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Hi— lately, I’ve used this blog as a convenient place to dump research & notes. Once upon a time, I had kidney friends & transplant friends on here and I think some of you are still active.

Transplant friends who have experienced EBV+ PTLD, and especially friends who are also in remission from PTLD (this isn’t to build some sort of weird, belittling divider between survivors and people still fighting PTLD but simply because remission is most applicable to my situation) how do you know when it’s time to report symptoms?

My nephrologist once told me to keep track of pain, especially pain localized to a particular part of my body, and then flag it as potentially PTLD so that the healthcare system doesn’t just dismiss the PTLD-possibility again (a story for another time). For the past year, I’ve had abdominal pain around the same spot and GI symptoms but chalked it all up to being sensitive to certain foods because of kidney stuff. For the past four months or so, though, I’ve been having dizzy spells once in a while. Lately, I’ve been experiencing extreme fatigue, brain fog, and debilitating depression. Again, I chalked it up to kidney stuff. I haven’t had a fever in about a year.

I don’t want to deal with doctors if I don’t have to— if these GI symptoms are just part of being an immunosuppressed transplant recipient. This comes with a huge amount of privilege, I must acknowledge.

It isn’t that I want to be reckless. I’m not sure if I’m articulating what I mean. It’s like this: when I was diagnosed with PTLD two years ago, it took about five-six months of doctors not believing my pain, emergency room visits because it became too painful to eat, and then that afternoon in late March (or early April?) when I passed out in my shower and woke up covered in blood... before insurance allowed me to see specialists. Then, when the doctors finally figured out it was PTLD, all the belittling comments like “you should stay on Myfortic [immunosuppressive that made me sick] because prednisone [alternative, better for PTLD] will make you blow up like a balloon” (direct quote) and even a God-awful, sexist innuendo made by a male tech related to the tumor being on the base of my tongue the morning I was prepped for surgery to remove it. I don’t think I’m strong enough to go through all of the fighting and testing again if the symptoms are just due to the usual, annoying but harmless kidney stuff.

Has anyone had any experience with PTLD presenting as GI symptoms and could you please share whatever parts of your story that you are comfortable sharing?

I think that I answered my own question in this post. I need to report this shite. I feel overwhelmed and alone. Please direct message me or reply to this post if you have kernels of wisdom.

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Also were there regional differences in how these laws were applied/ enforced Northumbria ???

-Which leads to this thought: I know that Chaucer made a bunch of references to trees, forests, Forest Law but what about others— particularly northern and West Midlands texts? What about Gawain poet & alliterative poetry? —could make for an interesting interpretation of the opening of “Pearl” as well as the manuscript images of “Pearl” at the BL. (MS Cotton.Nero.X)

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-IDK -maybe not so much in response to Forest Law in particular but to tyranny + corruption in law in general

-First textual evidence of RH legend: a passing reference in Piers in 14th century -Per this article’s point and in thinking about how Langland drew from a well of references that would have also been known to his readers, I think that just because the legend does not appear in writing until the 14th c. doesn’t rule out that it may have been circulating much earlier. For example, orally.

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- Forest laws in England and Normandy in the twelfth century†

Judith A. Green

01 July 2013

-William & Mary Bill of Rights Journal

Volume 25 | Issue 2

Forest Law Through the Looking Glass: Distortions of the Forest Charter in the Outlaw Fiction of Late Medieval England

Sarah Harlan-Haughey

—> applies to lit. + cultural studies

—Forests and People: Property, Governance, and Human Rights (2011)

ed. Thomas Sikor, Johannes Stahl

-see also- https://blogs.bl.uk/digitisedmanuscripts/2015/05/magna-carta-and-the-kings-forests.html -applies to manuscript studies

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-also 18th c. Search: “Forest Law.” -Fascinating— legal case re: “private” vs. “public”

-See Hardin

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-18th century

-discusses extension of Forest Law to rivers, Thames, etc.

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But what about bodies of water? -Thames?? (Did anything even live in that skanky River in the 12th century?)

-Also existing structures (like the Roman ruins)????? — were there any instances of those being changed/altered/moved/destroyed as people were forced to move (and plants and animals moved into different areas) by WTC?

-Robin Hood cycle at least in part a reaction to Forest Law??

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-useful -look into Normandy

-I f***ing hate William the Conquerer

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-extremely helpful

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-mixed-bag of an article.

-interesting bit: early(?) ME gave virtues/morals/characteristics to trees -a continuity from pagan cultures? (Druids.....?)

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-research 04/2020 -12th c. “Forest Law” under William the Conquerer -claimed woods the domain of Kings -

-impact on travel and movement?

-what about foraging, farming, etc.?

-how were lands patrolled?

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| HathiTrust

-Nothing to see here: just trying to use my old blog to access an obscure and, quite frankly, offensive 14th-century text that I am required to read for my qualifying exams. 

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July, when Pop-Pop dreams green.

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Here lies Georgetown Application: January 12th 2017-January 13th 2017

There is no way they are accepting this steaming pile of procrastination.

So ein Mist!   ghapfgfvakmlethhghb. SO. TIRED. AND. DEHYDRATED. And I have really bad case of the Late. Night. Grumps. D: 

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I NEED A KIDNEY! PLEASE HELP

My name is Lauren G. My kidneys have been slowly failing since the age of sixteen. I am twenty-two now and still freestyle dancing, joyously misquoting pop culture references, and running around Philly and NYC in search of my favorite food trucks. But I’m also in End Stage Renal Failure, exhausted, and in need of a kidney transplant! I want to keep living, learning, bettering my character, writing, and loving. Please consider donating one of your kidneys to me. A living kidney is my best option at living a healthy life.

If interested, please call Lehigh Valley Health Network for more information. The number is 610-402-8506, Option #5 (Living Donor Line). It is completely confidential, and there is no pressure to commit.

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Love,

Lauren

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5 things I still don’t understand even though I’m a third-year English major

1. lay vs. lie

2. lay vs. lie

3. semicolons

4. the infinite nature of the universe compared to my miniscule human life; the inevitability of death

5. lay vs. lie

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To Everyone on Valentine’s

I hope you experience love in its various forms. I hope you have found or will find wonderful friends, loving family members, a great, respectful romantic partner, and maybe even an awesome pet. Just keep being you. Sending lots of love your way!!!!!!!!