#platonic ones aren't. and not even the ones when I'm attracted to someone...i think

[wikipedie]

Not me not knowing whether or not I have romantic feelings for someone and taking a quiz which responds with"idk bro just as confused as you"

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What are their thoughts about you?

You can try this reading for romantic AND platonic connections. I have included romantic messages but you can always just omit them when checking for a friendship or a familial relationship. However I made this reading specifically for romantic connections.

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Queen of Cups, Nine of Cups, Nine of Wands reversed, The Moon, Four of Wands | The Devil

Happy, Happy rev/Loyal Heart rev/Give your relationship a chance/Getting to know each other

They think you are an incredibly compassionate person. They know that you are very gentle and loving as a person. You treat people with kindness and you consider people's feelings at all times, and you are never reckless when it comes to dealing with anything that involves emotions. They think that you have a lot of love to give to the world and at the same time you are secure with great self-love as well. You radiate love all around you effortlessly and you care genuinely. They also think that you forgive easily or has a soft spot for loved ones, and you might be sensitive when it comes to matters of the heart. You might have a delicate nature and you might be artistic too.

They think that you might be serious about loyalty and relationships, and the very fact makes them think that being loved by you will be healing and nurturing, and anybody who has your attention is incredibly lucky to be blessed by your healing presence. They see you as someone who deeply embodies femininity and quiet grace.

You might remind them of their mother sometimes, if not it's the warmth you have maybe in your words, presence, thoughts and expressions that remind them of motherly and pure love.

They think you are mature, the way you deal with problems with compassion and understanding. Maybe you don't judge anyone on a whim and you don't arrive at conclusions without proper consideration. This nature of yours put them at ease and makes them feel accepted. They might also feel safe in your presence. Your behaviour, character and the way you present yourself makes them think that you might become a good mother someday or you already are. Even if you are not, you might have that effect on people and they really appreciate that.

If you are already in a relationship, then they are so proud to have you by their side and really grateful too. I heard proud to call you mine. Your value is well-known to them, that is obvious. They believe they won when it comes to you and that they have gained everything they could possibly want from a romantic partnership. You might be a wish fulfillment for them. Maybe they wanted you for so long and to know that they can finally have you brings them a ton of satisfaction and appreciation for you. You bring them a lot of pleasure. There's a lot of satisfaction in your relationship.

For those of you aren't already in a relationship with this person, they want to win your heart somehow😭 I don't know if they will act on it or how quick they want to, but they are trying to attract you and manifest you into their life somehow. It is because of the belief they have of your value. They know that you will add to their life and make them feel better in every possible way.

They can see that you love yourself and know your worth and they are aware of it too. They can see it and they absolutely love how much self-respect you have. Even if you are someone who is more introverted or shy, they think you are confident in your own unique way. They can't help but see that, the quiet grace and strength you possess whilst being soft and gentle.

They might think you are successful too, in one specific way or in many ways. One thing that really stands out is the value they see in you. They see great value, maybe you are exactly who they were looking for all this time, or they think that what you have and who you are as a person is undoubtedly the ideal partner for anyone who wishes to experience love. There's a lot of admiration for you in their eyes.

I'm thinking of this scenario, let's just say you are playing a match, a sports event of some kind and your person is on the sidelines watching you and they are like That's my girl! with visible satisfaction written all over their face. That's so adorable :)

I get this feeling that for very few of you this person could be a secret admirer of yours. I'm thinking of Ladybug and Cat Noir typa situation😄 where you both are oblivious of the fact that you crave and admire each other. So instead of initiating a relationship you still look at each other and think your union is a very difficult reality to achieve and to win you is only a dream; a dream that obviously brings a lot of contentment and joy.

However you might act defensive at times. Maybe you are just protective of your energy. Maybe you are not open to relationships right now or you are just not ready. They think you are wounded in some way, weak and way too exhausted due to something. I wonder if you've given up something recently. It's also like you do not wish to pour your energy into things you believe won't work. Maybe your person is paranoid that you might not even give them a chance. They feel very let down. I wonder if they think that you don't have enough energy right now, maybe you have a lot going on in your life.

They also think you are a bit hesitant or maybe it's them. I think your past experiences doesn't allow you to trust anyone easily or you got hurt badly and now your boundaries are pretty strong. They sense a feeling of subtle fear, hurt and powerlessness from you. I wonder if you are running away from this person for some reason.

There's something standing between the both of you and I think it's hurting you both. They might think that you are fragile in some way and that you are in need of protection. Someone might have an avoidant attachment style in relationships.

There's this slightest hint of trauma and painful memories here. A bit of fear and a lack of clarity too. They think unlocking joy is possible with you but they think something is missing. It's like they can't see everything about you. There is something that they haven't yet figured about you or it's just worry standing in the way of happiness.

For some of you, they might think that ultimate happiness with you is an illusion and they might not be able to have it. Or it's just doubt, fears and nervous energy thinking it will all go wrong. They think you have to be more open if you intend to deepen this relationship. Can we have everything we want, a happy ending to this chapter and then begin the next together? This seems to be a constant thought on their mind.

Another thing I'm getting is this person might be living in a different country; a long distance relationship. So they think that things will only work out when you finally close the distance between you.

Finally they think you should let go of worrying and try to cheer up. Maybe try to let go of whatever is hurting you.

I can't help but think something. Take this only if it resonates. There could've been past cheating or betrayal of some kind between you and this person, because of which they think happiness isn't as easy to gain with you. I wonder if lies were spoken or some form of deception or concealing information happened here. There's a little hesitation when it comes to relaxing, enjoying or being lighthearted with you.

With the devil being at the bottom, nine of wands, moon and the oracle card reversals make me think that there is an illusion of some kind. Addiction, obsession or some toxic attachment might be relevant to you or them. Even issues that relate to mental health struggles.

However if you don't share a history with this person, it's mostly just doubt and anxiety they feel about the future of this connection. They are looking for clarity and wondering about the chances of having a potential commitment with you but at the same time questioning if they could/should trust you; if their loyalty will be returned and if it's time to be happy and rejoice.

Other confirmation messages :

Pisces, Cancer, Scorpio, Sagittarius, Aries, Capricorn, Jupiter in Pisces, Neptune placements, Chiron placements, Venus in Aries, Exalted Jupiter

Trophy wife/husband

Past mistakes should not be repeated

"Love is when you protect each other"

Drugs, addictions and unhealthy obsessions

Stalker vibes (but mostly secret admirer vibes)

"Hiding your truth"

"We should be more honest to each other"

Unhealthy attachment styles

Being attracted to partners who heal past scars

Bleed on people who didn't cut you

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Five of Wands, The Hierophant, Death, Seven of Wands reversed, Ten of Swords reversed | Eight of Cups reversed

Orphaned/A leg up/Message in a bottle reversed/Religious factors/Reconciliation

A little disclaimer here, if you are asking about someone with whom you have a smooth relationship with little to no conflict, then this isn't the group for you. You should DEFINITELY choose another.

For others who know deep down that you've chosen the correct group according to your situation, please be kind to yourself and try to be kind with this person you are asking about too. Healing is possible and everything is going to get better. Please try to cultivate peace and love. With that being said, let's get in to your reading.

These thoughts are really heavy. There's a lot of conflict here. They probably fought with you constantly or you did. So their thoughts about you are tainted with contempt or more so anger.

There might've been a divorce, an ending or a great strife between you and this person. This conflict still goes on in their mind even despite physical separation.

Hatred is a strong word, I don't think they hate you, but they find it hard to forgive themselves or you.

There could've been disagreements or compatibility issues in your relationship that caused you both to be at each other’s throats.

Differences in spiritual practices, religious beliefs, culture, family traditions or even elders influencing your relationship with this person might be one of the causes of this deep running conflict.

Your beliefs could've been significantly different, even morals, ideals and expectations of life might not have aligned well. If you took one step forward, they might've disagreed with you on that, if you took one step backward they still would've disagreed. What I'm trying to say is that there's no way you could've won, and there's no way they could have won. There's no winner here, but you both want to be one.

It's like that. A constant pull and push, unwilling to compromise, and not grounded enough to acknowledge mistakes. They think that in whatever way you involve yourself with them, it always inevitably end in more chaos.

For some of you, this could be an elder, a parent figure or mentor that you are asking about. For others this is a marriage or a commitment you once had. A marriage proposal maybe was turned down or called off.

There is no doubt that this has been a life changing event for both parties involved. I don't think this was easy for you or them, but now they might believe that this was for the best. They think that maybe this separation was a blessing in disguise and an opportunity to move forward with a fresh start; to find people, places and situations that truly align with you and them.

I wonder if some of you are asking of a deceased person, I don't read messages about that, so I won't dive deep into details.

They are tired of thinking or feeling. They have given up truly. They feel judged, defeated and they are doubting themselves and right now they are doubting you and every one. This might sound harsh, but they have lost faith. They have stopped fighting after fighting for too long. Now they have finally come to a realization that it was a waste of time, energy and resources to engage in conflict. It's not even about admitting defeat anymore, they are just DONE.

They might be receiving a lot of criticism from their family and loved ones including you and a lot of hate from strangers too. You could be experiencing similar reactions too.

There might've been overstepped boundaries here. Taking things too far comes to mind. What started as a small problem or a fight might've escalated into a web of misunderstandings and conflict, soon leaving no place to exit peacefully. Two conflict cards in one reading, repeating 5s, two major arcana and all the cards here indicate a lot of unresolved conflict, friction and hopelessness. Their thoughts of you are clouded with chaos; they can't even start tackling them, it's a huge mess to handle.

But the worst is over, they have just begun the process of regenerating. There's a long way to go and it's definitely not a beginning they have, they have just escaped ruin. They are in a complete disaster. I wonder if you have betrayed them or they were betrayed by someone they trusted the most. They have finally accepted their fate, understood their mistakes and failures.

This person could be in jail too or serving a sentence of some kind.

They feel a deep sense of loss, like they don't belong where they once used to. They feel unsupported, but support is the very thing they need right now.

They think that making peace about this situation is the only thing they could do right now.

They fear a lot of things; they fear the good things and the bad things. They might be avoiding you but it's not just you. Whatever this conflict has been about it has impacted their entire personal life and wellbeing.

All in all, their thoughts about you are in a negative light and I believe it will remain this way for a while. They are hurting a lot and you might be too.

This song, the lyrics might have something you need to know.

Other confirmation messages :

Leo, Taurus, Scorpio, Aries, Saturn in Leo, Saturn in Aries(Debilitated saturn), Gemini, Aquarius, Libra, Debilitated 7th lord, Mars in 1, 4, 7th houses, North Node in 1st house, NN and SN in the 1/7 axis, Weak jupiter or moon, Sun in 7th house, Fire dominant

"Red flags are not pretty decorations for you to admire; they are warning you for a reason." (From the oracle guidebook)

Anger issues/Repressed anger

Unresolved problems due to miscommunication or lack of communication

My way or the highway

Failing to compromise

Ego clashes

A significant commitment

Grave consequences

Left or right?

Confusion and indecision

Deeply hurt and feeling betrayed

I do not feel understood at all

Burning fire

Unsupportive family/friends/circle

African/Indigenous/South African/New Zealand/Aboriginal person/Native American

You shared a special song with this person, and at one point of time it was your song

Too far gone/Gone girl? (Movie maybe)

Contempt

Conspired together to bring someone down

All hope is lost

Competing with your partner

It never gets easy. I give up

Self-expression and need to be recognised

Doesn't get each other

Problems within an institution affecting you and this person

Marriage set up by elders against your wishes

Patience, love and understanding is required

Grew up alone/Missed family most of the time

Religious disputes, family being related to a specific religious position in society

Family clans or something? (Thinking of China, Japan, Korea, Philippines too)

Catholicism

That is all for your reading. I know it was a bit heavy and painful, but those were the messages that came through. Now the circumstances for everyone who chose this group will vary in intensity, although the thoughts and feelings remain quite the same.

