#so im always trying to indoctrinate more >:)

[elliesmainhoe]

Hey there vivi, I think your work is cool <33 Wanted to ask what you thought of Ellie and girlfriend having IVF with both their genetics/eggs so they both have a biological child together. Know it’s not possible yet but im thinking about a Ellie with biological kid. Tmi but im ovulating so this is what im thinking ab rn. Not asking you to do a little blurb if you don’t want to, but wanted to know if you like the idea of Ellie and her kidd, ngl i think is interesting and adorable. Much love!

omg I fucking love this idea!!!! she would be so silly , I wrote some headcanons for this so hope you like it!!!!

ELLIE WILLIAMS HEADCANONS: YOU HAVE A BABY WITH HER (biologically)

okay let's say- distant future, lesbians can now have biological babies (yay technology!)

when you tell her that your pregnant girlie is gobsmacked, even though you two were actively trying. (aka raw dogging every night)

goes through a crisis, buys baby books, pregnancy books, looks into a ton of birth and labour options

shes prepared for everything, goes to Joel to find advice about taking care of a pregnant woman and what to do with a newborn

GRANDPA JOEL????

stop that would be the most adorable shit ever, him sitting on his porch, yours and Ellie's babe on his chest, giving you two a break

stopppp 😭😭😭😭

anyways getting off topic-

she's literally so much more a doting loser than she usually is (which is a feat in itself)

gets you all your cravings, chocolate? done. pickles? done. chocolate AND pickles together? fuck it she'll try some too.

loves decorating the nursery in your house

PAINTS A DINOSAUR AND/OR SPACE MURAL IN THE ROOM???

the nerd indoctrination is already happening.

her and Joel make loads of custom furniture, adjustable crib, rocking/nursing chair, changing station.

the nursery ends up looking so cute, with loads of earthy tones and greens but also an array of rainbow toys.

OMG THEY MAKE YOUR BABY A ROCKING HORSE??

shed be so supportive during labour

whatever birth method you choose shes so supportive, makes you a little emergency bag just in case you go into labour

loves skin to skin

after the birth, you're exhausted of course, so you're sleeping and she's alone with a newborn baby???

honestly thinks that the baby looks a little funky

when babies come out they're squished, red and all silly looking

they're cute of course!!! but Ellie is still hoping your babe grows out of the squished tomato, potato phase?

skin to skin is her favorite thing

having the baby laid on her chest is genuinely the sweetest thing ever

she 100% cries when your baby grows out of their first onesie

she's so sentimental, keeps everything your kid does or has

old dummies (pacifiers if you're American), baby toys that the kid doesn't play with anymore, the umbilical cord? it's in a ziplock bag somewhere.

wears the baby in those baby back pack things (I can't remember the name LMAO)

when the baby starts teething she's always making jokes about how you've given birth to a feral baby.

jokingly scolds the baby when they start biting when you breastfeed them

dresses the kid up in the funnies outfits

the baby's dresser is basically a fancy dress box by now. dinosaur costumes, teddy bear costumes, pirate costume?

literally everything

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I now have baby fever. kms.

not proofread

she's the best mum especially with a newborn

[cosmicpoutine]

leaving a lil rant here :]

I love Tim and his ships sm. Me personally, I only really ship TimKon. Those two are perfect for eachother and have so much clear queer coding that it’s crazy, and they have dialogue that’s just. gay shaped.

I also get TimBart, I don’t ship it romantically but I get why people do!! Tim and Bart are close as well, and the balance they get between ‘depressed tired wet cat’ and ‘living breathing embodiment of adhd’ is great.

I also get TimBartKon, they’re a trio. They are always a trio, so many people like to bring up how TimKon has so much coding and one of the big examples they use is when Tim tried to clone Kon. You know who else he tried to clone? Bart.

The only Tim ship I don’t get is TimBern, or any ship involving those two. When Bernard first appears, he’s Tim’s bully. He actively makes fun of tim and puts him down and then that character is forgotten about until Tim comes out as bi, then they just rework his character and go “haha guys this is his boyfriend not bully ygs are crazy” and just forget about all the bad stuff Bernard did? Reworking a character is great and all but, it just feels a bit weird and out of place for me. There’s always going to be that certain toxicity for TimBern, at least for me.

homie... bully??? im flabbergasted- im speechless- im jason todd (dead)

okay, im gonna start off by saying you have all the right to not ship them, and im not here to defend timbern as a ship. im here to defend BERNARD DOWD.

first thing bernard does is give tim advice about teachers, and he clearly says they're gonna be good friends.

if bernard was a bully, tim wouldn't hang around him so much. besides, i hate it when people place tim as a helpless little boy who would get bullied. he has put himself in situations where he looks weak on purpose to keep his identity safe, but he's not a victim at all. tim is a social butterfly because he's really good at masking and reading people.

not to mention, both bernard and darla push tim a lot because they're trying to get him to open up and be closer to them, but he keeps pushing them away. tim is a professional liar.

and when tim has to quit robin and start hanging out with normal people, he invites bernard over.

and bernard is acting relatively normal, and he wants to play video games and talk about how hot tim's stepmom is.

bernard is a normal teenager who has no idea one of his friends is the hero he's so obsessed with. he even shows concern for robin dying and makes up an entire conspiracy theory about batman havin a robin orphanage. you can tell he's afraid of robin being gone for real because at this point they haven't seen robin in months bc tim retired.

