emily still had a few tarot cards in her hand, playing with them like pokemon cards. Y/N smiled to herself and followed them into the house.

“Where’s all your gadgets?” Anne asked.

“Don’t need them anymore! But i can still do a little ritual if you’d like?” Y/N said and anne shook her head confused.

There was a tap on Y/N’s back, she turned around and saw harry. This was the first time she was able to see the spirits. He’s beautiful, is the first thing she thought. Long brown curls, cheeks flushed and eyes forest green. He’s wearing a floral shirt and tight black skinny jeans with converse on his feet.

“Harrys here with us right now” Y/N smiled and nodded at harry. He seemed a little nervous now.

“I uh don’t know what to say” Anne said her voice shaky. Harry was very close to Y/N now, he liked her.

“Ask me any question, or just tell him about your day. He misses you” Y/N said and Anne sat down biting back a sob. Harrys eyebrows furrowed and he sighed.

“Please don’t cry” He mumbled taking Y/N’s hand. Y/N smiled softly putting her hand over his.

“He said to not cry. I think it makes him upset”

Anne quietly laughed to herself and shook her head.

“Ask him does he like me!” Emily asked pulling at Y/N’s skirt. Y/N bent down and whispered into emily’s ear.

“Why don’t you ask him yourself”

The day went quickly, and Y/N was tired. These readings took a lot out of her. But she loved making people happy, especially people as kind as Anne and Emily. They needed this to heal, Y/N is so happy they chose her as their guide and to include her on their journey.

“You need to rest” Harry whispered in Y/N’s ear as Anne gave her tea. Y/N shushed him and sipped the drink, it was delicious. She loved tea, her mother made it all the time for her. It calms her.

“Y/N….”

“Y/N”

“Y/N!” Harry yelled making Y/N jump and nearly spill her tea. Anne and emily looked up and Y/N just cleared her throat.

“I think it’s time i go home” Y/N said and Anne nodded. “Of course! You’re welcome back anytime. I’m sure emily will come visit you at your shop too” Anne said, bringing Y/N into a hug. Harry was behind Y/N and followed her to the door. Y/N turned around and smiled.

“Bye harry!” She said waving and harry pouted.

“No”

She raised an eyebrow and laughed to herself.

“No?”

“Yeah, no. I’m coming home with you.”

[tranquilstudy]

june 15 | this is a little bit of an update and q&a type of post! I wanted to let you guys know where I am in life, give a bit of an introduction to new followers and answer any questions that anyone may have about me or my studies. So, my name is Katie and I’m 20 years old, living in Canada currently and studying psychology and linguistics in my third year in a double major undergraduate degree. Currently, I am not taking any summer classes but I am working two jobs: retail and in a phonetics lab, studying spontaneous speech and whatever else my professor wants me to analyze. I’m very grateful for the opportunity to work in this lab, as I am learning soooo many new things and so many doors are opening for me this way. I’m just hoping I can keep the ball rolling. Otherwise, I enjoy baking and writing poetry, reading and playing music. I am currently reading “A Game of Thrones” and I’m watching “Star Wars: The Clone Wars”. My mental health unfortunately has taken a bit of a downturn lately, no doubt due to exhaustion and stress. I’m hoping to balance my life out more so that I can have more peace of mind. Right now, I’m also working on moving to the south side of the city I live in, and it’s going to be a massive change but I’m excited for it! I’m looking forward to trying out new cafes and exploring that side of town. Im also thinking of what I can do once I graduate, because that’ll happen in a year and a half from now. I’m thinking a masters in linguistics specializing in phonetics and maybe signed languages, but I’m not sure. Working with signed languages in a phonetics lab has been a challenge for sure 😂 but the things im learning man… it’s great. Im happy with where I am, but I know I have a long way to go. Welcome if you’re new here or hello again if you’ve been following me for a while! Im gonna go ahead and answer the questions you guys asked now!

