23andocd

[23andocd]

Its okay if you dont have your whole life together by a certain age. Life is not a script you should follow in order to have everything be perfect (without it containing any changes whatsoever). You still have time to learn, you still have time to love, you still have time to find out, explore and see. Don't be afraid to take your time to achieve your goals and shape your life the way you want it, but also don't forget to stop and enjoy the beauty you might find on the way.

[23andocd]

[23andocd]

things I didn’t know were symptoms of OCD that lead me to believe something was genuinely wrong with me

• fixating on breathing patterns, heartbeats and other senses

•always feeling dirty on the inside. feeling like I pollute the air around me with bad emotions and negativity (and believing no one likes my personality for this reason)

•health anxiety, constantly thinking I was dying from an undiscovered illness. (I.e having a headache and genuinely believing I have a cancerous brain tumor) and sounding completely insane when expressing concerns to others

•insomnia from being scared to go to sleep with the fear (that felt like knowledge) of not ever waking up

•seeing a word, reading an article or thinking about something and becoming fixated on it for months with the idealization that something is going to go terribly wrong if I w know every single fact about the specific topic or event that triggered me

•constantly thinking everyone around me tolerates me because they have to and never feeling like i’m the first pick for anyone (including my spouse) in a lineup of peers and loved ones

•constant fear of losing control and hurting myself or someone on accident even though i’ve never had a violent outburst before