i dont know what about all of these interactions gave you the vibe that he's a bully because all i see is a normal teenager teasing his friends and being jealous tim gets more bitches.

im not saying that bernard was never mean or weird around tim, but he definitely wasn't actively bullying tim.

bernard is obnoxious and cocky, yes. but thats just because they wrote him as a real person. he's the school's chameleon, maybe even a little bit of a loser, too. he knows everyone but keeps a safe distance so that he doesn't get pushed into a box. im not sure if, at this point, he was already in a cult or being indoctrinated, but when we see his parents and the dowd home in tim drake: robin that just doesn't look right.

also homie talk about "forgetting all the bad things bernard did" (which in my opinion is none but okay lets follow that logic) everyone forget about all the bad things batman did to tim, he was not a kind and loving mentor, he was cruel to both tim and steph. we forget that batman was kind of an asshole to damien in the beginning. all those things are forgotten for the sake of the batfam.

in conclusion: we're just so used to the idea that superheroes can only ever form strong friendship bonds by having near death experiences together that we forget that the secret identifies exist and that the people who know them by their legal name also means a lot to them. after all, these people are the reason why they're heroes.

[teddytoroa]

Oh awesome!!!

My personal favourite jazz albums to recommend (in no particular order) are

Mint Jams (1982) - Casiopea

Time Out (1959) - The Dave Brubeck Quartet

Journey in Satchidananda (1970) - Alice Coltrane

Windflower (1977) - Herb Ellis and Remo Palmier

Wede Harer Guzo (1978) - Hailu Mergia & Dahlak Band (I'm actually not sure if this one is jazz?? I've heard from some that it's jazz and from others that it's funk or soul. Either way it's really good so I'm including just in case. more folks should listen to it either way imo)

I also recommend these two mixes; 1970s Japanese jazz and Ethiopian jazz - this account has a lot of very good jazz mixes (as well as other genres) so if you enjoy one or both of these you can have a dig around in their archive and find some more really great music 😊

hi hello you like jazz could you recommend me some jazz songs/singers? I joke that I'm cursed by having a good voice for it but zero knowledge of the genre

OKAY SO i do love jazz but i massively prefer non vocal jazz I pretty much exclusively listen to just instrumental jazz im sorryyyyy I do wish I could be more help here

if you're open to listening to just instrumental jazz im more than happy to rec you my favourite albums but if it's songs you're after i am not the person to ask unfortunately otl

[vsa-pieldepapel]

I will say this with absolutely no ill will towards you: you should learn to chill out. Nobody is trying to lynch you, this is the internet and you're not some kind of world famous star. Whatever you say here, you're saying it anonymous. You are not in danger.

I do think your concerns about the male violence and how male people are viewed by the gen Z are valid. I do agree that white people like to protect themselves with labels. I do believe that this younger generation was raised by the internet, so they tend to be very aggressive (especially the english speakers and ESPECIALLY americans).

But you need to understand that these people are the minority. Like, a percent of a percent. They don't represent the community they're "fighting" for, let alone the whole internet. They are not capable of harming you in any way.

I would suggest for you (again, genuinely) to search up more right-wing ideas and spaces. You might find yourself surprised by how welcoming of everyone they actually tend to be. I mean, if the lefties keep harassing you and you don't like them, why should you try to befriend them?

I see you saying "just block me and move on", that is a good idea and I agree. But, you see, the questions like "are you a terf?" don't always mean to trap you. You don't have anything in your bio, no age, no political views, even no pronouns or anything like "I'm a woman"! How is anybody supposed to guess your views of the world? Your posts are usually very long and disorganized, and you don't answer anything concretely.

Again, you're not in danger. If you're transphobic, then be transphobic openly and proudly! The sooner people will see that their and your views are polar opposites, the sooner they will leave.

Ok first of all I am chill. I speak very strongly. Always have, always will. 2 years ago I was very stressed about all this but not anymore. My analysis posts are that: analysis and criticism.

im not some world famous star but i still had a stalker, several accusations of pedophilia, transphobia, being ableist, and maybe the funniest one of all being "the reason why all bisexuals are evil" all in the span of like a couple years. Just because youre not a superstar it doesn't mean you are immune to people being fucking stupid. 1300 followers is still a group the size of a small middle of nowhere town, and its impossible to please a group that big, even if it's only 1300 and not a million.

it doesn't matter if these people are a percent of a percent. that percent of a percent still came here to be annoying. it could be 0.1% and i still want that 0.1% gone. i don't think my mother was of any less harm to me because she was 1 woman and part of the small group of people with NPD. I know they have no structural power IRL, because I have confronted the ones I know IRL and seen them fold like little wallflowers. But they are bold here and here is where I want them out of my lawn. Honestly, every time I am told this, it feels like a scapegoat to not have to acknowledge how fucking annoying these people are lmao

I don't think they're "harming" me given I can log off. their ideology did in the past, however. a cult can have only 10 people and a leader, and the leader will still affect all ten people, especially if they were indoctrinated as teenagers, which i was. to pretend that internet shit never leaks into real life is disingenuous too. I have to deal with people like these fucking IRL, dude. art and fandom spaces are plagued with them, and that's where I sell merch locally. Even in my 4 million person minuscule country of latam, at the local convention where I'm selling shit i have to navigate a minefield of virtue signaling. Am I truly gonna get killed? Of course not. I speak emphatically and hyperbolically for style. Doesn't mean it's not fucking annoying though!!!!!

