#taking apart the how and why of a guy

[selfshippinglover]

I don't usually find myself thinking this so I'm trying to enjoy it while I can but I think I'm actually Mr. Puzzles type?

Like, he's a guy that loves media so much he BECAME media

I'm a guy that loves analysing and obsessing over the media and it's characters

We r holding hands <333

[nerdy-hyperfixations]

Thinking about how if Shermy Pines. And like, if he is the baby, he’d be born in the 1970s and be 40 by 2012 and he’s already a grandad. He had to be a teen dad in the 80s (after a severe economic recession) and then his kid ended up being a teen parent by 1999 (Which is 8 years before ANOTHER SEVERE ECONOMIC RECESSION LOL)

Also he was born into a pretty broken family, probably rarely if ever saw his brothers. Do you think he ever saw Stanley before he had to start pretending to be Ford? Do you think Ford visited from college??? Because he didn’t seem confident facing his father until he made millions, so like???

And, like, do you think Filbrick and Caryn changed as parents by the time they raised Shermy? Because it seems like a trend that as parents get older they mellow out a bit, so Shermy probably has a completely different experience with their parents then Stan and Ford, and talking to them is just “is this seriously the same parents???” (Imagine the silent resentment that’d cause 😭😭😭)

Personally I headcannon that Shermy had a daughter (Mabel and Dipper’s mom) and not a son like it says on the wiki because c’mon. Can he just have a daughter. Idk why this is important to me but… c’mon. Can he just have a daughter. It just feels right to me.

[rxttenfish]

Did any specific animals inspire you while redesigning Aaravi?

well, considering her design is supposed to be specifically evoking images of unicorns, yes!

mainly i wanted something to contrast against miranda while also fitting with aaravi's own themes... i already knew that she was fae, because that was something that was retained from the original rps that got me shipping miravi, so i wanted to toy with that and toy with that as part of her dual nature. i also wanted something that... didn't actually evoke specifically images of "danger"? as in, i didn't want to lean too heavily on the monstrous or even the predatory. part of it is the fact that she's extremely human-passing, even compared to her own brother, so ultimately i didn't want anything that stuck out too obviously, and because i felt extremely exhausted of all the half-human half-monster designs that go too far into the same token predatory animal motifs over and over...

and because it's still a really common Thing, in the fandom, that if you're talking about aaravi you're taking her as... aggressive, in a way that's hard to explain? because she's more of a complicated person than that. like, i ship miravi so i feel the urge to compare her to miranda, specifically in how i don't think miranda actually wants or likes her specific role in the merkingdom vs. the concept of being a princess alone (which is understandable! a lot of little kids want to be princesses for good reason! it's being told you have inherent worth, no matter what you do and that you don't have to "earn" it, that you're beautiful and loved and admired, and that everyone looks up to you and wants to keep you safe in the same turn), but most interpretations of miranda don't pick up on this. it's like this with aaravi, in terms of being a slayer. she likes protecting people, being admired, being the person to save the day and the person that people can go to and feel safe and like they're protected by, she likes feeling hypercompetent and admired for her skills that she worked hard for, she likes feeling like she can solve problems and fix things. it's just that the circumstances of her life have told her that being a slayer is what's going to provide her with all of this, and because the entire structure of everything she knows has been built around this, she can't really begin to untangle one from the other.

which is to say, aaravi is a lot more nervous and scared and uncertain of a person than a lot of people think of her as, and ultimately because she doesn't want people to think or realize that she's actually feeling this way, least of all herself, it can become really easy to think it's actually how she IS.

which is why i ultimately ended up going with associating her with prey animals, and even moreso with unicorns. because she doesn't want to be seen as vulnerable, because that can get her preyed upon. because this then makes her project such an image of strength that she has to constantly hide anything even vaguely contrary to ensure no one even wants to look twice at her. because she's not really liked or accepted into social situations or circles, in a way that SINCERELY bothers her and upsets her, but is desperate to convince everyone else she's a lone wolf who likes this, actually.

likewise, i think a lot about unicorns specifically in the older kind of idea of, an embodiment of virgin wilderness. of truly untouched wilderness, which repels and is dangerous to humanity, which they cannot go into or face because it is so far from civilization. untouched purity, sure, but the double-edged sword of that, of then being something that cannot be sorted back into society or civilization and is inherently contrary to it. i think about unicorns being so fearsome that they were depicted fighting lions and with the lion as their counterpart, and about the virgin being so important to the unicorn myth because that's what induced docility in them, what allowed hunters to capture or kill unicorns due to what valuable resources could be extracted from them.

