#tips for throwing up

[starry-bi-sky]

on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.

Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.

Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.

Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.

There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.

[thewordsarestuckinmyhead]

to those following along at home, i just sent my novel to my first ever reader. i don't know how to feel.

[window-on-the-west]

farewell, and happy landing!

[cherryapplefish]

It’s summer when he gets down on one knee.

Summer when eyes like the sunrise you watched together this morning look up at you with hope and love as if he shouldn’t already know the answer.

Summer when your throat closes up, tears brimming in your eyes, and whether it’s the heat of the sun or the blood rushing to your cheeks, your face burns.

And it’s always been summer. Always been summer when you’ve made your most cherished memories.

Melted popsicles on small hands. Sweat running down the back of your neck. Caleb by your side.

It’s always been summer when he took you by the hand and dragged you out to watch fireworks. It’s always been summer when you sat under the stars while he babbled about the different constellations and going beyond the deep space tunnel. It’s always been summer when you looked up at him and realized that you want him by your side for the rest of your life, whatever that means.

It’s summer when Caleb gets down on one knee, a velvet box holding a silver ring in one hand, and asks:

“Will you marry me?”

[hikamancer]

A Perspective on Arthur, Dutch and Hosea

As the game progresses, there are a lot of ways Arthur becomes more and more similar to Hosea, most especially in chapter 6. Much like Hosea, Arthur questions and confronts Dutch on behalf of the well being of the other gang members. Like Hosea, he feels and expresses remorse for the decisions he's made in life and regrets that he has little time to change things and make them right. All throughout chapters 1-4, you can hear Hosea having heavy bouts of coughing, and it's implied that, like Arthur, he's dying of an illness. Hell, Arthur even looks kinda like Hosea when he was younger.

But perhaps the clearest example of their similarities is when Dutch outright says it during this conversation in chapter 5.

"You sound like Hosea. I miss... him."

What stands out to me about this line and its delivery is how dismissive it feels. When Dutch hears Arthur expressing concern about the rest of the gang, reminding him of the potential of costing more lives with his recklessness, he doesn't fully hear it as Arthur speaking. He hears Hosea's words, and it strikes grief in him, but he doesn't respond to what Arthur is saying.

I think that to Dutch, Hosea and Arthur always had their specific places/roles at his side. Dutch and Hosea co-founded the gang, united by a common dream. They'd been close friends for 20 years, and Hosea was always there as his consultant. He respected Hosea perhaps the most out of anyone in the gang, and he was one of the few people who he'd actually listen to and seek advice from.

On the other hand, Arthur is the boy whom he and Hosea raised. They brought him up into their life of crime, teaching him, instilling their values into him, and he became their protégé and the gang's lead enforcer. That's the way it was for Dutch. He was the leader, Hosea was the right hand and the brains, Arthur was the left hand and the brawn. And he loved and relied on them both for what they were. But while his love for Hosea was one born out of a more genuine respect of equals, his love for Arthur came with taking him very much for granted. Like a loyal guard dog.

But now Hosea is gone, and Dutch has lost the only voice that kept him in check. The disastrous Saint Denis bank heist and Guarma have left Dutch completely disarmed, but instead of actually reflecting on the deaths he's responsible for, and recognizing what's at stake for the rest of the gang, he instead scrambles to reassert himself and continue trying to "win the chess game" so to speak ("Maybe life ain't such a thing to cling onto so tightly").

(It's worth noting that the chess moves Dutch recites before intiating this conversation is an actual maneuever called "the Dutch Defense," where you sacrifice all your pieces to win.)

But Arthur has started to see things beyond just Dutch and his game, especially after his TB diagnosis. Though Arthur, at his heart, remains loyal to Dutch, he was also loyal to Hosea and, consciously or not, espoused himself to Hosea's ideals of prioritizing the safety and morality of the gang ("I guess I'm more interested in saving lives than winning at chess").

