#potentially triggering and whatnot

[anxiousgaypanicking]

how um. Bad is the noncon in hunger hurts..

uhh i dont really know how to rank it on a scale

its not like begging/pleading for it to stop. its more like coerced consent? kind of? i tagged it noncon because theres no yes, but also dubcon because theres not really a no? if that makes sense?

if youre worried its too much - which is completely and totally okay - then i would recommend not reading it. if youd like to try, feel free! if you need to drop it off at any point, thats okay too.

there's never going to be a moment in that fic where its like crying for it to stop, its just for the first bit its going to be coerced/begrudging/hypnotized consent, or no clear yes/no given, if that makes sense.

as of right now, chapter 2 is the only chapter with sexual content in it, so if you havent read chapter 1 i think itd give you a vague idea how the overall tone will be.

if youd like a better example of the vibe im going for, id recommend mercy no more by hypenotized on ao3. theyre who i wrote this fic for, and thats why its so uncharacteristically heavy compared to something id typically write (i value consent in all of my work, this was an exception as it was a gift for an author i really enjoy). mercy no more in particular though is where im drawing a lot of my more morally grey/immoral elements from though

hope this helps! and if it doesnt/you want specifics feel free to dm me or send another ask. the last thing i want is for anyone to be uncomfortable <3

[lostpiewrites]

Red Light Green Light 🚦

a/n : here you go with my first ever post. Im so excited and so nervous at the same time. I hope you guys like it. And idk the art credits , if you do , please let me know.

Warnings: written with a fem!s/o in mind , manga spoilers and characters may not behave canonically , it's my interpretation of them so feel free to disagree... Also , i have counted potential trauma trigger factors as red flags ; if it doesnt count so , please let me know so i can improve.

THE RED AND GREEN FLAGS OF BLUE LOCK GUYS IN A RELATIONSHIP :

Michael Kaiser

Red Flags 🚩

Manipulative asf. It's canon in the manga that he reads psychological books to understand and control people better and that applies to your relationship as well. He will pull tricks on you to avoid accountability and responsibility most of the time.

Physical Trauma. I haven't seen any headcannons stating this but this man was abandoned by his mom and was constantly abused by his father. So physical affection might be awkward and stiff at the beginning because physical contact without getting hurt is a foreign concept for him. (But gets used to it if you are patient enough with him)

Green Flags ✅️

Spoils you A LOT. Princess treatment at its peak. We have seen how angry he got when his dad harmed the only thing he owned in his childhood , his soccer ball. He values his possesions and treats you like you are something he is proud to own.

If you get past his exterior and find the traumatized little boy in him , he is insecure and has some abandonment issues from his mother. So he treats you in a way that would make you want to stay with him. (Idk if its a green or red flag tbh)

Alexis Ness

Red Flags 🚩

Has OBSESSIVE attachment issues. Have you seen this man around Kaiser ? He is like a servant. Gets EASILY attached or addicted to people , possessions or habits. This results in two different bad outcomes : One is that if you ever were to break up with him , he probably would cause problems because he doesnt want to let you go or would guilttrap you into staying. The other is because of his easily-attached nature , its way TOO easy for him to gain addiction to harmful things like gambling , smoking etc.

Indecisive and constantly nerved. We have seen how nervous he got when he received the last ball in the last PXG match , thinking about what he should do. That is the energy he would constantly have. You can't leave this man alone on choices. He can't do nothing by himself. It is always on you to plan dates , outfits etc.

Green Flags ✅️

This man is your no1 supporter , your personal cheerleader , no1 hypeman. Right from wrong. He defends you so fiercely that he makes people think that you are his god. You may be defending sth ridicilously wrong like p0rn addiction but he is right there defending it with you like his life depends on it.

Isagi Yoichi

Red Flags 🚩

KING of overthinking. His analiytical mind works against him in relationships. You could have just told him "no" to something simple as an ice cream flavor , he is over there thinking that you dont love him anymore , your relationship is over and whatnot.

He doesnt mean to but when he gets angry , his words gets so agressive that he can call you a wh0re out of nowhere. (slursagi moment here) So arguments with him are mostly heated and doesnt really end well.

He is a socially awkward bean as its implied in the light novel, so getting him into crowds is a huge work. Constantly avoids family or friend gatherings.

Green Flags ✅️

This man has a loving and functioning family and knows how to treat a woman so expect to be treated like you deserve , like the queen you are.

He constantly learns things about you and tries to apply it to himself , just like he does with soccer. What you like ? What you dont ? Your love language ? What makes you happy ? What makes you cringe ? All of it. And he REMEMBERS. Dates , people , everything.

Itoshi Sae

Red Flags 🚩

WORDING. This man has issues with how he talks to people. Have you seen the way he treats his younger brother ? He is a terrible communicator. His words are blunt , unfiltered and even tho he may not mean bad , they sting most of the time.

Time issues. This man STRUGGLES to make time for you when he is busy with his soccer schedule. Doesnt put you at his first priority , you are always behind soccer in importance to him. (Unless he feels like you are THE ONE for him)

Green Flags ✅️

He is always attentive to your needs. He doesn't talk much but his actions does. Big on acts of service. You wake up to see a small breakfast , a coffee and a note saying to take care of yourself. Mention you need sth in a convo ? Next day its on your door with a parcel.

Itoshi Rin

Red Flags 🚩

He is apathetic most of the time. Sometimes you aren't even sure if he loves you or not. It takes a lot of effort to making him care for sth other than soccer and his elder brother.

Green Flags ✅️

This boy LIVES for the day that Sae will finally acknowledge him. And if you are dating him , your opinion matters to him too. He LOVES praises , especially coming from you. So you praise him on his skills at anything , especially at soccer , he will melt into a puddle in your arms. He will deny it with his life but he loves being acknowledged and seen.

This brings me to the second point. He sees YOU because he knows what it feels like to be seen as a shadow of somebody else. He doesn't outwardly complement you but he shows through actions that he sees your effort and is proud of it.

Helps you study or finish your tasks. His English knowledge is otherwordly and canonically doesn't really care for any other lesson than English as it will not do any good to his soccer career but will put in effort to learn a spesific lesson so he can teach you.

Mikage Reo

Red Flags 🚩

Growing up as a nepo baby , he got everything he wanted. He still does. And it makes him unable to understand the struggle of other people who are working 8am-5pm and living paycheck to paycheck. He isnt outwardly rude or insulting but silently judges when people mention something being expensive or that they need to save up.

Again as a nepo baby , he never learned how to control money. So without an advisor , he would go bankrupt in an instant. He wastes money like he has a personal problem with his dad's bank account.

Being a rich kid , he has always thought that people come to him for money. (I think this is something we all agree upon as the blue lock fandom.) So he has trust issues.

Green Flags ✅️

Has no problems buying you anything you want/need no natter how "expensive" you think it is. My mans is rich. 🙂‍↕️

Have you seen the way he puts in effort with Nagi ? He will physically drag you to kitchen if you forget to eat , will force it down your throat if you forget to drink water, will wake you up in time. He is just happy he finally has something he feels he earned and deserved , so he doesn't see anything wrong with cooking a full course meal half sleepily at 3 am for your midnight cravings.

Bachira Meguru

Red Flags 🚩

My boi is schizophrenic. Canonically. I know it's because of something sad like having no friends and trying to cope , but no healthy mankind would have an "imaginary" friend.

Has hyperactivity issues /ADHD. This may not count as a red flag as it's a health condition but days with him is TIRING.

Green Flags ✅️

Anything you do with him turns out to be funny at the end. He knows how to have fun and entertain you , so dates with him would be something you always look forward too.

You're not only his first girlfriend , but also one of the first ever friends. So he treats you more like a girl bestfriend than a girlfriend.

Shidou Ryusei

Red Flags 🚩

I have seen a headcannon that he is raised by his grandparents because his parents were neglectful/busy with work. And i believe that with my whole heart. So he has family issues too. He grow up as rowdy and energetic as he is because he got fed by his grandma's delicious cooking which gave him a superhuman energy boost and had little to no supervisor by his side. (Poor grandparents tho , how they can handle a boy child at that age ? )

Probably has sexual trauma. Because the way we have seen him oversexualize himself and people around him is usually a trauma response.

