#void shouting

[midnight-mourning]

Took Sun fnaf with me to present my thesis proposal (I passed btw)

now he lives in my phone case :)

[itsyasuds]

I got a referral to a rheumatologist. They asked why I stopped seeing my last rheumatologist, and I, without looking to see if, maybe, these were the same offices & doctor, told the truth.

"the last one was a cunt"

Anyway, now their office is giving me the run around.

[hedonists-den]

Of course I'm a slut for attention, why else would I be here?

[avictorypointe]

Not yucking anyone’s yums, but I think I’m going to engage less with humiliation content. Embarrassment is hot enough on its own.

[thebat-musicman]

Dick: Does anyone have any suggestions?

Jason: Why dont we shoot the Joker?

Dick: How that will help us in an alien invasion?

Jason: It would be really funny

Dick:

Dick: Works for me, add it to the list!

[mintharaschosen]

awake and scrolling when I should be sleeping and snoring

[bardofavon]

not to be controversial bc I know this is like…not in line with shifting opinions on fanfic comment culture but if there’s a glaring typo in my work I will NOT be offended by pointing it out. if ao3 fucks up the formatting…I will also not be offended by having this pointed out…

‘looking forward to the next update’ and ‘I hope you update soon!’ are different vibes than a demand, and should be read in good faith because a reader is finding their way to tell you how much they love it. I will not be mad at this.

‘I don’t usually like this ship but this fic made me feel something’ is also incredibly high praise. I’m not going to get mad at this.

even ‘I love this fic but I’m curious about why you made [x] choice’ is just another way a reader is engaging in and putting thought into your work.

I just feel like a lot of authors take any comment that’s not perfectly articulated glowing praise in the exact manner they’re hoping to receive it in bad faith.

fic engagement has been dropping across the board over the last several years, and yes it’s frustrating but it isn’t as though I can’t see how it happens. comment anxiety can be a real thing. the last thing anyone wants to do is offend an author they love, and that means sometimes people default to silence.

idk where I’m going with this I guess aside from saying unless a comment is outright attacking me I’m never going to get mad at it, and I think a lot of authors should feel the same way. ESPECIALLY TYPOS PLZ GOD POINT OUT MY TYPOS.

[grimzeyblogs]

hope every trans man with a name like Kai or Alex gets to beat the shit out of anyone who uses their name just to shit on trans people, you deserve it honestly

EDIT: If you rb this while posting about Harry Potter I'll kill you, idc if you "don't support jkr" get away from me, you're embarrassing

[midnight-mourning]

@ the mutuals can we get these together??? 🥹🥹🥹

pick ur bias and then we can all mix and match

also while i'm here @ping-ski pspspspsps more merch for your collection if you dont already have them

DUDE????

[midnight-mourning]

for the ask game!

🎭💕⏪(for confused spirit) and 🌻

hehe, thank you for the ask Bash ^^

🎭- ooo okay, one i like a lot is when people don't make eclipse a third guy but incorporate the concept into the two dca, it always is very interesting how each person does it because it's always a unique take!

for dislikes, I'm not usually a fan of the choice to make the dca brothers when they're in the same body or there's not a 'logical' reason for the choice, if that makes sense, like if it's an au with mers, aliens, royalty etc. I can see it/get behind it, but when it's specifically the robots/plex fic it just isn't my cup of tea

💕- oh several! i can't think of them all off the top of my head, but there's been very few aus I've come across that i don't like/don't interest me so assume that if someone has an au, I probably enjoy it ^^

Specifics however... @divinit3a's yetis and the horror boys come to mind, as well as @cozycitrus' cult au AND the cannibal one (which i don't think has a name yet but oughhhh it's peak) I love @luckyyyduckyyy's mer designs a LOTT, and @alynwrench & @nebula-remnants cowboys are also pretty cool, @vermeillll just started a pirate au that im frothing at the mouth over, and @monsteractiasluna's off boys have me in a chokehold (as always), those are just a few, all very very lovely hehe ^^

⏪- been thinking on it some more, would probably make arc 2 a lot worse, and by that i mean more intense with things, I think it's good, i definitely think it hurts, but I also think I could've been a lot meaner :) but! still have plenty of time to make up for it WHO SAID THAT

🌻- VANESSSAAAAAA godd her story is just, what she could have been, the entire concept behind her (the TAPES THE CUT VOICELINES OH MY GOD-) ahem, besides vanessa, i am a fan of Ballora's design, Chica's story in ruin made me so sad, ummm non-woman would be Glamrock Freddy i think he is very silly, there's probably others (i enjoy 99% of FNAF game characters) but these would be the top

Ask game here for those curious!

