#scared of everything

[hariru]

"getting what you wanted is lowkey scary" wtf are u guys talking about

[hollyzstar]

me going anywhere..

[beautifullikeblood]

"My asks are open" "Always open to meet new people"

Would love to do that, unfortunately, my social anxiety is holding my hostage right now .

[necngravestcnes]

Temperature is dropping, temperature is dropping // I'm not sure if I can see this ever stopping // Shaking hands with the dark parts of my thoughts, no!!!!!!!!

Tyler you’re sneaky sneaky!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[peculiardragon22]

Questions (TW)

how do I fix it?

how do I apologize?

how do I mend it?

why did I do this?

what happened to me?

why?

what went wrong?

was it her?

was it me?

was it time?

was it breaking up?

was it lost memories?

why'd I stop?

why'd she stop?

did she forget?

yes?

was it new experiences?

was it emotions?

is it normal?

am I normal?

why not?

why do they do that?

why do I not talk?

why don't I speak up?

why don't I reach back?

why don't I care?

why did I end it?

why do I end it?

why don't I text back?

why don't I have hope?

why don't I have emotion?

what's wrong?

me?

is it just my mind?

was it made wrong?

did I come into this world wrong?

what did I do?

why don't I try?

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Because it hurts.

it hurts too much.

bringing back that pain would be too much.

so I push it away, hoping that will solve my problems.

It doesn't.

so why do I keep doing it?

why don't I reach out?

when they reach out to me..

why don't I stop running away?

because I'm scared of the uncertain.

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honestly, I don't know what to do anymore.

how do I fix my life?

-someone you used to know

[butnotbubblegum]

want to stop feeling scared

[sillyballooncherryblossom]

i like frogs and ferrets but im scared of all animals ever

[mentallyillswiftie]

here's another silly stupid poem i wrote. thank you for reading

even if i killed you, i'd still be scared

not a man, not a man, not a real man anywhere

i put my trust into someone who couldn't hurt me

what a fool, what a fool blind hope can be

a rise of faith fallen down like a tree

how cruel, how cruel and so cowardly

hit after hit, i asked god for a break

i looked up to find a masterpiece i later found was fake

it's endless, endless this cycle of terror

'cause there's not a man, not a man, not a real man anywhere

the first person you trust after your tragic mess

will be the first thing you will regret

and i'm wrong, i'm wrong, i'm as wrong as can be

but you still found a way, found a way, found a goddamn way to utterly ruin me

i tried to be hopeful, i tried to exclude

statistically it couldn't be all of you

but i've searched corners and given strangers chances

and they took all i had and crushed it in their hands

so even if i killed you, i'd still be scared

not a man, not a man, not a real man anywhere

i put my trust into someone who couldn't hurt me

what a fool, what a fool blind hope can be

a rise of faith fallen down like a tree

how cruel, how cruel and so cowardly

hit after hit, i asked you for a break

but a sick smile grew on your face

i know it's endless, endless this cycle of terror

'cause there's not a man, not a man, not a real man anywhere

[soapbbox]

Tenna watch out for the thirst comments

[poprocklyrics]

I know it's kind of vague I don't know how else to say it What am I supposed to do When there's not one thing that doesn't make me anxious

scared of everything, Zeph

[gl0ryandg0ree]

I just realized that this year I’ll turn 18 and honestly I’m not ready to become an adult. Lorde was right, “it feels so scary getting old”

[valerius-the-lavish]

"When I see a pretty person walking down the street, I think two things. One part wants me to talk to them, be real nice and sweet and treat them right."

"And what did the other part think?"

"I remeber I can't talk to pretty people. I just want to draw them."

[enidtendo64]

More Stowaway AU

Pacifica dynamics with each Grunkle. Happy late Father’s Day and birthday to the grunks!

[poisoninmyblueberrymuffin]

Tw: s3x talk, yapping also knows as venting

Half a year ago (or more at this point I don’t remember)

I ended an almost 5 year long relationship with A

I didn’t like him, no idea how we lasted this long

He was lazy nonchalant and seemingly had some kind of feed3r fetish

I despised him

We stopped being intimate after he left for vacation with his cousin

No idea what happened

Did he cheat and feel guilty?

Did he stop finding me attractive?

Something else?

No idea

When I say we stopped being intimate I mean we stopped having s3x, everything else was fine

So we spent about 2 and a half years without being intimate in THAT way

Now it’s been over 3 years since my last time having s3x

2 or so since I’ve done anything intimate with anyone

And I am now terrified of it, like I genuinely don’t remember the feeling… and that scares me

I’m embarrassed of my inexperience, it’s worse than being a virgin, bc I’m expected to know what the ffff is going on

I also am not a fan of hook-ups, one night stands etc

Anything outside of a relationship

But it feels like nowadays ppl fuck first to determine if they even wanna date someone

That won’t work for me though

And I’m just a loser tbh

[leitmotif]

anyone else scared or is it just me

[ghostboyravenight]

I’m not gonna lie, the whole “what if a big, hairy trans man started using the women’s bathroom? what are TERFs gonna do then?” thing kinda pisses me off being used as some checkmate, because it insinuates that passing trans men would have any kind of power in that situation. If a passing trans man is forced to use the women’s bathroom, you know what will happen? Security will be called on him, he’ll be thrown out, and he’ll be forced to out himself as trans in order to avoid punishment, which will put an even bigger target on his back. He’s still going to be harassed. He’s still going to be forced into an uncomfortable and potentially dangerous situation, and he probably won’t avoid punishment anyway because the current laws in place are never going to favour any trans person’s defence over a cis person’s.

It also completely ignores trans men who aren’t “big and hairy” and don’t pass enough to be mistaken for a cis man. Non-passing trans men (or even men who look or sound effeminate enough to be suspected) who are forced to use the women’s bathrooms are still at a huge risk of harassment or even violence, especially young trans boys who are forced into their assigned bathrooms at school. Nex Benedict was literally murdered in a girl’s bathroom. Girls and women aren’t these inherently non-violent, peaceful and submissive beings (for one thing, that’s misogynistic). Trans men and boys get beaten up by them too, because most of us pre-T aren’t considered a threat, and we fucking die.

That’s not even to mention the trouble we already have in men’s bathrooms, because if we don’t pass, cis men will interrogate us on whether or not we’re “real men” and then sexually assault us if they discover we’re trans. Corrective rapes that trans men face is not something to be ignored, and I have trans male friends that it’s happened to who are lucky to be alive right now.

Bathroom laws will affect us just as much. The violence that trans women face is something that trans men can also relate to, and both need to be talked about without people categorising all trans men as “big, hairy, strong men able to beat up anyone who tries to threaten them” when that’s not the case like 90% of the time. Acting like passing trans men are just there to make TERFs look stupid, when TERFs are the ones who are violent towards us no matter how much we pass, is just diminishing our experiences.