Has anger management issues. No one can convince me otherwise.

Green Flags ✅️

This man is up for ANYTHING you want to do. Your no1 partner in crime. You can text him something like "i wanna go to a haunted escape room" in the middle of the night and he is at your door in 5 mins with a camera for photos , a few snacks and ready to go.

Brags you to his friends like you are the only thing worth of talking. Shows you of to anyone who asks and goes "you see that gorgeous sexy woman there ? Yeah , she is mine".

Is your guard dog. In LITERAL meaning. He has a tendency to get physical at the slightest trigger and will defend you like you are his treasure while wearing the proudest smirk.

Otoya Eita

Red Flags 🚩

LOYALTY. I don't think i have to even say it. This man has commitment issues and an infamous reputation as a cheater. Leaves you wondering if you are actually his girlfriend or one of his sidechicks. You can never be 100% sure with this man and this causes HUGE trust issues in your relationship.

Doesn't take things really seriously. Unless you force him to listen , care or do something ; he just laughs it away and acts like nothing happened.

Green Flags ✅️

This man is a comedian at heart. Can make you laugh even when you are ugly crying over a failed exam.

Flirts like it's his second nature. Annoyingly smooth with his words and actions. (It's a green flag when it's against you but a red one if it's against other girls tbh)

Karasu Tabito

Red Flags 🚩

Another born-to-be-a-womanizer. Mostly under the effect of Otoya on this topic , he rubs off on him.

Green Flags ✅️

Will make you feel special around him. Because to him you are the most beautiful girl he ever laid eyes upon and he will make you feel like it. He leaves no room for you to feel insecure about anything.

Oliver Aiku

Red Flags 🚩

Yet another charming flirt. Probably the biggest one yet because in the manga we have seen him with two girls in the same time , one of them just ambushes him and catches him with another. 😔 He has had a lot of partners before you and it makes you feel like you are another insignificant person in his life and he will have a lot more after you.

Green Flags ✅️

Even tho it may be a bad thing that he has had a lot of partners before , it also makes him experienced. He knows how to handle a crying woman , what time and where to take you out on a date , helps you on you period etc.

He IS responsible , even tho people may not see him so. He is a team captain so he knows how to take responsibilities and carry them.

[stars-obsession-pit]

I recently decided to start reading the Far Sector comic miniseries, and the concept of the Emotion Exploit really tickled the DPxDC part of my brain

Okay so to explain… I haven’t finished the comic yet so may be missing some info revealed later but in brief, the Emotion Exploit is a system set up by the alien species of the City Enduring to block the ability of its denizens to feel emotions (so as to reduce the risks of violence and whatnot).

And since ghosts in Danny Phantom are literally made of emotion, I suspect that they would have opinions on that.

Like, would that not seem viscerally horrific to them? To deprive people of the thing that is central to ghosts’ existences?

Also how would it affect the dead from the City Enduring? Would they be unable to form ghosts? If they can form, would they still be hampered by it and thus weakened? Or maybe they’d be free to experience the full depth of emotions again, which could potentially cause a bunch of poltergeist-y chaos because they have no experience managing those feelings.

And that’s not even getting into how they might respond if some group like the GIW managed to reverse engineer the system and tried to apply it to ghosts…

Or also, what about Switchoff—the drug that undoes the Emotion Exploit? What would happen if a ghost took it? It probably wouldn’t do anything to most ghosts since they wouldn’t have the Exploit in the first place, but what if it did? Could it make them get stronger but go berserk like Trigger from MHA?

[forever-rogue]

Hi! If you’re taking requests then can I please ask for you to write a Joel x Reader one where Joel and Reader have been dating for a long time and are now finally happily living in Jackson (with Ellie), and it was all going fine until Joel’s PTSD is randomly triggered and he accidentally hurts Reader when she touches him as a way to check on him and offer him comfort like she normally would do during one of his panic attacks?

Like maybe they’re at a family bbq (with Tommy and his wife) or the bar or even at their own home when something — whether it be a certain sound, smell, word, etc. — triggers him to the point where he is totally out of it and gets startled when Reader touches him, causing him to slightly hurt her by grabbing her wrist or whatnot because he mistakes her as a threat. Once he snaps out of his PTSD episode, he immediately feels horrible and regretful despite how much Reader tries to assure him that she’s okay and it wasn’t his fault. But it’s not enough; he starts to distant himself out of fear that he’d potentially hurt her again and out of fear that he’d finally done something enough that’ll make her want to leave him. Reader catches on though and then does her best to make Joel realize that she doesn’t blame him for what happened, she’ll always be there for him — through the good, bad, and ugly —, and she’ll never leave him because he’s the love of her life. Just basically a whole lot of hurt and comfort (with a hint of angst and fluff) lol.

(Ah, I’m so sorry that this ended up being such an annoyingly long and detailed ask! I was struggling with how to express my idea in words, and just ended up rambling… I hope it’s okay! 😭 Please feel free to change anything — you’re incredibly talented, so I completely trust your wherever your creativity takes you if you choose to write this).

Anyway! Thank you so much for writing and sharing all of your stories — your writing is truly outstanding and really just your account as a whole is one of my absolute favorites! 🫶🏻

AN | Please, this is so cute but sad, but there’s also a happy ending 💕

Pairing | Joel Miller x Fem!Reader

Warnings | Language, Mentions of PTSD

Word Count | 2.8k

Masterlist | Joel, Main

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“Think you made enough food?” you felt Joel’s arm at the small of your back as you set up the desserts you had made. You turned to him and pretended to huff before playfully swatting his hand away, “I think you’ve got enough for the whole of Jackson.”

“I never hear you complaining, Joel Miller,” you grabbed one of the chocolate cookies you’d made and took a bite before offering half to him. He playfully bit it out of your hand, causing you to giggle at him, “no manners, Mr. Miller. None at all!”

“I,” he mumbled through a mouth of cookie, “am a perfect gentleman, darlin’.”

“You’re lucky I love you,” you uncovered the rest of the baked goods you’d prepared and marveled at your handiwork, “this is a family barbeque but you know that basically means everyone will be here since we’re all basically one big, weird family. Hence, I made plenty.”

“What’s a smart woman like you doing with a fool like me?” he wrapped his arm around your waist and pulled you in a for a sweet kiss, practically beaming when you pulled back, “baby.”

"Don't baby me, Miller," you planted a playful, sloppy kiss on his cheek, "go on and help your brother with the barbecue so we can actually eat."

"Fine," he clutched at his heart as he scoffed before making his way over to Tommy. You couldn't help but watch him go, shaking your head in amusement. This man.

-

The world might have been different from how it once used to be, but one of the things that never changed was the love of fireworks. Jimmy and Sandra had somehow managed to come up with a cache of them on one of their last trips out of Jackson. 

Naturally, the brilliant idea that they could be used at the barbecue was proposed and it wasn't hard to convince the younger Miller brother to go ahead with it. Under controlled circumstances, it would all be fine. 

And realistically it should have been fine…you had no reason to think that it wouldn't be. But life didn't seem to agree with you and had a completely different idea. 

You were standing with Ellie, your arms wrapped around her shoulders and you hugged onto her, waiting to see all the pretty fireworks. It hit you then and there - Ellie had never seen fireworks before! The idea in and of itself seemed wild. 

Her entire face was lit up from her big smile and the sparkling lights as the two of you watched the ones Tommy had set off. 

"Pretty cool, huh?" You pressed a kiss to the top of her head before realizing that something, or someone rather, was missing, "I'm going to go and find Joel. I'll be right back!"

Ellie was so distracted that she didn't even take much note of you leaving. It only took a few minutes before you found him near the back of the house, picking at something from one of the tables, or so you thought anyway.

"Babe?" You weren't sure if he could hear you over the clambering of the crowd and the fireworks; he didn't turn around. You walked closer to him and reached for him, "Joel?"

And then it happened all at once; he turned around and grabbed your wrist, twisting your arm at a painful angle and causing you to cry out. His eyes were dark but there was nothing there, just an empty hollowness. 