Before you say "get a job": yes I'm on it.

I have read what the right wing has to say. I disagree with a lot of it. I know they claim to be open to a variety of ideas, and i have seen graphs displaying they have a broader variety of them, but right wing people have been the ones to call me godless, homosexual slurs, try to fix how I dress, speak or act etc (latin america is vastly right wing and conservative). The very reason I shit on these libs is because they espouse the ideas of right wingers with a rainbow coat of paint and without questioning. I don't consider the wokies "left" in any way, they're more like extreme individualists. I also don't befriend them anymore; I talk to anons here and it's chill but my friends are like. 5 people in a private discord server i have to chat to them online, and a couple artists IRL who aren't insane.

I have changed enough to be open now about making friends who describe themselves as centre, right wing, etc. I don't label my beliefs any which way anymore precisely to not be defined as X or Y.

I don't have anything in my bio because I find it irrelevant and was raised under the "try to keep most personal things about you to yourself on the internet" security mindset. The details come out here and there in asks, but they're not important enough to paste as a bio and i don't care if people who don't know me personally think I'm a dude or whatever. I have already been baited with double-double bind questions before, so I've grown wary of them. My posts analyzing things are long because without breaking my points down it gives more room for people to misinterpret them (and just because I like writing). If you don't like them or think theyre too meandering you can just not read them and filter #vsa art, #my art, #deltarune etc. i'm not holding you at gunpoint here. this is my blog and if i want it to be a clusterfuck it will be. "If you're transphobic be transphobic openly and proudly" lol, first of all, i love the leap to assume my criticisms are transphobia already-- point proven about any pushback being perceived as "-phobia"-- secodnly, you have never seen what they do to people who criticise them, or...? These people got a russian lesbian artist arrested bc they outed her as a lesbian to the government when they were criminalizing homosexuals over edgy poltical drawings and did so without remorse. I don't think anything that extreme would happen to me for "transphobia" given, as you say, im not scarlett johansson, but i would very much rather catgirlcockcumballs not be sending me dick pictures, gore, rape threats, suicide bait, child pornography, or all the other pleasant things these lovely people do at the slightest pushback. Theyre not inoffensive little marshmallows.

TL;DR: i'm chill, yes i know, yes i know but theyre still fucking annoying and i see them irl, no i already saw right wing stuff and i didn't agree with most of it, if you don't like my long posts don't read them, lol lmao

[beifong-brainrot]

Beifong babies appreciation post

This is gonna be a more self indulgent post. But if you spend any time on my blog, you know how much I adore the Beifong family, particularly Suyin and her children. And you know what I don't see enough appreciation for Suyin's babies, which makes sense, since they're side characters, but here's a lil ramble about them and some reasons why I love them.

Baatar Jr

Actually, I think Baatar is actually a very underutilised character for being Kuvira's supposed right hand man, as well as her fiancé.

He's technically the brains behind Kuvira's collosus, and probably much more.

As damaging as living in his father's shadow was for him, I do find it extremely adorable how he engineered all Baatar Sr's projects, it's really cute!

His loyalty to Kuvira and his love for her is admirable. It's honestly adorable, how much she means to him.

Btw mans stared into Korra's eyes while she threatened him im the Avatar state and laughed. Say what you want about him but he has balls.

The angst surrounding his involvement with Kuvira is absolutely delicious.

Like imagine turning your back on everyone you know and love for one person, only for then to turn on you and try to kill you with upur own creation?

And then everything you've worked for for 3 years is null and void? Gnarly

Also him being under house arrest with the family he betrayed? You could argue he got off really easy, which he did... but goodness gracious the angst.

Huan

I'm like 75% sure that he's a reference to The Dark One, one of Toph's metalbending students, which is actually really fun I love you emo metalbenders.

I always found non combative benders very interesting, especially when they use their bending for things like art, it's very cool.

While I think a Huan's character is made to mock "tortured abstract artists" a bit, he actually isn't terribly caricaturised?

Like... he has a pretty clear ideology and moral compass, and he sticks to his guns, even when threatened. He clearly values personal freedom and freedom of expression, and is willing to stand up for it.

I also love headcanoning that he had a close relationship with Aiwei. Since some of Huan's ideals match up more or less with Red Lotus ideology, which makes me wonder if Aiwei did subtly indoctrinate Suyin's children.

Huan and Ikki's friendship is really cute too lol.

His design is also really cool ngl

Opal

MY BABY AHHH 🧡 honestly my fave female tlok character.

Free her from the heterosexual love interest dimension she deserves so much better lol.

Like, I really dislike Bopal as a ship, and part of it is because of how much of a disservice it does to both characters. But most anti Bopal takes I see are also horrifically anti Opal.

Honestly, Opal just gets a surprisingly large amount of hate in genral? Like why? People call her annoying and a brat/ a knockoff Korra and she's barely done anything lmao

Opal's is very interesting, her journey to independence, her unseen development between B3 and B4, her firece loyalty to her family despite her separation from them

A lot of people criticise her attitude towards Kuvira, but honestly, she was quite rational in her anger? I also think she should have been allowed to hold a grudge against Bolin for longer, like yes he redeemed himswlf somewhat when rescuing her family, but it does feel really shallow and a fast way of tying up a pretty complex storyline.

