#~bell rants

[jdopes-recorder]

I actually wanna kinda sorta post a recording but I don't think I should why would I why should I it's embarrassing why did I even think of it it's not like a lot of people would see it anyway though cuz I'm not interacting much recently...

[royalarchivist]

Pac: …I miss Morning Crew. Man, I really do.

Pac: If there's something I think about that's really cool, it's how Philza and Fit are Minecraft legends in other countries, you know? Fit is a legend in the United States because he's a pro-player from the craziest SMP in the world, and Philza is simply a Minecraft icon in Europe! And I got to meet them, I played with them, and I think it's really cool. I was lucky, there's no denying it.

[Later]

Pac: Guys, I'm still dumbfounded! I can't stop thinking about how… The British guy who's friends with my American boyfriend sent me a raid. You get how crazy that is? [Laughs] How crazy is that!

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Pac: Guys, this here is unbelievable. Man, this is unbelievable. [Looks at chat] I'm VIP! I'm VIP in his chat!!! I'm VIP in Felipe Minecraft's chat!

Pac: Guys, why are they in England?

Pac: [Reading chat] "Say hi" I'm low-profile. I'm a lurker! I'm just a lurker. I'm not going to send that– No! They're responding to chat, talking to the guys, I'm just going to observe. Fit's voice sounds different, huh?

Phil: [Reading Chat] "Pac is watching." Why are you fcking doxxing our friends?

Pac: HEY HEY HEY! What is this?! What- hey! [Covers his mouth] Man, why– [Laughs and covers his mouth] You guys told them I'm watching!

Pac: I'm not going to say anything except "Hi" [Laughs]

Pac: [Copying Fit] Calma, calma, calma!

Pac: [Laughs] They're talking about Ao3! Ah, I arrived at a good time, I always wanted to know Fit's opinion about this– [Laughs]

Pac: I'm going back, I'm leaving- I'm going to leave them be, but it's really cool seeing the two of them together, huh Chat? What a joy, it's crazy. Crazy, crazy, crazy. I wish I was there! [Laughs] I couldn't believe that F– Well, yeah. Wow, I was actually nervous guys. And I didn't know I was a VIP there! …I miss Morning Crew. Man, I really do.

Pac: If there's something I think about that's really cool, it's how Philza and Fit are Minecraft legends in other- in other countries, you know? Fit is a legend in the United States because he's a pro-player from the craziest SMP in the world, and Philza is simply a Minecraft icon in Europe! And I got to meet them, I played with them, and I think it's really cool. I feel really wild sometimes, because… It was really crazy, right? It's really cool. I was lucky, I was lucky. I was lucky, there's no denying it.

Pac: [Reading chat] "And you are [an icon] in Brazil" Ah, yeah. But– I don't know! It's just that I never had another perspective you know? I never got that other perspective, right? I don't know how to explain, I think you get it.

Pac: Guys, will Philza and Fit do another stream like this? Does Philza save his VODs? Just to know.

Pac: Guys, I'm still dumbfounded! I can't stop thinking about how… The British guy who's friends with my American boyfriend sent me a raid. You get how crazy that is? [Laughs] How crazy is that! [Laughs]

[creaturefeaturecommando]

It really bothers me because I thought that after Get Out came out it would let black people finally break out in horror and it did but every black horror movie after Get Out is a Get Out knockoff that always has to do racial horror and I’m actually fucking sick of it. Like whenever Jordan Peele releases a new horror movie and everyone wants it to be another Get Out that they get disappointed and don’t even give movies like Nope a chance. Let black people fight aliens, let them fight zombies, let them fight ghosts that aren’t racist white people trying to put them back into slavery or some shit, give us more black slashers or something. I don’t fucking know.

[krillbot]

"the shark does not bother itself with the krill"

Unless it's a basking shark

Or a mega mouth shark

Or a whale shark

Get your facts straight Ludinus

Actually while we're at it "I have no aspirations of leadership" motherfucker you're the leader of the Cerberus Assembly which at this point is controlling the ENTIRE Dwendalian Empire

Try saying things that are true idiot

[doeyedeer]

wdym gabin was pining for him but holding back and tobias takes until the last ep to figure it out but IMMEDIATELY kisses him abt it. IMMEDIATELY. onstage. in front of hundreds of people. i need to rant about that kiss at least once ok here

smth smth gabin is normally very loud about his feelings and expresses them very directly, whether verbally ('i want him. he's mine') or physically. but here he's like no, actually, i think this is special, this is a feeling i want to cradle close to my chest and keep safe. we don't know for sure when he rlly falls but according to gideon glick (ty gideon glick) gabin is actively pining for tobias by eps7-8. my HEART

gabin is all too aware of what other people think of him and cares a Lot about it. he's all about being seen, being liked, being loved, his skill and talent being noticed and appreciated. while tobias clearly also cares about others' opinions irt his work (see ep6, lol), in day to day life he does whatever the fuck he wants regardless of other peoples opinions. couldnt care less if people find him annoying/difficult/rude (king, wish i could be like that tbh)

the events of the show r canonically (ty gideon glick) the first time tobias has rlly Understood how his actions impact other peoples' feelings, starting with gabin confronting him over missing the photoshoot in ep4. w/ most people other than gabin he still doesnt care what other people think of him if it's non-choreography-related. so--

gabin doesnt trust himself to do smth right so he doesnt do it. tobias goes fuck it and goes for it before he loses his momentum* or his courage and also because he is blunt and straightforward and why not do it now? he knows gabin is probably down so he feels the desire to make out w him and just DOES it, who gives a fuck abt the circumstances. peak romance

you get it. gabin = bags clairo dress taylor swift, tobias = uhhh Not That. whatever the opposite of 'silence and patience, pining and anticipation'/'can you see me, i'm waiting for the right time' is. i'm probably overanalysing

