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If they had made Khaldun a detective instead of a sergeant they would of made him a member of the squad and take Carisi's spot and make him be Rollins' new partner. He would have occasionally flirt with her, but Rollins already knew deep down by 21x05 that she was in love with Carisi. She just wasn't ready yet to admit it out loud.
The two were just inevitable to be endgame
#rollisi#sonny carisi#amanda rollins#hasim khaldun#svu#it's debatable if they plan to bring back recurrning warren leight characters when he's not the acting showrunner#they barely did the first time around#they started popping back when he came back#now that he's gone again it's a question if they can bring those characters/actors back
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My internal cheer when I saw Telemachus decked out in Athena's cape & helmet was so loud I'm surprised my internal organs are still intact.
And then I had this mental image of Athena rushing out of Apollo's infirmary & arriving at the palace in time to see Ody (the monster rawr rawr rawr) killing the suitors. So she swoops to Telemachus just as he returns, magics him into her armor & cape, hands him a spear, chop-chop, I dub thee Little Wolf & Warrior of the Mind now go do some father-son bonding via murder.
#epic the musical#epic the ithaca saga#telemachus#athena#I'M SO PROUD OF THE LITTLE WOLF!!#no srsly first time around he barely held his own against antinous alone#and let's assume directly after that athena did GG meaning she could no longer train him#then he comes back & IMMEDIATELY rushes in to fight MULTIPLE opponents and actually HOLDS HIS OWN for a while#you can't tell me he didn't take a level in badass#mostly on his own no less#now i'm imagining ares in athena's place for WP!AU LOL#equivalent of him decking tele out in hot topic before sending her off to slay. literally.
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© sminiverse_
#kim seungmin#lee know#dominate sydney#skz#skz gifs#bystay#gagwanzsource#stray kids#stray kids gifs#jesskz#skzedit#lee minho#when I tell you these two barely interacted for like the first half of the show- seungmin was not on his usual Hyung Look At Me behaviour#at all- which made the second half so much funnier bc it was lee know running up to him every 10 minutes and he wasnt even on his usual#bastard behaviour like he threatened to throw water on seungmin but didnt. then he got seungmin to throw water with him at the crowd#then when he did splash seungmin he ran off up the stage and kept turning back around like 5 times to check if seungmin was chasing him#(he wasnt) but eventually seungmin did run up and he was all 😁 and it was good for the soul to see the cat going HEY HEY HEY LOOK AT ME#cat who acts like the dog annoys him but the second the dog isnt annoying him is immediately in his business lmao
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so for obvious reasons, rye is not generally all that popular with most of the senior watchers. however. I think there is a certain type of younger watcher to whom he is The ultimate hot badboy icon and fantasy. (we're talking about a group of extreme indoor kid goth nerds who've barely been outside. it doesn't take a lot ot achieve bad boy status in this context and the only thing in this world that lasts forever is a bad reputation in a small insular group like the watchers.) it's SO funny because rye thinks of himself as such a disappointing fuckup of a son of the grand necropolis. and meanwhile there are novices kicking their feet and giggling as they're like
'Ingellvar is so cool. no one knows where he's from he was found down here as a baby. mysterious orphan appeal. he could be a secret dalish prince or something for all we know. (*annoyed extra nerd watcher novice voice*: umm actually the dalish don't have princes, merrivar?? read a real book sometime maybe???) he's a rebel. he doesn't care what the senior watchers think no time for politics he just gets the job done. (*small sad rye voice* I care a lot what the senior watchers think actually. a pathetic amount, in fact. it just rarely seems like it helps anything at all) I heard he graduated almost top of his class even though he spent all his time as a student partying up in the city and having a torrid affair with the son of a noble family. sometimes in his spare time he wears a cool punk leather jacket but like the fantasy version of that. he has tattoos apparently but no one's seen them for years. yuh-uh it's true too, I know someone who knows someone he dated once. they say he saw a knife fight once. like, in a bar brawl, with living people. all that, and he's even sneakily emotionally unavailable. *starry-eyed sigh* what a dreamboat'.
needless to say this only grows worse with the events of the game, after he takes out the formless one and rumours start to spread that he maybe killed a god or something too???? and this being nevarra, more importantly he's out there killing dragons with his sworn companions?? like a fucking fairytale prince but with that devil-may-care rebellious streak???? he's the safely unavailable first crush at a distance of many a young watcher. now imagine the reaction when he shows up home for the first time in a year after the war of the banners accompanied by The one true bad boy fantasy to rule them all: literally the sad brooding crown prince of the crows of antiva in leather pants who has WINGS and a dark tortured side of his nature that he has to constantly battle against for the sake of those he loves.
