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enderina · 2 months ago

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Do you guys just ever feel left out by your friends?? Like everytime my friends go out they never invite me to go with them. It feels like they don't even want me around most of the time, Like i just don't fit with them, Sometimes i wish i wasn't autistic mostly for this reason.

#ender's tag #ender's talks #vent?? sorta #idk i just saw a post of one of my irl friend that she went to a comic con {that i couldn't go bc of family issues} and had fun and it made #-me rlly sad...Like i'm happy she was able to go but she could've asked me if i wanted to go with her y'know #{she already knew i wanted to go there but couldn't btw}#so idk...#but even with my other friends they never invite me to anything #can i even call them friends atp??#idk #i think it's because i'm autistic #they probably see me as different and won't even try to be friends with me #i think #it's always been like this...I hope it'll get better in the future. maybe when i'll be an adult i will find friends?? will i ever?#i mean as of now i have my f/os but it's not the same #so yeah idk what to think #txt post

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mik-mania · 8 months ago

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ive been tryna work around with the idea of like. little musical motifs as troll adoptables...? or doing like a gacha or smth? but ive been having a hard time conceptualizing it

#i feel like. it may be difficult to format on tumblr and/or kofi.#and it probably would need visuals with it.#so idk...#i also dunno if i want to add. package deals or smth?#give me x amount and ill make it a full song/change the instruments/etc?#but then again what i like about adopts is that when theyre done theyre done #so idk #posting this to see if anyone has thoughts

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youkah · 15 days ago

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sorry I'm not over the fact that I had an appointment with the geneticist the other day specifically to get a connective tissue genetics test done to rule out vascular EDS. and they are testing for every genetic marker relating to every connective tissue disorder under the sun. however apparently the main suspects for what I have are rare. like a couple of them are forms of eds with less than 100 recorded patients in literature... didn't even know there are Subtypes to the Subtypes of eds based on the genetic mutations. what the hell man. I'm not like super upset I guess idk I have mixed feelings because I know eds itself isn't what they treat it's the complications that arise but the complications I most Likely have are rare as well and there's already only so many doctors that can treat them, and I know depending on the form of EDS I do have it can change my plan of treatment vastly and the options for doctors... So I'm like. Kinda nervous about it. I'm trying to ball though...

#text #disability arc #forgot about this tag #anyway what do you mean there's a type I and II of some forms of eds #classic like eds types I and II are possible suspects for me I guess...#and then it ends with 'or other rare genetic connective tissue disorder'#I've never seen the unspecified other for possible diagnoses specify rare #so I guess that's the part that's like. throwing me off...#idk I already know most connective tissue stuff is more about treating complications that arise #but still... idk it's kinda scary. I never thought I'd end up in a situation like this medically #i don't know if I should be scared #on one hand it's like. kinda good I guess that I can't find too much information? about life expectancy and stuff #but on the other hand the lack of information terrifies me #so idk...

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dearbhlaaaaghhhhhelpme · 1 month ago

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Feelin the urge to make a new oc..... mayhaps a vampire necromancer type beat.....ughhh

#helpme rambles #i mean #im dYING (ba dum tss) to design a pretty man with weird mental issues #but ive got gabriel for that #so idk...

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chocochat · 2 months ago

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idk what to get my friend for her birthday and im seeing her this friday

#irmi's diary #ex best friend kinda...#we didnt exchange xmas gifts last year so idk if we're still on birthday gift basis???#well i got her a xmas present but we didnt see each other till MARCH #so idk...#maybe a perfume? we havent hung out at all really so idk if shes been wanting anything #oh wait let me message her fiance

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foreverwants · 4 months ago

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doing a mini revamp of all of my blogs (aka i'm just gonna start writing again like nothing happened)

#♡ *⊹ ⁄⁄⁄ out of forevers.#or what if i restart this blog altogether #polling the crowd #what do y'all think #i mostly used this url because it was matching with cici #but she AINT HERE RN #so idk...

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irregardlessly-tish · 2 years ago

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Ants attacked over night and reduced my sugar flower plant and one lily to basically nothing, I hope they are satisfied and don't touch any other plants because damn, they left pretty much nothing... I guess the lily will grow back if it's bulb is intact which I suppose it is? Not so sure about the sugar flower... I'm honestly kind of heartbroken 🥲

#;diary #i feel bad about using ant poison #but if this continues i want to protect my garden #so idk...#finding them in the state they are today was quite shocking

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fifty-ten · 2 years ago

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anyways my new binders came in over the weekend & while they are both quite good at their jobs, I can't tell if they're supposed to be as tight as they are or...

#like they seem really tight. and i can't tell if that's just normal or if i screwed up on the sizing or what.#so idk...#fiftytenpost

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sixofclovers · 3 months ago

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