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Still, there is this terrible desire to be loved.

Still, there is this horror at being left behind.

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I am a lover without a lover. I’m lovely and lonely and I belong deeply to myself .

Warsan Shire

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I'm impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes. I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.

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I tell myself all kinds of things about you, and we fall for you every time.

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" I crave you in the most innocent form. I crave to say good night and give you forehead kisses and to say that I adore you when you feel at your worst. I crave you in ways where I just want to be next to you and nothing more or less."

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When you love someone, you start sounding so much like them.

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“ it hurts the worst when the person made you feel so special yesterday makes you feel so unwanted today”

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I’m guarding this heart. It might be dusty and weary by the time I have met you but it will be yours.

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And I imagine when I die, the extreme love in me will help me grow a tree out of body, one which every tired soul after my own will rest under.

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The idea of ‘but he's not here’ always takes away a bit of beauty from every beautiful place I go.

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I was accepting your flaws when I failed to embrace even my own.

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If only I didn’t fear rejection, I would make my love for you obvious. So I decided to love you in silence instead.

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I’m partially responsible for my tiredness because that’s the price you pay when you are so desperate to keep the people you love around you. You forgive too much, you apologise for being right, and when they hurt you, you bandage the wounds with excuses you made up for them.

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I’m a victime of my own thoughts more then I’m a victim of people’s thoughts about me.

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It has been happening all my life, this business of making people satisfied at the expense of my own comfort.

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Attention says that if you treated your partner like the main event of your life, they will include you in every chapter of theirs.

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Out of fear of losing people, we try to keep up with their expectations until it is ourselves that we lose.