#this has been sitting in my drafts for some reason..

[saintzweig]

overthinker gf that struggles to communicate x art donaldson :")

– angsty ig, no resolution because i'm like that :3 i've had this in my drafts for the longest time and i wanted to finish it so i did yay

your roommate sighed for the hundredth time as she watched you roll over your bed once more, a frown evident on your face as you threw your phone somewhere beside you. "no text?"

you shook your head, blinking away the anxious tears springing in your eyes. "he's probably still at practice" you sigh, looking over your bedside clock. 10:40 pm, tennis practice usually ends at 9.

"did you two fight or something?" your roommate spoke from her bed, typing away at her laptop. "no, i mean– i don't know, nothing happened. it was just, for the past few weeks we were like, inseparable, you know? but not in an unhealthy way, we just enjoyed each other's company but now the vibe is weird. he isn't texting as much, the other night he hung up in the middle of the call then just forgot about it"

"how long has this been happening?"

you give her a lazy, sheepish smile. "three days?"

"jesus, (y/n)."

you sit up, ready to defend yourself. "it's not just that! it's–, he introduced me to his friends, tashi and patrick. they're dating and tashi is really nice to me but they're ... close"

"so what? she's dating someone else and he's dating you"

you stared down onto your lap, fiddling your fingers anxiously. "yeah, i know. i guess i just feel, left out? they all have something only they have in common, y'know?"

your roommate sighed, shutting her laptop closed and leaning back onto her bed. "have you atleast talked to him about it?" you shook your head.

"i don't know, he's got a lot on his plate and i don't want to bother him. maybe it'll pass" you respond with a sigh, falling back onto your bed. you prayed it will.

the next few days had been weird, you weren't having problems with art but it wasn't perfect either— you were floating in between. and for an anxiously attached girlfriend like you, that was enough to make you spiral.

you chewed on your bottom lip, your laptop situated on your lap long forgotten. it was half an hour past midnight and you haven't received a single text from him since this noon. you tried your best to calm yourself, he is a student athlete after all, his schedule probably sucks and he's exhausted. you shook your head with a sigh, returning to face the screen and attempt to finish your paper.

your phone buzzed beside you and you scrambled to grab it from under the covers. it was him, art, video calling.

your previous thoughts forgotten as you clicked on answer. "hey" you smile, "where are you?"

the video was blurry but clear enough to show that he was in a diner booth. "i'm just grabbing something to eat with tashi and patrick, there wasn't much to eat at the party"

"party?"

"oh yeah, i didn't tell you? the seniors on the tennis team threw sort of a farewell party. here, say hi to tashi" the brunette appeared beside him, waving at the camera with a big smile— clearly intoxicated.

you tried to ignore the jealousy bubbling in the pit of your stomach, watching as she rests her chin on art's shoulder. "hey tashi" you greet back, "where's your other half?" you didn't mean for it to come out that way, in a sort of back off warning tone.

"he's out in the parking lot having a smoke" she giggled before pushing herself off art, "i gotta go pee" you hear her say. and when she leaves, you're silent.

art furrows his eyebrows as he brings the camera back to face him, "baby, you okay?"

you swallowed the lump in your throat, nodding stiffly. "yeah, yeah i'm just tired. been working on my paper for hours now and i still haven't finished."

"maybe you should sleep first and do it tomorrow?" the blonde says.

you lowered your eyes, "yeah, maybe." you wanted to say what was bothering you, ask if the two of you are okay but for some reason, it wouldn't come out.

"you know i miss you, right?" his voice coarse through the line, "i've just been really busy lately and i'm tired. i'm sorry"

you shook your head, your voice small. "it's okay, i miss you too" maybe you were so deep in overthinking things that you made it all about you, he's just exhausted. that's it.

"go sleep, i love you"

"g'night, art." you dropped the call.

