Wang Yunkai's message on Weibo (translated by xiaoqiaoo_)
Today, Iβd like to share with everyone how the rookie actor Wang Yunkai and Jin Xiaobao came to meet each other.
My thoughts are scattered, and my writing skills arenβt perfect, so please forgive any awkward phrasing in what Iβm about to write.
On September 14, 2022, I began a new life in Beijing, full of uncertainty. After drifting around aimlessly like a headless fly for several days, I soon realized that pursuing a career as an actor was as difficult as reaching the heavens.
Without formal acting training and with limited personal qualifications, almost all of my auditions ended in rejection. To make ends meet, I took a job as an art examination teacher. After passing the interview, a sudden thought struck me: βWould I never become an actor? Would I be moving further and further away from my ultimate dream?β
While I was caught in this dilemma, a friend suggested I start out as a commercial actor. So, I spent thirty yuan to join five casting announcement groups and nervously embarked on my journey as a βcommercial actor,β starting as an extra and stand-in and eventually moving on to short dramas, tvc advertisements, and MV roles. By June 2023, I landed my first lead role in a commercialβthe one for Beijing Music Industrial Park that everyone has seen. During this time, I continued auditioning for film and TV roles, but each attempt would always end in failure.
What I didnβt expect was that this commercial would become a turning point for me. On July 15, 2023, a producer reached out through a friend after seeing the commercial, thinking I was very suitable for the role of Xiaobao. My first video interview was scheduled for the afternoon of July 17. Despite the screen separating us, I was extremely nervous, with many thoughts racing through my mind, the main two being: βThis has to be a scam, right?β and βEven if itβs real, Iβm still going to fail.β
Knowing that the producer felt I was right for the role because of my dimples, I didnβt dare relax for a second. I kept my face slightly angled and forced my dimples to show throughout the entire interview. After the call ended, half of my face was stiff.
After a week full of anxiety, I received an invitation for an in-person audition. I couldnβt contain my joy after hearing the news, but that joy would soon be replaced by greater fear and self-doubt.
Can I really do this? Do I have the luck? Am I capable enough?
Due to my lack of experience and with no examples to follow, I just read the original work several times and prepared as best as I could. But when the day finally came, I truly understood what βeasier said than doneβ meant!
The scale of the audition was far greater than I had imagined, and the impressive competitors also made me feel intimidated.
Honestly, I canβt recall the specific details of the audition because all my emotions were condensed into a single word: nervous. Oh, and there was also one mission etched in my mind: to keep emphasizing my dimples.
After the audition, I figured I probably didnβt stand a chance and began consoling myself as usual: βItβs okay, failure is also a kind of experience.β But to my surprise, the next day, I received notice from the producer that I was selected for the second round of fittings a month later!
To prepare, I started working out and lost 7.5 kg in a month. But after a month had passed, it seemed as if the fitting notice had disappeared into thin air. Just as I was about to give up, I was informed that the second round of fittings would be rescheduled, and the third round of auditions would be held directly in October.
After the third round, I made it to the final three. I understood very well that this was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, so to be responsible for both the project and myself, I enrolled in a month-long acting training course.
Finally, in late November, I was notified that I would be joining the cast for training on December 8th. Even after joining, I was still worried that I might be replaced at any moment. It wasnβt until the producer arranged more than 20 days of acting, martial arts, etiquette, and fitness classes that I truly began experiencing life on set. Only then did my heart finally settle.
I want to thank the two producers for their appreciation and support, the director for patiently guiding me, the acting coach and screenwriter for helping this newbie better understand the script and character, Li Le for taking care of me on set, Li Junliang and Song Jiaxi for tirelessly answering my questions about acting. Iβm also glad I got to spend this time with my old friend Kou Weilong and new friend Li Yimu. And a big thank you to the friend who connected me with the two producers.
