(this feels like I’m texting an ex at 3 AM because I keep disappearing from tumblr without replying to anyone and ghosting everyone) 💀
I’m so so sorry.
I know I keep disappearing.
My personal life has been so overwhelming for so long and it’s just so much going on all the time. It feels like that movie “everything everywhere all at once”.
I’m so overwhelmed and overstimulated all the time. The response on my birthday post was overwhelming too. I’m sorry for not replying to anyone and disappearing again after that. It’s just too much to keep up with. I love and appreciate every single one of you so much! ❤️ And thanks to everyone who made me feel a little bit extra special on my bday 🎁💓
But again. I can’t keep up with everything. My DM’s, posting occasionally so I keep staying relevant, liking/ commenting on my mutuals posts… I just can’t do it, and I’m sorry. I wish I could keep in touch with everyone more.
From here on out, I’m unsure what my next steps will be, but I probably won’t be on the platform that much at all … maybe post occasionally like I have from time to time.
But today is my birthday and this is always a difficult day for me.
A girlie is feeling a bit extra sensitive today (mentally (maybe physically too)) because like- your birthday is the day you’re born and I always feel like there’s this expectation to do something wild/crazy/fun and get loads of attention and love. But tbh I just don’t want to take a part of it and I want to cry IM SORRY
I’m scared I’m not “enough” because like. It’s supposed to be YOUR day. I don’t even know who I am brother
Just imagine being so helpless that the only thing you can do it take the tickling.... put simply.. if you are ticklish... you deserve to be tickled.... it's that simple.
thinking about how I used to not consider my feet very ticklish at all (me before having my first session: it doesn’t really make me laugh it kinda just feels tingly and nice!)
and then being teased and restrained and having tools and attention and herhdjakshdbfjkakdkgkh yeah……they’re pretty darn ticklish ok. get that hairbrush away from me. no no no no. evil.