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Dead by Daylight or why most players will never be satisfied

I'll start by saying that I primarily play as a killer, though I also have experience playing as a survivor. I've been playing since 2022, with breaks in between. After another six-month break, I recently returned to the game.

1. The eternal conflict between killers and survivors

Whenever Behaviour announces changes aimed at improving the experience for survivors, it's almost guaranteed to upset most killer players— and vice versa.

And this is understandable. Killers dislike gen-rushing, while survivors hate tunneling and camping. These are undoubtedly some of the most frustrating strategies to play against. So what happens?

Players complain about these "unfair" tactics.

The developers implement changes to address the complaints.

The other side starts hating the update.

This cycle is normal. In fact, it's a fundamental part of balancing the game. However, in my opinion, the developers don’t always handle this balance particularly well—but more on that later.

2. Why Does Gen-Rushing and Tunneling/Camping Happen?

Let's take a look at certain killers—Oni, Plague, Nemesis, Nightmare, Shape (just to name a few). These killers rely on their secondary stage to become truly threatening, and their early-game strength is relatively weak.

Now, imagine playing as Plague and seeing three generators get completed before you even reach your Corrupt Purge. This significantly weakens your potential and gives survivors an enormous advantage. Naturally, they will take advantage of this.

On the other hand, when faced with such overwhelming gen pressure, Plague might have no choice but to tunnel or camp just to secure a kill. And, it's will take advantage of this strategy too.

However, these problems become almost irrelevant when playing killers like Nurse, Blight, Hillbilly, Mastermind, or Spirit—characters with strong abilities right from the start.

Because of this, Dead by Daylight’s meta has remained largely unchanged despite numerous updates. The Nurse and Blythe have been on top for years because the abilities of these killers are rarely reworked on a fundamental level.

3. Balancing the Game

As I mentioned earlier, it’s natural for one side to dislike updates that favor the other. However, if the meta remains unchanged, the game doesn’t evolve — it only gets surface-level tweaks.

This ongoing conflict between killers and survivors has persisted for years, and I doubt it will end anytime soon.

I understand that it’s impossible to perfectly balance every killer perks — there are simply too many variables. But what can be balanced is the approach players take to the game.

Instead of making minor adjustments to individual perks or characters, the developers can focus on shifting player incentives —making sure that repetitive, unchanging strategies become less rewarding.

4. What Can Be Done?

In my opinion, we need a more meaningful ranking system. After not playing for six months, I managed to reach the highest killer rank in a week without even sweat. If anyone can do that, then the ranking system is essentially meaningless.

Introducing separate public and ranked matches could significantly improve the experience.

For example, rewarding survivors for performing objectives beyond just repairing generators would encourage alternative strategies instead of pure gen-rushing. The same could be done for killers—offering incentives for playstyles beyond just tunneling and camping.

Ranked mode could also introduce restrictions—perhaps banning certain perks, killers, or overly oppressive builds to create a fairer playing field. Meanwhile, the public matches could remain completely open, allowing players to experiment freely.

And that brings me to my final point.

5. This is a game — play however you want

Survivors shouldn’t have to follow arbitrary "killer rules," just like killers aren’t obligated to play by the made-up "survivor rules." If the game allows you to do something, then you should feel free to do it. There’s nothing wrong with that.

Despite its age, Dead by Daylight still has enormous potential. I truly believe in its continuous development.

If you’ve read this far—thank you for your time! I’d love to hear your thoughts in the comments, whether you agree or disagree.

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The Mandela Catalogue, first impression, without spoilers.

I’ve just watched Vol. 1-2-3, and I am ABSOLUTELY in love with this horror series created by a 21-year-old talent, Alex.

Let me start by saying—this kind of horror could never have been made with commercial intent. What I mean is, this new genre was born and can only truly thrive within the indie scene. I can’t imagine a scenario where any major film studio would create something like this. The economic risks, the unconventional storytelling, the low box office potential, the moral boundaries that corporations can’t afford to cross—all of it makes this an impossible project for the mainstream industry.

And that’s exactly why I adore indie horror. You get to witness a genre being born right before your eyes. In this case - analog horror.

The main antagonists of this horror universe are the Alternates.

Who are the Alternates?

Alternates are supernatural entities capable of taking human form and imitating human behavior. They spreading terror in ways that are deeply unsettling.

Key characteristics of the Alternates:

Imitation of humans – They copy the appearance, voice, and mannerisms of their victims.

Uncanny behavior – Their unnatural facial expressions, distorted voices, and body movements betray their inhuman nature.

Psychological terror – They don’t just kill. They drive their victims to madness or even suicide.

Mysterious origins – There are hints that their existence is tied to some kind of paranormal or demonic interference.

Threat classification system – The world within the story has a warning system to alert people about Alternate activity and provide survival guidelines.

What Fascinated Me the Most?

The fact that the Alternates are, in a way, Alex himself.

He doesn’t shove horror in our faces. He doesn’t rely on cheap jump scares. Instead, he crafts an atmosphere so deeply unsettling that our own minds do the rest.

Take a look at this image:

Even without seeing the horrific image, I had already generated something that scared me. Although these are just silhouettes, trying to imagine what it might look like, honestly, gives me goosebumps.