“Joel!” you tried to pull out of his tight grip but that only made things more painful. He wasn’t letting go and you didn’t know what to do - he clearly wasn’t him right now. You struggled with him for a few moments before you heard someone running up and yelling at Joel to stop. 

You looked up and felt a wave of relief wash over your body when you realized it was Tommy. If there was anyone that could help in this situation, it would be him. Tommy managed to pry Joel’s hands off you, the sheer force causing you to stumble backwards and fall onto your butt. 

“Hey, hey, hey,” Tommy’s hands were on Joel’s shoulders as he tried to get him to snap out of his trance. You’d never seen him like this and it was as scary as it was heartbreaking. You didn’t fully know what was going on but you had a fairly good guess, “Joel, this isn’t real, it’s just a memory. You’re okay, you’re safe, you’re at home with us.”

That seemed to quell him even if it was the slightest bit and he shook his head, almost as if he was trying to shake whatever was going on off. 

“Breathe in and out slowly,” Tommy had a calming effect on your boyfriend who seemed to relax, his shoulders slumping ever so slightly, “look around, we’re at home, we’re safe.”

Tommy took a few steps back and looked at you, an apologetic expression on his face. You swallowed the lump in your throat and as he held out his hand to help you to up and to your feet. Once you were back up, you looked over at Joel to find looking between you and Tommy,

“Joel?” your voice almost cracked as you subconsciously at your sore wrist and sore. His eyes darted to the sore area that was already red and starting to swell. 

His jaw clenched as he let out a long sigh, hanging in head in exhaustion and shame, “I’m…I’m okay.”

Tommy hesitated for a moment before gently wrapping an arm around your shoulder, “let me take you and Ellie home.”

“But-”

“Please?” he asked softly, offering you a pointed look. You realized what he was trying to convey and nodded before letting him lead you away, “I’ll be right back, big brother.”

You cast one last look at Joel but he wouldn’t meet your eyes. Your heart broke a little bit, but you kept repeating to yourself that everything would be alright. This was just a small bump in the road.

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When you woke up the following morning, you found yourself alone in bed, Joel’s side still made up and cold. He hadn’t come to bed. You rubbed the sleep from your eyes before putting on your slippers and padding down the hall. You poked your head into Ellie’s bedroom and found the girl fast asleep still; at least she was getting some rest. 

You decided to start a pot of coffee and made your way to the kitchen; when you stepped inside you found him sitting at the table and staring at his hands. You relaxed ever so slightly when you realized he was home…but something was definitely still going on. 

“Joel?” you’d been so quiet that he hadn’t heard you come in, but his head snapped up and looked at you, “h-hey, my love.”

He inhaled shakily before looking you over, his entire face turning into a grimace at the angry haze of bruising on your arm. You realized what he was looking at and moved to tuck your arm behind your back. 

“I hurt you,” was all he managed to see before you could see that his eyes were glistening with tears. You took a few steps closer and shook your head fervently, but he recoiled from you, “I did that to you.”

“No,” the fact that he tried to shy away from you didn’t stop you from getting closer, “you didn’t hurt me - that wasn’t you.”

“It was me,” gingerly, he reached for your hand and pulled out your arm so he could look it over properly. In between the marks you could see the fingerprints etched in there, “if it wasn’t me, who did this to you?”

“Baby-”

“I hurt you,” he repeated, “all because I couldn’t handle the sound of some fuckin’ fireworks.”

“Stop,” you crouched down so you could look up at him since he refused to do so, “please. It wasn’t your fault, and I don’t blame you for this. No one should - it was an unfortunate thing but it’s over and done with this and this bruising will heal and go away. But I am never going away, and if you think this one little thing will do that, then you don’t know me very well.”

“I had no control over what happened,” he was willing to concede at least that much, “and that’s what scares me. What if it happens again? What if it gets even worse the next time? What if-”

“Joel,” you reached up and put your hand on his face, brushing your thumb over his cheek, “you can’t think like that. It’s not healthy….just because it happened once doesn’t mean it will happen again. And, if for some reason it does, we’ll take it one day at a time.”

He reached up and gently removed your hand from his face, causing you to frown deeply, “I can’t trust myself around you. If anything ever happened to you or to Ellie, I would never forgive myself.”

“Joel-”

“I need some air,” he stood up and gently brushed past you, walking outside and into the backyard. You remained rooted in your spot, but sighed heavily, blinking back the tears that threatened to well up. 

Things would be okay, you knew they would…they had to be. Right? Right.

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Joel was still with you, but you could slowly see him growing more and more distant as the days wore on. Despite your reassurances that you were okay, and you still loved him more than anything, it was like he became a shell of his former self. And it wasn’t just with you, which was a bit of reassurance that it wasn’t just you, but it was with everyone. You wished there was something you could do that would easily get him back to his former self. Just as your arm grew better and less bruised, he continued to pull away and create a barrier between the two of you. 

One late night, as you laid in bed reading due to your inability to sleep, Joel came in and slowly closed the door behind him, and leaned against it. When he cleared his throat, you looked up and saw a serious expression on his face. He looked just as tired as you felt. 

“What’s up?” you asked softly as you closed your book and gently set it to the side. He remained silent for a few moments, clearly searching for the right words. Once a few moments of tense silence passed he finally looked at you, "hmm?"

"I've been thinkin'," he shoved his hands into pockets. You sat up straighter and tried to push down the nagging feeling that was already forming in your tummy, "and I think it's best…I should go."

"Go?" You parroted, not fully understanding what he was talking about, "what do you mean, Joel?"

"Go," he waved his hand around, "I don't think I should be here with you and Ellie anymore."

"Oh. Oh," you frowned at him, "so you're just going to up and leave."

"Baby, I - it's not like that," he insisted softly but you weren't just about to let him go. Not that easily, "this is what's best."

You scoffed at him, not even bothering to hide your disappointment, "that's what's best, huh? For who? For who is it best? You?"

"Best for everyone."

"Well that is just a straight up lie," you got out of bed and walked over to him, crossing your arms over his chest, "its not what's best for me at all. Or Ellie."

"Baby," it was softer and much more gentle, and almost resigned in a way.

"Listen - this time I need you to listen to me," you stood in front of him, firm and tall, "this has been going on for weeks now and I'm not just going to let you keep continuing on like this."

"I just…I wouldn't forgive myself if I ever did anything to you or hurt you in any way possible," you could see his Adam's apple bobbing, "its already hard enough knowing that I did." 

"Look," you pulled back the sleeve of your sweater and held up your arm. When he refused to acknowledge what you were doing you kept a cool and even tone, "look at me."

Reluctantly he allowed himself to look at your arm, at the place he had once hurt you. Your arm was back to normal and no remnants of what had once happened. He wrapped his fingers gingerly around your wrist as he tenderly turned your arm to get a better look at it. 

"There's nothing there," you pointed out softly, "and it doesn't hurt at all. I don't think about it anymore and I don't…I never blamed you and I was never scared of you."

"You're saying that now…but what if it happens again?" You could see the genuine concern in his eyes as you reached up and gently touched his face. He closed his eyes and leaned into your touch, something he'd denied himself for what seemed like an eternity by that point.

"If it does, we'll figure it out," you meant every word you said and you hoped he knew that, "Joel, life isn't always easy and it's not always fun. But just because one hard or bad thing happened doesn't mean I'm just going to walk away. That's not who we are and that's not what we do. I'm with you forever and nothing is going to change that."

He opened and closed his mouth a few times, in search of the right thing to say. Instead of verbalizing all that he was feeling, he bowed his head and pressed his forehead to yours.

"If it was me that happened to and I hurt you, would you want me to just leave?" You asked softly and you could feel the shake of his head.

"Of course not," he insisted, "it wouldn't…it would have been an accident."

"Exactly," you whispered, "how do you think I feel about you? I'm not going to let you just go. Not without a fight."

"Really?"

"Of course," you took his face in your hands and pressed a gentle kiss to his lips, "I love you, silly man. Nothing is ever going to change that. We'll be together through the good and the bad, through thick and thin. All of it."

And that was what seemed to break him. You could hear him sniffle lightly before a few tears rolled down his cheek. You gently brushed them away before making a small sound of reassurance at him. 

