#notes of the dreamer

[oifaaa]

I honestly do just presume everyone in the world has watched naruto I just can't comprehend a person that hasn't witnessed rock Lee take off his training weights or seen naruto sit sadly on a swing 50 times so when I see someone say they've never seen naruto I just don't believe them they have definitely watched naruto it is a universal life step

[dreamsteddie]

I'm obsessed with The Price is Right and therefore I think that Steve is obsessed with the Price is Right also.

He watches the reruns on weekends and loves the days when he's sick (or pretending to be sick) and he can watch it on the living room couch when he's in high school. When he graduates he tries to get all his shifts to start after 12:00 even if it means he has to close.

He loves watching and judging people's fashion and hair choices. He does all his own shopping so he's pretty good at guessing prices and scoffs when people make stupid guesses. He's convinced himself that there's a technique to spinning the wheel to guarantee the best results.

When he gets together with Eddie the other man is incredibly indeared by Steve's love for the show. He loves the days when he gets to stay home with Steve in the mornings and watch him watch The Price is Right. He thinks it's funny how heated he can get about it like it's a sports game. He delights in bugging Steve when it's on, asking him questions really loudly right in the middle just so Steve will give him that annoyed leave me alone look that scrunched up his eyebrows.

It's also what gives Eddie the confidence to start bringing Steve back to the trailer instead of holing up in the otherwise empty Harrington house. Wayne is similarly in love with the Price is Right and since he usually works 4 10s over the weekends he has three mornings a week completely available to watch every week. The two days a week he does have work he just waits up after his shift lets out at 8 eating "dinner" and trying to keep himself awake enough to catch it at 11. Half the time he passes out in the armchair.

Eddie takes Steve back to the trailer one night and invites him to stay the night and passes out with a grin on his face thinking about his two favorite people in the world meeting tomorrow. Eddie wakes up to an empty bed and scrambles out into the living room to the happy sight of Wayne and Steve talking about unfair Take Two is like they've known each other for years instead of a couple of hours at most.

Eddie makes them all box mix pancakes and takes the last of the mostly empty coffee in the pot for himself. He bangs the big pan down loudly on the counter just to get a rise from the two on the couch and turns his back to hide his smile when they grumble at him to keep it down.

Eddie takes Steve with him on a seemingly impromptu road trip to California. Supposedly it's to scope out what kind of metal scene can be found there but the real reason is to take Steve to wait in line to audition to be in the audience of his favorite show and get a chance to play. Steve is so excited and also incredibly annoyed with the surprise. He complains about not being able to pick out his best outfit and only lets up when Eddie assures him several times that he looks fantastic.

Steve, of course, handsome as he is gets pushed through with no fuss and Eddie gets to come with him as a companion. He goes on and on about how much smaller the set is than it even looks on TV and how excited Wayne is going to be. He whispers in Eddie's ear about people's silly handmade shirts and all the people wearing suits when it's gotta be almost 80 degrees in there. Eddie just knows that the camera is going to be panning over his boyfriend as much as it can. He's going to be great for ratings.

Steve ends up getting called down and makes the closest bids on a pair of his and her watches that he's going to split with Robin. Eddie can see his eyes light up as he banters with Bob, cool as a cucumber, the bastard. He gets a nice recliner that will definitely be replacing the old, sagging one that Wayne uses now in the Clock Game and barely misses out on the second prize of a fancy game table that the kids are definitely going to bully him about. When it's time to spin the wheel he holds out on a 75 and goes to the showcase. He is very smug about it all.

In the end, he wins an okay showcase with a strange little toy car he's going to give to Erica to terrorize the other kids with and some ugly living room furniture he's probably going to reject. The real prize is the 55-inch color TV that's going to take pride of place in the Munson house.

At the end Eddie bitches and moans about all the space this crap is going to take up in the van and how their gas bill headed back is going to be at least twice what it was coming down, but he can't really feel too put out with how happy Steve looks.