Her arc reminds me very much of Toph's in atla, which is bittersweet since we see how that ended for Toph.

I love her lil pouty face ahh.

Wei and Wing

Genuinely. Might be my fave underdeveloped side characters.

Avatar has a habit of making very interesting twin duos and these two are no exception.

I really like their strong bond with their mother, they really are the most mamma's boys to ever mamma's boy.

Similarly to Opal, the twins' firece loyalty to their family and city is really sweet, but also there's a lot of potential for angst here. Like, Opal gets to see the world and adventure, but the twins are probably stuck in Zaofu forever.

The twins also are the only ones of their siblings upholding that "Beifong metalbender" archetype that Toph started. I think there is a bit of pressure on them, ad they are the "golden boys" of the family

I'm also a sucker for when benders work together/combine their skills so seeing the twins work together is really sweet.

Also. Gay™️. [Insert longass ramble about weilin lol]

I actually find the small differences in personality between them that we are shown. Where Wei is a bit more snooty and competitive, Wing is very playful and outward with himself. I like picking their differences apart.

Okk.. that's it my ramble for today us over 😭 I love the Beifong babies so much and wish there was more appreciation of them lol

[forecast0ctopus]

star trek AND PSYCH FANART?? Immediate follow.

But for real I love your art so much and I always want more people indoctrinated into the Psych fandom.

!!!! thanks so much :D love it when people like more than one thing that i’m into haha a lot of times there’s not much overlap…. and i totally get that lmao im always trying to get everyone else into the things i enjoy too 🤝🤝🤝

[gummieturtle]

fanart wip of Hinata and Kenma from Haikyuu :))

I've been obsessively scrolling through haikyuu fanart on Pinterest and omg the art on there is just- like how do they always make it look so atmospheric??? it always looks so cozy and the colours are so warm and inviting AND IM SO JEALOUS IMMA LEARN HOW TO DO THAT I SWEAR TO YOU,, also was thinking I'll probably try to start drawing more simple sketches rather than making every drawing a full on illustration cuz boy do these burn me out so bad😭😭 also also I have recently been indoctrinated into the bokuaka cult and whenever I see them have started shouting in my head "THEY'RE MARRIED YOUR HONOUR" so love that for me

[snarfflarf]

ok im still in act 1 on my durge play through cuz i got distracted by hades 2 so i might be talking out of my ass here but from all that ive heard i find it really, like... sad that gortash is into durge. like i feel sad for him. like yes he is a shitty person but giving him the benefit of a doubt for the second this man was abused his whole life. his horrible shitty parents sold him to raphael when he was just a little kid cuz they didnt want to fucking deal with him, where he was basically just imprisoned and tortured the whole rest of his life until he escaped somehow, maybe bane helped him maybe theres something else im forgetting or havent seen yet but whatever it was, for 10 or more years he kept all of it all completely secret so he could build his image for bane or whatever, the best petty justice he got against his parents was giving them particularly bad parasites, which is honestly too good for them. he never stood a chance. and then theres durge. they never stood a chance either. (neither did orin, for that matter, its really only ketheric that did). durge is a bhaal spawn made out of bhaals own flesh to be his unholy assassin, his slayer, his chosen. they were raised in a murder cult with a hereditary, extremely difficult to resist urge to kill. they never stood a chance. still, they tried anyways. they wanted to be good. they were never taught what good was, but they wanted to be good anyways. they escaped. they found a loving home. and they loved. they loved as much as they could until the urge overpowered them. they were just a child. durge wanders by hopscotch drawn in chalk on the floor and wonders if they were sweet once. they wanted so badly to be sweet. to be good. even when everything and everyone in their life wanted them to be bad. then they get a chance to start over, a blank slate, still with the urge but without the indoctrination. and they can choose to be good. or they can at least try, as they always did. i think gortash envies that, or wants it, or yearns for it. he finally meets another just like him, a person without a chance, someone he can talk to, who could understand him. and this someone, even while plotting the death of everyone in baldurs gate, is someone who has tried to be good, despite everything. i think its noticeable on durge. through all their darkness there is a light trying its hardest to shine. maybe gortash wishes he had that light too, either for some dream that he could be good, or merely to feel he has the option.

[thatone-highlighter]

I just got through the Earthlings arc during my SU rewatch and im absolutely facinated by Jaspers character

She’s such an effective antagonist for so long because she clashes with every other character so fundamentally. She’s got this completely foreign to the show worldview that is shown to be contrary to what the rest of the show is trying to say but she still feels like a real person and when you think about her she’s just as much a product of her circumstances as anyone else. She doesn’t want to talk it out with Steven because why would she? She was literally born to fight as has been doing so since the second she was born, it’s all she’s ever known and has been drilled into her head that that’s what’s expected of her, she’s rewarded for fighting well and watches as others are punished for doing badly, either by losing or by facing consequences for failing.

