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We Broke Up...

Although all the shit that happened between me and my ex eventually drifted over and everything was sorted out, I was lied to yet again but as a friend. My ex told me that I was her first ever girlfriend however I later found out that it was not true as before me and her were together she was dating a girl on instagram, this was the same person she cheated on me and my best friend with. I was very angry as through all that time I dated her and was called ‘her first’ I truly believed it all, to find out that an important title was nothing and that it truly belonged to some one else is heartbreaking. However being a stupid little cunt I am, for some reason I forgave her and we became friends, that was until she made one of my best friends cry. I would consider myself a very loyal friend, if I see anyone hurting my friends then I will go after them. So when I say that she made one of my best friends cry I was ready to slap her, but someone stopped me.

I know this sounds crazy but stay with me,

The night before I was going to beat her ass, I had a dream. The dream was Bring Me The Horizon and My Chemical Romance at a park and I was with them, the ex turned up and started being a bitch to me with her new girlfriend. I was about to go about to her but Oli and Gerard, my two idols, grabbed my wrists and pulled me back. Oli said, “She is not worth it.” and Gerard said, “She wants attention.” But I was so set out for revenge that I broke free from them and stomped up to her, halfway there whilst she was laughing Oli and Gerard ran in front of me and hugged me. Gerard waved his hand in front of my eyes and said, “You need to start seeing sense Hollie, violence is not the answer.” I replied, “But there is no room for cheats in this world.” They stopped hugging me and held me by the shoulders at arms length, Oli said “I appreciate the reference, but Gerard is right. Violence won't solve anything, you shouldn’t waste your time on someone who doesn’t love you. I know about all the things she put you through, you snap chatted most of them to me.” then Gerard, “Karma will go after her soon Hollie, we promise. Just stay strong, focus on school and your friends not some low-life.”

They gave me and hug and then the dream ended...

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Tides Will Bring Me Back To You. (Matt Kean x Reader!) - 'Little Malia.' (on Wattpad) http://my.w.tt/UiNb/1NrIN00XLz (Y/N) was the merch girl for Bring Me The Horizon, she has been since Count Your Blessings. She was also what the band called, 'Little Malia' as she was Lee's little sister by 2 years. Whilst on tour, she came down with an illness. A serious illness. But she was also in love with Matt Kean... "I'm sorry to be the bringer of bad news Miss Malia, but it's serious." The doctor started to explain what she had been diagnosed with, but to her everything went silent as she held her older brother's hand with a tight grip. "Can it be treated?" Lee said with tears risking a fall, "Not past this stage, it can however be slowed down with the right equipment. Miss Malia? Are you alright?" Lee looked at you with an incredibly sad face, "I-I have what?" You asked...

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feelings.

Imagine being Daryl’s Wife and in the line up

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There is no way that I’m not reposting this, this is golden!

Preference: 11

When He Finds Out You’re Watching His Liveshow

Dan:

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Broken

The reason wasn’t because I was too clingy and such, but rather as I found out today. My girlfriend and my best friend went behind my back and started dating. It’s been a week since we have broke up and I’m honestly not feeling any better about anything, this has happened with every relationship I have been in. They always end up cheating on me and becoming happy, whilst I sit on my sofa with cookie dough ice cream and tears pooling around me. 

My advice to people: Don’t make plans with someone for a future together, every book has an ending, every film has to end, every relationship ends.

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True friends stab you in the front.

