wherehave-yougone

[wherehave-yougone]

[wherehave-yougone]

[wherehave-yougone]

Being with you makes me so fucking miserable. But being without you is too scary to comprehend. I guess we’re both just lonely and afraid to be alone, that’s why we stay when there is no love.

[wherehave-yougone]

Starting to hate the person you once loved is such a difficult thing to hide… when we first met you were my everything, but you’re slowly becoming the reason I’d rather be alone for life. How did I once think that I had I found my soulmate. Now I dream of the day my real forever starts.

[wherehave-yougone]

Slowly coming to terms with the fact that I'll never find my forever person. Im never going to be married. I'll never have a family of my own... I'm going to be alone forever .

[wherehave-yougone]

I remember in the begining I asked if it was ok to fully love you.

Laying in your arms shaking and crying I begged you to never hurt me...

You promised me I could let you in and I wouldn't regret it..

You swore there was nothing I could do or say to push you away...

So why are you leaving...

Was it all just a lie?

[wherehave-yougone]

[wherehave-yougone]

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When you realize its been 28 years of you begging for someone to truly love you...

When your parents couldn't,

when friends weren't really friends,

when the man you thought was your forever tells you he's tired of you...

Love does not exist... Not for me...

If I had a soulmate they are probably happier with someone else anyways..

I give up...

Someone take my heart out and burn it, its just dead weight now.

[wherehave-yougone]

Why do your friends like me more than you do... They treat me like a real person, but you treat me like a burden...

[wherehave-yougone]

[wherehave-yougone]

I wish just one person on this planet could love me...

[wherehave-yougone]

I held the keys tightly begging you not to leave without me

you bent my fingers back and said "ill break them" until finally one cracked...

You're becoming what im most afraid of to drive me away...

Dont worry.. It worked.. I wont hold on anymore...

~this isn't metaphors anymore~

[wherehave-yougone]

I don't think of you the same way I did before. When I think of you now, you're scary. Ever since that day all I imagine is the way your eyes were... I saw the hatred you hold inside for me. You're cold and distant and always have me questioning my worth. When you touch me I want to recoil and try my best not to cry. I know it's my fault things are like this... But how can you touch me gently now when you weren't that soft a few days ago...

The bruise is gone but I still hurt inside

[wherehave-yougone]

The day you slammed me into the wall is the day i realized we've hit a wall in this relationship. A wall that i don't intend to climb or try to knock down. I wont be searching for a window or a crack in it to view the future i thought we had. I'll act as if nothing has changed but deep down we both know I'm gone. You are made of bricks and I of wind. If you place a wall , I will simply change direction.

[wherehave-yougone]

I try to hide how fucked up I am but I think people can smell it on me.