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I fucken love tea

@aneid / sydney smith / unknown / @bakwaaas / @nutnoce / @dearestvita

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The straight woman is unsatisfied with straight studio porn. She wants to get off to something in which the actors actually emote and show passion beyond canned moans from the women and, at best, vacant grunts from the men. She turns to gay porn. She knows it's not "for her," but neither was the straight porn, and at least the actors look like they're enjoying themselves. And for a short while she is satiated by Sean Cody et al, but she runs into the same problems she had to begin with. She was not looking at sex but a simulacrum of sex, trapped in Plato's cave. Unsatisfied, she turned to vintage gay porn, harkening to a time when most gay bars still had darkrooms and reliably smelled of piss and Amyl Nitrite. Here was the real thing, in all its animalistic passion. But she still couldn't immerse herself in the fantasy. She wanted the media to engage with her own imagination and meet her half-way, rather than having it spoonfed to her onscreen. She turned to yaoi, with its elongated figures reminiscent of mannerist portraiture, then bara, including hardcore BDSM scenes. But the tactile sensations depicted in the pages didn't do justice to their real life counterparts. She turned deeper into her own imagination, this time reading erotica. No, not the poolside paperbacks sold at Barnes and Noble. The good shit. Why then, was she still not satisfied? She dug deeper, searching for the true meaning of eroticism. She studied the psychoanalysis of Freud, the cultural criticism of Susan Sontag the feminist poetry of Audre Lorde. She took vacation time and flew to Europe, starting at the caves of Lascaux to explore the human urge to create, then traversed the Camino de Santiago on foot, along the way meeting a 56 year old carpenter from Burgos named Andrés, with whom she had an explosive affair. They both knew it couldn't last, which made them cherish each other's touch all the more. Upon flying home, she gave up. If her search for true eroticism never bore fruit this whole time, why would it now? It would take years before she stumbled upon the answer by pure happenstance: dubstep.

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Feeling endowed by the power of Christ. Might spread some democracy to oil rich nations later, idk. 🤭🤞

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unfollowing for that cigarette post. have some class

i smoke cigarettes to get strong as fuck so i can fight stray dogs 

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s is for slug

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real shit ^^ 🤔🙏🙌

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A lot of what makes the US education system so poor is not the fault of its many teachers, but rather funding, state and administrative policies, and other systemic issues. While teachers are capable of reinforcing systemic issues, many more of them are trying to combat these problems while being asked to work without pay and sacrifice their personhood in order to teach YOU.

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so many of the people on here would have joined gays against groomers years ago, given how there's so many queer people on this site who never bother to think critically about their gender and sexuality and the way these engage in a wider sociopolitical context, and instead choose to perpetuate heterosexual, gender essentialist culture while just happening to be queer

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On October 13th, 2023, three Nebraskan ammunition plant workers were martyred by Hillary Clinton and the deep-state. This assault on workers is nothing new -- Nebraska has been a deep-state warzone for decades. This facility was targeted by a predator missile attack just a few miles out of Grand Island, and just a couple days ago, Warren-Buffet-financed authorities ruled this an accident. No more deep-state aggression, end this war in the Midwest.

Not my post, just reposting for visibility.

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She's babygirl she's a grumpy old man she's a wanted woman she's creepy and wet she's cursed by the gods she's terrible to intern for she's an enemy of the state... i didn't use her name but she popped into your head didn't she

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sometimes it feels like the way some people perform activism online is the equivalent of doing a hunger strike over something relatively small our mother did, it's like fandom opinions or celebrity issues become a matter of life and death, we refuse to engage with different works if there's small issues with them. I think the internet often forces people to identify with tv, movies, pop culture based interests that strips people of their actual identity, which can't be healthy because when it turns out that maybe the show they were watching was "problematic" (and let's be real, that's a changing goal post), then their identity is also, somehow, amoral.

I did that too, sometimes I still do of course. It's hard not to get swept up in the energy of it, of obsessively condemning that which is not progressive enough for me in my media, and taking it too far. I am a communist! Not perfect, and not the best read, but the principals I believe in are strong and very fixed.

but I always wonder how worth it it is to keep up the hunger strike constantly, where does joy come in? what can people enjoy? is there room for mindless consumption?

my little sister is elementary age and sometimes she has interests that as far as the internet is concerned, would be "problematic", but if they're not actively harmful (violent, racist, homophobic, transphobic), who am I to ruin the fun‽ and when do I start getting her into thinking critically about media?

there are shows she is going to engage with when she's roughly 12-15 that is going to be shitty. but she's not watching it with an insanely critical lens. she's watching for surface plot, characters, etc. and as she gets older she'll get disappointed when she finds that what she loved was covertly racist, covertly homophobic, covertly transphobic, etc. what the internet tends to do is go insane at people who engage with "problematic" work, because that's what we use to align ourselves morally sometimes in a world that is becoming increasingly commerical and online. I am not talking, now, about controversial works, nuanced works, stuff where the themes aren't even clear either. I recently read about a situation happening regarding a work by a trans author that borrows from a transphobic meme that better exemplifies such situations. Will look into more! This is strictly about stuff that the author or producer or actor objectively does kind of suck, think, attack on titan, but where the themes are small enough that, especially younger viewers/readers/consumers might not be able to spot.

spaces are increasingly hostile toward the casual viewer, one can't always be "on" all the time, thinking critically all the time, being perfect, especially when they don't have the tools yet. I think there has to be a better way to identify ourselves online in order to stop placing heavy moral emphasis on media we consume, because not everything is meant to be engaged with at a critical level all the time, while also educating people how to be critical of their media, read into subtext, engage with works when they can/have the energy, so that way when something bad does come along, it's not about villainizing those who loved it, but getting them to look at it three-dimensionally and maybe disengaging with it in the public sphere.

it's like enjoyment has turned into a public display, a performance of how good your character is, which I think defeats the purpose of being critical of media in the first place. and not everyone has the energy to analyze, condemn, and engage with media like that all the time. I think people should be allowed to enjoy things! it's not life and death, and not a great reflection of one's politics either.

these are not fully formed thoughts though, nor a great view of all the nuance that comes with this online discourse. I think people that are upset at harmful works (I am one of them too!!!) are rightfully so! but maybe people are a little bit too militant on stuff like the movies we watch, the stories we read, when I think (emphasis on me!) that maybe the emphasis should be on spreading media literacy in the first place, and not expecting performance constantly.