Please, please be gentle with yourself 🩷

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Ten of Cups, King of Cups, Queen of Cups, Temperance, Justice | Three of Cups

Milk and Honey/To be fair reversed/Mending reversed/ Stay optimistic about your love life/This could be the one

The amount of cup cards here is crazy. These are not thoughts they have of you, these are feelings 💌😭 They too run deep.

Reminds me of this post I saw somewhere. The difference between these phrases is huge in a writer's pov,

I love you

I love you

I love you

I love you

Do you see it? I really hope you do, cause it's so wholesome and heartwarming. Thoughts with deep feelings etched to them is what's going on here.

All the tarot cards here in one way or the other speaks of counterparts, soulmates and destined partners, feel free to use whatever term you believe in. Your person thinks you are the one. Period. There is no doubt in that🙈 Also mirroring energy is quite strong here, so I'm thinking you too could have similar thoughts and feelings towards them. 10, 11, 14, 9 could be significant.

They feel protective of you. When they think of you, their heart probably breaks a little, not with sadness, but with the sheer intensity of their adoration for you, maybe they even shed a tear in secret🤭 They are soft for you.

They are committed to you mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually, you name it, in all ways they are yours. All that they have, they are yours. That is what they think of you. They are loyal af. They only have eyes for you.

If you are not already in a commitment with them, they want it right now. It's not even a question to them, they just know you are the one for them and I'm pretty sure looking at these cards, you are in a happy relationship with this person you are asking about. If not you might see the possibility of a great connection yourself. Their feelings are pure and very clear. They love you like they love no other.

Oh my gosh, leave the reading and go listen to this song, this is exactly what's on their mind. This is what they'll tell you 😭

I'm wondering if this is someone's first love, like you both could be the first love for one another. I'm thinking of teen romance too. Honestly feels like an all-consuming love. Feels like sweets, candy and ice cream. 🥰🍬🍭🍨

They crave love and marriage with you and they dream of building a family with you. They want that fairytale ending with you, the happily ever after. There is a vision of having a beautiful future with you, fulfilling all of your desires whilst achieving their own dreams and having a lasting relationship with you. They feel a strong sense of connection with you and a deep sense of belonging when they spend time with you. You bring deep emotional fulfillment to them, one look at you and probably their day is fixed and all their worries gone, in just an instant.

They might want to spend all their time with you, in fact if given the choice they would be incredibly happy just to be by your side from morning to night. They probably are by your side right now, probably cuddling or holding your hand or something haha. I don't think they'll leave you alone even for a brief while. Man, they are in love with you, they won't ducking leave you even to go to the grocery store😂 If they are given the choice, they'll happily be your shadow.

Happy wife, happy life comes to mind. You know the phrase Dylan Sprouse says to Barbara. You might even have a relationship dynamic like that. Your person might be your biggest hype man, maybe they are not that vocal about it, but believe me they are.

You really make them want to have kids with you. You know that clip where Ryan Gosling says that he knew he didn't want to have kids with no one else, but with Eva Mendes or something like that. Your person might have had a realization similar to that. They have actually had many realizations about you, group 3.😅 I'm so sure of it. Those are beautiful realizations actually.

Also all these celebrity couples makes me wonder if you are one yourself haha. I mean there's this slightest chance you are. Or maybe there's already a lot of eyes on you and your relationship. The connection you share with each other is so profound that it might pique people's interests all the time.

They are devoted to you, gentle with you in all possible ways, probably cooks for you and feeds you. Woah they just love taking care of you. At the end of the day, they just want to listen to you about how your day went. Reminds me of Benny Blanco making it all about Selena in every way possible. They just want you to be happy. You are their sun, and their whole world revolves around you. You are their happiness, all they want and need.

You might be married to this person, at least few of you who pick this group. This person is all about family. They are a good person through and through, probably a little sensitive but has a heart of gold. Values your commitment deeply, but most importantly values you over anything else. Would probably jump into a fire to save you. They are locked in.

Probably highly compassionate, talks to you softly and tries to understand you patiently at all times. They try their best to be the man/woman you want.

They might just get you, intuitively. They just know what to give you, how you want it and when you want it. It comes naturally to them. Their love for you is obvious and their only hope is for you to receive it.

They might show up in a very balanced masculine and feminine way. So in one time they will show up in an incredibly refined feminine (we are talking about energy here, not gender) way; taking care of you and healing you with the softest touch, and another time they'll be by your side being protective in the most direct and assertive way possible. But every time they show up, they do so with love. Maybe you are this way too.

You guys probably might share a creative hobby of some kind, maybe you play/listen to music together, create art together or something like that and they deeply enjoy the time you spend with them doing activities like that.

I do believe that they just love spending time with you at home. Maybe you both are a bit introverted and homebodies. You might balance each other in a beautiful way. Everytime you spend time with each other, they feel a sense of purpose and ease about living life.

With all these thought mixed feelings they have of you, there's also their rational mind making a conscious effort to always do the right thing. They think you deserve fairness and honesty above all. I believe they give so much importance to your worth and it's always one of their priorities to honour that and always treat you fairly. They are incredibly honest with you because they know you deserve that. I'm pretty sure they would always want to share everything with you; their thoughts, feelings, experiences, stories etc. What I'm trying to say is they will bare their soul to you so that nothing is hidden from you. They value transparency, and they either think you are like that already or they just really appreciate that quality. They just wanna do right by you.

There's a strong commitment shown in these cards. Loyalty and honor so powerful you'll feel respected at all times. You might already know this and if you don't, they'll make sure to let you know through their words and actions continuously, not to convince you, but only because this is all they wish to do in this lifetime; to be by your side and treat you right, love you with all that they have.

There's a final message for some of you. Maybe you are not in it as much as they are. The number of times balance showed up in this reading is uncanny. Makes me wonder if you are not as invested in this as much as them. Or it's just that you haven't quite succeded in giving them the same fairness that they have provided you. There's nothing wrong with you, it's just that your person is very energetically abundant in this connection, so even if you are giving a lot back to them, it still feels less in comparison.

They might be trying to be even more optimistic about you and this connection. They are having faith about love, and so should you. Maybe this is something they want you to know.

Also they probably think you'll be their last. Maybe that message holds a lot of significance to someone here. They might've said it to you.

Other confirmation messages :

Cancer, Pisces, Sagittarius, Libra, Gemini, Exalted Jupiter(Jupiter in cancer), Venus in Cancer, Venus in Scorpio, Exalted Venus(Venus in Pisces), Jupiter nakshatras in big 3, Moon or Jupiter in 1st house, Venus in 4th or 7th house, Venus in Taurus or Libra, Sun-Moon synastry(ex you are a cancer moon and they are a cancer sun), Venus, Moon, Jupiter in good dignity in 1,4,7,10 houses

Sensuality, connection, and passionate romance between lovers; sweet moments of understanding; and love among friends and family are all here for you to savor now. Your heart's calling will be answered. Let your thoughts and feelings be sweet with gratitude and you will be nourished with the honey of abundance. (From the oracle guidebook)

Morticia Addams and Gomez

Reciprocity is a beautiful thing in love and relationships

You make me wanna be a better person

True romantic at heart

Divine timing is at play here

You are the exact person/partner/lover they have been looking for all this time

Feels so right

Mexican, Mexican-American, South American, Eastern Europe

Highschool sweethearts

Friends to Lovers

Love to drink together? (Sorry, that's so random lol)

Has a cosy TV show you watch together

Justin Bieber fans

Model career

Until my last breath

Undeniable chemistry

Poetry/Poetic/Love letters

Two peas in a pod

Met at school/college/college party

Different ethnic backgrounds, but similar temperaments

The color burgundy and black (Goth subculture)

Recently married/engaged

Honeymoon

Drinks (A special drink that is symbolic)

Magic, Alchemy, Shamanism?

Cuban islands/Tropical island

The Moon Embracing the Sun korean drama

Complete each other's sentences

Dreams of each other

Holy Matrimony

Loving parents to kids

Building a cosy home together

Loves cosy gaming/Playing games together

This is a request. Please, please, please listen to the songs. You just really need to hear them🥹🩷

That's everything I have for you. Take good care of yourself and have a beautiful day! 💐🦋🌷✨️

[lemotmo]

I love winning.

Q. It's damage control. Nothing more. They're attractive men who they know people will find physically appealing. They're being sent out to hype up the show, alleviate the anger of Bobby being killed off and show the audience that they're platonic partners on a silly firefighter show. These interviews will include the two of them telling everyone that they're not the onscreen ship the audience will be seeing and they will be telling people it will be okay to move onto and love the BuckTommy relationship the show is clearly building towards. Ryan/Eddie will literally be giving his blessing for people to enjoy it. Thatbwill lead into the Oliver and Lou press tour. I'm stunned none of you seem to be able to recognize what's happening here.

A. I was absolutely going to ignore this insane level of denial, but you keep sending it so I'm going to address it. The PR tactic you seem to think you're explaining here doesn't exist. This is not how PR works. There is no network publicist, PR department, or executive anywhere in existence who would try to sell a different onscreen pairing this way. Because it's insanely ridiculous and laughably ineffective. You don't trot out two actors with insane natural chemistry to do interviews like Buzzfeed thirst tweets that will undoubtedly put that chemistry on maximum display only to then have those same actors say 'but we're not the pairing you're going to get. Nope, you're getting the opposite of this. Enjoy!'. That's simply not how any of this works. And I know at least some part of you knows that. Stop it. You don't purposely choose to showcase the chemistry of one ship only to turn around and say yeah this isn't the ship you're getting. You're getting the birthmark guy(rip my poor Oliver he's going to have to explain to millions of new people that it's just a birthmark) with a person he can't stand to be in the same room with unless someone has yelled action. A person he has such non-existent chemistry with, and such obvious dislike towards that we can't even let them do promo together. Aren't you excited?!

That's not a thing that exists on any level in the world of PR. You don't highlight the gold standard and then tell your audience they're getting the gangue (look it up) version instead. Most of the cast will be doing end of season interviews. We already found out that Oliver and Aisha did a SiriusXM interview of some kind as well yesterday. But the stuff they're sending Oliver and Ryan to do is markedly different in tone to anything else they have ever done before. That's the point and that's intentional. The Spill the Tea segment for Entertainment Tonight is specifically designed for duos, yes many are platonic pairings, but many are not. And since the segment won't air until after the finale, when the audience will have discovered that Bobby is alive, Angela and Peter would have made the most sense to get that particular interview. We didn't need to know about its existence prior to the finale. They could have filmed it and none of us needed to be the wiser until it aired. But ABC specifically wanted Oliver and Ryan for it. And they specifically wanted the audience to be aware it was happening. There's a reason for that. But the Buzzfeed interview is a major deal. I cannot stress that enough. It's insane that Oliver Stark and Ryan Guzman are getting a Buzzfeed interview. Not only are they getting it, they're getting the thirst tweets interview. They're going to be reading thirst tweets about Buck and Eddie out loud to one another. That is ABC fully embracing the shipping of the two characters. That is the opposite of what a network would want to do if the goal was to ultimately put those characters with other people. Buzzfeed used the Buddie hashtag to promote the interview. It's about Buddie. They didn't say Ryliver. They said Buddie. Oliver and Ryan have always been so careful about how they engage with Buddie fandom content specifically to avoid the baiting accusations, and they were correct to do that, but ABC has told them to embrace it. ABC has taken the training wheels off and are going to let their chemistry do its natural thing. You don't do that if the end goal is not to put the two characters together. At minimum the season is ending with a really significant Buddie hint. That is the only explanation for a thirst tweet interview. It would be asinine to do it under any other circumstances. I'm sorry you let Lou and a person who named themselves after cheese trick you into believing something else was going on here, but it's not. The level of Buddie exposure ABC is doing is a game changer and it's happening for a reason.

Thank you Nonny! Much appreciated!!!

