#traumatized endogenic system

[rusanya-does-edits]

Stimboard series on Rusanya's collective identities!

11. Traumatized Endogenic

Traumatized Endogenic - For endogenic systems who have trauma! This may be due to your system not having to do with your trauma, being traumatized after you formed, or even having alters with exotrauma. Many people see endogenic systems as 'systems without trauma' which simply isn't true.

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[thehealingsystem]

if you ever wonder why I don't interact with the traumagenic community as a traumagenic system this is why

[anti-cupid]

Endos arent a part of syspunk bcause ableism isnt punk

[sovereignsystem]

Shout out to those of us who were not "intentionally" abused.

Not all abusers do it on purpose, but that does not invalidate your trauma. You do not owe them forgiveness, even if their actions were unintentionally harmful

- 🧟‍♂️ (he/him)

[prommytheus]

hi if youre anti-endogenic systems then please unfollow me. its none of your business why and in what way someone is a system. gatekeeping is stupid and immature and all systems of all origins and all labels are welcome on my blog.

[editedantiendoposts]

we say the future is plural,

that there will be widespread acceptance for systems of all kinds.

this future would be kind to all

if it is,

every day, plurals would work alongside singlets and not be seen differently

every plural formed from trauma would get the help they need

those who abuse plurals would get more consequences

every friend loving and accepting

every doctor is kind and considerate of all

every priest sees it as an expression of spiritual strength

everyone to see plurals as fellow humans

every water will help you stay afloat

our future is a dream, a wish for acceptance and understanding

i hope the future is full of acceptance for all

i hope the future is full of love for plurals and those who love them

i hope the future is plural.

[skinsheddingcycle]

guys the tag was literally made for DID/OSDD/CDD FOLKS ONLY PLEASE STAY AWAY FROM IT!!!! you already have pluralpink why the fuck do you need to steal ours now??? istg it's not funny anymore how you whine about being excluded everywhere and having nowhere to go MEANWHILE YOU LITERALLY STEAL OUR SPACES and invade every single trauma survivors tag!!!!

if you want to be respected for what you are, STOP TAKING TERMS AND TAGS THAT ARE NOT YOURS. MAKE YOUR OWN

[spacecatdraws]

-learn about therians

-huh woah i am animal too

-talk to my theriotypes as separate people

-learn about systems

-i too have other people in my head, but im probably faking it

-“you need trauma to be a real system”

-oh. i am not traumatized. whelp, time to repeatedly tell myself im a fraud

-“dissociating involves feeling detached”

-oh wow, that sounds familiar. when none of my friends are around i just exist barely, like im floating and not really real. but i am not traumatized, so i am faking this too

-“amnesia is a part of systems”

-i often forget things. must be just the ADHD.

-“social exclusion/bullying is a type of trauma”

-i mean, i have like two friends and my attempts to make more end in ignoring or mockery, but that doesn’t count

-I am faking it. i should stay out of traumatic spaces because i would only hurt them

-“repeated social trauma is a serious problem”

-…i have to be faking it. I’ve never been shot or raped or assaulted or anything like that. i am not traumatized.

-i love my family and friends, so i can’t be traumatized

-even if school and life in general makes me want to stop living

-i am faking it.

-“to all systems: your trauma is enough. you don’t owe anyone anything. be proud”

-am I faking it?

-“endos are all either fakers or lying to themselves”

-i use endo as a sys term because i do not have enough trauma to be traumagenic, even though whoever i was separated i would play with the friends only i knew, so i am obviously faking it

-i am still faking it. buuut just to confirm, i will ask the tumblr

-“yeah no you’re def a trauma system. you dissociate and are subject to a trauma”

-that was not the answer I was expecting. try again

-“that sounds like you’re a system,”

-still not the answer I was expecting.

-even though the memories from my system are terrifyingly strong, I have traumatic responses to things that never happened to me

-maybe. i am not faking it?