(the perception vs. reality situation for both of these characterizations is. so unspeakably hilarious needless to say. consider how much of the above lucanis characterization is accurate to the person he actually is and then you've basically found the level of distortion lens being applied to rye as well. is most of it technically true? sure. 'technically' is having to do a whole world of heavy lifting there tho fhdfska)
what I'm really saying here is that there is a subsection of this group that's been ferociously writing rye/lucanis rpf from the moment they were seen trotting down into the necropolis depths together (other pairings within the lighthouse gang as a whole, caught in tantalizing glimpses as they visit the necropolis, of course having their own devotees), and when this fandom subgroup eventually discover they were right it's with all the insane glee of a sixteen year old fanfic writer on wattpad (is that still where the kids are these days. idk i'm getting old folks) finding out that their dark mafia prince AU is basically true. varric might be gone but the legacy of friendfiction lives on after him. the king of thedas rpf being the shoulders of titans that young watchers are standing on to write fevered WILDLY inaccurate depictions of the private life of two of the most low-key domestic quietly devoted and undramatic people on the continent, one of them being varric's own poor little meow meow slash mentee, is something that can actually be so personal. rye does not end up terribly famous in the end considering the shit he manages to get done in this game, and he thanks his lucky stars for it. but to a tight-knit community of mourn watch fic writers he is blorbo from my apocalypse. it's all I could have wished for him.
(funniest possible outcome of all this: myrna gets so fucking tired of trying to understand what the novices are being so tittery about that she asks rye 'watcher ingellvar with the realization that this is a long shot and the admission that vorgoth and I have exhausted all other avenues of investigation: do you possess secret insight about what an 'x reader' is. and also 'ship war'. your name seems to come up in this context a surprising amount'. 9000000 points of incoming psychic damage about to hit the fan.)
#all the bellara/rye shippers devastated at rookanis reveal of course. (no basis in anything whatsoever rye and bellara? no vibes)#rye did date the spoiled youngest son of a noble house for a while in his twenties and it was Pretty Bad! not great times#*rye voice* you know I think I like this spin on 'I was a barely functioning alcoholic in an awful toxic relationship#helplessly watching my life fall apart even as I was the one actively tearing it to pieces' a lot better too#can I borrow it. my self delusions could use a fresh shine#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar#lucanis dellamorte#rookanis#rook x lucanis#this idea came to me perfectly formed while out on a walk and I ugly laughed to myself the whole way home#again rye doesn't even feel like an oc he's just a guy who exists in thedas and his life is a farce#my only regret is that varric can't be around to laugh hysterically at this. he deserves to know what a mark he left in the world#he was many things to many people. friend. ex (level of divorce not always congruent with actual state of having been married). storyteller#occasional unwelcome tagalong. viscount of kirkwall for nearly a decade (oh yeah!). literary icon. merchant prince#friendly neighbourhood gangster and mother hen to the most contentrated group of disaster bisexuals on the planet#lover. hater. committed centrist (affectionate and derogatory). hawke's forever guy (deep queerplatonic intent)#but first foremost and always king and patron saint of the rpf writers of thedas. rest in peace bff of all time you did great
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When you're one of the most selfish mc who only saves people because it's part of a job you never wanted and did not get to chose or you would've died, who took your co-workers' morals and ideals because you didn't have any and desperately wanted to fit in somewhere, be it with the heroes or the villains, who's activelly haunted by one the most tragic past to have been created and suffer from a psychosis so bad (dare I say schizophrenia) that even your enemies acknowledged that you are mentally ill and objectively flawed in your judgement, never hesitated to try to kill anyone and has the most egoistic reason to be a good person but the fandom still thinks you're just a kind crybaby "I don't know what a gun is" homosexual twink.

#him being refered as an angel by Shibuzawa is FUCKING IRONIC !!#ASAGIRI IS ALWAYS IRONIC WHEN IT COMES TO LIGHT NOVELS CENTERED AROUND ATSUSHI#Ex : The plot of 55min being parallele to the Decay of Angels arc#He's also called the Man-eating tiger and yes I do think that Dazai lied to him when he said he never ate anyone to preserve his psyche#and was also called “the man who can see the future” and has time travelled with Akutagawa like why aren't we talking about that#his relationship with Mori is also actually good#Mori is one if not the only character who saved and helped Atsushi during their first meeting and kept good contacts with him#because yes Atsushi has seen Mori knowing that he was the pm boss off-screen and they had a normal exchange#I also think that Shibuzawa Atsushi and Fyodor are connected to a form of Holy Trinity#Believer/God/Angel or Messenger#Joseph/Jesus/Mary#or Fyodor and Atsushi as Jesus and Judas#but the instance of trinity in bsd are dare I say extreme#Oda/Ango/Dazai#Sigma/Fyodor/Nikolai#Atsushi/Akutagawa/Kyoka#and so on#and the whole situation around his ability which is unlike any other#It turns him into Byakko (her own being) (similar to Natsume) and nullify his wounds no matter how lethal (similar to Dazai and Yosano)#and enhance him even with his ability off making him constantly stronger than other characters and dare I say equal to the hunting dogs#yk the MODIFIED humans#and the plot of both 55mins and Dead Apple being around abilities and giving us Atsushi lore make me think that Atsushi and Byakko are 1/2#probably a sort of higher being since some abilities are very religious centered (how Fyodor sees abilities and Shibuzawa) 2/2#but I think it would lend toward a “sinner” position which would be crazy because that Atsushi would then probably be the reason why Fyodor#hates abilities so much if Atsushi and Byakko are somehow be connected to the “sin” of abilities#and so you guys know Atsushi's orphanage was a church so yes he's related to christianity#and the Decay of Angels is LITTERALY full of religious people to different degrees#and it would be ironic (once again) if the antagonists were the “Angels” and the protagonist a demon#I just realized that I did a lot of typos sorry I got too excited#but yeah keep calling bsd bad written (we're on barely chap.115 no good manga was finished by chap.115 guys just wait for the rest to drop)
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guess who got STRAIGHT A'S FOR THEIR FINAL SEMESTERRRRRRRRRRRR
4.0 GPA FOR THE SEMESTER, BABYYYYYYYYYYY
this raised my overall GPA to a 3.12. which it's a little sad that i'd been struggling so much prior to this past year (from unmedicated adhd & having to work a fucking job while in school) bc i probably Could have had a really high overall GPA. this past year proved that i *can* be a good college student. but Oh Well. i can be proud of what i've accomplished in this past year at least. and i can be proud of going from academic probation a year ago to getting straight A's in my final semester of college. and managing to raise my GPA up to a 3.12. still an accomplishment!!!
