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i wonder which physical activity i must do to set myself up straight everyday.

a hundred suicides a day?

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funny how i've become so numb of the endless losses that i endure in life, i don't even expect wins like i usually craved and worked hard for.

or maybe i'm just too ungrateful in life for even looking at the most obvious wins i have.

it's like, i work just to fail, and recognize that me winning in life is just an inconceivable thought from the universe.

and they call me a demanding sack of sh-

i wonder when was the first time everything just started to lean to the left field

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i don't usually drink.

but i'd drink scary amounts of energy drinks, just to remember what it felt like when i decided to stay.

i never planned to leave.

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i hate to admit it.

despite all of the thoughts where i know how to rise back up, then i wouldn't do it. leads me to believe that i have remained to be the smartest loser in the room for quite a while back.

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if you ever miss me, remember that i am as far away as you pushed me.

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you weren't the problem.

just the reminder that either of you needed, to justify the need for growth.

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PV = mRT

For the past eleven academic semestral terms of my college journey this fundamental formula of which I am very familiar after the many courses of which my college program revolve heavily around, somehow holds more meaning than just a working formula that STEM focused high school or college students would view as.

The ideal gas law. Well a variation, so to speak. An equation which gives a good approximation of the behavior of many gases under certain, limited conditions. Under thermodynamics, basic processes are defined by any ratio or combination of at least two of the gas' properties. I find it interesting how each of the properties has a certain association to the real life. How? Simple. It is an approximate equation which describes an individual's life.

"R" represents the universal gas constant which may be 287.05287 Joules per kilogram-Kelvin in SI Units, or 1,716.46 foot-pounds of force per slug-Rankine if you solve in the English Unit System. "m" as the gas' mass value (Yes, gases do have unit masses. It can hardly be easily observed, but can be felt in ways not only limited to breathing.). "T" as the gas' absolute temperature value. "P" as the gas' absolute pressure value. And lastly, "V" is the gas' volume value. Completed with an equal sign, which meant every value on both sides of the formula are in equilibrium. Their connection to my thoughts? It is already easily answered by how you perceive the challenges your life has shown. Stay with me now. (And I do not apologize for the probable puns I generate.)

To live, we all have the right for necessities such as food, shelter, and all the lot. I repeat, necessities. These has to never vary too much and is constantly given, or earned as we grow in maturity. [Much like our gas constant.] And as we mature we encounter more responsibilities and we somehow feel the weight of them, depending on how much we value such things that associates to what you are responsible to. Weight is mass times the gravitational acceleration constant. It somehow keeps us grounded when we feel to wander about. How we react to those responsibilities and mini-scenarios of our everyday lives determine our social character. We can look at information and react with a passionate response, or with a withdrawn response. Much like how we can be "chill" with things that we don't usually associate ourselves with, hence temperature. These three combined only tell half of our character, and the journey we walk through everyday. How does it matter to the other side of the formula?

Easy, we focus too much on the pressure we get placed in. By the world. Or by ourselves. We tend to react rationally or irrationally because of it. Spur of the moment, or after digestion and discernment. And what a privilege it is to be worthy enough to earn said pressure. The trust you have built with your connections from the certain responsibilities you have shows why you are worthy of the pressure. How much we react or the volume of lengths we create in response, somehow impact the quality of life we live in. Remember, the sky is the limit when it comes to our belief in our reality. Thus the volume of work we give, fazed or unfazed, can exponentially increase your chances of living a purposeful, and genuinely serene-like balanced life.

Then again, to be balanced it is important that every value on both sides are at an equilibrium. If we can't deal with the mass of the increasing number of responsibilities we have. We just have to let go of them. If we become constantly weak in our every day lives, our necessities needs improvement. Healthier meals, better sleep, all of the essentials refined. We get to be labeled as a "passive" individual? Show the spark. Show them how you get so flow when the heat gets turned up. We collapse despite all of this? Then congratulations, you have found the limit of the volume of work you can do. But this can only be done when we ourselves see the areas of our lives that just does not improve alongside the others. Yet, we can still associate ourselves as an imbalanced gas (chemically speaking) that we can ask for other gases help on sharing some positrons and all those atomical factors, just as we do with the others.

The thought is not perfect. I'm fairly sure that this thought dump may not explain other concepts surrounding the gas law (for now at least). I can't pull up certain academic papers to show why this thought dump has other correlations to life (again, for now at least). But this seems like some good therapy I'm rockin' with.

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but I planned for everything! why can't I place myself in line with all the things that i want!

keep on willing it. but let go on some of your grasp of control on it . just like how entropy dictates how much this world can yield disorder in systems with time. remember, you are not the only one messing about the ripples of destiny. others do. then again, who are you to back down from such disturbances?

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me? regret that I loved people to the maximum I can in that point in and length of time?

like thermodynamics, energy isn't lost -- it's transferred. and the love that is supposed to belong to your true and final partner, will find it calling out from you. in due time.