"I love you, baby," he wrapped his arms around your waist and pulled you into his warm, soft body. You felt him relax into your touch as you looped your arms around his shoulders and tucked yourself into his body as best as possible. You could tell that he needed this just as much as you did; he was practically melting into your body, "so much."

"I love you," it was a sentiment whispered in his ear so only he could hear it,"so, so much my love."

"When I hurt you I just…I got so worried."

"It's understandable," you insisted, "anyone would feel that way. But I want you to also understand that I love you and that nothing is ever going to change that."

"I know," a huff of laughter escaped him, "I've always known that."

"Good," you gave him the beaming smile that he still managed to fall in with over and over again, "because I've always known that you love me too. I can't promise everything, but I can promise you one thing."

"What's that?" He trailed his fingers against your jaw.

"That we'll always be together," you pressed kisses to both of his cheeks, "and we'll get through anything. And that I will always love you."

"That's three things," he teased, a glimpse of his true self coming though.

"Joel!" You were laughing though and he loved that sound, "get the sentiment though."

"I do," he agreed gently, "I love you."

"I love you too, Joel Miller."

[greafest]

Artistic references in squid game. There were a lot of them within season 1, more subtle homages than whatnot. Here were the ones with less discussion around them that I wanted to talk about, and that I wanted to try and tie to the characters of our series.

Visual references such as René Magritte’s Empire of Light often pop up in the backdrops of Squid Game. Interestingly enough, although the paintings are often interpreted as visual illusions meant to challenge our perception, Magritte himself rejected a single fixed meaning. Some believe the paintings are meant to depict wealth inequality. Which we know as a whole represents the entirety of Squid Game, and aligns with its most prominent theme— the centering around human contradiction, especially in how it places familiar elements in unfamiliar contexts solely to evoke a sense of disorientation amongst the players. Paired with the fact that the games are created as entertainment for the uber wealthy (a whole other potential post in itself about how the games are essentially a wager on class wars)— the use of these backdrops for philosophical value are definitely intentional. It’s not just for aesthetic value or to nod at Inho’s art obsession. All of this has probably been noticed before, albeit it’s still a very nice reference to talk about.

A scene which is shown further in the season displays a crowbar with blood on the handle. It didn’t immediately strike me as an artistic expression until I watched an analysis video by yogvampowerment via tiktok (love them). It had me thinking about René Magritte’s The Survivor and how it encompasses the psychology of characters such as Gihun and Inho well. Especially in both their roles as the protagonist and antagonist. The idea of an involuntary sacrifice and its consequences, though not solely onto the victim but perpetrator as well; a role most wouldn’t immediately jump to think also has its own mental repercussions. The painting depicts a rifle with a visible bloodstain on the butt instead of the trigger, set against a seemingly domestic and peaceful background. Theres a point being made with the blood pooling around the butt- where the shooter takes aim. The elements of the painting seem meant to convey survivor’s guilt, and meant to cause the viewer to contemplate who the survivor in question is and what event they have endured. Though at the same time, the painting alludes to a reflection on the different people who are affected in times of crisis, with the goal of suggesting that survival is not always linear. Squid Game is all about survival despite human conditioning and the burden it therefore brings. Even outside the games, the real world creates its own kind of crisis— one where people are pushed into desperate choices and are forced to make desperate decisions, having to live with the bleak reality after. This is what shaped both Gihun and Inho in the first place. As we all know, Gihun becomes a changed person after the games. He ends up carrying an extreme amount of survivor’s guilt, even though he doesn’t directly kill anyone by the end of Season 1. He’s a shell of his former self, though more socially nuanced and aware which came at a cost. Inho has his own form of compartmentalization (an interesting mirror to Sangwoo). The drinking to aid his seemingly strong detachment when watching the games, his own self corruption that he wishes to pass onto Gihun in the name of nihilism, which is a belief he continually doubles down on so strongly likely because of his lingering shame over going down that path in the first place. To me, both character origins and the unexpected consequences they face as a result parallel the meaning of the painting. It also just reinforces to me the idea that Gihun and Inho were direct (and purposeful) counterparts to each other. Both of them are marked by their participation in systems of violence, even if their roles differ.

Literary odes to the book The Catcher in the Rye, another one of the many books on Inho’s desk featured in Season 1 that stood out to me. The book is about two siblings and holds a heavy emphasis on innocence and criticism of the “adult” world from the perspective of an adolescent. Holden, the adolescent mentioned, has his own loss of innocence and tries to shield that of other children from the harsh realities he was forced to face. Holden’s brother becomes a screenwriter for a theater which Holden dislikes—as he believes that his brother has prostituted himself by writing for the commercial entertainment industry. There are subtle parallels between Holden, his brother, and a certain pair of brothers within our series. More clearly, the relationship between Holden and his brother directly reminds me of Junho and Inho. Specifically how Junho potentially feels about the fact that Inho has become an “overseer” of such games. Inho is someone who (in Junho’s eyes) has sold himself to the rich and now profits from exploiting the very people he once swore to protect. The story as a whole also calls me back to the “innocence” of the games, and how there is a manufactured effort (on Inho’s part) to mix the world of finer art and philosophy with the softer life of the South Korean child. It wouldn't surprise me if Catcher in the Rye was placed on Inho's desk as a deliberate source of inspiration, perhaps reflecting his desire to find that same sense of lost innocence in himself and in others (which ties into the dynamic of 457 and Gihun— but once again, a discussion for another post). I’m hoping this speculation finds its way to Season 3 and will help in shaping some aspects of both Inhos and Gihuns final resolutions. I would love if it presents as Inho still being obsessively focused on the innocence in philosophy and morale Gihun continues to hold onto, and that causing Inho to internally falter resulting in him trying (and ultimately failing) to double down in his nihilistic ways.

[oneknightstand-if]

oooh, do the fluffy alphabet for Percy please <3

Need more content for my fave RO

Goddammit Percy, you and your long name.

P - PDA - He is, by far, the most touchy-feely of all the ROs. Even more than the incubus who feeds and uses magic through touch. Even if you're not in a romantic relationship, if you've got high affinity and aren't touch adverse, he'll be hanging off of you.

E - Equal - He's the quiet, more submissive/passive one in the relationship, particularly when it comes to sexual matters.

R - Romantic - He's a demisexual with a very high trigger point, it'll be a long while before he realizes he's attracted. One day you'll wake up to find a rose bush planted outside your window or to find random candies in your pockets or whatnot. Although a friend could get the candy thing too.

Despite how he acts, he's very perceptive, so expect to actually get the romantic gesture that you might subconsciously be wanting.

C - Comfort - Comes by with a support guinea pig (or was it a hamster?) for you like he did in that other Ask.

Y - Yearning - Everything will remind him of his absent partner. That candy bar? MC used to eat those by the pound. That lost sock? MC used to lose socks too. That dingy concrete wall? MC tried to climb one of those during a hellhound attack once.

T. - Thrill - He's naturally kind of...chaotic... in a low-key way. Although it's not as if he's purposefully seeking out thrills (unlike the Greed MC), it's just... somehow he ends up there with the way his mind thinks.

Of all the ROs, he's the one that could be convinced to try the craziest of things (including in bed, yes that includes the literal incubus too).

L - Love Confession - I... don't think he'd ever be the first one to say it or bring it up first? Just lots of acts of love and touchy-feeliness. Might be one of those ROs who needs an intervention from the group if the MC can't spit it out either or just the sort of relationship that exists without needing to be verbally confirmed?

O - On Cloud Nine - I think I just did this part in the Love Confession section. 🤣

N - Nicknames - Oh boy. Percy has an entire variable to himself just for the name he could potentially be calling the MC. Just be careful when saying things like "Well, butter my butt and call me a biscuit" because your new name will indeed be "Biscuit"

G - Gratitude - He's quite polite. If you do something for him (short-term or long-term) then he'll thank you right then & there, nothing tsun-tsun about this one.

S - Support - He's generally very supportive of his loved one's (platonic or romantic) goals and motivations, but considering we've got some Serial Killer MC's running around here... he'll try and keep them from running over the edge of the cliff.

Maybe he'll be successful this time.

