#so i thought thatd be a fun point to put in there :>

[nidbaesenpai]

Dare you say this love could just save you

[oh-no-its-bird]

For the Uchiha Houhua AU, how does he survive the massacre? I'm guessing either he uses his poison skills to fake his death or he does the 'actually I was a prodigy all along' thing in front of Itachi. Itachi spends the next several years being driven a little insane by finding this out about his old friend.

Also does Houhua incarnate as a baby? Because if so he was probably old enough to babysat by Obito. I feel like you could do something interesting with that.

On that note his relationship with kakashi. Like that's his little brother figures sensei, and he was a shizun in his last life, he knows what it is to be a good teacher and kakashi in the early series is not that. If he also knew Obito and knows that that's his eye in kakashi's head? Oof.

How much of the Uchiha eye thing does he get? Does he have his sharingan? Or the mangekyou?

Also, wasn't it cannon that part of the reason why danzo let Itachi let Sasuke live was because he was a moldable child? How does he feel about having a semi adult Uchiha still alive? I feel like Houhua is walking a constant tightrope of protecting himself and Sasuke and not being seen as a threat by the creepy old man.

THIS IS A WONDERFUL QUESTION!! I. Am not too sure, actually

I feel like it'd probably be him trying to fight back maybe? Faking his death absolutely sounds like the shit hed do tho, so hmm might put that in his back pocket too

Either way, Houhua vs Itachi 1v1 where they're surprisingly well matched sounds really fun I cant lie.

Mmmm, maybe he can 1v1 Itachi and hold up surprisingly well? Itachi is doing the what is this, how are you doing this, have you been hiding yourself from me this whole time?! routine as Houhua goes fuck shit oh my god oh my god I cant believe that worked oh fuck--

Then Obito fucking teleports behind Houhua and stabs him. Oopsies!

Houhua somehow survives due to genuine luck, and gets a hint about there having been more than 1 person at the massacre maybe?

Idk if thatd work tho. Mmmm so many thoughts.

I do think that no matter what, Houhua would have to be "defeated" in some way. Play dead for a bit. If he comes out of the fight having visibly won, it'll spell problems and set dominos in motion I dont want dominoing just yet

So no matter what, he's ending the fight face down on the floor

ALSO THATS. SUCH A GOOD POINT ACTUALLY SHIT, DID OBITO HELP BABYSIT HIM?? Houhua did reincarnate as a baby, tho I think there was some soft mental block on him becoming truly conscious till he was at least around 5 years old. So by the time he was conscious at least, Obito was already gone. Rip!

I think that Kakashi wouldnt be immune to looking at Houhua and seeing the reflection of another cry baby ninja, though Houhua wouldn't have any real memory of Obito (tho he might have heard ab him before, with some clan members comparing them quietly when they think he's not listening)

Anyways I need a scene where Houhua and Obito meet once Houhua is older and Houhua straight up says "You know, I never did get why people thought we were anything alike" as a clear insult

Rare Houhua w !!

I think Houhua has an unusually difficult time manifesting anything w his eyes just bc of the emotional walls he has up between him and everyone around him. He does not allow himself to feel deeply for anyone enough for his eyes to be affected, no matter how fond he may grow of them. There is always a wall between him and the world.

I do also however think that no matter how hard he tries to distance himself from the people around him, even having known for years now that they'd all die this way, seeing the people who he was raised around all die to the hands of a boy he might have grown fond of--

Yeah.

Not even he's immune to that.

So when the massacre happens, he'll at least get his sharingan, tho idk how man tomoe (and I cant really remember what is needed to gain each tomoe, so, oops)

I do think he'd have an incredibly difficult time manifesting his mangekyou, for all the reasons above, so if he ever does it'd be way down the line.

I also think it'd be super fucking interesting (especially from an outsiders perspective) if he manifested it somehow due to MBJ's involvement, since his reincarnation is wandering around here somewhere as Jun, and does not remember Houhua

Houhua has no explanation for why he cares about this man deeply enough to manifest the mangekyou. Sorry.

Also, Im ngl, as I write this I can totally see an argument for something along the lines of "well Houhua went through a fuck ton of trauma as SQH, so what if when he regains his memories around 5, he automatically unlocks his sharingan just through that remembered trauma? Then just keeps it secret for years until the massacre"

I think that could be interesting tbh, it would also tell a story all on its own ab his grief for his past life and all the people there. Smthn to think ab, idk

Houhua is a bit too old and way too clever for Danzo's liking. hHis one only saving grace is that, on the surface at least, he's a fuckin worm of a boy and has literally no achievements other than having survived Itachi

He isn't worth getting rid of yet, but Danzo has an eye on him, just waiting for a reason to potentially knock him off.

Good think Houhua decided not to go the child prodigy route!! Putting his own flaws and weaknesses on blast to all of Konoha probably saved his fucking ass with Danzo. At least for now, anyways.

[spidermanifested]

rambly deltarune posting again this one goes out to everybody who followed me for my old man comic. The oldman newfollowers if you will. and granted this all may be old news or it may be nothing im just having fun on my blog [Chapters 3&4 Spoilers Obviously]

THOUGHTS ON THE DELTA RUNE

friends recently called to my attention the fact that in math, a delta symbolizes change

would make a lotta sense if this is what the games doing with it!

the voice talking to kris in the intro and game over screens (who everybodys calling gaster, and yeah that seems like a safe bet but im not going to put all my eggs. as it were. in one basket) wants to obtain the delta rune. it has some property they want, and i think the property of "change" is very very in line with everything else

Now Consider: The Prophecy. so much of chapter 4 cements that this is in large part a story about stories (hi black sails i love you black sails) and id wager likely inspired by toby foxs own experiences as a storyteller. the prophecy evokes some type of source material, or maybe just an outline, something with fixed points and a fixed trajectory but with plenty of wiggle room in between.

and considering gerson (who is himself an author) basically says all that flat out i dont think i have to justify that part too much more i can move on yes. Okay cool

where i Do think i might differ from most peoples takeaway is i dont quite think gersons saying "you can always change your fate/the ending of the video game deltarune if you simply try hard enough" especially since this games being written by someone who is not us and who has said theres only one ending. we quite literally dont get to decide how it ends! toby fox might pull something but still

when gerson talks about the prophecy he seems to mainly take issue with the *doctrine* of it– forcing oneself to fit into someone elses reading, even when it doesnt apply very well. he talks about interpretation, reading between the lines, picking up yourself where it leaves off. if the prophecy represents a source material, you cant really un-write whats already written, but youre still an active participant every time you bring your own lens to the text. by the same measure, you can take your own approach to the hands life deals you. there isnt one correct way to live.

this hasnt been the game about The Unique Power Of Determination so far; i dont think the solution to whatever quandary lies at the end is just "the gang fights a guy about it and SAVES DELTARUNE"

but then theres *The* delta rune. and if it really does hold the power of change, maybe it COULD let someone in this world use that power. the power to create a whole new story? something like the relationship between this game and undertale? (Or like. fanfiction. with the power of the delta rune we have created 5 thousand new types of sans)

if its gaster who wants it then, thatd be a pretty understandable motivation. i too would want to be a normal living person instead of a disembodied leitmotif

but whats more interesting than the gaster stuff to me is how a lot of other characters, at the moment anyway, seem to *clash* with change rather than desire it. the impulse to keep everything the same way forever is at the same time treated as sympathetic and universal, but also misguided, dangerous and downright impossible.

susie expresses wanting to live the same day over and over after finding friendship in the dark world. carol has put her entire house in literal cryostasis. asgore is desperate to get his family "back to normal" before his son gets home from college even though "normal" Was Not Good For Anybody, and hes making things worse by chasing a return to it!