and i think this fits aaravi a lot. she's not docile, she's not easy to get along with, she's sincerely quite a difficult person, but being a difficult person doesn't mean you're unworthy of love or that you need to then discard what makes you difficult. i think about the strange way people see her as valuable to them, valuable to take advantage of or throw in other people's path or valuable just as a point of entertainment from the in-group making fun of her, but how this value necessitates not caring about her, herself. i think also about the singleminded way she throws herself into things, the way she charges into everything almost certainly because she's (similar to miri...) always lowkey suicidal and doesn't care if this kills her or not, and how unicorns were said to charge so ferociously at lions that, if the lion dodged out of the way, the unicorn would then lodge themselves in a tree in the charge.

this is why she has the lion's tail that's so drapey and flowing — i wanted to evoke the vine-like tails that classical unicorns get drawn with, with many tufts of fur along the length sprouting off. i also liked how it complimented how much body hair i draw her with, since it also makes it look similarly luxurious, with many tufts and ridges of hair (along her back, over her stomach, over her chest) like regal manes.

that's also why i ended up going with her ears being their specific design. because, aaravi's indian, and the indian rhinoceros is literally called the indian unicorn (with the latin name Rhinoceros unicornis!), and so i wanted her to have ears like one. same thing, for showcasing the seeming vulnerability of a prey animal and a herbivore, but also one that's known for being notoriously ornery and aggressive! i also thought it was nice, as so much of aaravi's mentality as a slayer is that monsters are preying on humanity, and so i wanted something that really showcased that herbivores are not passive and are not docile, that they can be equally or moreso dangerous than carnivores, and should not be taken as nonentities in their own environments. especially an animal that can absolutely kill its own predators too. :>

i also thought about using both the rhino connection and aaravi's connection to insects and arthropods to add some natural armor to her... but ultimately it didn't make the cut. i wanted some arthropod in her because i didn't want her to be straightforwardly mammalian, and there should be something off about her that suggests she's not just a humanoid design with a tail... her dad is effectively all of a forest mashed into one roiling mass of condensed nuclear magic, and she does have some (even if easily hidden) traits that would immediately clue other people in on the fact that she's only half human, and i don't like a lot of those... well, "fantasy races" designs that just puts body hair, a tail, and ears on a human. they feel off to me in a way that's hard to explain, and might just come down to the fact that, it feels like the people making them don't actually understand these traits, evolution, or why they end up selected for... and, again, i wanted the point that aaravi wasn't selected for! she's a first-generation hybrid, she has a lot of weird genetics that are also kinda working against her and would count her as disabled! this doesn't mean what she looks like is wrong or lesser, or that her intense shame and fear around these things is right, but moreso i just wanted to give the correct impression. that she's in a really complicated position that's basically only accepted because she's deemed "human enough", and that she feels pressure to hide or obscure anything and everything that isn't appealing enough about her.

and, honestly, adding arthropod in does this well! it's far enough away from mammalian that it's worth questioning, and doesn't feel like the kind of thing she SHOULD have, and sits a lot closer to the uncanny valley to a lot of people.

this is also why all of her body hair and her nails naturally grows in as purple! i saw on her original design that she had purple hair and purple nails, and she never struck me as the kind of person to dye her hair (nor paint her nails, really... she's butch, to me, in my heart), and i liked the thought that they just... naturally grow that way. that's her natural color. and, of course, both are made of keratin, so everything in her body made of keratin would be colored similarly, and chitin is pretty close to keratin too, isn't it? but it's the kind of thing people wouldn't notice, unless they got particularly close to her, unless they started putting together the pieces. so i ended up REALLY liking it, so now aaravi's body actually produces chitin, not keratin, and it's naturally a soft lavender-color too.

and the same for her mandibles! i wanted more major muscle and skeleton differences in her, since her dad doesn't even have DNA to begin with, but, again, she needed to be able to hide it easily. same goes for liking these differences being basically useless — hybridization isn't meant to be a superpower or to make you a mutant, it's just supposed to be another point of variation in the world. in the long run it's beneficial, certainly, but often it's not in ways that anyone can see, and certainly not in ways that anyone in the moment can tell. so giving her strange teeth (so long that they're worse than normal human teeth) and mandibles (so far back in her mouth they're basically only good for biting herself) fit both really nicely. she also has larger front incisors and a chipped incisor tooth, because i have those as well, and i never see them represented in designs.

her eyeshine is intentionally based off of both crocodiles and tigers, and because it being red is just close enough to being similar to human redeye to where it feels familiar but strange.

