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✩ ALLITHROPY ✩

"Allithropy" is a label that can be used by creatures who identify as or with a nonhuman on a metaphorical level,

For example someone may identify as/with a wolf because wolves symbolize strength and dominance, and they feel like it fits them well, or they might see themselves as nonhuman metaphorically because of trauma, and they feel like that creature represents in some way what they went through or what they felt like during that trauma.

This term can coexist with other alterbeing labels

Flag symbolisms:

The yellow circle symbolizes the identity as a whole.

The "ocean wave" symbol in the middle symbolizes the deeper meaning of a metaphorical identity and how you need to look into it more to understand it.

The green stripe symbolizes the ground level of the identity, how it looks like on the outside, for example how a wolf may seem like just a wolf and "nothing more".

The blue stripes symbolize creatures that exist or have existed at some point.

The purple stripes symbolize creatures that are mythical or fictional.

"Alli" are the first letters of the greek word "αλληγορικός (alligorikós)" which mean metaphorical

I made this label based on my own and my boyfriend's experiences with alterhumanity, anyone can use it without credit, unless you're reposting it somewhere else!

my boyfriend: @batsskull

If you have any questions about it feel free to ask!

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I feel like my life ended when I found out I am transgender.

What do I mean by that? Let me explain.

So since I was kid my mom told me that all gender affirming care is bad (for cisgenders too). She told me the only beauty is natural. I hated my body and she forced me to love it. I always pretended everything was fine and I like how I look. I tried to ignore feeling that it is not real me for so long.

When I found out about transgender beings I haven't even considered posibility of me being one because of mom who always told me how bad gender affirming care is. She always speaked bad on that. If someone she doesn't know did this, she didn't cared as much because it doesn't affect her.

When I found out about alterhumans I knew I am one and it was easier to express since my mom doesn't really care about wearing tail or ears.

Problem stared when I met an agender being that helped me realise I am nonbinary. I just know I can't transition because of what my mother thinks so I kinda stay on border where a closet and floor is. I don't have courage to tell her to finally stop calling me deadname and using wrong pronouns. That thought makes me so sad, I stopped spending time with a lot of friends and familly just because I know they will never truly accept me.

I am scared for my future because of transphobic politicians and other beings.

That knowledge is just destroying me mentally and can't find joy in life, only fear.

In a few days I am going to school psychologist and talk with her. She probably will tell my mother so I just hope she won't overreact.

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New mask!

It is a hybrid of cat and bird (linktype and pawtype)

With long breaks took me around 4 months T^T

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don’t forget how much came before us. the therians who made our community what it is today. those who had no community, those who thought they were alone.

The first forums.

the first howl.

Even before that!

those myths of shapeshifters, of werewolves, of people who weren’t quite human. Those are our ancestors, so remember their stories too.

Think of the therians more recently.

The kids online, who, just by making masks and doing quads, and enduring the endless ocean of hate, have carved out a little respite, a little community for others like us. Don’t forget them. They’re our ancestors.

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This is my statement. Please leave alone that topic because it gets anoying and you can block me if you disagree. I just want to make it f- clear for last time. Yeah concept of that might be weird but so what? I just want to live in peace without anyone talking about this, especially beings outside of alterhuman spaces. Transspiecies and faunagenital/xenogenital beings will exist and might seek some gender and species afirming care.

I am myself faunagenital and I want to get top surgery and maybe tatoo nipples like cats but depends if rest of system agrees on this. We still try to figure out what we want. For sure we all want top surgery (ftnb). Also I want to go on hrt for gender and also spiecies. I have never wore packer myself before (but I want to try sew one from sock and see how we will feel with it, some alters are more masc-aligned) but I won't junge beings who do.

Hey btw idk if I’ve made this obvious enough but if you’re the kind of person who makes a big deal out of “therian packers” then you can get off my blog. Maybe I’ll post a deep dive into why they’re not a big deal later idk

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Friend drama.

Okay I have to yap about it a little because it is so crazy and I can't stop thinking about it.

TW: s3lf hārm, s3xual hara$$ment, s3xual abu$e, pr0stituti0n, rap3, alc0h0l, sm0king, transph0bia, hom0ph0bia, f3tishes, p0rn mentions, manipulation

Some things might be in wrong order and sorry for that but 2 years is a long time. All alters tried to collect every memories they had.