so. the power of change is not going to be an immediately helpful-seeming force to the main trio, i dont think, and susie in particular will probably struggle with it because for the first time in her life shes found a status quo that makes her happy. god.

fun fact when the chapters dropped and i was first watching people play them, i was at my moms elementary school helping teach her class for the last few days of the year, and one of her students was this girl whod had a hard time in the foster system but she immediately latched onto me and gave me things out of her desk. So watching susies more emotional scenes i did cry

in any case what destination all these pieces are headed towards i can only wait and see. its goign to be so good though i know it is

and in the end. i mean. Literally in the end, all stories have to end sometime. the game cant go on forever like we might want it to, unless we all got together and kept it going ourselves. who knows maybe the real deltarune... was the friends we made along the way

THOUGHTS ABOUT THE SOUL

i talked about my "this soul maybe does not originally belong to kris" thing in the ghost trick post but heres another thing ive been pondering

the lyrics of the song in chapter 3 mention "your heart as my ark". obviously loads of christian imagery in the deltarune mythos but noahs ark specifically was a vessel for escaping one worlds end and being brought into a new one

so we have the delta rune, this thing that (if im right) could Create a whole new world.

And, theres one commonality attached to the heart in both games. right? someone whos traveled from the old world? into the new one?

🫵😐

i think either this is referring to Us having literally come here from undertale, or a character from undertale has hitched a ride on the soul. or both. theres been a really good meshing of the baseline story with the meta aspects so far in a way that you dont have to sacrifice one reading to make sense of the other, so im hoping that keeps up, as hard as i know it probably is to write

i dont really have anything else to add to this one at the present time. umm. When the video game is good

[mocolococoffeesimp]

WAITTTT omg your leo headcanons with the celeb was SO GOOD?!!?!?!??!

COULD YOU PLEEEAAASE do a johnny x celebrity??? i think thatd be so fun!!!

-Johnny being Johnny, was already excited when he saw you. He knew who you were from seeing you in movies and such. He put his best gameface on as he approached you. He took off his hat, bowing to you. "Well, well I didn't expect to see such a radiant star here tonight." He would be flirting with you the entire evening. He does offer some thoughts he has on your movies. He gives surprisingly good critique and thoughts on the movies, how the script could've been improved and your acting.

-Johnny at times was bit too much into your work. Especially, if you were working on action movies. He would try to teach you how to use a sword, looking as stylish as possible. He was showing off most of that time. As, he showed you different stances, he was bit touchy when he instructed you. His touch staying on your body bit longer than necessary.

-At some point, Johnny had suggested filming on the Mayship. He thought it would be a great set piece, making it easy to film multitude of scenes on the ship easily, not to mention the main deck would be an excellent spot to shoot some action scenes. Johnny also wanted to watch you work, potentially even be part of the scenes. The role of hero would be just right for him, to woo the heroine, getting to kiss you as a reward at the end of the movie.. Not like he didn't do it already to you. You often had to wear either turtleneck or makeup to cover his love bites on set. He was smug about it, but it did cause delays in schedule, because of the extra time taken in makeup.

[thesnivy123]

I don't think there's a canon answer to the missing blueprint question, but I always imagined it was simply a matter of different pods having different combinations of blueprints since gravitas has access to a huge amount of ppls dna. I also like to imagine that there's a whole heap of other dupe blueprints similar to the bionic dupes and Freyja that were various experimental specialized dupes that wouldn't have been included in the database for a colony that would benefit from mostly having generalists. How Olivia gets the dlc blueprints added to her database is my real question in life, but that has a couple of ways it could be justified ofc. I very much enjoy making hcs abt the parts of dupe development we don't see, which is basically all of it lol

OH yeah thatd make sense- wouldnt want to load a pod up with things that arent useful for a given colony. If i had to guess olivias picking them up from the same sources of data you get the lore logs from? find a blueprint file or two in a computer n just add it to the batch

i havent put a huge amount of thought into Dupe Lore Headcanons outside of them being way smaller than shown in game, like, guinea pig sized, half bc i think its fun half bc it makes some bits make more sense to me and. well i guess thirds bc theres three points but Also Half that theres a certain point in duplicant size where it goes from "wow thats fucked up! :D" to "wow thats. fucked up <:] (still having fun) (but the tone of the story shifted so hard it gives whiplash)" but i digress

[popppyfur]

TELL ME ABOUT ARO/DEMI POPS PLEASEEEE

I've been leaning more towards cupioro lately but aroflux Poppy is real to me!! Please!! I must know your thoughts on this, fellow arospec Poppy truther!

GRAHHHHH talked about demi poppy a little bit here so I'll try to elaborate on that a lil more !!!!

I'm really fond of the idea of poppy being this really affectionate and lovey person but finding little to no desire about liking someone in That way. She's full of love!!! And she gives it away in spades!!!!! She goes so overboard w it that sometimes it's hard to tell whether she cares about someone in a 'special' way or if that's just how she treats everybody. Mostly, it's the latter.

I like to think that her lil dopey attitude towards creek in the first movie felt more along the lines of her acting like what she Thinks shes Supposed to Act Like. (after the betrayal maybe she'd be like: ugh I'm never doin that again). I don't think there was ever a time someone would question why she always seems to be an arms length away while deep into a big hug, but she'd FEEL the questions in some trolls' looks anyway, and maybe thatd be the starting point of that lil nagging question in the back of her mind. Why can't she find it in herself to see someone That way?

You tell me if she ever gets like, some kind of desire to actually BE in a relationship. it's fun to explore either idea!!!!! I think it's plausible, whether it be her just wondering what it's like bc people hype it up soooo much, or maybe it's bc it's what to be expected of someone so affectionate like her. Maybe only having one parent w no partner her entire life loosened her up to the idea that she doesn't have to be with anyone, but the concept still feels so tempting sometimes, maybe it just takes a while to draw it out of herself???

At some point maybe she does just come to accept this part of her, and though maybe there's a bit of longing to know about the type of affection that she just DOESN'T feel. She is still so so so SO full of love that it doesn't matter if she never does, bc she'll always find a way put that love into the people she cares about.

And if she's actually demi. Well, I really think she'd still be a bit dense towards the feeling. Almost like she's denying herself the possibility to be in love w someone. Like oh I really like this person more than usual because my feelings are just all over the place sometimes. This Does Not Mean Anything At All. I just think the idea of poppy being scared about LOVE, something she's supposed to be incarnate of, about feeling this way for the first time in her life Ever after accepting that she'd Never feel it, is REALLY Funny. Like I said on the first post. Hold her hand please she's terrified bc she doesn't know how to deal LMAO

[1tsjusty0u]

hm. another. whats zeldas opinion of revali/vice versa?

