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Interested in the XL, thank you!

Hi guys! In trying to turn my utter disappointment into something positive, I’m giving away these new compression shirts because they just plain won’t fit…

The brown shirt is a 2XL and the blue one is a XL. The shirt itself fits just fine, it’s the binding part that gives me problems. As you can see in the first image, the binding clasps at the side so you can choose your tightness like with a bra, on the other side there are three elastic straps that do the stretching. The black material for the binding is not stretchy so don’t don’t be surprised when it doesn’t move like an Underworks. I have D cups and am heavy set, I figured if I could squeeze into a large top from Underworks, I could fit into an XL or 2XL for this model… I was wrong. My chest is WAY too big.

I recommend trying for this if you have a C cup at the most, you’ll have better luck. 

This is where I got them from: http://www.ebay.com/itm/SHO-Les-Lesbian-Tomboy-Chest-Binder-Undershirt-Slim-Fit-Vest-Tops-XS-XXL-J0028-/251245214760?pt=US_Corsets_Bustiers&var=&hash=item3a7f61bc28

Rules:

You don’t have to be following me.

You have to be willing to lend me your address for shipping.

I will only be shipping inside the U.S., I’m sorry! Money is very tight right now!

Only reblogs count!!

Reblog as much as you want, but try not to spam your followers.

WHEN YOU REBLOG, ADD WHICH SIZE YOU NEED IN THE COMMENT, NOT THE TAG.

Please refrain from applying to this for cosplay reasons, I want to help other trans brothers out who can’t afford a binder. 

The drawing will be completely random and there will be one for each size. The deadline is going to be October 4th. I will message whoever wins to verify the size and address to ship to. 

Message me if you have anymore questions! Good luck!

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Yes, I’m doing the Binder Giveaway like i promised! I’ve been getting a lot of help from the community lately and one of them asked me that, once i was able to, to pass on the favor! 

I’m giving away one of these: http://www.amazon.com/Lesbian-Tomboy-Chest-Binder-Undershirt/dp/B00ENZ63LS/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1379179684&sr=8-1&keywords=chest+binder in any size and color you want sent directly to you! There are two of the colors in the picture above ^^^^

Rules:

1. Likes and reblogs both count!

2. You don’t have to follow me (although i run a genderqueer/genderfluid/trans* blog so it may be worth checking out ;))

3. I will be using http://www.random.org/ to chose the winner

4. Please, no cosplayers. I would really like this to go to someone who really needs this whether they be trans*, genderfluid, or any other person whose having trouble with their gender or the gender binary

5. The giveaway will end October 1st! So about 2 weeks from now :)

Goodluck!

PS. If your reblogging this for your followers just say so in the tags :)

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So hey! I'm bad at making posts here!

Basically I've seen a therapist for the first time. I've made lots of phone calls regarding blood work I need to get done and written down the answers I got. I am going to try VERY HARD not to miss the trans meeting at The Center this week.

The best news so far: I don't have to drop my birth control pills until I'm starting injections. This is a huge deal for me because the sole reason I take them is to keep from becoming a paranoid depressed angry mess with massive pain and uncontrollable bleeding.

I am also still waiting for news on a possible job. I was made an offer but it is not enough to afford to live off of and so I am trying to negotiate a few extra thousand a year to keep a roof over my head. In other words, everything is in a bit of a limbo right now.

I'm considering rooming with someone but I still would prefer to live alone. My window for tolerating living conditions can be a little small. Here's the thing - I can very easily live for limited amounts of time with people, I'm laid back and as long as the people I'm with are not repulsively dirty, stealing my food, or insanely obnoxious then I'm okay. But when it comes to something with more permanence, I have to be very close with the person and I need my own room with my own space.

I've noticed that I can be open and trusting with people but because my mind is still convinced that permanent partnership does not exist I'm not all that willing to put all my eggs in one basket, so to speak. I like being alone, I want to be able to support myself 100% without having to depend on another person to foot part of the bill. It makes me nervous. I love having company for a night or a week or hell a month if you want to and you're cool, but there's still that nagging fear in the back of my head that having a roommate is a bad idea. It makes living situations more affordable yes, but that person could decide they need to move at any point and then either you also need to move or you need to find a new roommate to help counter the expenses you can't afford by yourself. This happens a lot and it could be me who has to abandon a roommate, maybe in order to take a new job, and I don't want to leave someone hanging either.

