#they have a very different set of stuff wrong with each of them but somehow arrived at approximately the same point

[sesamenom]

reading oathbringer rn and i really want to plonk blackthorn dalinar (plus assorted buddies) into lothlann with gap commander maglor to see what happens

[alphajocklover]

InstaJock: Going Viral

**Hey! This is my entry for @occamstfs Viral Transformation Challenge. Congrats on getting 2,000 followers, and thank you for beta reading this and helping me edit it. I hope I can get to 2,000 followers myself one day! For those who are new to my stories, this does connect to the plot established in my blog, but the concept is simple enough you should be able to follow along even if you don't usually read my stuff! I hope you all enjoy!**

When I talk about the InstaJock App Phenomenon – which I seem to do a lot. What is this, the 17th InstaJock related post? I need to diversify more – I usually talk about the transformation aspects and not the app itself. That’s partially because the transformation is the most interesting and hottest part, but it’s also because I haven’t been able to take a good look at the app. Even with all the protective spells and equipment I have, I can’t use a phone with InstaJock on it for very long without getting an urge to set up an account. 

Until now.

With some help from the devilishly handsome (and literally devilish) Nick, I’ve been able to get my hands on some better equipment and better explore the app. I was able to spend a couple hours on it before I needed to quit, and actually got some very interesting information, mainly about how the app works post-transformation. I had always assumed that once a user got transformed into a jock, they’d ignore the app from then on unless they wanted to change someone. I was very, very wrong, not just about that but about the purpose of the app itself. It’s not just for making people into jocks: it’s for finding the best ones.

The app generally works like any other social media app, with its members posting about their interests. It’s set up is a lot like Instagram, where pictures and videos are the main format used for posting, but what really makes it different from other social media apps is the content. You can probably guess what an app full of buff cocky jocks looks like, but I’ll confirm it for you: the app is a thirst trap paradise.

The entire app is stuffed with half naked –  and sometimes fully naked – photos of buff jocks, ones of all different kinds. If you can think up a jock related stereotype, they have a full hashtag dedicated to it. Just buff jocks playing sports, flexing and making out with other hot people, for as far. I know that doesn’t sound too different from normal social media apps, as most have a healthy NSFW side, but the posts have more in common then just showing jocks. Each and every post, every one that I saw, mentioned a Master. Some were talking about how they were getting pumped up at the gym for Master, some were talking about how they loved being jocks and were so glad Master had found them, and some were literally begging for Master to notice them, often wantonly describing how they’d debase themselves and be the sluttiest jock ever, all for him. Everyone on the app would post at least once a day about this mysterious Master. It doesn’t seem to matter if the jock is a dom, a sub, a top, a bottom, in a relationship, single, gay or even straight, all of them wanted this mysterious unnamed master – so much so they seemed to completely change personalities whenever he is mentioned. It seems instaJock has an additional side effect I didn’t know about till now: complete and utter devotion to their Master.

It took me a while, and some covert interviewing of a number of jocks in their DMs, but I think I figured out what's happening. The Jocks aren’t just posting for fun, they’re competing with each other. InstaJock isn’t really a social media app, it’s a sort of ranking app. Every day the jocks log on, post a picture of themselves with a caption somehow related to their Master, and leave likes on some of the other posts, usually the ones they find hot. If a jock’s post gets enough likes though, they get what every jock wants, what all of them are trying to get. They get to Go Viral.

Going Viral on IntsaJock isn’t like going viral on a regular app. It essentially means you’ve gotten enough likes, been reposted enough times, and have become popular enough on the site… that Master has noticed you. That's what the social media part of the app is really for. It’s just a way for Master’s jocks to organize themselves so only the hottest ones show up on his feed. If he really likes you, he’ll do more than just look too. Soon that Jock will disappear from his regular life, never to be seen again, whisked away to become a part of Master’s personal harem. This entire time the app has been about one thing: creating lovestruck sex slaves for the man who created InstaJock.

Like most actual social media apps, InstaJock jumps from one thing to another, and what's viral is always changing. But there are two tags that are always trending on InstaJock. The first, and most popular, is #JockMaster, which is only ever used by this mysterious Master when he makes a post. I’ve seen his account. He never shows his face on it, but from what little of his body that makes it into the photos, he’s… enchanting. As much as I hate to admit it, seeing just a bit of that creep almost made me drool. He usually only posts a couple times a week, as opposed to the jock who posts daily, but everything he posts goes viral on the app in moments. I’ll admit, there's something about his posts that is just… hypnotic. I almost set up an account after seeing one myself, and probably would have if Nick wasn’t there to stop me.

The other tag that's always trending is… more interesting, at least to me. It’s #MastersBoyfriend. It’s another tag used only by Master, and one he uses whenever he posts a picture of one particular member of his harem. 

Whenever he posts pictures… of my Uncle John.

I finally know who took my Uncle. I know who this Master is. I suspected it was him for a while, but now I’m sure. The man who made InstaJock and the man who turned my Uncle into a slutty buff himbo are one in the same. I finally have proof.

So now what?

**The identity of the person behind InstaJock AND the person behind my Uncle's transformation and kidnapping has finally been revealed! Been working up to this for a long time, and I'm glad to keep this story moving forward! Hope you liked it as much as I do! Thank you to @occamstfs once again for being absolutely awesome and inspiring!**

[mintmatcha]

I have 50 bucks and a mushy sandwich how much obi can this get me

its not a reader style excerpt I'm sorry--

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“What is this?” Her hands trace down the cracked red spine of the book, its leather soft and dusted with age. The smell of metal in the rain oozes from it, so viscous that it sticks to the roof of her mouth. When her fingers run over the gold leafed edges, they buzz as if charged with electricity, biting to strike out like lightning.

“A tome,” Obsidian chimes cheerfully. “Most likely bound in tiefling skin.”

She snaps away from the book as if bitten. Ruby cackles from his perch and it strikes her that his skin is the same crimson tone as the book.

“Obsidian, that's horrid.”

“Well, old things tend to be.” Her disgust does nothing to dampen his excitement.

“This is ancient thing written in a very, very old languages by many different authors.” He flips the pages open and the words seem to catch in the candlelight, glimmering as if written in freshly written ink. Half of the symbols are unfamiliar to her, minus a few Elvish figures and common words. Obsidian taps a claw on a particularly bizarre looking section. “There's vocabulary here that's close to ancient Draconic, which is a very rare language that I happen to speak as my Mothertongue-” -He's tickled to brag about that. It's a very good brag indeed; she hadn't thought it was still spoken at all- “Other parts are borrowed from Celestial and Infernal-”

“Which I know.” Ruby cuts in. He's undone his boots and tossed his socks to dry by the fire. The partnership makes more sense now- they need each other and their particularly lucky set of skills.

“But there's large swathes that we can't seem to figure out,” Ruby continues. “And a lot seems to be pure gibberish.”

“Just pure bullshit,” Ruby agrees. “A soup of letters.”

Obsidian casually flips through the pages, letting them pass for a forlorn sigh. The letters are ornately written, with special tails and loops, dipping and dragging into other words. The gaps between symbols seems to be random... until they suddenly don't. It clicks in her brain as to why it seemed so familiar.

“Oh,” she chirps. “Isn't…?”

She leaves air for the men to complete her sentence, but finds that they only stare instead. They… don't know. How could they not know? If she knows, there's no reason for them not to. The woman shifts on her seat, almost embarrassed. She's probably mistaken, foolhardy to think her unschooled mind could reasonably compare.

“Yes, my lady?”

She shifts on her buttbone again.

“Spit it out,” the tiefling says.

“It's, uh. Part is it… It's kind of… simplified High Elvish, isn't it?” There's another dreadful silence. “Am I wrong?”

The men snap their heads to each other. They murmur, seemingly to their respective selves, then return to her.

“Speak more words,” Ruby orders.

“Um, well, I could be wrong,” she trails off again and Obsidian reaches over, patting her shoulder gently.

“Let's hear your thoughts.”

“Elvish has its own letters and stuff, and so does High Elvish, but even elves don't read High Elvish script,” she laughs at a joke neither of them seem to get. “And it has its own sounds, so when people write High Elvish with common letters, they have to kind of combine our letters together to indicate that sound. It's why it's spaced so strangely.”

She has to pick at the sections to find something she can actually read.

“So, this here, it's spelled like thrill,” he says. “But it's really, maybe, kind of- like a-- Ɓřille, or, uh. Maybe-”

Obsidian's brow furrows so deep that his horned crest wrinkles. He repeats the sound back in a way that somehow gives it direction, and she nods, more assured.

“That's a Draconic word.”

“Fuck off-” Ruby thuds his head against the stone wall. “Fuck off. Is it Draconic written in Elvish slang? How did we miss that?”

“Neither of us speak Elvish,” Obsidian notes, his emerald eyes watching her with a tender curiosity. “Or have high enough blood to recognize High Elvish writings.”

Heat flushes her cheeks. Her blood certainly isn't high either.

“Can you read more, my lady?”

“I can't. I'm not fluent or anything, I just know about it.” She deflates, tucking her torso into her knees. “The only elves that use it are the ones trying to show off that they have pedigrees-- and even then, they don't really speak it. They memorize excerpts to write. I’m sorry.”

“Why are you apologizing? You are a marvel.” Obsidian says it so earnestly that she almost believes it too. “You potentially saved us months--”

“Years!” Ruby crows.

“Years of research.” Obsidian's hand finds her shoulder again, this time with a squeeze. “You, my lady, are an asset.”

[garden-of-rambles]

I feel like I could go on for a while about the way some of the wider fandom chooses to characterize Odysseus in relation to Penelope (and how that extends to the way other m/f ships also get treated in a similar manner in other fandoms) but I don't want to start a fight.

Like, the whole 'malewife' idea is funny for a bit, and I get what people mean when they say it, but its usage and application to characters *always* ends up somehow looping around to weird gender reinforcing stuff that it's supposed to be subverting. Like, the male character *has* to be more submissive sexually (no variety in sex life allowed!), he is the one who gets pregnant, he is an uwu soft boy, etc. Frankly, a lot of the time it ends up coming off as though the fandom is just pushing more typically feminized traits on a male character, to the point where it feels like they do actually think of him as the 'woman' in the relationship, again, weirdly reinforcing those specific kinds of roles.

And, to be clear, I'm not talking about works that actually explore these concepts of gender (or sexuality) with the characters. Its totally fine to write about these characters being trans or a different sexuality than they are in canon - there's nothing wrong with that at all. And I'm not gonna begrudge anyone exploring these things for themselves through fanworks.

At the same time, I do think there's something really weird -- and not as subversive or progressive as a lot seem to think -- about the way that loud sections of fans treat m/f ships in this way. I feel especially strongly about it with a ship like Odysseus and Penelope, which already has a lot of really interesting stuff going for it in terms of gender dynamics for the time period its set in. Like, them treating and viewing each other the way they do is what makes their relationship so interesting and unique, precisely because they represent these images of being king/queen and husband/wife. Penelope's reliance on traditionally feminine things -- such as weaving -- are *part* of what helps her survive, and what makes her a strong and smart character. Giving her a spear or more 'masculine' coded traits doesn't make her more interesting or badass: it ignores the things that already make her that way.

Same with Odysseus: he doesn't have to be just soft or strong, the dominant one or not: he can be both representative of very masculine traits AND still be soft and emotional. But instead certain sections of the fanbase just say he's a babygirl and that Penelope is always domming him, and like...it just flattens both of their characters in the process, and feels as if it just weirdly reinforces the very same gender roles they're trying to subvert.

(whoops, went on for a while anyway)

[yanderenightmare]

Hi I don’t know if you still use this system but I remember a post where you said that you had a categories for the different types of mha boys as yandares possessive v obsessive stuff like that do you still use it while writing for other fandoms?

In reference to these posts, I believe: BNHA yandere beginnings & yandere categories

Cool question!

I'd say it was never something I heeded religiously, but more something I might've referred to every now and again in an effort to find ways to keep the different characters separate.

Adhering to those set yandere categories, it was easier to gauge what reaction different yandere types would have between each other set in similar scenarios. It was more important to me at that time to write them all fundamentally differently because I usually wrote a lot of 'bundle' posts with several characters going through the same imagine.

Take "wrongfully punished," for example, where each BNHA yandere is under the false impression that their captive darling has broken their rules somehow.

Here we have Bakugou, whom I diagnosed as a protective, possessive, and denialistic yandere. He believes that his darling has stolen a knife and proceeds to absolutely lose his shit—his first instinct is to hold back and demand she give it back with minor consequences, but as she refuses (as she hasn't stolen anything), he quickly decides on a punishment that far exceeds the crime—carving the word 'quirkless' into her arm. Then, upon understanding that he was wrong and it was all a misunderstanding, he's just as quick to crash into despair, bearing witness to his horrifying and unjustifiable actions.

His protectiveness and possessiveness come through in how hurt he is over her betrayal, how important it is to him for her to understand that there is no universe in which he'll allow her to escape, and furthermore, no possible way for her to live in the outside world without him if she did—and he'll go to any lengths to ensure she understands that, hence branding what he sees as the ultimate weakness into her arm.