Lastly, I want to say that Iβm so happy to have met everyone in the height of summer 2024. Thanks to Meet You at the Blossom, I was able to encounter all of you. Although I still have a lot to improve on, I will work hard and wholeheartedly cherish every beautiful moment. I hope we can all be our most wonderful selves where the flowers are in full bloom! Just be happy~ β€οΈ
Goodbye, Jin Xiaobao π
Hello, actor Wang Yunkai βοΈ
* the line βjust be happyβ is a play on words, he uses the βkaiβ part of his name because it sounds like the kai in kaixin (happy)
a dress saying it can make u look 5kg slimmer faster than you can get surgery to actually become 5kg slimmer isnt "fatphobic" or "pro-ana". its a tongue in cheek over-exaggerated way of saying the dress is very flattering and creates the illusion of a slimmer body. wanting a slimmer body isnt always (or even usually) indicative of having an eating disorder. most people want to wear clothes that flatter them! but the words "plastic surgery" and "diet" have triggered kneejerk "omg so problematic!!!" reactions.
also, even *if* it were ED related, being mad a jirai influencer made something related to a mental disorder and not in an "uwu ur so valid but also just stop having symptoms and unhealthy behaviors bc thats problematic and ur mental illness will spread" way is sooooo braindead. "i get some jirais want to protect the lifestyle but-" wrong, the people in the jirai kei subculture want to keep people who judge and shit on the culture of jirai kei (mental illness community thats neither pro nor anti recovery, even indicates in its name that it may be toxic or unhealthy) while wearing the styles we commonly wear but calling them all "jirai kei fashion" instead of their OG names bc the tag is more popular and claiming it makes them a part of our culture OUT of our subculture. because its already gotten bad enough that ppl who do use the OG names for things get attacked, and jirai girls are looked down on and called weird and problematic by the people who want to call themselves one of us while treating jirai subculture as a costume. fuck off and leave us alone people, the name of the subculture says its toxic!! idk what influencer lied to u ab that being "just a stereotype" and not the core of the subculture, or that jirai kei is the name of a spwcific new fashion and "the lifestyle" is separate, but you should be mad at them, not us.
ik wordt zo moe van kleding zoeken like wat bedoel je je kunt 4 schoenmaten tegelijk hebben, de kringloop heeft alleen maar vloekende kleuren oma kleding, H&M heeft vrijwel niks in grotere maten en zalando rekent iedereen 5 maten groter dan ze zijn. en die kut y2k trend maakt het alleen maar erger
why is it that the second you vent about weight issues or binging or weight loss you immediately get like 5 telling you about how thin thye are, how they don't eat meals, and how no matter what they eat they wont gain weight please leave
i just need to lament how patrick harding (alexs performance coach) is so fucking sexy btw out here in his rainbow wristwatch at grand prixs posting love is love, talking on podcasts about how he knows f1 is a weight saving sport but doesnβt ever want alex to end up with fucked up eating habits in ten years time so no matter how many people question him about it he wonβt restrict alex from eating what he wants, lamenting how heβs proudest of alex when heβs bringing up difficult topics and growing from his old strategies for coping emotionally that he has had from childhood. thatβs a man
I keep getting videos like βILLYMATION DESTROYED HER CAREERβ and βWOKE YOUTUBER TRIED TO CANCEL MEβ in my recommended. I finally look into the situation and Iβm justβ¦ so confused. So I skimmed the guys original video, right? Come to the 10:00 mark, and I stop skipping, and itβs just him insulting her appearance π.
So, I look into the situation, and her crime is having a bad opinion and trying to get a video taken down. If having a a bad opinion is a crime, 80% of YouTubers are criminals. As for trying to get the video taken down? Sure, you could call it petty. But cancel-worthy? I just consider it human error.
Apparently doing 1 questionable thing means you deserve to be treated like the devil and treated like a criminal mastermind. Itβs the IRL equivalent of kicking Sharon out of book club because she made fun of you.
Also, I was looking at that LBYS guys channel, right? Itβs just a bunch of content about βwOoooOOke people.β I uh, yeah. Wow.
