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I think Siffrin, and by extension the forgotten island, are potentially more seafaring-coded and/or ocean-coded than you might assume at first glance.

I might be completely wrong but I like to find little patterns in details and I haven’t really seen anyone else talk about this.

The fact that Siffrin’s family had a boat makes me wonder how easily accessible it was to have one on the island, it could just be that they happened to have lived on the coast, but we don’t know what the island looks like or where people on it lived normally, but the fact that the family boat could be easily accessed by a child and that they understand how to use it makes me think it was very commonplace to just have access to boats and traveling by water.

The other thing is the culture surrounding the sky and stars and universe, which could be used for navigating the water and has been historically to a degree irl. Tides being controlled by the moon would potentially make the island more invested in learning about the other celestial bodies and it also contributes to the phrase and importance of “the universe leads, we can only follow” which can be about many things but I think it may have to also do with how unpredictable it could be to travel the ocean without using the stars (the universe) to lead you. This could also be a subconscious influence for why Siffrin would enjoy traveling, maybe his family traveled often, but we’ll never know for sure.

This is just interesting to me, I know it doesn’t really matter

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ISAT cardigan update!!!

I’ve got the base done, but now I need to add the decoration and pockets, I’m so happy with this, this is the first big project I’ve done and my hand tremors from my meds have not made this an easy process, but it’s almost done, in the meantime, here’s a pic of one of the decorations that I sewed on. I have no idea how to sew but I did my best!

Also, before anyone asks, I don’t want to take pictures of me wearing it. Once it’s done I’ll take pictures of it by itself and post them

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Hii

I'd be really interested in seeing your finished result!!!! Please share if you do it/nf

Also sorry for asking (no need to answer in case you don't want to!!) but I don't know much about manic episodes and such. I've only seen it as a fast increase in mood which is what happens in the game sometimes (and I think what happenes the entirety of act 5),, how it works on your end?

Unless. The manic episode thing was a joke and it flew straight thru my head... Which in that case, I'm double sorry for asking

Hi, I’ll be sure to post pics once it’s done, I’m going to get the supplies this weekend (the yarn mostly, and a couple more stitch markers)

I don’t mind talking about what my episodes are like, if that’s what you mean, but just as a reminder, my own mental health isn’t going to be the same for everyone who experiences manic episodes.

My manic episodes tend to happen a little more gradually than what you may be thinking (like I’ll notice things ramping up over the course of a week or so). But it’s mainly impulses, a lot of anxiety/irritability, lack of feeling tired, and feeling like, I guess the word is invulnerable? Like something that is typically painful doesn’t register as being the same level of painful for me when I’m having an episode. Which can be kind of scary because I’ll just be doing something, get hurt, and don’t notice until someone’s like “are you ok”, or if I do know I got hurt it’s like I feel weird and will just stare at it wondering if anything is real.

I’ve been dealing with these for a long time now, so I’m better at keeping myself safe now than I was when these first started.

When I saw Siffrin in act 5 I was so interested to see how he would handle having a manic episode, because everyone is different, but it totally reminded me of my first few episodes, without all the time loop chaos.

Also without the whole getting really tall and fighting against the people I care about.

But getting frustrated easily(irritable), feeling like you can’t be hurt, saying things impulsively without thinking it through, and a couple other things that Siffrin does(iykyk) are things I definitely relate to.

Im not sure if this is too much info or if this isn’t what you meant, but I don’t have a problem talking about my experiences with mental illness. When you’ve been in therapy for over a decade you get used to telling certain things like a hundred times over because it’s a different person or a different dr who still needs the information and there isn’t a streamlined way to just have it all in one place for the current dr or therapist to have access to without telling them anything.

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I’m going to make a crochet ISAT cardigan based off of the act five fight scene and no one can stop me.

I just need to buy the yarn, I’ve watched the tutorials on how to make the basic pattern, but I’m going to make it ✨⏰

Am I doing this because I might be having a manic episode? Yes, and I find that to be fitting given the inspiration source

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Y’know what’d be neat, doing an isat ttrpg homebrew campaign. I just think that’d be a lot of fun, especially if it was about the adventure before Dormont, like collecting the orbs, if there was a way to mechanically do the loops that’d be amazing but I feel like it might not work well if you have a group who might not want to do the exact same lines over and over while only one person gets more rp opportunities and can change their script. Maybe if it’s done in an au? Idk I just think it’s a fun idea to rp the party in a game format outside of the canonical stuff.

If anyone wants to add to this or anything I’m all for hearing it!

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Ok, so my initial idea for the game jam probably won’t work as I’m trying to figure out how to justify it with the theme and I keep drawing a blank, so as from that one Friends episode that I only ever saw in passing because I never actually watched the show-

PIVOT!!

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Game jam update!

I’ve always hated coding, and this time has been no different, but I’m making it work!

I think, at least.

I am using one of my old ideas because it’ll be the easiest to code and it had basically no game design or art done for it prior, it was basically a three sentence prompt.

But the void keeps being rude and makes it difficult to focus, like I keep waking up in a bad place, only to find myself not there anymore and six years past.

