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The Ram’s New Wave

Spring rolled through and swept the rug from under my feet

It shook the table and tipped the cup I had tried so hard to fill

It’s thunderstorms washed away all that lacked life

Ushering in an abundance of energy I simply could not tap into

I lay here with thoughts exploding in my mind

While the whole world keeps moving

Passing me by

Where will I go

What will I be

Is there anyone out there who will truly love me

Will they appreciate my heart

Will they understand my truth

Was my love not enough to keep you

Was it ever though

Enough

Because I’m standing here

Feeling alone in this world

Hoping that where you are

Is exactly where you want to be

Trying to understand why where you want to be

wasn’t here with me

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Aquarian Affection

You’re the person I wanna cuddle up with on the couch all day

You’re the one who always puts a smile on my face

Can’t stop thinking about you and the way you move your waist

It’s so much more than that cause you’re not the type to just let anyone have a taste

You’re heart is what I’m after

The rest is just the icing on the cake

And when I look at you

My whole world lights up

Someday I hope I get the chance

To show you what I mean

We can have a bad romance

Cause you’re the baddest

you’re the illest

You’re the reason I’m putting this pen to this paper and letting out my feelings

You make me good and you make me right

And all I hope is to get to sleep next to you at night

I’ll support your dreams and support your truth

I’ll lift your whole world up

Give my whole world to you

Even if these words make me look like a fool

At least I let them out

At least we’re still cool

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King of the Friendzone™️

You’re just my friend

I need to keep reminding myself

Even though I look at you

Like maybe you’re magic

You look at me like everyone else

You’re just my friend

My thoughts are bad habits

They keep running wild

Hoping you might see me

And be just a little bit attracted

You’re just my friend

And you make my world

A better place

But I can’t help think about

What it’d be like to kiss up on your face

You’re just my friend

Things won’t change

Even though it hurts my heart

My feelings for just remain the same

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Ride Off

When you told me you were leaving to find love it broke my heart

I was standing here in front of you hoping you would take mine

Praying that somehow maybe someway what I had could start a spark

My love for you went up in flames but it was only my world that was on fire

It was only my heart that wished one day I could be the man that you desire

I feel like a fool

Spilling my emotions out to you

Letting you in

Hoping maybe your attention was something I could win

Only to realize

You’re love and attention had already been given

That every moment I had with you meant more to me than you could ever imagine

Fuck all my feelings

They don’t matter any way

The world still keeps moving

Won’t slow down to my pace

So I can figure out these feelings

Let go of these emotions

My mind was playing tricks

It really had me hoping

That maybe you felt the same

But you don’t

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Acceptance

I cried when I prayed for you last night

Cause I basically asked God to get you out of my life

Because I want you to see the world

I want you to find everything you’ve been looking for

I want your heart to be full of joy

And that means you can’t be in this town anymore

You have to spread your wings and fly

And even though it breaks my heart

I know we’ll have to say goodbye

But every minute every moment that we’ve spent has made my life so much better

You changed my entire life

Got rid of all the cloudy weather

And even though you don’t have the same feelings for me

I’ll stick around because I promised that no matter what I’d be down to just be your homie

I wish it could be different but I can’t change your heart

But I knew you would break mine from the very start

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Neither

Is that my lover

I hear calling

Down by the river

A siren

With strands of amber

Running through his beard

Glowing

Hot to the touch

Cold to the core

Is that my lover

I see

Up in the mountains

Buzzing with excitment

 An energy

With eyes that electricify

Full of adventure and wonder

Radiating

Pulling me in

Just to spit me back out

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Scales of Lava

If I could have my way

We we would be together

I’d fly us out

Hit fashions shows

And just soar over gloomy weather

But life is funny ain’t it

How we could be

In the same place

But still in different places

You hustle fast

You get your cash

You fill your cup

And let it flow

Into other places

And you’re a real beauty

Not just the surface

You inspire those around you

And help them serve their higher purpose

When I look at you

it feels like magic

And that’s what makes

this shit so tragic

These things I feel

Are really only

Just one sided

So at night I pray

That God heals my heart

And keeps me guided

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I’ll Never Ask Out Loud

You’d rather get attention

From other men than me

Even though I listen

When you talk about your family

Even though I see past

All the materialistic bullshit

I can see it in your heart

You’re a good man

Your home is your fortress

Only the finest gems of beauty

Really catch your eye

Only men full of melanin

Bring you’re hearts dreams out to life

And yet here I stand

My heart open

My words free

Hoping what I have to offer

Will be enough

For some of your attention

Just for me

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The Venus Fly Grid

Do you know what it’s like to really feel ugly?