Lets start from beginning

2 years ago before joining high school I met my soon to be classmates. Some weren't the nicest but one girl was pretty nice. We talked a little and met alone again a few times before school. Everything seemed normal. Weird things started happening with her and it influenced a lot of my friends and other beings when we started school.

She told me she is omnisexual. I accepted this and I fell for first lie. After a few months I came out to her as omni and demiaroace (now it is different btw) and she started asking me weird s3xual questions. I brushed it off thinking it is just a joke.

She started manipulating and lying. I fell for all that and my mental health got worse. She manipulated me to become distant with other friends.

Around that time I also learned that she is reading boy love, sm0kes and dr!nks. I didn't really gaf because she did this when I wasn't around. I want to mention that I am scared of drvnk people because I used to live with grandfather and now with uncle who drink. And smell of cigarettes makes my breathing problems worse.

Later she started telling me about s3lf hārm. I tried to be supportive and help her. Everything seemed pretty normal.

Just before summer break I came out to her as nonbinary because she have trans friends but they ere binary. She started making fun of me and misgendering whenever she got chance. I tried to leave her but she manipulated me to stay.

In summer break we had sleepover at her place. Everything seemed normal until evening. She started asking me if I want to watch with her p0rn. i said no, because I experienced trauma, my friend forced me to watch p0rn with her and they harrased me. She knew about this but kept pressuring me. I got really stressed so I said I am too tired. She finally stopped so we went to sleep. She again manipulated me to stay.

Still in summer break, she lied to me that she is alterhuman too. I was happy that someone "relate" to me. She didn't keep lying about it long.

She also started to tell me she is attracted to her younger friend. He hated her, but had some benefits from friendship or she also manipulated him. Not sure which one.

On new school year everything got worse.

She did that younger friend a bl0wjob and he did something to her too. I think she manipulated him from what I have seen. She also was 15 and he 14. In my country it is ill3gal to involve in s3xual activity below age of 15. I regret not telling anyone but I was too scared. He hated to even hug her and was disgusted by her so it was weird. She always tried to be touchy with him. He hated that.

She started hārming herself in front of everyone and sending pictures/films to everyone. It triggered me multiple times into doing s3lf hārm myself. My friend got a lot of panic attacks and others hental health also got worse. We tried to help her but she denied any help.

She also started drinkink in school, I hated this, I was scared of her. I wanted to cry sometimes.

When I got in my first relationship. I told her about it and said I am so happy in t4t relationship with gay and asexual guy. She started f3tishising us (that is why bl and p0rn was bad) and asking s3xual questions. It made me really uncomfortable and she haven't stopped even when I asked her to.

After that younger friend realised how fcked up she is and he left her, she started dating some, usually older boys and she involved with them in various s3xual activities after knowing them less than week and they gave her money. If it was good she could get more than 100$. She had more than 10 boyfriends. The worst part? She told EVERYONE around her what she do.

She also started making a lot of problems in school and later tried to tell teachers me and my friends were involved. Dyeing hair in school? "We helped her". Skipping classes? "It is our responsibility to take care of her". And many more worse.

She also started spreading rumors with one homophobic girl that 2 girls in my friend group are lesbians and dating. They were so angry.

Finally after 2 fcking years we all realised how fake, manipulative and attention seeking she is. We had enough and we reported her to principal with all the evidence she sent us. Later my friend finally told that girl all things she did. She tried to play victim and managed to spread in school her version of what happened but she got reported earlier and already school and people outside of school are working so she can take responsibility for her actions.

I feel so much better after all that got reported. I am only scared of her boyfriend because he is ābvsiv3 to his girlfriends and one tried to rāp3. He might try to take revenge.

Now I am trying to slowly talk more to my friends but it is hard after what that girl did. I cut off all bad ones. If you are still here thank you for reading all that. Please be careful with who you are friends, they might seem okay but it could be just a good manipulation. If you have any tips how to recover from this I will be happy to hear it.

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Idk what title I can give

Btw I know I said I am back earlier but because of school I wasn't active again sorry T^T

Also sorry if post is messy it is kinda hard to talk about it rigt

For some time I have problem because one day I can literally feel so good, a lot of energy, want to live and another day is a total mess. I am still trying to work on myself and thought I can use this blog to help me collect memories (dissociation and amnesia), share some things from my life (alterhuman perspectives and not), yap a little about some less important things and have fun.

I finally stopped talking to my "friends", people who were hurting me the most. I have more time and feel kinda better.

I found more altertypes so maybe I will do some posts about them.