#speculation nation#i got on academic probation bc i did just a Godawful job on my last semester prior to this school year#which was. spring 2023. my focus just fucking tanked Completely (due to me getting absolutely Slammed with my 3gun hyperfixation)#i only passed those classes on a technicality. aka i got like. barely a C in one i think? and a D in the other.#which normally isn't good enough to count but since it wasnt a prerequisite for anything my advisor was oh so niceys to me#and made an exception. so it did count for my degree after all.#but bc i did So fucking bad they were just like 'we gotta watch u' and there i remained until i went back to school last year.#bc i took a year off due to grief w/e lol. did some soul searching. came into some money. got on adhd meds. turned my life around.#and now i am boasting a fuckin 4.0 GPA for my final semester. WAHOO!!!!!!!#feels so nice. only the second time ive. ever? gotten straight A's. i think.#i got them one semester of my junior year of high school bc i got motivated by the studying in p4 lol#couldnt keep it up. it fuckin wrecked me. went back to my normal As and Bs for the remainder of high school#BUT it was the perfect time to have Gotten straight As. bc it probably helped me get accepted into college lol#and NOW..... OVER 10 YEARS LATER.......... i have gotten straight As for the first time in college. WAHOOOOOOOO#college is just another fuckin kind of beast. good god. i had to nearly break my back to keep up with this#helped that i only had 3 classes of actual schoolwork too. tho orchestra and bowling certainly kept me busy lol#still. gonna just bask in this for a bit. i am very very proud.
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Still thinking about how Clover on the No Mercy Route likely would've given up their quest for vengeance and lived with Martlet had Axis not told them that he killed Integrity. The only real difference between Aborted No Mercy Run Clover and No Mercy Run Clover are a few more destroyed robots and the knowledge of what Axis did, which sent their LOVE skyrocketing to LV 19.
Look at them. They can't even look Ceroba in the eye after they inflict the final blow.
#undertale yellow#personally i see Clover's journey on the No Mercy Route as them feeling immense guilt and disgust with themself for killing monsters#but they HAVE to. it's self-defense. they're monsters. any one of them could have killed one of the other children. anything they can#tell themself to justify their own actions. but they can't lie to themself. not entirely. on some level they know what they're doing is#wrong and that's why they gradually lose their ability to recognize themself. and when they get to Axis that's when they're at their most#stressed. they just slaughtered dozens of monsters. they watched the monsters around them (like Angie and Gilbert and Dina) act like people#would under threat/treat them like they would a monster. they terrorized this robot throughout the Steamworks. maybe if they kill this one#they'll feel a sense of fulfillment/finality (they won't. deep inside they know they won't). and then Axis admits to having killed one of#the kids they're looking for and suddenly everything clicks into place. killing him feels like the easiest thing in the world. why were#they so caught up on remorse? just because they got distracted by a society more complex/civil than they thought it'd be? they're all#still kid-killers at the end of the day no matter how nice they all acted.#even then fighting against martlet they still have to deliberately dehumanize her by calling her ''the enemy'' in the first part and remind#themself of what they're fighting for/their freedom and home on the Surface in the second half. their SOUL blasts (which are a#manifestation of them/their will) barely do anything to her unlike Axis and Asgore who are brutally killed by one blast. i think Clover#genuinely liked her (a worthy opponent/they search her memories for a reason to hate her) and regretted killing her but they felt like they#had to. no loose ends.#take away the whole LOVE jump and finding out that Axis killed Integrity and what you have left is a kid who thought they knew what the#right thing to do was yet killed dozens for nothing. they're deeply remorseful and want a chance to better themself. one that Martlet would#offer bc she would see some good in them.#anyways. fat paragraphs in the tags once again#uty analysis#char: clover#yippee. you can see how badly i did in this fight with my remaining hp. jokes on you i beat her first try (this time around)
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embracing my morning gym girlie routine i think. gonna study for like 3 more hours then hit the gym in the cutest workout fit. and then im rewarding myself w my favorite veggie wrap after <3
#studying first thing at dawn just sets the day right for me and i love doing it#but i usually delegate the gym to evening hours. and yesterday i was sour as fuck after bc i just did it on empty#plus i try to get around 7-8 hours of studying in and working out earlier in the day would help me feel sm better#i need the endorphins.#and i could get some flash cards out of the way while i’m there#AND have extra time to hit my orgo lab in the evening and get in a couple hours of research#my social life has been on a major back burner but i can barely get a second to myself these days#so i’m trying not to feel guilty ab my 82727 unanswered msgs. we ball
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“claudia joined the coven what was louis supposed to do” idk defended her against the people making fun of her?? believed her when she told him his new boyfriend had just threatened her instead of dismissing her?? i love louis as much as the next person but that man has been failing claudia like CRAZY