And then there’s the whole “perfect solider” part of her character. She was literally born more capable and with a higher status than everyone else. But because of the way home world is structured to reward her and punish people like the off-colours, she’s been indoctrinated into thinking that the reason she came out on top had nothing to do with how she was made and everything to do with her behaviour and attitude. Peak “pull yourself up by your bootstraps” type person but because it’s a fictional story you can see what happened to make her this way. Her and amethyst are fundamentally different, they’re different quartzes, they were born in different places, they were just created differently, from the start jasper was always going to be better at some things than amethyst and amethyst would be better at others than jasper. But because of the way jasper has been “raised” for lack of a better word she doesn’t see that, she doesn’t understand that her and amethyst are simply different gems who were made different, she’s better at fighting and is picture image of what a quartz “should” be so that means it’s possible and anyone who can’t live up to that standard simply isn’t trying hard enough. And she even manages to get that into amethysts head, if jasper is capable of this then that means that amethyst must be too, even tho that’s simply not true. Through no fault of her own amethyst would have to try infinitely harder to achieve even close to where jasper is, jasper started out with a huge head start and trying to play catch up does nothing but hurt amethyst. It’s such a good analogy for so many things I think

Her main role in the story is serving as a character who simply refuses to talk it out with Steven, but again, why would she? From her perspective the entire reason her life is like this, she reason shes spent her life fighting endlessly, all the suffering shes lives through, its his fault. Rose Quartz started the war she was quite literally born to fight in. Rose Quartz also ended that same war by killing the only person jasper ever had to look up to, forced her out of the only reason she had for existing (both as in to fight the war and to serve Pink Diamond). And then heres Rose Quartz once again, saying she wants to help her? Where was she offering help when jasper when she was living to fight as much as she was fighting to live? Where was this „help“ when she shattered Pink Diamond and Jaspers entire world with her? „Help“? Help my ass shes the reason everything thats gone wrong in jaspers life went wrong in the first place

And then she gets poofed at her lowest point, gets removed from the story entirely until Future, and Future does nothing to make anything better for her! Last jasper knew the person shes been seeking revenge on her entire existence cant even be bothered to remember what she did, and then she loses herself to the Earth and corruption, the very things she prided herself on being better than.

And then suddenly shes brought back and „hey guess what! That war we created you to fight in? The one you created your entire person around? The one you lost Everything in? Yeah so it was pointless. Actually the person you idolised for the past 6000 years is the same person who you thought killed her and have been seeking vengeance on for the same amount of time. Crazy how that happens. Anyways so do you wanna come hang out with us now that we sorted that out and were chill about it?“

Can you even IMAGINE what that feels like? No wonder she runs off into the woods and becomes a hermit what else is she supposed to do! Shes got nowhere to go! Her entire life has been turned on its head and she’s expected to just move on! That’s ridiculous!

And thats just the backdrop for her appearance in Future. When she finally does appear they kill her and thats the first and only time we ever see her happy. Someone Finally speaks to her in a way she can understand and she actually dies, and uses that to find herself a purpose. If steven is powerful enough to shatter her, a feat never before seen by a gem, then sure she can serve him, anything to give her life purpose again. and then they just forget about her! Steven literally ditched her in his house! They pull the rug out from under her Once Again. but now she can be „normal“ now she can do what other people want her to do so they all assume shes „better“ now.

I think future did her so dirty the original show handles her character So Well and im not really sure how else they could have gone further with her character because people like Jasper in real life dont really change. And if she were to change and agree with steven it would feel like the show saying steven was right and jasper was wrong and she should have listened to him from the start. Shes such an interesting character to delve into because shes the antagonist yes but shes a very specific type or antagonist that doesnt appear very often and when it does its not with as much backstory, even if just implied, or delving into the thoughts behind the actions. Its so interesting to me

[lunar-system]

veilguard liveblog day 1

first impressions after 5ish hours of game play

I love it! I love my rook so much

I got a bit sad trying to recreate my inquisitor. I don't think i have any screenshots of her, it was ten years ago. But I do remember the colour palette, the haircut, and most importantly that she had a way too long nose (thanks dai character creator). And maybe the years have just changed her. And her worry and her responsibility. And solas. 

(I also rewrote my own canon a little by having my inky be romanced by solas. She was lavellan, but back then I tried dating Sera. I just played her too straight as a dalish elf, and when sera straight up asked her to choose between her and her beliefs, it ended between them. Going with Solas fits well in that arc, even if that's not how it can go in the game.)

- In veilguard im again playing and elf, and a veiljumper mage. I want to be up close and personal with the elven gods storyline. 

- rook feels so much like their own character. I already know what kind of a person they are. I was so lost with inq about why are they here etc. But rook feels good. 

- especially cause i got to meet other veil jumpers. Rook has this little sibling rascal energy

- funnyy how misleading the trailers were in that i fully expected solas doing the ritual in tevinter capital but they zipped us in arlathan instead

- curious if the first quest after tutorial is dependent on your faction or is it always arlathan forest first? It works really well with my character and like i said rook feels much more like their own person than inky felt in a looong time 

- it loooks sooooo beautiful 

- and then we are so suddenly in a real horror movie territory, pulsing giants guts everywhere and bodies intertwined with them, i had not expected that, maybe it's the hifi graphics but i don't remember dai ever feeling that gross

- my fighting is super chaotic but i haven't died once yet! so I'm doing something right even if it's quite much button spamming. It feels very fast paced.

- so many cute npcs, i wish i could talk to all of them. 

- haven't had super long conversations with any characters yet, in fact.

