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Sorry for tagging your art with just # oogh or # oh. Just know this means im profoundly moved

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Fanfiction is so silly. I am playing with my dolls and people are coming over to watch. Some of them even clap and give me compliments. And when I'm done playing, I can go and watch other people play with their dolls.

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Seriously looking up codependent relationships and reading about people’s experiences for this one…

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I bring another Uma offering:) the winter sheep incident of the child’s second year in the home⚫️^⚫️

Is there ever mentioned anything in the books that would hint to why the dynamics between Kavik and Kalyaan are what they are? Parents? Water tribe traditions driven to the max? Or is it just them? (Asking because of some thoughts and descriptions I might add or remove in the current thing I’m working on🤔)

Would you say a light sub/dom dynamic can fit yangvik? (Asking just to ask this one and because of one idea that created a mess in my head🤓)

YAYAYAY MORE KITTY PICTURES!!! i love her and say she is innocent of all charges, that sheep was asking for it 😌

as for whatever exactly is Wrong with kavik and kalyaan... i fear you've unlocked my unskippable cutscene. because Boy Oh Boy do i have a whole list of headcanons about their fucked up brotherly dynamic, which i am more than happy to share!

note, pretty much all of these are headcanons, though i did my best to fit with the actual vibes we got from canon. the books never fully gave a reason as to why kavik and kalyaan's relationship was Like That, though i do feel it was confirmed they sort of came upon it honestly; their parents truly didn't favor either one of them

that being said, just because their parents didn't favor one child over the other, doesn't mean their kids didn't occasionally interpret it as such.

all your questions answered, because of my inability to shut the fuck up, under the cut

Ujurak and Tapeesa had a lot of trouble conceiving Kalyaan

They tried for many years with no luck. They did everything they could think of; herbs, prayers, cleanses, healing, rituals, talismans, etc. Nothing seemed to be working, and they were about ready to accept that biological children just weren't in the cards for them

Then Tapeesa became pregnant

Kalyaan was born about a month early. He was also born breech, making his whole delivery a bit complicated

Because he was born early, he was a bit small and sickly. He took a while to grow, and reached most of his milestones a bit late. He as the last of the kids his age to do pretty much everything: talk, crawl, walk, all of that

Despite some of these hardships, his parents were still ecstatically happy with him. They loved him so, so much, some could say to the point of spoiling him a bit

(I personally don't really believe babies can be spoiled in any meaningful way. Rather, he just became very used to being his parents' sole attention)

Because it was so difficult to have Kalyaan, Ujurak and Tapeesa didn't believe they'd ever have another child -- and they were fine with this

Then, to their complete surprise, Tapeesa became pregnant again, without even trying

Kavik was born right on time, with no complications whatsoever. A surprise, yes, but an incredibly welcome one

He was also a very robust and healthy baby

(And definitely a cute one, too... god, I just know he was one of those fat babies with the roly-poly legs and chubby cheeks 😭)

Anyway. Having been an only child for nearly six years at this point, Kalyaan struggled somewhat to adjust to a new baby brother

He would get incredibly frustrated with all the attention Kavik was getting. Though their parents did their best to still make sure he was getting plenty of attention, ultimately babies just require more supervision for a period of time

As well, friends and family would often compare the two brothers. Kavik met his milestones on time, or even early in some cases, and this caused no shortage of praise and attention directed his way

"Oh, he's walking already! Kalyaan, you didn't walk til you were nearly two -- look at little Kavik go!" "Wow, full sentences? What a talker! I hardly heard a peep out of Kalyaan at that age!"