[secretofblue]

11 • 06 • 25 11:55 pm

Wednesday recap

Note: I want to add that i actually wrote this the day the exam went on, but for some reason i forgot to update it and has been sitting on my drafts all this time and i noticed it just now 😭

I can feel this will be a long update again, i'm sorry

Today was my final exam of Clinical Practice and hopefully my last academic exam from the career 🥹. Again there is a lot of mixed feelings about that because ofc there is this relieve of finally ending this but at the same time nostalgic because wow i can't believe that all this years of curricular worries somehow end here?! I still don't completely process the idea and maybe later this will feel like a bruise

About the test... well, we had pretty much time to prepare for it (a little bit more than a week) and for that reason i felt like this sense of responsability to have to do well on it. I would love to say that said time i got under lockdown and studied, but the reality is that i started just this weekend

I wish i had administrated better my time because still this morning i was rushing trying to fit more concepts in my mind

About the dinamic of the test... it goes like this: the professors who teached and supervised us in this subject/headquarter (5) are divided in four different módulos (for visual purposes, all of this was in a big room with with smaller rooms inside, all of them conected by a station in the center) in each we had to do different procedures, first when we enter the room the teacher hands us a paper with the record of our patient and at the bottom the instructions of what they need us to do, the patients in each station are real people but they're actors so they're ready to answer questions and fake pains and complains 😭; in this occasion i have to say, the professors were pretty generous with the time, the gave us 12 minutes per module and we had to enter in groups of four and just rotate the stations everytime the alarm went off.

In past semesters i have to confess we had the opportunity to cheat a little because once someone finished the exam and went out of the room we interrogated them to know how was the exam, what we had to do, what did the professors ask etc etc, but of course the teachers knew this happened outside so this time they decided to do some changes and made us stay in a waiting room outside the place of the exam, the ones who finished leaved for another door and we didn't get to interact again because we also had to leave our phones inside our backpacks in another room 🫠

For me, the first station was a patient with a transfemoral amputation, (it was a rag doll 😭) i had to do it's physiotherapy diagnosis and then explain precautions i must have before giving them a treatment according with their record, then demostrate the procedure to do a correct bandage on the amputatėd member, and finally explain a treatment i would do to increase strength on the member. For this station i felt my diagnosis was a disaster because i was so nervous i forgot to mention a lot of things and some of the terms i had to use plus i'm not sure if i got to finish explaining my treatment because the alarm indicating the time went off

Second station, this one had a real person as a patient, i had again to do her physioterapy diagnosis after reading her record, i had to ask her a few questions in order to finish my diagnosis (i felt like i did better this time) and then do a treatment to help her gain core strength and stability, she was in a wheel chair and my creativity on the spot only lasted me enough to indicate two excercises 🥹 so at the end i had so much time left; but i felt the girl who was playing the rol of the patient was so kind with me

Third station was with a pediatric patient, for this one the actress was the mom and the patient was a doll, after reading her record i had to do the anamnesis for the perinatal history, then demostrate with the baby how to value two reflexes, for me it was moro and babinski and mention until which age it's normal for them to be present, i said the age of one of them wrong 🥲, also answer the random questions the mom had about the baby, the valoration and her worries and again i felt like i had too much time left at the end

Finally for the last station it was with the Dra. (i always adress her because she has been one of my teachers since the first semester of the career, and she actually also was the coordinator of the career at the time, she's a person that imposes me a lot but with the time i have learn that she is actually pretty gentle and that she just acts like she does because she really want us to become the best professional version of ourselves) in this one was with a neurological patient in the ICU after reading his record i had to explain what one of his patologies was: hemopneumothorax i explained it wrong because i said air insteand of blōod but i just noticed it as i'm writing this 😭; then mention again the parameters i must be cautious about to do an intervention according with his state (which i'm also just remembering i forgot to mention the most important one, the intracraneal pressure screamssssss 😭) and finally do his valoration. For the simulation there was a sound of the hospital monitor in background (you know the typical beep beep beep that indicates the heart rate .-.) so in the middle of my valoration it started going much faster and i had to call a "doctor" (another actor) who was outside the room to help stabilize it (i knew the drill because they did the exact same thing for the exam last semester 😮‍💨) after he helps with it the doctor introduced himself and asked me if i could help administrate certain treatment for the patient and i told him that just let me finish my intervention and i would see what i could do about it, but when he left the room i explained to the Dra. that i couldn't do what he asked me for because the administration of what he asked me to do was contraindicated for his case for all of the other several injuries the patient had on the place he indicated me, and the Dra. told me 'of course, thank you!' ; the actor patient was unconcious for his rol, but after i said that to the Dra. i saw him giving me a little tumbs up without her noticing it (he was so cute for that 🥹 and i felt so relieved and sincerely that helped me gain so much confidence to continue) still i didn't get to do much after it, and i didn't finish my valoration because the alarm went off. Again i didn't do perfect on this module but at the same time i didn't feel like a lost case