OHHOHO…….

alright so!! pre cal!!! revali likes/relates to her that expands into likes but also realized they are. Very Different People. and theres some issues about that. he also thinks shes really cheesy + is kind of dumbfounded by her sometimes. for zelda its Finally someone who doesnt like this twerp blindly (the twerp is link), to being, once again, different people but they can agree on One thing at least which depends from situation to situation. they dont argue but more passively disconnect from each other. unless they agree on something! also revali gets the whole powers deal with zelda and gets the struggle and all that jazz. well sort of. he understands the effort and not mastering her powers and the pressure that comes from that. but at the same time. wh. why is she the princess/why does hyrule have this grip if not for her powers. her interest in sheikah tech is probably why shes leading it but . why not an actual sheikah ………. he doesnt mention it mostly but its just a question of ‘why am i following you…’ . revalis american voice actor had that mindset except for link, which i get where hes coming from but i. do not think revali is following orders from link. that would be certain sheikahs as well as some of the guards. also revali is like. a teen to me. but anyways yeah!!! when they first meet they bicker slightly about the divine beasts but ultimately bond of their hatred of link. past this revali Does listen when she talks/rambles about the divine beasts. he doesnt really know how to do Conversation when she does it and either nods along or tries to relate it to something to not just Be Silent and have something to say. zelda sometimes gets annoyed by it but appreciates the effort. they dont really talk a lot save for champion meetings which at some point would escalate into a roadtrip at some point. revali and zelda would both be put off by each others social and rupee status. theyd probably like doing archery together! revalis issues later on kind of start when his opinions on link. dont change because fundamentally its the same just views it at a different angle. so the normal type of bonding is strained slightly. he doesnt know How zelda hates link as in the specific way she hates link not. how could she. thatd be kind of stupid. but like. her thought process. and when his has changed and hers has not he just kind of lies. i dont want link to be the only factor for this either; general things like once again the social statuses of the two and how that’d affect their views, just simply not getting the sheikah tech only really liking medoh, and just. not really knowing how to bond? revali has 0 hobbies. zelda tries to though it is hard when youve got to prioritize your powers. the sheikah tech is just an alternative method For her powers . she may have been genuinely interested in it if she hadnt had to worry about that but its more likely that it wouldve stayed buried. as of right now she Does like it but theres a more. desperate angle to it. shes less doing it because she wants to and more she Has To. plus she’d probably have shame about her ramblings, especially for things that arent Important like the sheikah tech. also she has no idea how to relate to revali at all. she doesnt get the training 24/7 thing and its like. ‘please tell me you do something. fun to do’ ‘ . ‘ . and then for her thered be the thing of when she doesnt hate link. no idea how i’ll make that work (im. Not doing the yiga memory for that one) or how gradually the change happens and whether she just kind of. projects onto him/just acts nicer or both. either way her opinion would have have to had changed from retaliation based on the assumption that link hated her to ‘oj he doesnt hate me.’ trying to make amends. but once that happens she doesnt really know how to feel about link. like on one hand the core issue of him not really being able to emote hasnt changed and cant change really. she has to be able to accept that or just. not care when people Do hate her. self confidence . especially consi

dering link didnt even hate her at first he just . Did Not Emote. gotta accept that people will think their things and move on. i dunno wording it it doesnt feel right but. yeah. anyways once that changes how does she. talk or relate to revali anymore. she doesnt hate link anymore what do they talk about. uh. so yeah! she’d probably try with chemistry and such but its a bit of a dead end. he’d be glad she’d appreciate rito culture and actively asks about things but theyve got to. talk to each other

post cal if revali and the others dont disappear!! he’d be pretty worried over all, and would Not approve of the whole reestablish the monarchy. zelda would uh. while she did in fact miss him and shes glad to see him shes not happy about the questioning of her life choices however she would be happy to see him. i think. gradually she starts the monarchy idea? because at first shes busy with living in kakariko and learning how to fight and exploring sometimes and helping paya and working on the slate/making a new slate with communications. this. this is actually furthering the they leave argument. however if they stay while wreath is doing fuck all then they can stay with zelda. also they could. just simply stay at their own regions and such….. they might as well be alive at this point. Anyways during that time she’d just be happy to talk and train with him. revali would elaborate on things wreath did so she Wouldnt do them (like getting hit by a boulder hypothetically). hes impressed by the machine guns she’d probably make at some point. however i think urbosa and mipha and daruk would take more of a lead on helping her. the same thing of agreeing on that One Thing pre cal would happen here too. but would probably openly disagree on some of the things she thinks during travels. i think she’d get more serious post cal though and he can respect that . more serious as in more willing to talk about things/snap. ts underswap sans is this a joke ruthless route

so basically ! mutual meh. more likely to get stuff done together but i dont think theyd know how to be friends with each other. zelda would Try at the very least its just hard. i dont know how well i explained any of this especially with zelda. also i dont think they could Not be friends its just they have very little commonalities. theyd have to be ok with that. also for more general observations revali thinks shes weird and zelda thinks hes weird firey flaming text the weirdos

[dorylinae-supremacy]

HI :D

okay so i wanted to get into fic writing, but i have zero ideas on where to start. i wanted to know if you had any sbi related ideas that I could spin-off/write on?? (preferably something simpler because this will be my first fic)

if not can you just give me tips on how to start?? i have absolutely no idea where to begin ;-;

Hello <33

Long answer below so I'll put it under a cut!

Its so cool that you wanna get into writing! What I tend to do when I have no ideas is I think of a super basic concept and just continue from there. I tend to do it in little bullet points too so I can follow my train of thought.

And I'm happy to share some of my ideas with you! I have a massive google doc of them so feel free to browse through some of the ideas below and snatch up whatever catches your eye. Forgive how basic / scattered they are. Its basically me just talking to myself in a document.

If nothing nabs you then treat them as prompts and turn them into something that you'd be interested in writing! Just be creative and self indulgent and things will work out.

Honestly the best tip I can give you is to just start writing. I usually think of a scene or some dialogue and then start to flesh everything out from there.

I think the simplest way is to structure things by having a beginning, middle and end planned out that you wanna write. For example in my henchman fic the beginning was the running scene, the middle was his imprisonment and the end was him being yoinked and getting given a room. Those were the 3 core scenes I wanted to write.

You don't have to have a whole story fleshed out before you start writing, a lot of it will just progress naturally. You should also just try not force yourself to write, sometimes its better to take a break and work on something else / another part of the fic than brute force something.

My starting process usually starts with me writing down a single line prompt that interests me and then thinking about what I want to add to it / how I want it to progress.

I also get a lot of inspo from songs and I take stories from those and turn them into my fics so I made a playlist for them. Usually its Lemon demon but vocaloid has been very very good to get inspo from too (at least for me).

Its also good to just note down any passing ideas you might have for later. If you think of a story and then think 'oh thatd make a cool fic' then write it down so you can come back on it for inspo later. I made myself a discord server that I can just dump stuff in. Have a few prompts from there too!

TLDR list of what I do whenever I'm wondering where to start:

Think of a specific / dialogue scene I want in the fic and write it down

Write yourself prompts you think could be fun

Put down plot bullet points you can follow later

Write down random ideas to refer back to

Listen to music (lyrics can be super good to steal from)

Decide on a beginning, middle and end that you wanna write

Read other fics

Take from other media (games, shows, art etc)

Sit and think about the different dynamics you like and how you want them to interact

Sorry if it ended up a little long, I wanted to give you as many options as possible <3 Hope this helped!

[spikeinthepunch]

i havent rly been rambling online too much as i tend to keep my public posting very rare these days, nor do i want to talk about current RPs much publicly either, buuut i am thirsting to ramble loads of thoughts about writing and themes in darker settings. the RP i am in has taken up basically all of my time outside of the moment i try to work on projects lol

...if you are from CoE *points at the door* but also this isn't too deep about Ieries to where it'd spoil too much about his deeper development/what is is actually doing right now. so whatever. mostly bringing him up in relation to how i feel about my own writing overall.

Anyways.

current RP stuff with my character Ieries, is in a setting of an evil cult in short- and this leaves loads of serious, fucked themes and topics to be allowed. This has been great as a push for me esp when i have OC stories I want to be dark but there has always been hesitance (and I was writing Lisa fics, that was a good step forward) mainly in presenting it publicly. This RP puts me in a space of like minded people, partially private, and I have written things I never really got myself to write before now.

Violence has come up but much has been emotional and psychological for him. Whether its ruining someone with secrets or threats of rape. Purposeful bold insults lead to violent punishments, or maybe he takes the offer for gruesome artistic torture because he's down bad for someone. Ieries has blossomed into something I didn't fully expect... impulsive and unstable with emotions going from one extreme to the other. Molded by the Titled of the Court in the worst ways, coming out punished for his actions many times over, stumbling out with lessons that you can only hope would make him think twice next time. He's improving, in regards to... learning shit, and finding himself. Lagged for a couple weeks.