#also worth pointing out that louis was perfectly capable of defending himself against the coven but when it came to claudia it was crickets#santiago hates louis to high heaven but even he did more to stand up for claudia than him#i love louis but too many ppl are still letting that man off the hook#he has proven time and time again that he will always put his boyfriends first#and when he realises this it is going to be too late#yes claudia decided to join the coven maybe because she wanted a sense of community??#it’s not asking too much that she might think her brother/father would stand up for her#the fact that claudia was humiliating herself every night in that dress shows how desperate she was to belong#that girl has not known a moment of peace in her life and all of the men around her have done the bare minimum#claudia and madeleine need to run the minute she gets turned i said it#interview with the vampire#iwtv spoilers#claudia de pointe du lac#louis de pointe du lac
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despite the fact that spider-neil is heavily based off of the amazing spider-man (2012) peter parker, neil is infinitely more similar to miles morales from the spider-verse movies
#dps#dead poets society#neil perry#spider-neil#mostly because of miles and jeffs relationship compared to neil and thomas’ but also personality wise hashtag in my opinion#although miles and jeffs relationship is infinitely more understanding and obviously holds mutual respect where neil and thomas’… doesn’t#both artists (albeit in different fields) who are being pushed into something ‘greater’ or ‘better’ for their own long-term benfit/success#dorky in an endearing and charming way#very personable and well liked by those around him (visions exempt in miles’ case but he IS the new kid after all)#both sneaking out to do what they Actually love/enjoy (graffiti and acting)#and are both conscious of the fact that their fathers will kill them if they find out they did#both have a mentor mentee relationship (even if its a bit more fatherly and nurturing/less dysfunctional in neil and keatings case)#to be anderperry pilled here for a second: both have an embarrassing crush on a blond(e) with blue eyes#blond(e)s who are closed off and avoidant and have a hard time opening up no less#even if gwen is SO much blonder than todd oh my god he barely even counts lowkey 😭#also DIALOGUE PARALLELS. OH MY GOD SO MANY DIALOGUE PARALLELS.#‘just listen to me!’ / ‘okay champ! you got it! go for it! say whatever you wanna say! what do you got to tell me so bad!’#‘i’ve got to tell you what i feel!’ / ‘what! what! tell me what you feel! what is it?’#‘we all make choices in life miles.’ / ‘well it doesn’t feel like i have a choice!’ / ‘you don’t!’#‘don’t you ever dispute me like in public again.’ / ‘father i wasn’t disputing you-’ / +#+ ‘once you’ve finished medical school and you’renon your own then you can do as you damn well please but until then you do as i tell you.’#‘mom… have you and dad ever thought of moving out of brooklyn?’ / ‘our family doesn’t run from things miles.’#‘isn’t there an easier way?’ / ‘no.’#‘when will i know i’m ready?’ / ‘you won’t. it’s a leap of faith. that all it is miles. a leap of faith.’#‘for the first time in my whole life i know what i wanna do. and for the first time i’m gonna do it! +#+ whether my father wants me to or not! carpe diem!!!!’#miles confidence and belief in himself allowing him to properly use his powers in the first movie happening when +#+ jeff tells him how much HE believes in him and how he knows miles will be great no matter what he does#and the fact that neil could have gone SO FAR if he just had the proper parental support……#i’m literally INSANE about their tether guys ITS SO STRONG
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#yup‚ yup..!#b– bidoof! waaahhh! yeah. you thought this post was gonna be happy. then i reminded you of *that* scene. yeah. it makes me cry too. s. snif#time to think about all those theories that bidoof is actually the one who caused the end of the world‚ huh? by jirachi's hand and all#bidoof#i don't think i liked him very much in my first playthrough of pmd sky to be honest. just the fact that he was only really relevant for the#beginning of the game and he was also only relevant for being Barely higher rank than the player team so he could show them around#which was cute and all. and then obviously he came back right for the end which. sob. cry. sniffle. so i like him now. more than i did#which is good. i wouldn't want anyone to not like bidoof. after everything he's been through? he doesn't deserve to not be loved…#look at that face. would you dislike that face? i would not dislike this face. not again
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slowly sliding a little paper slip through the slot of the door to your ask box (it is my desperately pleas to hear your daindottir thoughts & opinions. any and all. how did they meet. what is their dynamic. what the fuck did Rhine do to make this man borderline homicidal towards her son. DETAILS PLLLEADE!!!!!)
this is a can of worms that is being opened as we speak I AM SO INSANE ABOUT THEM literally my 6k fic is about them GRAWHHHHHHHH I'm gonna be referencing that a lot because I like it and yeah j;fdaklssjfsafhiojgojgjgijodsgkgfosdkfdfjkewaleroigjorijg
ALSO WARNING YALL NOW THAT I HAVE BEEN PICKING AWAY AT THIS FOR OVER A MONTN (update many months :/)NOW AND SOME LORE BOMBS MAY CONTRADICT MY CANON BUT I AM NOT GOING THROEHH TO FIX THIS RN IDC IDC IDC!!!!!
they first met very young, but it was just a random chance encounter. Rhine, being a child prodigy with alchemy, was sitting on the ground and mixing things together to see what happens. Dainsleif made the fatal mistake of asking someone with ADHD what they are doing, so he listened to her explain as she mixed everything together to make a flower sprout from her hand (like Albedo's character story fjfjdsfhjs). She gave it to him, and he almost got in trouble later because his mom thought he went to the surface while playing😭.