- im curious about the relationship between the evanuris and the blight

- it irks my ear every time a character calls them gods, but i guess I'm too solas-indoctrinated. can't expect the characters to know and accept right away that they are not gods. I feel a theological argument arising everytime. How do you define a god? Does it have to have created something? Is it just that it's worshipped? And powerful? hoping this will get addressed down the line

next: getting started p2 ->

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[steamedtilyapia]

yea ok i know im not the only one voicing concerns over amane getting forgiven this trial but. i am actually so worried for what'll happen if she is so im going to talk about it anyway

longish post?? i think?? so uh. read more

- on the one hand, the one everyone talks about: shidou's physical safety. this one's obvious

you can argue that amane is 12 and shidou is a grown ass man more than twice her age but also;;;; a lot of theories ive seen of amane also include her victim being an adult. 12 years old or not, there's a lot you can do with a weapon when you catch someone off guard, and shidou isn't exactly fit to fight someone off, even a 12 year old on adrenaline. also given how he's working himself to the bone keeping mahiru alive and taking care of fuuta he's probably not going to be all that alert to his surroundings either. though with kazui once again innocent leaning, hopefully this concern can be set aside for a while.

- on the other hand, what worries me more (ie making me shit my fucking pants in fear) is that there's another real threat amane poses that can't be solved by kazui being forgiven: amane is trying to convert fuuta.

(from fuuta's 2023 birthday timeline on the wiki)

shidou's safety can be accounted for, but whay about fuuta? fuuta, whose mental health is going to shit and at an all time low; fuuta, desperate for anything that'll give him a sense of safety and security? right now fuuta is a textbook example of someone vulnerable to cult indoctrination, which amane will happily provide. there was also @vampuppyy 's post (that i agree with and also makes other good points) that mentioned this could be compounded if amane is forgiven as well. hell, fuuta's second trial voice drama is even named BAPTISM OF FIRE.

if amane is forgiven this trial, someone is definitely getting hurt.

- the threat amane poses aside however, i do have my own reasons for voting her guilty this round beyond her potential to hurt someone. and it's that i don't think forgiving her is actually going to do her much good??

(amane's second trial voiceline, also from the wiki)

she says she'll forgive us for trial 1 and to think about our verdict again carefully with the implication that she expects to be forgiven this round. i think forgiving her this round will do nothing but just tell her 'we were wrong to not forgive you the first time, your cult beliefs are right actually. thank you for your generosity, please take this as an apology for our mistake' which does nothing but reinforce her belief that she's righteous in her cult mentality, especially if we're right about her murder being partially motivated by her believing her victim also broke one of the cult's tenets. she's going to turn out like muu singing about how 'it's not my fault' won't she?

i get why people are forgiving her this round and im not saying it's wrong (honestly good for amane for killing her abuser!! you go girl slay), but imo it's not the best decision to make right now given the circumstances. of course milgram's strict innocent/guilty system doesn't allow for any kind of nuance, and i do realize a guilty won't be good for her either, but i think doubling down on the guilty and not forgiving her this round might be the better decision in the long run. if we still want to forgive her, we always have trial 3 to do it anyway

(honestly i think if we wanted to forgive her it should've been in trial 1—but there's nothing we can do about that anymore, all we can do now is play damage reduction trying to fix what went wrong after the trial 1 results)

so uh. yeah that's all the reasons im guilty voting amane this trial 👍 i hope this was coherent

[swordmaid]

im trying to hurry and get to act 2 but the underdark is so big sobs and shri’iia’s time down there is such an important arc for her story bc that’s rlly when the cult indoctrinations starts to fall apart…! and that’s when she fully realised that she’s been abandoned and she’s all alone now and she can’t return to the world she knows anymore. and the underdark is one of the places she’s been wanting to go back to the moment she was dropped off in the surface bc it’s her home…! except it’s not anymore, and she has such a terrible time down there and by the end, she chooses to perform her first selfless paladin feat (freeing the enslaved gnomes), chooses to pursue the oathbreaker path and this new freedom, and leave lolth behind. I also think that’s the last time she’s in the underdark like ever, in her life, bc going back down there is dangerous esp now that she’s forsaken lolth.

but anyway, I want to get to act 2 bc that’s when she actually explores this new freedom and her new oath…! she’s free now and all the consequences are hers to bear but what does that mean exactly? if paladin talents derived from their own self will and belief to their oath, how would that affect her when she isn’t even sure about her new oath yet? and how far would she go for it? I think act 2 shri’iia is in a significantly weaker state than she was before just because her own beliefs aren’t fully realised, and I think that’s when she practices more martial skills (picks up the halberd) since her smites aren’t so powerful and constant. and I like the idea that’s the time when she’s actively choosing to do the more good, selfless deeds - things that she’s been taught to reject and scorn at but now they are things she’s actively trying to do - just bc she’s exploring this new freedom and how it feels to her. and it’s difficult too bc she is so used to having someone or something dictate her every decision, and she’s so used to always seek for their approval, but now she only has to rely on herself - the self that’s lost to her bc in her pursuit of trying to become lolth’s ideal, she’s chosen to forsake her own individuality in favour of accepting to be whatever lolth or her matriarch wanted her to be. but act 2 is definitely a transformative period for shri’iia. I also think that’s the time where she’s learning how to be kinder and to give more grace to people just because she has a better support system now than before, and she’s actually seeing kindness now compared to before where that very concept is nonexistent. there are times where she’ll slip up ofc and she unintentionally hurts someone she cares about, or she does something cruel without even considering how cruel it is, and it’s so important to me that she does make those mistakes and she learns from them. it’s a learning period for her!!!