However, despite his behavior and what I said I have written that is "dark", I am still sitting here not.. fully satisfied with my writing. This is partially IC and OOC. IC comes from what opportunities Ieries is being given by others or by his own actions. OOC comes from my own hesitance in how to act for his development "i dont think he should do that, it would be bad" "im unsure if i am allowed to go that far, I'll just skip it" "the consequence would be too dangerous, i dont want to go there". Some of those concerns are valid- I very much reigned Ieries in after a particularly hellish week for my own OOC sanity lol, but there could have been a part of him thatd go further and get into more trouble. I just didn't want to deal with it.

But some of those concerns have hindered what I write, and what he gets to do. I have pushed myself a little more but one of the results to this hesitance has led to much of his RPs being... talking. discussion. there is a lot of philosophy for Ieries to take apart in this setting and it IS needed, for sure. SO what am I missing? What have I not fully let myself go, and write with no worry and all the intensity I want? Violence, actually. It is not that Ieries hasn't been violent at all. He has had... small acts of violence, but sadly it has lacked. Either due to the types of people he interacts with (cautious around high ranks, or the person isnt for it), or general failure to get a thread made at all (just by circumstance, like not being available. or me being anxious >_>). And there is a big different between a consensual spar and a murder or impulsive reaction.

which brings me to my current triggered thoughts-- a event in RP was announced, some weeks in the future from now. It encourages letting us have a unique moment to really indulge in that kind of writing. I have to come up with my own scenario for Ieries to play in, essentially. Which is fun certainly, to know this can be molded to what I need for him. I have thoughts forming that feel quite solid, and it has sparked excitement! I am eager. Though there is this anxiety of performance.

In what is essentially going to be a one on one DM experience, with a character showing their deepest vision of their darkest desires, crafted partially by myself. It almost feels like I will perform on a stage, of something I have not "practiced". Writing a thing I have not been pushed to write yet. It is silly to feel this way when I have ya know, had numerous one on one RPs with players. How they differ though, is comfort zone. It is not just in topic either, I also see myself gravitate to certain players because I know them best. Much like that this scene has me leaving any "support" from other characters for what is a solo performance with a DM.

I voice these anxieties but they don't deter me from trying. I am excited to see this not just for my own writing but also for my character too. He sits in my head like he is his own person and I know he will be thrilled for this because it is what he needs, for development. The drive of a character and the way the snowball keeps rolling is one strong motivator to writing the things I want to write, despite some of those hesitations. Sometimes, stuff just happens. Sometimes I do not think at all and I come out of it wondering why tf my character did that.

Which is exactly the mindset I intend to fall into to some extent in the near future with this event... I am digging deep into Ieries' purpose overall and for himself personally. Find the thing he is lacking and let him relish in everything it will give him.

[angelssongs]

Oh it sucks ass to have to share a house with someone so bad, I get it honestly I used to live with a whole bunch of people kms. Honestly I don't know the terms neither LOL. I'm VERRRYYY interested on the paranormal side tooo, it's so fascinating and cool honestly, I wouldn't be able to explain it. And omg I really hope you can go on those paranormal sites that's so cool, just be aware of the rules LOL, wouldn't want to bring back home energy that isn't yours, thing is gonna haunt your house forever smh (I have a story like that too actually). Spells are super fun, but they're harder than most think, most of the time the universe or 'paths' help those that try making spells but still don't know much how to manage their energy, that's mostly WHY it works so often. But to be able to do it all on your own is soo much harder and you can physically feel it when youre trying to and literally set your mind on doing it all on your own, much more practice than just trying it once and getting it over with;) But it's super fun I swear. Imo I don't make spells like others traditionally do because I don't seek something through occultism, though if I need it, I know it's there. Smh we like the same things 💔💔

Honestly I'm glad she introduced you to it because you seem to like it a lot LOL

Uhhh I kinda always had it in me, it's like I knew but I didn't (Basically the subconscious and the conscious). I didn't know it was the occult as a whole though but I always practiced it. It was kind of just meant to be in some way I guess?? I didn't do it the traditional way though, with sigils and all, because the sigil is kind of just a symbol, until you put your energy into it, that's what makes it special or powerful and then put an intent or will into it too. But I believed that there wasn't necessarily need of a sigil if I simply controlled my subconscious and trained to know what was my intent and will vs what my conscious is telling me or trying to make me believe. Much harder than you think honestly LMAO, I don't recommend fully though, at a point it'll kinda feel like you don't really know what you want out of the world, since you can easily just have it through that. Using sigil and symbols is easier more fun to do, you'll feel like a witch in movies LOLOL. Anyways, I was kinda just always meant for it, I don't seek anything through it, I just want to know and learn ykwim😇

OMG THATD BE SO COOL ID LOVE TO SEE IT, and I always check your blog^^

I’m sorry you had to live with a whole bunch of people in the past explodes .. one of my friends has like 10 freaking siblings I don’t know how they do it . I have my parents and 2 brothers which is fine I guess my parents are just kind of assholes ..

I am aware of the rules and I will be careful !! ^_^ I got this trust. She hasn’t taken me cause she thinks I’ll be scared. Like I might have an anxiety disorder but I’m genuinely interested in this stuff gosh.

You have a story like that too..? story time..? Question mark..? Blinks..?

I had this doll that my mom had, and my grandma also had, and I’m pretty sure there was a little friend inside of it .. when I had the doll, it stayed in my room and I’d keep it hidden in my closet cause it always made me feel watched. I thought I saw and heard things from my closet sometimes and I just convinced myself that I was going crazy, eventually my mom was gonna sell the doll, she told me this a few days before she sold it, and within the next few days I’d have horrible headaches and feel incredibly guilty, but the second the doll left the premises I was fine .. all other weird paranormal things in the house also came to a stop, so…

WOA thank you for telling me. It sounds fun ! Spells sound fun but idk what I’d actually do with them. I don’t seek anything out actively with occultism either, I just find it very interesting and love learning more about it and such 💗 if I ever do any sort of spell you’ll be the first to know!! Trust!!

we like the same things !! Hell yeag !! ^_^

That’s interesting! I get it in a way, when I started getting into the occult I didn’t even know that’s what it was. It was just something interesting I was being taught .. it’s cool that you’ve always had that within you even if you didn’t fully know what it is or understand ^_^ ! I honestly haven’t used symbols or sigils before, mostly cause I wasn’t taught .. everything I know I’ve either read in a book or was taught at some point by my ex-step mom who is no longer in my life so I can’t learn stuff from her. I want to learn more so I need to start getting more into things again.. it was meant for you ! It was like .. a destiny and stuff ..

I know what you mean ! I just wanna know and learn too, I’m the same way ! If I do need something, I know it’s there, but typically it’s just something that intrigues me that I enjoy researching and learning about :3

I GET BACK TO MY MOMS ON MONDAY ! So look out for that ! I’ll try and remember but if I forget feel free to just send me an ask and demand I show you

I’m glad me and/or my blog(s) have been interesting enough for you to check frequently !