Back at their hotel room, Steve tackles Eddie into the bed and thanks him profusely for doing all this for him. No one has ever gone out of their way to make him happy quite like Eddie has, and they both can't wait to get back to Hawkins and wait for their episode to air. Eddie is already planning to coordinate with the kids to get them to record a couple of VHS for them to keep.

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Now with some Extras!

[daydreamerwonderkid]

Iswtfg if cock anon breaks my notes, I'll eat a picture of Dick Grayson.

[dreamers-collective]

Reminder that you can wholeheartedly love your system and sysmates and still have days where you feel tired of being a system. Sometimes being a system makes hard days easier, but sometimes it makes them harder, and that’s okay too.

[clovers-housetree]

Activities for Regressors Without Caregivers! (or just fun regression activties!)

(Although you're always welcome here if you'd like any form of comfort anyway! ^w^)

This one's kind of a long one, after the few tips I list, I've mentioned an app I use called Finch, which will be talked about below the cut.

Since that's the case, I'll put my little ending message here instead:

Knowing how to take care of yourself can take a lot of work and practice, but I believe it's worth the effort, because then you'll be a happier and healthier you! Especially if you can find ways to make it fun!

I'm more than happy to be here for you and offer my support in any way I can, anyhow! I'm proud of you for doing what you can, I know it can be very hard.

I myself don't have a caregiver for when I regress, so most of the time I end up taking care of myself! Here are some fun activities and things I do when I regress to keep myself calm and happy! ^w^

Paci mentions/pics not long after the first section for those of you who'd rather not see 'em.

♥ Arts and crafts! I absolutely LOVE coloring and making bracelets with beads, something not too complicated for little hands, but also something fun!

With coloring, you can buy coloring books, or draw something of your own to color in- even printing out a page you find online, coloring digitally, or tracing over something to color in could work! I prefer coloring more than drawing personally because I don't draw all the time, but I bet I could learn a little thing or two from the artists around here!

For bracelets (and other jewelry), strings can be hard to knot with little hands (at least they aren't those small, slippery clasps!!), but the beads shouldn't be too hard to handle if you're careful! Even just planning out patterns is fun!

Here are some My Little Pony bracelets I made, and the decorations I did for my pacis!

♥ Making playlists! Dancing is fun, and a good way to get the zoomies out, but you can just make playlists for any occasion! I have playlists that help me pet-regress, songs with sounds I like, adventure playlists... (Well- a lot of these are still in progress, but- you get the point!)

I also love those playlist videos on YouTube! Animal Crossing, Super Mario Galaxy, Minecraft and music box music are typically my go-to to help me settle or just make for comfy background music! Here's one of my favorites, shadowatnoon has lovely Nintendo music mixes!

♥ Playing with your plushies! You can take them on adventures, or make your own!

Like Toby, climbing The Great Pillow Mountain!

(This is Toby by the way, he's one of my best friends and a VERY good hugger!)

You can play games with them, too! Toby's REALLY good at hide and seek... Maybe you can find him for me? :0

♥ Finding shows to watch! I really like Paw Patrol and Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles at the moment. Plus, you can look at agere content and fics from shows you like! People make really cool stimboards and moodboards, for example, and I like reading through all the fun stories people write!

Here's a silly picture of Rocky I found! :3

Finch

Finch is a self-care app where you take care of your very own little bird friend by taking care of yourself!

You can set daily goals, or for each day (or more specific ones as well I think.). By completing these goals, you give your bird energy to go on adventures! They usually come back with a funny little story or silly questions, because they're learning, too!

Through completing these goals (or daily, at least), you can get Rainbow Stones, which you can use to buy clothes for your bird, make them different colors, or give them furniture for their house!

They're also LGBTQ+ and disability-friendly!! :3

This is my little bird, Honeydew! You're welcome to friend me as well if you'd like, my code is: Z3E2T7VRK6

It's helped me learn a lot about taking care of myself and keeping track of my goals, and I get little rewards for it! I've used the app for several months now, and it's helped me out a lot!