Yeah, this ask was just insane. Why on Earth would two actors who play a heavily shipped pairing on a TV-show do promos for another less popular ship????

Wouldn't they just have the actors of the less popular ship do promo to expose them to the public? Make sure that people understand where this is going????

What kind of mind gymnastics do you have to do to reach a conclusion like this? I don't understand this.

Anyway...

Buddie is happening. Deal with it. 🤷‍♀️🤗

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How did the ROs figure out their queerness?

Give us the thoughts king 👀 if its not spoilery of course

Ahhhh thank you both so much I love love love thinking about this. The ROs mean so much to me and I love thinking about them as people, with all of the experiences that comes with it. Answering below the cut because this is gonna be an essay <3

Beck - ever since Beck was little they knew that sometimes they felt like a boy and sometimes they felt like a girl and sometimes both or neither or something else entirely...but they also didn't fully realize that not everyone felt that way. If her sister got mad at her for stealing & wearing her clothes it was because her sister was mean, not because she was 'supposed to be' something else. If her parents got on their case for not conforming; well, their parents were always on their case. Not anything different when it was because they caught them kissing a boy. It wasn't really until late middle school that Beck fully understood that they were different.

To this day they don't really have the words to describe their gender. They just know it changes, and they do what they can to broadcast that to the people around them. Most people don't get him, but that's nothing new. His sexuality is even more complex too describe in exact words, for him, but he knows he's been attracted to all sorts of people. Queer fits, and he doesn't really feel the need to try to define it further than that.

Croft- unlike all of the other ROs, Croft is from modern day and unquestionably grew up on tumblr lmao. They are very knowledgeable about the spectrum of gender and sexuality. Unfortunately how they figured out that they're trans is a spoiler (it's a story that will be much more fun to read in game lol), but they figured out that they're on the ace spectrum in high school. All of their friends were obsessed with dating and sex and they thought they'd lost their minds. And then eventually (after answering one too many "who do you have a crush on???" questions) they went. Wait a second maybe I'm one one who's different here.

In college, though, they fell desperately and unquestionably in love with their only long term partner to date. She was mysterious and beautiful and a self-described witch...and one of their best friends. Croft was obsessed and realized that maybe they aren't actually fully asexual. Clearly there's the potential for attraction, if they're connected enough to someone. So they mentally adjusted the label they use to demisexual and went on their merry way.

F!Jay- gotta split Jay up because it deeply depends on their gender. But, as I think I've mentioned before, when f!Jay and Yasmin were younger teenagers they had a classic homoerotic teenage best friendship going on. Jay had a massive crush on Yas, they cuddled and held hands all the time, they were each other's first kiss (to ~practice~ ofc). And it was all totally platonic, because they were both girls!!!

Spoiler alert: it wasn't. When Yasmin and Seth started dating Jay felt weirdly jealous and brokenhearted. She talked to her mom about it, and Grace was just like. Honey. Baby girl. And Jay was like but I don't even like girls like that!!! She was in denial for a bit until she joined the co-ed baseball team, realized she spent a bit too long admiring all of her teammates in a way that definitely wasn't platonic, and then went. Oh. Huh.

M!Jay- he really doesn't think about this sort of thing the same way his female counterpart does. Jay is a pretty damn emotionally intelligent guy...but he doesn't really do introspection all that well. So his own path to self discovery was a lot more like. Damn my teammates have nice form. And look great in their baseball pants. And then proceeded to not really think all that deeply about it until he was (unknowingly) fawning over how good one of their male teammates looked and Seth was just like........."bro I love u no matter what you can tell me if you're gay."

And Jay was just silently like. What the hell do you mean I had a crush on your girlfriend for years. And out loud was just like. "I just respect him as a player I don't think he's hot." And Seth said "..........ok." Then Jay went home and thought about it longer and also went. Oh. Huh.

Perri- when it comes to their sexuality, Perri has always kind of suspected? They fall a little bit in love with everybody. Especially people who are nice to them. Not in a way where they assume people are flirting. In fact, Perri doesn't think they've ever been flirted with. No way. They're too awkward and weird. (Perri needs better self confidence). But people are just so pretty, and funny and sweet and interesting...and gender has never really been a limiting factor on that. They really figured it out definitively in middle school, though it took them until high school to actually put it into words and tell other people about being queer.

For Nonbinary!Perri, their gender journey was significantly more complicated than figuring out their sexuality. They tried on a couple of different identities and labels throughout their later middle school years. Having Beck as a best friend kind of made them actually think about their gender and how unhappy they were being seen as their assigned gender. They wondered if maybe they were just the opposite gender and were trans, but that made their skin crawl in the same way. They didn't want to be defined as anything, really. Just themself. So eventually they just figured that their gender is as queer as their sexuality and left it at that.

Ravi- okay so. I can't say a lot about Ravi because of spoilers. Which I'm very sorry about. BUT what I can say is that, for a long time, he figured he had to be gay. He had a boyfriend he loved, after all. If he's a guy attracted to other guys, then there isn't really any other option...right? Even if he noticed girls & other people the exact same way as he did most other boys. It wasn't the same as the heart-pounding, life-ending near obsession he felt for the boy he loved.

After his ex died, Ravi settled on the fact that he'd never fall in love again. (The man has a big storm coming). It wasn't until chatting with Jay and Yasmin about their own queerness that he realized that being bisexual was even an option. He felt kind of silly, after that. Of course it was. He quietly adopted the label and went about his day. It isn't like it matters, since he'll never date anyone else ever again ;)

Yasmin- probably had the easiest time of figuring herself out, save for maybe Croft. Yasmin is, if nothing else, deeply self-confident. She understands herself in a way few other people really do. She's known since she was little that she liked girls as well as boys. She has a distinct memory of telling her parents that she was going to marry Princess Jasmin someday. Her parents acted weridly concerned, until Yasmin clarified that it meant she'd have a pet tiger. They didn't realize that the 'marry a princess' part was just as important as the 'pet tiger' part.

As she grew older she understood that her attraction wasn't really limited to gender...but she still assumed she'd probably marry a man. It's still Easthaven, after all. Plus her parents weren't...the most accepting people in the world.

If Jay is a woman they had their 'friendship', and it made Yasmin blush and her heart beat faster, but she never really thought much of it. Yas is much more comfortable in her sexuality now--in the sense that she's not afraid of what the town would think if she dated a woman or nonbinary person--but...she's in a similar boat as Ravi. Never gonna have another long-term relationship, so it isn't really an issue? At least, that's what she thinks ;)

[strawberrymangomochi]

Just a rant about something I got thinking about after yesterday's discord revelations:

There’s this fucked up phenomenon that sometimes happens to conventionally attractive autistic people (especially those who are late diagnosed and/or have learned to “mask” their autism well) where neurotypicals are initially eager to be seen associating with them and try to befriend them because they seem "put together" and “normal” on the surface. But as the neurotypical gets to know the autistic individual better (and the “mask” slowly drops as the autistic individual grows more comfortable around them) they can suddenly turn aloof, distant and in some cases even outright hostile, abandoning the friendship and acting as though the autistic person somehow deliberately “tricked” the neurotypical into believing they were someone they weren’t. Humans have a lot of preconceived notions about what a "normal" person and a "weird" person are supposed to both look and act like, and when the visuals don't match up with the actions, people can get very uncomfortable very quickly.

The cruel irony of it is that the autistic individual really isn't trying to do anything malicious, they're just trying their best to follow society's very convoluted unspoken rules of social interaction-but every relationship, no matter platonic or romantic, will reach a point of intimacy where those rules get too murky for them to successfully interpret and the inherent "weirdness" of the autistic gets exposed. Depending on the specific scenario the neurotypical's rejection could lean more blatant or more subtle-in a grade school setting it might escalate into bullying, in a workplace setting it might mean a more subtle exclusion of the autistic individual from their coworkers, in a romantic setting it might lead to neglect or even abuse by the neurotypical partner-in any case, it has a seriously damaging effect on the autistic individual's self-confidence and sense of worth.

It's also a phenomenon that generally worsens with time-we typically allow some room for "weirdness" in kids and younger teens who can't-and aren't expected-to have mastered all of our strange little unspoken rules of society. But by the time one reaches the age of majority, our collective patience for any deviation from the norm rapidly begins to wear out.

I experienced this firsthand: I was a very "normal" looking child-my clothing was simple but cute, my hair was always done up in a neat braid or pony tail, I had a cute smile and big round curious eyes, I was a little tall for my age but so were many of my classmates, so I didn't stand out in any particularly negative way. I had some hyper-fixations, sensitivities and an overall "quirkiness" which made more than a few teachers raise an eyebrow, but since I was usually well behaved, earned good grades and put on a happy face in public, any minor faux pas was quickly forgiven and forgotten about since I was "such a smart, kind girl from a lovely family" (sound familiar?)

But as I get older, and have less and less mental energy to mask like I used to, the looks of endearment have turned into looks of irritation, confusion or concern, alongside some judgmental comments from people who don't understand why I sometimes think and act the way I do, and why I inherently struggle to navigate certain situations, even when I'm very much not trying to cause trouble or be difficult. Especially because, in the words of my coworkers, I look like "a regular, pretty, twenty-something gal who has her shit together" (spoiler alert: I do not have my shit together.)

Unsurprisingly, given society’s double standards when it comes to maintaining one's physical beauty I’ve seen this discussed among autistic women more so than men, but given Luigi’s...above-average looks I really have to wonder if this sort of thing ever happened to him, and if it had an impact (among other potential factors) on his struggle to find a community for himself post-college. Goodness knows it hasn't made friendships easy for me.

And for the record I’m not trying to downplay the very real struggles of anyone who’s autistic and doesn’t match society’s ridiculous beauty standards, but this is a real thing that I’ve had happen to myself many times and seen happen to other women, just for having the audacity to, uh *checks notes*....not perfectly conform to stereotypes? I guess? And since I think most of us are increasingly confident that Lu’s on the spectrum, this could have made for some VERY frustrating and demoralizing experiences, especially for a guy that was praised for so much of his life for his smarts and his ability to just “figure stuff out”.

[astrologylunadream]

What does your crush think of you?🌸💕 (Pick a card/Tarot love reading)

Hii I'm Lunadream!🤗 This is officially my first reading~ :D This time we'll be doing a reading on what your crush thinks of you <3 I hope you find your message💌

Only take what resonates because the most important thing is your own judgement!♡ Also feel free to pick more than one pile if you feel called to!💘 (Entertainment purpose only. All rights reserved)

Now, shall we begin~? ^w^ Think of your crush, and pick whichever pile that fits the energy you're feeling~♡

Pile 1 💋

Pile 2 🌈

Pile 3 🌌

Pile 4 💿

Take your time and choose carefully with the heart~♡

On to the readings —> 💖

Pile 1💋

Sign energy: Nightmare, Air, Forever, Success, Doll, 10th house, Aquarius, Water, Jupiter, 6th house, 🚷💋♍😟

💗Your crush's energy: I already got a heavy feeling with this one, like a really intense and serious energy. Your crush is most likely very attractive in an effortless way, like they don't even try haha. There's just something about them that's naturally very magnetic. I'm getting strong earth (Virgo, Taurus, Capricorn) energy. One or both of you (more likely your crush) may be somewhat intimidating like you don't want to cross them because they don't just tolerate anything they'll up and leave if they aren't okay with the way things are going, that's the vibe I'm getting from your crush. They most likely have a great sense of self worth and they just know what is a waste of their time and what isn't. They could be older than you, Also for most of you they're probably really tall, either physically or mentally taller than you for sure haha very assertive and maybe even more dominant aswell.

