#questioning everything

[beuatifulbuttercup]

bistro huddy (an internet series where all the characters are played by one man) has more fanfics on ao3 than raid shadow legends (a game that has been advertised everywhere and anywhere)

[tanked-up]

Not to subtle….

[slvtgvts]

That fact that all 3 guys I’ve slept with since I’ve been separated actually held me after and my husband would just get up and go about his own way.

[randomslinky-is-jailed]

have they left us again?

[gej69]

so gay to be straight, like what’s straight? your 🐓??

[squarebracketsmileyface]

I miss my girlfriend who I only just found out I apparently have

[zencurious]

concurrently —

17 years I was never in love

14 years ago a new connection, now tenuous at best

13 years unsuccessfully growing a kind of legacy

4 years studying, 11 years failed mastery

9 years building a failing empire

8 years since the loss of my best mate

7 years of ineffective therapy

5 years, adopted and abandoned a religion

4 years trying to accept that I am alone

4 years practicing a type of self-connection, unsuccessfully

4 lovers in ten years, depending on how I allocate the timing

3 years attempting to heal mysterious symptoms …

This year all cycles converge, fall apart

A hard reset feeling like an emptiness:

no core that keeps me sustained, united

no foundation that keeps me grounded, connected.

12 distorted cycles lived concurrently.

Though I prefer words,

odd that I stubbornly insist on using numbers to rationalize this life

Zeroes and ones, devoid of meaning and sentiment,

A apt mirror reflecting this current state of reset at -1

Year 0. Now what?…

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Day 14. June Series

[nirambles]

i nearly actually ran out of patience today. you have no idea how much it takes to get me to that point. but trying and failing to detangle several balls of wool while still helping 13 loud kids finish their textile artwork will do it

[spalanai]

tired of trying to be a girlboss. im a boyloser. guyfailure. dudenobody. maledisappointment.

[ubiquitouslyme]

Game On - Chapter 3

Game On - Chapter 3 - Ubiquitously_Ubiquitous - The Empyrean - Rebecca Yarros [Archive of Our Own]

Chapter Summary:

Bodhi gives Liam space to sort through his feelings. When Bodhi and Liam finally meet up again, Liam has SO many questions (and lots of feelings). Bodhi and Liam have quite the heart to heart, and everyone is happy.

We also get a plot (sort of).

That's definitely how this goes...

Excerpt:

“I need you to be sure, Liam.  Because what I feel about you,” Bodhi stopped, taking a deep breath.  He knew he needed to say this, but being this vulnerable, even with Liam, was difficult.  “What I feel about you isn’t casual.  So if we do this, I need you to know, this isn’t just some fling to me.  This is it for me.  So if that’s too much for you, or you’re not interested, or you’re not there yet, I get it, I do.  I told you, I don’t care if you need time to work shit out.”

Chapters:

Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3

[retrowitchinghour]

Why did I choose this degree again?

[venoumousbunni]

Had a haunting thought just now…and it’s lowkey fucking with me

Do I actually like him cause I think he’s cute, or do is it cause I’m looking for a relationship safety net and society taught me that I need a big strong man for relationship security

[gwens-love]

Okay but why can I count the fanfics about this stunning woman on only ONE of my hands…. (I don’t even need two) well excluding Mirandy stories of course. It just feels like a big mistake or did I miss something?

[that-ineffable-devil]

OK I have no real basis for this and want to come back to examine it with a less sleep-deprived brain, but like...

What if the Metatron is jealous of Crowley--not because of Aziraphale, but because of God. The Metatron is supposed to be the angel closest to God, the direct line, right? But Lucifer was God's favorite, Their most beautiful and brilliant child. Literally named Lightbringer and Morning Star.

And if we're right about Crowley being Lucifer...

What if that crotchety old scribe Metatron has been jealous since the beginning? Not only that, what if Lucifer's questions and ideas were welcomed by God? What if his thoughts always overshadowed the Metatron's?

What if the Metatron decided he needed to get Lucifer out of heaven? That he needed to install a himbo Gabriel as supreme arch angel--a stool pigeon easy to manipulate and sway? What if the Metatron encouraged Lucifer's less tolerated behaviors, manipulated events to cast him in an ever diminishing light, pulling the strings of heaven to ensure Lucifer would take the final bait?

What if that's how he knew how Crowley would react to Aziraphale's proposal? Maybe even worse--what if that somehow also informed him how Aziraphale would react to Crowley?

[thebusylilbee]

sweating heavily bc I had my first meeting to prepare for my new high responsability job next week *sweats* *sweats* *sweats*