@labarium so I’m sorry that the tagging for this user is not working properly… I’m not sure what makes it work and what doesn’t make it work honestly, but this question was asking about how I got into doing tarot readings. I’m honestly not really sure what got me into tarot in the first place. I know that that’s not a super exciting origin story, but the one thing that I can say is that I was always interested in the idea of divination and of “talking with spirits“ and I remember being interested in tarot and wanting to pick up my own tarot deck, but being nervous because tarot has such a bad reputation of being, you know, a devils deck, or something that brings bad energy into your home, etc. etc. However, when I began doing my own research on the subject I learned very quickly that that was not the case and it was just a myth, and once I learned that I very quickly went out and bought my own dock and started doing readings for myself and then eventually that expanded into doing free readings for other people and that was how I practised for several several years and now eventually I’ve moved on to doing paid readings. I also get very obsessed with looking at all the different amazing artwork that’s on tarot decks and I love the fact that tarot has become a form of expression for a lot of people to create their own decks to express themselves creatively through that. In terms of what card would be my favorite, I would say in the deck that I use (the ethereal visions tarot deck), my favourite card would probably be the moon which is just really pretty and it has all these blues and, I don’t know, it has like a really pretty lady on it and it’s just very nice. In general though, I’ve always had a very strong connection with the five of pentacles, which is a card that represents loneliness and abandonment. When I got my first deck I would do readings for myself as I said, and I would get the five of pentacles like daily or every couple of days. I got it for a long time, and then one day I realized that I hadn’t gotten it in a long time, or I haven’t put I hadn’t pulled it in a long time. And then I realized that I actually lost it out of my deck which is supposed to be significant for that part of your life being removed and that was it a point in my life where I had really turned my self around and gotten with a better group of friends and I was on the right path to a better social life and a better support system for myself. Let me be clear that I don’t believe that tarot cards can speak with spirits, I’ve learned better through experience.

@just-a-cup-of-anxietea So, the next question was already partially answered, but the part that I didn’t answer yet was how long have I been doing tarot readings. So, I started doing tarot readings for other people when I was in grade 11 … so that would mean that I’ve been doing it for about 6 to 7 years, with my oracle deck being used a little less, so the oracle deck I’ve been using for about… I’d say about 3 to 4 years.

@beautymaleficent So the last question I have asks me how I discovered the academic path that I’m currently on. I knew coming out of high school, or in grade 12, when I was applying to universities that I wanted to go into something it was going to help people. I knew that I really liked studying why people do the things that they do and why the brain works the way that it does, so I remember thinking that psychology would be a good fit for me. Oddly enough, my second choice to get into university was music education, so if things are going a little differently I might’ve ended up as a music teacher or conductor! I ended up getting into both choices but I picked psychology because that was my first choice. I remember in my first year being interested in linguistics because I’m top of psychology I was interested in language, and I was always a big reader so I was always fascinated by how powerful language can be and the way that we can use language to convey things to other people. I asked my introduction level psychology professor who I could talk to about linguistics, because I have no idea what it in tailed or what the degree was about. When I ended up talking to the guy that he recommended, this guy told me that if I were to go into linguistics I would not be successful, I would not be able to get involved in the research, I wouldn’t make any money, so that I should probably just forget it. And I remember as a first year that was really intimidating… So I ended up staying away from it for a whole year. Then in my second year I realized that I was still interested in linguistics, so I just did it because that was what I wanted to do. The second part of the question asks if I’m happy with where I am going academically, and I would say as I mentioned before that I definitely am. I think that the choices that I’ve made especially in the last year have really helped me to boost my GPA and to get myself good resources and references for the future, but that I also still have a long way to go. But doesn’t everyone say that?

Thanks everyone! I hope you’re all safe and well and I’ll see you around!