🧠What they think of you: I could already tell first thing they think of you a lot actually. They see you as an object of their desires, someone they like really want. This could be really surprising to you especially if they don't talk much. (I feel like they're rather impassive or at least come off that way sometimes) I kinda think they might be a little obsessed with you secretly but this might not be something they realize just yet ;) Also physically they think you're like a doll, and also your figure might be living in their mind rent free (just saying👀🖤). They really want to "own" you, I feel like you turned this person's whole world upside down and you're taking them over slowly, their thoughts of you might be controlling them a little. They really want things to work out between you two, because they are really into you secretly. They may not even show any interest in you whatsoever but just know it's probably because they're REALLY hard to read lol, next thing you know they're stalking your social media (no doubt) and they fantasize about you all the time omg. They want this to be forever they want to be with you forever, like I said they don't tolerate just anything but this connection is not something they want to give up.

💌Messages from your crush: Don't think of anyone else, I didn't used to feel this way, I want to keep this private, You made a mistake, It's the worst, You don't have a choice, We finally meet, All I need is your touch, Extra cards: Purple, Ability, Odd, Love, Vision, 6th house, Earth, Chiron, Aquarius, Scorpio

I hope you enjoyed your reading <3 If you did be sure to let me know pile 1 with the kiss emoji💋! Thanks for scrolling through, Hugs hugs hugs!! See you in the next reading💞

Pile 2🌈

Sign energy: Fake smile, Reflect, Thighs, Skin, Absence, Juno, Capricorn, Air, Vertex, Sagittarius, 🧚‍♀️🙆‍♀️🧘‍♂️🔭

💗Your crush's energy: This is most likely a friend or a more platonic connection, I'm getting a bright vibe when you two are together. Okay so I'm kind of getting some of you may be in the lgbtq community or maybe your crush is or it could be both of you. I feel like your crush is really fun and entertaining, like they light up the room and everyone around them. They're witty and charming, and they also like to joke around sometimes. Sagittarius and air sign energy is prominent, also they may have nice thighs and legs. They're like a best friend even if you guys aren't whatever the situation may be, there's a sense of adventure and wildness to them. They might be the kind to hide their feelings behind jokes, or for some of you your crush may be afraid of showing the real them. They are a lot like you, you two may be similar or like similar things. Like you both are into something really weird and it's like "wait you like that too??" kind of thing.😇 They may be quirky in some way or just unique, very special person~ you can't help but smile around them. They may seem like a social butterfly and super outgoing or a lot of people just like them.

🧠What they think of you: Okay so I kinda feel like they may be into spirituality or tarot just to know more about you, like they're trying to see if you would like them for who they are or if you won't judge them because they're really afraid of rejection. They probably think of you alot and reflect on all the times you had together, because you're actually really unique to them as much as they are to you💫 For some of you your crush may be a bit freaky so they hide that from others, your opinion of them matters to them a lot. They want to hold your hand and think about it often. They may really want a relationship but they feel like they aren't good enough or like you two aren't compatible but honestly you two have so much in common and they don't really realize this so they just think you're gonna like see them as silly or immature, but of course if you truly love and accept them for who they really are then they'll honestly love you for that.

💌Messages from your crush: I would kill for you, I will die for you, (wow yandere vibes😳🙊) Why am I so addicted to you? Things didn't go as planned, The past is in the past, For now, I'll cheer for you, I'm desperate, Extra cards: Mean, Home, Swim, Emotions, Gap, Gemini, 5th house, Juno, Leo, Neptune

I hope you enjoyed your reading!!👏 If you did be sure to let me know pile 2 with the rainbow emoji🌈! Thanks for scrolling through, Hugs hugs hugs!! See you in the next reading🥰

Pile 2🌌

Sign energy: Chest, Chemistry, Toy, Only one, Love letter, Mars, Pisces, Aquarius, Earth, 8th house, 💧👿🌏☄

💗Your crush's energy: Uh oh, this is a really deep and passionate person. This is someone who is really in touch with their pluto energy also a lot of mars and 8th house energy, they're like so alluring and very appealing physically as well as their mentality. They probably have a very artistic mind and also a really dark one, like they are really touchy and emotional so their mind is just 🌪⛈🔮🗡🥀👿 yeah that's definitely their vibe. This could be mirrored energy but they may be very spiritual or psychic, they just have a really deep aura about them. They may be far away, and everything they do feels mysterious. For some of you this is a real bad girl/bad boy kinda crush. They probably look really magical and have a very attractive mind. You may be addicted to this person, or like you can't stop thinking about them🤭😰 there's a lot of water energy in this pile (Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces) and but also like really hot energy okay lol.

🧠What they think of you: Oh you wanna know?? They want you bad lol. They're kind of naughty ngl when it comes to you, there's a lot of chemistry between you two. They think you're the only one for them, literally no one else compares to you. They fantasize about you A LOT they really can't get enough of you, I mean they want to make you theirs🔗🖤 This may be a forbidden relationship that others don't want to approve of, but this person doesn't care because they want you. They just want your touch and they care so much about you, really romantic and sweet but they have this other side they want to show you too😈 Lol they're 100% obsessed with you, they love every second talking with you and the passion is through the roof honestly.

💌Messages from your crush: I've heard of you, I want to hold you tight, I deserve it, Why would I? You deserve me, It's the start of something new, This wasn't what I had in mind, Extra cards: Bad, Killer, Match, Clench, Diamond, Pluto, Sagittarius, Mercury, 11th house, Air (spicy🙊🖤)

I hope you enjoyed your reading~😉 If you did be sure to let me know pile 3 with the galaxy emoji🌌! Thanks for scrolling through, Hugs hugs hugs!! See you in the next reading💜

Pile 4💿

Sign energy: Order, Psychic, Anger, Side effects, Pride, Sun, Vertex, Neptune, Jupiter, Water, 😡🍰👨‍🎤🧛‍♂️

💗Your crush's energy: I sense someone bold and fiery, theres some leo energy up in here but also getting some aries too~ Your crush is probably very outspoken or at least they seem pretty direct to others, they have a bright smile and very charismatic too. For some of you this person may have trouble controlling their anger, and they may act on impuslve. They might struggle with selfishness or ignoring their problems instead of dealing with them up front, they like attention especially romantically. They are fun loving and carefree, for some of you your crush may seem apathetic or unable to listen to others thoughts and feelings other than their own. But they do care for others, there is a certain amount of empathy they have. Your crush is talented, they have many hobbies and are very creative as well. Music may be significant, also they may like vintage or old style music. They could be a musician or singer. For some of you this may be a spiritually invested person, they may like candles or collecting gemstones. They're a very open person and they prefer to not keep secrets.

🧠What they think of you: You may have done something that bothers them, something about you gets them riled up. You agitate them and but also excite them, they keep coming back for more. For some your crush may pretend to hate you until they get closer to you, they actually like you. They may be confident in you liking them or may already know it, but they could use it to have the upper hand because they don't want to seem vulnerable. They may see you as bossy or controlling but secretly they find it endearing that you care for them. Your crush gets nervous when you enter their mind, They fantasize about moving to a far away land with you... just the two of you🛩🏝 They want you to pay attention to them and give them compliments. They must win your heart, they see you as sweet and fun. Part of them worries if they loose their temper and hurt you or your feelings, they feel anxious about this. They don't want to lose control of themselves, because you make them act on impulse. They want to be better for you, and they won't settle for anything less.

💌Messages from your crush: I can't wait to meet you, You seem so happy, Who cares what people think of us, They're jealous of you, Everyone had their secrets, When will you listen? I'm lost without you, Use your imagination Extra cards: Shoulders, Street, Shine, Wounds, Adventure, 7th house, 4th house, Moon, Mars, 5th house

I hope you enjoyed your reading <3 If you did be sure to let me know pile 4 with the disk emoji💿! Thanks for scrolling through, Hugs hugs hugs!! See you in the next reading💞

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Thanks for reading! \(*^w^)/💌 -Lunadream <3

[exceptionimagines]

Meeting and Dating Jerry Dandridge

(Not my gif)(Requested by anonymous)

(The real ones know about the struggles of the meeting scenario. They also know that I'm kind of referencing the original fright night with the whole 'reincarnated lost love' thing. Also, sorry that this ones kind of horny, guess I just had that dawg in me at the time lol.)

- When you tell people you're not the type of girl to get noticed, it's not some lame attempt to garner sympathy or an admission of low self esteem. You're not pouting at them and crying out for help, begging them to tell you otherwise or to comfort you about the unfortunate state of your love life.

- No, you're simply stating a fact: one you've never really deemed as the end of the world or some egregious issue that you must work to overcome. There's nothing wrong with being the way that you are and no amount of magazines or movies or books will convince you otherwise. You've come to terms with being plain; with being easily ignored, and at this point in your life, you don't really notice it anymore.

- It's only when Jerry Dandridge moves into your neighborhood that you find yourself reconsidering this once definitive description of yourself....

- Due to your lifelong experience of being overlooked, you've grown used to interacting with everyone around you as a sort of sexless being. You don't overthink things when meeting someone for the first time, you don't try to flirt or expect them to find you so attractive that they'll have no other choice but to ask you out. No, you view yourself the same way a little old lady would, expecting people to treat you in a platonic, "well isn't she sweet" kind of way; liking your company but never considering you as an option when thinking of a potential future partner.

- It's why you're so casual when meeting your new, incredibly attractive neighbor for the first time: shaking his hand and welcoming him to the area with a polite smile instead of the lovestruck and giggly grins of the other women around you. You keep things cordial and you think nothing of it when he first starts focusing in on you, always bringing the conversation back to you as you stand amongst a couple other neighbors; the same ones who called you over to greet the man when they noticed you returning home from work.

- At first you think he's trying to be nice, that he notices you're a little reserved and wants to keep you included whenever you seem to get lost in the chaotic cacophony of voices. But then you notice that he isn't really addressing anyone else in the circle directly, that he's seemingly only interested in what you think of things and what you want to say; almost to the point where the conversation is beginning to feel like a one on one talk with spectators.

- You're not used to the attention, not used to having someone specifically drawn to you out of everyone else in an entire crowd; a crowd that includes far more conventionally attractive women than yourself. You're confused when he keeps looking at you, sharing little smiles with you while your other neighbors speak, like you're the most important one there and that he wants you to know that. Your mind races when trying to figure out why he's behaving in such a way....

- It isn't until one of the older lady's on your street nudges you and coos about you having a "new admirer" that you actually consider the idea. You brush it off at first, refusing to think that that's the case; especially when you're talking about someone like Jerry. You argue to yourself that this sort of thing doesn't happen to you, men like him don't go for women like you.... But apparently they do....

- Jerry continues to pay special attention to you, continues to seek you out even when he's certainly not hard up for choices; as though the other girls on your block aren't throwing themselves at him. When he leaves his house, he looks out for you amongst the sea of people, giving your other neighbors a small smile and nod of acknowledgement as he makes his way over to you, meeting you at your car or your mailbox and starting a conversation.

- He hops from topic to topic, anything to prolong your time with him, to give him an excuse to be closer to you, to touch you in some way. You leave your interactions with him flustered, your skin still tingling from where he held your wrist to look at your bracelet or brushed his fingers across your own when exchanging mail. You feel silly for it, feeling like you're too old for all of this giddiness, this school girl sort of crush that's making you weak in the knees and tying your stomach in knots.

- Not long after you meet him, he asks if you'd want to get together, smiling at you charmingly, a touch of shyness on his face as he glances to the ground and then back up at you. You quickly agree, faltering only a little when he chuckles and tells you that "the only problem" is that his house is still a mess from moving. You invite him over to yours and he promises to bring over some wine/beer, telling you he'll "see you then" as the two of you part ways.

- When he comes over to your place, he brandishes the alcohol with a smile, complimenting your appearance as you invite him inside; his smile growing just a tad bit more as he steps over the threshold of your doorway. He looks around, makes a joke about having you help him decorate his own home and follows you happily as you lead him into your living room.

- As your date progresses, you start to think that Jerry is the closest thing to a perfect man that you've ever met. It's like he was handcrafted with the extent purpose of making you fall for him: every little thing he says or does making you like him even more. It's like you've known him for forever and yet it still feels new and exciting.