-i am system. this feels correct. hello headmates

-“hello”

-[:

[chxrrie-bxmb]

idk who needs to hear this but im saying it anyway

tw for vague/brief talk of abuse

systems dont only form from physical and/or sexual abuse. systems also form from verbal abuse, emotional abuse, and manipulation. systems can even form because of repeated isolation that traumatizes a child.

trauma is not only bruises, cuts, and other physical injuries. trauma can also be the collection of mental scars that changes a childs life forever. trauma can also be the decades of barriers and walls created by severe trust issues that your parents forced you to have because of their neglect and failure to make you feel safe in your own home for whatever reason there may be. trauma can be emotional outbursts, lack of emotional awareness, lack of emotions in general.

trauma is far from just being physical.

trauma is something you carry with you long after any physical scars may fade.

[rusanya-does-edits]

Roxanne but as a traumatized endogenic system whose genders are loveletterbitch, idolstaric, netqueer, and phargender! They also use she/they pronouns because that's what we felt like this is how things should pan out at the time we made the edit.

[vending-wonderland]

Had to turn anon off but we would still love to receive asks about our headmates!!

Just no weird ones this time

[sysmedsaresexist]

are there requirements to being a little beyond just feeling you're that age internally? is there a way i have to act to be considered a little?

I'm going to start with something a little controversial.

I hate little discourse. It's actually the dumbest thing anyone can waste time on.

The actual clinical term is "child parts," and when you compare child parts to littles, it makes a lot more sense.

Littles can be anyone or anything. You don't need to act any certain way, or be any specific age.

Child parts are EPs (so highly traumatized and emotionally reactive) that are stuck at a very young age (typically when the trauma occurred). These are the parts that people tend to think of when they start discoursing about sex and language, and all that jazz.

Everyone is different, and you do what works best for your system, fuck what anyone thinks or says. If little fits, go for it, regardless of age or mental state. It's not a term specific to DID. Some littles act like adults and some adults act like littles. Some talk quirky, some don't. Some like plushies, some are hosts of adult bodies, and some age slide or regress.

Look out for child parts and protect them at all costs, they are our innocence ❤️

Littles, go buck wild, throw a rave, do whatever you want, play hookie, suck a binkie and slap a cop.

[goldensunfish]

I wish it wasnt so hard to convince people that being supportive of every kind of system is actually a good thing that is gonna benefit even the most disordered traumatized systems in the long run

[anti-cupid]

Gotta admit im the silliest one here /j

[semiautosludge]

I think that it's really weird that syscourse has devolved into this pro endo/anti endo warzone. People fail to consider the fact that what we know about psychology/mental health is nowhere nearly as concrete as what we know about the rest of the body, and there are so many things that even the most educated of professionals could be so wrong about. The mind is a hell of an organ, and fully accepting that means putting away what you think is and isn't acceptable grounds for plurality.

[collectiveofeden]

I got banned from an LGBTQ+ crisis holine for being pro-endogenic today.

yes, really. I got hired on as a support councilor, and made my introduction as a diagnosised DID system that is happy to help out with plurality related conflicts regardless of their system's origin. The owner of the hotline knew nothing of the discourse up until this point.

multiple anti-endo systems bombarded their DMs, calling me ableist and said people like "me" were ruining the community. I provided my sources. despite the owner agreeing with me in the end, they couldn't keep me as a councilor OR LET ME USE THE HOTLINE because my opinions built on inclusiveness made the other systems uncomfortable. edit:

This is the hotline I got banned from for being pro-endogenic.

tw // suicide // bigotry

I originally didn't want to name and shame this hotline, as I didn't want to be petty or hurt my cause. However, I received MANY comments about how irresponsible it is for the moderation to withhold life saving crisis support over something as inconsequential as the origin of their plurality. Endogenic identifying systems already experience extreme harassment and discrimination, and denying crisis support to an endogenic system could truly be their last straw and lead to more queer/plural suicide. Something sysmeds fail to understand is that endogenic =/= not traumatized. endogenic =/= no mental health concerns. all the endogenic label means is that their plurality, often a small part of who they are, was not caused by trauma (or by trauma alone) It would mean a lot to me if you could leave a review for the server on DIsboard, warning endogenic systems that they are not safe there. If you feel up for it, maybe even open up a mod ticket and explain endogenic origins to them. I tried my best and failed, as I got dogpiled by sysmeds. Disboard Link: https://disboard.org/server/1352076674165899394 and, if you have a couple dollars to spare, help my system secure funding for the Plural Association Warmline. This helpline will provide support for ALL systems! Donation Link: https://streamlabscharity.com/@collectiveofeden/the-plural-assoication