🎧 i wanna get better - bleachers

[americiumam]

i’m here to ask you about the scarlet letter art symbolism 👀👀 it’s sooo good omg amazing work

WAAAAAAAA thank you!!! im so glad you like it im super proud of it!! 🥰🥰 ty for asking bc im genuinely soo proud of the symbolism in this one!! i put a lot of effort into it :] i’ll leave my rant under the cut to refrain from clogging the dash, but thank u for giving me this opportunity to talk about this😭 if anyone is confused or just wants to see the piece, it’s linked under the cut as well!!

ok so i’ll be explain both my research process and the symbolism here!! i did a lot of work with thumbnails and different references, and to design the clothes i used a mix of renditions of the characters that already exist (including an image of hester from an 1888 copy of the book, which i own!!), historical fashion cites / archives, and other portraiture from or depicting the time period!! both hester and arthur are only vaguely described in terms of detail (with hester having a bit more physical description), so i did my best to keep them as accurate as possible (hester having slightly softer features than are typical of the time, and arthur looking. vaguely unwell and sickly) 🥰 i also had a reference board of styles, taking inspiration from different playing / tarot card designs and the art nouveau style (just bc i like it :] )

around the boarder (as pointed out by @jzmn8r in the tags!! ♥️) are thorny rose bushes, which are a symbol i took from the roses by the jail & grave yard! the figurehead of the winged skull (also pointed out in the tags by my beloved friend @cafffine 😌) is actually a common symbol that i found in my research on puritan headstones! im not sure where it originated from, but it is depicted in a lot of puritan graves, and since death and the graveyard are both important parts of the novel, i thought it would work well! the Ace of hearts in the corners matches the scarlet letter on hester’s chest, and i was rlly proud of how i incorporated the heart :]

moving on to my favorite bit: the pearls!! also pointed out by @/jsmn8r, the string of pearls represents how hester and arthur are connected through their daughter, pearl! on hester’s half, the pearls are drawn taught around the back of her neck, like a chain, but they don’t wrap around her throat. the way she is holding them shows her autonomy a little bit, how she is able to be in control of her life despite being a victim of circumstances. she’s chained, but she’s safe.

in contrast, arthur’s pearls are wrapped around his hand–the same hand he’s using to hold the knife. they’re tangled just like he is tangled in the lie he’s perpetuating, and the pearls, while loose, hang all the way around his neck like a noose. he is entirely in control of his situation, but it’s going to kill him, no matter what choice he makes.

the strings on hester can represent a lot of things, but i like especially how they show how she took the scarlet letter and made it her own, eventually using her great skill to sustain herself and her child. she is also caught up in the consequences of her actions and her lie (like arthur) but she has, despite her situation, managed to take care of herself.

the red threads also balance nicely with the red on arthur’s knife! i wanted to depict him cutting the A into his chest, but i left his clothes spotless, as a nod to how he was perceived by the townsfolk despite his guilt. he’s also holding (what was meant to be 😭) a bible in his other hand, but he’s noticeably looking away in fear, up towards the heavens.

aaaand i think that’s it! if you made it this far, im sending u love and kisses and this picture of my friend’s dog. thank you for reading and letting me rant about my art — i hope you liked it as much as i liked making it!! 💕💕

[practicalmagicintuitions]

AS love and career reading

DISCLAIMER: If you will send me an Anon, I will answer in the same tone as your ask, opinion is written.

All information and statements made in this reading or any other post of mine are all alleged until proven to be fact and for entertainment purposes & usage only. All information stated is based on my intuition and my tarot cards. Opinion only. The readings have no intention to cause any harm to the individuals, people featured in it

I decided to use an icy deck for a reading on this Scandinavian God, so the Fountain tarot seemed a perfect choice.

It’s a basic love, career reading.

His love life now. *I stopped following him not long after True Blood, so I have no idea about his love life but based on the cards I think he is in a relationship and I typed this section from this point of view. 

9 of Cups, 10 of Cups

Those are amazing cards in a love reading.