- When you're ready to call it a night, you're ecstatic to hear him say that he had a great time, that he wants to see you again soon and that next time, he'll invite you over to his place.

- He does so not long after, meeting you at your car one evening and asking if you know anything about painting. When you give him your answer, he invites you to help him decide on a color for his walls, taking you with him to the store once you get a tour of his home, making a date out of picking out the perfect shades. You end up back at his place when you're done, drinking together and watching reality television as you roll different colors across the blank drywall of his home.

- The two of you share your first kiss that same night after he points out that you have some paint on your cheek. He reaches out, smoothing your hair from your face and swiping the fleck of color from your skin with a gentle touch, his hand lingering on your cheek as he stares down at you with an affectionate gaze. Before you know it, you're both leaning in and sharing a short and sweet kiss, smiling at each other happily once the two of you pull apart.

- It all feels too good to be true.... And maybe it is, because not long after, you notice Charley; Jerry's next door neighbor, staring at the two of you when you meet up for another date. You take in the way that he's looking at Jerry and then the way that he's looking at you, at the way he hesitates like he wants to say something. You turn to Jerry and asks what's up with the boy, to which he merely chuckles, telling you that it's nothing while he throws an arm around your shoulders, leading you inside and casting a dark glance towards the boy before he closes his door.

- The next morning, Charley knocks on your door. He tells you that there's something wrong with Jerry and that you should stay away from him. You question him, wanting to know exactly what he thinks is wrong with your boyfriend, not knowing Charley to be the type of kid to make stuff up. He finally admits that he thinks your boyfriend is a vampire and you laugh a little, thinking he's joking.

- He doesn't laugh with you though, instead, he takes his phone out and swipes through photos: photos of scrolls, and antiques, and suspicious belongings. You grow even more confused, asking where he's taken all these pictures and why he's showing you all of this ...until you're shut up by the sight of a painting, a painting of ...you.

"What is this Charley?" You ask, chuckling somewhat incredulously, weirded out and confused.

"It's Jerry's, it's in his house. Just see for yourself, y/n. You'll find it there and you'll see that I'm telling you the truth. Just be careful, alright? He's dangerous." You're baffled by his words, baffled by the entire encounter. Your neighbor has broken into your boyfriends house and found an antique painting of you, or, at the very least, someone who looks identical to you.

- You want to put the whole thing out of your mind, but you cant. You have to find out the truth, so late in the evening, you go to knock on your boyfriends door. You hesitate on his front step: moving to knock then chickening out then moving to knock again. Finally, you decide to just leave, decide that you can't do it, but before you can walk off his front step, the door behind you opens and Jerry asks if you're alright.

- You assure him that you are, telling him that you just wanted to see him and apologizing for bothering him as he shakes his head and smiles, inviting you in as you swallow down your nervousness.

- You try to act normal but you doubt that you're doing a good job, sitting stiffly on his couch while he fetches you a beer. He presses the cool glass to your temple when he comes back, the icy feeling making you flinch, tearing you from your thoughts as he asks if you're alright again. You want to confess everything, to purge yourself of your newfound worries, but instead, you ask to use his restroom, feigning being overheated like he seemed to think that you were; probably from the flush of your cheeks and/or the light sheen of nervous sweat on your forehead.

- You head towards the room you recognized from the photos, remembering it well considering the fact that you picked out the color that's seen on the wall behind the painting. It was a bare bedroom back then but it must be furnished now: furnished with shelves and trinkets and antiques. And a painting of you, framed in aged wood and sealed in yellowing varnish, standing tall against the wall, staring back at you like a mirror, right down to the last freckle and eyelash. It was obviously painted centuries ago, and yet you can almost remember the moment, as though that were even logical or possible.

- You turn to leave, knowing you don't have much time to pretend you're in the bathroom splashing a bit of water on your face or neck in order to cool down. But when you turn, you see that Jerry is already standing in the doorway, watching you as you stand paralyzed in the middle of the room. He tells you that he was worried you would pass out, chuckling almost bitterly, devoid of any cheerfulness.

"What is this Jerry?" You ask confused. You're not upset, not scared or hurt or anything, just confused; baffled.

"It's a long story," He tells you. "Much longer than you think."

- When you finally go to leave, you're somewhat in shock, mind swimming with everything you've just found out. Jerry watches you closely as he walks you to the door, trying in vain to read your expression, to try and see what you think of everything; what you think of the truth. You pause on his front step, turning back around and looking at his face, at the almost imperceptible signs of worry. You gently pull him down by the back of his neck and press a kiss to his cheek, feeling him grip you in return, hold you against him for a moment as you tell him goodnight.

- When you begin walking home, you happen a glance at the Brewster's house, your eyes catching sight of Charley as he stands at his window and watches you. You look away just as quickly as you looked towards him, suddenly feeling guilty; like you've betrayed the boy in some terrible way.

- But you just can't help it. You can't help the fact that you love him....

- Due to his ...affliction, it isn't often that you and Jerry are seen out in public together, so while he's an incredibly affectionate boyfriend, pda just isn't very commonplace. When it does occur, however; depending on your personality, you might just wish that it hadn't.... Jerry is well aware that it isn't appropriate for him to practically fornicate with you on his front lawn, but he simply doesn't care. He enjoys showing off and he enjoys seeing peoples scandalized reactions; especially when they're people who are suspicious of him.

- On that same note: Jerry is definitely a bit of an exhibitionist so you're gonna have to be okay with people seeing you in various compromising positions. Sometimes you'll be aware of it, sometimes you won't, but if you really aren't comfortable with it, he'll try to keep it to a minimum.

- Jerry is oftentimes a great example of raw, animalistic want. He's a very touchy, very affectionate, and very dominant kind of person, so don't be surprised when he's constantly wanting to be close to you. He'll wrap himself around you continuously, kissing your skin and nuzzling into your flesh. The two of you come together and pull apart like magnets, like your bodies are naturally drawn to each other, needing to glide against one another in order to survive. He's admittedly a little obsessed with you, but it's certainly not unwelcome.

- Temple and hairline kisses. He also occasionally kisses you right at your pulse point; though you should definitely make sure that you can trust him before you just let him do it.

- I firmly believe that the way Jerry kisses in the film is not just done to rub his success in Charley’s face, but because he’s genuinely just that kind of guy. When he kisses, he aims to devour you whole: kissing you like you're the only thing that can ever truly satiate him. His kisses are dominating, deep and rough and bruising, and they're always just so ...hungry. He'll oftentimes have to pull away before you're finished with him because he has to try to control himself; his fanged teeth and darkened eyes on full display as he keeps his shred of distance with a lustful smile.

- Getting hickeys from him is a very dangerous game but Jerry is always glad to be on the receiving end; probably even more than the alternative. They typically fade quite quickly due to his healing factor, but he simply uses that as an excuse for you to give him more, lounging around open shirted in hopes that you'll pounce, or teasing you about how they're starting to fade, urging you to do something about it.

- He has a slight obsession with touching your ass but you generally allow it because he lets you touch his in return. Ass smacks are a sign of affection in your household, but they're also a very dangerous game. Your boyfriend can get a little feral sometimes and your voluptuous backside has become his favorite victim.

- Laying your head in his lap as he cards his fingers through your hair. Jerry kind of likes using you as a weighted blanket so it's also quite common for you to lay across his chest, relaxing against him as he absentmindedly traces patterns on your back.

- Definitely has a habit of toying with your hair: absentmindedly twirling strands of it, brushing it back from your face, smoothing it down, etc. He isn't even shy about it, making it blatantly obvious that he enjoys what he's doing and that he see's nothing wrong with it. But it's also so ingrained in him that he doesn't even realize he's doing it sometimes.

- He calls you "bunny" a lot: "my little bunny" or "my little mouse". But he also calls you more common things like angel, baby, babe, princess, and/or honey.

- He likes pretending to be distracted by something, only to grab you and pull you down on top of him whenever you get too close. He likes the little rush of adrenaline that courses through you, feeling your heart beat wildly in your chest and/or smelling the ounce of fear that permeates the air whenever you react to the sudden "attack". It's like micro dosing a drug to him, and it's a fun way to get his hands on you.

- He finds your scent, in general, to be incredibly intoxicating. So, if you're ever wondering why he doesn't just change you right off the bat, it's probably because he doesn't want to lose your uniquely godly scent to plain old generic vampire musk. Be prepared for him to bury his face in your hair, your neck, or your clothes because it definitely happens fairly often. Depending on the day, it either relaxes or riles him up, so you might as well make a game out of guessing which one it'll be.

- You cannot be around him when you're on your period; regardless of how much he may claim otherwise. So much of his personality is animalistic and horny: if it isn't the blood that gets him going, it's the hormones, and when he says he's fine, he's lying. He's also unapologetic about being on demon hours so you can't even successfully shame him for it. Don't trust him to contain himself. Do trust him to furiously jerk it after he catches the scent of you.

- Going for night drives.

- Convenience store runs.

- Laying in the bed of his truck or sitting up on the tailgate and watching the stars. There's a lot of big deserts where the two of you live, and they're all nice and peaceful, providing a scenic atmosphere and a clear view of the unpolluted sky.

- Watching Desperate Housewives together. Jerry finds reality television to be particularly amusing: it's like modern society; particularly the parts of it that he's not able to interact with, all wrapped up in a chaotic and entertaining bow. To some extent, it's like a scientific study, but he's also just a messy bitch himself so it all appeals to him on a very deep and personal level.

- Not having many choices when thinking of date ideas because he's only able to go out at night or in indirect sunlight. You usually go to different movies, bars, carnivals, and occasionally the odd casino or club; if you're interested in that sort of thing.

- Showering/taking relaxing baths together.

- Loves when you wear his clothes.

- He literally smells so good and nothing can convince me otherwise. He talks about your scent, but his scent makes you feel like you're ovulating: out here fully ready to start mating whenever you get a hint of his cologne.

- Getting each other special and/or matching jewelry. He's literally never seen without his, and whenever the two of you are in a fight; or even breaking up, he checks to see if you're still wearing yours; thinking of it as proof that you're still at least somewhat in love with him. He's very smug about it.

- Unapologetically steals things from his victims and gives them to you. Thankfully for you, he typically spares you from the truth and tells you that he simply bought them.

- Always keeps your favorite things on hand and in stock. He survives off of beer and apples like 90% of the time, but his fridge and pantry are full of random goods, entirely because he knows that you like them. Rest assured that if you don't drink liquor, he's got at least one Snapple or water or whatever in his cooler or fridge at any given moment: and that he thinks it's cute that you're so "feminine"/innocent. He just likes looking after you without making a big deal out of it.

- Jerry; probably, literally stalked you before the two of you started dating so try not to question it when he reveals that he knows things that you've never told him before or guesses what you're going to say before you say it. He loves you enough to listen to you tell the same stories over and over again, but just know that he's already memorized every little detail of them; and that he's probably just focusing on how cute you look instead of exactly what you're saying.

- It doesn't matter if you're all dressed up and looking drop dead gorgeous, or if you're looking like you're about to drop dead: he thinks you're adorable at any given moment, and he wants you bad. He also thinks you're especially adorable whenever you're sick, but that's neither here nor there.

- He's constantly acting like your knight in shining armor, using his inhuman speed, strength, and reflexes to make up for any sort of clumsiness that you might display while being in his presence.

- Helping him with his little projects. You know, he always claims that he needs your help, but when he says that, he always just means that he wants you to sit and look pretty while he does all the work. Although that's honestly a win-win for you.

- Jerry has centuries of experience when it comes to learning the ins and outs of appliances, so you can rest assured that he can fix literally anything that you're capable of breaking. A lot of this experience comes from wanting to get the upper hand when catching "prey", but you don't have to know that: you just have to stop worrying about everything and reap the benefits of his labor.

- Making jokes about him being an old man or a cradle robber; considering the fact that he's like 400 years old. Expect him to either raise a brow at you, smirk, or make a downright sleazy comment. *cough, cough* daddy *cough, cough*.