He's a denialistic yandere—wherein the reality he's created for himself, he's able to view his actions as protection—for better or for worse. Condoning his behavior, telling himself that she needs him. But then, as the realization hits and he's forced to see what he's done, his denial reaches its limit, and he's slapped with the understanding that the only one she needs protection from is none other than himself.

Hawks, an obsessive, dependant, and denialistic yandere, has somewhat of a similar reaction where his denials also reaches a limit and he's forced to see his wrongs reflected on him.

However, Deku, an obsessive and possessive yandere, has a very different reaction. Instead of feeling regret or remorse, he hasn't got a single apologetic bone in his body. He's calm and collected, doesn't crack under the pressure of being wrong, and instead simply takes it in stride. In other words, he's built for it and hasn't been denying his nature the same way the other two have.

Where Bakugou and Hawks carry around a constant sense of self-loathing they deny by always finding convoluted ways of condoning their actions under pretenses, such as doing it all to protect their darling or because they love them, Deku is way more honest with himself. He's not doing any of it to protect them, and he's more than aware that love isn't a good enough excuse to hold someone captive. No, he's doing it because he can and he wants to. And he's made peace with that.

In regard to if I still use those categories, I'd say yes, to some degree.

I mean, in simpler viewpoints, one might just look at those categories as personality types. Or rather, if a character has certain set of personality traits, it's then natural for them to be a certain type of yandere.

But at the same time, it's fun to switch it up and give a character completely different yandere traits than what one might naturally expect—for example, suddenly making Bakugou more in line with the yandere type we see portrayed by Deku, and vice versa.

All in all, I'd say these categorical differences are all just tools, and I use and abuse them any way I see fit to create new and exciting takes on what would otherwise be the same story over and over.

If that makes any sense.

[t1oui]

thinking about how living w regulus would affect harry like

he's such a fucking snob about everything. food, decor, fashion, you name it, he's got opinions on it.

he does ballet despite being the least graceful person on the planet. he's somehow pretty good at it, likely out of spite

speaks french

very much a cat person, has a cat named leo who is his baby

like yk how james and sirius are extremely codependent? that's how harry is w leo. both of them can not handle being apart from each other too long

reads a lot of stories

thinks seeker is the best quidditch position

on that note, lots of slytherin house pride. james hates it. harry refuses to put any gryffindor decorations up in his room

harry loves taking pictures just like reg so the house is filled with photographs

and ofc harry is snobby about what types of cameras he uses thanks to reg. james now just lets them deal with the cameras & photography stuff bc he's scared to get the wrong thing lol

harry is taller than reg but bc dysphoria all of reg's old clothes (like quidditch jerseys + hoodies and stuff) are his size so half his wardrobe is from reg's hogwarts days

definitely the type of guy to change his bedding & curtains & everything in his room based on the season. will anybody actually be in there other than him and his parents? not really, but he MUST redecorate

idk what this even means but snobby about candles. this is another thing james is scared to buy him

harry and reg speak french w each other more than english

since james doesn't speak french w harry (i hc he's only comfortable speaking it w reg) harry is used to having a conversation in two different languages so sometimes he'll be speaking french w his friends without noticing

he'll be in the middle of a rant and realize they don't understand a thing he's saying lol

reg and harry control the decorating for every holiday, every birthday, etc.

the one thing harry knows how to do that reg doesn't/reg didn't teach him is cooking. reg never cooked for himself as a child so james was the one who taught him

doesn't look like it most of the time but all of harry's clothes are very expensive... did i mention he's a snob

harry is such a dry texter/writer... he's such a dick about grammar when it comes to writing even tho he can barely string a sentence together when speaking

deeply sarcastic (look! a canon detail! we never thought we'd see that on this account, did we?)

will take his partners on the most expensive dates & whatnot like it's nothing... cedric the farmboy™️ is not prepared

writes sad boy poetry when he gets annoyed w someone... like harry will storm off all pissed and then he comes back 20 mins later with a beautifully written, very angry poem for whoever made him mad

has so many clothes & different curtains and bedding sets for different seasons that he also uses the closet in the guest room (reg takes up 99% of his and james's closet for the same reason)

has an inherent hatred of fake plants

bedroom is simultaneously tidy and so messy a hurricane might as well have come through

leaves a book behind everywhere he goes

secretly the worst sense of humor lmao

he may not have gotten his love of drawing/painting from regulus, but you def see reg in the way he is, you guessed it, a massive snob about art supplies

soooo indecisive. redoes his room at least twice a year

an asshole when he gets less than 10 hours of sleep... he's mildly tolerable after 3 cups of coffee (black, of course) but you might as well just ignore him until he gets a nap in

on that note is very good at making coffee and is, drum roll please, a massive snob about it. who would've guessed (somebody count how many times i've said snob in this post and comment it please and thank you)

if he doesn't like a gift he's horrible at pretending he's happy w it so people usually go through reg whenever they buy him something... this goes both ways too, people go through harry when buying something for reg

is visually james and lily's but in personality is really just reg's (and also lily's... he definitely inherited his spite from her lol)

is a crazy cat lady by age 20

at least 10 pictures of leo in his room... he has whole photoshoots for her and she poses for them

might as well not hang out w harry at his house bc he'll make out with his cat the whole time

loves going to art museums w regulus

he's a, surprise surprise, snob about art. james just doesn't comment on art altogether atp

his vocabulary is a weird mashup of french, english, and hindi that makes it very hard for anybody who doesn't know him well to understand what he's saying lol

looks angry until he smiles (he got this from lily but a life with reg has perfected it)

needs a golden retriever to his black cat in any given relationship (enter cedric and cho) (yes i'm going to push my rarepair on everyone reading this)

tl;dr being raised by/living w regulus has turned harry into a massive snob about literally everything and regulus is proud of it (blink twice if you need help, james)

[waitmyturtles]

Hey,

I'm not 100% sure how this works. Also this is more of an opinion than a question. I just feel the need to brain dump. You are under no obligation to reply. 😁

I fear that First and Khaotung are being wasted at/by GMMTV. They're both stellar actors and seem to have the sensibilities to tackle more serious material.

I feel like coming off Not Me, the themes in The Eclipse kinda went over my head. My fear was and still is that I didn't understand all the nuances. And that's why I felt like the show was lacking. Also I think the very first preview set it up as an entirely different show (more supernaturalmystery/thriller) in my head, so there was a disconnect there as well.

Their next project was Moonlight Chicken where both of them shined as actors but negligibly as a BL pairing. Having said that, they seem to be on very solid ground in the BL fandom - I am referring to their fan meets.

Only Friends was a masterclass of acting as far as FirstKhaotung were concerned (i was all about Ray and Sand), but I think the overall reputation as show that fell flat on its face overshadowed or at least took away (for me) from the gravity of FK.

And now we're here. With The Heart Killers and I am very wary of how Ota all going down. I see that the final trailer got over million views and I'm happy for them, but based on I think the absolute travesty that was OF, my expectations for this show are on the ground.

I really want more of an insight into how projects are picked up and distributed inside GMMTV (if you ha e any, I'm dying to know). I feel like they would benefit greatly from being on a show like PS I Hate You or something like Peaceful Property.

It feels like they're backsliding in terms of material given. Which I am sure is a) not their fault and b) me possibly being weird and dramatic in the wee hours of the morning. But I wanted to get it off my chest and I was reading your previous reviews when I felt, and then gave into the impulse to write to you.

Also I'm a MaxTul girly too and somehow, you made me want to give Make it Right another chance.

Have a great week ahead and keep up the absolutely exceptional work! ❤️

NIHILISTIC! It's great to hear from you! And thank you for the compliments!

TW for girlies out there who are not Nihilistic: this post will contain criticisms of The Heart Killers trailer. Read at your peril, delicate hearts!

I'll go backwards to save the biggest stuff for last. If you write anything about Make It Right, please tag me! @bengiyo and I always give a little DJ air horn to each other when we've nabbed another one into the broader cultural reconsideration of this AMAZING show. MaxTul, man. Nobody beats them! (Okay, almost, Tul admits he wasn't the strongest actor, but. We'll let it slide, dahling!) Chemistry, humor, pride representation, everything, they're great. I yelped when I saw them in Triage!

Okay, so you are a FirstKhao girlie, and you're worried about what The Heart Killers bodes. (Out of transparency, I have The Heart Killers tag filtered because of Only Friends PTSD. I'm gonna filter my own post!) For you, Nihilistic, I just watched the trailer for it.

I will get to all your questions about the GMMTV model in a moment.

Now, out of even MORE transparency, I am watching the MESS that is Kidnap right now, and listen, it's NOT GOOD. I'm fucking not even writing about it anymore, I'm just reblogging the sessy gifs. I am watching it to support Ohm Pawat, and am hoping that this partnership with Leng Thanaphon will hopefully lead to better scripts.... somewhere. (Or at least, better scripts for Ohm at a place like One31 or Channel 3. I also hope Ohm keeps up his anti-branded pair stance, but if GMMTV forces him to pair permanently with Leng, it won't be a fucking surprise, and more on that below.)

To focus specifically on THK for a sec: the THK trailer evoked a lot of what's gone utterly wrong in Kidnap for me. I think writing Thai BL/Series Y scripts to be different, fresh, and innovative, is just going to be really fucking hard, especially for stories featuring branded pairs that MUST end up together in the end. Because we, the viewers, KNOW that they MUST end up together in the end, what kind of mystery and conflict can a script convincingly evoke to keep us, the viewers, engaged and interested in the drama?

A few of us Ohm girlies were excited that Kidnap could have had non-romantic plot points (CRIME!!!) to drive concurrently with a romance plot. There are Series Y that have done this BEAUTIFULLY, particularly Sammon's stories of Manner of Death and Triage.

I'm sorry to say that I didn't get that from the THK trailer, and that THK smells a lot like Kidnap to me. The trailer itself is giving an indication that the "jobs" these guys have as double agents are going to be compromised due to them falling in love. And after the debacle that was Jojo Tichakorn's Only Friends -- a show premised on the exploration of mean, icky, really horny humans, a great place to start an interesting show! -- knowing that THK will HAVE to end up in a romantic place, with FK and JoongDunk being in memorable and memeable entwinements... that's a lot to ask of a show that already isn't making sense by drive, emotion, and tone in its trailer alone. What matters more to these characters? Their work, or their need to be in monogamous relationships? Seems like the latter to me by way of the trailer, which makes me wonder what the point of the plot is. (Joong's chest, probably.) (Gahddayum.)

(I haven't watched the latest episode of Jack & Joker, btw, but I understand that THIS WEEK's episode is ALSO going through something similar, with dead-end and uncommitted plot points all to get to a kiss. Oy.)

To summarize these points and to touch at your question about how GMMTV chooses scripts: GMMTV has an economic model to sell in giving happy endings to their branded pairs, which I wrote about at length in my Old GMMTV Challenge rewatch of The Eclipse. No matter where a script goes, the ending must be memorable and monogamous to satisfy the retweeting hunger of the branded pairs' fandoms, in order for GMMTV's artists to increase online engagement and to maintain earned media values to sell products.

The wonderful @flowerbeasblog noted to me recently that Tha Sataporn, the CEO of GMMTV, said in an interview that as the productions of Series Y in Thailand continues to increase, there is a greater need for more scriptwriting talent across this niche genre, creating competition for more excellent writing. (By comparison, in the States, when streaming services like Netflix and Hulu starting commissioning more original series just about a decade ago, the demand for scriptwriters and excellent writing also went up by incredible scale -- only to come crashing down recently with pandemic and strike-related losses in revenue.) GMMTV's recently announced script competition, Y Find, updated itself last week with a notice that the company would need more time to sift through scripts to judge. In other words: the demand for creative plots is so high at this company that they are literally fielding entries from the general public.

At the same time, Tha Sataporn has been blunt in indicating that "good shows" are not the priority of his GMMTV, and that talent, management, and engagement are his indicators of success. So, economically -- as long as a show hits that happy ending, and gets the girlies excited online with commentary and purchasing power, then the studio has won, in GMMTV's eyes.

ULTIMATELY, Nihilistic: what we are dealing with regarding your concern, as fans and/or critics of Series Y shows, is a conflict of values, among critical fans like ourselves, other fans who only watch shows for romance and shipping, and the economic bottom lines of the studios/agencies themselves. Some of us just want narratively good scripts, like Bad Buddy or He's Coming To Me. Others are content with having a show end with their fave pairs confirmed together in the end, no matter the process of how they got there. Those are different values we hold in watching shows. I appreciate that while you're a fan of the FK branded pair, that you want stronger scripts for them. I do, too, but that's not a value that every fan -- and GMMTV itself -- holds. And I believe that's why we've been seeing more and more mediocre scripts from that studio in particular.