P

E

A - Activities - In general, he's cool with doing whatever his partner would be interested in doing. (Uh, maybe not the side hobby for the Serial Killer MC *coughs*) He'd try to introduce his partner to some of the activities he likes on his own as well (namely wilderness wandering, animal husbandry, grassroots artsy type things and the like), but he's fine if his partner isn't interested in that either.

R

[soarelesiluna-ao3]

It's kinda baffling to me that there is NOT a Lucio Corsi tag on ao3 and I'm not quite ready to be the first one to write abt him there yet so yeah I'm gonna leave this thingy here under the cut! For all of you Olly/Lucio lovers like me, this is a bit of a sweet treat! A little untitled thing written at 4 am while listening to chill Lo-fi.

Let's make a deal - if you like it and let me know in both notes and comments, I'll post it to ao3!

Disclaimer: The night of the Sanremo final was a fast motion blur to me (Girlfriend™ and I were busy freaking out abt Achille Lauro and The Kolors not making it into the top 5) so my coverage of the events won't be as faithful as it should. Then again, it's fanFICTION. Also don't go showing this to Lucio or Olly etc etc. You know the drill if you're an avid rpf reader.

Without further ado, let's go!

Lucio felt the ringing in his ears even well after the press conferences and everything had ended. The final night of Sanremo, the curtain drop of a contest that he had always dreamt of, like every young musician does at some point of their career. The one chance to let all of Italy (and potentially, all of Europe too) know who you were, where you stood and what was your soul like.

Tomasso and him couldn't believe their eyes or ears when they saw the final scorings — a fraction of percentage separated him from the winner, the guy he had to wipe tears off and hold before he crumbled like a Jenga tower in the last move. Olly was a gentle soul, despite his intimidating height and serious yet awkward expression. He felt it in the way he spoke and the way his hand wrapped around his fragile waist to give back the hug Lucio had given him. Every single figment of that win was deserved.

"So uh, do you wanna go celebrate, Lu?" Tomasso asked, a big grin on his face.

"You can go", he chose to say, stretching his arms up. "I'll drop by and see how Fede is doing. How he's holding up and such."

"Fine then, I'll go to sleep because honestly, I am deceased", the guitarist let out a sigh. "Man, it's like my bones were spaghetti. Remind me I'm getting old, won't you?", this caused Lucio to laugh.

"I'll try, but you don't really look like an aging guy. Look at my wrinkles instead, I'm the one who should be complaining."

"Nah, don't worry man. Tell Fede I said congrats and stuff. Good night and don't come back too late."

A pat on his shoulder and Tomasso was gone. Lucio sighed and looked at the messages on his phone to scroll up and look for the room number he had been given nights before. They had met up to play some card games and whatnot, but always accompanied. It'd be the first time Lucio would actually be alone with him in the same room.

Gentle knocks on the door triggered the click of the door from the inside to let it open. A smile formed on Federico's face when he saw who it was - the half-smeared mime makeup was so recognizable. Lucio's gentle expression turned into a slight frown when he saw his red eyes. Still, he made his way into the room and took his jacket off to only remain in his mesh shirt. Luckily, the heating was pretty good.

"Something wrong, Fede?"

"Nah, Lu, I'm fine... I'm just... Overwhelmed. Everyone is congratulating me at once and the phone won't stop ringing and then everyone starts asking about Eurovision and I don't even know what I'm gonna have for breakfast tomorrow..." Federico sighed in frustration. "I kinda need a break."

"I can leave if you want to rest up", Lucio was already walking back to the doorway.

"Please, stay. Lucio, I beg you to stay because if I'm alone with my thoughts it's gonna be worse."

"Okay", the long-haired man sat down on the bed, thin arms stretched out. "Hug?"

Federico nodded and slumped right beside him to melt into his arms. Despite being much older, Lucio was so tiny compared to him. The contrast was strange but nice. And the way Lucio held him in his arms felt alright. One squeeze from those arms and all of his doubts and the mental noise were gone in one sweep. The warmth, the confort... It felt so good.

"You did great", the guitarist said, lips pressed against his ear. "You did awesome. I swear you deserve every single bit of this victory. Don't let your head trick you."

"I know... I know. I just... Wish I knew why I don't think that leaving my career on hold for a while in favor of Eurovision doesn't feel right. I mean, I'd be stupid to throw away such a chance."

"Gentle words, please", Lucio's fingers combed his hair. "You are talking to a friend of mine, after all."

"Lucio..."

"Federico."

"Come on now..."

A small smile and chuckle came out of the mime's lips, lifting Federico's head gently until they were looking at each other.

"It's not stupid if you don't feel ready. And you don't need to have your answer right now. I know it looks like a lot. But in the morning you can have a talk with your team and look it over in more detail. You are tired and overwhelmed, and you won't think as clear. "

"Right..." Federico sighed in defeat. "You always have the right words."

"Only for the right people. And you, my friend, are one of the best people I could surround myself with."

Gentle lips pressed themselves against Olly's forehead, in a protective and caring gesture. As if a single forehead kiss could work to scare all bad thoughts and anxieties away, like some sort of sponge that could be wringed out later. It somehow felt like so, though.

"Lucio... Can you stay with me until I fall asleep?"

"Anything you ask me, I will do. But do me a favor first and go take a shower. You need to relax your body and I'm sure the heat will help. I'll be waiting here."

A nod, and Federico stood up from the bed to grab a towel before going to the bathroom to get the water running. He didn't come out for at least fifteen minutes, choosing to heed Lucio's advice and not rush it. Just let the heat relax his tense muscles and reset everything. When he went out of the room, he quickly got changed into his pajamas, a black and gray outfit with pants and a long sleeved shirt. Lucio had taken the liberty to open the sheets and lay on the other side of the bed.

"Feeling a bit better?" He asked as Federico sat down and then laid on the bed. A small frown appeared on his lips as he got up and picked a towel up. "Make sure your hair is fully dry..."

"It's okay, I mean, the room is warm."

"Just let me make sure as well", another gentle touch when those hands grabbed the towel and dried his slightly damp hair, before putting the towel away. When Federico laid on the bed, Lucio turned the lamplight off.

"Man... I like your hugs", the younger man said, which was like asking for another hug indirectly. Lucio got the hint quickly and wrapped his thin arms around his body again.

"And I like yours too. I liked how your hands felt around my waist."

"Like so?" Fede cupped Lucio's waist again, which earned him a small nod.

"You are a gentle soul as well. You just haven't realized it yet. Everyone has gentleness and kindness inside them. But some people are quick to forget..."

"You aren't one of them. I'm grateful for you being here."

"I'll always be."

A small moment of silence passed before Federico talked again. The hesitation was evident on his voice, like if he had been thinking about this question for a long while but was still unsure about the idea.

"Lucio... You'd do anything for me, right?"

"As long as it's legal."

"... If I asked for a kiss..."

Silence took over the room for a while. Federico was already regretting asking the question and was ready to get an apology out, but the feeling of soft lips against his own cut down all his thoughts at once. It was not a long kiss, just a couple of seconds at most, but it was enough to make things right.

"There. Take it as a goodnight kiss."

"We are still friends, right?"

"Oh Fede... That's a silly question. Of course we still are. Friends can also kiss, you know. It's just a gesture of affection. To me, at least."

"... Goodnight, Lucio. Thank you."

"Rest well, champion."

It didn't take much longer for Federico to fall asleep, since it had been a long day full of emotions. So just some moments after that interaction had happened, Lucio carefully got up, pulled the sheets a bit more over Federico's body and walked out of the room as silently as possible to go back to his own.

Being a tough guy was definitely overrated.

Gentleness was what kept the world moving.

And these moments let it show.

[slaaverin]

Literally every y/n thirsting after Jungkook

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DIL0-nORdDd/?igsh=Yno5OGdua2NvNjAy

😂

It's not just Jungkook, it's the same for every celebrity

I'm not here to judge people having little fantasies, they are harmless, and thirsting is fine

But when it goes too far, when people take it too seriously to the point of becoming delusional and toxic I'm drawing the line

When the y/n fantasy makes them project disrespecting things on the member, completely twist who they are to fit what they wished they were instead, these people need to seriously look at their lives and how to heal their pathological need to fill the gaping void inside themselves. Because that is not normal.