I truly love the guy on the 9ofC here, because he is not smug like the one on the RWS but joyful, really happy, abundant. The cups are in the front and he is in the back ( this is the opposite on the RWS image). That means he is not just open to receive but open to give love too. He is not closed emotionally ( that doesn’t mean he is talking about it or he is not private). In the RWS deck, this is the wish card. You will get what you wish for. This card in this deck is just someone who is at a good place. He is happy alone and he is happy if he is with people. Probably he is matured emotionally compared to his previous relationships. This is also the invitation, party, celebration card in the classic deck and this is very interesting because in this deck the 10 of Cups reminds me of a wedding cake with the figures on the top. And since 10 of Cups is the happy family card I would say his current love life is very happy, full of plans. especially if he has someone. So I wouldn’t be that surprised if he is thinking about marriage at this moment or some sort of serious commitment even without papers. I also see the possibility that they will attend someone else’s wedding and that makes him think about it too. 

9 of Cups also mean he maybe tried to be or won over this person for a longer period of time and it finally happened and everything is working well. These two cards together definitely suggest marriage, pregnancy, celebration etc. The negative aspect of this card could be some unrealistic expectations. But otherwise this 2 card is just so happy together I cannot really tell more about it.

Future of this relationship

5 of cups with the 10 ow wands rx fell on it.

I think like in every long term relationship there are waves and after a nice, happy period it’s inevitably come a darker period. And there is no way to escape from this feeling. I feel with the 10ofW rx it could be about the loss of spontaneity in the relationship, maybe blaming the other for it. Emotional distance grew apart, but I think it can be solved, so this does not necessarily mean a breakup or divorce if they don’t want to they can work for it. Especially with the 5 of cups, where not everything is lost. We still have 2 full cups.I feel it’s about losing the rose-tinted glass and the grief because of it. But with the 10ofW rx I think there will be efforts to make it right and don’t let it go. It’s the realisation that they need to make a compromise. And it’s up to them because based on those cards is 50/50 that they will make it. It’s up to them.  This is also being exhausted, maybe one of them will have a demanding job and the relationship will be just the second. But I also see some secret, dishonesty. Maybe because of just the result of growing apart. With the 10ofWrx they need to decide what “wand” what task they want to let go in favour of the others. So I see the future as full of decisions. What they will focus on, the 2 still standing cups or the spilt ones? Will they make compromises and let something go to keep their relationship in balance? Those are the main questions of this relationship.

His career

3 of Wands rx, 3 of Cups rx, 8 of Coins.

I think he is frustrated because his career doesn’t really look as he imagined in the past. He probably feels he was/is unlucky and not sure how he can turn this over. I feel he has projects that failed or were not successful. 3ofCrx also could mean this. Feeling you have no options or are surrounded by people who work against you. This is also the over partying, drinking card so I see him being this way especially if he wanted to let the steam off because of the failed projects. This also means that he was a target of some gossip or because of his failed projects or the projects failed or lost roles because of those gossips. 

3ofWrx means he had big plans but he lost the enthusiasm halfway. I feel he wanted too much too fast. And he needed time to cope with the not successful projects. I think one period of time in his career he lacked opportunities, again a factor that could cause him frustration. 

With the 8of Coins (pentacles) I feel he reinvented himself a little bit and his attitude to work. I feel he will be busy, have opportunities, but I don’t necessarily see him as part of a great success. I feel he will have opportunities, jobs and maybe acclaimed ones too, but not that ultra-successful ones. He will be very focused, calculated in a good way, that needs for work. I think he feels his work has a meaning even if the success is more moderate. He is committed, he makes efforts and I think it will be fruitful. The main difference I see is in his attitude. But not in a work ethic, I think he always had a good one. By attitude I mean he understands now that a less known project could be more important than any blockbuster. He stopped chasing extreme success. This however could cause that distance in his relationship in the future that he will be so so focused on his job. This is also the work alcoholic card. Maybe he will get roles in the future that requires a lot of working out and working on his body, because this card is for this too.

All in all, I think this is a very promising, balanced reading with equal goods and difficulties. I think he is not lost in any field of his life. I feel he probably has someone, but I truly stopped following his love life ( and his projects)  a long long time ago. So if you have any knowledge, intel, send me in if you like.