It was all well-intended, but it could still be upsetting

When Kavik was really toddling, their relationship actually became much closer. Their parents did a good job to instill in Kalyaan how important it was to look after and protect his little brother, and Kalyaan took this quite seriously. For many years they were as thick as thieves

In their early childhood, times started to get a bit thin. Not enough to struggle, but enough for some families to begin making the move to greener pastures. This meant that as the boys grew, they had fewer and fewer outside influences. The Water Tribe, while not nearly to the same degree as the Air Nomads, definitely seems to also have a communal child-rearing aspect to it. With less people around, it meant less people to help keep an eye on them and guide them

Kavik looked up to his older brother so much. If you asked him, his big brother all but hung the stars in the sky himself

As they got older, Kalyaan began to realize he could use this idolization to his advantage

There started to be lots of shenanigans with Kavik taking the fall, just because Kalyaan told him to. Their parents did their best to put a stop to it when they realized, but there were still times that slipped through the cracks, as Kalyaan would accuse Kavik of being a tattle-tale until he learned to not speak up

Kalyaan started to become the type of brother that would beat up other kids just for looking at Kavik wrong. But would turn around and pick on him just as badly. He was just as likely to be the cause of Kavik's tears as he was to be the one wiping them away

Both boys excelled at waterbending, but because Kalyaan was older and more advanced, Kavik often felt like he had crazy high standards to live up to. Kalyaan, for his part, regularly rubbed it in Kavik's face about how much better he was

Kavik also proved to be a math whiz quite early on, and in this he was quickly catching up to Kalyaan despite their age difference. Kalyaan would frequently accuse his brother of "copying him" just for having an interest in math

Though their parents really did their best to quell any kind of sibling rivalry, a bit of resentment still built up in Kalyaan regardless

He truly doesn't recognize it for what it is, but it's still there. And ultimately he does still love Kavik, but there is a tiny, deep-down part of him that resents him

When the boys got lost in the storm, it was because Kavik wandered off, and Kalyaan went to go lead him back. Instead, they got lost, and he ended up sacrificing two fingers to keep him alive

He'd do it again in a heartbeat... but at the same time he hates that he even ended up in that situation at all. He secretly blames Kavik for wandering off. Again, this is very deep down, but it still influences his actions

And Kavik is very perceptive. He doesn't necessarily recognize that Kalyaan blames him, but he feels it, which results in him blaming himself, and the beginning of his truly impressive inferiority complex. He feels that Kalyaan saved his life, and he did absolutely nothing except get them into that situation in the first place, because obviously he's cursed

As the herds continue to thin, feeding two growing boys gets increasingly difficult for the family, resulting in them moving to Bin-Er

Kavik lowkey blames himself for this as well, being the surprise second baby

And Kalyaan, being older, left more connections behind. In his own upset at this, he somewhat takes it out on Kavik, who doesn't have as many friends to leave

And uh. Yeah...

Again, it's important to recognize that despite all of this, they truly do love each other. Which is why their relationship is So fucked up

anyway!!!! on to funner things hehe ;)

i'm not superrrr versed in dom/sub dynamics specifically, but i can absolutely see it fitting for yangvik. i do think yangchen is almost always the dominant person in the bedroom, whether she chooses to lean into it or not

but when she does choose to lean into it... ohhhhh yeah 😏😏

it definitely fits in with the praise kink thing i talked about earlier. and as for yangchen, so what if she wants someone to actually listen to her for once in her goddamn life? nobody else does!! kavik is happy to provide a listening ear! in more ways than one hehe

and also for your consideration: bratty sub kavik

thank you and goodnight

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Attempting to brighten my mood:) they’re fun to write

These are my teasers for yangvik week.

(The philosophy one is still in progress, but it’s decent progress)

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Affirmations to myself and consoling myself right now (I am sad) :

There are things I cannot control, regardless of how much I want to and that is fine. It can hurt, it can be annoying and saddening, but I cannot grasp onto something that I cannot grasp onto with my hands. This is fine. I cannot do this no matter how much I try.

I get annoyed by it, notice I get annoyed by it, stop and think try my best to let go. If I don’t at least try, nothing won’t be better.

Anger is a valid emotion to feel, but I don’t lash out, instead I try and feel it. Why did it make me angry? Why was it the first emotion I felt? Because I felt hurt. I felt hurt that my friend had to experience two close family members deaths in such short time frames and I was angry that this happened to them. I wanted to make it so that wouldn’t happen, but I cannot do that.