As for when they like,,, met fr fr, I'm making the executive decision to say that Rhinedottir was, to some extent, state-ordained when it came to alchemy. I don't care that perry hairy says that more emphasis was on mechanical shit during her time; she's built different enough that she was probably the exception because if anyone made Khaenri'ah food independent, it would be her. So, one of Dain's baby knight-in-training duties was to make sure she didn't kill herself or others in her pursuits (and other people interested in alchemy were MAD mad about her getting special privileges and recognition so he made sure she left the lab and got home in one piece). Unfortunately, the propaganda and rumors started EARLY, to the point that the whole ass adult knights of the royal guard were too scared to fully show Dain where her lab was. A literal like,,, 15-year-old had them in such a tizzy that they were like, "Uhhh yeah... if you go straight a little longer, it's the first door on the right. Bye now!" So this lil 13-year-old boy was scared shitless, thinking he was going to have to interact with an antisocial monster... just for it to be a pretty girl who may sound like a crazed scientist with the way she talks about alchemy but is otherwise reserved and kind. (And lonely enough that she was excited that she had someone by her side) He really didn't understand why mages and sages AND KNIGHTS were so wary of her.
They hit it off fairly quickly. He looked at her as if she were a normal person and he let her talk about her work. He was patient with her, and cared about her wellbeing. He was her first friend. After getting through a thick layer of apprehension, she was sweet and funny. And she was interesting. So very interesting. (also, between her being an early bloomer and dressing/acting like she was a few years older... she was a pleasing sight in his pubescent eyes😔 it didn't help that she was also considerably taller than him for a good while... his eyes were at the perfect height if ya catch my drift) Their friendship came to be so naturally that they didn't even realize how close they had gotten over time. Dain was eventually assigned actual duties, but he still made sure she got home safe, and spent most of his breaks in her lab. Some nosy neighbors claim that they stopped seeing him walk back after dropping her off,,, not that they'd ever admit to that.
Dainsleif caught feelings very early on. It started as purely physical attraction, but the more he got to know her, the more he was drawn in. ESPECIALLY after she started trusting him more than anyone else, seeking him out for comfort, and indicating that she misses him if he has to be gone for periods of time. Alas, Rhinedottir seems content with the current state of their relationship, so he doesn't confess out of fear of scaring her off.
LITTLE DOES HE KNOW she's also whipped, even if it did take considerably longer. She'd never say anything because she thinks she fell for basic human decency, and she'll never admit it, but she's scared of finding out that she finds people more important than they find her... maybe he's just being nice, and here she thinks she has a chance. So, she keeps quiet as well, even as these newfound feelings make her feel like the little girl she was never allowed to be. She has such a schoolgirl crush on him, quite literally giggling, swooning, and kicking her feet as she smiles into her pillow on the nights she does end up alone because she'd never let anyone actually see her like this. It's obvious to literally everyone but them that they love each other. Anyone can see the way his gaze softens when it lands on her, and literally who else is allowed in her lab unannounced and faces no consequences? At some point, she meets her only other friend, Alice, and all of these things are the most obvious to her. She wants to strangle them both for being oblivious. Alice is the #1 wingman, but it flops every time 😭😭she literally gave homeboy some of the flowers she brought for Rhine to study for the sole purpose of giving him a way to be romantic, but they both became too awkward.
After multiple years of friendship growing into a very thinly veiled romance, they became friends with benefits, which made things easier for them because they could put off the big scary feelings talk a while longer. But Alice flipped a lid after seeing marks on Rhine's neck because she thought they finally confessed, but noooo, of course, they only skirted around the issue. Then she tried to pry details out of Rhine... she was obviously only innocently asking about her best friend's sex newfound sex life,,, (she was partly genuinely curious in a friend way, but she also had a crush on her by that point)
Literally everyone else thought that they had been dating for years, and after a while, they stopped correcting people unless they had to, which, when paired with Rhine being shameless at times and not particularly trying to cover up her battle scars, REALLY had people thinking they were together.
Idk the exact circumstances in which they actually started dating,,, like I've changed my mind on when it happened far too many times, but surprisingly I think it was Rhine who actually started the conversation. She accidentally blurted out "what are we?" and the rest was history.