What even happened in those six years..

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Game jam starts today! They’re announcing the theme in a couple hours, I can’t wait to find out how the plan I had for the game I was going to make will have to be changed or scrapped entirely because of the theme!

I’ve spent all day yesterday watching programming tutorials since I’ve forgotten everything from those classes once I finished them, my major is focusing on the art and design for games more than the code but a couple of those classes were still required.

But if I’m making the game I’ve been planning for then the graphics won’t be anything to write home about anyway since the 48hr time limit, lol. If not, then I’ll probably just make a random idea from my “this is stupid and won’t lead anywhere” pile, apply the theme, and send it.

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You ever refresh a page on a social media and see something that in any other moment may have been missed or overlooked, only to explore it and have it change your life fundamentally?

This keeps happening with different things, and I do not know why, but it kind of is insane.

This was how I got into isat, someone posted a livestream announcement on yt and all the content warnings for it, and I, mentally stable, thought it wouldn’t hurt to check out knowing at least half of them are things I’ve been told to avoid.

I do this for my own enjoyment, because I can’t be helped.

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I’m losing my mind not clickbait it’s fine don’t worry

It has been -4534 days of time that I didn’t have, time that should’ve been for someone else but it’s been mine. I have to think it was for some ironic joke from time and space itself, like maybe there’s an audience out there who laugh when I fall, because it’s entertaining. I am losing my grip on reality each passing day and I know no one will help, no one can. In the end we all will return to where we were before, none of this religion stuff matters, we’ve seen the void, we were once a part of it, but we are too afraid to remember.

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Just made an itch.io page for an upcoming game jam, I feel so unprepared and excited!

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Not me thinking about how much I relate to the feeling of having home ripped from you, the weird feeling you get when you try to think about it too much, how the pain manifests. Or how you become this social drifter afterwords, dropping into the lives of others before leaving because you’re afraid subconsciously of getting attached and having that get ripped from you too.

Not me remembering how I found a group of people once like 12 years ago, how close we all were, how we thrived with each other. The one soft spoken friend with intense interest in horror stuff and anxiety to succeed. The one outgoing friend who was really smart but wanted to be known as someone people liked being around, being friends with. The one logical friend who found the rest of us a little immature but would fiercely defend us anytime someone was giving us a hard time. The one loud friend who didn’t always understand how to help when someone was upset, but would offer us snacks and a smile anytime we needed it.

And me, the one broken friend who needed a lot of help, yet wouldn’t ask for it until it lead to emergencies, but would die for those friends, would do terrible things to protect them, and put myself through awful situations that could’ve been avoided had I just talked to them.

But we went our separate ways, and it still hurts. Because they’re fine and I’m not, they’re gone and I’m still looking for the pieces of myself that have been lost to years I don’t remember.

Anyone else here relate to video game characters way too much?

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Body zaps hitting hard today, haven’t been able to just exist without a wasp rave in my chest all day.

My therapist is concerned, lol.

Anyway, once I’m good again I’ll keep working on my Strange Times Think Alike, I’ve almost got an exact plot line.

Stupid tremors ruin everything

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Im sorry but "you're nothing with out me" is literally just the two hats battle in musical form

I’m hoping I listened to the right song, the one from City of Angels. It makes sense from the sentiment of creation fighting creator but the tune makes it hard for me to imagine, I’m not really a big fan of musicals, but that’s just me. At least I listened to something new that I wouldn’t have found otherwise, so thanks!

I don’t understand why the sorry for sharing something, it’s all good, unless the song has something objectively terrible in it that I just completely missed like subtext or context in the musical, otherwise don’t be sorry!

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I think Time Machine by Miracle Musical is a very Loop song. But that is just me.

Just finished listening to it and reading the lyrics, I can see it applying to them. I think of Loop as being in a cycle of anger and regret and passing it off as being aloof and carefree (which hits a little too close to home), but the song was interesting to characterize them. It definitely seems like one of those songs that the music feels a certain way but the lyrics can be much deeper, to me at least.

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So I’m going to call my isat modern mess-up au “Strange Times Think Alike” and I’m currently working out major plot lines, but it’s distracting when I keep getting caught up in the little scenes and scenarios that are possible. Imagining how they get sent to a place just outside of a small city, how each character panics in their own way at all the new weird shades that are too vibrant, too disorienting, too much. Wondering how they’d communicate with the citizens, would there be a language barrier? What culture shocks would they feel at craft not working? What about when things start messing up and it suddenly does work?

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Oh if you're still ok with isat music headcanons I have some:

Loop: (I got 2) Cotard's Solution by Will Wood and Dr Sunshine Is Dead by Will Wood

Siffrin: 2012 by Will Wood

Honestly that whole album (SELF-ish) is VERY good for siffrin and loop

And act 5/bad touch siffrin and isabeau is Satirist's Love Song by Lemon Demon to me

Yeah, I’m still ok with it!

As much as I love it when someone suggests a song that I’m already familiar with, I equally am excited about new songs and you just gave me a whole bunch!

Now I have more songs to try out and get lose my sanity over this game in new flavors, I can’t wait!! /srs