Any people in their right mind would know that any fans do not stand any chance to have anything with any member. This is common sense.

Even the pretty ones.

If they wanna thirst in a corner so be it, as long as it doesn't become some kind of crusade to convince people and spread false narratives about a member. Or become some weird stalkerish behaviour.

Tkkers are the same. Their own fantasy is creating an gigantic amount of chaos.

It all comes down to desire

Crimes of passion are real and some people can go as far as kill for that reason

I'm gonna quote Socrates here:

From the deepest desires often come the deadliest hate

So I'm not actually surprised of the state of this fandom

It is what it is I guess, it probably won't change

Many women are deeply traumatized, insecure, without any love or affection, so they seek to feel something, anything, through a celebrity, and idealized person that would potentially provide everything they lack.

They will not find what they are looking for by doing this

Their ego is trying to put a tiny bandaid over a bleeding wound.

Sadly it can become co-dependant. They are so attached to what the member does or says, that anything can trigger outbursts or hate or the will to manipulate things so they remain in control.

I swear if they could give love to themselves this issue would not even arise. If their heart was healed and that they were whole again it wouldn't even cross their minds because they would feel good about themselves, no matter the physical appearance and whatnot

It's the same for poor women who get scammed by people who pretend to be celebrities

Suddenly they feel so very important, getting the love they crave that they fall into the trap easily

If people had confidence, self-esteem and self-love (again no matter the appearance) that would not be happening

So really, when I see those y/n, it makes me feel almost sad.

But there are also the other side of the coin, the ones who think themselves so high and mighty, with an ego of the size of Jupiter, that for them of course they deserve the members.

But lack of self-esteem and overcompensating with a big ego often comes as a pair, it's a masking technique

Look, I only wish that those people can someday find what they are looking for inside them & grow. And maybe find a relationship in real life too.

We could do a collective little prayer, sending them love and healing 🙏

That's what I'll do anyway

[somewhatidealname]

heyo! i hope you're doing fine.

i know your springtrap has no memory/recollection at all, nor does he know that he was/is a person- BUT - could there be a potential trigger to make him remember something? nothing big or revealing of his past and/or self! i imagined just minor things like maybe a song from his childhood, or the music that was playing at the opening day of fredbear's making him remember something- like the pattern of the carpet or his favorite childhood toy. It's like the remains of his soul call out to him (unintentionally?) - desperately wanting to clutch on on whatever familiarity is left to not rot with agony like the rest of him/his soul. He is a husk carrying remains after all! - Some physical, some deeply buried inside of him somewhere.

yeah he can catch faint glimpses of recognition! i brought up the thought of him suddenly recognizing other animatronics' machinery as something familiar in another post. i don't think he'd be able to recall something as far back as childhood memories, but with consistent memories in his old life (things he would routinely see most often, like faces or settings and whatnot) it can spark some kind of feeling within him. the animatronic programming could also remember things like songs or commands too, or maybe even other animatronic characters. that'd probably only apply to fredbear, i don't know for sure

[exo-raskreia]

you'll probably won't see this message but i'll send it anyway lol.. i love you speak your mind about how the ichihime ship isn't that great and has all the facts to bring it show that you're right. i always felt scared to say i don't ship ichihime cuz they're are alot of shippers that can get so intense about it. i always say that ichihime is a cute ship and they have their moments(i don't feel that way at all lol) cuz i don't want to be attacked for not liking how their story played out. twitter is a scary place oml💀 and they made me sorta believe that ichiruki doesn't have any chemistry and they're just siblings when i knew in my heart like yes they do have chemistry and are the superior ship. like ichigo cares more for chad and uryuu then orihime. but since their canon, i guess their love for each other is supposed to be legit. apparently ichigo sees his mother in orihime so i don't understand why that's not a turn-off for the shippers😭so yeah thanks for making me go back in my bleach fangirl era and making my 10-year old self to not feel guilty and stupid shipping ichiruki

Wow, thanks so much, anon! And ur welcome! I will forever be on IchiRuki's side no matter what anyone says 😤.

You don't have to be scared to support what was, and still is, the most popular ship in Bleach (and rightfully so). There was no real ship war during its run (despite what the antis try to claim now), as IR was shipped by most of the fanbase. IR had everything you could hope a M/F ship to have in a battle shounen, the most solid basis for becoming canon with just one more step...and yet... (Kubo fumbled 🙄). The theories on that are interesting...

While more than half the IR fandom is no longer active after that disastrous ending, it doesn't mean they're not still out there. I've seen even non-shippers still praise IR & see it as wasted potential & whatnot (triggering antis in the process 🤭). Not being canon doesn't take away from the fact that it is still the superior ship. Anyone with reading comprehension who reads the manga will see it & wonder why they didn't end up together.

IH was never popular in Japan. It was always far below IchiRuki & UlquiHime (Ori's most popular ship 👀. Kubo achieved in ONE arc what he couldn't achieve for IH the entire manga, like-). To this day, those 2 ships get more content than the canon ships 😌.

The antis are just triggered that despite becoming canon, their ship is still. not. popular. IH doesn't have nearly as much content (both canon AND fanon) as IR & UH despite being canon for almost 10 years. Yes, Kubo himself doesn't care enough to give them even one family sketch 🫢.

Compare that to the Naruto endgame ships (mainly NaruHina & SasuSaku), which have way more official AND fan content. Those were always popular, & still are, 10 years later since becoming canon. Pro-Bleach ED fans love to compare their ships with Naruto's yet are nowhere near as popular.

The IH's really thought they would get the NaruHina royal treatment after the ending (you know, like a movie, official drawings from the creator, interviews saying they were meant to be, merch, etc.), but instead only got a novel that wasn't even focused on them (Ren/Ruki is more popular than IH but mainly because of Rukia 🤣), which vaguely went over their so-called "development" & had chicken scratches a rough draft of a sketch for their ship 🫢. Kubo also said in an interview that IH tried dating in college once but then broke up, later getting back together at some point. Super vague. And mind you, all this happened AFTER Rukia's wedding 🫢👀. So, we can only guess what was going through Ichigo's mind- Doesn't sound like Ichigo was all that interested, huh? Yet the IH's claim he was madly in love with her & "came back to life for her" & whatnot. Almost 10 years later & Kubo still can't be clear on when Ichigo supposedly started to "fall" for Ori despite being his "intended" endgame 💀.

The WDKALY novel has such OOC content on there, like it can't be taken seriously. Apparently, Kubo barely had any involvement with it anyway? Those sketches he drew sure are telling, esp if he calls his drawings here as a "rough draft" 💀

"Chicken scratches" for the canon ships, fr 😭.

RR is another dumpster fire but also more meh for me so I don't have to delve into that one, however, here's a post I once made where I go over why I don't truly believe Renji had feelings for Rukia. Meanwhile, Rukia's sad expression on the novel cover & the sketch of heading to the altar with a scared expression (not even when she was headed to her own execution did she look like THAT) say it all anyway 🫢.

Oh, man, there's just so much to make fun of for the canon ships. Even when we lose, we still win. IH's have no content, so maybe that's why they're so bitter & IR & its shippers still live in their minds rent-free despite them calling it a "dead ship". You would think they'd happily enjoy their canon ship & yet... They get triggered whenever IR fanart garners thousands of likes on Twitter 😩...

So, anon, I suggest not to engage with antis, esp on platforms like Twitter & Reddit. They're cesspools full of dudebros & loud IH's. Ignore, block, &/or mute them. No need to try arguing with them & please do NOT cater to them. Do NOT give them the validation they don't even get from Kubo himself, nor his affiliates (LMFAO). Use that energy to look for other fellow IR's & enjoy IR content (and maybe anti-IH content in the right places; you can explore that tag on my blog if u wish 🤪).

As an old saying in this fandom went, "Keep Calm & Ship IchiRuki."

[anonymousacres]

Hi! I'm vee, and...I guess I'm doing one of these pinned posts about the fic writer things???