and if act 2 is about the exploration of her oath then act 3 is about the exploration of her own self…!! and it’s also the part where she turns half illithid and her face turns into something different - she doesn’t have the red eyes of lolth’s children anymore, and she loses the beauty that drows are known to have (and she was once proud of tbh). like act 3 is such an interesting time for her too, it’s def a bit more personal, and in the end it’s either she becomes a more fully realised version of herself or she rejects the whole experience and regresses back to lolth bc she was her home but that’s for another time 🤭🤭🤭

[haeresys-realm]

Sorry not sorry, some criticism again.

https://youtu.be/5hZM3M2dMgY?si=jbR1ka3-SLwy56bV – to all such reactions I want to answer this. –

My mind never changed. It is absolutely unnatural to show such arrogant self-assured motherfucker and then say he's a little wretched baby come show us a pity and give us your money, NO. It doesn't work this way, hoyo. If the character behaves himself as a selfish fucker I will never believe he's so poor thing to feel compassion. Whatever story you show after absolutely inappropriate behavior. We always read and see he's not a pleasant person, but an insolent narcissistic boy who talks too imbudent and familiarly even to the galaxys great genius. And hoyo are trying to indoctrinate us the idea that this Marty Sue, who supposedly has everything going according to plan and also has a superpower of luck like Marvel's Domino, is actually a poor and unhappy boy who has a great fear of final lose. Yes, yes, that is why they've wrote and shown us everywhere how much he does not care and how easily he perceives victory. Of course. And it's too hard, silly and obviously unpleasant to watch how some casino prince bypasses talented strategists and politicians easily as it's a slam dunk. I like that they finally gave a big-deep story development to a male character, but this tearjerker storytelling model for kids, and the story of this Marty Sue typical icon is so out of place, that I did not appreciate. As a result, judging by his appearance and some episodes, he is an interesting character, but in general - a disappointment.

A really cool hero, whose development I had to my heart, is Lesley Dean. Its a pity that we will never be allowed to play for him, and even more so as 5 * will not be released, huh. Meanwhile, this is the healthiest personality and a well-developed male character, for once, a good story that teaches a lot on his part. The fucking typical drama that he should disappear at the end, but in general not entirely corny and very beautiful. One of the few stories Im grateful for.

And the most charismatic man whose supremacy even I could respect is Jing Yuan. It's a pity they always tries to belittle his ruler and battle skills while comparing with some ladies. Very unpleasant moment.

AND. I must say something else to explain my Impression about his insolent way. You know, in English I really liked how him and Ratio talks. BUT. In Russian Avanturine always uses the familiar way to address to his comrade while Ratio uses the polite one. It's obviously stupid way that makes an impression as if Avanturine is something much higher than him which is definitely nit true. So, I must ask you, if you know how it was in original, could you please answer was it true or the fail of our localisation?

[dappersautismcreature]

hey sorry this is super outta nowhere but i was scrolling thru the mcytconfessions blog n saw you saying youre a wilbur hater and im genuinely curious as to why?

this isnt me waiting to like. white knight him and bite your face off btw. i like wilbur but this *is* genuine curiosity pls dont be afraid lmfaoksdsdfkhf

ah yeah, sorry nonnie, and no worries. sorry for the rant ahead i just wanna lay it all out.

listen, its pure vibes, i dont really have an explanation for it. i liked him just generally for a while, but i watched a video where he talked about american gun control and it just came off super uck to me. like, a lot of british lefties have this weird thing where they will assume americans are all stupid just for kicks when we've actually been indoctrinated to think the way we do. i guess i just dont like seeing brits have political takes that are just pure "america needs to get its shit together" cause yeah bro we know, focus on whatever the fuck is up with ur government please. I feel like if i talked politics with wilbur soot he would be condescending as shit and basically explain to me what socialism is or whatever when its like, dude,, please. british lefties think they know more than the average young american, which is most of the time not true, or not something to insult someone over. (this is also because he reminds me of a shitty ex friend who was in the states for AMERICAN STUDIES but would just talk on and on and on about how dumb americans were -___-)

and its more than that, i never get idolization of people, like, online people. the closest ive come to it was technoblade maybe? gtws is pretty awesome too, bbh is low level idolization maybe. so it weirds me out when people are just in awe over him, makes my instincts go wild. im really not accusing him of anything, i know this is just the silly brain reacting silly. it just weirds me out. his fans do not know him, nobody's fans know the person, and yet they act like they do, and like he's gods gift to leftism and queerness when he is,, a cishet maybe-aro upperclass man from britain. nothing against him really.

oh, and his fans tick me off because theyre ALWAYS inserting him into things and just. listen, i dont like having to scroll through tons of wilbur fics in the qsmp tag when im just trying to get to some badboyhalo or etoiles centric fics. the man has been on the qsmp for like less than a week of playtime and he's the fourth most tagged character on the qsmp ao3 tag.

