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i be like “it is what it is” and almost vomit from anxiety

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tbz being actor ju haknyeon’s biggest fans (ᗒᗨᗕ)

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depresso looked it up and it took like 5 months for wonho's case to be handled. reading through his wikipedia page made it clear to me that haknyeon won't be able to rejoin the group even if he legally hasn't done anything wrong. i think the investigation might be shorter since it's sex-related, not drugs but god, this is gonna be a miserable ride.

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BTW, I think it's fair to disregard any article that refers to Asuka Kirara as a "pornstar" in present tense. It should say "former" at minimum. (Ideally, it should say AV actress to be more respectful.) Saying otherwise is simply incorrect. Information about her CURRENT and RELEVANT line of work (social media/influencer) is very easy to access and confirm.

If a journalist can't even (*cough* chooses not to) get her current career right, then why the hell should I trust them as a reliable source/reporter for anything more significant than that?

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and here you are living despite it all. ―Rupi Kaur —via http://ift.tt/2eY7hg4

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fuck it. i hope haknyeon sues that company to the ground. i hope he shakes the entire industry so hard that every sasaeng fan spontaneously combusts and the government has no choice but to implement laws preventing them from doing shit like this time and time again.

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ohh i'm really latching onto the haknyeon situation. so this is what kids these days call "crashing out"

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i know i watched these back in 2020 but it's really surprising to go back to them now that i've reflected on (some of) my hyper independence tendencies

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tbz fromm messages 20250618 (trans.)

i won't be posting anything else about the tbz situation after this, but my friend very kindly sent me her fromm screenshots. please don't feel pressured to read their messages if you need to take a step back from it all 💓

under a cut due to length.

jacob —

hello, i'm jacob of the boyz.

first of all, i'm sorry for not messaging for a few days because i usually message every day and might have made you worried. you must be tired these days, and i wanted to come to you with good news, and i'm very sorry that i couldn't.

i'm so grateful for your love and that you waited for us. i don't take it for granted, so i have worked hard to show my gratitude through music and by talking to you. i will keep working hard like this.

and i want to say that the boyz, who are responsible for a percentage of deobis' happiness, truly hopes our deobis will be happy and will continue working hard for your happiness in the future.

thank you for working hard today. remember to eat well and thank you, always.

younghoon —

to deobis:

when i debuted as the boyz on 6 december 2017, seeing the fans right in front of my eyes was so amazing to me. i just wanted to love those people more and more, and i worked hard every day to be better for them.

then on 3 april 2018 when our fans got the name 'deobi'!! i really loved it since then, just like a kid.

deobis who always supported me and made me happy, seeing you cheer for us the boyz always made me realise how precious you are. to me the reason i can keep going has always been deobis. so i kept thinking, 'what can i do to make deobis love me more?' i had a lot of those thoughts.

honestly, i cry a lot at concerts, and i even got the nickname 'crybaby'. those times, i was so overwhelmed by so many feelings: wondering if these precious people would stay by my side or if the boyz could continue in the future.

i want to continue growing and continue rising together as a team, of course. but i also worried a lot whether i could fulfil that desire.

deobis, you've gone through a lot and you must be tired, right? i'm really, really sorry. seeing deobis smile makes me so happy, but now i hardly get to se your smiles, and my heart hurts because of it.

honestly, i've also been struggling lately. but, deobis, when i had a hard time last time, i asked if i could lean on you. so now, just one more time, can i lean on deobis again? is that okay?

i want to make deobis smile again. deobis, you did well today.

love you, bbangdam bbangdam

hyunjae —

deobis who must be very tired right now, i'm having a hard time knowing what to say to you now. i don't know if i can be any comfort to deobis, but i just want to tell you i'm really, really sorry.

today must have been very hard... i'm still lacking, but i'll try my best to try and heal even a little bit of deobis' hearts. i'm sorry, sending you a heart.

i think there must be many deobis who are hurt, and many whose hearts may already be closed. i'm truly sorry, and if i could turn back time, i would. that's how i feel. i will work even harder to create more happy moments with deobis together. every moment i've had with deobis has been sincere, and they will always be sincere going forward too.

juyeon —

to deobis:

i'm sure you must have been very upset and confused today... who else would know this more.. i'm really sorry for putting you through this.

but, really, thank you and i feel so sorry that you stayed by my side and treated me so warmly. i don't take deobis' hearts for granted and i'm always deeply thankful for you.

in the future, for deobis, we will become a better and more trustworthy the boyz whom you can be proud of, and we will prove ourselves with a reliable and more responsible attitude. i promise...!! in the future i will protect you and be by your side even more strongly!!

thank you and love you always.

kevin —

first of all thank you so much for your whole-hearted investment to us as a group. there have been many happenings in the past that may have hurt or exhausted you or put you in a complicated headspace. i sincerely want to apologise.