[pacska]

i think having good relationships, but not relationships in the sense that despite dating, youre still friends more than anything, is the average aromantic experience. every relationship ive had has been good, strictly because ive treated it as just advanced friendship even if i tried doing romantic things.

but i think the worst thing about my experience is that even though i had good relationships, i only learned i was aromantic after the worst relationship of my entire life. and you could think to yourself; 'maybe you think youre just arospec because of how awful your last relationship was', and ive thought about that over and over again.

then i look back on the ones that werent awful, and still find myself thinking im glad its over. back then, i dated because it was fun, and i liked the attention, and i loved the people in the only way i knew love to be. these people at one point were the best friends i could ever of had. but thats just all they were to me.

the idea of commitment has never been something ive ever put real thought into, but its not something i like. and i dont mean it really in terms of wanting to experience things. i just.. cant imagine myself being with someone, and spending our lives together, living together, etc in the contexts of a relationship. it makes my skin crawl, and the idea of having to be someones boyfriend freaks me out. but i dont want to loosely see people either. i just dont want to see anyone, period.

i never viewed my past relationships as something thatd last beyond the average. i was young, still am, but younger then. i did things that were fun. id get obsessed easily, when people would express their feelings to me. i liked the attention. i liked them as people. but thats as far as it ever went.

so even if my last relationship wasnt awful, i think i wouldve realized eventually that its just not my kind of scene. but it just sucks that for a long time, i viewed dating as a fun pastime and a new experience to have with friends, and then it got completely squashed. and its the last thing i have from those times.

realizing im aromantic on the worst sour note of all time is just really sad to me. my last relationship ever and it wasnt even good. literally what a JOKE BRUH!

[aestheticvoyage2024]

Day 299: Friday October 25, 2024 - "A Freddie Freeman"

Started a new tradition tonight with William that I surprisingly fell in love with myself - I had saved 5 or 6 packs of 2024 baseball cards from mid-season for tonight - for the start of the world series, to pull out and open with William. Even if I got his attention for a half minute with it, thatd be fun. But as it was, with the first inning on the TV, and popped corn in the bowl, we sat and opened two packs together. In it, he pulled a Riley Greene card - way to go! I was excited for him, exactly what I needed - thank you baseball gods! I found his little collection box in his closet and opened a few more packs myself, what an old nostalgic dopamine hit!!! How fun! As I opened one deck, Stanton launched a magestic Home Run that stood to be the difference in the game until the 9th. Would be cool if I pull a Stanton card after that, I said. No - Stanton, but I got a Freedie Freeman, maybe he'll be the hero tonight.!"

The thought of a hero was on my mind, in this old timey historic baseball matchup. I had decided I didnt care for anything more from these two teams than just 7 good historic games that gets decided by a no name pinch hitter and a journeyman reliver and somebody wins in a way we call and talk to our friends about.... Its been a fun baseball season. I hope something really great for baseball happens in this next week. Something that everyone can love - even if it is LA and NY. Audrie was giving me some (admitted) pregnancy grump and I had a great idea - "you need to open some baseball cards!" YEA! I loved watching her flip through her pulls and pronounce the names of the guys. Just like a kid - to see who'd you get and how pretty and special they are. I fell back in love with this old forgotten feeling. What a neat trick. Especially at the end of the baseball year, when all but the most important part of the story has been told, but all the characters have been developed and we just need to see how it ends. Audrie pulled an Anthony Rizzo and it made her smile and I thought that was really great. "He's good right?" Totally, I affirmed. He's right there batting right now! And how loved am I, that here's my tired pregnant wife, that understood my enthusiasm and put on a baseball shirt for the world series.... I didnt even do that! I love her so much and it was fun watching with her and Deni (a Dodgers fan).

The game wound up tied in the 9th, as we navigated William's bedtime, and in the 10th the Yankees played old school national league small ball to get in a run. Buth in the bottom of the tenth, Shohei Ohtani loomed large with an opportunity to tie it....but it wasn't Shohei who'd be the hero tonight...itd be Freddie Freeman instead, with two outs and a no doubter to right field. A Game 1 Walk Off. The first ever walkoff grand slam in World Series History. First in History. Check. Game 1 delivered.

And it wasn't long before I was seeing on social echos of the same thing I was telling Audrie about - about Gibson's shot to Right Field against the Athletics in 88. It was my first memorable sports moment. She watched it with me as I told her vividly how my Uncle Ryan was babysitting me and let me stay up late to watch it. It was probably the first real sports moment for me like that, you know because sports wasn't on TV all the time like it is now. I shared with her that probably more than anytihng up to that point, Boxing was the sport most watched in my house. "Really?" ABC Wide World of Sports - yea it was a different time! But imagine how my Uncle Ryan would have been energized by the moment as it built - this Spartan of his generation who 4 years before led the Tigers to the Championship and now here he was hobbled in LA doing something dramatic - a disney moment, and probably the first time I was ever moved by Sports. Audrie and I watched that long at bat, how Gibby fouled off pitches and worked the count, and then launched a shot to the almost exact spot in the right field bleachers as Freeman's tonight. A Game 1 walkoff. It was uncanny. You know, I pulled a Freddie Freeman tonight? Now thats special... A good way to kickoff this world series tradition. A game Id call my friends about in the morning. William came out from his bath with Grammee and wanted to see the end of the game and sat with me after I backed it up and watched bright eyed as Freddie popped his homer and held his hand up in the high and started to run the bases. William promptly squealed and ran around the house. The Dodgers celebrated and we all agreed, I guess we're cheering for the Dodgers this year. Beacuse that was pretty cool.

Song: Shakey Graves - Dearly Departed

Quote: “You're not the first person who was ever confused and frightened and even sickened by human behavior. You're by no means alone on that score. Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You'll learn from them-if you want to. Just as someday, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It's a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn't education. It's history. It's poetry.” ~J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye

[rouge-the-bat]

Please tell me more about Kurama (Shuichi Minamino) going to school with Yusuke and Kuwabara.

Personally I don't think he'd be close to either of them prior to Yusuke coming back to life, wherin he would call spirit world shenanigans. If we go with the idea that Hiei would follow Kurama around even prior to his arrest, I would not be shocked if local anime protag who hangs out on roof would find the little hellion once or twice.

Hiei would watch Yusuke beat up Kuwabara on a near daily bases, and when they meet he would give Yusuke a little "nice work, try explaining me to anyone and I will kill you" before blinking away. Or the classic Bill Murray of "no one will ever believe you". Kurama overhears Yusuke yelling to Keiko about some short black blur of a boy on the roof and local fox in disguise has to keep a straight face.

You know, if anything, Keiko and Kurama might know each other best out of all the group. They are both top ranking students, so they were probably teamed up for assignments or class activities.

Just some of my thoughts, love to hear more of yours.

HEHE YEAS U ACTUALLY ARE RIGHT ON THE MONEY OF SOME OF MY THOUGHTS ALREADY !!!

i already figured that Kurama wouldnt be close to Yusuke and Kuwabara prior to the actual events of normal canon, he avoids most people to keep a distance from them since hes a demon, aside from Maya who would tag along with him on her own accord (and he ends up making an exception for her since he was lonely prior to meeting Hiei, i also have a little Maya-related thought ill get into later).

and i think hed expressly avoid Kuwabara, not out of dislike for him or anything and hed be rather polite about it, but Kurama would hear the rumors of Kuwabaras spiritual awareness and figured itd be safer to stay away from him so he wouldnt detect his clearly non-human energy. and despite Kurama often being distant to many people, Kuwabara still picks up on how Shuichi seems to avoid him particularly- which ofc Yusuke has to make a joke that Shuichi probably thinks Kuwabara is a freak and that he should stay away, and says his assumption is right [cue another fight between Kuwabara and Yusuke lol].