not to mention he gets dragged into other plots like "what if this actually happened to wilbur!" or "yeah but what if wilbur was there!" or my most hated "cant wait till this character meets wilbur because i cannot enjoy this media (which is about finding and enjoying a bunch of ccs) if it doesnt have my guy in it!" like i get it, you have a hyperfix or a special interest, ive been there, but maybe then go watch stuff he's actually in, instead of forcing him into a plot he really isnt that big a part of anymore.

people also praised his dsmp writing when it was,, average at best. honestly i think bbh's and the eggpire's writing did way more for the dsmp because they actually tried to include other people in the plot as much as possible, instead of just writing for you and a few of your friends. imo, c!wilbur was an ok character, like, nothing bad, but nothing extraordinary for me. utah is death, ok buddy got it, wow, insane. yeah yeah we've all been to the soul sucking pit of utah, haha i get it. << this is just pure salt ignore that lmao

oh and lovejoy didnt fuckin invent political indie rock, people need to get over themselves on that one.

so yeah, its just a thing of, i cant really bring myself to like him. the brain goes wonky when he's around. kinda wish i didnt like, get angry when he's on screen but idk i cant really stop myself. nothing againstt you if you like him, ill usually tag anyy wilbur neg with #wilbur crit so if you wanna mute that tag. i dont post it too often tho.

[dateamonster]

ouhgg amanes story is soo interesting to me. i know im biased bc cult horror is sort of a guilty pleasure of mine but i just keep rewatching her videos bc i feel like every time i do i notice something or connect some dots that i completely didnt catch before.

in particular i rly love the use of the mascot characters representing the four main tenets of the cults doctrine. religious cartoons and childrens entertainment being used as an indoctrination tool are so fucking insidious (and fairly common) and yet so fascinating to me and i feel like thats something that doesnt rly get explored as much even in related horror media.

rewatching both magic and the purge march i (finally) noticed that not only do the mascots correspond to the four tenets, but also to the specific punishments followers receive for disobeying them. in magic its the blue priest (?) figure representing "discarding vulgarity" who punishes amane with water, and in purge march when one of the amanes drops the corresponding flag, she is drowned, briefly showing a peek into the real world where she was similarly punished.

the pink mascot with bandages for ears represents "following destiny" (which amane herself explains in her interrogation means not intervening if someone is sick or injured, showing why she feels such animosity towards the doctor in the group) and punishes the disobedient with lightning. likewise when members of the cult snitch on amane for helping the injured cat, shes punished with a taser. this also ties to how at the end of magic amanes magical girl/angelic looking form is granted a wand with a lightning bolt symbol, implying that ascending the ranks of the cult is at least somewhat synonymous with gaining the ability to inflict violence on those who stray, and foreshadowing her decision to wield that violence against her victim, believing them to have violated gods will.

it hasnt been touched on as much (yet?) but its also interesting to me the green robot who represents "staying the course" (most likely living every day in devotion to the cult and generally never straying) punishes the disobedient with sound, using its alarm clock head, and in the beginning of purge march we can hear what sounds like an alarm clock ringing. it might just be a little background detail to highlight just how present the doctrine is in every part of her life, but it registers to me more like evidence of psychological conditioning in addition to physical punishment.

compared to the other three, punishment by harsh sound seems mild, but its tied to what id guess is the most important or at least most foundational of the four tenets, based on its appearance first in magic and the way this mascot seems to most directly instruct amane on how she is meant to live her life. plus like, as opposed to something like electrocution which can only be used sparingly to punish the most dire offenses if youre not trying to kill the person, i imagine amanes parents or other elder cult members could use this kind of reinforcement whenever she steps out of line in even a very mild way to condition her to always fear and anticipate backlash in response to so much as questioning the faith.

anyway thats my very unofficial analysis of the situation. shits fucked! hope this girl gets some help!

[nsomniacsdream]

I'm not as familiar with conservative movements outside of the United States, but every time I'm reminded that particular insanity is global, it always seems so simple, but im sure that's the media framing. Like- in the US, the conservative movement is deeply influenced by whatever the dominant Christian denomination is currently. (In America, we have a different *flavor* of Christianity to fit anyone you want to hate unreasonably) the core of the conservative ideology, the truth that you really have to internalize to "get" conservatives, is that the world is inherently evil, and nothing can really be made better without violating peoples free will. Free will is important, because God something something, and the world is run by the devil. So evil will always flourish, and trying to make things better in any way is a fools errand. Now, if you can't fix anything, then the best case scenario is to punish everyone who succumbs to the evil so you can virtue signal that you're one of the good ones when God comes back to destroy all of us. Once you understand that this is where the majority of conservative support comes from, the abject cruelty and ignorance of the conservative movement makes a lot more sense. Add a healthy dose of any and all *other-isms* and you pretty much have conservatism nailed.

It's hate that they call love, and logic that's based on a fairy tale they use to scare people into doing what they say. Any time you read a news story about "conservative congressman blah blah wants to pass the "no periods until you're married, you little whores" bill" and you're like wtf? What is wrong with his brain? It's because he's operating on a level of nihilism that normal people literally can't comprehend.

Whenever I read about stuff outside the states, it's so frequently boiled down to just racism or class warfare. Which I'm sure is true, but I want to understand what's wrong with you that you're willing to stand astride history; shouting "future generations will find my motivations so reprehensible that my descendants will change their names and then go into hiding". Like I said, conservatives in America are brain poisoned by religious indoctrination and "white man's burden", but why are they like that in non white countries?