Haven’t tagged him, so if you like to share repost :)

I hope you liked this reading.  :)

Have a nice day, be blessed.

[jjba-hell]

Fate and Fortune

I don’t know if this can be classified as Part 2.5 or Part 3... y’know let’s go with Part 3

Content warnings: pretty mild if not for the ominous feel, abandonment themes and some possible PTSD, nightmares and sleep paralysis (implied but not mentioned) and maybe some blood but not gore or violence.

So the big explanation I’m putting down for this one is that Vera holds the Wheel of Fortune as her stand- as I’ve said, my canon now, the one in canon do not exist ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ. I’ll probably elaborate on how it works later, for now- you’re getting breadcrumbs -w-

For the lovely @risottoneroo (please lemme know if I should cool it with the tagging lol (*´ω｀*)

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It had been a few months since the incident in the place Vera once called home. Sitting at a café, overlooking the river Nile, Avdol and Vera had just polished off a pot of tea together. It was somewhat a celebratory brunch, Muhammed Avdol had won custody over Vera Astbury- the big benefactor that was sponsoring her schooling abroad being what won the courts over in his favor.

“So, who is this oh so generous benefactor?” She asked as she brought the cup to her lips once more- hoping she was veiling her distaste at being shipped to a boarding school in the following months well enough behind polite banter. If this idea was Avdol’s or the benefactor’s idea, she was still unsure- but her reluctance remained.

“You’ll meet Mr Joestar as soon as he returns for business in England. You really don’t have to break your head about who he is until then. I’ll keep you updated.”

Avdol had a tendency to avoid speaking on the court processions for her custody. She’d been upset by both her families’ reluctance to take her in at her time of need, the bags she’d packed to be shipped to one them, standing in Avdol’s living room for one too many weeks. Until he cleared a room for her and asked her to unpack.

The smile tugged at the corner of her lips without her knowing. Avdol caught the gesture and calmly placed his cup of tea back in its saucer. “And now I wonder- what could have made my answer so amusing?”

Vera shrugged as she swirled the stray tea leaves around the bottom of her cup. “For a moment you sounded like my dad-“ her smile slid off her face as the tea leaves settled.

Divination by tea leaves was something she’d laughed at when Avdol first taught her about it but now- with all her readings, even the ones she did unintentionally as practice to get a feel for how much tea she needed to move the tea leaves around- all ended in the same black dog figure stalking the bottom edges of her cup.

To her, it felt as though she was plunged ankle deep into the tea in the bottom of the cup, as though the image mirroring her own grief and fear in the tea leaves would consume her as well.

A graceful brown hand stretched over the mouth of the cup, obstructing her view of the leaves.

“You know better than to read into your predictions now. You need to grieve first.”

Vera’s gaze met Avdol’s across the table, the concerned frown on his face enough to remind her that she wasn’t completely alone.

“Would you have me organise a psychologist at the boarding school for you?” He sighed as he withdrew his hand from her cup.

She chuckled and cringed at the same time. “I appreciate you looking out for me but I am not looking forward to leaving.”

“I know, Vera. But whatever or whoever was after you hopefully won’t leave Egypt for you. And… now don’t look at me like that. No matter how desperately you want revenge, you’re much too young to go out and look for that kind of trouble.”

Vera reverted her scowl to a smirk, she wasn’t going to fight him, the last thing she wanted was to seem ungrateful for what he was doing for her. “Watch out Avdol- if you let me get too far under your skin, I’ll give you grey hairs.”

His eyebrow shot up as he folded his hands into his robe sleeves- “You underestimate my tolerance, Vera. I know you jest most of the time, even if its just a way for you to cope.”

Vera’s words caught in her throat- the clever retort gone before she could give it some voice. With a clear of her throat she folded her hands on the table. “Perceptive. I’ll keep quite then, I know when I’m outwitted.”

“I thought so.” Avdol chuckled, signalling the waiter for the bill.