Iβm not saying she did nothing wrong. Just likeβ¦ I think itβs being overdramatised.
Full disclosure, I havenβt watched Illymations video in full, or TBYS, but the βthere are no bad foodsβ comment or smth like that is kinda true, just poorly worded. Essentially, itβs about eating in moderation. Nothing wrong with a square of chocolate on a Saturday, but pizza every day is different. Honestly, criticise the video if you want, I havenβt seen it all, so I wonβt comment on that. Just. Yeah?
Iβm not an illymation stan. Iβve only talked about her once before in relation to a different situation (the reitanna situation and her god awful statement about illymations grooming.) and I donβt watch all her content. I like her music though (Ursa Major), itβs good. I just like. Think the situation is a bit blown out of proportion?
Idk, tell me Iβm wrong in my replies or something. I probably wonβt respond but I wonβt delete your comment unless youβre just being an ass and Iβll hear you out if Iβm wrong. Iβm just sick of this. Every few weeks I get a video in my recommended like βTHIS YOUTUBERS CAREER IS OVERβ and itβs always overdramatising the silliest shit.
βShe sent 2 million people to harass him.β No? She made a tumblr post telling people to report the video. You know, I canβt even FIND the tumblr post, so that 2 million people claim is a bit over dramatic. She doesnβt even have her tumblr linked to her YouTube. Wait, was it on Twitter? People are claiming itβs on tumblr. Iβm so confused.
Also I havenβt watched all of TBYSβs video but people are saying the dress part wasnβt even the worst part of what he said. Idk if thatβs true. I condone doing your own research and free thinking so Iβd be a hypocrite to say he 100% said anything terrible. Itβs weird, cuz Reddit is mostly on Illyβs side, while everywhere else is against her, and thatβs really funny to me, because REDDIT of all places?
Idk Iβll probably delete this later. I donβt keep my rants up for long but Iβve been keeping them up a lot recently even tho like, Iβm meant to be deleting them? Ugh, I guess I just got lazy. Anyway, bye, love you, or whatever.
I had the absolute worst cardiology experience ever. I went to the cardiologist for possible pots, I've had 2 doctors tell me they suspect I have pots. The doctor came in, told me that my problem isn't pots at all, and that I'm just fat, depressed, on too many medications and need to exercise.
I have severe mental health issues. Including an eating disorder - a binge eating disorder. And I'm on meds that have weight gain as a side effect, and have yes, made me gain weight. I was so disgusted with her telling me multiple times how fat I was, and how she thought it was incredible that I hadn't broken any bones from passing out "at my size". I know I am overweight, but I felt very insulted that she kept bringing it up as the root of all the problems.
Id like to mention I do infact exercise as well- I have 2 high energy dogs who need plenty of exercise and trust me they get it.
She proceeded to tell me I don't have pots because people with pots don't faint. Which I know is not true, I know not all people faint, but some definitely do. She also told me that because my blood pressure was normal I didn't have pots, but my heart rate went from 96 to 190 during my orthostatics, and I did infact have some blood pressure changes in my orthostatics as well.
She told me she will not do a tilt table test on me because of my medications, and that obviously my medications are part of the problem here. Even though my symptoms started long before I was even medicated, and I've never had adverse reactions to my medications, I see my prescriber monthly and she ALWAYS goes over side effects with me, and I've experienced NONE.
She told me I am uneducated, and because I have not even started nursing school yet, I cannot possibly know anything about the "masters diagnosis" of POTS. Yes. These were her actual words.
I feel so defeated and drained. Her actions and words have negativity effected me, especially everything she's said about my weight. Thankfully she referred me to another doctor who will (hopefully) perform a tilt table test, because she has told me she will not risk doing tests on me due to my "large amount of medications". I hardly got a word in at this appointment. My mom even tried to tell her about my frequent falls, all my symptoms and she brushed them off.