This is what I love about horror—when it’s about atmosphere, not just things jumping at your screen. I’ve seen enough horror tricks to be desensitized to most of them, but The Mandela Catalogue is something special. P.s:There is a lot I would like to discuss, but I don't want to spoil the plot for those who will see it and are interested, better experience it for yourself. It worth your time.

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Pumpkin is silly.

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dev1l t0wn

I forgot my name again.

I think, that's something worth remembering.

Spiders in your favorite choose.

Just leave them, because theyre more scared of you.

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That same tense dialogue feels like:

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I feel stuck.

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Ability to let people go.

When you miss someone, take a moment to reflect: do you miss the person they are now, or the warm moments you once shared together?

Even if you were once the closest of friends, sometimes life takes you on different paths. It’s possible that you’re better off without each other now, yet you can still cherish the fond memories that remain in your heart.

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No matter what happend in the past.

It's never too late to build something new.

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A suckessful suckess.

A post for those who are feeling the same pressure that I did not too long ago.

You're 20+ and don't have your own apartment and car? Loser. You take breaks instead of grinding 70 hours a week? Weakling. You work as a packer, cashier, or delivery man? You'll never achieve anything in life

No wonder, with this kind of societal pressure, people drop dead at 25 from heart attacks, having fried their hearts on energy drinks.

I’ve reflected on this and realized a few things that convinced me this pressure is artificial, baseless, and utterly meaningless.

1. Social Media

Take a platform like Instagram. We often see feeds and reels full of profiles showcasing luxury lifestyles - flashy cars, and other symbols of wealth.

But here’s the question: has anyone ever posted about being broke? About feeling like a loser who can’t make ends meet? (I’m not talking about people seeking donations; I mean individuals just being real about themselves).

When we look at the cover—the profile—we don’t see the full story. We don’t see the person behind it, their journey, or even if they really own any of what’s in those posts. Unfortunately, these curated images rake in the likes and can deeply demotivate others.

When we look at the cover - the profile - we don’t see the full story. We don’t see the person behind it or even if they really own any of what’s in those posts. Unfortunately, these images/posts/reels rake in the likes and can deeply demotivate others.

2. Money = happiness :)

Ever seen Jim Carrey’s mansion? If not, check it out and then read about the mental state he’s struggled with. Happiness is subjective, I won’t argue with that.

But one thing’s clear: humans adapt to everything. This phrase is often used when bad things happen, but we adapt to good things even faster.

Sure, at first, having money is exhilarating. But that thrill doesn’t last forever. Remember, having a ton of money won’t make you happy indefinitely.

In fact, working as a cook in a café, you can confidently say the people around you aren’t fake or overly eager to kiss up to you. The same can’t always be said for wealthy individuals. I’ve had personal encounters with such people, and trust me, it’s a whole other vibe.

3. “Humiliating” jobs.

Cashiers, janitors, servers, mail carriers, cooks, and so on—all these jobs are important. Yet, for some reason, society thinks it’s okay to look down on people in these roles. Even worse, people demean them while actively benefiting from their services, lol.

Absurd? Absolutely. But it’s reality.

What’s important to remember is this: as long as you’re doing something you love, it doesn’t matter whether it pays a lot or a little. There’s nothing wrong with that.

4. Personal Experience

If anyone thinks I’m just a lazy bum, let me hit you with some facts.

There was a period in my life when I was grinding non-stop, like a hamster on a wheel - 60 hours a week, night shifts, with just one day off. For 10 straight months.

Sure, I won’t lie, the paycheck was decent for that kind of work. But was it worth it? Absolutely not. I made good money, but the toll it took wasn’t worth it.

Burnout, insomnia, constant exhaustion, nervous breakdowns - I’d sometimes go a whole day without eating because the stress levels were through the roof. It took me around six months to return to my norm after quitting that job.

So, let me wrap this up:

If you see others living a luxury lifestyle, that doesn’t mean you should destroy yourself trying to be like them. Money won’t make you endlessly happy, and it’s not a cure-all for life’s problems. If you enjoy doing something, do it—regardless of its status or what others think. Don’t follow the “right” path, follow your path. Don't make the same mistake I did - don't grind yourself to a pulp at some freaking job. It will end badly, even if it pays good.

Believe in yourself. That’s what matters most.

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Sometimes it's so hard for me to find a common language with people that I feel like I'm from another planet.

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How to eat.

Brain: Hey buddy, we need to eat something.

Me: Okay, wait (bring some food)

Brain: U know what ? I change my opinion.

Me: ...

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Pumpkin is silly

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Have you forgotten how we played here?

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Happy New Year, Tumblr! 💖

I’m happy because I can leave behind all the mess that was with me last year. I see it as a kind of rebirth, lol.

As funny as it might sound, it gives me a huge boost. I wish everyone to find themselves in the coming year. Also, I wish you inner progress, success in life, and to take big steps in 2025 that will change your life for the better compared to what you have now.

I’ve learned a lot of life lessons, for which I thank 2024. But honestly, I ask this year to leave me for good, haha. It’s time to move on.

Sending hugs to everyone, believe in yourself, and you’ll achieve everything you desire!

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kekw

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Sometimes all I want is a person with whom I have as much mutual understanding and connection as possible. The universe has decided that this is too much.