also, because it complimented miranda! miranda has blue eyeshine, but she's directly based off of both crocodiles and big cats in her design! miranda also represents both the dragon and the mermaid, in terms of "what she is", and i liked adding aaravi as the unicorn to contrast both of those. miranda's the princess and aaravi's the hero, but they're also the virgin and the unicorn, the dragon and the knight, the mermaid and the unicorn. they're both helpless against larger powers, but also fearsome and evocative in their own rights. i wanted aaravi to represent something that could be both savior and condemnation of miranda, and miranda to represent the same to aaravi, being someone who could kill her as an embodiment of evil, or someone just as good and just as worthy of love. they're both fantasy creatures that have gone the whole gambit, from being embodiments of the wild and untamed, to sexual entities, to representing virtues and beauty, to resources to be exploited, from being loved, to being commodified, to being used as inspiration for children's toys, to being hated and loathed and treated as jokes. they're both wildly different, and look wildly different, but they're also the same in fundamental ways, and find solace in how similar they are even with those differences.

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

If I could be arsed to learn how to edit videos and had some kind of mic, I would 110% make a two part video essay series on the politics of Jurassic World because MY GOD, there's so much to dissect.

The first part would be about how the park is the epitome of neoliberal futurism for techbros, including the way the park so easily falls apart though I doubt that aspect is purposeful. Everything is aesthetic first and function second, and we can't possibly use any of the reliable infrastructure we've already come up with because a train is not gonna get us to Mars, but a monorail might.

And the second would be about the buckwild terrible gender politics going on. The movie is deeply unsympathetic to Claire seemingly because she's a woman who prioritised her career as it's both centre to her character arc and also an inciting event of one of the plots. Not to mention the whole Zara thing or the Owen and Claire thing or the stupid "him, I meant him, line. The movie is rife with misogyny, but it feels like that specific misogyny was isekaied over from backlash to second wave feminism.

I could talk about it all for so long because in a way, it feels like a perfect time capsule for 2015. Back when people took Claire running in heels to be this feminist statement to be made fun of and not just a deeply misogynistic movie trying to sell you feminism. And back when Elon Musk managed to get away with his "I'm the real life Iron Man" shit, and people believed he was smart and all his plans would come to fruition. 2015 was a great time to be a tech bro in Silicon Valley with people just throwing money at all your fake promises.

Yeah. See. This is what I mean when I say I could talk about it forever.

[roseworth]

part of the appeal of a jason & rose team up to me is that they are so similar personality-wise but they are soooo different in their approach to crimefighting in the sense that jason is a meticulous planner and rose does not plan more than 10 minutes ahead. jason spends weeks putting together every aspect of their plan and backup plans in case something goes wrong just for rose to ruin it by going "im gonna kick down this door and see if anyones behind it"

[silkpages]

season six of boy meets world has honestly just saddened me for the most part and then at other times made me wonder what the heck i just watched, but i genuinely raged at the ninth episode, 'an ode to holden caulfield' - mostly at cory but also at everything taking place??

[washichan]

I have to clarify that I don't like the DMC Netflix show in general so uh please interact with consideration for your well beings. 🙏

[tenwhiteandalusians]

and then no one said anything about the fact that if i watched ONE MORE episode tenax pulls a "i'm not angry i'm just disappointed i'm hurt" about scorpus signing with the white faction.

[mainfaggot]

how do you cut someone off

[bisaster-energy]

polyamory is real I think hancock invented it or something

[jrueships]

Ofc you overanalyze your photos sauce, of course

the sassy little hands on hip pose football men love to strike when they're waiting isn't helping you either cringeking 💔 guyfailure

idk what he's complaining about, they're trying to make him gorge and not weird guy gorge, stop being a hater to your helpers, sauce

[edge-oftheworld]

one thing I love about following celebrities/artists who are honest and proactive about their mental health struggles etc is I can’t count the number of times someone I know is going through something and I’m like ‘I’ve got a song for u’ and how much of my life involves telling myself ‘if [redacted] can do something/get better/etc then so can i’ (and having actual real evidence of it in front of me) and I can’t understate how much I appreciate these things.

but at the same time it involves a whole lot of watching people I care about suffer and you learn to read the signs and infer between the lines in songs and interviews, and yes we can never fully know what they don’t share with us, but when they do share things it’s not a big stretch to be like ‘this seems like it’s what life is like for you and I have taken encouragement from it but you deserve so much better’. and it’s easy to find ways to get angry at a predatory industry and realise things that could be hurtful if you’re already fragile.

and we can advocate for some things and help ourselves and the people around us feel better but it’s hard to meaningfully reach your faves as an individual. and there are things we can’t say on the internet in too much detail, speculation becomes the harmful kind of gossip, and so sometimes it’s a whole lot of internally saying ‘you’re doing incredibly well to have gotten to where you are but I wish for your sake things would get better faster’

[sisterdivinium]

That Sylvia didn't know from the beginning of shooting the show about Mother Superion having been a halo bearer before is absolutely wild based on her performance. Talk about intuition...