To be told you’d be cute if you weren’t so chubby?

Have you ever sent a pic and got no response?

Have you ever sent a pic and got straight cut off?

Have you ever spent hours scrolling through a grid of faceless pics, hoping that you’d find someone who wasn’t just about the dick?

Have you ever felt so lonely that you’d fuck just to fill the void?

Have you ever cuddled with a perfect stranger just to feel some warmth?

Have you ever logged on just for attention?

Cause the man you want don’t show you love or affection

Have you ever deepened your voice just to make it seem like you were masc?

Have you ever felt like your whole life you’ve been wearing a mask?

I wish I could let it go and just be myself, but these feelings and thoughts keep fucking up my mental health

So now I’m stuck with this image in my head

And if I don’t look like that, no one will want me in their bed

So I work out

My blood, sweat, and tears

One hundred pounds

Is that all I can lose in a year?

It’s not enough

I tear myself to shreds in front of every mirror

And all for what?

The void I’m trying to fill

Is just my fear

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What I Want the Most

When I think of you

It makes me want to be a better man

I want to love and nurture something

Just stay on plan

Not run away

When life starts to feel like it’s slipping

Through my hands

I want to grow

Fill my own cup

And watch it overflow

I want to build

I’ll start from scratch

And watch it grow

Not like you

When shit got hard

You’d pack it up

Hit the road

I’m not a man

Not yet at least

I’ve got room to grow

But I’ll get there

I’ve got the heart

To follow through

I know

I won’t give up

I’m here to win

I won’t give up the fight

I’ll be a man

On my own

In my own right

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Cups Run Dry

I may be drunk in love

But I’m not fucking stupid

I can see the writings on the wall

And now I’m feeling really foolish

Am I game?

Am I just some sort of fucked up joke?

You entertained?

My feelings are bruised

And now my heart’s exposed

But you don’t see

Or maybe you do

And it rocks my fucking world

To think I may not

Really even mean shit to you

Why?

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Estrellita De Amor

Todo con calma

El amor se cruesa

Una semia de futuro

Llena de la vida

Esperando que nosotros

Llegamos a el dia

En que las estrellas

Nos tocan y nos dan la guia

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Holding Back

I’m holding back

All the drama

All the issues

Just holding back

Cant let them out

It’s like they live inside my head

They run their mouths

Got me tossing and turning In my bed

They’ve got me sitting here

Tearing my existence up to shreds

Can’t let them out

It just don’t feel right

Cause that’s all in my head

That ain’t the real life

And the more I hang on

The more I can’t breathe right

I need flight

To get outta here

To the to the next place

Where the skies are clear

Elevate

The just the only place to go

Can’t hesitate

Get up and try

Cause if you don’t

You’ll never know

Can’t run away

The next chapters here

It’s time play

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Open

I’m afraid to let you know

So I’ll just write my feelings down on paper

There’s mixed emotions

Restless nights

You’re the tequila

I’m just the chaser

Your lonely eyes

And wicked smile

Drew me in

I knew I could smell danger

I could feel you

No spoken words

Just passing bodies

But I could feel you

Is it just in my head

Or is what I’m feeling really true

Just another lonely soul

That can’t seem to find a way through

My thoughts were caged

And my feelings kept tight

Wanted no part of you

Cause my mind wasn’t working right

I had it flipped

Trippin on a stupid script

That I had written inside my head

Damn that was some stupid shit

I ran around

Making you out to be the bad guy

But it was me

I was just stuck on standby

I’m not really even sure what brought us back together

There were a lot of storms

And tons of gloomy weather

But your smile broke my clouds

And I started breathing right

I even got some sleep

And started dreaming through the night

And I feel good

I’m filled with hope

It’s almost like

You’re my own

Extra special kind of dope

You make me better

You make me pass

You make me want to get ahead

And stop living in the past

I wanna tell you what you mean to me

Your entire being

Just brings me ecstasy

You get me lifted

You make me high

I see the future

When I look into your eyes

But that’s just me

I don’t know about you

Do you get the same feelings

When you look at me too?

Does your heart skip a beat

When I flash a smile?

Does the smell of my cologne

Ever drive you wild?

When you’re laying all alone

Do you ever think of me?

And dream about how great

You and me could be?

I don’t know

But I hope to find out

So I’ll hang on to this feeling

Until It’s done

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