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video game rocks

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Not exactly sure what drew me to this website. Maybe accidentally discovering House’s profile? But while I’m here, I might as well introduce myself.

My name is Dr. James Wilson, and I’m the head of oncology at the Princeton Plainsboro Teaching Hospital.

I’m also unfortunately the only friend of one @gregs-house. It has its ups and downs.

I’ll likely be using this as a sort of diary, as well as a q&a forum, not that I’m a well known public figure or anything.

Just keep things polite and we’ll get along just fine.

— W

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could you forgive yourself, seeing what you’ve become?

Close up and alt background color bc I’m indecisive

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just playing around with a couple grace transitions

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so.. sleepy... must... eep

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i like when you watch a video essay from 5+ years ago and they make a joke/apologize for how long the video is and the runtime is like. 35 minutes. when we now live in an era of 3 hour intricate breakdowns of bad kids shows being everywhere.

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its crazy that a lot of what we call 'video essays' these days are basically low budget documentaries on increasingly weird and niche topics. no network approval no tv budget just one guy with maybe a hired editor/writer and a couple of friends willing to read voice lines. and then they put it on youtube like its no big deal. insane.

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he hasn’t heard a single word

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mads mikkelsen and robert pattinson need to do a movie together just because the promo interviews would be chaos personified

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they should invent an understanding and intellectualizing your feelings that makes them go away!!!

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The reading comprehension and overall common sense on this website is piss poor.

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When I was younger and more abled, I was so fucking on board with the fantasy genre’s subversion of traditional femininity. We weren’t just fainting maidens locked up in towers; we could do anything men could do, be as strong or as physical or as violent. I got into western martial arts and learned to fight with a rapier, fell in love with the longsword.

But since I’ve gotten too disabled to fight anymore, I… find myself coming back to that maiden in a tower. It’s that funny thing, where subverting femininity is powerful for the people who have always been forced into it… but for the people who have always been excluded, the powerful thing can be embracing it.

As I’m disabled, as I say to groups of friends, “I can’t walk that far,” as I’m in too much pain to keep partying, I find myself worrying: I’m boring, too quiet, too stationary, irrelevant. The message sent to the disabled is: You’re out of the narrative, you’re secondary, you’re a burden.

The remarkable thing about the maiden in her tower is not her immobility; it’s common for disabled people to be abandoned, set adrift, waiting at bus stops or watching out the windows, forgotten in institutions or stranded in our houses. The remarkable thing is that she’s like a beacon, turning her tower into a lighthouse; people want to come to her, she’s important, she inspires through her appearance and words and craftwork.  In medieval romances she gives gifts, write letters, sends messengers, and summons lovers; she plays chess, commissions ballads, composes music, commands knights. She is her household’s moral centre in a castle under siege. She is a castle unto herself, and the integrity of her body matters.

That can be so revolutionary to those of us stuck in our towers who fall prey to thinking: Nobody would want to visit; nobody would want to listen; nobody would want to stay.

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went to the grocery store today and i was very pleased by their pride cake selections

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02.06 | epidemiology

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Here’s a video so you can hear the water and the thrushes. I took it for you because you couldn’t be there. <3

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actually, "autism is a huge part of who i am and i'm proud of it" and "autism is a disability that requires accommodations" are both true statements that can and should coexist