I actually want to note maybe something positive about FirstKhao. Other than The Eclipse, it seems like they haven't been locked into high school or university settings. Only Friends, Moonlight Chicken -- these are shows that show First's and Khao's characters as young adults, and THK is going there, too. I hope they can avoid the university settings as they continue to work.

Is stellar acting wasted at GMMTV? Oh, yes. Besides First and Khao, who I truly think are good actors, we have Gun Atthaphan, Nanon Korapat, and Ohm Pawat -- these three guys are on my list of the best Thai actors out there who have done BL, and they haven't had great scripts in years. (Gun, arguably, has had the best pickings of decent shows recently in Cooking Crush and The Trainee, but they weren't high art; and Nanon's Dirty Laundry was the last Jojo script I was truly impressed by.) All three of these guys were in MOVIES at one point. Those ambitions, on behalf of these actors by GMMTV, seem to have gone by the wayside in preference for a huge economic push to boost branded pair-based series insteads, with their plot holes and guaranteed romances.

I hope the genre's tide turns for the sake of quality scripts, especially at GMMTV, but my hopes are low for this agency at the moment. My joy in Thai shows recently has been in watching past shows for my OGMMTVC. I've been on a lakorn kick lately, having watched The Miracle of Teddy Bear and I'm looking forward to watching Khun Chai soon. Other agencies and studios, like One31 and Channel 3, are breathing down GMMTV's neck and producing more interesting shows, sometimes with branded pairs and sometimes not. Triage only came out two years ago, and that show's trilogy (along with Manner of Death) will end with this year's airing of Spare Me Your Mercy, starring the very likely one-time pair of Tor Thanabob and JJ (Jaylerr) Krissanapoom, two gigantic artists in Thailand who are circling BACK towards the much smaller genre of Series Y for SMYM's sake. I have VERY high hopes and expectations for that show -- and that show is well out of the purview of GMMTV.

I think what you're smelling about the THK trailer is right, Nihilistic -- to me, the trailer isn't cohesive, and jumps already to its forgone conclusion of a romantic end. Unfortunately, for those of us familiar with Jojo Tichakorn's work, we know that if he was given more leeway, he'd likely come up with something more interesting. But now that he has to work with branded pairs -- who are shipped in the eyes of their fan beholders -- he's got a lot less room to be creative and interesting, which ultimately stifles the otherwise excellent acting we'd see from these young men.

[sturniccz]

Just for the night?

Chris Sturniolo smut. Part 1.

In which a girl whom enjoys the company of the loud, banging in her head, just needs a rest.

Warnings: dom!Chris, sub!Reader, use of petnames, degration, smut (no sex yet, just some sexy activities), friends w benefits situation?, rough!Chris, mentions of drug use, yelling/arguing, lmk if i missed anything!

Not proofread, feel free to send requests!

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Parties were always your favorite thing. To say the least, you lived for the feeling of the freedom, and the bond with you and the people surrounding you in the one night that you experience with them. House parties were particularly your favorite because it was more likely you would know majority of the people there.

Tonight the triplets are throwing a party just for fun because you had mentioned a few days prior how much you had missed the feeling and the adrenaline. 

Less than two hours ago they had come back from their ‘plug’ with a decent amount of inventory. They had it all. Four vapes, one for each of you, a decent sized bag of weed and two packs of papers, not to mention the four Smirnoff bottles and maybe 500 Solo cups. Easy to say they know how to throw a party.

After receiving your bag of things that they got for you, your vape, a new mascara, some nail glue, and a new toothbrush, you head down to Chris’s room to begin your painful process of getting ready. Regardless of when they tell you that you don’t need all of the makeup and hair products, you can’t help but feel extra pretty once you have it on. 

you always keep a few things here and there in the house so you already have almost everything you need to get ready. Thankfully they picked up a new mascara for you, otherwise you wouldn’t have any.

getting comfortable and Chris’s bathroom, setting your stuff on the counter, and sitting on the countertop, you begin to apply some natural makeup. after maybe 20 minutes you had finished your make up and heard footsteps coming from the stairs of the basement. Turning around to meet eyes with Chris. 

“You look nice,” Chris says, not really paying any attention to anything other than your makeup.

“How sweet, you aren’t even looking at anything but my face,” You begin, “and you wonder why I never wear makeup.”

Chris looks up from his phone as you speak, finally taking the time to fully take in your presence. “Oh come on, you know I’m right.” Chris says, just above a whisper, leaning on the doorframe behind you, beginning to stare at you in the mirror.

Chris always knew how to get to you. He understands you better than anyone else, including yourself, and he knows what will make you feel better in any situation. But, this he also uses for his own entertainment, at times. He knows what you like. You dont.

“Oh Chris please, if you think I actually care, you’re wrong.” You state as you finish your hair, just a simple half up look.

Chris begins to protest but before he can get anything out you cut him off. “What one should i wear? Red or Black?” you begin to question, holding up a black satin dress which hugs your waist and stops right above your knee, completing with off the shoulder sleeves, slightly more sheer than the rest, and a simple red dress that looks almost the same as the black, except the chest, has a somewhat different cut, exposing more of your cleavage than the opposing dress.

Already knowing Chris’ answer, he replies quickly. “I like the red one, we can match, I have a red tie.” He states as he begins walking towards his dresser, pulling out a red silk tie from the very top drawer.

After a little banter you both eventually agree on matching and he also somehow convinced you to wear your hair down. This is going to be a long night.

After what feels like 30 minutes since you have last, talked to Chris, a considerate amount of people arrived at the house. The living room and kitchen is now full with guests and couples linger the halls and stairways, kissing and touching all over.

The sound of the loud bass coming from the speakers, and the mingling of the guests, brings back a feeling that you know you will never forget. You can tell Chris is on aux from the musical choices, but you weren’t complaining, that man has good taste. 

“Hey pretty lady, what brings you here?” an unfamiliar voice exclaims from behind you to your left, right as you finished walking up the stairs from Chris’s room in the basement. “Never seen you before, are you somebody’s plus one?” he finishes, now looking face on at you. You cant help but think where Chris is at, and how he knows this man. He seems to be in good shape, no older than 23, yet still weird considering nobody ever comes up to you unannounced like this.

“Oh I’m friends with Nick!” you begin to explain, hoping that’s enough information for this man to leave you alone.

The man seems to be listening well, making eye contact with you as you explain your relation to the hosts. You begin to walk away after saying goodbye, and immediately lock eyes with Chris from across the kitchen.

He’s seemingly comfortably sat next to Matt, chatting with some random person you’re sure you’ve never seen before. He keeps his eyes on you as you begin walking over to him, slowly pushing past some groups of people before finally standing next to him.

He puts his left arm around you, the other leaning against the wall as he looks down at you with a look you cant seem to read. “Who’s that?” he blatantly asks, obviously, not in the mood to hear anything come out of your mouth other than that he’s a stranger. 

“Oh I dont know just some guy,” you begin, looking behind you at the man you had previously stumbled across a few moments ago. “I’ve never met him before.”

“You alright? Did he say anything to you?” Chris finishes as he takes a long drag from a j Matt had previously rolled for the group to share, while looking into the back of the mans head, seemingly wanting to destroy him.

“Oh no he didn’t do anything dont worry about it Chris.” You say looking up at Chris and taking the j from his right hand, also taking a puff. Chris continues staring, and you break him from his thoughts.

“Chris.” You state, forcing him to look at you as you continue, “Dont stress about it, its all good. I promise.” You say as you interlock your pinkies, taking a final puff before handing the j to Matt, whom has been waiting very patiently, before returning your attention to Chris once again.

He releases his hand from yours and rejoins the conversation he had been in previously, reverting his attention to the group.

The night has been amazing. You’ve been having so much fun, catching up with old high school, friends, taking shots with your old girlfriends and throwing up once or twice. regardless of the love you have for nights like these, they always seem to eventually become too much for you. 

You begin searching through the house for Chris once again, moving from upstairs in the loft with a group of your old girlfriends to the kitchen, where you previously had been met with Chris. 

right as you notice, Chris from across the living room, sitting on the couch conversation with Nate, the same man from earlier stopped you in your tracks. 

“Hey pretty, yknow I never got your name?” he asks sweetly, obviously trying to play at your feelings as he steps closer to you, cutting off your field of sight to Chris.

Only wanting to leave the situation and finally get to some peace and quiet, you feel as the best answer is to just tell him your name, excuse yourself, and return to Chris once again, but he had other plans.

“Im y/n,” you start, clearly trying to look over his shoulder as to search for Chris. “Oh is that your boyfriend?” he asks in a genuine manner, willing to back off if you were taken.

“Yeah it is, Chris is my boyfriend.” You state, standing your ground and forgetting about looking over his shoulder. “Oh I’m so sorry then y/n, I’ll leave you guys alone.” he says before finally walking away back to his clique.

before you can even refocus your gaze to where Chris had been seated, you had noticed that he was gone. You thought nothing of it as you just wanted to get to some peace and quiet, so you finish your voyage from upstairs to downstairs as you finally reach Chris’ bedroom door. 

After knocking and hearing no noise from the other side, you let yourself in and begin taking your dress off to get comfortable for sleep. that is until Chris’s bathroom door opens, revealing a shirtless, high, and tipsy Chris.

you usually would think nothing of it, as you have seen him shirtless before, and he has seen you in a bikini before. Somehow some thing about this environment seems different as his gaze deepens from his frozen place from the bathroom doorway.

“You just gonna stand there?” You chuckle as you finish taking your dress off and begin putting on one of Chris’ hoodies.

“And look at you like this? Hell yeah?” Chris says from the doorway, slowly making his way over to you, leaning on his dresser listening to you speak.

“Well, I’m not gonna be ’like this’ for much longer, because I’m going to sleep, Chris. Now if you’d please, I would appreciate if I could take my makeup off.”  You say.

Chris just stands there. Staring, mouth agape, as his eyes trace over your features, almost sinfully. He knows you have clothing on, but you have never looked so beautiful to him in any other environment. Standing in front of his bed in nothing but your lace panties and one of his fresh love hoodies. God, he can’t seem to get enough of it.

“Fine, go to sleep but keep the door locked, i don’t want your new boyfriend coming in here and fucking you on my bed.” He states as he remembers who you had previously been talking to, and why he went downstairs in the first place.

“Oh Chris, what did I tell you?” You ask remembering your pinky promise from earlier as you take a seat on his bed.

“Its fine y/n just dont get my bed stained.” He says before opening the door, waiting for a response.

“Chris you can’t be serious right now!?” You raise your voice at him from across the room. “I pinky promised you! I dont fucking know who he is and I definitely don’t want him anywhere near me?!”

“Yeah then why are you in my room huh?!? to fuck him?!?” he yells louder than you, almost like a competition.

Your eyes go wide and your legs cross as you take in the sight of the man in front of you. Filled with mixed emotions of rage and jealousy. Something about seeing Chris in this state causes a small little match to start within you, and you cant get enough. All you want to do is make him even more angry at you just to see where this goes. God, you’re a mess.

“Yeah so what if I was gonna fuck him Chris?!? Im not a baby I can do whatever the fuck I wanna do!!” You yell in his face, and the look that those two sentences put onto that man’s face, you will never forget. He looked so strong and like he could do anything he wanted to you. And he did.

Chris loudly slams the door shut with his foot, locking it behind him as he pushes you by the shoulders onto his bed. “You wanna fuck him? Huh?!?” he yells into your face, just inches apart as he hovers over you, never daring to make contact to your skin. Not just yet.

You look up at him feeling helpless. The feeling you are getting from this is like no other you have ever experienced. A lust stronger than your insatiable love for the adrenaline of the party.

“I asked you a fucking question, whore” He says, just above a whisper, almost as though if anyone heard him call you such foul names, that he would be sentenced to death, as he begins softly kissing just below your ear, somehow, already knowing your sweet spot.

“Chris- I-I” you cry out, not being able to form a full sentence. The scent of him and the feeling of his teeth in your neck, his hair against your jaw, its unreal.

“Yeah not so bratty now are we, baby?” He teases as his hands move up your waist, softly running his hands up and down your sides. “You love the feeling of my big hands on your tiny body, don’t you, love?” he asks from your neck.

“Chris please-“ Is all you can get out, somehow you have already lost all willpower it takes to form a sentence.

“Oh yeah? What do you want, my love? You want me dont you?”

“Y-Yes-“ you whisper from below him, your arms now wrapped around his neck as he begins grinding down on your hips, and damn, he is hard.

“You feel that, baby? Do you feel my dick, baby? Fuck you love how hard I am for you, huh?” He knows just how to get to you, and fuck is it working.

His lips attach to yours in a fast, filthy, makeout session. He kisses you like he had always wanted to, the way he fantasizes about.

Suddenly Chris’ bedroom door opens with a loud bang, and you both freeze and simply look at eachother. Oh, fuck.