- You can honestly get away with so much just because he likes you; even when the two of you are technically broken up. You'll literally be trying to kill him and he'll act as though you're simply being difficult, smiling at your petrified friends as he says something along the lines of "can't live with them, can't live without them". It's partially because he finds it hot that you're a worthy opponent and that you can occasionally manage to best him: thinking of it as a reason for why he loves you so much.

- You're a victim of the sassy man apocalypse. Jerry seemed like such a masculine sort of person when the two of you first started dating, so you really didn't expect him to be as unserious or as shady as he; occasionally, is. His personality can make him seem a lot less dangerous than he actually is: especially when he's mocking and teasing and making quips at people. It makes staying mad at him or serious in a situation pretty hard since he's actively just being ...kind of a little shit. He's a comedic genius, but when it's in the middle of you convincing him not to kill someone, you tend not to appreciate it.

"I repel you with Christ our lord."

"Do you? ...Really?"

- If you have pets, be prepared for them to absolutely despise him; so much so that the two of you probably have to hang out at his place almost all the time. They simply recognize that he's a dangerous creature and distrust him from the get go, growling or hissing at him before dashing away or trying to protect you. He occasionally mocks them when you're not around; playing into the legitimate rivalry that they have going on, but once he realizes how important it is to you for them to like him, he tries to bribe them into acting nicer towards him; which ends up partially working so yay.

- He can literally lift an entire car, so expect him to treat you like you weigh nothing, regardless of your actual size; especially when he's horny....

- Speaking of: he sometimes gets legitimately feral after feeding, so don't be surprised when he returns home or finds you somewhere in town and behaves as though he needs to jump you immediately; and passionately at that. One minute you'll be cooking dinner and the next, you'll be on the counter with a tongue down your throat. ...You're truly a victim.

- Sampling his blood from time to time; though it's a dangerous game: both because it's addictive and because Jerry goes feral for blood drunk you. It becomes really hard for him to control himself so it can easily lead to him actually turning you.

- Expect your boyfriend to ask for selfies whenever you text him that you're going somewhere or doing something. He gets legitimately grumpy over the fact that he can't take selfies with you. Like he lowkey sulks a little whenever he has to politely decline someone's offer to take photos of the two of you together, or when he overhears you telling your friends that he really doesn't like pictures. He just wants to take middle aged man pics with his PYT!!

- His entire phone is full of photos of you; so is his Facebook, and everyone thinks that it's absolutely adorable, calling you so lucky to have a boyfriend who loves you enough to only have photos of you on his wall. They might be a little confused, because you'd expect someone as attractive as Jerry to post himself, but they certainly don't tell you that.

- When Jerry picks you up from work; a fairly common occurrence, you always just assume that it's because he wants to be a good boyfriend and make sure you that get home safe. And while that may be the case, he also has some ulterior and self serving motives as well. Jerry; while a loving partner, is also still a monster, so when he comes to your place of employment and charms your coworkers, he's not only being friendly, but also trying to ensure that they trust him enough to let their guards down; which is especially handy when the two of you get into a fight. He also just likes flaunting your relationship and making people jealous so....

- Jerry loves you with every fiber of his being but he simply doesn't get jealous over you. A big part of it is the fact that he takes pride in having things that other people want; takes pride in winning, and he knows that none of them have even a fraction of what he does; that the two of you are made for each other. He's a very "I know she loves me" and "how could you ever think that she'd be interested in you?" kind of person.

- Regardless, he still enjoys rubbing his relationship in other people faces and passive aggressively bragging whenever he knows that someone is interested in you; or giving them a knowing look that tells them that he's well aware of their feelings for you and that he finds them very amusing. He's a smug bastard.

- It isn't often that Jerry worries about your safety, mainly because he's an immortal demon who's capable of doing terrible things in order to take care of you. But, occasionally, he'll find himself worrying about not being able to look out for you whenever you're out in the sun. To combat this, he makes sure to take care of all of your issues during the night; or makes you convert to his nocturnal schedule. You're looking at a man who can pick off half a town in a single night just because he wants to: rest assured that he's doing the utmost when faced with someone threatening your safety, comfort, or happiness in literally any way.

- Jerry always tries to stay calm whenever you're in an argument or a fight; he doesn't like losing his temper with you or making you feel hurt in any lasting way. So while he'll occasionally be a little rude or downplay your feelings, he's typically a pretty easy person to resolve an issue with. He lets you rant when you need to and listens to you be a little ridiculous at times; even if he might make a couple of incredulous faces, so you'll usually just tire yourself out to where you're ready to apologize or listen to him explain.

- Because he can occasionally downplay your feelings, you sometimes opt to give him the silent treatment, which he tolerates for a day or two before he's coming over and demanding to talk because you're "being ridiculous and you know it". He'll knock on your door and sigh, and while his apologies might occasionally sound a little insincere; very "alright, alright, I'm sorry, okay?", he usually genuinely means them; even if it's just because he doesn't like hurting your feelings or because he didn't mean for things to come out the way they did.

- He can occasionally be a little manipulative, but that's only because he really loves you and doesn't want you leaving him whenever he scares you with his vampirism or makes you question his character. He's a cold blooded killer so you'll occasionally have some differences of opinion and morality; which is when he turns on the charm and tries to sway you towards forgiving him or otherwise not breaking up with/leaving him.

- He usually tells you that he loves you in response to hearing you say it, but that doesn't mean that he doesn't genuinely mean it. He simply tends to prove his love instead of outwardly saying it; unless he wants to reassure you that he cares for you whenever you're feeling a certain type of way.

- Jerry definitely intends on turning you sometime fairly soon, wanting to spend the rest of eternity with you and guarantee your safety. It's up to you to decide whether you're interested in that. But if you really aren't, I'd suggest getting as far away from him as possible because he's definitely not against turning you "for the greater good". One day, you'll understand why he had to do it; even if it takes a little time....

[lair-of-the-white-worm]

Genuinley curious how a worker mudokon can be gay when it's literally canon that all worker mudokons are ace? Not knocking you or anything, it just seems weird to force a label onto a species that's canonically asexual?

Oh here we go again. I'm forcing a label? Slow down there, buddy.

In Dear Alf 60 (posted in December 2013), Alf explains that Mudokon workers are biologically asexual—I'm putting emphasis on biologically. You are using the term asexuality as a sexual identity, something seperate from biology. I'm not viewing Mudokons as "biologically" an entire sexual identity in the same way I'm not viewing all humans as one specific sexual identity. Because things aren't black and white like that. I don't think Mudokon workers are all by default aroace because they don't reproduce in the same way that I know not all humans are heterosexual because that's how we're expected to reproduce. We're more than just our anatomy.

Alf clarifies that the only Mudokons with definitive sexes are Drones and Queens, similar to males and females in human terms. Alf also notes that Mudokon workers don't adhere to human gender norms; they're considered genderless, and the use of he/him pronouns is simply for convenience—"just because," as he says.

In biological terms, asexual reproduction is a process where a single parent produces offspring without the fusion of gametes. Going into this, it's worth noting that honey bee symbolism is prevalent in Mudokon culture—Royal Jelly is even an item in Soulstorm. In beehives, worker bees are female but don't undergo sexual development. They can't mate but can sometimes lay infertile eggs that become male drones. These workers are, in biological terms, asexual. By the same logic, Mudokon workers are biologically asexual: they aren't meant to reproduce, and they don't need to mate at all because they lack reproductive organs and therefore have no sperm. But that doesn't mean they're like Ken dolls down there, anatomically blank; they're evolved from bird-like creatures. Could they lay eggs? Maybe, maybe not. Nobody knows for sure because it’s simply not something the story has focused on.

What’s important to remember is that Mudokon slaves are utterly sexually repressed. OWI has stated this themselves. They're forbidden from any form of sexual education or sexual media. They don’t know their origins, don't know their mothers, don't even fully understand their own bodies. Saying they must be incapable of experiencing attraction just because we've never seen them kiss onscreen is absurd. Alf himself has made it clear that he experiences attraction. Lorne Lanning, the creator of Oddworld, has even said he considered giving Abe a girlfriend in the past—and confirmed that worker Mudokons can experience desires like romance and attraction because it's necessary for some of them to eventually develop into Drones. So it's not far-fetched at all to imagine Mudokon workers being romantic or sexual sometimes. In fact, given how deeply their lives have been controlled and suppressed, it makes sense to want them to have that freedom—to explore their feelings, identities, and experiences that were denied to them their entire lives.

On a personal note, as many of my followers know, I actually headcanon Abe as being on the AroAce spectrum. I think he's Grey-AroAce. I don’t see him as sex-repulsed—more like someone who just doesn’t really get the appeal of it. I think he's capable of romance but highly prioritizes platonic and familial love. Asexuality is a spectrum, just like any sexuality. People have preferences. Labels aren't rigid "rules" someone has to follow to the letter. An AroAce person doesn't stop being AroAce just because they try relationships. Sometimes gay people date girls before realizing they’re gay. Sometimes people are convinced they're straight until they realize they're bisexual. Exploration and growth are natural and are unironically part of character growth.

And when you really think about it: Mudokon slaves have no understanding of sexuality at all. Abe wouldn’t even know what being AroAce means at first, or even how to recognize feelings like attraction. His self-discovery would take time, experience, and freedom—something he never had under Glukkon rule (and frankly something he doesn't even have as the Messiah!). To immediately slap a strict human label on him and other slaves based solely on his repression is unfair. Come on, dude.

Let the Mudokons figure themselves out. Let's not slap a strict label with rules to follow on an entire species, please? They deserve that chance. They may be aliens, but they're as sentient if not more sentient than human beings.

[yanderes-galore]

yandere lamb with a bishop darling?

I can try my hand at this, sure! I really want to write more for this game but no one requests it :')

Yandere! The Lamb with Bishop! Darling

(FT. Yandere! Platonic! Narinder/TOWW)

Pairing: Romantic (The Lamb)/Platonic (Narinder/TOWW)

Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Obsession, Worship yandere, Cults, Violence/Murder, Dubious relationship.

The Bishops are deities worshipped in the Old Faith.

The religion itself is cruel and inhumane, often requiring sacrifices of unwilling subjects.

The Bishops themselves, your siblings, could be considered cruel themselves.

Narinder, Bishop of Death, was sealed away after harming his siblings, you yourself may even have an injury from him too.

Leshy, the Bishop of Chaos, has always been too arrogant of his power.

Heket, the Bishop of Famine, is often aggressive and brings hunger to her followers.

Kallamar, Bishop of Pestilence, is a coward who brings sickness to his followers and fails to lead them.

Shamura, Bishop of War, often forced obedience through mind control.

Compared to your siblings and this religion, you could be a Bishop in two ways.

Perhaps you're better than them, the hope the followers need to continue suffering under the others.

Or maybe you're just as bad as your siblings?

(I'm biased to you being some sort of Bishop of Hope and Radiance yet you can be anything you want)

The point is, The Lamb may want to worship a Bishop! Darling.

Sure, they are meant to worship Narinder to free him... meaning they may have to slay you.

But The Lamb can't bring themselves to!

Even more so if you genuinely care for your followers.

I feel what would make this story even more intense is if Narinder was attached to you as his sibling.

That way he'd probably ask The Lamb to spare you, to force you into a messenger of the new cult.

After all, the other four betrayed him...

Not you.

Honestly just the thought of The Lamb trying to appease you is adorable.

Narinder prefers sacrifices, so The Lamb tries to pick followers they think you'll like.

You're given gold as wealth and often given gifts.

Even if The Lamb had to slay you, they'd probably bring you back to make you a follower.

The Lamb's obsession is only encouraged if Narinder likes you.

Narinder trusts The Lamb to convert you and your followers... along with treating you well.

To you, you may even find The Lamb's attempts at worship and maybe even courtship cute.

They bleat towards you before offering you gifts.

