affection-starved-starfish

[affection-starved-starfish]

i want the romanticized version of an ed not whatever the fuck this shit is

[affection-starved-starfish]

I think a lot about how we as a culture have turned “forever” into the only acceptable definition of success.

Like… if you open a coffee shop and run it for a while and it makes you happy but then stuff gets too expensive and stressful and you want to do something else so you close it, it’s a “failed” business. If you write a book or two, then decide that you don’t actually want to keep doing that, you’re a “failed” writer. If you marry someone, and that marriage is good for a while, and then stops working and you get divorced, it’s a “failed” marriage.

The only acceptable “win condition” is “you keep doing that thing forever”. A friendship that lasts for a few years but then its time is done and you move on is considered less valuable or not a “real” friendship. A hobby that you do for a while and then are done with is a “phase” - or, alternatively, a “pity” that you don’t do that thing any more. A fandom is “dying” because people have had a lot of fun with it but are now moving on to other things.

I just think that something can be good, and also end, and that thing was still good. And it’s okay to be sad that it ended, too. But the idea that anything that ends is automatically less than this hypothetical eternal state of success… I don’t think that’s doing us any good at all.

[affection-starved-starfish]

stim toys and keeping my nails trimmed is not enough i need one of those cones they put on dogs after the vet

[affection-starved-starfish]

did it hurt? when you realized that your childhood trauma was going to affect you for the rest of your life and truly changed you as a person and didn’t just give you a good sense of humor?

[affection-starved-starfish]

[affection-starved-starfish]

how i am vs how i want to be

[affection-starved-starfish]

[affection-starved-starfish]

My mum: you always on that damn phone 😠😠

Me: BITCH There are little ed ppl in here that like me

[affection-starved-starfish]

[affection-starved-starfish]

the feminine urge to completely destroy your health for beauty standards

[affection-starved-starfish]

constantly opening and closing this app like a fridge

[affection-starved-starfish]

adult life might be full of pain and suffering but at least we dont have to do PE anymore

[affection-starved-starfish]

Hearing someone else say “I haven’t eaten all day” literally causes me physical pain

[affection-starved-starfish]

me: man i sure am hungry but i dont know what to eat

brain: then just fucking eat nothing

me: understandable have a good day

[affection-starved-starfish]

me: I will do things when I am less tired

me: *never becomes less tired*

me: oh no

[affection-starved-starfish]

I'm gonna miss the energy I had for those 2 weeks tho

[affection-starved-starfish]

Well I tried. I fucking tried. For like 2 weeks, I know it's not a long time but still I tried and it didn't work I think I'm not ready to recover just yet