AND YES YES Hiei absolutely follows Kurama around all the time, and i defintely think at some point when Yusuke goes up to the roof during lunch he ends up finding Kurama sitting with Hiei and sharing his lunch (packed by shiori of course) with him. and catches Kurama being Very Flirty with Hiei, who gets VERY blushy hehe. finally it clicks to Yusuke why Shuichi never goes out with any of the many girls that fawn over him lol (though he also wonders how the hell the kid that doesnt go to their school even got up onto the roof in the first place). i didnt think about Yusuke encountering Hiei up there alone at some point but thatd also be really fun, i love the thought of Hiei not giving a shit and just disappearing into thin air in front of him, which would put Kurama in a bit of a weird spot when Yusuke later sees them together and clearly are close. i definitely have to think more about the weird meetings Hiei can have with Yusuke and Kuwabara more lol. so many possible interactions to make them think "wow Shuichis secret punk boyfriend is weird as fuck" HGJDHFJ

I do think Hiei would find Yusuke and Kuwabaras antics amusing, gives something more interesting going on to witness at the school besides people just going about their usual business (though of course he also enjoys just watching Kurama because hes very pretty :'3 though he doesnt understand why he keeps to playing the part of perfect school boy). at some point Yusuke probably sees Hiei watching Shuichi from a tree or something and thinks hes his stalker until he finds them hanging out together jfksjjfd

and yeah i figured Kurama probably interacts with Keiko the most before the main story! since shes part of the student council, i think theyd sometimes work together for that even though Kurama isnt actually a part of it, since many clubs and stuff tend to ask him for various favors since hes the top student and great at problem solving of all kinds n stuff. and through that Kurama would sometimes interact a bit with Yusuke because hed totally come in to bother Keiko while shes working lmao. and sometimes during their spats one of them- usually Keiko- will try dragging Kurama into it to share his opinion, to which hed usually give a polite smile and laugh and say its not his place- if he DOES tell his stance though Yusuke knows Shuichi is probably gonna give advice that mostly sides with Keiko jgksjfjd

i also think that when Yusuke comes back from the dead, itd get Kuramas attention and hed try prodding Keiko about it, since he figured itd be more natural to find out the situation from her rather than Yusuke directly since he never really had much connection with him. because it wouldnt be likely for spirit world to just bring someone back to life for no reason and it makes him wonder whats up. but when Keiko doesnt really know the specifics of what happened (and fumbles and shyly avoids the part where she essentially kissed Yusuke back to life), Kurama doesnt really pry too much into it in the end though because he doesnt find it worth his time or energy since hes basically depressed around this time because of his mothers illness and is already planning to be sacrificing his life for her.

he quickly puts the pieces together during the artifacts of darkness arc when Yusuke calls himself a spirit detective, but Kurama ultimately doesnt act too much different here compared to the events of canon, because what would it matter if a classmate knows hes a demon criminal if (according to his plan) hes going to be dead soon? i also think that before this while Shiori has been sick, Yusuke and Kuwabara noticed that Shuichi still seems to be acting as he usually does, and still smiles, but his eyes look completely drained of life like a zombie.

i also see that before Kurama had a total personality overhaul because of his mother protecting him, when he was little he was quite a little shit. he wasnt overtly confrontational like Yusuke and Kuwabara were, but he always clearly held himself as above everyone in school- students and teachers alike. he never shared and wasnt so polite about avoiding people back then, especially since he found being surrounded by a bunch of little kids quite annoying, on top of being agitated back then about being stuck in such a tiny weak child body. Kurama also totally pulled pranks all the time, both to appease his boredom and to get revenge on anyone that pissed him off- particularly any teachers that tried to talk down to him. they tended to be of the ~supernatural~ variety, like mushrooms suddenly filling up a teachers desk files like theyd been growing there for a month, so he was never found out.

and Yusuke never personally clashed with Kurama, but he did have a bit of a grudge against him because whenever it seemed like Shuichi was gonna get in trouble for something, he got off the hook because of him being such a model student, while Yusuke never got off easy. He was especially salty about it because he always swore Shuichi was a thief but no one believed him. sure he never actually saw him steal anything, but the day the snack he brought went missing, Shuichi later had that same snack during lunch, and Yusuke swore it wasnt a coincidence (and it wasnt lmao, but he couldnt prove it). anytime some kids brought their gameboys or whatnot and their games went missing, Yusuke always suspected Shuichi (and he was right :p ). Yusuke knew if he confronted Shuichi hed probably get into way worse trouble for punching the lights out of the model student than he does for his roughhousing with Kuwabara. he also figured it probably wouldnt be satisfying to hit Shuichi anyways, because he thought he looked fragile like a doll and would crumple like tinfoil (oh how wrong he was about that though LOL).

then over one summer the situation of Shiori catching Kurama so he doesnt fall on broken glass happens, and he begins to change to how he is now. so when hes back at school, he suddenly seems TOTALLY different and is actually polite to others. he may still be rather quiet and reserved, but he smiles more, and actually helps people out often. he doesnt distance himself quite as much as he used to. the number of pranks and missing items dont stop completely, but they diminish quite a bit. his change was so drastic and sudden that Yusuke and Kuwabara would joke that Shuichi got abducted by aliens, had his brain wiped, and replaced with an alien trying to fit in and gain the humans trust LOL. i think Keiko would also sometimes nag Yusuke about how he should make a change in himself and be nicer to others like Shuichi has, which would make Yusuke a bit irritable around Kurama even though it wasnt really him that was the source of his annoyance

also once they get into junior high, Yusuke and Kuwabara are happy to see the number of pranks around the school have skyrocketed again. because even though Kurama is fake nice to Iwamoto and Akashi, he HATES them because theyre such assholes, even if they tend to be nice to him because of him being the top student. and Yusuke doesnt even particularly care that he tends to be blamed for the pranks by those two teachers, because seeing them being pranked is VERY fun, and theyll pin anything on him and Kuwabara anyways so theres no point hating whatever genius is actually pranking them. im unsure though on if Yusuke has ever found Kurama before in the process of setting up a prank, and thus figures all of the crazy pranks he has no clue how someone could even pull off is from Shuichi, or if he and Kuwabara are totally clueless on whos doing them.

after the events of two shots, i think even though he never really interacted with her before, Kuwabara would notice that Maya suddenly stopped following Shuichi around all the time, and Kuwabara assumes (rather accurately, though of course clueless of the supernatural happenings) that Maya asked him out and was turned down, and feels sympathy for her. Yusuke is like, 'oh what, youre gonna swoop in and be her knight in shining armor?' Kuwabars ofc denies that, saying shes very pretty and if she wanted to date he wouldnt turn her down, but he will not take advantage of her in her time of sorrow! so he tries being nice to her and they become sorta-friends (though Kuwabara is a bit freaked out from her interest in paranormal stuff lol). through this would also be a key moment where Yusuke and Kuwabars start noticing that theres something strange about Shuichi, as from Kurama using his flower of forgetfulness on her so she forgets her feelings for him, so too came a bit of alteration of her memories where she no longer has much memory about him in general, and thus doesnt recall spending much time with him. so when at some point Shuichi becomes a topic of conversation, its clear that she doesnt know him that well and is confused when people are surprised about that, and even more so when people insist that she used to hang around him a lot. her saying that thats not true and never happened puts the idea in Kuwabaras head that theres something Very weird about the situation.

also Yusuke totally does a "your mom" joke to Kurama at some point and is met with a COMPLETE DEATH GLARE and feels a weird threatening energy, while Kurama says with a very flat unemotive voice 'do not make those sorts of jokes about my mother.' Yusukes like 'jeez he looked like he was going to strangle me over a your mom joke' fkdbjgbdjf

THIS GOT REALLY LONG BUT. I JUST THINK THIS IDEA IS REALLY FUN N I WANNA DO SOMETHING WITH IT FKBDJ its fun to think about :'3

[toontowncreepypasta]

I'm sorry. I'm a Kate hater fully. I know im biased, i grew up with a similar relationship to kate and miles, but it does definetly go past that. Specifically with Kates writing. I'd be more willing to give her the benefit of doubt if the writers didn't make the horrible choices they did. You're telling me that Kates not only a teacher but a well liked one, but she never once encountered an autistic or traumatized child? She never had any experience with child psychology despite being a teacher? She's never dealt with a difficult child in class? A special ed child? You're telling me she instantly assumed Miles was at fault for beating up another kid and never thought "this kid is really weird and off putting and scrawny, and would most likely get bullied in some way"?