I felt sad that they experienced it. Horribly sad that when things were about to look up for them, it came down alarmingly quickly. They were going to work tomorrow, but they will be home grieving instead. This makes me sad. I was going to visit them at work tomorrow because I hadn’t seen them in a while, but they will be home, grieving two people close to them. Painful. Sad. I am sad.

Amituofo, amituofo. I hope that, for as kind as my friend is, the merit those two collected while they were still here made it so it wasn’t painful and that it will be a good life they’d reincarnate into should they ever come back. I want that for them. I hope my friend will realises and embrace that, even if they’re gone, all the experiences, the jokes, stories, all they’d taught them and that they knew someone like them, is something that will always stay close to them. That will never go away. They will always be there and live on through them. Amituofo

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People I want to get to know better tag game:)

Thanks for the tag :D @unstabletable69

Last song: gonna add the three last ones because I cycled through them multiple times before getting ready for work: ชู้แต่เธอไม่รอบ ชอบแต่เธอไม่รู้ - wonderframe ft. Kangsom, khedni maak- Joe Daccache and Unstoppable- sia

Favourite colours: blue

Currently watching: nothing really. Generally? We’re kinda twinning here, also apothecary diaries (currently wondering if I should get the manga in physical or on the phone) The glory if I’m feeling vengeful or anything else interesting on Netflix

Last movie: that would be the last mission impossible move

Sweet, savoury or sour: spicy…? But savoury I guess. Variation and mood dependent

Currently reading: most recent fics I’ve read: Secrets: An Avatar story, Pulled from orbit and my own (yes, I read my own fics) The softest yarn and I still can’t forget the sadness coiling around my heart

Current obsession: Buddhism; heart sutra

Currently working on: a philosophy fic about Kavik hearing a sermon about the heart sutra, and a fic for the somber winds series

No pressure fun tags:D : @unfrieddough11 @junipernight @creampuffqueen

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Whoop whoop 🙌🏼

Finished writing for both prompts on the list. The jealousy one is very loosely inspired by it, might not really go under the definition of ‘jealousy’, but it’s silly and cute.

Now it’s just my own idea left:) probably the most research heavy one, too

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daily affirmations:

i am kind

i am in control of my emotions

it does not bother me when someone is in the kitchen while i was planning to be in there alone

everyone in the house has the right to be in the kitchen

i am kind and in control of my emotions even when someone is in the kitchen while i was planning to be in there alone

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a feel like the new generation of fanfic readers NEED to understand that clicking on a fic (interaction) does nothing. ao3 has no algorithm. your private discord discussions of fic do not reach the authors. if you do not actively engage with writers they will stop posting. this isn’t social media this is community.

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Yes, nothing like getting a comment from ‘orphan_account’

Seriously?😂

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atla headcanon #102

air nomads were some of the brightest philosophical minds in the world and spent long hours in discussion and debate. scholars from all over the world would come to study under their philosophers.

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Do you think there's any cultural side effects in Air Nomad culture from raising nearly all the women near the equator and all the men near the poles?

I keep thinking about the old "Girls go to college to get more knowledge, boys go to Jupiter to get more stupider" school rhyme. I feel like little air nomad children would have something similar lol

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wait, tell us abt ur lore?? anon just found out abt it

Thank you for asking me!:) … since you’re not specific about anything I will just use it as an excuse to ramble and try to be as comprehensive as I can 😅

Note before hand: I’ve written a footnote about this in Aliteoth and in the series notes for ‘Stories from people at ordinary temples’ and that is that I was originally writing on something in a completely different fandom (that being the Naruto fandom) I got an idea that almost tore the entire thing apart, but then I got the idea for this and I’ve been trying to bridge and glue everything. So there are ‘links’ in Aliteoth, people, places and certain skills, and other works to try to bridge over to that other work. Just to keep this in mind.

And: comparing it to the Yangchen novels, this is aggressively semi-canon.

The main storyline I’ve written, A love in the eye of the hurricane, is centered around Jamyang, Yangchen’s aunt. But it includes many other characters as well, Jaya and Gawa would be familiar names if you’ve read any of my stories featuring Yangchen. This fic is set in Avatar Szeto’s era.