"Fluttershy protects this blog! SFW interaction only, please and thank you! ^w^"

"Wouldn't show a kid? Doesn't belong here!"

[seaemberthesecond]

The thing you need to understand about the Lynch Brothers is that Matthew is Declan's right hand arm man. Declan is Matthew's confidante, his best friend. His silly little rabbit even. Ronan is just There.

[dreamerarchives]

ENTITY LOG ⟋ MADOKAMI 𓈒

NOTE: This post aims to discuss Madokami through the lens of Pop Culture Paganism. The majority of what's put here are based from my experiences with her.

I. WHO IS MADOKAMI?

Madokami, otherwise known as the Law of the Cycles is a pop culture entity that originated from the Puella Magi Madoka Magica media. She was formerly human, until she made a wish that was able to prevent puella magis from witching out in the past, present, and future, and to take away their pain. That wish made to an incubator was the same thing that ascended her into divinity as the guardian of magical girls; it was also used to take down Walpurgisnacht in the show.

Her name as an entity came from the one she took upon as a human being, Madoka Kaname (鹿目まどか), and the Japanese word for a divine spirit, Kami (神). Bringing Madoka and the word Kami together was how the title-name "Madokami" was created. Her given name, Madoka (まどか) has no specific meaning but if it was written in kanji, it would mean "round" which represents the cyclical nature of magical girls. In other translations, she's also referred to as Ultimate Madoka or Goddess Madoka.

She is portrayed to have an infinite amount of hair strands, which in reality would be impossible to carry due to its infinite weight, but this is to depict the infinite grief and weight of responsibilities that she had taken upon herself. Meanwhile, Madokami was also shown to be capable of creating little 'extensions of herself', such as the form she uses whenever she flies off to save a puella magi. This form is humanoid and identical to the magical girl transformation outfit that she had before ascending.

As a concept, Madokami is meant to represent the idea of hope amid disaster and adversity, being the reason why puella magis no longer have to turn into self-destructive witches that spread negativity to others and on why Walpurgisnacht, who Homura Akemi couldn't defeat despite the timeloops, was defeated. For this, she was labelled as the hope of all magical girls, as it gave puella magis a chance to not end up into a monstrous demise.

II. ALTERNATE NAMES

Madoka Kaname, Ultimate Madoka, Goddess Madoka, Madokami

III. EPITHETS / TITLES

Law of the Cycles, Hope of All Magical Girls (UPG), Savior of Magical Girls (UPG), Feathers of Hope (UPG), God of Hope (UPG)

IV. ASSOCIATIONS (All UPG)

Elements: Air, Fire (Secondary)

Directions: North, East

Colors: White, Pink, Yellow, Gold, Red

Seasons: Spring, Late Winter

Tarot Cards: The World, The Star, The Hierophant, Judgement, 10 of Cups, 2 of Cups

Planet: Pluto, Venus

Moon Phase: New Moon, Waxing Crescent Moon, First Quarter Moon, Full Moon

Animals: Doves, Pigeons, Hamsters, Flamingos

Flowers: Snowdrops, Moonflowers, Pink Carnations, Cherry Blossoms, Lotuses, Gladioli

Number: 2, 3, 6, 9, 10, 100, Infinity

Candles: White Candles, Pink Candles

Miscellaneous: Cycles, Transformation, Change, Magical Girls, Love, Hope, Inner Strength, Light, Despair, Grief, White Feathers, Pink Feathers, Red Ribbons, Yellow Ribbons, White Ribbons

V. OFFERINGS (All UPG)

Food: Bread, Cream Stew, Hot Chocolate, Pastries, Milk, Water, Anything made with love!!

Honoring Acts: Being kind to other people, helping stray animals, participating in volunteer work, forgiving yourself, keeping a red ribbon as a lucky charm, baking/cooking, taking care of yourself (mentally and physically)

VI. WHAT CAN SHE HELP WITH?

Magical girl contracts, shadow work, self-work, talking with magical girl familiars, interacting with incubators, communication with entities, cleansing, banishing, protection, cleansing soul gems, magical girl duties, astral projection, glamour magic, transformation, ending a cycle, changing, self-revolution, finding balance, letting go, moving on

VII. MY EXPERIENCES

I've known Madokami for almost a year. To me, she would appear in numerous but consistent ways. How she presents herself to others may be different to how she may show herself to you, so please do note that!