AND now that they were finally officially together, everything felt so much more different than before, even when nothing really changed all that much... they WERE practically dating since they were teens,,, but the officiality of the label was nice :) the (relatively) short time they were actually together was the best time of Rhine's life because she had someone to love, a best friend, she always had her apartment AND food on the table, AND she was able to do her alchemy with very loose reins as long as she showed some agricultural progress,,, which allowed her to put a lot of her work energy into her own personal endeavors! Including making a son the only way she could have biological children! and obviously he knew full well about her,,, situation,,, so he was cautiously supportive of her research because he figured she knows what she's doing,,, tbh he was probably also excited when she got to the homunc stage because she said she was gonna make it as close to a natural human as possible, which meant having two DNA sources,,, and she couldn't even provide all the ingredients herself :/ so!! they were gonna be parents together!!! [if i talk about alchemical stillbirth anymore tonight I might get assassinated so yeah... but that happened and rhine was DEVASTATED she had a full breakdown. it was kinda scary for both dain and alice to witness. then they fed him to durin as a badass funeral because he deserved it for progressing MUCH further than any other attempt (project paper doll thoughts are starting to seep into this i hear the guns cocking)] then they try again with albedo and even though he was successfully "born" his father never got to see him out of the flask :/
BECAUUUUUUSSSEEEEEE the whole time Rhine was messing with abyss and forbidden knowledge juices and was becoming increasingly unwell and unstable. but she was able to hide her (increased) mental instability up until immediately before the cataclysm. HOWEVER COMMA, her continuously declining physical health was a different story. He had to watch as she developed a cough, which would only get worse and worse, and weird dark "rashes" on her arms that would occasionally make it difficult for her to use them, and she would always refuse to go to the doctor (because she knew what was causing this. and the doctors hopefully wouldn't). Eventually, she'd be coughing up blood from the force of her cough, the rashes on her arms would spread and get a more scaly texture, she'd be in pain more often than not, her general mobility suffered, she'd get headaches and migraines randomly, and even the occasional fainting spell, but she was determined to take care of it herself. Then the cataclysm happened. During that time, Albedo was born or hatched or whatever, and Dain really wanted to see his son at least once before he was called down to fight against the gods, but by this point Rhine was completely delusional. This time around, forbidden knowledge exacerbated both her work related desires and her desire to be a good mom, but she started to believe that EVERYONE was out to hurt Albedo and only she could protect him, so she refused to let anyone even near her lab when, even just a few weeks before, both Dain and Alice were allowed to see eggbedo. Their last interaction was them fighting over if he should be allowed to see HIS son, but even though he was frustrated with her, he felt bad for her. She had such a wild, fearful look in her eyes, almost like a mother beast protecting her young. She was actually afraid of something happening to Albedo, and it was a level of fear he had never seen from her before and he knows she's gone through some SHIT! He's literally seen, in real time, a trauma response panic attack from her and even then she conveyed less fear than she is right now. He leaves her alone. The next day, she's gone. All the necessities from her place are missing and Albedo is gone too. Their last interaction was an argument. They never got to say a proper goodbye... they didn't even know if the other was alive for quite a long time. It'd make sense if either of them did die... Dain could've died in battle before the curse, and the heavens could've seen Rhine as too much of a risk to keep immortal.
but yknow,,, 500 years pass and Dain has been known to prowl mondstadt at least a few times,,, and he somehow knows everything. so he heard rumors about the new alchemist with the knights whose name is Albedo. and he just Knows. Firstly from the name, because Rhinedottir is uncreative with her names and the first of any of her phases will be named after their stage (Durin was named Nigredo agenda!! it somehow became durin after the cataclysm. Dain was allowed to pick Elynas's name since she was out of ideas). Secondly, who else would be able to completely change the way alchemy was viewed and talked about except for the offspring of the woman who did the same 500 years prior? He doesn't seek him out because he has no idea what Rhine has become since their last encounter. Does Albedo even know he has a father (no.)? Did Rhine feed him lies about other Khaenri'ahns? Dain didn't want to start a fight or worse... clearly she had taught him her methods, he figures as he watches, from a distance, as Albedo sprouts a flower from his hand the same way his momma did as a girl. He fears Albedo could bring about a second cataclysm if he's not careful with it, and as they say hindsight is 20/20, so he knows what to look for. He has learned that Rhine's illness was from her tampering with the abyss and forbidden knowledge. He also, unknowingly at the time, watched as his own brother and his brother's friends became more and more lured in by the abyss, so he's seen the range of its impact. He keeps his eyes and ears peeled for the first sign of Albedo falling down the same path because, as much as it would hurt him to hurt his own son, he will dispose of Albedo before he can repeat what his mother has done. He can't lose another family member to the abyss.