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Well hello. I wasn't posting anything here due to lack of motivation and mental health but I am back! Meow.

- Flinty/Hematite

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Olfactoranthrope flag and symbol

I am olfactoranthrope and I made symbol and flag because I have never seen them.

Definition:

Olfactoranthrope- individual who involuntary identify as specyfic type of smell. Can be considered more specyfic label of conceptkin. Term coined by: @scatclawz (sorry if you don't want to be tagged)

Symbol and flag made by me on 5 February 2025.

Meaning of flag:

Colors represent 10 basic odors: Fruity, sweet, fragrant, minty and pepermint, citrus, chemical, decayed, pungent, toasted and nutty, woody and resinous.

Link to olfactoranthrope coining post:

https://www.tumblr.com/scatclawz/753130089794994176/term-coining-olfactoranthrope?source=share

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Hey where did ya find the term allozooanthropology? No matter how much I look for it I can't find anything. I consider myself an allozooanthropologist too but I want to know where the term comes from.

Hi, sorry for late response I was quite busy.

It isn't very popular term and there are not many informations or only mentioned but here:

- alterhumanary (kinda wrong definition but it is common on that website)

- alterhuman wiki (I think the most informations you can find, WIP)

- blog

https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1302125

I hope this term will become more popular because it is exactly what I have been looking for for longer time instead of "study of alterhumanity/alterhuman identities".

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Heyyy I'm ur moot on tik tok, finally found ya here :3

Hi, I am happy you did ^^

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can i cancel my subscription to being human i don't like this anymore

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Drawing of my wereside

That is how I look like

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Delusion, Clinical Zoanthropy

I am a clinical zoanthrope. I have schizophrenia. If you have read my posts or blog before this should be no surprise as I am quite open about it. These labels that have been put on me affect nearly every aspect of my life, and greatly affect how I interact with the community. There is often a lot of discussion surrounding ideas of physical identity, delusion and if these things should be acceptable within the community or how to handle these topics.

Length: 3676 words

TW: delusions, reality checking, mentions of medical abuse

The year before last, I had spent quite a bit of time working with another academic to construct a historical materialist analysis of therianthropy. Historical materialism for people who are not familiar is a method of analysing history through the lens of production and class society. In particular, given the apparent wealth of historical therianthropy among “primitive” society, and the narrow niche of modern therianthropy, as well as my own treatment at the hands of the medical system, I wished to understand the origins of the oppression of therianthropic identity. I have to date not completed the project for a number of reasons - limited available literature regarding the transition from pre-class society to slave society particularly regarding religious and spiritual beliefs, personal health and time, and forcing myself to create a complex system of double bookkeeping and analysing my experiences through a materialist lens essentially constantly and forcibly reality checking myself constantly was very taxing.

Although I did not get to the state to write and publish the paper, I did learn a fair bit, and I think the most important concept within this discussion is the concept of delusion and how we define it. There is a common vulgar definition of delusion as believing anything that is not real or not backed by scientific consensus. But then there are many things people believe which is not backed by scientific consensus. While certainly there are people who would say that anyone who believes in ghosts or the Christian God are delusional, nearly half of the people in my country believe in God, however we lack any materialist evidence at this point for such a thing. The state of being identified by others as delusional comes with some pretty serious consequences, it should be noted though that these consequences are not applied to people who believe in God. Similarly, there are times when scientific consensus is simply wrong. Is the man who rejects the inherent inferiority of the [Sub-saharan Afrikan] race because of their skull shape and “thick skin” delusional? We today would collectively say no. For a man in the early 19th century, this would have been scientific consensus even if now we should find such a thought abhorrent. Was he then delusional? (Though some people did try to justify slaves escaping as a mental health condition Drapetomania, and historical terms like madness are often connected to modern terms like delusion and psychosis). I think often modern humans can create an almost religion out of science and progress and belief in their own rationalism - that not only is there absolute objective truth, but they can and do know it all in this particular moment, and that the society they exist within does not effect an impact on their view.

It is important to understand that delusion has a fairly specific definition and caveat when talking in a medical definition. That important caveat is that the belief conflicts, or is not standard, within their culture or subculture. Not only that, the belief must be very fixed and firmly set which does not respond/change to the presence of outside evidence. This cultural context is an important factor in the diagnostic criteria for delusions, as well as dissociative disorders like OSDD and DID (it may well be important for other conditions diagnostic criteria as well though I lack experience to speak on that topic).