Living with Avdol had turned into an agreeable co-habitation, a bit of an adjustment for both of them but she felt safe under Avdol’s protection.

In terms of basic necessity she was well taken care of- physchologically she was still struggling.

To Vera, the development of her stand did the exact opposite to what she felt like it was supposed to do- or at least what Avdol had told her it would do. Instead of manifesting her own strength, she felt more vulnerable.

Avdol had shown his own stand to her once he realized she had some control over her own. Magician’s Red radiated an intense heat that felt like it would suffocate her if he left them out in the room too long. They were considerably larger and more opaque than her stand- intense glare matching their user’s.

“I call them Magician’s Red,” Avdol had explained. “You will find the name for your stand soon, I’m sure.” At the time she shrugged off her own ability as useless. She was just a bit more lucky whenever she hovered her stand’s extended hand over a dice. She couldn’t image her stand setting having any more power than that- the envy of seeing Magician’s Red starting the bonfire outside one evening making itself evident.

To Vera, her stand only hovered a few inches above the her bed’s edge, cross-legged like a cat watching her struggle to make her limbs move or violently jerk herself out of a nightmare. It only let her feel guilty as she playfully stole a win from Avdol in a game of cards. Only a few weeks later she realized her stand could do more than steal luck.

“Ahhh shit.”

Avdol’s head popped in around the corner at her cradling her bleeding palm over the kitchen sink.

“What happened.”

“I dropped the knife and caught it at the blade.”

Avdol cringed as he ducked back into the hallway. “I’m getting the first aid kit.”

She pulled the unplugged the water in the other sink and turned the water on to run over her wound.

Without warning her stand emerged and took hold of her hand out of the water.

The dial that replaced their wrists twisted as they hovered their palm over hers.

Obstructed for a moment, Vera couldn’t figure out what was going on until the blood drops in the sink disappeared. For a moment she thought the water had rinsed it away but as her stand’s hand moved away from hers the wound in her hand was gone. Not even a scab left in its place.

“Now THAT is a useful trick.” Avdol laughed as her stand de-materialized, Vera turning her hand in front of her in disbelief.

Time and Fortune moved in tandem to one another- at least that was what her stand had her believe. Like time marched beside the changing seasons of the world, time was tied to the Wheel of Fortune.

On her last day in Egypt, Vera sat across Muhammed on the rooftop of his home.

“I see you’ve gotten a good grip on summoning your stand.” He hummed at her stand hovering just over her right shoulder. “Their presence is strong, much less translucent than it used to be.”

Between them sat a tarot deck she had bought on a whim- it’s maker had gingerly opened the box and let her run her hands through the cards, it’s irredescent gold beauty captivating her.

“How much?” She said as she pulled her wallet from her bag.

It was her very own deck and now- with the cards already shuffled and placed face down between them for a reading, she was ready to start her first reading with them.

“Let’s hope there’s not a Death Card for this reading.” Avdol sighed.

She smiled, spreading the cards out onto the dealing mat. With her intent set, she picked two cards- a card that would represent what she had to leave behind and a card that would name her stand.

The first card was flipped and the smug smile on Avdol’s face was all she needed to see.

Six of Swords reversed- “the Resistence to transition.”

Her gaze shot up at the cocky bastard, Vera groaning in frustration. “Yeah yeah yeah, I need to stop fighting my relocation.”

In defiance she flipped the second card and to no surprise the Wheel of Fortune card looked back at her.

“I wish I could say I was surprised.” She sighed.

Avdol chuckler quietly, “So how do you refer to them in your mind?”

Vera shrugged as she put her cards back together. “I just keep calling them Fortune in my head.” Her gaze looked her own stand over- it wasn’t particularly impressive, looking like painted terracotta stacked in disks to make up a body not too different in shape from her own.

“Suits them.”

With a heavy sigh Avdol rose up and guided her down the stairs where her bags and the Speedwagon foundation security stood waiting for her.