[itsyasuds]

I was removed from a friend group which had permanently altered who I am as a person and expanded my horizons.

So now I don't know who to tell excitedly when I, for example, watch an Argento film and have thoughts to share.

[midnight-mourning]

sighhhhhh

yeah.

runs away

One move left, Friend, better make it count~

I feel like they're trying to tell you something...

do people still play hangman anymore? I remember playing it all the time in grade school.

Idk if anyone has made this joke for them but it's been in my head for awhile and I needed a silly break from writing this sad first chapter.

[thevoidisshoutingback]

4 May 2024

tw suicidal ideation, tw suicide, tw self harm

It's honestly very jarring, the difference between how I feel now compared to earlier in the week. On Monday and Tuesday I felt as though I was drifting close to the edge - literally had the thought that this is the worst I've felt mentally since I was 19-20 and walked around with a suicide note in my wallet just in case.

I kept fixating on the Plan. Less so on furnishing the details, because even in that horrible state of mind I recognized that this is BAD place to go to mentally, but rather the fact that I have a rough plan at all. And isn't it fucked up that I've even considered how to die at all?

If I ever put it into action (and boy isn't that one hell of a thought), it will take 2.5 months before I can die. It's a long time, unnecessarily long, actually, but I can convince myself it's required out of 'obligation' (when in truth recovery me is scrambling at ways to extend the deadline should I ever reach that point).

Feels like there are two competing parts inside me. One that clamours for death, to destroy everything so I have a reason to kill myself, and one that is desperately trying to get out. A very unfunny variation of the two wolves meme.

It's the middle of the night right now, and my thoughts are darker. I keep wanting to cut, to just get that scissors from my table and scratch myself bloody. I miss it, as strange as it sounds. How the burn would feel, the sting of it in the shower, the annoying itch of healing cuts, how the scabs feel rough on the fingers. But then I think of how K looked when I confessed to him that time when I hurt myself by accident, and I refrain. I know he would want me to restrain myself for my own sake, but right now that's what's holding me back - the idea that he'd be sad if I harmed myself. And I really didn't like seeing him sad, even just in imagination (since we can no longer meet).

I wonder if the past week for me can be considered PMDD. The depression really escalated intensely, and on the first day of blood I immediately lightened up. But then this doesn't happen with every cycle, only if I was already experiencing low mood. So perhaps not. But I'll bring this up regardless during the assessment.

I actually can't wait to go to them. Hopefully I can get something good out of them.

I don't believe I want psychiatric intervention tbh, regardless of what K said. Having tk take them would be another routine to incorporate into my life, and the side effects are alarming. Not to mention how many seem to say that depression meds take off the lows but also the highs, leaving just a blunted middle. I can deal with the sadness, as horrible as it is to be crying spontaneously 5x at work for no reason. It's the apathy and emptiness that bothers me more. Sadness at least, is an active thing. I feel sad. It's painful, but at least I feel something, and that means I am alive. Anhedonia is truly a terrible thing. It takes out the joy and fulfillment from everything. There's no pay off, no reason to complete anything. There's nothing worth the effort. And so I start to think there is no reason to even try. And that's when my mind starts going to suicide.

Yeah, I think is what I struggle with most when it comes to depression, and what I want help with most. I'll wait for the assessments and see what they can give me. Otherwise I'll contact that counselling clinic on my own. Yeah, that's what I'll do. Plan A to C. I wonder if K would be proud of me?

I miss the comfort of him.

[thebat-musicman]

Gotham Gazette: Reporter Clark Kent spotted wearing t-shirt stating “I fucked him before he was a himbo”

Gotham Gazette a few days later: BREAKING NEWS: Red Hood has issued several death threats against Clark Kent

[wood-rot]

WHAT DO YOU MEAN THERE IS NO SMALL NICHE FANDOM FOR THE MOVIE I LIKE OR JUST WATCHED!?!?!?

[lurkingshan]

Adding the democratic process to the games this season was not exactly a subtle metaphor, but it was an effective one. So many of us have felt the brutality of trying to make democracy work under a capitalist system that encourages those who have to oppress the have nots, to view politics as a zero sum game, and to wield their votes as a weapon to hoard wealth and resources for themselves. I can’t say this was a pleasant watch, but it definitely felt honest.