*sidebar: autistic rep! common thing for people w/ autism: being so overwhelmed with emotion that you HAVE to do the thing RIGHT THAT SECOND

[entropyfox]

I’m not a Micah apologist, but…

I think, all concern aside, Micah is an incredibly interesting character, and I’m honestly disappointed that we didn’t get to learn more about what’s going on in his head.

He doesn’t really talk about himself, not beyond the obvious. The only reason we know of his family is because of the letter Amos sent him.

He’s afraid of being vulnerable, and talking about his past leaves him exactly that: vulnerable.

The less people know about who he is, what makes him who he is, and why he acts the way he does; the less people can hurt him for it.

He knows he’s disliked. He’s lonely. He usually doesn’t hang around the campfire while the others are awake. He’s elsewhere, at the outskirts. When there’s a party, he seems to wander even further away, as if he’s trying to resist the human instinct to be in the company of others.

“Well, I… I want a friend, Arthur. I want hope. I want tomorrow to mean more than today. I want this whole damn shitshow… to have some kind of meaning…”

He knew that everything they did only made their situation get worse.

I don’t think he was much of a rat before Guarma.

I think he was desperate for some kind of consistency. He tried to get along with Arthur early on in the game, but quickly realised that it was leading to nothing.

No one is pure evil, no one is born that way anyhow, but being raised by a hateful person is bound to shape you into someone with just the same hatred and rage.

This is obviously a generational issue, this Micah isn’t a first case, he’s the third of his kind, and I can well imagine that with every generation the expectations got higher and the acts more grotesque.

He’s been groomed no matter how you look at it. Some people manage to develop their own will and step out, like Amos did, and others stick around with what they know, like Micah did.

He doesn’t know how to put that gun aside, he never had to. He was never taught how to.

He sticks to what he knows.

And he doesn’t know love. He doesn’t know empathy and mercy.

He knows anger, he takes comfort in rage.

He knows violence, and taking revenge on every little thing that dared to hurt him.

We never quite find out what he wants vengeance for.

Does he suck? Yes. Am I excusing his behaviour? No.

Am I still obsessed with his personality and feel the need to dissect his brain to find out about every tiny thought and doubt that’s hiding away in there? Yes.

[befuddled-calico-whump]

anyone who calls service industry jobs unskilled labor has never watched a teenager wrangle a burrito the size of an infant into one square foot of aluminum foil

[eps1l0nx]

I probably didn't do Adler justice :( but I was so locked tf in when I drew this

I'll be returning later with another bountiful harvest (I mean I'll probably have drawn Bell 50 more times)

[liamthemailman]

Flowers from the cold war

and a Bell

Russell Adler as requested by @rekakamado and extra

[theegyal]

RANTING TIME

Now I think about it… Wunmi mainly played with the double and not actual MBJ (?) . I mean they surely cast her as a supportive character.

I just know they fuming she stole the whole show ! SHOUT OUT TO WUNMI & PERCY ❤️

DON’T LEMME CATCH U HAILEE…

[patopq]

everytime someone draws orym in a "human who is short"-way a part of me dies. no, actually. i just die

[creaturefeaturecommando]

I finally found out what Enver Gortash looks like. I finally know what he looks like. And I just have to say

WHAT THE FUCK ?!? YA’LL WERE BEGGING FOR THAT UGLY MIDDLE AGED RODRICK FROM DIARY OF A WIMPY KID TO HAVE A ROMANCE ?!?

Wyll doesn’t have a fixed romance but you want THAT to have a fucking romance ?!? Get the fuck out my face bruh

[royalarchivist]

[A sad violin song plays over an image of a sad hamster]

Pac: This doesn't have anything to do with me – I wear a blue sweatshirt, you're crazy, this mouse doesn't even have a sweatshirt, this hamster! [Reading chat] Am I a depressed hamster?

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Pac: Actually– that's fine! I embrace that idea – of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy? [He hits his desk, then starts counting off people on his fingers] Fit is gone, Richarlyson is gone, Ramon is gone, Bagi and Empanada who were always there when we were there are also gone, I haven't seen them! It's just me and Tubbo, and sometimes Philza shows up.

Pac: I lost Chume Labs, I lost the Favela, I lost Murder Mystery, I lost Ilha Chume Labs, it's crazy! Look at how much I've lost, and I've gained nothing! Of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy?! How am I supposed to be happy?!