Money. If only 90% of us didn't have to struggle so hard to make enough to survive, hahah.

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You don’t need to bash skinny people to say that bigger people are beautiful.

You don’t need to bash men to promote women’s rights. You don’t need to bash white people to promote racial equality. You don’t need to bash a certain genre of music to promote another. You don’t need to bash straight people to promote gay rights.

You don’t need to bash anyone to advocate your opinion.

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Definitely understand. I've tried to not let it bother me but it leaves me thinking for hours - "what did I do that made me look like a girl?" - "is it my body, my face, the way I talk or walk?" I feel like garbage for a long while even though it should be a minor thing. Very frustrating.

When someone misgenders me it sometimes catches me off guard. Like a swift punch to the chest. The wind gone from my lungs. And already know I shouldn’t really get mad. Most likely this person had no idea their casual remark would have such power. But that logic- still doesn’t stop me from feeling entirely deflated. 

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Sometimes I find it amazing how different people paint men from women. Are there discrepancies from time to time? Sure. But it's funny how a lot of people have come to understand that sexuality and other factors are not black and white, that they are a spectrum, yet gender is still one or the other, and there are specific rules to each.

I have guy friends, girl friends, and friends who fall somewhere in between or don't like being on the board at all. In the end I think the majority of humans have the same basic needs and desires and it's detrimental to always divide them into two sides. They start this with kids in kindergarten and elementary school - why?

The guy I'm living with is always putting himself down for failing at being a guy. He's a cis-dude, he happens to like cute character designs like Pokemon and Sanrio, and really likes to cuddle. He's not crazy about sports and sex.

Being a guy isn't defined by those things. I think most people in general like soft fuzzy things, they're just pleasant to anybody. We all can be drawn to things that make us feel good.

Speaking of cuddling, it worries me how much people deprive themselves of human contact. It seems odd that animals like dogs, cats, ferrets, rats, and a plethora of social creatures will gladly climb all over each other, cuddle, and otherwise express intimacy but if two friends walking together so much as brush arms it's like OOPS SORRY SORRY.

Touch is -okay-. It does not have to signify romance or sex (not that those things are bad, just that touch can exist beyond that realm). Growing numbers of people PAY therapists in massage clinics just to touch them. I used to work at one and I support therapy, but I've seen people cry because they were so starved for affection. Sometimes they have aches and pains they need to have worked on but other times they just want someone to give them a warm back rub and to show they care. It's great to get therapy when it's needed but also incredibly sad to think that there are people who need to pay a professional to receive basic human comfort - something we should all be able to have.

I see people ridicule the idea of platonic cuddle parties, a new creation that's starting to spread nation-wide. They laugh and say it's a bunch of perverts who try to pretend they are asexual. You don't have to be asexual to want to cuddle, you aren't a pervert for wishing somebody would hold you when you are lonely or hurt. You're human, and if the only way you can read human contact is in a sexual way, then I think there may be something wrong there.

I grew up with very little human contact. I loved animals, because dogs and cats weren't shy about giving you all the hugs and cuddling you needed. Humans on the other hand have this aversion to it. I had the same aversion with people for a long time, yet every once in a while I'd be sitting by a friend on a couch and get this almost uncontrollable urge to snuggle them or be closer to them. But I shut it down, I told myself they'd think it was weird (or gay in some cases). I wonder though - how many times was that person feeling the same thing, maybe also wanting that contact but shutting it down because they were afraid it'd be weird?

It's not weird. It takes time to warm up to it if you're not used to it but hell if I'm gonna turn down a cuddle session when I'm cold and sleepy and want to be close to someone. And the gender makes no difference.

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tassiekitty said: That’s awful and not supportive at all. That’s just tolerating. Those people can go bite a cow. You do what makes you comfortable.