Delusions -are- very much socially defined. I make the joke often that a rich man hears the voice of God he runs for office, I hear the voice of a spirit and need to be on antipsychotics. There are a number of examples namely in SEA where the experience of transforming into another animal would be considered entirely within the range of normal possibility (though notably with tigers primarily). There are also cultures and practices in which physical transformation is not considered delusion but a normal part of ritual notably among the Xan peoples. Among some Siberian cultures as part of hunting some will take essentially the mind of a wolf. In South Asia there are also recorded practices in which a person’s soul is bonded to and moved to an animal’s body in the night. Most people those reading this might encounter day to day would think these are surely delusions, but for those people, it is just a normal part of life and culture.

Most people here would collectively agree that therianthropy is not a delusion, however from outside the community many easily could argue it. You -are- human, you can look at your body and it and see that it -is- human. If you argue for past lives, there exists no evidence supporting that and no evidence supporting the existence of spirit or plausible explanation beyond hallucination despite many attempts to measure their existence. Nor do you have the instincts of that animal because you are clearly a human, and any "instincts" you might have are phantoms of the mind or attaching to a certain animal as a way to manage your life. However neither of these explanations would be acceptable nor would they convince you that you are wholly and entirely human.

Similarly with transgender identity, people here would collectively agree that is not a delusion. But 60 years ago? Or among transphobes? You are experiencing a delusion. You are obviously a wo/man, and no amount of hormones, [presentation], or [surgery] will change that. We would all collectively say fuck that shit, but you know who agrees under certain circumstances? WPATH in their Standards of Care directly notes among certain conditions of transgender identity as delusion (or at least in their old SOC before informed consent became common). It is common for people with schizo-spectrum disorders and higher level structural dissociative disorders to be denied care, or to face significant pushback. But this can also be true for all sorts of other “less serious” conditions such as austime, adhd, depression etc. This is something I have faced, and who knows how many others have faced it as well.

But what a delusion is very much defined by perspective and culture. It is easy when sitting on the "non-delusional" side of a cultural belief, to believe the order of things is logical. However, when I must construct materialist explanations of experiences, a task for which I am forced as part of double bookkeeping, the differences between my "delusional" experiences, and others "nondelusional" experiences especially in regards to therianthropy is one of degree, not of kind. Do not make the mistake to think that in other scenarios, other cultures, your experiences may be seen as delusions, and in other places, mine as natural and grounded in reality.

My experience as a clinical zoanthrope has left me often feeling quite divorced from the community, that I am separate, unwelcome, or an interloper in what is supposed to be my own community. I have been in the community for a while, but only at certain points felt comfortable to really call myself therian, a feeling which is again waning. There is a strong push constantly against physical identity. Even the most (in)famous phrase in wider culture about therians is the “on all levels except physical I am a wolf”. However this pushback against physical identities, especially from the concerns over P-shifter cults and abuses, created an environment that for me to be tolerated, I would have to constantly “show insight” or really reality check myself, and ensure all the others there knew that I knew my experience was not real and was not like their experiences were (that theirs were real and different). I still often have to do the dance describing my experiences, and even in the terms I use for myself as a clinical zoanthrope is indirectly that same dance.

The therian community often prides itself on how accepting it is. Though to be honest, I really have to question if this is the case. I have always felt unwelcome by the broader community. But so have very many others. It always strikes me that whenever I really share my experiences, how many others really relate to that feeling of not feeling wholly secure or belonging within the community. My orca friend, Ike, has talked quite a lot how they simply did not join the community for so long for feeling unwelcome. Sharing my experiences on a discord server a few weeks ago I learned another member was also a zoanthrope but had never shared it for fear of ostracization. A number of others expressed sentiments of feeling not total included, some for shift strengths, some for things like sexuality, theriomythics often get excluded, etc. Heck, by some accounts even the transition to the term Therian away from Were was an effort to include more people besides just shapeshifters.

Really when you think about it, it is not surprising so many people feel excluded in various ways. Therians have all these lines that you have to sit inside of and not cross to be acceptable to the community. But when you try to actually measure those lines many are not only extremely blurry, but vary person to person. Indeed my own experience is that there are people that do accept me, even if the wider community does not, and that is really the only reason I stayed.

