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Meeting the Man: James Baldwin in Paris 1970 – directed by Terence Dixon

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Happy visibility week beautifuls! This one is especially special after the loveliest dream. Istg lesbian of my dreams, find me in the futureeeeeee, which is like in minutes so I hope you're at my door 💞

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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I've been thinking about love and discovering my queerhood as an adult and there's a part of me that yearns so badly to be in young again, silly about a girl who loves me so beautifully. To just enjoy the soft effervescence of youth and love.

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I don't trust anyone. I'm a bad ass lone wolf *eats food someone else grew* *crosses bridge someone else designed and trusts it not to fall* *crosses street in front of 70000lb vehicle cuz there's white lines on the ground telling it to yield*

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I am good. I am loved.

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In the mood for a gooooooooood sloppy, sweet and intimate make out with a pretty girl who holds me so gently. This would just piece me back together so well just to defragment me but still! ~sighs dreamily~

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My coworker: This mocha is so bad it needs a creamer or something.

Me: There's a creamer right here, it's me, I'm here.

Me (irl) : oh yeah hah

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i’m tired of pretending like being with a stone top wouldn’t fix me

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the hate with pillow princess’ is insane. nobody is forcing u to date them? and god forbid people have preferences.

+ same with touch me nots/stone tops, the way people act like they can change them or whatever. like omg. is it that hard to respect people’s preferences?

there is somebody for everybody, there is no reason to hate on a group of people for what they like/don’t like. it’s not hurting anybody either.

the rhetoric that pillow princess’ are lazy kill me, bcus, some people are just not comfortable w giving n vice versa for stone tops receiving.

and the fact that people say pillow princess’ are straight like can we be so for real what does a bedroom preference have to do with what gender you like?

sorry for another rant, lol, i just like talking :p but anyways i think everyone should just be respectful of what others like and not stereotype on what they are, like, you don’t have to date them if that’s not what you’re into? and not everybody has to like what you like too lol

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you can't imagine how much I love women. women are literally goddess, the perfect and amazing creations. women rule the world. they are precious and attractive, soft and lovely. they can be gentle like a flower and powerful like a dagger. they are stunning, wonderful, charming and gorgeous. they are universe, something so unattainable and at the same time very desirable. women are an art. the curves, the skin, the hair and smile. everything looks like a masterpiece. when women laugh, the sun is shining. when women cry, the rain is going. don't let women feel sad. treat them like a queens. I want to take care of my woman, I want to please her, to listen her, to understand her, to support her, to surprise her, to be with her. I want to make her mine, and make myself hers. women are the only one who always pretty despite everything. women are everything. I love women. do you love women? I know you do.

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You a lame if you don't include studs when speaking on butch lesbians 👎🏾👎🏾👎🏾

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need a clingy4clingy butchfemme relationship. like yes baby of course ill come down to get the mail with u. of course my love id love to go with u to go grab a sweatshirt. ty sweetheart i appreciate u coming with me while i go get some water

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Hey guys? we all know butches are our friends too right? like butches are not sex toys. they are people. they deserve respect and love and friendship as well. if your only goal in talking to a butch is sex, you are not seeing them as a person. you know that right? it is so disappointing to hear from my friends that they are blocked and ghosted as soon as they don’t want a sexual relationship. butches do not solely exist for your pleasure. they are people.

and yeah this applies across the board for all people. of course it does. if you cannot handle being friends with someone you are attracted to, i do not think you’re a kind person. you need to treat people with respect regardless of your attraction to them. get real.

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I am desperately craving intimacy....long eye contact, hugs, physical touch, kisses, passion 😮‍💨😔