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Already loosing interest in my next relationship

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Ofc I saw the red flag, I just knew I had more

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The average woman is better than a good man

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My toxic trait is ruining things before they can mean something to me because the moment they do, I'm fucked.

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As a dismissive avoidant, I tend to prefer and thrive in physical intimacy because it's the only kind of intimacy I can tolerate. It's direct, uncomplicated, and doesn't demand vulnerability in the same way emotional closeness does.

Funny how emotional vulnerability makes me feel more exposed than being physically naked. Like, yes, I'll strip for you without flinching, but ask me to talk about what has hurt me and I'll run away.

So when someone asks if it ever gets lonely being this way, I never really know how to answer. If by "lonely" you mean lacking company, then no. My bed is always warm.

Bottom line: I'll choose friends with benefits over committed relationships any day. It's just easier that way: no strings, no expectations, no room for disappointment.

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Respectfully, people need to stop acting like they can fix me.

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When the adrenaline wears off and I realize I cant replace him

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I will not ache forever.

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Growing up, my body didn't belong to me so it was always under surveillance.

My mouth had to stay clean, my skirt below the knees. But no matter how obedient I was, when someone touched me, it was still my fault.

Because I was born a girl. And girls are born guilty.

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Nvm im okay now I dont gaf abt him 😝 bring on the next one!!

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Ok i lied I miss my man now :(

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nooo babe, he's just my emotional support friend who also happens to be in love with me

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only time I miss a man is when I swing and he ducks

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happy 40th birthday to the queen herself ♡

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Why are men so comfortable hitting you up after doing you dirtier than a gas station bathroom

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Most people don't actually want to know what's under the surface—they just want to feel special. They want to be the one I take the mask off for. Not out of care, but out of ego. Because being my exception validates something in them.

But let's be real: you wouldn't survive what's under the mask. You're not built for it.

You want vulnerability until it's ugly. Until it's cold, distant, blunt, or numb. Then suddenly I'm "too much" or "not enough."

So no, I'm not taking it off for you. Not because I'm guarded, but because I've learned most people don't actually want the truth. They want a version of me that makes them feel needed, heroic, or chosen. And I'm not here to feed your savior complex.

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