Pac: [Reading chat] "You have us Pac," that's true, thank you. No, that's true, sorry.

* NOTE: Please note that this is an incomplete transcript, as I was primarily relying on Aypierre's translation mod at the time and if I am not confident of the translation, I do not include it. As always, please feel free to add on translations or message me corrections.

[isthatmyjacket-covenofchaossq]

Funny how whenever it comes to a wlw ship ppl always have a valid reason as to why we can't ship two women. Or a canon fact as to why we can't ship a certain ship. It never fails. 

"You can't ship swanqueen bc Regina is Emma's grandma (she is not) / they are canonically straight" 

"You can't ship bishova bc in the comics Yelena is aroace" 

"You can't ship supercorp bc Kara loves Mon-el / they are both straight" 

"You can't ship redbeauty bc belle and rumple are true love" 

"You can't ship wandanat bc Wanda and Natasha are straight and Wanda loves Vision / they are both straight" 

"You can't ship jemily bc JJ is married and straight" 

"you can't ship elmax because El loves Mike and Max loves Lucas / they are both straight"

"you can't ship ronance because Nancy loves Jonathan and is in a relationship with him and she's straight"

Honestly, the list is endless. 

It doesn't matter what we ship, it won't change your dear comic, or show, or movie canon. 

It's funny how their argument usually is that we shipping those ships - and many others - will erase their canon / representation or whatever, but they don't think twice before wanting to erase ours.

They have no right at all to tell us what we can or cannot ship. 

Being in fandom should be fun, something to connect with others who like the same thing as we, not a fucking war all the time about everything

Shipping swanqueen won't change the canon that Emma married Killian

Shipping redbeauty won't change the canon that belle stayed with rumple until the end

Shipping supercorp won't change the fact that Kara loves Mon-el

Shipping bishova won't change the fact that in comics Yelena is aroace

Shipping wandanat won't change the fact that Wanda loves Vision

Shipping jemily won't change the fact that JJ married Will and have 2 kids with him

There's no reason other than lesbophobia to attack every wlw ship so much all the time. It doesn't matter what your "excuse" is

[arthursfuckinghat]

There's thousands of details in rdr2 that I really love, and I say it all the time, but if I had to pick one as my favourite? It would be the campfire interactions.

From chapter one to even the epilogues, there's always something going on around a campfire.

It's always touched me in an emotional way, but the vulnerability, honesty and silliness that comes out of gang members during late night/early hour campfire conversations? It's truly a beautifully written and well executed feature that I spend a lot of time paying attention to.

The campfire is almost like the gang's communal safe space. They're free to talk, vent, sing or play instruments, and the others around will simply sit and listen or sing along. They bond over sharing these funny stories and tall tales, you have the opportunity to learn so much from the gang members by just listening around the campfire.

Lenny will talk about his father and their hardships, Hosea will talk about how much he misses Bessie or how special Dutch is to him, Reverend Swanson will be open about his addiction and the relationship he has with religion, Abigail will voice her frustrations about John, Bill will talk about how he got discharged from the army, John will talk about his worries regarding Dutch's leadership, Micah will talk about damnation and being prepared for hell, and Javier will be open about Mexico or his mother passing away and not being able to bury her.

There's plenty more, there's hundreds of different campfire interactions, but on a rare occasion - Arthur will talk. He'll sit down and begin apologising for how things have turned out, he'll admit how he's struggling to find a way forward for everyone and that he doesn't want to die but is willing to, then he'll ask for their forgiveness and excuse himself shortly after.

I find it hard to describe how despite gang members having differing options of each other, there's an unspoken mutual closeness that they share whilst talking around the fire. They'll jest and laugh and quip, but they'll also simply listen when they need to.

It's so wonderful.

[bellsblargbin]

PSA: DO NOT GO ON TWITTER

For two weeks or so I had gone back Twitter after the show ended to scout out fanartists and fics. At first it was great - pure bliss! An abundance of quality art, good takes, and fic! Truly the gluttony they spoke of in the Bible. But something happened and holy shit it’s gotten so so so hateful.

Like I was only posting supportive comments on art but there is just constant fighting. People fighting over fanart in the comments. Artists afraid to post. There’s misinformation. It’s more bad faith than good. Targeted harassment. Fights about characters like it’s a zero-sum game. And people posting the most nasty posts I’ve read in years. How the hell can anyone be so cruel about a show they say they love? Even communities who enjoy the same ship are ripping each other apart.

It’s like I’ve been brawl beaten for liking this show.

Then just two hours ago I saw a horrible comment on YouTube and it fucking broke my brain. Last straw to break the camel’s back. I don’t even want to see my OTP or blorbos. What made me so happy and confident two weeks ago makes me sad and upset. I trust my ability to understand the show but when there’s people screaming that everything meaningful is bad it’s ughhugggg

That website is so unhealthy, fuck the wider internet has gotten so unhealthy. Tried to find a discussion about one of my favorite lines of dialogue and it’s just bad.

I can’t believe I let it sap my mental health in such a short amount of time. fuck i have real responsibilities and problems, im too old for this. I avoided trouble like the plague but it’s inescapable. So….tired.