I have never taken the lyric ‘True friends stab you in the front’ by Bring Me The Horizon to heart, but me and my girlfriend broke up on my favourite holiday which is halloween. She broke up with me and explained that it’s because she can’t stand not knowing if I’m okay when I’m at home or not, but I have heard that excuse too many times in previous relationships to still believe it. I confronted her about my disbelief and she said that the real reason was because I was ‘too clingy’. That broke my heart. However we promised that we would be friends like we used to be before our relationship started, promises are easier said than kept, I was being accused of things that I had never done and would never do in a relationship example: I was accused of lying to her on multiple occasions, I was completely honest in the relationship so of course this made me a little angry. More recently she messaged me telling me that she saw what I did behind her back today, I admit I did put my middle finger up behind her because she said that I was shit everything when I said that I was very forgetful. She then goes off on one and asks why so i explained very calmly considering I was already in a shit mood, soon when I got home my anger and sadness got the best of me. Since the breakup I haven’t really had a good cry about it and get my emotions out, so when I got in I ran into my room, slammed the door and just cried. Every relationship I have had has always ended up with me crying in the corner of my room because I’m either not what they wanted, not perfect or too weird. I have never dumped someone, it was always them who broke up with me. True friends really do stab you in the front. My now ex-girlfriend has forgotten that it was me who stopped her from killing herself, it was me who stopped her from self-harming, it was me who gave her a shoulder to cry on. But I got nothing but being pushed away. When I used to self-harm I had no help at all from her, I told her and all I got was “Whatever” so instead I went to my loving and helpful mum. I’m still sad about it all, I lost the only person who could make me feel alive.

But now, I will think about her whenever I hear True Friends by BMTH.

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I need advice.

A lot of people know that I’m a very honest and open person, I also consider myself caring as whenever my friends or family need help in whatever way I always help them. Recently I have been in a relationship and I love her with all my heart, I care for her I boost her self-esteem but I can’t help but feel that she doesn’t love me back. I like to send her cute things to brighten up her day especially when she is at her parents house because I know that she doesn’t enjoy it, not long ago I sent her a lyric from a song that not many people may know. It was Roses Are Red (my love) By Bobby Vinton, it was released in 1962 and I quite enjoy the song. The lyric I sent her from the song was ‘Roses are red my love, violets are blue, sugar is sweet my love but not as sweet as you.’ I never got a thank you or anything from her. She has a lot of internet friends and I’m not going to take that away from her because they make her very happy, but when she says ‘My internet friends make me the happiest girl in the world!’ It makes me feel that I’m not making her happy, that I’m just a title in her life. Just ‘her girlfriend’. I’m always there when she needs a shoulder to cry on but when I need to talk to her about something thats been upsetting me, I pretty much get pushed away. I don’t know what to do anymore, I love her and if I let her go then I won't forgive myself. But if I stay with her then I would feel worse about myself... 

What should I do?

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Behind Blue Eyes (Charles Xavier x Reader) - Chapter Five: (on Wattpad) http://my.w.tt/UiNb/7FXE1BNoIx Charles Xavier and his new friend Erik Lehnsherr were looking for special people, with gifts much like them. Mutants. Charles had located one mutant in Germany called (Y/N) (L/N), stealing food and hiding away from people in fear... Charles helps her develop her mutation, gives her a home and a loving family. (Y/N) and Charles get a little too close, considering a war is upon them.

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Onision.

People may hate me for judge me for this, but it is my honest opinion which I’m allowed to have and share. I think that most people dislike @onision because he is honest and logical about stuff, for example: In one video he made there was a picture of someone with the words ‘not thin enough’ carved into the side of their stomach, in which he commented “If you have them words carved into you  perfectly and not having to lift any flabs or anything, then you’re probably thin enough.” I’m probably going to get a ton of hate for this too but never mind, @onision has said multiple times that if you are self-harming and posting pictures of you doing it as such then you’re most probably doing it for attention and 60% of the time, that’s sadly true. I once cut for an entire year and no one knew about it, i didn’t post nothing about it I never told my friends or rolled up my sleeves. But my friend told me to watch an Onision video and i watched one about self-harming, and he made some pretty valid points in which resulted in me to think twice about self-harming. I soon enough stopped and I've been clean for nearly an entire year, i understand that some people may have mental issues but if you don’t-then it’s logic. If you believe that you’re not beautiful then why self-mutliate your own body which will not improve your self-esteem and also make others feel bad for ‘not being there for you’. Also Onision has also said this “People don’t make you cut, you do that yourself.” 

Feel free to say your own opinions, do you like Onision? Do you Agree with me or have your own say?

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Christians say that only atheists go to hell and only christians go to heaven, hell for me would be literal heaven.