She assumed her benefactor must have been a higher up within said foundation if he was going this far to make sure she got the boarding school safely.

Vera rolled her window down and peered up at Avdol, a bitter smile on her face as she sat in the car and he remained standing outside.

“Don’t call me and tell me you’re lonely, this was your idea.” She taunted.

He rolled his eyes and then folded his hands over his forearms.

“I was hesitant to tell you this before but I think its fair you know.” He started and the words that followed had Vera floored.

“You’re the first person I’ve ever met to survive a stand fever. Keep that in mind before you think you’re too weak to go on your own.”

Vera’s widened gaze couldn’t look away from his face, as if her next blink was going to make him disappear before her very eyes.

“You’re serious? The first?”

That same sadness returned to Avdol’s eyes, but a mismatched smile returned briefly as he straightened up once again and with a fold of his hands into his sleeves said: “Don’t let that information go to your head.”

Vera smiled back, watching the window roll up between them and Avdol become smaller in the rear windscreen.

“Oh, this talk is far from over Muhammed Avdol.”

[christian-witchy-business]

So I'm a 16 year old looking into being a Christian witch, because I'm feeling drawn to that path, and I feel like God wants me down this path as well. I've told my mom, and she accepts me, so now my next path to take is finding something right for me. So, that being said, maybe have any advice for a newbie? Thanks 😊

Hello! Congratulations on discerning a new path for yourself and welcome! I’m so glad your family is accepting of your desire to pursue a non traditional form of Christianity.

I have three major pieces of advice.

First, you do not need to be a specific “archetype” of witch, especially not at first. You don’t have to come into this saying “I’m a Green Witch” or “Im a Hedge Witch.” You can take time to explore what paths interest you and research those further. Let yourself get interested in various different types of magic and don’t bind yourself to one idea. If you like cooking, look into food magic. If you think you may like divination, start learning tarot. Think spirit work is cool? Do some research and learn how to protect yourself before you start inviting things into your home, but go for it. Mix and match your interests and don’t let anyone tell you that you have to pick just one.

Second, remember to center your faith. There are some great Christian witch blogs here and some Christian blogs that, while not inherently witchy, are very open to mysticism and folk magic. Off the top of my head I can think of @adhdcatholicwitch @hymnsofheresy @mysticismmess in particular. Go hunting through tags to find others. Remember that God is central to our faith, not magic. Yes, magic does cool stuff, but God is the river that all that power comes through. We can’t do anything without God and, as Christians, our devotion to God needs to come first. Pray. Do devotionals. Light candles and burn incense and talk with God. Chat with Saints if that’s your thing. Read the Bible and work to understand it beyond what you were taught in Sunday School and mass. @queerlychristian has some amazing sermons and material on interpreting the Bible beyond a literal guidebook or rulebook.

People (both witches and regular Christians alike) will try to tell you that this isn’t an acceptable path and that Christians can’t dabble in magic. Finding a healthy and strong relationship with God will help you persist in your path despite the opinions of others.

Finally, be careful who you learn from and what you practice. Magic is cool, there’s so many different things to explore and rituals to learn! But remember that not every ritual is from an open religion or culture. Learn what terms and actions are closed to you. Stay away from people who claim that there’s no such thing as a closed practice. Most indigenous magic systems (Native American religions, African religions, Indigenous Australian, etc.) are closed and many others require initiation and training. Also, Kabbalah is a Jewish practice and anyone who tries to tell you it’s fine for a Christian because “it’s the same God” is probably antisemitic. Check out @will-o-the-witch for more info on Jewish witchcraft and how to be a good ally to Jewish people (who aren’t just Christian Lite™️). Note that staying away from them doesn’t and shouldn’t mean that you are the equivalent of a 4 year old putting their fingers in their ears and going “la la la not lisrening.” It means not practicing closed traditions. Learn about them, know what Voodoo actually entails. Ask questions about what the evolution of root work in America was. Know which Native American groups practice what types of religions. Ignorance is not the same as respect.