[wangxianficfinder]

Fic Finder

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1. I'm looking for a story that was set in more modern times and Wangxian are both female, LZ moved to America and was chronically injured, sometimes stuck in a wheelchair, believes WWX dead until she runs into her in America, LSZ is being brought up at the Lan compound by LXC @readingdj

FOUND? 🔒 everything's going to be discovered by everythingispoetry (M, 98k, wangxian, F/F, Modern Cultivation, Reunions, Soft Wangxian, Female LWJ, Female WWX, Family Feels, Soft LQR, they are all softies, Starts with angst ends with fluff, it's a progression, bamf everyone really, Hurt/Comfort, Disability)

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2. I remember it was on ao3 and Wei ying was presumed dead from the waterborne abyss but then washes ashore some days later alive I think he was found by LQR or LXC @i-cant-think-of-one-meh

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3. Hi I have two very vague fics that I'm trying to find A) a fic where yuan named the burial mounds bunny mountain or valley? Something to do with bunnies. I remember it was a yiling Wei sect fic but that's it. B) a fic where Wei Wuxian pretends to date lan Wangji. I remember lan Wangji had like a see through wall in his bedroom or at least a big house/apartment? Or something and Wei Wuxian stayed with him for a bit. It could have been a sugar baby AU but I know it was fake/pretend au and that they slept together. I think they had a misunderstanding or something and broke up then confessed to each other? Sorry all I really remember is them going to Lan Wangji's apartment at one point 😅

3A)

FOUND! 🧡 Never Again by Hauntcats (T, 67k, WangXian, WWX & WQ & WN, Canon Divergence, Time Travel, Golden Core Transfer Fix-It, Angst, Not JC Friendly, BAMF WWX)

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4. So I came back to the fandom after about a year and a half and I can’t for the life of me find a story. I don’t remember much, but it was like a murder mystery or something. Or a threat to Jin Ling’s life. But at the end, a girl was killing people with voodoo dolls and was trying to kill Wei Ying with one.

I’m hoping this is in the same story, but they were in a lighthouse and a resentful ghost was murdered and sealed in the structure.

I’m sorry I’m not giving you much, but hopefully someone knows what I’m talking about. Thank you!

FOUND? And I Will Call You Home by Spodumene (E, 42k, WangXian, Case Fic, Post-Canon, Getting Together, Pining, Angst with a Happy Ending, Love Confessions, Canon-Typical Violence, Blood, Ghosts, Suicide, Explicit Sexual Content, Attempted Sexual Assault, LWJ whump, Original Character Death(s))

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5. Hii hope you all are well. Um this fic was modern wwx somehow getting transported into the wuxia version and kind of gives therapy to everyone I believe they were also viewing the past it's not rly a jiang family fix it but I think the ppl that died came back. I think wwx mentions that ljy in the modern world is older than lwj @thatperson0-0

Hi I'm number 5. Sadly the fic was not found :(. If it helps, modern wwx is engaged/married/dating modern lwj and when the two wwxs switch, past wwx and modern lwj have yk in the modern world and when he comes back he mentions wanting to try the stuff he learnt with past lwj.

NOT FOUND! Wrong Turn, Right Place by diamondbruise (E, 71k, WangXian, Time Travel, kind of, it’s more reality travel but there’s modern wwx and cultivator lwj, Mutual Pining, Angst with a Happy Ending, Jealousy, Idiots in Love, Slow Burn, Misunderstandings, Cultural Differences)

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6. hello I would like to request help in finding a modern Wangxian fanfic on Ao3 in which they are I think starting university & WY has 2 cores one golden core and a dark core from resentful energy with I think a reincarnation theme too for WY seeing LZ triggers both his cores & memories then faints which leads to LZ building a barrier around them & helps WY merge both cores together to save him also both their families are alive with baoshan sanren being close with Wangxian like a grandmother also LZ burns baoshan sanren hand when activating the shield also LJY & LSZ are immortals with LSZ gone into a meditative state and that JWY is an idol as he is unable to cultivate as he returned the core back to WY this particular piece of info I think was mentioned in the ending notes, this is all that I remember of it hope it helps. thxs @1p1rose1

FOUND?🔒 Because you loved me by ThisIsWhereTheMagicHappens (T, 133k, WIP, WangXian, NieLan, SongXiao, Canon Compliant, Modern AU, College/University, Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies, supportive family, POV Alternating, a lot of cultivation, they reincarnated, but not everyone remembers, the lan and wei parents are alive and caring, Happy Ending, No war, Hurt/Comfort, Mpreg, magical mpreg) but it doesn't match exactly

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7. I need fic finder help 😭 I cannot for the life of me find this one fic or remember the name, but I remember it very clearly.

So the premise was that the Lan soloed the SSC after the Wen attacked Cloud Recesses, and LWJ was sect leader (and chief cultivator??) after. He demanded a person be given to him (as compensation?? To show the sects alliance to him?? I forgot the exact reason) and WWX saw it coming a mile away that it would be him chosen to be handed over. Everyone was terrified of LWJ and was certain WWX would be miserable, but LWJ knew it would be WWX they sent and because Wen Qing vouched for him LWJ treated WWX like he deserved instead of how the sects thought he'd be, and got the shock of their life when they ended up married.

The last chapter I read (and the last update I saw, it was a (nearly finished?) wip last I read) Wen Qing sent a notice that LXC, who'd been in a coma for the entire fic up to that point, was awake.

If anyone can find this fic, I'd be eternally greatful 😭

FOUND! golden when the day met the night by glitteringmoonlight (Not rated, 95k, slow burn, sugar daddy LWJ, light, angst, fluff, developing relationship, eventual smut, WIP)

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8. There is a fic I'm looking for. After wwx comes back in Mo village he decides to just stay there and run the town for several years as mo xuanyu and I can't seem to find it on AO3 @mortavita

FOUND? focal, filler, and line by bosbie (T, 26k, wangxian, canon divergence, flower shop au, fluff, hurt/comfort, pining, falling in love, WWX is not recognized in Dafan mountain, slice of life, WIP) WWX stays in Mo Village and is noticed by LWJ 3 years later the out-of-season flowers "Mo Xuanyu" sells have touches of resentful energy on them

FOUND? Gave my Heart and Soul by mel_darling (T, 47k, WIP, WangXian, Hurt/Comfort, References to Depression, Survivors Guilt, Angst with a Happy Ending, Misunderstandings, wwx knows Lwj was the one who kissed him, Canon Divergence, Panic Attacks, AnxietyPining, Healing, Gardening for the soul, Accidental Child Acquisition, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Nightmares) It doesnt take place over years but the premise is similar.

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9. Does anyone have that threadfic where omegaverse a!WWX donated sperm for money and o!LWJ bought it? LWJ had two(?) kids with the third on the way when the two of them met and toward the end one of the kids got injured and had to go to the hospital which is how they found out that WWX was the donor

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10. I’m looking for a fic where Wei Wuxian is helping Lan Wangji move in, only to get pinned to a sex bench. Turns out Wei Wuxian is one of a very small subset of males who can get pregnant, Lan Wangji found his e-reader, and calmly decided to divest them both of their virginity. It is not nearly as dark as it sounds.

FOUND? Touch me, tease me, fill me up by Lanwangjisnights (E, 5k, WangXian, Modern AU, Porn With Plot, Porn with Feelings, BDSM Scene, Domestic BDSM, Restraints, Bondage, Rope Bondage, Double Penetration, Double Penetration in Two Holes, Boypussy, Vaginal Sex, LWJ Has a Big Dick, Daddy Kink, Pregnancy Kink, Consensual Non-Consent, Vibrators, Sex Toys, Rough Sex, Overstimulation, No Refractory Period, Aftercare, Marriage, Proposal, WWX POV, First Time)

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11. Hi! I’m looking for this fic, I don’t know if it was time travel, but one of the main things was that Wei ying, lan zhan, jiang Chang, and Jin Zixuan became martial brothers. Thank you!

FOUND? Quartet series by WithBroomBefore (T, 69k wangxian, JZX & JC & WWX & LWJ, Canon Divergence, Friends to Lovers, First Kiss, WWX's canonical comfort with the prospect of his own death, Hurt/Comfort, JZX makes friends, Eventual Happy Ending, some unhappiness along the way, Canon-Typical Violence, JC keeps his golden core, JYL Lives, WQ Lives, Minor Character Death, Kissing, WWX Lives, no golden core transfer, JZX Lives, Fix-It, WN Lives, Weeping, temporary major character death, Murder Road Trip, Implied Sexual Content, Sunshot Campaign, Nonbinary NHS, Telepathy, platonic group soulbonding, Family, Found Family, POV WWX, Podfic Available, Siblings Sworn Brothers, aroace JZX, Happy Ending, all the Wen remnants live, POV JZX, JGY is less murdery, Asexual Character, Aromantic Character, JZX's social awkwardness, Poison)

FOUND? The Same Moon Shines series by sami (E, 799k) since the asker specifically mentions time travel, I wonder if it's Sami's time travel series? at least the main continuity, where WWX is the time traveler. the sworn brotherhood isn't central like in Quartet but it's still a key plot point.

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12. Hi, I’m looking for an abo fic (o!wwx and a!lwj) where wwx is sent to the cloud recesses in an arranged marriage bc madam yu thought he would be miserable there. Lwj is super cold to him at first and I think wwx is left kneeling in the cold during his preheat? Lwj also doesn’t want kids with him, which makes wwx upset. Xichen and wwx end up becoming good friends, wwx solves the water abyss with talismans, and lwj warns wwx about associating with xichen since the elders would cast them in a bad light, and wwx takes this as threatening him. @vellialavellious

FOUND! To Bring You Back Within My Reach by ablaiseofglory (M, 20k, WIP, WangXian, Arranged Marriage, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, No dubious consent, Adopted Children, Kid Fic, A/B/O Dynamics, omega wwx, Alpha LWJ, Orphanage, canon levels of physical abuse, aka cloud recesses punishments, Verbal/Mental Abuse, Misunderstandings, so many of them, a comical/horrifying amount, Depressive Thoughts)

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13. Hii this I'd for fic finder

I'm looking for a fic where wwx and wq pretend to be married, a yuan as their child when wwx confronted the jins about qionqi path, in the end I remember he also married lz ( after a misunderstanding where he accused him of infidelity). Thank u ☆

Hii I'm number 13 on the recent fic finder, it's unfortunately not what was recommended :')

I remember more of the story , wwx and wq were married out of convenience to save her family, they had children together but never slept together, when wwx told lwj he loved him , lwj accused him of being bored of his wife or something (they got married in the end, there was implied mpreg I think & lwj was referred to as second madam wei)

Not FOUND that is a door by ShanaStoryteller (Not rated, 7k, WWX/WQ, Marriage of Convenience, POV WQ, Post-War, Canon Divergence) if the asker is certain about marrying LWJ then it's not ShanaStoryteller's this is a door, but otherwise it might be

Not FOUND🔒the tragic and entirely true story of the romance between the yiling patriarch and his wife, most renowned doctor of her generation by ravenditefairylights (T, 18k, WangXian, Non-Linear Narrative, Post-Canon, but also during canon, Character Study, Canon Temporary Character Death, excessive use of personal headcanons, Baby LSZ, Angst, Canon-Typical Violence, Oblivious WWX, Rumors, Getting Together, Idiots in Love, Heteronormativity, Fake Marriage, Chronic Pain, Misunderstandings, Mutual Pining)

FOUND? 💖 The Epic Lie of the Yiling Laozu and His Wife by JaenysBloodcourt (T, 9k, wangxian, WWX/WQ, fake/pretend relationship, fake marriage, misunderstandings, lies, jealousy, BAMF WWX, yiling wei au)

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14. Hello I am trying to find a fic that is a modern reincarnation au, wei wuxian and nie huaisang are reincarnated roommates, but lan wangji is immortal and from the canon time and he fights a big ghost head in their apartment which is wuxian and huaisang’s first experience with cultivation in this time

It had maybe two chapters then didn’t update for like a year and I gave up and closed the tab for it but that was a big mistake because even unfinished I still think about it for some reason

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15. Hellooo im really trying to find a fic where weiying travelled back in time to gusu classes and tried to end his life with his sword and everyone get scared there's a similiar fic called (un)hidden but it's not the one im trying to find can u please help me find it

FOUND? 🔒 Without end by barisan (M, 69k, WIP, WangXian, Time Travel, Suicide Attempt, Hurt/Comfort, Depressed WWX, WWX Needs a Hug, WWX Needs Therapy, Protective LWJ, Good Uncle LQR, Bad Parent YZY, Bad Parent JFM, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Canonical Character Death, PTSD, Panic Attacks, Time Travel Fix-It, YZY Bashing, JFM Bashing, WWX Protection Squad, WWX Has Self-Esteem Issues, YLLZ WWX, Forehead Kisses, hand holding, Scheming NHS, Wēn Remnants Live, Broadway References, Yúnmèng Jiāng Sect Bashing, Literal Sleeping Together, Feelings Realization, Like Speedrun, First Kiss, sentient resentful energy, Medical Inaccuracies, Sentient Burial Mounds, Protective Siblings, Soft WangXian, BAMF WWX)

FOUND? Better Off Without Me by lindgrsl77 (M, 2k, WIP, WangXian, Suicide Attempt, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, WWX is not okay, Time Travel, Happy Ending)

FOUND? For the Best by Weiyun (T, 5k, WangXian, Suicide Attempt, Hurt/Comfort, Family Feels, Angst, Canon Divergence, Time Travel)

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16. Hi ☺️ I'm here again for finding recs that I have forgotten the title but not the storyline part ... Well for starter it's like watching their show but they time travel(?) Also there was a scene that while they were watching the library punishment when they get to the book that's when LZ thoughts of the library incidence were broadcast to everyone and any other fantasies he has but they realized it was only his not really happened. And they didn't know this until they watch it... I dunno how to find it 😔 @myst1210

FOUND? Song of Joy and Regrets by HelloKitten (Not Rated, 134k, wangxian, hualian, WIP, TGCF, Angst, Self-Harm, Child Abuse, characters watching their series, Time Travel Fix-it) chapter 31

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17. hello this is for ficfinder.