to all dubbies who have sought tbz as a source of strength i'm sorry that we have failed you as of late. but thank you for believing in us and rooting for us regardless.

i will hundredfold be more loyal to and passionate about my job and promise you that we'll safegaurd your hearts from being hurt as a fan.

we will work hard with a new flame under our feet to ensure that the boyz and the b are words associated solely with positivity.

with love and gratitude, kevin

new —

dear deobis, you must have been really shocked, and i'm sorry for not coming sooner.

i needed time to think and reflect on my thoughts, and i was worried about facing deobis. i hoped you wouldn't be hurting so much, but it must have been difficult and i was worried about that.

my heart hurts and feels so heavy, that because i like you so much i've hurt you. for the people that i love, i'll work harder so you never have to go through any more dark nights.

my heart loves you completely and will never change. my heart's love for the boyz remains the same too.

dear deobis, the reason behind my music has always been and will always be you.

thank you so, so much for finding me and staying by my side. i pray that you all get through your dark nights safely. i love you!

q —

hello deobis, this is q!

right now, i'm most worried about deobis. you must be so tired and having such a hard time, right..?

we already haven't given enough good energy to deobis, and we've been hurting you lately. that makes my heart feel heavy. i'm truly sorry.

being on stage in front of deobis is so precious and brings me so much joy. when i look into each deobi's eyes and see your happy faces, i feel truly happy.

thank you so much for always loving me so much and bringing me so much happiness, and i will work to become someone who brings you even more love in the future.

no matter what happens from now on, i'll work harder to show you only the good sides of me. i will be more responsible.

once again, deobis, i'm so sorry.

sunwoo —

although i still don't know how i should express my feelings, even if my words are all over the place, i hope you'll understand.

first, to deobis i want to say: beyond my position as an idol, as the person kim sunwoo i will never do anything that will break the trust deobis, and myself, have placed in me.

i will take responsibility for and reflect on the mistakes i've made up until now through my words and actions and become a better person. i will keep moving forward and give my love to deobis, and give it sincerely.

but first, i will become someone worthy to receive your hearts and love. it hurts me to see our deobis blame yourselves and deny yourselves the love you have given us up until now.

i've always been sincere to deobis and will continue being sincere in the future. i will become stronger and more mature, deobis!

eric —

hi deobis. this is the boyz's eric. honestly, i don't know what i can say to give even the slightest comfort for deobis..

recently, there's been a lot of not-good news, and deobis must have been hurt and disappointed by them. i'm sincerely sorry for that. i'm just... i'm so, so sorry from the bottom of my heart.

while promoting as the boyz's eric for the last seven and a half years, there hasn't been a single moment i was not sincere towards deobis. on top of that, i have never taken for granted the great love deobis have given me.

so, shamelessly, i want to promise you again. i promise deobis' precious, beautiful love that you have given the boyz will never be something that you regret when you look back on it.

right now, thinking of how tired and upset everyone must be makes me feel so sad and sorry.. but i i hope you'll still stay by the boyz's side.. really, i will repay you with even more love and a better version of me. please trust me.

each and every deobi is so precious and important to us, and i'm so grateful for your existence. because of deobis, i can exist and live.

i sincerely hope that the people and the people who love me won't get hurt anymore.

(eng) always remember, eric loves you ❤️

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me when the internet tells me i absolutely MUST check out x boy group song and it's just some guy yelling at me about how rich and cool he is:

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theo — shine (210721)

p1harmony @ show champion !

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just found out the haknyeon thing happened on may 30th (jacob's birthday) and this video doesn't even make sense with his personality but it's all i can think about

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tbz march 9th birthday curse...

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is juyeon only allowed to be hot and sexy for people to objectify him? he has to be single and can't reap the rewards of being so fucking fine???

why do i care if they smoke or vape. girl i have bills. if juyeon and eric want to kill their lungs then it's certainly a choice, but it's not my business unless i'm inhaling their second-hand smoke.

hyunjae has like 4 friends max… from that leaked pic he and sangyeon were drinking at home with friends… perhaps if they were clubbing i might wonder otherwise since SK's clubbing scene has a history but if not, like are u okay??

i saw a video thumbnail calling the tbz situation™ "the biggest 4th gen scandal" and sorry but i just can't take any of them as serious issues. been here since debut and part of that is recognizing that there are legit things they've said or done wrong (plus rumours) but dating/smoking/drinking truly doesn't warrant this type of attention

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i saw a video thumbnail calling the tbz situation™ "the biggest 4th gen scandal" and sorry but i just can't take any of them as serious issues. been here since debut and part of that is recognizing that there are legit things they've said or done wrong (plus rumours) but dating/smoking/drinking truly doesn't warrant this type of attention

eta: yo i made this post before the haknyeon stuff came out

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“I’M A LOSER WHO LOVES YOU”

210721: SHINE COVER - P1HARMONY.

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