In general i'm aware i didn't do perfect in this exam and i had several mistakes which i have to improve but eventough i feel so much more confident now than how i felt for the last semester's final exam

I have hope things will going to be alright :)

If you reached this far i'm sorry it was too long or boring, but thank you so much for reading 𖹭

Good night everyone, sleep tight and rest well! ✨

[leegahyun]

TTYL ending fairies

[nestokaodevojka]

house episode where a new male fellow has the hots for house kinda like cameron did. young and attractive like his fellows usually are. everyone and their mom knows. it gives house endless material for elaborate gay jokes, but he doesn't think the fellow is serious about it. until it's been a while and the fellow doesn't stop. house tells him he's straight, albeit flattered, in his own way. the fellow is genuinely surprised to hear that. this sends house into kind of a crisis about his possible bisexuality. wilson is incredibly interested in house's admirer and when house realizes he does actually like men, wilson is capital J jealous of the fellow. they go out once and make out a bit. wilson starts thinking he's homophobic for being unsupportive of this development, now that there's actually a possibility of house getting with this guy. house is joking when he pesters wilson about being jealous and wanting house to himself and then wilson stupidly does that stupid Oh face and his big brown eyes widen in realization. this is never discussed again

[demaparbat-hp]

Oh, Lala...

[safety-pin-punk]

Stop trying to be a perfect punk and focus on just being a good person

[graysanatimony]

kris: I’m not sure what I should do today

Bojan: me ;)

Kris:(secretly slightly flustered)shut up

[a-most-beloved-fool]

there was a post floating around uhhh probably six months or so ago now about different composers and how to tell them apart (but silly) and i thought most of their takes were well-suited, but one of them said "if it sounds like the composer is trying to shoot you it's tchaikovsky".

Which. I understand where they're getting it from, but. That's Just the 1812 Overture. Yes, it's very silly that there's cannons in the 1812 Overture, using a weapon as an instrument is very memorable, but most of his music isn't. really shooty. This man wrote the Nutcracker. Yeah, the Christmas one. You know it. If you've been in a grocery store in North America or Europe (and probably elsewhere as well, idk where things get played) in November or December you've probably heard it when picking out corn.

He wrote Swan Lake. And Sleeping Beauty.

You know the disney/lana del ray "I know you, I've walked with you once upon a dream" song? That melody is Tchaik's. Not very shooty! Does not evoke gun imagery!!

His symphonies? Also not gun-like! You ever heard the horn solo from symphony 5 movement 2? It's gorgeous. 0% gun. How about the oboe from Tchaik 4 mvt 2? Or the pizzicato in mvt 3!!

Really I think if you want to describe the bulk of Tchaik's music (and still be funny about it) you should say something like "if it sounds like the composer is gay, but he's totally fine with it, really, he isn't having any crises about it at all, he's fine, he promises (lying), it's tchaikovsky".

[kittqns]

As much as I love the Rockafire I am (to a very small extent) happy got discontinued, don’t get me wrong I love them all SO much but whenever I see how much the pizza time players personalities got watered down after concept unification and even more in recent years, I’m so glad that didn’t happen to them because imagine how insane that would be💔💔💔

[tastycitrus]

so i've seen multiple AU stories where cass comes to gotham early, meets one of the other batkids and bonds with them. i've seen several with either jason or tim, and one with steph.

i want to put them all together. an alternate universe where cass comes to gotham early and runs into a bunch of kids who promptly imprint on her like lost ducklings. she doesn't know why they've attached themselves to her; she still can't comprehend language let alone communicate.

[silverware-is-interesting]

i think i've drawn lankmann a few times. just a couple

[krussyarts]

I'm gonna throw up my brain is so full of these two

[fireflower117]

did you inherit a sickness? did you blame god?

[sylviii]

transgender baddie straight up freaking it sensitive style in her kitchen to they might be Giants. if you can believe it.

[hisinfinities]

MUN VS MUSE

bonus: biblically accurate gojo

Tagged by: grabbed it from my other blog Tagging: @eldestoften @inspectorboobzilla @sharpsuite @ofcursedenergy and anyone else who might like to do this!

[ashvampire]

'the heart of lorkhan'

'the eye of magnus'

what next? the toes of zenithar?