A) it was a modern au in which wwx is lan yuan's art teacher and i think lwj has adopted him, the fic starts w lwj being late to pick him from school. wen ning is the receptionist at the school. at some point wwx and lwj and a yuan also meet at a market and end up eating together.

B) there is a series in which basically everyone ia simping over wwx and he also finds a way to get his own body back and everyone is like oh you really wee HOT and i think the series named smth similar to simping over wwx but i cant seem to find it.

thank you

17A)

FOUND! 🧡 paint smears on sunny days by SnowshadowAO3 (E, 53k, WangXian, Comfort, Fluff and Smut, Everyone Is Alive, Modern AU, Dadji, Mutual Pining, Happy Ending, Brief Alcohol Mention, Masturbation, Blow Jobs, Hand Jobs, Accidentally co-parenting with your son's art teacher, Fatherhood)

17B)

FOUND? Simping over WWX is my fave hobby Series by brrrrrRawr (T, 10k, WangXian, WWX's original body, Fluff, Pet Name,s Blushing, No Smut, Genius WWX, yunmeng bros reconciliation, endgame lotus pier, big bro wwx rights, also dad wwx rights, BAMF WWX, Bad Writing, Body Dysphoria So OOC, world building, cliff diving, corpse wrestling, OOC, Canon Divergence, god WWX, god WN, god WQ, child JL, teenager MXY, xuanli get resurrected, rip nmj tho, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, BAMF WWX, BAMF WN, BAMF WQ)

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18. hi! I just remembered a fic I read a while ago but I can't find it now and I really wanted to read it again. So what I remember about it is that it's set in cql verse and wei wuxian was taken to the nightless city. He was planning on learning about wrh's demonic cultivation and so he kind of tries to make wen rouhan favor him while secretly learning demonic cultivation. Wrh fell for it and he kinda made wwx his consort and lwj thought wwx really betrayed them. please help me find it T~T

I can remember but I can't find... But I remember that I think WWX still had a golden core. He made Chenqing to let WRH think he was only playing music to help him concentrate on creating the Yin Tiger Seal but actually WWX was using it to use demonic cultivation to create weaknesses in the Seal that he could exploit later (and also to try to protect his golden core grin the resentment). Chenqing becomes semi-sentient and wants to help and protect him. In the end he shatters the Seal while shielding everyone else from the backlash and almost dies in the process, because he drops Chenqing and so she can't protect him.

FOUND? 🔒 Pendulum by ShippersList (M, 69k, wangxian, graphic depicitions of violence, rape/non-con, underage, A/B/O, Canon Divergence, Non-Traditional A/B/O Dynamics, Alpha LWJ, Omega WWX, Misunderstandings, Canon-Typical Violence, Spies & Secret Agents, Fake Character Death, Slow Burn, Mating Cycles/In Heat, Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, BAMF WWX, Attempted Sexual Assault, Canonical Character Death, Mutual Pining, Good JGY, Introspection, Self-Sacrificing WWX, Love Confessions, Protective LWJ, past child sexual abuse)

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19. Hi! 🥳 Happy new year! And also thank you so much for your hardwork for the past year. I hope you will also help me with this as well.

I’m looking for the fic wherein Wwx went to the bunnies. Wwx was shocked because they went to him and some bunnies actually nuzzles his tummy. Wwx find it odd since usually bunnies don’t like him. Eventually, they learned that the reason why bunnies wwx now because he’s pregnant 🫄.

Hi! I’m the fic finder #19. Thank you for helping but unfortunately I think this is not the one. Though they are similar, it still different because in the fic I read, there is a scene where wwx scolded the bunnies like saying ‘You only like me now because I’m pregnant’ like that.

NOT FOUND! How strange... the bunnies like me! by Selene210 (M, 3k, WangXian, Post-Canon, Using bunnies as a way of discovering pregnancy, Mpreg, Mild Smut)

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20. Can you please help me find a fic? Lan Zhan decides to leave the Lan clan and to do so he has to cut his hair. Wei Ying finds him by a river and helps him with the hair cut. I don’t think they had met prior to this, it is possible Wei Wuxian had already also left his own clan? Anyhoo, they go on to live together and it is very domestic and sweet.

FOUND? my life’s journey is far from over by thelastdboy (E, 148k, wangxian, modern au, canon divergence, PTSD, post-sunshot, everyone lives au, depression, suicidal thoughts, unhealthy coping mechanisms, slow burn, case fic, recorvery, healing is a slow process, kink negotiation)

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[farasen]

Do you maybe wanna share the story you have in mind for your ATLA AU? :3 I'm a lil obsessed

I'd like to but the thing is I don't really have one lol

At least for now, I'm still rewatching ATLA and I wanna finally watch Korra and read the comics, don't really wanna spoil it with video essays and stuff

Still I have some headcanons on the gang :3

Many things might change tho if I actually will want to develope this au

So it basically started with Leon, Marlon and Raban, who fleed from the Fire nation (yeah I said the events are happening in fresh post-war setting, but I changed my mind)

I think they'd sort of romanticize the war and be eager to fight in the front lines, cuz they're brainwashed teens. I think Raban's parents could be soldiers, and the boy really admired them for that. However, he wouldn't hear knews from them for quite a while, so the trio comes up with the brightest idea: get on the battlefield to both look at the war and find Raban's parents. Now, what could go wrong?

So they somehow get there, but the reality was so much different from what they've expected, and, surprise-surprise, war isn't very nice, horrific in fact. As it turns out their people aren't doing good things there, so the trio is quickly disappointed. Furthermore, they find out that Raban's parents got captured in the Northern Water tribe and it's unknown if they're alive at all. Now the boy is willing to find them and the brothers are helping him with that.

Obviously they can't get to the North on their own, so they're trying to find help in the Earth kingdom. There they come across Markus, who ran away from his home and Jojo - one of those who survived the Air nomad genocide. His ancestors were lucky enough to be far away from the temples and not get captured later. However, his mom was caught on airbending and got taken away by the firebenders. She managed to hide Jojo, so now, just like Raban searching for his parents, he's searching for her.

Markus helps him with that. Dad never let him do what he wanted to do, which is earthbending and fighting. Since they're royalty (sort of), his dad thinks all of the above is below their level. So his meeting with Jojo helps Markus to finally make a decision to run away. Now he has to hide his identity as well, since his dad is sure as hell looking for him.

Although I drew Jojo in Air nomad attire, he obviously doesn't walk around like this and disguises as an earthbender. Let's say his airbender outfit is him in the future. I might draw his "usual" clothes later.

Obviously the two of them were relactant to team up with three guys from the Fire nation, but, realizing that they can help each other out, they agree and later become friends.

I don't know how they'd come across with Deniz and Vanessa.

I think they could meet the girl among other Kyoshi warriors that were helping refugees to get to Ba Sing Se.

They would most likely meet Deniz in North Pole while trying to find Raban's parents. Maybe he was one of the guards or smth.

[courtney-deserved-better]

ao3 author ask game !!

saw this post and decided to just do this on my own for funsies!

total number of ao3 works: 129

total ao3 word count: 652,300

fandoms i’ve written for: total drama, cobra kai, hatchetfield, sonic, overwatch, & ted lasso

top five fics by kudos:

slippery slopes

amicus curiae

why are you asking me?

coastal confessions

odd occasions

do i respond to comments?: yes!! it may take a little while but i do my best to respond to every comment i get because i want people to know i appreciate them not only taking the time to read my fic, but also to comment kind words about it. seeing the notification that i've gotten a new comment can easily be the best part of my day!!!

what has the most angst ridden ending?: ooo i'm not sure, i don't write a lot of angsty endings! poisoned pawn might be one though.

what has the happiest ending?: i think amicus curiae, mostly because the characters go through so much and then get to have such a happy ending!

have i received hate?: yeah lol, not a lot though. i don't take bad faith criticism seriously, i just delete it and move on.

do i write smut? if so, what kind?: i don't! the stuff i write for is mostly either about minors or made for minors and i don't feel comfortable or interested in writing smut for that. but i get a bit spicier with my hatchetfield fics bc it fits the media and the story i want to tell. definitely not straight up smut though (not that there's anything wrong with that it's just not my jam, writing-wise).

do i write crossovers?: not unless you count crossing over the sonic archie comics with sonic underground lol

have i ever had a fic stolen?: i think someone started posting slippery slopes on ff.net or wattpad or something a few years ago but only did the first few chapters. honestly i didn't care that much bc of all the fics i've written, that one is the most CLEARLY made by me

have i ever had a fic translated?: i have not!

have i ever co-written a fic?: also have not!

a WIP i’ll never finish?: probably a ridonculous race rewrite with like. SO many different teams. which is a shame bc i had a fun take for josé that probably won't see the light of day butttttttt i do wonder if i could incorporate it into something else somehow...

writing strengths: dialogue hands-down. i feel very confident in my ability to write dialogue and i've received several comments saying that readers can hear my dialogue in the characters' voices which is such a delight to hear!

writing weaknesses: i think i struggle with describing settings and appearances, i worry about info-dumping but i think i come off in the opposite in that i don't provide enough information. also run-on sentences. so much of improving my writing is learning to condense, and brother, i'm still learning.

do i like foreign language dialogue?: yes! i love having multilingual characters and seeing how their languages impact their stories. for example, i think alejandro and courtney both speaking spanish together is something that strengthens their friendship because they know they can talk to each other more vulnerably without other people understanding (i headcanon that they were the only people in tdwt to speak spanish). it also provides for some funny moments, like in amicus curiae when they retroactively realize the argentinian judge could understand their very charged conversation the whole time. honestly i loved getting to explore it in amicus curiae, with noah speaking tamil to an indian local, courtney calling for a taxi in malay because it's similar to indonesian, etc.

first fandom i wrote for: funnily enough, i did plot out some total drama fics as a kid that never saw the light of day (or were ever really fully written). it was mostly me being really into fixing duncney and then tossing duncan aside to play with courtney and gwen. i had one au where they were best friends who lived together and raised courtney's kid she had with duncan but he wasn't in the picture. i was absolutely working through some lesbianism there.

favorite fic i’ve written: oh goodness this is tough, because slippery slopes is very dear to my heart, and the fandom response has been INCREDIBLE. but i think my favorite recent td fic has gotta be amicus curiae, i really loved getting to explore platonic alecourtney more, giving the sisters a more nuanced dynamic and growth, and writing courtemma for the first time. i also LOVE LOVE LOVE my hey ted, hey melissa! hatchetfield series because melissa is my new blorbo and i have SO MUCH LORE AND FUTURE PLANS for this world!! genuinely this is a series i could see myself working on for years to come.

if anyone else wants to do this please go for it!!!

[wishing-stones]

how would everybody (or just the boys if you feel like it) react if they managed to, just. like. somehow meet or interact with 8 year old Dream and Nightmare? like, back before the incident

Ouch.

Killer hardly believes what he's seeing. He's heard about Nightmare looking a lot like Dream before the curse happened, but seeing them together is a wildly different beast. He thinks it's cute how Nightmare tries to defend Dream by pushing his twin behind him, but... Killer is shockingly okay with kids sometimes, so he'd talk them both down. Chances are he wouldn't get out of that without a flower crown.

Dust kind of.... absorbs the situation and sits down to talk with the two of them. He's quiet and gentle. Nightmare is pretty quick to get closer because he can sense the latent negativity Dust has. He tries to play tiny therapist, and it doesn't really go his way... but Dust will indulge them and make daisy chains. He also might go threaten the villagers within an inch of their lives to leave the twins the fuck alone.

Axe is... let's face it, pretty scary. He'd come bearing treats, though, and once it's apparent that he just looks scary, they're both a lot more trusting of him. Dream's attempts at trying to fix the hole in his skull are cute, but Axe has to physically pick him up and set him down to keep him away from it. He teaches them about some simple edible plants and how to make stuff from them without the need for a proper kitchen.

Cross sees the opportunity and takes it. If he can't fix what went wrong in his AU... the least he can do is help someone else try to fix theirs. He appoints himself their guard, so they don't have to worry about anything because he will take care of it. He winds up with a lot of flower jewelry, and before too long, his hood trim is mostly flowers. He absolutely steers people away from the tree and sometimes follows Dream into town. Still... he can only delay the inevitable.