#holy shit after like 4 or 5 months i finally got around to finishing this#i'd get too excited every time I opened this draft that I couldn't finish it they are so very important to me i didnt even get to talk abou#how rhine has not actually moved on and alice knows that full well HFHUFHWEUOFOIHhf im so mentally ill over them#pls dont kick me out of rhinenation for this but i lowkey care them more than rhinealice... he was the first person who showed any affectio#towards rhine... at least not in a slimy way lol#THEY MAKE ME CRY SO MUCH SO HARD IM GONNA EXPLODE OU WITH MY MIND FOR THIS ASK#I NEED TO EAT CARPET I NEED TO DIG A HOLE WITH MY BARE HANDS I NEED TO CRAWL UNDER A TABLE AND SCREAM FOR HOURS#I AM SHAKING LIKE A CHIUAUA RN IM SO EXCITED THAT I CANT EVEN THINK ITS TAKING SO MUCH EDDORT TO TYPE THIS#TO TYPE NORMAL WORDS INSTEAD OF JUST HJDSHFUEHGUEROGHUREHGRHEGIUGFHIWEFHUEWHGFUOIAEJFOUEIOFHEUOHFOJIEWJRFGUPEROIGJOPERHGIUERPHGUIEWOAHFUIEH#FNHERBGIUREJOG;ERHGNUFCPEFHBRVHIJNRNBHUGHVJREIGJW4UIRPNPVUIRNEIVJREVNERJKENBJTRIUHGVUIERWGHWHPUIFQEJOEVUHPERGVFWRVNEUOVHWRUIGHVUWRIEHGUIRWH#FHERUGNILERHGUIIEJORGHERJGOIJEIGJREHNGUJRFHNIOFHGRUEGJIROEFGHUIRERHGIOREHGOI[QEJGOENGJHUEIGPHQUOPGHREUIHGPJURPWHG8QIHGJWURIHGPUWRHGURIEGHUR#ERGIBRPUGUHRIWHGEOI[RJGHUIWP4RGEJBHUPIRHGPWRUIPGPIWFJQIEPORGHUREHPGRWUGUQR89GHREUGHREYIGUBUEQIHPUFEHBGUHEUGH3IUTG3Q89HGRHEHUIGYEIPHUNGHUIRH#FJUIIUGBHRUPGJOIREJUGIWREHGUPOIJWUGREHGEUOIGPNERUGHIERGHUVHGIOERHGUREGHIEROHGUERHGUWEBRGUEPNGUERHGUIEJHGERUGHGEURIOFJ0EQWJFUGBUSUHRGJEGERIG#if you read all of this I love you and ask for your hand in marriage#because i did not proofread this at all idk if it makes sense but if i look at it again i will throw up#also its thoughts spread out over months so yeah#methinks#rhinedottir#head in my hands#grawh#thank you monard for the ask this is the best thing ever to happen to me i got to be normal in front of evreryyon
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i think growing up is just life repeatedly sucker punching you and saying bitch you thought things were gonna better lmao no you're so naive and stupid for having hope in 20 years the world will be flaming bag of garbage and no matter how hard you work you'll get eliminated at some point
#and then you just have to get up and keep living anyway because what else is there to do?#but man my heart keeps feeling heavier with every blow#2024 has literally been the worst year ever god personally too#like everytime i think it can't possibly get worse than this it does#i remember literally 9th jan i had such a horrible breakdown in an auto because the first friend i ever made#after school was leaving my work and therefore my life#9 days into the year. seriously. and i was so happy on 8th because it was my birthday#i don't know im trying hard to think okay this doesn't even affect me it's fine im privileged enough that even my own countrys politics#barely affects me#but just. india is already so behind in everything. if developed nations are doing shit like this then well#it will never get better right like who do we even strive to be#i want to get more into indian politics but my god. it's so horrifying and depressing all the time#like i remember resolving to follow politics closely few years ago and the first news#i read was about some minister talking about how girls skirts lengths IN SCHOOL is the reason boys do sa and boys will be boys etc etc#i know i could just follow business news stuff like that god knows it'll help in my field but it just. doesn't resonate with me doesn't#make me feel anything at all. like i so desperately want to care about ooh stock markets and how to grow your money etc etc#but when i think about being rich enough to invest idle money all i can think is sitting in my own home peacefully#drinking a glass of cold coffee and just being able to breathe freely because me and my sister used to joke in childhood#when dad went thru a coffee v bad for health phase and he wouldn't let us drink it so we would drink it very sneakily#at night when he was asleep or went out for an hour and make absolutely no noise while mixing the sugar. we said that we know#we'll* know we have achieved true freedom and happiness in life when we can peacefully drink cold coffee in the hall and not secretly#in the dead of night in our room#i don't even know what im talking about and my period is late again and nothing is working and my lazer focus#that i had built in the past few weeks is gone because suddenly im like what is the point????#i just don't understand how the fuck humans can fight over stupid fucking things like who is kissing who and who is doing what with their#body instead of focusing on collective issues like our planet is dying so fucking fast and every summer is getting impossibler to survive#i hate that the united states control the UN fuck this world fr man i hate being born in such horrible helpless times#like call me a kid or dumb or whatever but i cannot understand how MILLIONS of people do not#have sympathy for ppl around them and who don't care about the planet at all like how????? how did you grow up????#not trying to boast but this is so natural to me!!! didn't you make save water save earth posters in school!!! didn't anyone
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Ik i sound like such a stereotypical straight woman rn but. How do i ask my bf for flowers without asking my bf for flowers
#i have like. a shitty history with the concept of getting flowers from your bf/asking for said flowers clearly and nively#by whuch i mean that the one and only time i did it we got into a fight abt it#personal#granted it doesn't rly mean as much as it used to to me mainly bcs my partner always tries to make me feel l9ved and heard#in a billion other ways. so most of the time i forget abt this topic#but then i remember and i'm just like...wouldn't it be nice tho? just once?#technically 2nd time around but i can barely count that one time (with ex i mwntioned above)#like with my ex it was also a matter of him proving that he gives a fuck bca deep inside i could tell he didn't#so i ended up pinning all of my subconscious fears and gut feelings abt the relationship on this one thing#that is acyually rly small and not necessarily proof of a healthy relatoonshop in the grand schemw of things#now it's more like...a bonus. but like. a very NICE bonus y'know#i wanna put flowers in a vase like my sister does#my uni colleagues said i should drop subtle hints like buying my own flowers and casually mentioning it to him#and sbit like that#but that doesn't work with me for two main reasons.#1. i'm not giid at dropping hints or being subtle. i either tell you or abt it or i keep it to myself (and the latter usually leads to chaos#it's a also kind of immature tho i can't rly jydge girls who do it bcs i've experienced first hand how hard it is to ask for smth and#be punished and then fear it's gonna jappen again even if u have no reason to believe that#and finally 2. my bf is neurodivergwnt. like this man didb't even get flirting for a long time. and not onky that but#he's not the kind of person who'd naturalky gravitate towards like. traditional gifts or gender roles if that makes sense#so it's not like he's gonna wake up one day and go oh i should get my girl flowers#it's been more than 3 months he would've done it by now#but if's been 3 happy months and i don't wanna seem ungrateful. for tje first time ever i'm truly in lovr and truly loved in return#don't i already have enough in this regard?#ugghhh....idk what to do#venting
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Second day of moving... done!!! And now all my furniture is in my new apartment!!! I still have a lot to do with rearranging things and sorting thru boxes and unpacking. And also going back to my old apartment to Finish packing and moving everything I didnt get to before. But it's already been pretty nice staying in the new apartment. I got the internet set up today, and it's working great! Also went to the grocery to pick up a few more essentials. Let the cats out finally, and they've been having A Time poking around and being SoScared. But they seem to be relaxing, bit by bit. Hoping they'll come sleep on my bed with me, rather than just coming and visiting.