You might've seen me recently in the flower husbands, (mum)scarian, or other various ship tag recently! As I am under anonymous, I'm putting all my series here with a small description to check out :D

deck of cards: a Life Series inspired collection of related fics with an unnecessary amount of world-building, angst, drama, and polyamory just for the fun of it! Set in a modern magical universe. "hurt/comfort life casino poker mafia hybrid au" as put by deityoftherain lmao

Rated M, mind tags per fic. Deals with potentially triggering themes. Ships include: rendoctyn, eventual flower court (and all pairings within that), jizzie, and mumscarian.

mc fics by vee!!: a collection of my fics involving various hermit and empires characters. unconnected works unless otherwise stated within the work itself <3 happy endings are staples here.

Ranges from G to E. Mind tags and rating, thanks. Themes depend on the fic. Ships include: scarian, mumscarian, flower husbands, flower court (and all implied pairings), jizzie and jizztho, gempearleo, mythicalswamp...basically any ship that strikes my fancy.

Limited Life (Flower Court): essentially a small collection of rewritten limited life smp with flower court's povs. Complete.

Series rated E, 1/4 fics rated T, the rest E. Life-series-typical themes, as in violence and whatnot, but happy endings abound. Ships include: martyn/scott/jimmy/tango, and background polyhermits for spice.

So far, that's it. Thanks for checking this out I guess??? I still don't know what I'm doing here, but yeah. Enjoy :D

[tithe2hell]

(posting here to link bc broke fhe Neospring character limit)

I'm sorry you're so stressed! It's tough when it's a topic that is important to you personally, but also one people can be very cruel about. Some suggestions that have helped me. It's kind of long so I divided this into a few sections, one on Social, one on Education, and a section about Health and other final thoughts. 

Social Stuff

-Being a part of communities (online but also irl if you're able) of people who are levelheaded about this topic, and who are understanding and encouraging. This can just be you and a couple friends, or more "dead dove" etc specific communities. When you get to know other people who are non-judgemental and actively excited about the same things you are, it gives you a more solid foundation for yourself.  It's great in case you need to vent or discuss such things privately, but on the positive side you can see for yourself proof that other human beings can be a part of such communities and such art, and are not the evil abstracted monsters people fearmonger about.

- on the flip side, actively avoid communities, users, groups that do the opposite, who moralize and who spend more time expressing disgust than doing tangible things. 

- Block radfems, trad-types, and anyone who starts saying shit like "porn addiction."  Block a lot in general. Block people you agree with but find their posting style annoying, especially popular accounts who discourse a lot or tend to start shit/qrt a lot, even if they are on your "side." If you don't, it's more likely for inflammatory posts to pop up on your feed and trigger spiraling. 

 It may seem that someone is Serious and Knowledgeable because they speak seriously about a topic, and maybe they are! But also a lot of us (including myself) are talking off the cuff at times, and are also fallible. It's not good to *just* rely on Posters if you want to get a more rounded view of the world, which leads us to .....

Educational Stuff

- Learning your art history! Transgressive art has an important place in human sexuality since the dawn of time. It's mixed up with both liberating movements as well as regressive ones, but when you learn about past artists and pornographers and authors etc, you get a much more rounded view of the possibilities of art, how it can have potential to influence and harm but also can be incredible tools of freedom and expressiveness. It's a great way to get out of the limited paradigm of "Anti vs Proship" and get exposed to more possibilities and discussions that have been going on for ages. Also, when you have a deeper understanding of human sexuality and artistic and literary history it's harder for bad faith anti types of kneejerk reactions to get under your skin. They shall be like chaff in the wind to you, so to speak. I recommend some off the cuff things in this link, but even things like Nancy Friday's Secret Garden and other older works

- To add to that, learning more about BDSM/Kink in general. I'm not a part of that community, but even if u casually follow people w/ more knowledge about it you see the wide variety of sexuality and expression that exists, especially when it comes to taboo fantasies and such.

Further thoughts, and more on Health

These tactics help me personally, because I'm someone who tends to feel more secure and grounded by Knowing More Information about a topic. 

However, if any of this is too overwhelming or maybe causes more anxiety, it's ok to take a step back. The most important thing is knowing yourself. I'm sure there's probably some good practices like meditation and whatnot that might help.  I believe it's also good to look into moral scrupulosity OCD and ppls experiences since fandom/online moralizing environment tends to trigger that in people a lot.  I'm not an expert so can't give informed advice about specifics, but this is what comes to mind whenever people ask me about this. 

Wishing you the best anon, and also if you'd ever like to come off anon to chat or for clarification Abt anything (since a lot of this is, indeed, off the cuff) I wouldn't mind at all. 

[thewinter-eden]

I would love to educate more on EDS! There are multiple types of it, and it does depend person to person for severity and some other symptom aspects but the general idea is that it is a connective tissue disorder, generally characterized by hypermobile joints and easily bruised skin. Hypermobile joints can look like being double jointed (in the beginning or something) but it is actually the joints not having the support to prevent them from moving in ways they shouldn’t which causes sublexuations (joints moving out of place but not completely out of the socket) and dislocations (completely out of place). Almost everyone with EDS has chronic pain, which can be wide-spread or located just in their joints. A lot of people with EDS will also have POTS (high comorbidity rate). Mobility aids can be helpful but they must be used correctly as improper use can cause further damage. There’s no cure, and the only real treatment is doing physiotherapy with someone specifically trained in hypermobile conditions for a bit, stopping to recover for a bit, then repeating, as well as personal treatments (wearing braces or supports, heating or cooling packs, etc).

Personally, I have hypermobile EDS and POTS. I am always in pain, and do not remember what it is like to not be in pain or move without something cracking or hurting and I’m only 25. I use a cane occasionally, since my knees, especially my left one,are the most painful and prone to damage. Plus, canes help center my gravity and support me so I don’t get too dizzy. I personally cannot do normal stretches or workouts without adaptions or else I will dislocate or hurt myself. I have a very high pain tolerance and can relocate almost all my subluxations and dislocations by myself, but there are some days where even holding a pencil or typing can be painful or cause dislocations. My pain is generally widespread since my muscles get pulled and whatnot with the joints, but the pain really concentrates around my joints. At least 25% of my brain/thoughts is always focused on my pain, and that’s on a good day, so it can be hard to focus on other stuff or make thoughts or communicate sometimes (though I’m still smart and getting my master’s 🤭). It sometimes feels like I am racing to get enough done in my life so when my body gives out on me and I have to go on disability, I won’t feel like I wasted my time. I have been bullied or told my joints look disgusting before, especially when my knee or elbow dislocated and I wasn’t covering them. Someone even gaged and told me I should come with a trigger warning 🤪. Icy hot, compression gear, braces, ibuprofen, using my mobility aids when I need to (even when people are rude about it), and resting are how I personally deal with EDS!

Important to note for my fellow disabled people or anyone who read all that and got potentially sad or triggered: a disabled life is still one worth living. Yes, I am in pain. Yes, I will be in pain for the rest of my life. Yes, I most likely will never achieve some dreams because of physical limitations. But I still have so many hobbies, friends, loved ones, experiences, and happy moments. And if someone hates you or disparages you for your disability or accommodations, then they can fuck right off 💜

Also: you definitely don’t have to write more for this! I just thought it would be interesting to touch on for those specific members and fit with the theme of the insecurities series. Just because I requested it or brought it to your attention doesn’t mean you need to do anything with it! I would enjoy anything you write, and my request or your search for knowledge does not equal a contract/requirement for you to write anything. We are all just trying to find joy and happiness and chase that serotonin/dopamine, and if this doesn’t do that for you, than ignore it! This is your blog, your beautiful writing that you are sharing for free, never feel pressured to write anything for anyone for any reason 💜

Highlighting this part of your response because I endorse this message religiously <3 :

"Important to note for my fellow disabled people or anyone who read all that and got potentially sad or triggered: a disabled life is still one worth living. Yes, I am in pain. Yes, I will be in pain for the rest of my life. Yes, I most likely will never achieve some dreams because of physical limitations. But I still have so many hobbies, friends, loved ones, experiences, and happy moments. And if someone hates you or disparages you for your disability or accommodations, then they can fuck right off 💜"

Okay I was SO excited when I saw that you wanted to give me some information on this, because I was so worried that I went a little rabid with your initial request.