Personally, she appeared to me in these ways:

· A silhouette of a sparkling pink universe/galaxy, either with the shape of Ultimate Madoka or humanoid Madoka with pigtails. At times, she has yellow irises, but on other occasions, she remains as a silhouette with no facial features.

· Ultimate Madoka as her magical girl form. Whenever she interacts with me in the astral in this form, she has this soft and subtle glow on her skin. Her eye color may change from yellow to pink.

· Ultimate Madoka as her divinity form.

Whenever I hear her through clairaudience, her voice has an ethereal vibe to it. It sounds layered, dreamy, and fuzzy, with an echo. It sounded like her voice was a compilation of several other Madokas combined into one.

Her energy feels comforting and safe, as if I'm under a cozy, thick blanket, during a heavily stormy day. Another way that I'd express it is that being around her makes me feel calmer, softer. Whenever she's with me, it's like I'm being embraced and soothed by feathery wings. In addition to that, I can describe her as having a gentleness akin to a lullaby on the music box.

She helped me before in performing my duties as a magical girl and had given me boosts while I was in the astral. I think that she's trustworthy! If she's unavailable, then she sometimes sends in one of her assistants as the Law of the Cycles, which includes Sayaka Miki and Nagisa Momoe.

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[tigtree]

third base is me telling you in excruciating detail why i believe that matthew lynch is autistic

[dreamerking27]

"The only cog worth a damn is the one that doesn't fit anywhere. The one that makes its own machine." -Brennan Lee Mulligan, Cloudward Ho! episode 1

[nezz-cringe-crib]

army dreamers but with sachiko yagami.

the yagami family makes me so ill.

[stuck-in-jelly]

Pre-Transition Gren was NOT in my Dreamer’s Nightmare bingo card im not going to lie

[separatistnightmare]

Commando ocs

[daydreamerwonderkid]

Be honest: How badly would y'all judge me if I just made this my entire personality? Lmao

[kaibacorpintern]

ommgggg crazy two new prompt fills in amuse bouche

16. Trustshipping! Isis and Kaiba at an aquarium

17. Prideshipping! Sort of. pegasus has thoughts about it during duelist kingdom.

[shadowkat2000]

Was thinking about how Carmen Farooq-Lane and Mr. Grey should have their own little club where they drink wine and pointedly not talk about their sociopathic older brothers they they killed

[saintashes]

THE FOOL'S JOURNEY. || a satosugu poem. text below. feel free to reblog :)

CONCEPT: the sun sets and the sky looks like raspberries. we reach up and take one from a bush, bursting and juicy. the clouds touch our fingers shyly and we laugh and laugh until our stomachs hurt in the best way.

CONCEPT: we are becoming dull with age. we are still alive. i tell you about the raspberries and you tell me we are too old to believe in magic. i ask, is it the growing up that leaves us empty? you stay silent. the next morning there is a note on the counter. fear, it says. fear. i wonder how much courage it took to write it down.

CONCEPT: a home in which fear is an invite only guest. and we do not send an invitation. do not even throw a party.

CONCEPT: the day ends and you barge into our dorm room. yell and yell. grab my arm. chase me out into the night. you say, look at the sky. it is all cranberry and red. look, see how the wind grows strawberries? see the fields? how they breathe on indefinitely? and, lord, the look on your face. it is breathtaking. your mouth twisting up in joy.

CONCEPT: we eat from the vine. the stars wink their little eyes at us. the moon listens as we weave her a story. nothing stills until dawn.

CONCEPT: we stay here forever. fear does not reach us in this place. it is only our front yard but it is wild. it is brim filled with dreams. it is an accomplishment. to grow and still believe. it is magic. it is ours. in the best way, it is ours.