#touchstarved wip

[deadbe]

Drabble of Artist, Hound!MC who agreed to draw a portrait of Leander then regrets all life choices

1st person pov, mostly internal monologue *no gender related terms used

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"Your clothes are such a pain to draw, why can't you just wear a shirt and slacks like a normal person? That would make my life so much easier." I mutter, like I haven't stayed up until early morning hours obsessing over the gold cuffs on the lapels of his coat, or the exact intricacies of the pin posted above his breast or all of the angles in which his earing might sit against his jaw and oh God shut up. Shut up-shut up.

My eyes wander over his neck. I'm vageuly aware of how long it's been since I moved my hand.

I'm pulled out of this trance when his mouth parts slightly in an unformed question. I panic and choose to squint, pretending that I'm only memorizing every curve in his throat because I'm having trouble drawing it. I erase and redraw his chin a few times for good measure.

As if all of this were entirely innocent, he soaks up my gaze like a depraved dog. His obvious contentment with receiving my attention makes me feel like we're both children-living in a world where lingering glances and small touches don't mean anything; where love is new and simple.

But being young was never that peaceful and succumbing to his charms is humiliating. I doubt he notices how horrible this is for me, not being able to get a grip on myself feels like I'm losing to him. I'm sure he thinks nothing of it. Affection, attention, and sex are all common commodities in his life. Infatuated strangers are dime a dozen

That thought sparks a litany of other thoughts I'd rather forget about.

Yet despite my attempts, this one remains; 'has he ever been loved? Not lusted after or used, but loved?' Maybe that was his plan all along; to force my attention onto him so long that I can't help but think about him.

I wrangle my thoughts back to the damn sketch where they should be. I've made many quick pieces off of portraits like this one and never given the recipient a second thought. This time should be no different.

It's quick work, quick work...easy task, easy...a few quick dashes at the edge of the page to indicate a continued shoulder, a tight section of hard shadow followed by a thin, careful line. Every look up at him only carries meaning if I let it, and still, I cannot make myself draw his eyes. I can't bare the thought of meeting them yet.

I can stare down any man or animal that dares to threaten me. I have ended fights before they start with a harsh glare. I've been beaten so that I may never break. I don't look at myself in the mirror because I don't wish to know what it's like to meet my gaze. Yet still, I know I can be softened by nice looks and welcoming smiles. I know I am undone by kindness and Leander's gaze unravels me, but not because I feel any warmth from him.

[enviousbug2]

been working on a mhin smth the past few days and I can finally draw in their hair😭😭

[raphaerolo]

Touch starved post-zygerria tasuki codywan ...

( @smoosey thank u for the inspo)

[allswellinthiswell]

[faerieliights]

kiss me like you need air to breathe.

[strawberry-pockii]

"nothing to see here, just some friendly sparring. move along"

let them fight. let them have a bar fight. ANYWAYS. HAPPY UPDATED DEMO EVE!!!

[grimalkinscribbles]

Words can’t describe how unwell I am about this current Mhin wip

[todayis-snowy]

wip and artist avatar reveal guys xoxo

[pebeteconqueso]

happy birthday babygirl

[renard-dartigue]

Pretty boy Kuras wip.

[k3n999]

Rasvan finally got some colors👍

[eniiart]

Mhin sketch/wip ✨️✨️

I missed drawing them too much so there we go!

[arpiniko]

sneak peek of what i'm working on since my midterms are done (still wip ofc)

[slightly-warmer-hibiscus-tea]

[allswellinthiswell]

Okay I'm done for the day

[sichore]

for all the yapping I do about my creation process I'm really bad about actually drawing it out haha..... since I actually have this weekend off I wanted to block out a basic outfit idea for my Unnamed as well as structure her hair a bit more since Kuras gets those twists Right when she's plops into his life. I'm really struggling with matching the style of the characters while also breaking art block myself, so she doesn't look as wall-eyed as she should. (she's not sleep-deprived or anything her face is just Like That) got her basic themes and flower figured out but no name... should probably actually keep playing the demo to see if she has always had a given name or gave herself one considering the title. (or maybe the Unnamed is her power?? hmmm)