They conduct sermons about you and Narinder.

You're often depicted as the sibling of TOWW and are worshipped as such.

Anything romantic would be sort of strange unless you were made a follower.

The Lamb's romantic attractions towards you while you're still a deity may be more akin to someone saying they "love God" or something similar.

They love you and devote themselves to you.

Narinder, your brother, may even see The Lamb as a connection you two share.

A temporary connection... as TOWW has plans to ditch The Lamb once he is free.

You may see The Lamb as a follower of your own... or maybe even a pet.

You often speak to The Lamb, asking how their conquest is going.

You are aware of what they must do... it's bittersweet.

On one hand, your siblings (and maybe you) had it coming.

On the other hand... you wish none of this has to happen.

The Lamb tries to distract you from your mourning.

As Leshy, Heket, Kallamar, and Shamura fall... The Lamb tries to comfort you.

You try not to blame the pawn too much....

They are Narinder's form of punishment.

Lambs should never have been targeted in the first place after all.

It was foolish to think Narinder would never return.

As a result, you are in acceptance of your fate.

You accept The Lamb's offerings and bless them on their journeys.

You aren't sure how things will go when Narinder returns.

From what you hear, the Bishop of Death seems eager to see you again.

Part of you fears what's to come, but the others tried to fight it and perished...

So why should you?

The Lamb is often the one to pull you from your thoughts.

They come back from their crusades all proud and happy.

They always come to see you at your land and at the cult.

Knowing you can't fight the return of your brother, you aid his pawn.

His pawn, The Lamb, appears to adore you just as much.

The Lamb isn't entirely an intense yandere when you're a Bishop.

They come to see you often and try to follow where you go.

They only wish to worship you alongside your remaining brother!

You are wise enough to know you can't fight fate compared to your siblings...

So you accept The Lamb's offerings and adoration... which includes all of their love.

You wonder if Narinder will spare The Lamb once he comes back to rule yet again.

[llamagoddessofficial]

So, I wanted to know a little about how you see soulmates? I honestly want to see your take when it deals with HMF Sans in particular while it deals with a particular Soulmates AU. Usually, whenever I write Soulmates AU... to add DRAMA to the setting, I'd like to the soulmates the ability to feel the other's pain.

I want to know how'd HMF would think during the incident that caused his head to cave in while dealing with a universe akin to how I would write a soulmates AU. Would that change anything about what happens?

This is a very good question!

I like to write Soulmates as a resonation between Souls. It may be two Souls who are extremely similar to one another, so similar they hum the same tune. It may be two Souls that are different in the perfect way, singing like a harmony. In physical terms it's a mutual feeling of comfort and ease that you just can't explain. It can be platonic or romantic; Soulmates may be couples, but they may also be best friends.

Monsters place a lot of cultural importance on Soulmates, because their Soul constitutes so much of their being. Monster Soulmates feel the attraction a lot stronger than humans do. For Monsters it's super obvious, and for humans, it's a gut feeling.

Though definitely a good start to a relationship, being Soulmates doesn't guarantee a perfect happy ending! Relationships are still relationships, that require work and love and patience. Soulmates are still individual people. They can fall out with one another, if either party won't put in the leg work.

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A personal note on this; I know some people make Soulmates a super big deal in their writing, the mega crux of relationships, if you're Soulmates you're guaranteed to be in love forever. And that's totally fine! I just don't really gel with that idea. Like... what about the rest of me? What about my personality, my hobbies interests, my wants? I'm more than an arbitrary magical link with someone. When I read 'we're Soulmates therefore I love you' I start to think stuff like "Would this person not love me otherwise? Would they even LIKE me if we didn't have this magical link? Do they actually care about me, or do they just start caring because they think they need to?" I feel that I wouldn't want to be with someone who only suddenly starts liking me because magic told them to.

In most of my stories, I don't make Soulmates a big thing. In a lot of them my characters aren't even Soulmates at all. It's why I like @recklesslycaffeinated's spin (in Six Ex-cell-ent skeletons) so much; the skeletons are her Soulmates but they love her for reasons outside of the Soul stuff. Sans even makes it clear to the Mc in the sequel that being Soulmates doesn't guarantee a relationship at all, it just guarantees some kind of connection, and being Soulmates with her is just a bonus that makes him feel comfortable. I love that take.

[our-queer-experience]

Okay this might be kind of long but i need to know if anyone else has experienced something similar. uhh Content warning for internalized transphobia/homophobia I guess

So basically I'm transmasc nonbinary and for the longest time I've thought of myself as a lesbian, and I've always been very uncomfortable with the idea of being with a guy, even before I knew I was queer at all. And like, I definitely am at least predominantly attracted to women, i don't usually find men attractive at all.

But recently I've started to really like this guy in a way that's pretty confusing since I already have a hard time distinguishing between romantic and platonic attraction. But also sometimes when I think about it too much it just feels so wrong and makes me uncomfortable.

I've struggled a lot with gender dysphoria and self acceptance related to being trans and I'm not sure if the discomfort is picturing myself with a cis guy makes me feel like id be the de-facto girl of the relationship (I realize what a weird thought that is but it has been also been a feeling I've experienced a lot in the past, note the aforementioned self acceptance issues.) Or if I'm feeling insecure about my masculinity in some way. He's bi and very accepting of my gender so it's not like he would only see me as a girl or anything but it still just feels wrong and icky somehow

Also it reminds me a bit of stories of people in denial about their sexuality like I've literally had the thought many times of if he was a girl I would totally want to date him no hesitation. so idk.

But it could also be that I'm just not actually attracted to him? Cause i love my friends very intensely and it could be that thinking about being romantically involved with him makes me uncomfortable because I'm not actually attracted to him, and i actually just really love him platonically? And also I'm usually only attracted to women so the fact that the only exception to that is someone I already really care about as a friend seems kind of suspicious?

Labels aren't really my concern here idgaf about what my sexuality is called I just feel like its so messy that I cant actually tell if i actually like him or not. because if i do actually want to like ask him out or something and then realize I'm not actually attracted to him that would be a fucking nightmare, especially since i really care about our friendship already.

TLDR: I cant tell if im not attracted to men or the thought of being with one just makes me feel really insecure about my gender. Has anyone else felt like being trans and dysphoria made understanding their sexuality and attraction really confusing???

i completely get this! im bisexual and have always been confident in my attraction to guys (minus maybe 2 weeks as a preteen when i wondered about lesbianism) but for me it comes with the sense that ill probably end up settling down with a woman because that is the way to Be A Man, and i cant be The Man when around another guy. masculinity is so competitive and while im aware of it, that makes it not easier to defeat, but easier to not be toxic and project it onto other people.

i think its the kind of thing that gets better with time and confidence. nothing you can rush. as for with your friend…. giving it time and thinking on it cant hurt. human relationships are really hard. knowing how you feel is really hard. i cant tell you what will fix your situation, but i can tell you that youre not alone.

[anistarrose]

A while ago I saw a post that started out wishing Lilith's aroace identity got addressed onscreen, and I was like "yeah I totally agree, a voice acted stream reveal is many steps above 'some writer tweeting it after the show ends' but it would've still been far more exuberant and impactful to see it in the show." But then OP continued by saying there's nothing in Lilith's arc that reflects aromantic experiences, and look, I'm biased as the Lilith icon person, but like. Your experiences are not universal.

And... that's okay! My experiences aren't universal either. But as an aroace, I do have to say: Lilith does reflects one type of aroace experience, and that's the chronically ill aroace experience in particular.

It's the way that she's an adult who needs care from others, but first moves back in with her sister, and then moves back in with her parents, instead of moving in with or seeking out a romantic partner.

It's the way she grapples with independence and individualism, struggling to unravel "what she wants" from "what she needs in terms of support" and from "what society revolving around the Emperor's Coven has tricked her into conflating with self-worth".

It's the way she looks at her reflection and asks: "Am I broken?"

Not all aroaces are disabled and chronically ill. Not all aroaces have (or want) intense platonic friendships or close sibling relationships, and not are able to heal from trauma by living with their family. These are all arguments for more variety in aroace representation, to say nothing of a-spec representation as a whole — that just doesn't mean aroace characters with these traits don't represent anyone.

And this is also a chance to touch on a distinction that I feel isn't drawn often enough when talking about queer subtext of any form: I don't think Lilith, if you're only looking at the show itself, is a strongly or undeniably aroace-coded character. But she's absolutely a character whose arc is enhanced upon learning that she's aroace.

So don't get me wrong: I would like more than this. Lilith is like a baby step in terms of a-spec representation in animation — a meaningful step, but a small one. But for a series where each season except the first was heavily impacted (read: compressed) by the cancellation, and the unaffected first season was also the only one Lilith spent as an extremely polarizing villain, you can see how the crew could've gone in with extremely conscientious intentions and wound up having to make a tough call, right?

I don't even necessarily think they made the right call, I'm just willing to give them the benefit of the doubt that they tried. It feels like they put more than just some performative 30 seconds of thought into imagining how a disabled aroace with serious self-worth issues would interact with the world and improve herself — or, at least realized after some experience writing Lilith that being aroace fit her, and let that inform much of her Season 2 arc.

Like, maybe I'm personally extra desperate for disabled a-specs in media, but honestly? Lilith is a well-written one in all aspects but the lack of an onscreen "I've never felt attraction to someone" — and you don't have to agree with me, but I'll die on the hill that that all counts for something.

No hate to OP — if you know what post I'm vagueing about, be chill and normal about it, please. It's fine for some people not to feel represented, and put their thoughts out there — but it also seems that I, as a person who feels very represented, should put out some of my own thoughts for balance.

[koolades-world]

hello! I've been binging your work recently, and I've really been enjoying it! (also if your requests aren't actually open please just ignore this, and I'm really sorry 🙇‍♀️)

I was wondering if you could do the Brothers with an Aroace MC?

Aroace means aromantic/asexual incase you didn't know and the individual meanings of those are:

aromantic: little to no romantic attraction

asexual: little to no sexual attraction

I was also wondering if this could be fluffy and platonic? if this isn't the stuff you normally write then, again, I'm really sorry😭

I hope you have a good day/night!

hi! of course :)

i think i have done either an aromantic or an asexual mc, but not an aroace!

enjoy <3

Aroace Mc

Lucifer

i am a firm believer in dadcifer!!!!

he will hang your work on the fridge when you do well, will be at every sports meet, and he tucks you into bed every night

he has a special smile reserved for you (and mammon) when he's proud of you

honestly even if you're a little gremlin, he's happy to have you in his life because you changed him for the better

Mammon

he brings you on his adventures to find shiny little trinkets because it's mammon

one of his favorite ways to do so is to dig through public fountains, which is high risk, er, low reward haha

but it's fun so it's worth it? to mammon it is

afterwards though, he always gets you ice cream as a thank you :)

Levi

of course he introduced you to all of his favorite aroace characters

he knows how amazing it is to find a character that's just like you, even if they're far and few between

if you ever need comfort for any reason, his room is always open for you, no password needed

he's got a blanket and all of your favorite animes and video games ready to go just for you

Satan

as long as you're up for it, you can expect regular trips to his stomping grounds

ie the library, the local bookstores, cafes, and of course, cat cafes for special occasions

of course, he only supports places that are lgbtq+ friendly <3

he also keeps a special section of books in his room for you of aroace authors and books with aroace characters

Asmo

will make sure he has all the nail polish for the aroace pride flag so he can paint them for you!

if you're not into nail polish, he'll find other cute ways to support you and help you show your pride, such as through other accessories

he's a frequenter at pride parades, so you're welcome to come if you want <3

lots of girls nights together where you eat tasty snacks, wear facemasks and chat about that day

Beel

he will kick someone ass for you if they're bothering you!

he's very protective of his family, and to him, you are

after he's done with them, they'll never even think about bothering you again

also gives you the best hugs!!

