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sic infit

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"hanako?"

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Face the Light.

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the wolf who rises

there, in the limelight, I stood,

struggling to carve myself into shadow.

He loomed over me, watching, waiting—

a hyena cloaked in the skin of a wolf.

I can still hear it—the cackle of power,

His laugh as sharp as lightning,

a menacing rasp that fractures the air.

fangs glisten, bloodied, under the searing lights,

eyes like a hollow moon—cold, empty, unfeeling.

hot breath ghosts my neck.

a jagged smile hovers, patiently waiting

for the snap of bone beneath His teeth.

does He know His own nature?

our bodies shift, backs pressed 

against the crushing weight of the world that surrounds us.

are my hackles raised 

by the noise of the restless pack encircling us, or fear?

a howl splits the darkness—

a jagged, sneering cry that scratches at the night.

as the flashing lights burn brighter, His eyes darken,

deepening to shadow. claws—sharp and cruel—

pierce my skin, step by step, relentless.

my hackles flatten, teeth grinding shut, tail forced down.

my body betrays me, yet I cannot yield.

I am the strong wolf. I must stand tall.

His sneer, as violent as torrential rain, floods me,

and I face the crackling lightning,

feeling every shock burn through my bones.

I am not sure if I am howling or screaming

as I stare to the sky, heavy with storms.

then, from the depths of the dark, another voice rises,

strong, clear. soft yellow eyes, bright like the sun,

burn through the blackened sky.

my voice shakes, falters—but more join in,

a chorus of wolves rising, 

and in that moment, I remember.

I am the wolf.

the hyena, disguised in power, is gone.

did He flee, or has He lost Himself in His own cruelty?

scarred tongues lick at my wounds,

and my legs tremble, reliving the sharp bite

of razor teeth I convinced myself were only nightmares.

my battered body lowers to the earth, 

cocooned by the warmth of my pack,

surrounded by the pulse of solidarity.

I hadn’t realized how cold I was

until I was wrapped in the heat of belonging.

but even in the comfort of the pack, a question lingers—

did He choose to become hyena, or was it forced upon Him,

forged from generations of violence,

a skin that never fit,

but one He wore anyway?

am I not also shaped by a fractured history of struggle,

a wolf only because I’ve learned to survive the darkness?

the night is still,

air thick with the scent of rain,

and the wolves around me breathe in steady rhythm,

reminding me that I am not alone.

in this pack, I am more than my wounds.

the lightning surging in my bones cannot

electrocute me any longer. instead, 

it becomes a source of power.

I am not just the wolf who stands,

but the wolf who rises.

when the dawn breaks,

I will raise my head, and

the light will find me whole.

-December 11, 2024-

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the real reason I'm an art major

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Happy birthday Technoblade. ❤️

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corridor in the asylum

these shadows stretch and reach

to take hold of my mind

and capture my dreams.

they trap me in my head,

yellow as a warning,

feeding into the emptiness

of this corridor.

no escape.

I cannot free my mind

from the eternity

of this haunted place.

I search for the light,

hoping that somehow

I will find something real

at the end of the darkness.

the haven I sought has

pushed me deeper into

the confines of my own mind.

only this time,

I have nowhere to run,

nowhere to hide,

no way to escape.

if this is to be my asylum,

I must transform my fear

into hope.

this place has filled me 

with shadows so I must

fill it with light.

but I do not know how to.

there is no running

from myself

in a place like this.

I’ll try to fly through the

endless hallways but someone

(Oh I) will clip my wings

and I will drop from the stale air.

as I fall

I will not know which way is

up or down,

left or right.

reality breaks and bends;

it destroys the archways that

support my soul

but cage my heart.

I must paint and paint

until someone sees that

I have lost my mind.

I cannot escape, no

I can’t get out of this prison.

someone help me please I

am lost and wandering

through eternal darkness

in a feeble attempt

to chase the light

and find a nonexistent cure,

to search for my dream that has started

to bleed into a nightmare.

help me, for I am

surrounded by

myself

and I am forever hollow.

-January 26, 2023-

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through the night

soon the night will begin to fade

and we will look forward to a better day.

please, my dear, do not be afraid.

I will make even the darkest shadows go away,

and we will look forward to a better day.

but for now, find comfort in my embrace.

I will make even the darkest shadows go away,

and we will make it through whatever we face.

but for now, find comfort in my embrace.

I’ll pull you from this nightmare,

and we will make it through whatever we face;

I will always be right there.

I’ll pull you from this nightmare

and I’ll help you find light in the darkness.

I will always be right there.

I am here to help you escape this loneliness.

soon the night will begin to fade

and I’ll help you find light in the darkness.

please, my dear, do not be afraid;

I am here to help you escape this loneliness.

-March 13, 2023-

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Scratch the Itch.

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hiya! I'm Addi. I use she/her pronouns :3

this is the account I will be using to post my own creations. art, poetry, writing snippets, oc stuff, fanwork, etc. posts will probably be infrequent lol (suffering college student)

please do not repost my work on any other social media, thank you!

Instagram: addi_marsart

this pin will be updated as needed. hello! :3