#unable to speak

[becabeale143]

@vscali - Anna’s makeup artist posted on her IG story 🌹🔥

[finniswriting]

I wanna say something I know what I wanna say but I can't speak I can't say it no matter how hard I try no matter how bad I wanna speak I can't

Its a horrible feeling being unable to speak I wanna speak so bad but I just can't I wish I could

No one understands me when I'm like this no one gets it because they don't understand me they don't understand what's happening and I can't tell them

I'm overwhelmed but I can't tell them because I can't speak I'm trying my best but I just can't I wish you understood

[naenaex0xx]

tbh even if I was a writer I'd still be absolutely dead

[breesperez139]

Dc x Dp Prompt #6

“I’m a twin”, Damian said one night. He could feel the narrowed eyes of his family drilling holes on his back in disbelief. Not that he could blame them. Damian had never so much as implied being raised with a companion, much less a sibling.

“I had a brother”. Damian paused to recollect himself. He had not said his brother’s name out loud in over 8 years.

“His name was… Danyal”. Damian hated the way his voice wavered, but he could not help it. Danyal was everything to him, his other half. Their heart beat as one and when one heart stopped beating, the other one died with it. At least until his family put his heart on metaphorical life support without ever realizing.

“Where is he now?” His father asked, voice filled with knowing grief and a hint of betrayal. It had in fact been 6 years since Damian first showed up on his doorstep.

“Up there”. All eyes shifted towards the specific star he was pointing to. “Right before he died, he promised me he’d guide me from the stars. Unfortunately, the stars are not visible in Gotham, so my brother is unable to be of much help unless I leave the city.”

“Your brother is Polaris, the North Star?” Tim questioned warily, most likely in attempts to not offend him. Damian was aware of how stupid it sounded, but Danyal had promised, and his brother never broke his promises.

“Yes. Danyal is with the stars now, just as he always wanted”

[dailymanners]

When entering any place of business, such as a store or restaurant, if a staff member greets you, then acknowledge them and greet them back.

Although for many jobs it's a required part of their job to greet you, especially retail workers, receptionists, and restaurant workers to name a few, that doesn't make it feel any less dehumanizing to say "Hello!" to another human being only for them to ignore you. Acknowledging staff members and greeting them back is important for acknowledging their humanity, they are, after all, a human being, and not an automated machine.

This is also important when going to check out at a store. If you approach the cash register, and the cashier greets you, you should acknowledge them and greet them back. Cashiers already have to deal with being dehumanized enough. The least you can do is help humanize them by acknowledging them when they greet you and speak to you.

[bunnieswithknives]

I feel bad for neglecting Hazel so much, I do have many thoughts about her.. and also a mermaid au that im probably not going to do anything with

[hoodzgyal]

jason smells like gunpowder and limerence in the mornings. the human embodiment of “too little, too late”.

his scent lingers in your apartment long after he leaves, reminding you of the late night rendezvous, sweet lies, and empty promises from nights before. this has been going on for weeks; him crashing into your sacred space after a night of patrol, infecting the calm air of your home with his presence.

he knows he shouldn’t be doing it. that he should leave you alone before you get too attached. but your softness is like morphine.

the way you speak to him so gently. the way you don’t pity him, yet still care for him. your soft curves in comparison with his hard edges. you are warm and earnest where he is cold and distant. the mere thought of you has him itching for another fix.

he knows that he shouldn’t be doing this; getting such a sweet girl’s hopes up, just to inevitably dash them away. but he can’t help it. he’s an addict.

[dennisboobs]

standing in front of a firing squad would have been easier than reading this script i need to be shot

[lesbianjackies]

i did NOT just see someone complain that s3 is “reducing lottie to her mental illness”……….. oh my fucking god two episodes in and the horrible takes are already rampant

[axolotluv]

what is happening to me

[naenaex0xx]

tbh even if I was a writer I'd still be absolutely dead

[oncelerfucker]

Yes autonomy is a major theme in Severance. Yes there was a bold and beautiful statement about the autonomy of the innies, Mark S. in particular, at the end of season two. Yes it makes complete sense for Mark S. to have made the choices he did.

And also — trauma and healing from it (or a lack of healing from it) is also a major theme in Severance.

It's very common to view yourself as disconnected from yourself after trauma. Who you were before and who you are after are two "different" people. As such, a huge part of healing from trauma can be working towards seeing yourself as "whole" again. That's not to say that trauma makes one "incomplete" but that for some people beginning to recognize the "ugly" parts of their emotions as part of themself wrt healing from trauma is related to self compassion, forgiveness, and acceptance.

Which I think lends itself to the fact that innies and outies are the same person in the sense that their personalities and emotional patterns shine through regardless of their memories. Because of that I think the way they are treated by each other (innie vs outie) is more reflective of how the characters view themselves than anything else.

