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I'm ready for summer to be over. >:(

i wanna do cozy autumn things and have the stores be filled w spooky season junk. i wanna carve pumpkins and go on chilly walks to look at the pretty leaves. i want big sweaters and pumpkin pie. i wanna decorate my house w bats n spiders n skeletons. ):<

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IG Threads has brought me back to this pit of despair...

miss me dogs?

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today, at work, i got off the phone after speaking with a particularly difficult customer. i laid my head down on the desk to rest my weary eyes before looking to my coworker and asking very politely if i could please die.

“no,” she said “we’re already understaffed.”

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I have never envied anyone the way I envy Sabrina Fairchild from the 1995 movie with Harrison Ford

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why would i watch the sunrise when i could stay here, warm, and watch you wake?

i see how your lashes play over your cheeks as your eyelids flutter with dreams, you’re still on the edge of sleep.

your lips form a pout with the side of your face pressed into the pillow, i love the shape of your mouth. i want to kiss you awake but i resist, listening to the sound of your breathing.

you are stunning, my love, the light of my life. i count myself among the blessed to have you with me here, like this.

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i love to look at you, to gaze upon you as one might the moon. ☽✧

your existence is poetry, like hers. but dare i say i love you better, and hold your beauty dearer.

she hangs there in the sky. pretty, yes, but cold, and so distant. i can’t hold her, i can’t touch her. she won’t pet my hair while i cry, i can tell her my fears but she’ll never hear me, she couldn’t love me if she tried. so she sits in heaven alone, while you lift me up to be there beside you.

and then you. you have a different kind of light, you cut through a different kind of darkness. you’re here and you’re warm and you’re mine. you listen and reply. when my heart spills out in front of you, you kiss my face and console me. when i need comfort, you hold me close and tell me it’s alright. and i wonder at your beauty, and take grateful shelter in your luminous love.

my celestial darling.

my shining knight.

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i love you. oh, i love you. you make me so happy, and i crave you like nothing else. i’m yours forever and ever and ever. my one and only, my light, my heart, my world, my love, mine.

i’m yours and you’re mine and i love you. i love you and i think i might cry. i’ve got all this feeling inside of me and no way to let it out but through words and trying to hold you closer and closer.

but you’re never close enough, not even when our bodies are wound so tightly around each other that there’s hardly room to breathe, you’re still so far away from me. i wish i could live inside your heart and mind and know you like i know myself, every detail, every physical curve and ridge, every bit of your history, every like and dislike and conflict of feeling, every thought every fear every hope.

i want you like i’ve never wanted anything, and this feels so big that it might crush me. and i think no matter how many times you tell me you love me, there may always be the fear that my love is bigger, maybe it’s too big, maybe it’s too much. i’m scared to let you have it all because it might be too heavy, and even if you’re there to help me carry it how far can we get before we have to drop it? is it true what they say about love making one stronger? i hope so because right now i feel so small, and i just need you to hold me and tell me you love me this much, not more, and please never less, but just the same. help me know it like i know i need to breathe, instinctively, build the knowledge of your love into me so i can’t ever deny it.

i love you i love you i love you i love you, say it back to me please.

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y’all get ready, she’s in love again 🙄

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y’all know that one einstein quote that’s like: “the more i learn, the more i realize how much i don’t know.” ??

he’s just like me fr

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guys… you’ll never fucking guess.

i should probably stop lmbo last time i obsessively wrote tumblr posts about someone i ended up with trauma lol

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did i just spend $55 on a balayage at the salon?? yes. did the stylist do a phenomenal job?? yes. am i going to get dye and go back to my natural color as soon as possible because i have commitment issues??????

also yes.

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i should probably stop lmbo last time i obsessively wrote tumblr posts about someone i ended up with trauma lol

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bro imagine saying you’re ‘just friends’ and then proceeding to think about them nonstop from the moment you wake up to the last second of consciousness everyday… that would be so embarrassing bro

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I’m definitely addicted to you, my judgement is clouded where you’re concerned and i feel myself suffer from withdrawal whenever i go too long without you, this can’t be good.