Tomorrow, I wanna finish arranging my furniture and take a trip to my old apartment to do a carload of packing and moving boxes. Gotta pick up some more boxes first, but that's no big deal. Also wanna look for a new shower head while im there. Idk if I'll buy one yet, but I took my first shower at the new apartment today, and while I love the shower itself, I do NOT like the shower head. It's like... got a weird empty spot right in the middle??? It seems like a shower head for tall people. Not for me. But ive already been told that I can change out the shower head if I like, so I wanna see what stuff they've got at home depot...
I also wanna go bowling. It's been nearly a week. And ive been so busy and stressed. I deserve a bowling trip. Assuming my body doesnt hurt too much tomorrow for it 😂😂
#speculation nation#theres like a billion and one things to do with moving. while furniture moving is the most brutal and intensive thing#it is nowhere near the most time consuming of it all. assuming u have help for it and all.#in addition to all the stuff i listed up there. i also wanna thoroughly clean all of my furniture too#dust it. sanitize it. vacuum. carpet cleaner it (for the fabric things).#i let my apartment get to a pretty awful state before and it shows on my furniture.#already did some vacuuming for the worst of it. like the fuckin. spider egg sacks on the bottom of some furniture pieces...#no spider eggs on my furniture Now thank u... i will be vacuuming regularly and getting into all the nooks n crannies#oh yeah i also wanna vacuum my whole apartment. had to have ppl with shoes on in here for moving stuff#bc it rly isnt reasonable to ask them to take off their shoes in the middle of carrying furniture in#especially since theyre doing such a big favor for me. also foot safety with moving big things around lol#so i sucked it up. but i REALLY wanna keep my apartment shoes-free for the most part#so im gonna vacuum the floor too. maybe use the carpet cleaner on the most traveled areas. idk.#the thing about the carpet cleaner tho is that it's just the little hand-held brush thing. small area.#so anything i clean with it is very hands-on. which makes cleaning big areas Hard.#but it may be worth it for some things. at the very least im gonna carpet clean my rugs i brought over.#i did vacuum them but im gonna vacuum them again and then carpet clean them bc they got ROUGH back there#theyre the big rugs so i cant just toss them in the wash. but they got dust in them still. i saw it when i plopped them down.#winced at the lil cloud of dust that came off them. and that's AFTER i vacuumed them thoroughly back b4 moving tjem#*them. they r just so so dusty. everything in that apartment was.#but i can already feel the difference being here. with the dust. and the clarity of my brain.#still so tired so im not doing any brain stuffs tonight. but it has me hopeful for the future.#still got So Much to get done. but once things calm down... then yeah#i may be regaining my ability to write with relative ease. pls pls pls pls pls.#wouldnt it be crazy if the reason i went from writing 70k words in 3 weeks to like barely breaking 30k in a Year#is bc of the Fucking Dust. and a previously unidentified allergy. which would explain why my ability to focus on writing got worse and worse#shrug. im hopeful!! gonna try my best. still gotta get my apartment all in order first tho. 🙏🙏🙏
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just wanted to thank everyone that's been encouraging me or offering some kind of support the last few times I talked about getting a cane... because I went and got one today and I didn't think it would make that much of a difference. I underestimated how much it would change for me.
So thank you <33
#got a prescription from my GP last week and gathered my nerves together to get one today#thankfully we have a health care supply store only ten minutes away on foot#I'd planend on getting an anatomical one as prescribed by my GP and it was comfortable and id probably have chosen it too but#then the lady there told me to try the derby handle instead and honestly that was even better plus i can use it on both sides#its sleek and black for now because i can barely bear the thought of anyone seeing me using a cane in our small town in the first place#but once im comfortable..#anyway we went to a shop across the street afterwards because my besties mum needed to get some things and I didn't wanna go home by myself#and tbh i preferred the thought of going into our small city centre with somebody i trusted and felt comfortable around the first time aroun#long story short im super suprised by the difference it's making 😬 i mean ofc i didn't just get the cane on a fluke#but it was like 'well let's try it out it may help and people keep saying it's for stability and chronic pain too so why not'#yeah so apparently i did need it#i felt so much better#there were several instances where i noticed the cane kept me from stumbling or swaying or missing a step#it felt good#so thank you all
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