FIRST - god you are so kind and I love you for being so careful there with your message at the end (but it's totally unnecessary babes, because I would be more than happy to include some of these experiences. I literally use my own experiences in my writing JUST to self-soothe with these guys (see Hyunjin's Crack!Horror, Lee Know's C!H, AND Seungmin's C!H lol), and if I can help anyone else feel just as seen and loved as I am trying to feel, then I am EXCITED to give it a shot)

IF ANYBODY DOES NOT WANT ANY FURTHER SPOILERS ON FUTURE INSECURITY TEXTS DO NOT READ BELOW THE CUT

NOW - PLEASE tell me if ANY part of this list is inaccurate or not significant to the lifestyle - this list is specifically written to get your approval, if you don't mind :) :)

SPOILER ALERT - this request works the best with my plans for Hyunjin's Insecurity texts, if you're happy with that! It won't be the only focal point of the conflict but it will go hand-in-hand very well I think. So for mentions/scenes/topics of conversation within the story, I'm thinking --

mentions of canes (and are wheelchairs a common mobility tool?),

canceling occasional social plans/scheduling social plans due to chronic pain,

feeling insecure about not being able to move recklessly,

feeling insecure about friends/distant family making insensitive comments about reader's joints

feeling frustrated about physical therapy sessions that might end up just leading to feeling more pain(?)

asking to be excused from conversations/events so reader can try to relax in some compression gear due to severe joint pain just wearing on her(?)

feeling distracted during conversations because the pain is severe

plus maybe a more impactful scene where something happens and reader is injured with a dislocation (and I'm assuming that would be INTENSE pain but also "it's happened before" kinda deal?)

maybe one of the concerns of the people around her is that she's a fall risk?

Feel free to add/subtract anything that you feel would make this representation feel more true <3

[hoorayiread]

Unwind, A Book Review

No one ever talks about stem cells anymore. Man, when I was in middle school, ethical debates on them were all the rage. People were fear mongering about people selling their aborted fetuses and whatnot. Stem cells are still around. No one cares anymore.

Coincidentally, that was circa 2007, which is when this book was first published (I'll spare you the math. I'm pushing 30 and still reading YA books). Unwind, by Neal Shusterman, takes place in a world where abortion is illegal, but as a consolation prize you can kill teenagers. Because 13 is the year children stop being cute little obedient angels. They get acne and opinions and its all downhill from there.

Well, according to this story's government, its not "killing," its "unwinding." You send your rotten little offspring to a harvest camp and they get chopped up into little bits so their organs can be sent off to transplant units. All very ethical. But our main characters, Connor and Risa aren't too terribly excited about getting cut up and make a break for it. And also Lev is there. Lev's weird.

So you might notice I'm back to reading some pretty dark and disturbing books again. This one was quite good, and I'm adding the sequel to my to read list. As it is a book for teenagers, this novel doesn't feel like it gets too dark, but it also doesn't shy away from its subject matter. This is especially true of the notorious chapter 61.

Apparently, some people had this as assigned reading in school, which feels like a very strange choice to me. For starters, it talks heavily about abortion and the anti-choice crowd do not come out looking like the good guys. I feel like this would lead to some very angry parents. Furthermore, one of the characters is nearly sexually assaulted, which could potentially be very triggering.

I also must commend the saterical take Unwind makes on the abortion debate. Even 14 years later, it still feels incredibly fresh. A little too fresh, actually...

[animehouse-moe]

Bucchigiri!? Episode 1: Merge?! Fall in Love with Fortune Bang Bang Chicken!

An anime about a high school kid taking in a Majin so that he can lose his virginity? Created by the same person that made Sk8 The Infinity? Say no more and sign me up because this first episode was an absolute riot! Though, there do exist a few caveats.

And the biggest of those is that this is a Mappa production. If it was Bones I'd feel far more at ease, but Sk8 The Infinity is taking those resources so the production landed elsewhere. I'm hopeful, and will try to remain so throughout this series, that Mappa will keep things together, but even though the episode looked and felt really good, the staff lists are a bit concerning.

This image is all directors for the episode. The left shows a rare animation layout director credit, but the rest comprise all the animation directors, a total of 17 of them.

Thankfully, they key animator credits are much more reasonable, so I don't have near the same concerns as some of the JJK episodes, but the ADs are definitely keeping me on edge.

But I really don't want to talk about the negatives with how deeply enjoyable this first episode was, I want to talk about the good stuff!

Like the combination of longtime Trigger associated color designer Kakita Yukiko getting on like a house on fire with art director Suzuki Kurumi. The pair give the world of Bucchigiri!? an incredibly strong and appealing identity right out of the gates that emphasizes the disarray and disrepair of the town that our main character Arajin returns to.

Similarly, character designer Kagami Takahiro brings some incredible personality out in great detail, but also has been able to help draw out the best of the humor in their designs. They're impressively flexible, able to melt from their more detailed originals into very expressive vehicles for the series comedy.

I know I really should say something about Utsumi's boards in this episode, but being an introduction to the content, and being so focused on comedy I don't really have much to say. Utsumi does a great job of creating boards that allow the episode to express itself. She doesn't guide the viewer or inject value of her own into the expression of each scene, and while that can be disappointing in some cases, it's really what something as intensely creative as Bucchigiri!? needs to set the stage, to provide a tone that viewers can internalize.

Though it's also important to realize that this is Utsumi's world in the first place, so she deserves credit for the confidence of really messing with it. Changing color schemes, mixing around character designs and motion, even the art style itself is putty in her hands. Every aspect remains fluid and malleable under her supervision, and it means that Bucchigiri!? is left with near limitless potential.

But of course potential means nothing without a purpose, and while Arajin's stated purpose is to lose his virginity, it's obviously more than that going on.

Namely, this stretch of the series seems ready to focus on Aarajin and Matakara's long lost relationship.

The idea of moving on and improving as a person is very much the core idea between the two of them, but those ideas are expressed very differently.

Where Arajin is all about the easy way out and luck and whatnot, Matakara's immediately expressed as being someone who's put in the time and effort to shape himself into who he believes the old Arajin would be proud of. It's a great dynamic that expresses much deeper character motivations between the two, and promises a wonderful and emotional buildup and breakdown as friends. I really can't wait to see how Utsumi approaches their relationship.

And then there's the action. I'm actually surprised it took me this far to talk about it, but it's promising to be deeply enjoyable. Equal parts excessive and accurate, much like every other aspect of Bucchigiri!?, Utsumi is promising a very subjective and expressive approach to it, as is evident with this sequence ending the episode.

It's the perfect explanation for what drives this series, really. Heavy and gritty, it dives into Arajin's character, providing a solid foundation to build out from in all sorts of shapes and forms. Taking humor in stride, it brings a powerful and promising end to the episode that we'll no doubt be further built upon as we continue deeper into Arajin's story.

So yeah, Mappa might be showing signs of a struggle with things like nearly 20 animation directors, but more than I have faith in them, I have faith in the fact that Utsumi will refuse Mappa the ability to disappoint with Buchigiri!?.

So of course I'm going to be looking forward to the next episode!

[bennythespaceman1984]

Introduction :

Greetings !!! This is a Benny rp side blog!!!

Please do not feel intimidated or afraid to interact!!! I think i kinda revived the TLM rp blogs?!? AKA, I've been here from the very beginning!!! Absolutely friendly to any and all interaction!

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Regarding rp itself:

Hi! So, Benny is actually one of our alters, as we're pretty sure we're a system. He's the host, actually! So, since he's around the most this blog just so happens to be our most active one. We do NOT rp as our alter. Just know, OOC, I'm still Benny! I've just got a completely different canon and stuff. I roleplay my character based on myself, but it's NOT me.

Anyway, this blog is basically just for "canon" Benny. He works with Metalbeard in an auto repair shop right now, but he's usually taking off.. He has issues with depression and chronic pain, and he still has a prosthetic arm from the events of tlm2. Still a fun and energetic guy, though! He hardly sleeps because he's up all the time working on inventions or projects! (That, and he has insomnia..) Here's a list of headcanons and extra info.

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