Baggs is very confused, but puts two and two together quite fast. He's very gentle with children, and treats their injuries and scrapes better than they can. He also is adamant about their communication, and facilitates them talking to each other about their problems and frustrations. Just because they're children doesn't mean they get a free pass from therapy. He is also delighted to turn people away from the tree, and... for some reason, they don't really come back unless they really need help.

Ink sticks around for a little bit, does some fun things with them, but he absolutely will not get involved in altering the timeline. He can't. No matter how much it sucks, he can't intervene in canon events. It's in the script, and he can't alter that. He'd make himself scarce before it happened, though. No need to have that resentment follow him.

Blue is the polar opposite and would do everything in his power to protect the mini version of one of his best friends and his twin brother. Blue with a reason to guard something that fiercely is a dangerous prospect, and he's not afraid to put the smackdown on someone for being a jackass to little Nightmare. However, like Cross.... he can only delay the inevitable, not prevent it.

[xoxmatilda]

chapter six

word count: 5.2k

"Why did an expensive car just drop you off?" Lily immediately interrogates me as I walk in the door. I wince at the realization that I had been caught. I was hoping she wasn't home or at the very least, asleep so I could save myself this interview and just go to bed. 

"I thought you'd be in bed by now," I murmur as I set my stuff down and pet my jumping dog that excitedly sprinted out from my room to see me. Lily motions for me to sit in the spot next to her on the couch. 

"And miss hearing your summary of your first day of work while it's still fresh in your head? Yeah right. Tell me everything from start to finish, and go."

I shrugged my shoulders, petting Willow who was now seated on my lap on the couch and avoided eye contact with Lily, "It was fine. I photographed him getting ready. I got to watch him film for his interview in real time, which was pretty cool to see the work being put in behind production. I got to take a nap, then he offered to drive me to the studio for the recording bit. I had a minor panic attack and made a fool of myself," I mutter as low as I could, "Went out and got some food, then met Mitch back at the studio after and then he offered to drive me home."

All I receive from Lily was a blank stare for a moment, which rightfully so. "Ok, wow. There's a lot to unpack there. Panic attack!?"

I nod and wave it off, "It's no big deal, just the most embarrassing moment of my life that my head will never let me forget. I don't have the energy to rehash everything that happened. It's been such a long and draining day."

"Ok, fine. But I expect to hear the details later, and you know I won't let you forget."

I nod my head knowingly while moving to my bedroom door with Willow in tow, "G'night, Lil."

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The following weeks were full of chaos. Something I hadn't really been expecting. We wrapped up the filming for the Late Late show and I got a lot of good content that helped promote his appearance which in turn would help promote his album. I met with Bryan in the same week and accepted two small jobs photographing add space for some small magazines that no one reads. The adds ended up taking a lot longer to complete than I was originally told because things kept getting changed due to creative differences between the brand owner of the products and the magazine company. 

On days I was with Harry and the team I was clocking anywhere between twelve to fourteen hour days, not including the time it took me to sort my pictures and edit them before sending them off to the social media team. Not to mention I had to resort to taking mostly closing shifts at the bar because all of my photography work was being done during the day. 

In the last two weeks since my first day with Harry, I have clocked twenty hours of overtime at the bar due to people leaving and there being no coverage for shifts. It's becoming increasingly difficult juggling all of my commitments. I hardly feel like I'm home. Lily and I have barely seen each other, when we do it's when I'm rushing out the door in the morning to get to where I need to be. 

Which brings me to today. Harry somehow got my number and texted me that he was picking me up for our full day of work today. I didn't remember there being anything on the schedule until late tonight, we had a writing session with Mitch at his house. I was looking forward to getting a day where I could relax at home and catch up on editing pictures, but I didn't want to question Harry and come off unprofessional because I couldn't keep the schedule straight. So, I've been running around my room like a mad woman trying to put myself together on such short notice. 

"He didn't give you any information?" Lily asked from her spot on my bed. 

"I didn't ask. I didn't want him to think I don't have my life together because I forgot we had a full day today. I just hate not knowing what I should wear. I hate being unprepared." 

"I don't think you could go wrong with shorts and a tee. I feel like someone would have mentioned something to you if it was an interview or something that you needed to look a little more put together."

I go into my closet and scavenge for something of the sort that wasn't stained or had holes. My clothes weren't in the best condition when I came here considering they were from my childhood and were mostly hand me downs. I've been so focused on saving my money back up from moving that I haven't been able to put some aside to get better clothes. After finding some dark wash denim shorts and a Rolling Stones t-shirt, I step out of the closet and model the outfit for Lily. After getting her approval and putting on some quick make up, my phone buzzes on my desk telling me he was waiting outside. 

I quickly grab my belongings and move out to the front door with Lilly behind me, "So, since he's starting to become your new chauffeur, do I get to meet him today?"

"Uhm, no." I slide some sandals on and throw my backpack over my shoulder then grab my keys.

"Why not? When do I?" She whines almost like a teenager.

"Probably never, considering he's my boss. Ok, love you, if I'm not home by nine please take Willow out for me before you go to bed," I rush out the door before she has time to protest at me and run to the car. 

"Good morning sunshine," he says from the driver seat. 

"'Morning," I put my bag at my feet and buckle, I wait for him to move the car but he doesn't. "Little early to be doing a recording session isn't it?"

"It is indeed. Mitch wouldn't be caught awake at this hour."

I pause not knowing what to say. Why is it so hard to get him to give me details? Men. "... So what are we doing?"

"Whatever your heart desires, the world is your oyster." His comment shocks the words out of me. He made it sound like we had a busy day scheduled, but we now have nothing until our original time to write late tonight. I only stare at him, unable to speak.

"Have you eaten breakfast yet?" He asks. And all I can do is shake my head. Stop being such an idiot, Tilly.

"Then it's settled. We'll get breakfast first. Can't adventure on an empty stomach." He says cheerfully while backing out of his parking spot. 

Harry drives to Hollywood and stops at a quaint little cafe on the street. Walking in, he pulls his hood over his head and keeps his sunglasses on his face. A hostess immediately takes us to a booth in the back corner without asking how many people would be accompanying him. Harry sits on the side that was facing the back wall, leaving the side that was overlooking the rest of the restaurant for me. For a second I found it odd his seating of choice, typically you'd sit in the farthest seat first and fill in the gaps but after thinking I realized he's probably trying to stay hidden as much as possible. 

The cafe was cute. It had strong indie/mid century aesthetics, two that I wouldn't have expected to be put together but they made it work. Right down the yellow and blue triangled flooring under the tables. "Have you been here before?" Harry breaks me from my train of thought. 

I shake my head looking at the vast breakfast menu in front of me, "Can't say I find myself on this side of town very often."

Harry buries his nose further into his menu, "Well, let's see. You really can't go wrong with any of their menu items. I love the pancakes and any of their egg dishes. I am a little biased though, I haven't had a dish I didn't like."

"You come here a lot?" The second it leaves my mouth I immediately regret it. Obviously he comes here a lot. Harry nods back to me. "What do you get the most?"

He takes a second to look over the menu finally saying, "The banana chocolate chip pancakes, I would say."

I place my menu down on the table, "Then it's settled, that's what I'm having."

As if like clock work, our waitress comes around to take our drink orders. Harry orders us both banana chocolate chip pancakes and then orders an iced coffee for me and a hot coffee for him.

When the waitress leaves and is out of ear shot I say, "Bold of you to assume I like my coffee iced. Or that I like coffee at all."

He smirks, "Was I wrong?"

His confidence takes me by surprise. I was expecting him to fumble and think he made a mistake, not that that was my intention, but I surely wasn't expecting him to challenge me back. "Well, no."

We sit in silence for a moment. He looked calm looking out the window at the cars passing by on their way to work. I was staring at him still trying to figure out how he knew. Am I really that easy to read?

He looks away from the window after a moment and notices my expression. He grows concerned, "Is something wrong?"

I slowly shake my head. "How did you know?"

The waitress comes and he chuckles while holding his mug up to his mouth, "Must've been a lucky guess." He stays silent again and I shake my head trying to rid my train of thought on the subject accepting that he probably was just lucky. 

"So, if you're not writing until this evening with Mitch, what are we doing?"

"Well, it's been a pretty busy last couple of weeks, especially with it being your first weeks with us. It looked like it had been weighing on you." 

I lean back against the booth and cross my arms, "It's been busy, but it's nothing I can't handle."

He raises an eyebrow at me, "Didn't look like that when you blacked out at the studio your first day."

"That... wasn't from stress. I just got... reminded of something. I'm sorry you had to see that," I look down at my hands embarrassed of the memory and even more embarrassed that he remembered enough to bring it up. 

"Don't apologize. It's life. I just want to make sure you're taking care of yourself. Prioritizing you." He says with his hands cupping his mug. I can't see his eyes but he looks gentle in this moment. 

"I am... I do... when I can. Now that press for the album has slowed down, it'll be a less chaotic schedule. My work isn't lacking is it?" I ask suddenly concerned if there was a hidden reason for this conversation he has yet to mention. 

He immediately shakes his head, "No, no. Quite the opposite actually. My media admins are very happy with what you've been giving them. Plus people on the internet have been eating the pictures up."

"If there's ever anything I can do differently, or better please let me know and I—"

"Tilly," he stops me before I can ramble, "This day is to get a break from work, not to ask for critiques about how you can improve, okay?"

I slowly nod, still not convinced there wasn't something about my work bothering him. 

"What do you like to do for fun?" He asks me.

"Well, photography has—"

"Stop. Something else, that's your job now, not a hobby." He drinks from his mug again awaiting patiently for my answer. 

The waitress comes to refill my water on the table and I take the time to think about my answer again more thoroughly, "I like to surf, or to just be near the ocean when I can, but that seldom happens now. I haven't been in a while."

"Why's that?" He sits up a little straighter, intrigued by my descriptive answer. 

"Well, even before my job with you, I immersed myself into my photography because I thought that was my key to success. If I'm not doing photography, I'm working my second job."

He raises an eyebrow, "Second job?"

I nod and sip my coffee, "I work at a bar near my apartment. With my roommate actually but we've been on opposite shifts recently because of photography."

"Isn't your manager booking more gigs for you now? Why do you still have the bartending job?"

"I'm just trying to be cautious. I'm not sure how long this work will last," I wave my hand to him and I, "I just want to have a fail safe incase if the gigs stop coming in and I stop working for you. I don't want to be left without a plan. It was also my first job when I moved here. I'm just not ready to give that part of my life up yet."

"You're not from LA?"

I shake my head, "Arizona. Moved here almost six months ago."

"Why did you move? Why LA?" I start to grow a little more uncomfortable with every question he fires at me so I search for something vague to say. 

"All of the same reasons other people move. I wanted to experience something different."

"Ok..." he decides not to question my vagueness, "Tell me about your roommate."

"Are we playing 20 questions?" My bluntness surprises me and I immediately want to take it back but it's too late. 

"Just trying to get to know my employee better is all." He shrugs.

I lean back in my seat and raise an eyebrow, "Do you do this with all of your employees?" Again, I have no idea where my filter went and I'm shocked at how daring I'm subconsciously being. 

"Just the ones I find captivating. So far there's only one of those," our waitress comes by with our food. I don't move a muscle. I'm left in complete and utter shock by his words. I stare at the table with wide eyes as I try to decipher if the feeling growing in my stomach is a good or bad reaction. 

Once we're left alone again I expected him to say something to explain himself but he never does and I grow uncomfortable with the looming silence over us. "So, if today is about taking a break from work, what do you have planned? And why does it involve me?"

"Well, I was trying to gauge what you liked to do in your free time and we were going to do it all today but you haven't given me much to go off of. Like I said earlier, it seemed the chaos of the schedule was weighing on you. This is kind of my take on an intervention."

"I specifically remember someone telling me photography didn't count," I try to stifle my laugh and I look down at my pancake while I cut into it. 

"Only because you've been doing it as a job for two weeks now. It's not a hobby anymore, it's a job."

"Who says I can't love my job enough still for it to be like a hobby?" I challenge him.

"That's fair. But we can't really do photography related things together so you have to pick something else."

"I guess I've liked to run occasionally since I was young but it's turned into more of a distraction when I'm really stressed or worked up about something. My family used to go hiking a lot. I have taken a liking to surfing since moving here but things have gotten a little busy so I haven't had a lot of time to go to the beach. Photography has always been my fail safe. When I needed to get out of the house as a kid, I'd grab my camera and go out into nature and take pictures of anything I could."

He's silent now, as if he's soaking up what I've just told him. He eventually changes the subject, "How are your pancakes?"

"Probably the best pancakes I've ever had. What's the name of this cafe?"

"Beachwood. It's one of my favorite places to come to. I'm glad you like it." He smiles a big smile, bigger than I've seen since meeting him. The waitress comes to refill our drinks and quickly disappears to tend to her other tables. 

