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I don't even know why I'm sad anymore

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You did not need to ruin my day like that

I always think about why the original Six of Crows and Crooked Kingdom covers are in silver and gold. And then I realized.

Silver is represented by five crows. And there are only five Crows POV's in Six of Crows.

Gold is represented by six crows. And there are six Crow POV's in Crooked Kingdom.

And also why Kaz named the Emerald Palace the Silver Six, because one Crow disappeared forever, so now they are at five again.

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"improper use of an exy racquet" would technically be correct for the scene where aaron bashes drake's brains in

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I have drawn the conclusion upon re-reading aftg that Aaron was never an asshole, the poor guy was just some traumatized 20 year old trying to pass his pre- med major while being on a shitty Exy team, having a brother high on psychotic drugs (who also killed his mother), an ex-raven who wouldn’t shut up about how much he sucked on the court, and a cousin who lacked awareness of a social filter. and then a loudmouthed kid shows up and makes everything about 150% more difficult. also he was trying to have a successful secret relationship. i too would be a miserable bitch 24/7 my god

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All roads unfortunately lead back to tumblr.

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Maybe I should try this

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Same.

"Ninety-nine percent" they make me wanna implode

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i still can’t believe I got catfished into reading a sports book. and then fell in love with it.

like how do I explain to people that reading a book about sports pulled me about of a depressive episode???

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NORA RELEASED THE SECOND TSC BOOK AND I DIDN'T KNOW???? WHY DIDN'T I KNOW??? AND ITS CALLED THE GOLDEN RAVEN?????????

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andrew minyard:

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THIS SCENE

“Nina …” Mick said. “Please don’t say that. I’m trying to explain to you why I wasn’t capable of being a father until now.” Nina shook her head. “If you were any kind of real parent, you would know that capable has nothing to do with it.” Mick frowned at her and sighed. “Do you think Mom felt capable of raising four children on her own? Holding her head up high when the whole world knew you’d left her, twice? Making all of the money, and doing all of the housework, and helping each of us with our homework? Making every single one of our birthdays special despite having no money and no time? Remembering that Jay likes chocolate cake with buttercream and Kit likes coconut cake and Hud likes yellow cake with chocolate frosting? Always having the perfect number of candles? “Do you think I felt capable of taking it all over after she fucking drowned? Do you think I felt capable of trying to pay all the bills and still scraping up enough money for coconut at the fucking Malibu Mart? Do you think I felt capable of holding each one of these guys as they woke up in the middle of the night remembering that they had essentially been orphaned? Do you think I wanted to drop out of high school so I could do it all? That I wanted to be twenty-five years old without a high school diploma?” Mick flinched as he heard this, and when Nina saw the pinched look on his face, it pissed her off. “I didn’t feel capable of any of that! But did that matter? Of course not. So I’ve gotten up every single day since Mom died—and even a lot of the days before that—and I have done what needed to be done. Capable is a question I never had the luxury of asking. Because my family needed me. And unlike you, I understand how important that is.” “Nina—” Mick tried to interject. “You think I want to be here selling photos of my ass and living on this fucking cliff? No, I don’t. I want to be in Portugal somewhere living in a shack on the beach, riding waves and eating the catch of the day. But I don’t. I stay here. That’s what it means to be a family. Staying. Not just strolling into a party after midnight expecting a hug.” “Nina, you’re right. I’m a weak—” “Must be nice. To be able to be weak. I wouldn’t know.”

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The rage this man ignites in me.

I love how one of the big connectors in the Taylor Jenkins Reid universe is Mick Riva, an objectively HORRIBLE man. Instead of going "omg yay is Mick Riva", it's "ugh Mick Riva is back"

I'm gonna read Carrie Soto is Back soon and if that man gets a cameo again istg

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“She was a woman, after all. Living in a world created by men. And she had long known that assholes protect their own. They are faithful to no one but surprisingly protective of each other.”

Taylor Jenkins Reid, Malibu Rising

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kevin day and neil josten really said "we're each other's biggest fans and worst critics. we're jealous of what the other has, but are also incredibly protective of what the other has gone through. and we're obsessed with each other but can't stand each other. we push each other to be better while keeping our egos in check. no one can understand us better than each other but also hate that we understand each other. and i can only imagine my future with you by my side" and i'm supposed to be normal about them? fat chance

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my favourite thing about the perfect court is how they are all parallels of each other - each person could have ended up like one of the others, but they didn’t.

neil could’ve ended up like jean, if his mother hadn’t taken him and run. neil could’ve ended up like riko, if he’d internalised his father’s abuse and tried to earn his affection instead of fearing it. if he’d tried to become someone his father would be proud of - like riko does - he would’ve become heartlessly violent. but he doesn’t.

jean could’ve been like neil, if he’d had just one family member care about him enough to run. he could’ve ended up like kevin, if he’d gone with him when kevin ran. he could’ve been like riko, if he’d taken everything that had been done to him and inflicted it on the world/people around him, but he doesn’t.

kevin could’ve ended up like riko, if he’d twisted tetsuji’s abuse enough to believe that the things he deserved were taken from him. he could’ve ended up like jean, if he’d refused to run after his hand was broken.

riko could’ve ended up like any of them. if an adult had cared about him enough to save him, he could’ve ended up like neil. if he’d hated his father instead of fighting for his attention, or if he internalised the abuse he faced instead of inflicting the same abuse on others, he’d have been more like jean or neil. if he’d accepted his place and decided to fight for the things he did have - exy, kevin - he’d have been more like kevin. but he doesn’t.

yes, their situations are largely shaped by the people around them - riko, jean, and kevin (until he learns about wymack) do not have an adult in their lives that cares about them enough to change their situation. but it’s also their individual responses to their abuse that shapes how they act. i’m not trying to say that people get to choose their trauma response, but it’s important that riko and neil parallel each other because we’re shown the could have beens. it shows you that it really only takes one person to change everything - mary taking neil and running is so so so important for how neil’s character and personality and trauma response turns out.

neil could’ve ended up like riko, but he doesn’t. riko could’ve ended up like neil, but he doesn’t.

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Kevin may be Wymack's son and Dan may be the daughter he never had but Neil is Wymack's nepo baby. When the foxes do some dumb shit Wymack will always endeavor to give them another chance but if Neil does some dumb shit well then have you considered that maybe it's genius and you're the idiot? Huh? Bet you never thought of that.