The community has historically for instance a pretty hard stance on delusion and hallucination. The question though is, when does a shift move from being a socially acceptable phantom shift, to an unacceptable hallucination. For me in particular, my sensation of shift goes through a fairly long process of getting more and more intense, but it is also really a quite smooth process. It is like following a colour line, when does ‘blue’ truly begin? The first sensation is often a slight tickling, and very light phantom touch that you can sort of see through the feeling on your body. Beyond that the sensation gets more intense and becomes bothered from having things push against or intersect it. Further it begins to have not only form but colour and texture, but still if I look at the limb I cannot see it, I still see a human limb, though I do not expect it. Further the visual appearance comes in more and more until eventually my human parts are gone, transformed into animal parts I can see and I can touch. When we write it out like this it is pretty separately defined, but in the process this occurs for me, it is very smooth.

After enough quantitative change, there is a qualitative change, but where and when that occurs is hard to say. I think the first two experiences are very common among therians. I think the third experience is also fairly common but that starts to get more and more into the blurry lines, and if you cannot see where that line is you are likely to downplay your own experiences for fear if you say too much, you will be excised or ostracised from the community. But this fear also has the doubly cruel aspect that you can never really know where that line is because many people downplay their experiences to make them palatable, and so though many others might share in these experiences, people simply do not speak of them because they only see either extreme being shared, the particularly minor shifts being accepted, or the extreme shifts being sorted into delusions. I think it creates a false binary from a spectrum of experiences.

So many of these blurry lines exist though. What age can you be taken seriously? What platform do you use? How many kintypes is too many? Theriotypes being too common? Theriotypes being too rare? Are paleotherians acceptable? Are theriomythics acceptable? Can a dragon be a therian? Can an otherlinker or copinglinker have their identity so long it becomes therian? Are beastly animals from fictional settings acceptable or should they be with fictionkind? What sort of sexual and romantic expression is allowable? Is transspecies an acceptable identity? Some of these are blurry, some of them are clear, but they all wiggle around in different ways of some people will find them acceptable and some not. This leads to people self-censoring to the safe answers that they know are acceptable and prevents them really exploring their own identities, but also these questions within the community as it learns and grows and becomes more inclusive. In a certain irony, therianthropes as a community, are actually quite demanding in their conformity while preaching of their acceptance.

There has been a significant push in recent years to give greater levels of inclusion to therians with both delusional identities and physical identities. People are generally more accepting of zoanthropes and at points I have felt comfortable even to call myself therian and not just a member of the community. But there are also a number of additional terms, namely endel and holothere, which cover these experiences. However, something I note often when people talk why I as a clinical zoanthrope can be acceptable, while P-shifters and at times holotheres cannot, still comes down to that I acknowledge my experience as delusion. When I read the experiences of at least some p-shifters and holotheres, often the difference really is not so great, I often see their experiences mimicking or mirroring my own. I do use the word clinical zoanthropy, which on some level does indicate an understanding I know that at least others see my experiences as not real. This is a pretty common feeling among zoanthropes, we use this word, we know the humans think our experiences are not real, but they are incredibly real to us.

The question then is what should be done with us? There is a lot of comment that allowing us in the community to share our experiences or not reality checking people is encouraging delusion. People also say that delusions are harmful and that we should seek medical help. There are quite a few people who even wish to excise or isolate those who are anti-psychiatry and anti-recovery from the community.

If I am forced to analyse my experiences through a materialist and distant lens, it is quite clear my experiences are heavily rooted in delusion. I am a scientist, and there is no means under current knowledge to explain what I experience except hallucination - still I believe it fully. My knowing this is the only logical explanation does not lead me to believe it, to truly believe it inside. I mentioned before I had to give up on projects I did really enjoy because forcing myself to continuously deny my experiences and continuously reality check myself, brought to me very much distress. There are times I have wanted to be reality checked, but for vast part that is the remainder it is really distressing. It is distressing to be told a core part of your identity is not real, to be told the you that exists isn’t the real you, and sometimes see people mourning the “sane you”. Individuals in the community are not going to solve my “delusion” by reality checking myself or others.

Nor will them blocking me from the community or ensuring I do the dance for them encourage my “delusions” away. Delusions are heavily fixed experiences, and though you can encourage them in certain ways (think the example of people making “in your walls” jokes at schizophrenics), us talking about and sharing our experiences with each other and in our own community helps us feel understood and a sense of belonging. There are so few of us to start with, and the community closest to us either often disallows us, or makes us sit at the edge never really able to join. All banning us does is further isolate us, and for many delusions reinforces that we will never be acceptable or tolerable to others and it is best we are alone so we don’t hurt others with our presence.