‘That one time a pretty woman saved the day’ is a side story that accompanies, A love in the eye of the hurricane, and centers around Tsering, Jamyang’s caretaker. It’s set in the earlier years of Avatar Szeto’s era.

‘The stories of Elder Sonam,’ and all the works in that series are set in the aftermath of the previous Avatar’s death and the early, early Szeto period.

The idea of there existing multiple other temples, hidden from the world that practises different things is a strong head canon of mine that can be seen through all of my works.

There are three sub categories to these hidden temples: Mountain temples, ocean temples and illusion/temples that hide with the help of illusions

Gawa is from one of these ‘hidden’ temples. She’s from Taktsang, a temple at the Druk’s nest, one of four big islands that can be reached after flying a specific flight path for about two days. If deviated from the flight path, you won’t be able to reach the islands. The names of those islands are The Druk’s nest, The Red badgermole mountain, Ryeong’s caves and Lóngguī (Lóngguī has many names, that’s just one of them)

A traditional way of proposing around Taktsang is to find an orb in the colour of your lovers eyes. This follows the legend of Dorjee and Kunsang, where he professed his love to her by finding the a pearl in the exact colour of her eyes. That led to the creation of the lovers pass, which became a rite for lovers to go through and it’s essentially a trust fall off a cliff and you have to catch them before they reach the water below. This rite is marriage, in simple terms. It is believed that anyone who goes through with this will experience eternal love with that person.

Red pandas are seen as special creatures there

They speak Dzongkha at these temples and other various dialects of it, say Gawa, she speaks Dzongkha and Tshangla(dialect)

- - Idon’t know where else to put this, but I headcanon the Western temple to speak in the Amdo dialect and the Eastern on to speak in the Kham dialect. If one who speak Dzongkha and an air nomad meet they can understand each other to varying degrees; it depends if the person is well traveled or not- - added later: I almost completely forgot!! ‘The mysteries of the air nomads’ also add some worldbuilding and lore there, regarding language, names etc- -

Another strong headcanon is warrior monks and warrior nuns. They hide from the world to not make the others look bad, but in an air nomads pov, they’re quite common to see.

The southern and Western temples are more open and friendlier to them while the Eastern and Northern temples aren’t. They tend to look quite down on them and some believe them to be dangerous. (Just examples at the top of my head: I don’t remember the chapter of Aliteoth, but there was a monk at the Northern temple, a referee of a game of bison polo, who believed that Opame, a girl from another temple, somehow cheated at the game. The elusive wings of love ch1-2; the language and how they talk about them)

I guess a kinda fun thing about the Northern and Eastern temples is that they’re Gelug dominated and Je Tsongkhapa, the one who founded it, in this universe is from one of these hidden temples. Like the person they revere so highly is from a temple they look down on

And even then, not everyone one who is from a ‘warrior’ temple chooses to fight. They will learn how to use their weapons and condition their bodies and carry the obligatory katana in the bison saddle, but they will rarely use it.

The first examples that came to mind are Dronma and Sogen from Kushi temple, a mountain temple based in the fire nation mountains not that far from the Western temple. Dronma can wield the katana, but she rarely used it up until ‘Wrath of a mother.’ Sogen is an anomaly at Kushi, becoming a head priest as someone who doesn’t fight. He was gifted a tanto from his teacher and never had much use for it until the end of ‘the regrets of a monk’

On the topic of the mountain temples, those in the fire nation specifically, they are immensely distrustful to any nun or monk from the four big temples because of an incident that happened 600 years prior to the Aliteoth era. (Don’t quote me on that number just yet, I have many lists to look through and my brain is filled with smut ideas, but I’m very sure it is 600)

The Kushi temple was going to be experiencing a very special rebirth that the oracles declared to be the Buddha himself. This child was so spiritual and had such a strong connection to his past lives that he ended up being corrupted and lost his entire identity after Sogen unknowingly let a white lotus member into the temple, a monk from the Northern temple. This monk prodded at the child over the years, asked leading questions so the child would slip into a different life so he could to speak the child’s past lives, information he later fed back to the order.