Beyond that, the narrative puts this heavy focus on Kates experience growing up abandoned and neglected. She clearly has her own grief and issues becauss of it and never stops once to think about how thatd affect Miles or sympathize with him? Never is it considered that the kids are weird BECAUSE of what they experienced, ESPECIALLY Miles.

And the problem with how shes written is that her reactions for the most part are extremely unjustified. Miles didn't come onto her enough, there were not enough scenes with Miles acting in a grey enough area for her to feel justified. They deleted the SINGULAR scene that I think would justify that (Miles being found w the dead animal) and i feel like it ruins that angle entirely. So youre just seeing these wildly inappropriate reactions to just. Awkward and weird behavior. I'm convinced that head slam mirror sequence was thrown in to attempt to justify her panic more.

Just the writing entirely is the problem, not even Kate HERSELF. Like the whole scene with her on the phone the whole "I wonder if I'm doing it" moment where she's confused why the kids hate her and are so weird when she's caused every conflict. Which would be fun to watch if that was the point, if Kate was meant to be an unreliable narrator. But the movie is shot to try to confuse us, disorient us, much like how the turn of the screw is written. But it doesnt work as well in a movie, especially one that toned down Miles behavior entirely.

[fictionfixations]

SCU x DSMP Crossover Series talk

so

unrelated thought but like

so my SCU x DSMP Crossover series where I have it called 'OVOH' or 'Only Violence on Humans'

would it be funny if Dream was the only human there

I mean I don't know who I want to have Tommy meet and include but like

what if everyone was a hybrid or of some magic kinda origin and Dream was just the only human so as to say 'only violence on dream' lmAO

thatd probably not work though because thered probably be some character thatd be of human origin ? I mean there's Wilbur but technically he'd be ghostbur so not human-- do I *want* to revive him? I dont even know how I'll get to that because this Tommy I'd like to think is more calculated in general.

He's smart and takes things into account and kinda plans it out from there. He's not like C!Tommy who is kinda more reckless and loud mouthed, sometimes stating things without thinking them through, but the reason C!Tommy tried to kill Dream while he was in prison was kinda due to recklessness (don't get me wrong, his plan was pretty cool though and ALMOST worked- cant blame him for not being able to hold back long enough, not when the idea of his abuser finally being killed by his own hands is so close.)

SCU!Tommy already doesn't like Dream of course, but would see no reason to go back when Dream is already in prison, and try to kill him?? I mean Dream hasn't even really traumatized him and he, I quote, "doesn't remember" (we know the real answer). Can I mention too that ABSOLUTELY NOBODY knows what happened in exile? Dream and C!Tommy were the only ones who knew to what extent it went, and even Dream would probably leave some parts out or say things with bias, being like 'he deserved it' or some shit like that. Wilbur does not know because Ghostbur thought it was just a vacation, and therefore Revivedbur would be under the same impression until C!Tommy said otherwise

SCU!Tommy in fact would not say otherwise if Ghostbur referred to the exile as 'vacation' because SCU!Tommy would not know the difference, and would also not know what was true or not, as having not been warned of the ghost's forgetfulness of bad memories. (But I don't know if Ghostbur and Sam have interacted long enough for Sam to know? And it'd be weird to just have a huge paragraph lore-dumping when it just.. doesn't fit.)

Unless Dream breaks out

except I literally haven't watched the Prison Break stream?? I know Ran died because that was everywhere, and I've seen some stuff of his ghost but like zero idea how he escaped

but so

SCU!Tommy would probably pick up on what Ghostbur talks about about Alivebur to somewhat gain an idea of that Alivebur wasn't a good person

and later probably when Ghostbur would mention about maybe wanting to be brought back to life.. SCU!Tommy technically has no reason to. Alivebur would know C!Tommy more then SCU!Tommy does and therefore would know when something is wrong and completely blow his cover, but Ghostbur is easy to manipulate.

I'd like to think Tubbo would know Tommy enough to do that as well, but I'd say they have also been far enough from each other for there to be a change. Tubbo being more mature, and Tommy being.. different. I think they managed to talk it out at one point, though I didn't see the stream, but I do think that the exile really.. put a bit of a distance, a block between them.

He'd most likely from what I'd like to think probably be hesitant to point out anything that might be different then the Tommy he knows.

TW: mention of cannibalism, manipulation (there are a shit ton of paragraphs over this)

I think though.. The only one who can give a true answer to what happened, would be Dream, who had been there since the beginning, despite how much he lies and would take any chance he gets to have control over the other.

I bet with time he'll come to realize that this Tommy isn't his, and that's all the more fun isn't it? To play with someone different yet so familiar. Who ticks almost the same way, who can act the same too if the cards are played right, yet so so different in the same ways.

SCU!Tommy will probably come to realize that Dream has the answers.

The question is if he'll go in pursuit of it, I mean SCU!Tommy fuckin despises Dream with the small amount of time spent around the other.

But SCU!Tommy is still a kid, isn't he?

Dream would probably fucking break him once he realizes exactly how he works.

I dunno, figure out how SCU!Tommy craves flesh, use it against him, make him starve until he's so fucking desperate, to be able to get inside his head and control him, and of course the rest of the SMP would have zero idea of Tommy's zombie self, because they believe that he doesn't remember, not that he is a different person entirely.

The thing is, is that I like manipulation. I want to write about it because it's a weird unhealthy obsession I have. My only problem though is that I can't actually write good manipulation.

Honestly I've only ever been on the victim's side of manipulation, and maybe that'd be enough, considering I'd be writing from the victim's POV, but I have to write the manipulator's actions, how he talks, how he'd be thinking and then correlate that to what he's showing, and I think- Dream can't help himself when he has control. It's just a thrill, that he can't stop himself from showing. I think he's a bit of a prideful and egotistical man.

I'd like to say that during when SCU!Tommy was in prison, Dream seeing SCU!Tommy kinda freeze up at the mention of Dream reviving him, with his weak '..what?'

And he got ahead of himself, sprouting bullshit about how he is a god, controlling life and death.

Maybe with C!Tommy it would've broke him, realizing just how much control the masked dickhead has- maybe it would've made him afraid.

But SCU!Tommy is not like that. He does not care, and instead gets annoyed at him. SCU!Tommy does not have as much experience dealing with Dream as C!Tommy does.

Basically figuring out how Dream thinks and acts and putting that into writing, as well as figuring out how SCU!Tommy, or at least my headcanon version of him acts in response to Dream is.. complicated, to say the least.

SCU!Tommy is not weak, and Dream's need to intimidate him and make him feel small and weak for that bit of control will irritate him. That is not to say that SCU!Tommy cannot be broken enough to be weak to the other, but that SCU!Tommy is strong in his own right, and will not be easy to break, like C!Tommy before, who was a spitfire of insults but broke during exile.

They are both manipulators, SCU!Tommy and Dream, but Dream is the one who is more extreme out of the two. SCU!Tommy is more to befriend them, to gain their trust before backstabbing them, nothing more.

Dream is the one to gain total control of them, break them until all they can do is rely on him, depend on him to survive, to just fucking live, where he takes everything away that isn't him, where he punishes and breaks until they are molded to just fucking listen and do as he says, and only him.

Can I mention too that SCU!Tommy has really only been seen to target assumedly adults (I doubt any children are alive actually.)

