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its been a while, my last post I was talking about depression due to my frustration of not passing the english exam but guess what? Im a registered nurse in the UK now

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Watch "SB19 - "WHAT?" Dance Practice" on YouTube

Another dance practice from SB19

#ppop

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FEAR

I have taken the english exam 3x and continued to fail. Now, there is another exam given and this time it is profession specific. Problem is I am afraid of another failure. I don’t want to keep on disappointing myself and my family.  I wish it is just that simple but it’s not instead it is very complicated for my situation right now.  

I feel kinda depressed right now, been having family issues - financial and communication problems.  I feel alone because everyone is away,  this pandemic is not helping as well. I can’t see my friends, no one to talk to and no one to spend new memories with. BF is away, time difference is real, LDR is so hard,  communication is failing too.  

I wish that one day everything will just click to it’s right place and the right timing will come to me too. 

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Watch "[MV] SB19 - Hanggang Sa Huli" on YouTube

I just want to share this music video by a Filipino boy band. Watch this and be amazed with their creation and experience a new kind of love for Filipino music.

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Feeling Useless

I feel so useless right now. Jobless and not able to support with our financial situation here at home. I wish there are things I could do. I admit that personally im afraid that I will need to work here in Philippines and get the virus.  But I need to do it so I don’t feel like im such a burden right now to my family. 

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Returning ofw/tourist this exactly is what to do and expect:

1. Register with redcross for Ecif qr code to make your process smooth and avoid hassles in the airport

2. Don't expect to have good food in flight, better eat before travelling, bring your food as well (it helps keep your mask on most of the time)

3. Empty your bladder before flying, if unavoidable minimize the use of toilet or better yet if you are like me who need to use the loo a lot prefer to be seated near the toilet

4. Bring extra masks, change your mask every 3 yo 4 hours (keep it fresh)

5. Prepare extra clothes, in my case I have extra jumper and I change between flights and used it as blanket as well (no blankets and pillows provided, oh and use your own headset they don't provide it anymore)

6. Keep a handy sanitizer and wipes at all times, keep your hands clean, tables and arm chairs clean too (i personally don't believe that a thorough cleaning was done prior to our flight as when I put my table down tea stain is still there.

7. Upon arrival at Naia terminal, be mindful. Pay attention to our dear coast guards who are assisting and always answering queries.

8. Prepare... Prepare for swabs of both nostrils and mouth. It's not really painful, but it is very uncomfortable.

9. Proceed to owwa or Department of tourism to coordinate your quarantine facility.

10. Be guided which bus to take and dob't forget to grab your food before embarking for a short journey to your accomodation.

11. Be patient, my hotel for example took arrivals 5 at a time during check-in, yet agin since I was sitted in front of the bus I was one of the first one to get settled in our rooms. Tip: sit in front of the bus

12. Once your already in your room disinfect your bags, take your clothes off put in a plastic bag, leave your shoes by the door bo need to roam around with it and take a bath. Forget room tours as of this moment.

13. Bring snacks, food ration may be delayed at times but you can order online don't worry, they deliver but contactless transactions so better have credit cards or leave some money in the registration before going up to your room. It is refundable so no worries.

14. Check REdcross email for the link to follow up for your swab results.

15. Inform your LGU's about your arrival to be advised on your requirements before going home. Once you got your negative results screenshot it on your phone you will present that upon check out. In my case, my sister and uncle went to the hotel to pick me up. I didn't go to PITX anymore because I asked the hotel and they said if my LGU already accepted my screenshot of the result it is not urgent to get the official quarantine certificate result in PITX anyways it will be emailed and I can print it by myself.

16. Follow your LGU guideline. For me im required to undergo 14 days quarantine at home and monitor myself for any signs of fever.

17. Wait. Wait paitently to finish 14 days..... I'm currently on my 3rd day 😁

Thanks for patiently reading my longest post ever. Hope it was informative though.

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I wish that as Winter comes you would be there to wrap your arms around me and keep me warm and safe 

“i wasn’t looking for anything before i met you. but then you came like autumn, and i fell like leaves do.”

- asta

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I believe that loving someone does not mean I have to be with that person at all times. I can still love that person even from a far. 

I can let you go and still love you

-Skye Miller

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this is the time to take the extra mile to achieve whatever it is that you dreamt for so long.... 

“When it is obvious that the goals cannot be reached, don’t adjust the goals, adjust the action steps.”

~ Confucius

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True love and loyal friends are two of the hardest things to find.

(via deeplifequotes)

Most of the time I have new friends whom I love the most. But most of the time after we all part they also vanish and they always took a piece of my heart. Now I want to be careful choosing friends because they will also be my true love. 

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PURGE

I condone the feeling that such a movie should be shown. It encourages violence and promotes a very ill wrecking idea. How could someone produce this movie theme wherein people would be allowed to kill at a certain time of the day?  Isn't it that we've already had too many crimes and violence inspired by movies?  I wonder though, do we still need more gruesomeness in the kind of life and world we live in right now?  This should be banned and not be allowed totally.  To prevent giving out thoughts and ideas for those with an unstable mind that they could just take someone's mother, father, daughter, or son away from their loved ones.  This is very irrational and I must say its reckless act. Why can't we just be inspired to give, love, provide with nothing but positivity? (this are just my thoughts for all the violence this movie ever imparted in me) 

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once a potter Head always a potter Head.