I cannot speak on every person’s delusions, but I can speak on my own. For the question of if delusions are harmful, I think it often asks the wrong question. Who is it harmful to? Under what framework? Who thinks it is harmful? What does the patient want? I think one could say that my delusions of turning into a whale do harm me. I have trouble to interact with humans, I cannot work a full time job, I struggle in relationships, many nights I lay on the couch stuck for hours simply unable to move. These are all pretty negative things no? But it fails to ask why are these things harmful? A doctor looks through a very human framework and sees that I cannot do the human things and sees that I must have a poor quality of life and these delusions need to be addressed. But I am a whale and it is a core part of me, these things can be distressing, but whales cannot interact with humans the same way two humans would, work a full time job, have relationships with humans, and if you stuck them on a couch they would also not be able to move. This all is distressing and perhaps harmful, but then what other option is there? What the humans offer to me as solution is far worse.

I am anti-recovery, at least for myself. I think it is important to ask what does recovery look like? For me recovery would be to return to the water where I belong. But the humans would certainly say otherwise. For them recovery would look like fitting into and functioning within human society - having a job, a house, a car, a husband, kids, going on holiday, etc. I am not a human and I do not wish to be a human and live among them. However what is worse is how the humans would go about fixing that. I have been locked in hospitals, I have been strapped down, I have been sedated, I have been put on horrible meds that destroyed things I cared about and have often left me a shell of a person (there is a reason they were marketed as a chemical lobotomy). Some things I have gotten better in over time, and I can hold a job for the moment, even quite technical and difficult jobs.

However, the damage done to me from the humans was severe. Although I can talk about being a whale as delusion, the why is really far more impactful and distressing in my life. I was taken from the water, turned human, and am a useful thing for the humans. This understanding of myself as merely a tool and something the humans can do whatever they want with me is the real distressing aspect of my life. For me, the ‘help’ I received at the hospital only strengthened and set this delusion in so much firmer. I can look back at certain experiences, I can see the humans don’t have the technology to do what they did to me, but then I also have those years in the hospital, those years where everything was very apparent and clear and something that others can confirm and it seems to only further make plausible the experiences of the past, and those in the present the fear for what the humans will do to me. I know that I am deteriorating, I am struggling more and more, but nothing the humans offer me will make things better, they will only hurt me more, and if I ask for help, and reject it, they will only see it as proof I need the help more and force it onto me, which will only further reinforce that delusion.

If someone wishes to see a doctor and talk about therian things, I do often warn them of caution for what happened to myself and I do not want others hurt that way. I also urge them to think about what they want as the outcome from that discussion or what they hope will happen. A lot of mentally ill people have been hurt by doctors who thought they knew best, and once something is said, it cannot be undone. However, in the end they are free to decide what they will, and are free to navigate the medical system if they think it will benefit them.

For myself, I struggle to believe that doctors would really help me and instead work to help myself and my cetacean friends so that maybe someday we could swim again and swim forever. That we can fix ourselves and heal. That in time the deep scars across our bodies might start to fade and look like the scars of other captive cetaceans. That instead of surviving merely trying to please the humans to not be hurt, that we might actually -live- and have the life we were denied.

We are still people with agency, agency to choose our own path, to choose what brings us joy, to decide what we want from life, and from our healthcare. Or at least we should be granted that agency. We should not be excluded from the community or forced to dance around our experiences as not real for the comfort of others who happen to lie on the other side of the sane-delusional line, afterall the positioning of that line is very arbitrary and could easily swing to find yourself on my side of that line.

~ Kala

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The nonhuman urge to get these nails

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it’s “everyone deserves love and respect” and “be yourself!!” until the person standing in front of you feels comfortable enough to look you dead in the eyes and tell you they aren’t human

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Conversation from week ago

X: theriantrophy is an involuntary identity as animal on non-physical level.

Me: therianthropy can be physical

X: NO! It can't be! Therians don't think they are animals!

Me: you know that identifying as means that you think that in some way you are animal? And not every physical therian experience delusions of turning into animal and even if they do, you are ableist by excluding them or even häting/härrässing. I simply see myself as cat, so I am cat and I don't like being percieved as human, I would prefer to be seen as cat. I am not hurting anyone by my identity.

Oh and I forgot to mention. Physical therians were always in community, other therians watered down definition to be accepted by haters (it won't work)

X: *no response*

Can we normalise not ghosting anyone after you don't have any arguments left? Please, it is anoying. It happened to me many times.