When it was revealed, they left the temple believing that nothing in their entire life was theirs and it ended with almost the complete destruction of Kushi temple. After this, all the mountain temples shut their gates to anyone from the outside world, minor exceptions being injuries. Some will open their gates, but they will constantly surveillance the visitors and that usually scares them into not coming back.

Elder Sonam is from Kushi temple. She only relocated to the Western temple in later years

Gyaltsen, often mentioned in my fics about Yangchen, is also from this temple

It’s in that period as they rebuild, that they get a close relationship with the spirit guides from Jiming Linggu, a temple in the Earth kingdom surrounded by red mountains. This close relationship mostly stemmed from Jiming Linggu having experienced a very similar thing themselves. There was a time the mountains surrounding the temple weren’t red. (Aka, so much blood it literally dyed the mountains a different colour)

I guess if you want the lore lore, like what Gawa researchers in Aliteoth type lore, it involves an ancient civilisation based on Ancient Greece, Ancient India/ Nepal and the pre air nomads. It introduces a new idea of reincarnation, where instead of someone’s soul reincarnating, it’s pieces of that soul joining together with the new one and that the person who’s soul fragments joined in the new soul could essentially reach out to the new person through those fragments in their soul via dreams.

‘A life through someone else’s dreams’ shows a more Ancient Greek pov of this idea; the two main characters were deemed heretical in their time, but it’s more accepted by Jamyang’s era. The nuns just don’t voice their support of the idea fearing humiliation

The extra extra chapter of Aliteoth and ‘Tē tē tē’ show a more pre air nomad/ancient Indian view of it

This civilisation had frequent contact with the Western temple and other temples. Gawa and Jamyang find proof of this through old runes and ancient documents.

‘The spirit children only children can see’ go more into the effect of this contact the civilisation had with the Western temple

There is also ‘fragments of those who came before’ which is Wan era lore about this civilisation and the idea of someone the avatar knows reincarnating and then trying to find them in the next life. ‘Five times the avatar met someone they remembered’ goes more into that reincarnation thing

There is also the concept of ‘dual’ bending. But you can’t master that second element like the first element. The most you could do would be something extremely minor, like snapping your fingers and maybe getting a tiny flame. Freezing water or only being able to control a certain amount of it. Juggle pebbles etc.

Those at Taktsang who can do this has a character drawn on the inside of their palm

It’s explained in more detail in the Mikoto chapter of the ‘Five pillars in Elder Sonam’s life…’ and ch5 (I think?) of ‘that one time a pretty woman saved the day.’ It boils down to leaking chakras and abnormally high activity in the chakras.

There are also dual bending animals; this is also within what Gawa is researching and mentioned a bit more in ‘Fragments of those who came before,’ but from Wan’s pov and he doesn’t know what they are so he refers to them as ‘beasts’

My wrists are beginning to hurt.

Um… what else?

I guess with the mention of ‘aunt’ it implies a sibling and it’s flat out stated who Jamyang’s sibling is in Aliteoth. I will not say more on this:)

Jamyang ends up purging the Western temple/threatening them into silence (‘The fog thins’ ch2)

If it’s Amala and Youta you’re curious about and how Yangchen came to know them, I’m gonna have to be lame and say I haven’t gotten there yet:) The closest I’ll have is ch1 of the Persistence fic where it’s very lightly implied between the lines that Amala has a baby crush on Yangchen, my Yangvik submissions from last year where they’re mentioned and one submission I have for this year. (They’re mentioned in ch2 of the fog thins, but it’s just a mention.)

If you’re wondering why I haven’t gotten there with Amala and Youta quite yet, blame Mal, dearest yangvik mother @creampuffqueen :) I gave in once and it derailed almost everything and I have been trying to reign in control ever since. Like Jamyang is supposed to have a training arc, too, and I haven’t gotten to that either.