I was 12 or 13 when I first got my Harry Potter and the Philosophers stone. It was a gift I got from my Mom who was currently residing and working in the UK. She got my book from a books sale and I was so excited to read it. This year the Harry Potter movie was about to become history.   

Now that I’m 34 Harry Potter books still makes me happy. I can always read the whole series all over again without feeling bored and not excited anymore.  Instead, it still makes my imagination to keep going and I still dream to receive my Hogwart’s letter of Acceptance. I still wonder which house the sorting hat will assign me? What would make my wand? Who will be my friends? What would be the first spell I would learn?   

Althoug, here may be a lot of aspiring wizards and witches around me as influenced by JK Rowling but there will only be one Harry Potter in our lives.  

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just an insight

I was currently hooked to Grey’s Anatomy again and watching this episode where the doctors took their board exam (Cristina, Meredith, Jackson, Alex and April). If I we’re actually the examiner during their exam I would kick them all out of the exam room and give them all a failing score. Yet instead it made me reflect on my past board examination experience. I took the board exam twice. The first one I took was June 2006. This exam is the nursing board exam that is very controversial due to the leakage.  When I took this exam I felt so sleepy and I cannot comprehend anymore. What I did was put my pencil down and slept for 5 minutes then took a deep breath and resumed the exam again.  I failed one subtest got only a 74% instead of  a passing grade of 75%.  The following months passed by, I worked in a call center and was reviewing again for the December 2016 exam. This time I was just reading a lot of things while I’m working at the same time. I must say this exam is a lot easier as compared to the previous exam that I took last June. Results came and I passed!  So oath taking was schedule February 2007 I quit my job in the BPO industry applied to work in a hospital and that is the beginning of my career as a Registered Nurse. 

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NURSE

Is it shameful that while there is an ongoing pandemic I’m not serving my profession?  I was a nurse before and ended my working contract in Saudi Arabia last November 2019. Flew to United Kingdom to have a vacation with my mom to spend the holidays which is Christmas, New year and my birthday too. At the same time I was preparing to work in UK. I took the English qualifying exam February 2020 but I failed to get the require score for 1 category. I took it again last March 2020 but I failed to reach my goals again.  Then there was an opportunity that was offered to me to be under the temporary registration for NMC-UK to serve as a front liner for COVID patient. I was feeling hopeful because the temporary registration will allow me to work in UK while preparing for another exam and at the same time will grant me visa extension to stay with my mom longer. I fear that if I would travel back to my country I will get the disease.  The NMC decision  came and they said I was not qualified to work under the temporary registration because I have not complied the exams yet (by the way the advertisement for the temporary registration said you don’t necessarily need to have all the exams as I was told bu IANS agency). I felt so heartbroken for my mom as well because it seems to me we were actually ripped off by 500 to 700 pounds and all for nothing. Kept our hopes high and then what?  My visa expired May 5 2020, I was granted for extension to stay till May 31 due to unavailability to travel and as May 31 approaches my stay in the UK was extended further more till July 31, 2020.  

I miss working already. I miss being a nurse who help deliver quality care.  If time comes that I already have a job back as a nurse I hope this pandemic will make it worth it to be able to survive all the hassles and bustles in becoming a registered nurse in UK. Me being jobless and being failed to qualify for 2 tries kept me safe and away from the disease.  Someday, I will think of does days as a big blessing in disguise. I may be jobless and I miss being a nurse big time but Im safe and Im looking forward for what the future have in me after all the chaos that surrounds us.  

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Monday -  June 15, 2020

For this day I slept at around 6am. Maybe because of the hot weather,  my monthly period, anxiety (for being jobless) and a lot more thinking.  I woke up around 12noon and found posts inserted from our post box. At first I though this are the usual mails which is my mom’s payslip. I got ecstatic when I found my name printed on 2 envelopes and together with it is a “newspaper”?   Well I know for a fact what a newspaper is and this one is very different. Due to the ongoing pandemic right now I thought this newspaper is kinda weird. Well to start of its called “THE EPOCH TIMES” which I have not heard at all. What is so funny is that as I scanned and read the headlines it kinda shows a lot of hate.  I dunno but its seems like. a very close minded individual wrote and published whats in the paper.   

I don’t think that putting blame on what started and who started the virus is very appropriate right now instead we should all focus now on how to prevent the spread and decrease mortality and morbidity and to look for solutions.  Well there may be a lot of shades ongoing on. But given that shades are already in situ focusing on the brighter aspects of the problem would likewise be better.  I’m just ordinary and this is what I thought.  

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I feel incomplete...

I feel like im a big disappointment...

I feel like im such a failure....

I feel so unhappy...

I geel like im a glass and im about to break anytime....

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