Belphie

he loves having lazy mornings with you!

tickle fights with him!! he could win every time but he lets you win when he's feeling nice haha

he gives amazing cuddles and he doesn't even know it

if you're not into cuddles, that's alright, he's got a pile of pillows and blankets with your name on it that he picked out just for you

[eisforeidolon]

Hi! Sorry if i'm bothering you but i needed someone to talk. About what happened recently with Destiel and Misha and the fans that believed in the things he said. I am new to Supernatural fandom, but i loved the story in an instant, thanks to Sam and Dean and their unique relationship. Then i became interested in Jared and Jensen too and i think that if Sam and and Dean are the heart of Supernatural then Jared and Jensen are the soul of the show because to me no other actor could have played Sam and Dean like they did. Now, returning to what i wanted to say i am really TIRED about Destiel, some Destiel shippers and especially Misha. I know he said some stupid thing about how CW is homophobic and how Destiel would be canon if they weren't homophobic. I don't ship Destiel because sincerely i don't see romantic love between Dean and Castiel, but this doesn't make me an homophobic person. His words are said with malicious intent. He also said some thing about how Jensen is attracted to him. I find this disgusting because he says this things only for his Destiel fan, knowing that his words are lies. Also Jensen not being there can't reply to his lies. Like i sad i'm new to Supernatural but some Destiel are making the experience in the fandom a constant war. They say that if you don't ship Destiel you are homophobic , that if you don't ship Destiel you are not a true Supernatural fan and the most stupid one... They say that Supernatural is about Dean and Castiel and their love. This make me really angry because Supernatural is about Sam And Dean, how they care for each other,how they save the world again and again and how they hunt monster and ghost and other things. But to me Supernatural is the unique love story of two brother and how they did everything to protect each other. I ship Wincest, but When i say love story i mean that Sam and Dean are Platonic Soulmates in Supernatural and even the show always remind us of that. I don't understant how Misha can say this thing without facing consequences because his words feed some Destiel fan that became hateful like him and whose mission is hating people who don't think think like them. Sorry for the long post and for the horrible english but it's not my first language. Sorry if i bothered you but i needed someone to talk to because sometimes i feel like leaving the fandom because Destiel hate and their war against everyone. I hope you will always have love and kindness in your life.

You really don't need to apologize for anything.❤️ You aren't bothering me and your English is fine - maybe not perfect, but hell, neither is mine some days! Thank you for the lovely sentiment, and I wish you the same - and that you do what is best for you in regards to this sometimes dumpster fire of a fandom.

If it helps, you're absolutely not alone. I've been in this fandom for years now, and some days it's sheer stubbornness against hellers obvious attempts to browbeat and drive everyone else out that keeps me here. They didn't get to take over the show through being loud and obnoxious and they don't get to monopolize the fandom by doing the same - and they can be butthurt forever over it.

I actually didn't mind Dean and Castiel as a ship at first. I'm always interested in what people take from a canon and then create entirely outside of it, and I read quite a lot of fanfic. Even then I was baffled by shippers insisting it was a thing in the canon, though. There was a brief period where I wondered if I'd somehow missed it, because I'm not generally really looking for romance stories and there were so many posts that were so insistent? So I actually did a rewatch focused just on Dean and Castiel's interactions - and came away with the impression they weren't actually even as good of friends as I'd originally thought, let alone anything like interested in each other romantically. The more I thought about it and the more meta I ran across and actually considered the details of? The more obviously baseless it was. I mean, some of it really is just genuinely so stupid it's hilarious. Cake. Bacon. Negative space. Widower arc. Bisexual lighting and/or plaid. But even the theorizing which wasn't absurd on its face? Always looked silly in comparison to how much more obviously and easily it had meaning in relation to the main story that plainly actually existed instead.

Meanwhile, I kept seeing more and more of those posts you mention insisting anyone who didn't ship it was a homophobe and they really pissed me off. Even if Dean and Castiel were a canon couple who spent half of each episode doing couple things and saying I love you back and forth instead of the entire show revolving around Sam and Dean's crazy tangled up lives with Castiel occasionally wandering in and out of the background with some angel nonsense or whatever? Not shipping it would not make someone a homophobe. Shipping is very subjective and any individual pairing can not appeal to any particular fan for a million and one reasons that have sweet fuckall to do with how they generally feel about LGBT+ relationships. Attempting to bully people into supporting a single very specific fictional relationship by trying to make them afraid of being branded a bigot if they don't is ridiculous as hell, regardless of how canon or not it is. How absolutely fucking disrespectful to all the people who have to deal with actual homophobia versus just being butthurt they can't force two particular fictional characters to kiss. It's so goddamn juvenile I can't even.

The longer I was in fandom, the more brain dead and divorced from the show the meta claiming Dean and Castiel were going to hook up any minute got. The more annoyed I became at all the absurd stereotypes about masculinity and sexuality they would parrot as gospel truth if it could "prove" Dean was into dudes and eventually the angel. The more obviously transparent their every cry of ~*homophobia*~ was when they tried to turn every real life LGBT+ issue and every canon LGBT+ character primarily into proof and/or justification regarding D/C. They're a bunch of entitled shitheads who not only feel like they should get to dictate what SPN is despite hating basically everything it actually was, but who are perfectly fine with co-opting serious real world issues to try and do it. I have no beef with normal D/C shippers who aren't assholes to everyone and mad at the show for not bringing their fanfic to life, but I can't stand the pairing at all even in a fandom sense anymore.

The evolution of my feelings on Misha followed a similar path. I liked Castiel well enough as a supporting character and I didn't actively dislike Misha, though after I'd seen a couple of panels where his answers were flippantly irreverent or unnecessarily raunchy, I wasn't really much interested in him. Then, over time, at the same time Castiel's character was more and more blatantly just eating up screen time to give J2 time off, he started getting worse and worse about ship-baiting. He'd act like everyone behind the scenes was talking about D/C - but then they (Jensen and Bob Singer most notably) would say that was untrue. He'd slyly hint about upcoming scenes in a vague way to imply D/C and then it would be something else entirely. He'd tell shippers about things that had been pointedly removed because they could seem leading and that was not the authorial intent, but without pointing out that was exactly why they were excised. His stories would change when he got a bad reaction - he went from saying he shipped wincest to pretending he'd never heard of it, he went from claiming Jimmy was going to appear in the original Roadhouse finale to it being Castiel, etc. Then there was framing horsing around with Jared as if he was a victim and not a participant and the incredibly inappropriate objectifying sexual comments about Jensen and Dean. All of which caused the fans falling for it to loudly and angrily attack everyone but him while they kept buying his ops/books/cameos/whatever. No matter how blatantly he queerbaits them and how upset they get over it and take it out on everyone else, he does not stop. He's an ungrateful creepy narcissist who will throw literally anyone or anything under the bus if he can get a buck out of it. Who also will proclaim he doesn't want to co-opt LGBT+ causes when he's desperately trying to keep his career on life support doing exactly that in the most skeevy, backstabby way possible.

Jared and Jensen put their hearts and years of their lives into this show bringing Sam and Dean to life, episode after episode, week after week, season after season. Telling an important story about platonic and familial love that you really won't find anywhere else.

Misha and the hellers have spent years trying to co-opt that to their own ends out of gross entitlement. They deserve each other, but the show and its actual fans don't deserve to have to put up with either of them. Unfortunately, we have the fandom we have, not the one we deserve.

[torimidori2-blog]

I'm poly, and I keep getting people who don't understand what the difference between polyamory, open relationships, and cheating, so let this be an educational moment for all the mono people out there.

Polyamorous is when someone is attracted to or in a relationship with more than one person at the same time. This is all with consent from everyone involved. A group of poly people who are dating are called a polycule. Just like regular monogamous relationships, poly relationships can consist of romantic, platonic, sensual, and sexual attraction, and can even be done with people who are aspec (on the ace spectrum).

An open relationship is when someone is attracted to more than one person, but the person who you're dating isn't attracted to the people you date. For example: if the relationship started of monogamous, and you decide you want to open the relationship in order to cater to a specific need that your current partner can't provide, that means you and your partner can see other people outside of your relationship with consent from your partner. Just like poly people, this can also be done between people who are aspec and you could have different reasons for wanting another separate relationship, whether you need a sensual, sexual, romantic, or platonic/queer platonic relationship. In my opinion, I think open relationships should be a last resort after communicating with your partner enough to where you both realize that your relationship needs aren't being met, but you still care enough about each other to still want to be together.

Cheating is when someone in a committed relationship sees other people without consent from their significant other(s). The reason why cheating is bad, is not because they're dating someone else, it's because you trusted them to not break the boundaries of the relationship by seeing other people, and they did anyway.

Even if you're in a poly relationship, you can cheat because if you didn't trust your partners enough to tell them that you're interested in seeing someone else and it breaks their boundaries and makes them feel violated and uncomfortable, that's cheating. It's also a danger to the polycule because they don't know the person you brought in and they weren't aware of you bringing them in. Why would you not tell your cule who you're dating when they're usually comfortable with letting more people in? For all we know, they could hurt the cule, or hurt you, or they could be hiding something themselves.

Someone who tells you that their actually poly after they got caught cheating is a blazing red flag. Cances are, they're just trying to find a valid excuse to cheat and get away with it. Someone who tells you that they want to open a relationship before sorting out the issues in their current relationship is a blazing red flag. Especially if you have a solution to the problems that you're facing, and it could've been solved through negotiating with your partner.

To be honest, as a poly person, I don't understand why cheating is a thing. For one, it could be because being monogamous is the societal norm, and seeing other people is a means of trying to secretly bypass that norm, but I don't think thats the case seeing that there is a whole cheating culture that proudly says that they like to cheat and gloat about how many people they play on a constant basis. It could be the fact that people just think that emotions are a game to be played with, or it could be some sort of insecurity that they have with the relationship they started before they decided to cheat. But fr, can someone tell me the reason why people cheat? I don't understand, and I need a real valid answer. Not some "They were boring and I don't like them anymore." because you can either do one of two things there, break up with them, or talk to them about how you feel and tell them what you want from them moving forward.

[sxlver-raven]

Nono, you see, it's logical to say character A is in love with character B, even when the setting doesn't allow them to be. And it's also logical for them to only have a close friendship. Both interpretations work, but why does romantic always seem to be the preferred choice?

It has nothing to do with the 'I love you' s vs the 'I'm in love with you' s, it's not even about whether or not there's kissing. With real people, even when you're incredibly close with someone, you can still tell the difference between a platonic and romantic relationship, although that line can often get blurry and hard to see. And yet, how could someone who'd go to hell and back for their friend still see that line so clearly and decide they're not in love with anyone?

It's because they know they aren't attracted to that person in that way. You want to kiss them, you want to tell them you're in love with them, or you don't.

Characters don't have that consciousness. The only thing that guides them is our consciousness and ideas.

Characters are fluid in that way.

But, no, sit down, I'm not done--two things: characters exist within a limited time frame and, oftentimes, romantic relationships are seen as superior to platonic relationships. Bc you only get one soulmate, right? While friendships happen all the time.

Now, I'm not gonna get into whether that should be the status quo, but nonetheless, it's that way for many people, myself included.

And when you see a character being so close with another one--whether it's because they're willing to die for each other, because they trust each other so much more than anyone else, or because they went through traumatizing events together, etc.--then obviously, your mind will guide them to a scenario where they're in love, where they're soulmates, regardless of what the author wanted. You see that special connection and want to differentiate it from all the friendships. "It's more than that. More than friends." And you can't really agree with the story writer bc that character only gets so many chances at having a soulmate. You won't see who character A will meet in 20 years. You won't see it if they miraculously meet their soulmate the day right after the epilogue.

So, you want them to be in that special relationship that's much more than the friendships with the other characters, you can give those characters that because it's not like they'll tell you, "hmm, I don't actually think about kissing B all the time,", and your characters exist within one story, within one limited time frame. Character B might as well be their soulmate, bc as far as anyone knows, there is no one else they could be closer with.