My wrists are really starting to hurt now and I can’t come up with anything else so😅 yeah, hope that was interesting. It was fun to ramble about this, though, you’re free to ask me more about this:)

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… the way I just had a very sudden revelation about this; the mental image literally forming in my mind as I read😳 since Kavik had a very sudden bi awakening in that one fic of mine and there’s like, a beef cake monk with some daddy hidden in him and-

All I’m thinking about now is Kavik being cornered by those two o_o … I’m at work damn it😭😫 and I don’t know how to approach writing that either😫praise him into a corner literally

Yes, I will add that descriptor and oh, I’m gonna add more of Yangchen’s thoughts and next is just figuring out the title and how to tag it 😫😭 and thank you so much for responding despite the mess it just created in my head-

Dearest Yangvik mother:) I am in a very silly mood this morning since I’ve upped the dosage on my meds, so I present this picture of my cat for you to look at:) she is very fluffy and doesn’t think she’s too cool for pets and cuddles anymore and she thinks I’m cool again 🥹 and has the stare perfected ⚫️^⚫️

And also… where would you say Kavik falls on the praise kink spectrum? 👀 High? Low? Somewhere in the middle? Or is it mood dependent? Like, if he suddenly feels guilty about this minor thing, will a simple “you did good” have him all red faced and fidgety?

You know… just asking generally. Totally not about a descriptor I’m thinking about adding…

okay, first things first: your cat is so adorable and i love her goofy wide-eyed stare. there are very few thoughts behind those eyes and that is exactly the way she likes it. obsessed

second: i'm just gonna use this as an excuse to ramble somewhat coherently about kavik and his praise kink because why the hell not

TL;DR for anyone curious: mid to high on the praise kink spectrum, depending on mood/surrounding factors

and the rest of this under the cut because of. what i hope are obvious reasons

so, i feel like the most important thing to recognize when considering kavik's praise kink is why praise is so effective on him. he has an absolutely massive inferiority complex. he has spent the majority of his life upholding himself to a frankly impossible standard -- his older brother. even without his brother's constant influence, the effect of it still remains. i mean, he compares himself to kalyaan in his opening scene of the first book, and at that point in time he hadn't seen his older brother for around 3-4 years. it runs deep!!!

which means that despite being around a much more positive influence, that being yangchen, i have no doubts that he is still going to struggle with feelings of inferiority and low self worth for a very long time. he hides it well, using humor, sarcasm, and banter to deflect from these feelings, but they still seep through pretty clearly

so to receive genuine compliments, appreciation, etc. from a person who's opinion he truly values... he's definitely going to latch onto it a bit. combine that with the nature of his and yangchen's relationship, that there is a pretty good recipe for a heavy praise kink

now, i don't think he's generally prone to getting all worked up over a simple "well done" (unless yangchen is explicitly using it as a flirting tactic in the moment). yangchen is the type of person to hand out compliments and praises left and right, without even really realizing the full impact of her words. she's just that kind of person. so kavik does get somewhat used to being given praise for his daily work

but yangchen does begin to realize the other effect of her words fairly quickly -- quicker than kavik does, for sure. she notices how her compliments make him brighten up, and then begins to notice how her praises of his work whenever they're alone make him that much more receptive to whatever she's in the mood for...

and once she truly understands just how affected he gets by her words of praise, she does not hesitate in the slightest to use it to her full advantage

kavik is already very reactive to her advances of any kind as it is. so when she does her usual things, but peppers in compliments about his work, his care, even his appearance... he's just putty in her hands

there are a few things that can heighten his reaction to praise as well. guilt, like you mentioned, i think can definitely do it. he has a lot of things he feels guilty about, and surely there are times those guilts really work their way to the surface and greatly impact his mood. another one is certainly his brother; sometimes the two go hand in hand. while their direct contact with each other post-canon is most likely all but non-existent, they could still likely have other forms of communication. and almost every time it happens, those insecurities start to rear their ugly heads once more, making him believe he's unworthy, not good enough, not deserving enough to be by yangchen's side.

so to then have yangchen telling him, in no uncertain terms, exactly how good she has it (and gets it) because of him... he's over. completely and utterly done for

uh. yeah. that's my two cents on it!

thanks for asking!

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Okay😶‍🌫️ unexpected smut debut on profile during yangvik week I guess. I have no idea what to call this thing😂

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Help this is turning into actual smut 🫣