"Alright, since we're on the topic of what we like to do in our free time, it's your turn to be interrogated. What does Harry like to do for fun?"

Harry shrugs and waits until he's finished chewing a bite, "I guess I'm till trying to figure out what I like to do now that I'm on my own, and I actually get some time to myself. It's a weird thing to have to adjust to. And honestly, I'm still adjusting. When I have down time I get this paralyzing feeling that there's something missing. Something else I should be doing. I got put under such immense pressure at too young of an age, I guess that's one of the lasting effects."

I shake my head in disappointment, "That isn't fair to you. You were thrown into a corrupt industry with no prior knowledge or resources. To have to still find your way after all this time?"

"It may not be fair, but it's necessary. So much of my formative years were spent being defined by four other people and our work schedule. We were young and didn't have voices of our own yet. After my time with them was up, I didn't know how to exist without a busy schedule. Before it all started, I loved being in nature and I hate that it's been taken away from me."

I give him another confused look, "How has it been taken away?"

"It's hard to go anywhere without being stopped. Nature used to be where I went to be completely alone, but I can't be alone when I'm being asked for pictures."

"You don't always have to say yes, you know. I'm sure the fans will respect your decision to have boundaries, especially given your past." I say.

He takes his last bite, "I just feel like it's the least I can do to give back for all they've done for me."

"You give back to them in other ways," I try to reassure him, "You'll have your whole life to give back to them for the life they gave you. But you can't do that if you don't take care of yourself first."

Harry contemplates on my words for a minute. He abruptly grabs the receipt lying on the table and stands. I follow his lead as he walks up to the cash register. After he pays we walk out into the morning sun and walk to the car. 

"I have a confession," he says gently. 

I look his direction but am blinded by the sun shining just behind him and am only able to make out his blurry silhouette, "Oh yeah? What's that?"

"You pack back you always bring with you everywhere. You have a button on it. 'Fueled by iced coffee' I think it says? That's how I knew you'd prefer iced over hot."

My lips curl into a smile as I look down at my feet falling into stride with his. "Very observant."

We enter the car and he starts the engine and pauses a moment as if to contemplate on where to take us. I speak up, "So Harry Styles, where are we going today?"

"We, Tilly Florence, are going to take care of ourselves."

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Harry drives us to a hiking spot Mitch had apparently been raving to him about for weeks and trying to get him to go with him. There are multiple different hiking paths all ranging from beginner to expert with the only differences in them being the length and terrain. Harry chose the path Mitch had suggested since it was early and we shouldn't over do it before still having to go over to Mitch's later tonight.

"Have you ever been hiking before?" He asks me as I fall in stride next to him on the path.

"I have actually, and it puts what we're doing here to shame." I giggle. "My brother found this spot in the Grand Canyon he loved to go to get away and be by himself. He'd let me tag along occasionally." As soon as it comes out of my mouth I immediately regret it and secretly hope and pray he doesn't inquire anymore about Oliver. That's not a conversation I'm ready to have, nor do I think I'll ever be ready to have with him.

"Oh yeah?" He lights up at the realization that we have something in common, "I've walked in part of the Grand Canyon a couple of times very briefly and I agree it is no joke. Always kept it short because I never had gear with me."

Our pace seems to slow as we take our time walking through the brush of the path. As we do I make it a point to soak in the sun hitting my skin, letting myself be present in what I'm experiencing. We walk a good distance in comfortable silence until we reach a spot with some rocks that act as a good resting spot over looking the city below. 

I stand on one of the rocks to get a better view of the busy city and pull out my phone and snap a few pictures. Harry sits on the rock next to me looking out at what I thought was so picturesque. He gets his phone out but I see him out of the corner of my eye moving his phone at different angles. I eventually take a seat on the rock I was standing on and I bask in the beauty of the city I call home now.

A breeze blows over us and I close my eyes, welcoming the comforting feeling and sense of calmness it sweeps over me. "Tilly?"

I open my eyes and look in Harry's direction only to be met with his concerned expression and it causes a sense of fear to rush over my body. I don't say anything, just wait for him to continue.

"Our first day at the studio, you said you were reminded of something and that caused you to panic," Scared of where he was going with this, I just nodded for him to go on, subconsciously picking at my nails. "Does that happen a lot?"

I break eye contact and look at the dirt beneath my feet. "M-more often than I would like it to," I don't dare look him in the eye, "It's been going on for a while. Still trying to find ways to manage it."

He's quiet for a moment and I take the opportunity to take a peak of him. He's not looking at me anymore, he's looking out over the mountainous skyline behind the city. As I take in his image, I find myself despising his sunglasses from hiding his whole face from me. 

"I'm sorry," I feel my face grow puzzled by his apology as I wait for him to continue, "I'm sorry you have to go through that... I hope with time it gets better."

No one has ever said that to me. The select few people who have witnessed one of my panic attacks with the exception of Lily, shut down and stop talking to me because they don't usually know how to treat me or how to act around me. "Thank you," is all I can muster.

Time passes but we remain on the rocks together, taking everything in while the world happened around us. "I owe you an explanation," I break our silence.

Harry shakes his head before I could continue, "No you don't. It's your business, I don't need to know, I just want to make sure you're okay. I mean, the look you had on your face that day was pure fear. I didn't know what to think until you ran out and I found you outside hyperventilating. I was scared something happened. Whatever it was, will it happen again?"

I bite the inside of my cheek, "I wish I could say no, but that's probably a lie I have no control over it. They're unexpected and I never feel them coming on until it's too late." I look down into my lap at my fingers fumbling together in nerves as a single tear slips from my eye onto my leg. 

He sees and swings his legs around the rock to face me instead of the city. He touches his hand to my arm just above my elbow like he's done before, "If there's ever anything I can do that could help, don't hesitate to let me know."

I smile and wipe the stream the single tear left on my cheek, "No one has ever offered me that. Thank you."

Harry looks back out over the city for a moment and then stares into my eyes, "Someone once told me the world needed more kindness." A small smile appears across his lips and mine follow suit.

"Whoever told you that knew what they were talking about."

After a moment, Harry stands from his rock and holds out his hand offering to help me up. I accept and he pulls me to my feet. He examines our surroundings and seems nervous when he sees an older couple hiking their way towards where we were standing. 

I start walking and briefly grab his hand to get him to follow me before letting go, "C'mon, let's go before your cover is blown."

The rest of the walk was pleasant. We spent the time casually getting to know each other and bantering like friends. Less than half a mile left in our hike, I start to feel blisters forming on my feet from my sandals since neither of us expected to be hiking today. I stop for a second to lean up against a tree for a moment. Harry stops in his tracks and looks at me inquisitively. "My feet. Would not recommend sandals for hiking in," He looks down, "I just need a minute."

I watch as he walks and turns around so his back is facing me and crouches down slightly. He motions to his back, "Get on."

"What?" 

"You heard me. Get on," He motions again. I hesitate a moment thinking he wasn't serious about carrying me back to the car. "C'mon sister, I'm not getting any younger," He chuckles and looks at me over his shoulder.

I giggle and hesitantly oblige, holding my sandals in my hand, "Fine, but just to make it known, this is outrageous. I can see the parking lot from here, I could have made it on my own."

Once we were back at the car, we welcomed the air conditioning once Harry got the engine started. Harry pulls out of the dirt parking lot. He starts back to the city and rolls the window down while we're driving in a more rural area. I welcome the fresh air tangling my hair as we turn on to a highway and start to pick up speed. Once we get into town he doesn't leave any signs that he's driving somewhere.

"Where are we going next? Is it a surprise?" I ask as I watch my hand move up and down in a wave motion in the current of the air out the window. 

"We are going to the beach." He puts it plainly. 

"The beach is far too crowded, are you nuts?" I chuckle.

"I just so happen to know one that's not crowded at all."

"Ok, even if you do know an empty beach, what are we supposed to do at the beach if I'm not dressed for it? I don't have extra clothes with me."

"Oh, live a little, my friend. You don't have to be dressed a certain way for the beach." He laughs at me.

I sit back in my seat in defeat. The drive is shorter than I was expecting considering we were practically in the mountains hiking. I sit up a little straighter in my seat when I look up from my phone and realize we're pulling into a driveway.

"Why are we at Mitch's house if you said we were going to a beach?"

"This isn't Mitch's house, love." He opens his door and gets out of the car. I grab my bag and scramble to do the same. I follow him through the door in the garage that leads into a mud room off of an expansive kitchen, "Welcome to Harry's house."

The house truthfully knocks the breath out of me. It's exactly as you would picture. Simple, modern, with just enough attention to detail thrown into the decorations that screams Harry. "This place is beautiful, Harry."

He disappears down a hallway and resurfaces with a couple towels and some bottles of water. He moves to the huge sliding glass doors that stretch the entire back wall of the house leaving plenty of room to see the view of a secluded beach just a walk away from the backyard. A private beach. I don't know why the thought didn't cross my mind. Of course he would have a beachfront property. What celebrity wouldn't at some point in their lives?

"You coming or am I going to enjoy a beach day by myself?" Harry breaks me from my train of thought. I place my bag down and follow him out the doors and down the path to the beach from the backyard. 

As we get closer I can see a pergola sitting closer to the yard than the water with leisure chairs placed next to each other. He sets the water and towels on the table and takes a seat on one of the chairs. "How are we supposed to have a beach day without any supplies?" I ask taking a seat on the chair parallel to his. 

"You don't ever just come out to the beach to relax?" Without batting an eye, he removes his shirt revealing his ink-cladded skin. 

"Doing things at the beach is relaxing for me," I explain, "I don't enjoy having nothing to do. It's not fun for me."

"Then today is the day you try something new." He grins and leans back in his chair putting his arms above his head. "Lay back, and listen to the sounds around you. The crashing waves. The seagulls in the distance. Feel the wind in your hair and feel the speckles of sun above us shine through the greenery onto your skin. Just feel."

I do as he says, closing my eyes as I lay back on the chair. He was right I had to admit. Doing nothing at the beach could be a little relaxing. I allowed myself to feel. I allowed myself to not think about work or about photography. I allowed my mind to rest for a moment. Here there were no deadlines. Here there was no pressure or packed schedules. Here, there were no busy filming sets or people constantly asking him questions about what he wanted to wear. Here, there was relaxation. Here, there was just the ocean, me and Harry. 

Before I knew it, I had relaxed a little too much and fell asleep on the beach.

chapter seven masterlist

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fig hates her mom bc she manipulates the villages/groups for their own safety but fig just sees it as plain manipulation and hates her for it bc they dont know their own feelings, rather what rosemary makes them feel, in a sense??? she's also best friends w pepper (red guy) and they met each other when fig tried sparring with him to prove her worth but pepper just made her sit down and basically gave her a life lesson. now there locked in and always best friends forever and ever. fig also caused the gap in hickory's teeth on accident bc he tried sparring w her and she STILL hasn't forgave herself for causing it (even though hickory forgave her)

fig's also set on the concept of uniqueness and wants to break the manipulation her mom causes so people can have their own thoughts and feelings that aren't influenced by rosemary, making them unique, but they're like this for a VERY specific reason

rosemary makes them feel the same because she's scared of change and such because of past conflicts and trauma with her suitors so she makes everyone feel null and stuff so she doesn't have to deal with different opinions and shit. but fig doesn't know about her mothers past, therefore putting a divot between them and the gap stretches because fig Is hardheaded and set on what she wants

fig is an opportunist and takes the chances she gets despite it possibly negatively impacting her goals but fig doesn't care, as long as something is different and disruptive to her mother's quaint cycle of no change. it's important to fig that things change instead of continuing in a wasteful cycle of repetitive mulch that feeds the machine, but she cant change that without hurting the mother and daughter's relationship even further

she does love her mom a lot, but she also hates her and despises her for the choices she's made for her groups/villages and she wants to overthrow her mother's position in government without hurting her in the process, but everyone knows that's an impossible wish for fig to ask for. pepper tries to explain that its not going to work without someone getting hurt, but fig doesn't listen in hopes of finding something that contradicts anyone's statements against her own

fig's egotistical and impulsive, even going as far as saying she's selfishly full of pride, but she has her perks that make her a good person. fig likes to help others despite her own situation at home, but that's because she knows helping people provokes a change, and that only pushes her personal goal forward. without meaning to, she's following in her mother's manipulative path

shes just a girl trying to promote change while she battles with self improvement and in the process she accidentally becomes what she never wanted to be in the first place and that thought destroys her

she tries to become anything other than her mother yet she messes up somehow along the way and becomes a spitting image of what she wanted to end in the beginning,, despite everything, it's still you

something something it's still you. despite everything, its still you something something

she wanted to fight pepper (her best friend) at first because she wanted to prove to her mom that she didn't need protection like she did with her past suitors when nobody saved her from them but in the process she befriended him and that's when her mother knew she couldn't save her daughter anymore. she fell too far gone from her hands and now they're coated in blood of the girl she never could be

her mother, rosemary, never got to be a child because she's the oldest daughter of their lineage and she had to be married off because of the superstitions around having a girl as your first born so she never had a childhood to call her own

so you can imagine her anguish when her daughter rallied against her protection and fell from her grace like a fallen angel descending from the golden gates, yes????