Meanwhile Dream is targeting children, minors. Sure, he does the occasional manipulation of an adult, but his is very much worse.

SCU!Tommy will probably fucking HATE people like Dream, but he knows when to act onto that hatred and when not to. [SCU!Tommy saying to Charlie that he doesn't deserve his brain. something something, SCU!Tommy assumedly backing down for now and rejoining him until at a later time where he's JUST about to reach his goal, to strike back with his army.]

SO.

bro i really wanna fuckin write disc duo lmao and i know that people can do out of order oneshots in series because ive seen some where they do a oneshot of something far off in the future and then later make one that happens before that one but like aAAaa

but I dont know the full storyline lOl

how does Dream get out of prison (or how do we get Tommy in the prison with a viable reason?) it cant even be that soon either because Sam would probably stop him -

OH WAIT SHIT SAM

SOBS I JUST REALIZED I MADE HIM HAVE 2 HEARTS IN THE PART 2 ??? BUT HE LOST ONE LIFE DURING THE PRISON BREAK I THINK- BRO I READ IT TOO D: 'Killed by Dream in Pandora's Vault on February 4, 2022.' AND READING THE WIKI, ITS WAY AFTER THE PRISON BREAK?? (the prison break was on like november or something is this why the lore is so fucking confusing ?? i feel like ive missed everything)

guys why did no one tell me

SOBS

I might have SCU!Tommy meet Ghostbur though next? I dont know, Ghostbur's like everywhere and I dont know who to have him meet next D:

i dont think his priority either is learning about what happened since it isn't necessary tho? considering hes going with not remembering ..?

He'd probably just go off on his own to survive

do you think Tubbo's compass that leads to Tommy would lead to him? no wait isnt it a lodestone compass

or am i wrong? cause otherwise it would point Tubbo to the hole of Logsteshire

so it means nothing basically- what even happened to the compasses??

aGGHhh why is this so hard to think of

i think i have to settle for requests D:

anyway, uh..

also I have no idea what C!Tommy's doing, unless for some reason the SCU universe completely resets and goes all back again but I don't have the creativity to think of what SCU!Tommy was doing before he met Charlie, and assumedly had already escaped long before, as he acts with experience.

i dont know how old SCU!Tommy actually is though, but I'd assume he's a minor?

aaAAaaa

also writing this has finally given me an idea of how I want SCU!Tommy to act onto his zombie urges (maybe when starved long enough he loses all self control and just fucking goes after the first thing he sees thats living.) its a fucking thrill that fills him and its addictive.

no doubt tho he will probably stock up enough once he realizes the creepy crawlies that are out at night and (when he realizes that those zombies are not the same as his, and therefore removes his guilt) probably just fuckin kill them all for their flesh.

Maybe SCU!Tommy doesn't even care about zombies? maybe he used to be human- he had a family, SBI maybe and Wilbur had gone on a reality show with a fake name, and the others were.. MIA somehow.

Maybe. And maybe he was only with the zombies because he was a mix of both human and zombies, and therefore did not fit on either side (oddly reminds me of Tokyo Ghoul)

BUT thats really hitting headcanon territory lmao, but I have already been hitting there aghhh

but I dont wanna go too far

I probably wont lol. like I said, I dont have the creative juices for C!Tommy POV in SCU

anyway thats enough talk before i spoil too much of the series but I probably already have lol

[babymilkawa]

HI BEAN!! so basically i saw that ur inbox was open and i was wondering,,, could u maybe do like todoroki in a secret relationship x gn!reader, either texts or hc format bc i feel like thatd be rly cool. have a good day!! 😊 oh also if u want u can do like a how yall got found out too sksjdh

yes!! aah how have I never thought of doing a secret relationship with texts before,, this is brilliant!!

secret relationship headcanons with:

todoroki shoto

gn!reader :)

mild swearing

so it was your idea to keep it a secret because todoroki wouldn’t really mind letting other people know that you’re his

but he completely understands your reasons

although he wishes he could openly hold your hand and stare at you without midoriya and iida following his line of vision, he wants you to be comfortable first

there’s a lot of sneaking around, whether it’s glances at each other or to spend the night in one another’s arms, you have to admit it’s kind of fun

y’all even have a little knocking pattern

one time you were wearing his hoodie in your bed and you heard his usual knock

as soon as you opened the door, his arms were around you immediately, giving you only a few seconds to close the door with your foot

he’s picking you up by the waist and throws the two of you on your bed

“shotooo” you say, giggling

he’s usually clingy but today he was all over you

his hoodie that you were wearing had your own scent mixed in to it, making him rub his face on the crook of your neck while holding you by the waist

your hands instinctively went up to his hair and ruffled his soft locks

after rubbing his face print onto your neck LMAO, the two of you just lay there, panting from laughing so hard

he’s still on top of you and he doesn’t plan on moving any time soon

his cheek is to yours and his face is literally 😌

then you get a text saying that everyone’s meeting up in the living room to talk about plans for the weekend

gently pushing your boyfriend off you, you say “hey I need to leave first, you can come 5 min later or I’ll text you. Ok sho?”

he didn’t respond, arm still snuggly wrapped around your waist

you wiggled out of his grasp and got out of bed

remembering to take his hoodie off, you leave your dorm, looking around to see if anyone was near

you immediately sat up from your seat on the couch and rushed to your dorm

you saw midoriya standing outside of your room and you didn’t know whether to be relieved or to panic

he was a good friend of your boyfriend’s and if he did find out, you trusted that he would keep it a secret

midoriya saw you coming and whispered, “uhh y/n I think you have someone in your dorm”

“what? Oh no don’t worry about it, I just came out there’s no one in there”

“are you sure? I think we should check..”

“nopeee don’t worry about it! I think we should go, they’re probably waiting for us”

you dragged him away from your door and the two of you sat next to each other on the couch

you could tell that he suspected something, though

although you were grateful that he was worried and wanted to ensure your safety, you knew that your tone of voice sounded suspicious

then iida spoke up “where’s todoroki? We said to meet in 5 minutes!”

you looked at anywhere but midoriya and he turned to you, suspicions confirmed

uraraka was on your other side and just at that moment, she started dusting your shoulder “y/n why do you have white hair on your shoulder, red too”

ah shit

you could see midoriya’s eyes widen from your peripheral vision and see other heads turning to you

“yea..” denki said. “where is todoroki?”

“why are you looking at me? I don’t know where he is.” you say.

then at that moment, your boyfriend walked in, looking around

realizing that there were no seats left, he subconsciously plopped down right at your feet, causing the whole room to gasp

“I KNEW IT” kirishima said, jumping up to his feet and pointing at the two of you

mina was hopping around and screaming “how did we not notice 😫😭”

“well it wasn’t really obvious until like 5 minutes ago” midoriya says beside you

“wait..so the hair on you.. was Todoroki’s?” denki says.

“no shit sherlock, who else could it belong to?” bakugou growls

you honestly don’t know how to react and looking down at your boyfriend, you realized that he looked pretty calm, except for the tiniest smirk on his face

to be honest, you didn’t mind anymore

plus now, you could put the collage you made of your couple pictures as your screen saver

todoroki already had todorokiy/n as his phone passcode but he wanted to change ur contact name and put his favorite picture of you as his screensaver

then he got up and pulled you off the sofa, only to sit back down himself and bring you into his lap

the room broke out in “awws” and you could feel the color rushing into your cheeks

he rested his chin on your shoulder and said, “so what are we talking about?”

a/n: this was so fun to write!! aah yk I really wanna give you guys content/prompts that you don’t usually find on here,,,hence the quarantine ones,,,but I apologize if you come on Tumblr to get away from all that oops 🤭

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