I mean they're overall really cool people, and we get along in other aspects, though it'd be nice if they could be a little more understanding about this, hahah. Thanks dude, will definitely be doing what I have to do.

meowmageddon said: That’s terrible that their acceptance comes with those boundaries. Sounds like your new places is perfect, thankfully. Ball pits, turtles…sounds like a BLAST. XD

Fortunately we have plenty in common, just not related to my rights as a human being I guess, lol. But yeah it's awesome here, I really hope we can somehow work something out someday because it would be THE BEST BACHELOR PAD EVER. We'd somehow have to get both our giant plushie collections in there. YOU ARE INVITED IF WE DO IT.

therapsid said: That’s interesting that you experienced people suddenly having a problem with your ID when you said you wanted to go on T—usually it’s the opposite, that people who don’t wish to do HRT and etc. don’t have their IDs respected.

I think it's mostly that they're cis folks who don't understand that it's more than being a tomboy who likes to be called by a different name. Some of them still call me "miss" or "girl" even when I've repeatedly corrected them. But yeah, I don't much care for it when people refuse to respect someone's preference based only on the fact that they have not or don't plan to have a certain operation or treatment. It's just not for everybody! (I can't really grasp not wanting HRT, but I can respect that some make that choice, and there can be a LOT of reasons.)

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I've noticed that a lot of my friends supported my male identity until I started pushing to get on testosterone treatment.

All of a sudden, a good handful of them are telling me that "this isn't the answer" or that I'm going to regret "mutilating" my body. I keep getting told that I need to learn to love my body as it is, or that it's okay to be a girl with a boyish personality.

I've endlessly emphasized that this is not a matter of liking "boy things" - I've been that way since my toddler days, and I like my fair share of colorful cute "girly" things too, which doesn't embarrass me in the least. But dysphoria isn't something that's easily explained to people who haven't experienced it. My body has been "mutilating" my ability to function from a very young age, and it's only become more problematic over time. The fact that there are treatments which can provide some relief and help me to feel more comfortable in my own skin and around other people is amazing. I am aware it won't be an end-all cure by any means but it's the best that can be done with the medical technology that's currently present and that I can (hopefully) afford.

I'm also growing a little weary of being referred to as "the transvestite". I realize this is more ignorance than anything but I've corrected it many times now.

On the reverse end, those who've been supportive don't know how much they do. I can't thank them enough. My local friend in Orlando who puts up with enough of my venting about this kind of thing (you know who you are) has been there for me since I came out and has offered to be there for me if and when I ever afford top surgery and need help recovering. She also knows how to drag me away from work to make sure I get a healthy breather from time to time.

The friend I'm currently living with is awesome, encouraging, and beyond accepting, more than I could have ever asked for. And he is a cis-guy, identifies as straight (a bit along the asexual spectrum though, and not into the dating idea), and is a Christian. All the more reason not to judge someone based on basic traits - we've been talking about the possibilities of moving in together full-time if we find work close enough to do it.

And we are gonna have a ball pit and trampoline in the house. And he already has this giant inflatable turtle that's hilariously awesome. It's 8 feet long and we blew it up last night and ROLLED ON IT. With minimal injuries but yes.

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Set up for my first therapy appointment on September 9th! I can't thank you enough, Brandon - and to everybody else who gave advice as well. I'm excited and terrified hahah.

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I'm still pre-everything as of now, though I've been living as stealthily male as I can over the past year to two years.

One thing I've noticed is that men almost 100% of the time identify me correctly as male. Women, on the other hand, are about 50/50. Anybody else had experiences in which one gender seems to identify them differently than another?

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If you don't mind me asking, where in Arizona were you?

Hi! Used to live in Mesa, outside of Phoenix. Did not feel safe there and had a lot of bad experiences. I know Florida may not be a load better but it got me back in my element (wet weather and lots of beaches) and I have a second family here. :)

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Ah man thanks! I plan to go over to the Center for a meeting this week if I can. I didn't know they had services that could get you a T letter, I will have to look into that!

I moved to Orlando to escape Arizona, and I am currently homeless and jobless. I’m working on both right now but want to get on T as soon as possible. I’ve researched the possible costs and with the freelance work I do on the side, I can likely afford the shots even without full time work, and it…

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Starting up a transblog again. FTM, 26 years old, living in Orlando, FL. Hoping to get on T soon.