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Bottle full of liquor Ima drown tonight life looks so easy all you gotta do is close your eyes please don't call the reverend i don't need no help bury me a legend ima dig the grave myself i can't remember when i last felt alive don't try to save my life I'm already on my way tonight the blood is on my hands its either do or die don't even try to save my life they gon' memorize my name when I'm gone and they gon' recognize my face when I'm gone https://www.instagram.com/p/BzgZFqchVdg/?igshid=1pozddv1en3i

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if my eyes dont lie youre the most beautiful thing ive ever seen. oh boy, im JUMPING with excitement. 😒🤦🏻‍♂️ 🤩🤩 😍😍 🤩🤩 😍😍 So for new updates on my car ive been out of change for a while but i have managed to pick myself back up. Here i am, I hope to begin posting videos of my car, me driving thru mountain passes etc. I hope the journey of my car is filled with the ideas of the people who support me. I thank every one of you who is with me on this page. Yall are heroes. https://www.instagram.com/p/BzDgL3ghDeC/?igshid=5pc15m3ydzfz

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listen, do as i say dont do as i do. 9 out of 10 it aint gon' end up looking good for you. If i werent rich you wouldnt be pullin up to my funeral, first they kissin then huggin and then they suing you. If it was me or it was you i wonder what you would do. https://www.instagram.com/p/By8kgOchluq/?igshid=s7rnadkytjo2

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Alaska (at Spring Valley, Nevada)

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I feel so numb I rush to my room These frantic thoughts start to resume I rush to my desk and look all around Until a razor is all that ive found I grab it with one hand then take a seat on my bed I pull up my sleeve to see what lies ahead pale white lines that makes creases in my skin the scars are there to remind i could never win I want to feel something so i render my arm to the vicious temptations of commiting self harm first i imagine the pain i will feel Then i press down the razor to make it more real I imagine the red flow that will come from my vein and wonder if im truly going insane I shut my eyes tight and I clench my fist, as i drag the razor across my very own wrist A cleansing pain that i remember too well im biting my lip to keep back my yell I open my eyes and look down in dismay as my blood keeps on dripping without a delay I know im in pain but at but at least i know that i can feel besides, in time this is going to heal I try my best to patch up the wound and clean up the mess I rinse off the blade then return it to its place so if i need it again i know its there just in case I lay in my bed and take one more glance at my arm its just another day falling victim of self harm. (2k16 Thoughts) (at Spring Valley, Nevada)

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spoke to the devil, told me to sell my whole soul ill give you luxuries that only the rich could afford little did i know he was all in control, the rich got richer but not on their own told me to tell him about all the names that i hate and i whispered gently, "all the ones that walk in your name" ill sell my soul for the weak who dont care because no matter what you say god never hears your prayer spent 10 years kneeling in front the cross of a man who legends say he made a murderer turn into a man and the blind be able to see, but the man came to see the hell you call paradise, see gods been playin with hands full of dice, the lucky ones are the ones who come to realize you gotta be bad to have the world hear your words and so hear am i, with my soul set ablaze but you hearing my words so i beg you stand up, let yourself be heard, the life God gave doesnt mean you have a limit on your worth, living a sinful but people look up to me, people with souls who still have a life full of eternity, go for gold in your own name not for anyone elses, live a good life create a family and dont beat on your wife, if heaven exists, thats the place where i wont, but only because i saved all of humanity. (no i didnt, dont ask.) (at Spring Valley, Nevada)

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and still the most beautiful lie, is when you say "I love you" because even if you had me at gunpoint and said those words my heart would stop, not because of the bullet but because of your words.. I love you, means i wont say goodbye, but what does it mean to you ? The late night calls and the i miss you's ? You're not the first who would say they used me, not the first who would not appreciate what they had.. but i understand im not the first person you'll run to, the first person you loved, im not your first choice for anything... but still when you need me, ill be here.. (at Spring Valley, Nevada)

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but i still love you... (at Spring Valley, Nevada)

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well... (at Spring Valley, Nevada)

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(before reading, i don't endorse self harm, theres a difference between letting you be happy, and letting you believe you're happy) - He was an artist He enjoyed drawing except his brush was a blade and his canvas was his body every drawing was coloured sometimes heavily sometimes softly but everytime it was red he hid his art from the world afraid of its thoughts its whispers and its eyes - - The blood drips from arm to floor His mood rises from ground to sky - - You feel unstoppable now, dont you ? "I Do..." Trust me, it wont last long, the blade in your hand and the blood on your wrist will last longer than this "How do you know ?" Because i did it too, i felt what you felt, the feeling of being invincible, but its nothing more than a mirage "What can i do to end this..?" Be strong. Hate life so much, that you want to get revenge on it making you exist, be strong, be successful, so much that one day, you'll truly be happy.. - - (Yo i got like negative five milliseconds of sleep before being W O K E so i wrote this real quicc, anyways off to die for 8 ish hours, cuz thats what sleep is technically, being dead but awake at the same time, goodnight ✌) - - (Silent Voi🅱es) (Lol I'll think of a better title) #writing #poetry #vegas #depression #heartbroken #quotes (Oh also, silly goose trix are for kids, i set up that picture 😂😂 sabes que te amo 🙁 ik its fucked up but hey then again you did it to me too once 💗 sorry, i hope your headache feels better, chances are, im sleep right now before you even notice this or you wont even see this at all till youre already super mad, eres la unica, buenas noches) (at Spring Valley, Nevada)

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suspence ^ (at Spring Valley, Nevada)

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at Spring Valley, Nevada