[lesboygamzee]

i honestly dont really care about how like . Accurate my memory of postcanon is ( it probably isnt at all ! ) bc it makes me so deeply uncomfortable lol but i do think more people should properly read it ? some of the criticisms made are straight up wrong and like . im not going to complain about hs2 and epilogues hate but still there are really some things id prefer people addressed instead of a huge game of telephone of people repeating a nonexistent issue over and over again

[nanamisdollie]

olderbf!nanami ⋆ 𐙚 ̊.

smut, mdni. cw: age gap!!

olderbf!nanami who you meet in your first year of college after matching on some dating app. he’s around ten years older than you, but he’s attractive and seems sweet off the jump.

olderbf!nanami who takes you to some french inspired pastry cafe for your first date. he admits he doesn't usually go for younger girls, and you believe him. he's a total gentleman, what more could you ask for in a guy? so what if he was older.

olderbf!nanami who is always picking you up from campus for cute little dates or shopping sprees, letting you run up his cards on whatever things college aged girls like. he never spent much money on himself and that little smile you give him after he tells you to just "grab the bag" you've been staring at makes his heart race.

olderbf!nanami who ties your shoes for you or helps you slip on a pair of heels before going somewhere, always making sure his girl is always taken care of.

olderbf!nanami who never pressures you into anything. did he fantasize about you? well...yeah. he felt guilty whenever you'd bend over in a little skirt and he got a glimpse of a frilly pair of panties, or when you'd lean over the table while sitting across from him and your cleavage was daring him to just take a little peak. he felt like a total pervert...but it didn't stop him from fisting his cock in the car after dropping you off at your dorm or apartment.

olderbf!nanami who is on edge the first time you spend the night. he makes sure his apartment is spotless, stocks the fridge with your favorite snacks, even gets you a little gift. he needed this to be perfect, what if you got uncomfortable? what if you hated his sense(or lack there of) of style?

olderbf!nanami who makes you your favorite dish for dinner after getting a recipe off facebook of all places. he makes sure to set the table, light some candles, and pull your chair out for you before you sit.

olderbf!nanami who is surprised when you make the first move after dinner. a simple hand on his thigh while watching some movie you said seemed funny; it wasn't his vibe but he watched it for you. the second your fingers brush his broad thigh every hair on his body stands up, he feels his cock twitch against his slacks and he prays to whatever god there is that you don't notice

of course you do though.

olderbf!nanami who has his larger hand over yours as he teaches you how to jerk him off properly. your hands are so soft and small compared to his own overworked ones, so pretty with his pre glistening on your nails. his free hand slips up your waist to your head where he brushes your hair back gently, petting your head.

"thats my girl"

"twist your hand a lil…ah!-yeah, thats it…”

olderbf!nanami who, like a gentleman, holds your hair back while you suck him off.

olderbf!nanami who praises you even when you struggle to take past his tip. even when he fucks his hips up and listens to you gag when he hits the back of your tight throat.

olderbf!nanami who is already addicted to the way a string of saliva connects your flushed lips to the tip of his twitching length. your eyes lock with his and he debates cumming down ur throat right then and there.

olderbf!nanami who indulges in teaching you how to ride him. he guides your hips down agonizingly slow onto him and nearly busts just feeling your tight cunt swallowing him up. he wonders why he never went for a girl like you before, someone so sweet but so fucking needy to learn how to please him. when he finally lets you move, your hips snapping into him while little huffs and whines fall past ur glossy lips, he swears hes died and gone to heaven.

“pretty girl…m’ filling you up good, right? nice and full”

“need me to teach you how to pleasure a man properly? hm?”

“keep going- fuck!-sorry sweetheart…gonna cum if you do that again…”

olderbf!nanami who has the decency to pull out and cum on ur soft belly, grunting out a curse while watching his seed pool there.

olderbf!nanami who cleans you up and wraps you in one of the throw blankets on the couch, asking you how you’re feeling. he doesn’t hesitate to bring you water and/or make you tea. anything for you.

olderbf!nanami who is already planning out the next time you stay over so he can show you how a real man touches a girl.

this is kinda rough but i just wanted to get something posted :3 likes n reblogs r appreciated!!