Dutch, however, does not properly recognize Arthur's shift in perspective. Throughout chapter 6, he views Arthur's many attempts at saving those around him as acts of disloyalty and betrayal. Because Arthur's role has not changed in his mind at all. Arthur is still meant to be his muscle, his workhorse, to have his back, because that's what he relies on him for. But Arthur is speaking and acting on ideas above that station. "You sound like Hosea." And so he dismisses Arthur's concerns, dismisses his actions as disloyalty. And it hurts him. All he can see is Arthur changing and turning on him, and that breaks his heart. And he responds to these feelings by detaching himself from Arthur, lashing out at him in anger and disappointment, clinging ever tighter to his own interests and leaning on Micah, a blatant yesman to all of his reckless actions.

It's not until the very end that Dutch is able to realize those feelings. When Arthur, beaten and dying, is lying at his feet. Warning him of Micah, telling him how he gave him all he had, that he tried so hard to save everyone and was still trying to save Dutch. This boy that he raised, that he loved for 20 years, gave him everything. And Dutch did nothing but take advantage of him until it was too late.

I think in that moment, not only did he see Arthur dying, he finally saw Hosea dying in front of him as well. Only then, once everything else had fallen apart, did he realize how much he loved Arthur, how much he loved Hosea, how much they and everyone else who died loved him, and that it was all his fault. And being confronted with that reality, seeing it in the fading of Arthur's eyes, hearing it in his last breaths, was too much for him to bear.

So he just walks away.

[trekkerac]

i got cycling for my legs and i got climbing for all over, now i just need a third physical activity for my weak noodle arms, which might just fall off

[intertexts]

relatedly i suppose ive always subconsciously thought of virion as the type of guy to curl up in an extremely tight little ball Entirely under all his blankets to sleep. u will not see him. there's an unmoving blanket lump but that's the only sign of life.

[bottomvalerius]

I HAD TO DRAW YOUR COMMENT

IM SCREAMING AAAAA YOU DREW THEM SO PERFECTLY???? 😭😭😭💖💖💖💖

Valerius seems well trained until the first word out of his mouth are “but also consider: she’s ugly?” to which he gets smacked with a rolled up tabloid and has to sit outside dndkdkkdjdjdj

[draculagerard]

merlin telling arthur that there can be no place for magic in camelot. this is genuinely proof to me that somewhere along the line merlin started caring more about arthur's life than the future of camelot he has been dreaming of

[carlyraejepsans]

HELPP i found out about character AIs and im losing it over calling deltarune sans "a more manipulative personality" 😭😭 like whatt we've only seen this man like 2 times

sorry im being a hater hgfjdks but you're the sans understander

lmaoo character.ai, look where the fall of ai dungeon got us, smh. thank you for the compliment though!

[xinyuehui]

Quality Time New Feature ⛄ Love and Deepspace

[chronicallyphysics]

the 5 stages of preparing for an oxbridge interview

1. oh my god its so soon i have to lock in NOW or else im gonna do so bad

2. i have no chance of getting in this is the end im gonna throw up

3. whatever i dont even care anyway. i should be proud i even got to the interview stage, if i don't get in its not the end of the world

4. oh my god its in three days WHY HAVENT I LOCKED IN YET this is the end of the world

5. fuck it we ball

[kriz-smthn]

Me, at the edge of despair: I'm stuck...

Me: I don't know HOW to describe this! And I can't continue until I do... Man, I just want to get to the action—

Me: Wait

Me: -types '(Insert description of the Thing here.)'-

Me:

Me:

Me: Wait, that's illegal. IT CAN'T BE THAT EASY—!!!

[peteytheparrot]

My Little Pony bases are genuinely always so great to find good dynamic poses for my feral cat OCs 🙏🙏

They really know how to pose these ponies in an interesting and fun way and I’m eating it up 😋😋😋

[ravenpoets]

guys i literally need new dps fics so bad that i try to write them myself but i just am not a writer like help

[unspuncreature]

i have my colposcopy this afternoon and brother. i’m scaredt