Also, if you plan to follow Norse pagan blogs, make sure you do a quick scroll through the blog before following. Most are amazing people with great resources but unfortunately white supremacists have decided that Odin and Thor loooove and support white supremacy (spoiler: they don’t) and have hijacked the religion. 99% of Norse blogs are great, just be on the lookout for Nazi bs. Also, be wary of any witches that deny the presence of male witches or say anything about how witchiness is derived from womanhood. This is usually a calling card for transphobic behavior. There are a lot of TERFs in the witch community.

This got long and I’m sorry. If you have more specific questions, feel free to DM me and we can chat more. These are my major tips when starting witchcraft on tumblr.

Tl;dr: 1) explore what you love, 2) remember to be Christian first, witch second, and 3) be aware that there are racists, transphobes, sexists, and assholes in the witch community and be somewhat on the lookout for them.

[cowthropologist]

@pearlsthatwereeyes tagged me in this fic meme! :D

Name: dimerization on AO3 and FFN, although that FFN account is dead

Fandoms: Many.  I’ve published work on AO3 for Mass Effect, Castlevania, Dragon Age, and Dishonored

Where you post: AO3

Most popular one-shot: the lesbian alien tentacle bondage porn.  FUN FACT, I wrote that in a notebook while attending a children’s Christmas choir concert with my grandmother.

Most popular multichap: The fic of doom in terms of kudos.  The fic of death is incomplete but has more subscribers though.  (I swear I will finish it someday.)

Favorite story you’ve written so far: Sheesh I dunno.  The whumptoberfic is the thing I’m writing that I’m most excited about at the moment.  The fic of death has been living rent free in my head since like 2015 with no signs of going anywhere though, it’s kind of a big deal to me.  That’s my PTSD magnum opus, or it would be if I ever FINISHED IT LOL

Fic you were nervous to post: All of them lbr.  That Castlevania fic is probably the one I agonized over the most; I spent several days revising it after posting and being like wow I hate this

How do you choose your titles: Slowly and painfully.  The Castlevania fic title came from a quote from the show; the fic of doom’s title is a Dan Wilson song lyric.  The fic of death has a working title but I was too impatient so I posted it anyway -- I still haven’t decided what I actually wanna call it but it sure isn’t “Zombie”.  The whumptoberfic title is the name of a tarot card.  The uppers fic title is a lyric from Parting Glass, which was stuck in my head THE WHOLE TIME I was high on antidepressants and writing the first draft (lol)

Do you outline: When I need to.  I’ve written and lost multiple outlines for the fic of death.  I started that story a solid 3 computers ago so almost all of my drafts are gone.  All I really have is what’s on AO3.

Complete: All the oneshots, the shenko series (fic of doom being the crown jewel thereof), and that one abortive little series I did for Femslash Yuletide in like 2014.

In progress: Oh god, fucking everything else.  I have two Dishonored WIPs that I’m actively writing (the whumptoberfic and the uppers fic), and then I have two 4+ year old Mass Effect fics (the fic of death and my fshenkara control ending magnum opus yeah babyyyyy) that I don’t consider abandoned.  I just... haven’t written anything for either of them since 2016.  Ha ha.  Whoops.

Coming soon/not yet started: I have A LOT of ideas for massively expanding this charming lil tidbit into a giant kidfic epic/political drama spanning DH1, DH2, and the time in between, but that is 99.95% daydreams at this point.  I honestly don’t know if I’ll ever write it.  It’s kind of a big project.

Prompts?: By all means prompt me but I make no promise about returning fills.  I do like them generally though; the whumptoberfic was spawned from Whumptober, and it’s my favorite thing I’ve written in a long time.

Upcoming work you’re most excited about: “Upcoming”??  Literally all I want to do is finish The Tower and A Time to Fall and then maybe we’ll fucking talk.  Upcoming.  Good lord

Tagging: @tenleaguesbeneath, @lark-in-ink, and anyone else who wants to.  if you do swipe this and do it pls tag me, I want to read your answers!