and rosemary is cursed to live every day with the emotions she deprives from her people for their protection and nobody knows that, not even rosemary herself

in a sense she is immortal, driven by the feelings she is null and void to

everybody supports rosemary except her kid who sees through her façade and hates her for manipulating the groups to her liking. her kid wants her to change but rosemary doesn't want to because if she changes, then ppl wont like her anymore. her kid wants ppl to choose for themselves but thats against what rosemary believes in. she wants ppl to fall in line so they're safe but her kid wants uniqueness.

pepper is fig's best friend who tags along every trip and looks really dumb but he's VERY smart and coordinated, plus he's tall as shit and beefy. he's like a security guard. but fig is super smart too, street smarts specifically, and knows her fair share of fighting methods. together, they're linked. best friends who hold each other up

they didn't grow up together like most ppl do w their besties, fig just spotted him from her mom's pickings of guards for the groups, and honestly picked him out and went at him, trying to prove that she's stronger to her mom. however, pepper told her to sit down and pick on someone else that she can actually handle. then fig immediately looked up to him and now they're best friends since

peppers just awesome. fig has a stereotypical tough gal persona but she isn't scared to show her emotions or interests, which is what made pepper so adamant on becoming friends w her!!!! peppers like "oh word this is different from anyone else whos tried being my friend" and they clicked immediately

[amber-dragonfly]

since we're on the topic of pairings....... might we get some thoughts about Sledge Kobb and Rezek since you mentioned them too.......... only if you're still up for writing about them though since you just wrote all that stuff about axeglasses but seeing all three of their names and the word romantic in the same sentence made my brain GO............ twiddling thumbs

EHEHEHEHEHE I'M GLAD YOU ASKED

I could talk forever about their individual dynamics between each other because I've somehow managed to create such perfect complements and foils within each other.

Like godddddddddd.......I always think about the fact that Kobb lived for several months CONVINCED that it was the only one of its squad that was left alive - that Sledge had met its end just like the rest of them.

Sledge may as well have been a ghost in the time that it lived in the Great Plateau (AT RHOAM'S OLD COTTAGE NO LESS EHEHEHEHEHE I'M SO EVILLLLLL). I just love that Sledge and Kobb already had a VERY strong dynamic before RATC proper even started.

Kobb has essentially become every Bokoblin rolled up into one for Sledge. It looks at Kobb and sees the last breathing bastion of everything it once loved, and still loves. And you can see that in how quickly Sledge ALWAYS is to run for Kobb's aid. It can't lose the last of the Bokoblins it once held so tightly every night. That would be it's TRUE rock bottom, so you can see how it can get almost a little too jumpy at trying to run to Kobb's protection. You completely understand it, you'd do the same, but also you can't help but feel as if Sledge still hasn't full let go of the past.

And then on Kobb's end, Sledge is just........it's the compassion of monsters incarnate. It's the living proof of what every monster can be. Kind, steadfast, unbreakable to its core. And it has such high regards for Sledge that it almost gave itself imposter syndrome because of it!!! It can't help selling itself short while Kobb and Sledge are two peas in a pod.

THEY BOTH SEE EACH OTHER AS THE PERFECT ROLE MODELS, AMPLIFYING THEIR OWN FLAWS WHILE IGNORING THE OTHER'S

Their fates are just so undeniably intertwined it makes me go crazy AUGH. I know y'all feel this way too because I could practically feel the teeth chattering when I gave Kobb like 10 billion death flags in the Lynel arc hljkafds

Is narrative codependence a thing? It should be.

BUT WHAT REALLY DRIVES ME CRAZY IS HOW THEY LIKE....INSTANTLY DEFEND EACH OTHER WHEN THERE'S EVEN A MILD CONFRONTATION. LIKE SLEDGE DEFINITELY LET REZEK'S ASS HIGH AND DRY IN THE KOROK FOREST BECAUSE IT DIDN'T WANT TO STAND AGAINST KOBB AND THEN IMMEDIATELY TOOK ITS SIDE WHEN ROBBIE STARTING PUSHING BACK ABOUT NOT LETTING THE LYNEL JOIN THEM.

BUT ALSO THEY CONSTANTLY CHECK EACH OTHER WHEN ONE FALLS TOO LOW??? LIKE AGAIN IN THE LYNEL ARC, IT'S EVERYTHING TO ME BECAUSE OF HOW SLEDGE IS ABLE TO BRING BACK KOBB FROM THAT DARKNESS IN ITS HEART AUUUUGH

And then we get to Rezek's dynamic between them and I just hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I REALLY love how I set up Rezek and Kobb at the start. I couldn't make everyone buddy-buddy but at the same time I HATE needless bickering and miscommunication. So I wanted to make Rezek and Kobb have...just such different worldviews at the start that clashing was nothing but an inevitability. Where their entire arguments are structured around "I understand your point. I just think you're WRONG"

But I LOVE that I never made Kobb outwardly antagonistic towards Rezek and vice-versa. They were begrudging coworkers at the start, forced to work together for a common goal but agitated in how the other fulfils that goal.

AND EVEN WHEN YOU THINK THERE'S A RESOLUTION WITH THE KOROK FOREST ARC THEY STILL END UP HAVING A MAJOR BICKER OVER WHETHER STERRE SHOULD HAVE BEEN SAVED OR NOT FOR ASHEN'S SAFETY!!! IT'S SUCH A PERFECT ENCAPSULATION OF HOW KOBB AND REZEK ARE FIGHTING FOR THEIR SHARED CAUSE AND HOW THEIR DIFFERENCES LEAD TO ALTERCATIONS

AND A LOT OF THEIR OUTBURSTS ARE DUE TO HOW THEY'RE COPING WITH THEIR LOSSES. REZEK IS OVERLY PROTECTFUL DUE TO HOW IT BLAMES ITS STUBBORNESS AND NEGLIGENCE FOR FRIFER, WHILE KOBB IS SO DEAD-SET ON FREEING MORE MONSTERS BECAUSE IT CANNOT BEAR TO BE THE ONLY FREE BOKOBLIN LEFT LIKE LAST TIME AAAAAAAAAAA

It's like that one scene on the roof (out of like the 3 I've done with them)

“I would sooner let the world go than see any one of you die…” Rezek said, softly touching its eyelids to feel that tiny piece of ambient fire that was still there. Kobb shook its head with a lighthearted scoff. “Hmm, well I would rather give my life so that my world would stay alive…”

THIS!!!!!! THIS IS JUST THEM!!!! GOD IT'S SO THEM

AND GOING BACK TO KOROK FOREST GODDDDDD I just............every day I'm thankful that I wrote Kobb to be the one to convince everyone else to leave the forest. It was the best way to start that spark between them - to give Rezek someone that genuinely cares for it in spite of its mistakes. It was EXACTLY what Rezek needed, and it was exactly what Kobb needed too...

And then we get to Rezek and Sledge and just hhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I've said it before, but Sledge was the bridge between Rezek and the rest of the monsters. It's the bridge between everyone in general. It's so good at forming connections with others and bridging others together through itself - all by just being itself. AUGH I LOVE SLEDGE SO MUCH AAAAAAAAAAA

Sledge is so stubborn, too, now that I think about it....but in like a positive way. It simply refuses to give up. It very well could have cut its losses with Rezek when they first met and found a better vantage point, but it could feel that cry for help that Rezek would never say it was letting out.

BUT THEN THE WAY REZEK IS JUST A PERFECT GROUNDER FOR SLEDGE IS JUST AAAAAA

ESPECIALLY CUZ LIKE......ELECTRIC GROUND.....REZEK GROUNDS SLEDGE.....I GOT SOMETHING HERE

I just love the scene where Sledge is panicking over creating its own Hateno Incident back in Akkala and close to a nervous breakdown and Rezek just........in its own way tells it to quit beating itself up kjadsflkh

Rezek's bluntness almost always puts new people off, but with Sledge it fits right in. IT'S LIKE Rezek is blunt (/neg) and Sledge is blunt (/pos) kjhasfdhjkl

AND THE WAY THAT THIS LETS SLEDGE READ REZEK LIKE A FUCKING BOOK??? THAT IT'S ALWAYS THE FIRST TO TELL THAT SOMETHING'S OFF WITH REZEK OR FIGURED OUT ABOUT FRIFER BEFORE REZEK EVEN MENTIONED ITS NAME AGAIN???

AND WHEN REZEK WAS THE ONE THAT PINNED KHINI WHEN HE TRIED TO ATTACK SLEDGE WITH THE DAGGER AND THEIR BANTER AFTER LIKE HELLO????

"I would have handled that, it was so obvious what he was planning you could see it a whole field away,” it said, almost disappointed it wasn’t the one to slam Khini against the wall. Rezek snickered and wagged its finger tauntingly. “Be quicker next time! Not my fault…” “Tch, it just seems all anyone wants to do is jump in and save me…” “Well…that is because you’re worth saving…” Rezek said as it turned away. A muffled mumbling was all Sledge heard.

God I just..............I mostly keep Zayl's relations between the other monsters platonic-coded, but for the other three auuuuuuuugh I love going CRAZY

[mushiemadarame]

I only read half the ship/don't ship ask post and thought it was just about why you ship a thing so I was going to say tonhon/chonlatee but now I know you can say you don't ship something that's not as funny

How about! I cannot think of a single pairing. Hold on.

Go Ho Tae/Kim Dong Hee! TToF

And

Khai/Third! ToL

Tell me about your favs!!!

even if the game was only about reasons to ship it, i would have broken the rules to be mean about TonChon and this should in no way surprise you but anyway!

Khai/Third - Ship It!

What made me ship it: the second half of ToL and the point of view switch from Third to Khai is not only what made me ship it but also what made the show for me. ToL is quite literally my problematic fave that I ignore 50% of to love (the UnTwo and PanBone storylines mostly don't exist to me) and the only thing that sold me to it is Khai's redemption arc. It works so fucking well I will never not love watching it unfold.

My favourite things about the ship: I like how dramatic and self-sabotaging the both of them are. Khai gets the rep for it but actually Third is a whole dumbass too. My guy has no self-respect. Neither of them do! They're made for each other. Also, I generally love stories where one of them realises almost too late and has to work their ass off for it.

My unpopular opinion: while as an action in and of itself Khai's fake drunk kiss and general initial treatment of Third sucks so so so much, I think it also makes the turnaround that much more satisfying. If he started out reasonably not into Third but also not that bad of a guy, the story just wouldn't be as compelling and the effort to win over Third wouldn't have such a big final payoff. My guy has to get over a whole lot of stuff and he WORKS for it, and that's what makes the show and the relationship work.

Dong Hee/Ho Tae - Ship It!

What made me ship it: they poke at each other so much. As soon as they were both on screen in ULS, it was obvious there was history there and it took less that a couple of minutes of shared screentime to sell me on them. I was immediately on board. I'm a sucker for ships where they can dish it and take it from each other even before they get together. Mutual stubbornness is sooooo my jam. Also the self-sacrificing Dong Hee thinks he has to do and the absolute refusal from Ho Tae to let him is just *chef's kiss*. Did I mention the mutual stubbornness?

My favourite things about the ship: unfortunately, I really vibe with when characters like Dong Hee think their existence is somehow making the people they love so much worse and the world is hell-bent on proving them wrong. This goes for both ULS and TToF as, even though the "chase" is depicted in very different strokes, the fundamental motives behind the characters stay the same. There's this inevitable push and pull to Hot Tae and Dong Hee that feels very much like they inhabit this place that cannot be separate from each other. They have ingrained themselves into the other so hard that no matter how hard they try to pull away (mostly Dong Hee), it's just impossible to untangle from each other.

My unpopular opinion: I'm not sure I have one about them? I really really wanted TToF to be prequel and sequel at the same time. When it was announced I'd hoped it would be structured with two parallel storylines running at the same time, one set pre-ULS and the other post-ULS because I think there was a lot more of their story to tell in both directions. But that's hardly an unpopular opinion.

and you thought you were safe but no!

Tonhon/Chonlatee - Don't Ship It 👎

Why I don't ship it: it's not that I don't ship it, it's that I don't fucking like the show in the first place. The whole plot is so aggressively bad, it's genuinely hard to find any redeeming qualities.

What would have made me like it: a better story. That's literally it. It wouldn't have been the first borderline homophobic love interest BL I would have liked, tbeh. The whole having children storyline would have to be severely altered, Tonhon's entire personality would need to be radically reviewed, and a stronger side-story for MikeToptap certainly wouldn't hurt. I did like the casting a lot so it doubly sucked for me that we never got them acting together again.

Something positive about it: Khao was incredible in it. He was hilarious and charming despite all the atrocities of the show, and Neo is alway a pleasure to see on screen. Plus, aside from the casting as I already said, MikeToptap were fire together and it was a huge waste.