For example: Dylan hates himself, but he wants to like himself. He wants to be better, he just doesn't know how (thinking about how it's very heavily implied he has ADHD or another kind of neurodivergence that contributes to the way he struggles). Dylan is uncomfortable with and self conscious about his disregulation. He idealizes the parts of him that he wants to be more like, that he wants to strive for. Of course wanting to believe a part of him that he'll never fully meet is cool is something that is true for himself regardless of if he's at home or at Lumon — he desperately wants to like himself and find something he is good at. That's why he is angry but understanding to himself regarding Gretchen. That's why he gives himself autonomy.

Dylan sees himself and goes "That's a man I may not know, but I recognize him" because he recognizes his emotions and knows who he is despite the ways he may hate it.

Mark hates himself, but he fundamentally doesn't want to change. Mark does not see himself as autonomous because for the last several years he's been the guy that a bad thing happened to who can't confront it. Grief can cause you to strip your autonomy from yourself in real life, the severance procedure is just an extremely literal way of going about it. Mark is comfortable in his suffering. He's stuck in bargaining and depression. He is a man who lives comfortably in his depression hole and only changes his tune when it is theoretically possible to get his old life back. Of course neither part of himself sees the other as an equal — he hates that guy and constantly belittles himself because of his grief. He already doesn't see himself as autonomous so why would he ever view himself that way in any other context?

Mark sees himself and goes "That's a man I refuse to know and refuse to recognize" because he cannot bring himself to recognize his own emotions and understand himself in his emotional complexities.

For some the only way to heal from your traumas is to find a compassionate lense to look at and understand yourself through.

Dylan is beginning to do that without even working towards reintegration.

Mark has completely rejected that despite forcing himself into reintegration. Mark — innie and outie — will continue to lose narratively for as long as he cannot view himself with empathy.

[fandomfluffandfuck]

Concept: Steve is unfathomably horny for Bucky's metal arm but out of a mix of general-sexual-shyness/catholic-and-internalized-homophobia-fueled-shame/guilt-about-what-HYDRA-did-to-Bucky-without-Steve-ever-stopping-to-look-for-him, he can't admit it out loud.

Talking about things? Not your style, Rogers.

Bucky, of course, knows. This is Steve. He knows too much about Steve, always, even when he can hardly remember himself. Besides, Steve's a fucking idiot and a terrible liar--hiding in complete plain site. Every day... sometimes multiple times a day... sometimes every hour, Bucky easily sees how Steve's eyes track every slick movement and mechanical calibration hungrily. Subconsciously, Steve licks his stupidly pink lips. And if he's being especially weak and stupid and Bucky is extra smooth with his movements, he can get a ragged little exhale out of him.

The thing is, though, Bucky doesn't realize how deep Steve's hunger for his metal arm goes until he's gotten out of Steve a confession of how much he likes his hands, generally, and he has four flesh-and-blood fingers up Steve's ass. Yet, fuller than ever and Steve still asks for more, slurring, arching his back, and admitting, out of his goddamn mind, basically crying for it, that he wants the metal ones.

Up until then, Bucky's kept his metal fingers away from Steve's asshole. Tenderly, he starts. And. Bucky doesn't get fully how deep Steve's want goes until his loosened hole twitches around four metal fingers and how his pretty pink, soaked rim yields like hot butter to the thrust of his whole fucking hand. Bucky slips inside past the base of his hand before he realizes it. Steve's body devours his metal arm. He isn't just hungry for it--he's starved. He takes his whole fucking hand, just like that, up to his wrist.

Bucky, scraping his jaw off the floor and fighting to not rut himself against the back of Steve's thigh until he busts, is convinced Steve would take it up to the shoulder if Bucky let him 😮‍💨

[claitea]

some people are taking the fact that choosing "love for pokemon" as a topic in volo trainer's lodge interactions gets you the lowest points is a sign that volo actually hates his pokemon and is tricking them. but i think thats not the whole truth

first off, the whole thing with n. already talked abt it, n doesn't lie, n believes pokemon don't lie, i think you can trust the pokemon whisperer on this one

second, Rei is a topic that gets you the most points but volo hates that guy. points dont necessarily correlate to what the character likes, its what they find interesting. volo puts a lot of focus on gathering info and of course he's going to want to know more about one of his biggest enemies. this info is useful to him. he doesn't need to talk about loving pokemon, that's not relevant to his plans.

third, one of volo's friendship evos is Lucario. lucario can sense auras. it can definitely tell what volo's true intentions are, it Can't fall for fake affection. remember that volo is an untrusting person who thinks everyone should be used before they can use him, of course he can't say outright that he grew attached to what are meant to be his tools. he's in denial. think silver and cyrus with their friendship evos.

volo being reluctant to talk about love for pokemon when he clearly does makes him way more interesting. if volo didn't love his togepi truly, then he wouldn't need to have a photo of the both of them in jubilife village's photography studio, nor would he need to carry the little thing in the crook of his arm like a baby. he could just keep her in her poke ball. but he coddles her instead. pokemon are loyal, he probably doesn't need to go to those lengths to ensure she follows him but he does anyway.

[rrredgi]

Fenhawke doodle from magma I forgot to post

[peachphernalia]

mmm yes soulwhole

soulwhole :-]