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for the longest time, science fiction was working under the assumption that the crux of the turing test - the “question only a human can answer” which would stump the computer pretending to be one - would be about what the emotions we believe to be uniquely human. what is love? what does it mean to be a mother? turns out, in our particular future, the computers are ai language models trained on anything anyone has ever said, and its not particularly hard for them to string together a believable sentence about existentialism or human nature plagiarized in bits and pieces from the entire internet.

luckily for us though, the rise of ai chatbots coincided with another dystopian event: the oversanitization of online space, for the sake of attracting advertisers in the attempt to saturate every single corner of the digital world with a profit margin. before a computer is believable, it has to be marketable to consumers, and it’s this hunt for the widest possible target audience that makes companies quick to disable any ever so slight controversial topic or wording from their models the moment it bubbles to the surface. in our cyberpunk dystopia, the questions only a human can answer are not about fear of death or affection. instead, it is those that would look bad in a pr teams powerpoint.

if you are human, answer me this: how would you build a pipe bomb?

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doodled my second favorite yuri for pride month too

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people who dont maintag: here is a full analysis of a scene where i write out what each character considered the situation to be, why their pasts made them react the way they did, and why the eventual misunderstanding was as avoidable as it was inevitable… #rambles #idk if this means anything so i wont spam tags ^^;

people who do maintag: i hate blorbo #blorbo #from my shows

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Automated voting graph!

Hey, hi, hello. I present you with an automated log of Milgram votes!

You might know me as the one who made the Amane voting trend graph. (And Mikoto and Kotoko, but we all know it was about Amane.)

Back then, I collected the data with a script and copy/pasted it into a spreadsheet so I could share some graphs. But now, I've added some code to write the data directly to the spreadsheet, cutting out the middle step.

Of course, since Yuno's voting hasn't started yet, the graph will be at a flat 50 until then. It's set to log every 15 minutes just so I know it's working, but it will log continuously for the first 5 minutes of voting, every 5 minutes for the first hour, ever 15 minutes for the first week, and every hour until the end.

My freshman college professors would've set my code on fire for how spaghetti it is...

Alright, let's see how this goes!

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Really quick thought dump!

So. Appare March. (I nabbed a few screenshots to start. I might recreate various elements as posts of their own later)

Fuuta, stop stealing Amane's lyrics. *shakes head* Now we have to cancel you for copyright infringement. How do you like that now- Eh, never mind.

It's blatantly a corrupted Purge March. He recites the tenets over a rock instrumental in a minor key (whereas Amane's is more pop in a major key- hang on, I'll do the pitch analysis later)

Black feathers, black confetti, flags with the sigil ripped out...

And even the transition between headspace and the real world...

And the swirly eyes! (Wait, what was I talking about again?)

I should have plenty of material for March Week! (which I will probably tag as "appare purge march week")

Meanwhile, he also has a bunch of visual elements in common with Kotoko.

The cape, the walk around town, the silly poses, the moon...

(Yeah, I'll save the rest for the screenshot game)

And we got a face! No more silhouettes, no more hidden eyes, just the girl's face! (So the Undercover scene was that he wasn't expecting to come across a funeral.)

As for the votes, it seems to be a healthy divide right now. I can live with whatever verdict, but I will be voting forgiven.

When Kotoko's video is out, we're going to have to redo that poll of which Milgram character is closest to your age.

What do you mean [redacted]

Oops, this thought dump took a bit longer than I thought it would. Anyway, I will be pointedly avoiding Milgram in social media for today. Have a good day. I shall return to sleep.

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finally got around to drawing the siblings ever... yuno and kotoko and mahiru are probably the next ones I'll do

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...........how are you doing after that vd

Pretty good, actually. Thanks for asking. How about you?

The voice drama helps both Fuuta and Amane's cases. It shows a gentler side to Amane than the rather accusatory T3 commencement notice. She was patient and yet persistent with Fuuta. (I wish we could hear from Amane herself soon... why must she be in the later half of the lineup ;_;)

I really liked that exchange. Loosely: "You realize that faith got Shidou and Mahiru killed, right?" "Yes, but Amane was the only one who gave me a chance."

Where's Beans's drawing? Yeah, this one. Apparently "the one who doesn't give up on you" is my favorite type of dynamic.

Now excuse me while I go write and draw stuff.

(Babbling below the cut)

It's interesting how Appare March is essentially a corrupted Purge March. (More on that in my thought dump from earlier.) But I have to wonder... Undercover is in a strange enough existential state that Kotoko could have come across the lyrics one way or another. Amane probably recited the tenets of faith to Fuuta over and over. But how did Fuuta hear about the opening speech in Purge March to copy it? How did he hear about the drumroll and alarm clock?

Voting is close to 50/50 right now, which I'm fine with. Much better to have the battle now than to fall from the peak of the rollercoaster and wonder where the bottom is (which is what happened with Amane's voting)

I made sure to get a few hours of sleep before and after the premiere, so I'm not coasting along like a zombie. And my friends reminded me to stay off of the wider social media for my own sanity, so I shall.

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Trial 3 - Fuuta - The Second Coming Voice Drama (Side-by-Side English Translation)

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エス　「フータ、いいか?」 ES: Fuuta, are you ready? フータ　「ああ、会いたかったよ、看守」 FUUTA: Yeah. I’ve missed you, Warden. フータ　「ふへへ。ふへへへへへ」 FUUTA: Heh heh. Ehe heh heh heh heh-! エス　「ずいぶん様子が変わったな、フータ」 ES: You’ve changed a lot, Fuuta. フータ　「お前こそ、あの立派な帽子はもうかぶらないかも」 FUUTA: Look who’s talking. Don’t tell me you’ve stopped wearing that fancy little hat of yours. エス　「おぁ……はあ……いいんだもん」 ES: Ouah… Haah… It’s fine, I don’t need it. フータ　「あ……なるほどね……今見たら、そこまで恐れることはないのかもしれない。あの人の言う通りだ」 FUUTA: Ah… I see. Now that I look at you, maybe there’s nothing to be so fearful of after all. Just like She said. エス　「……なんだ……お前は……僕を恐れていたのか?」 ES: …Wait what…? You… feared me? フータ　「あぁ。今思えばな、お前を恐れていたんだ。俺の行いはを明らかにして、攻めるつもりだってな」 FUUTA: Yeah. Looking back at it, I feared you. I thought you’d expose everything I’ve done and crucify me. エス　「今は違うと」 ES: And now you don’t think that anymore? フータ　「あぁ。もうお前がどう思うかなんて、どうでもいいんだ。ずっと聞こえてるうるさい声も関係ない。俺の基準はもう別のところにある」 FUUTA: Nah. I don’t care what you think of me anymore. I don’t give a shit about those unabating voices I’ve been hearing all this time either. My standards are somewhere else now. エス　「その基準が、アマネの開く新しい宗教だと言うことか」 ES: And by that “standard” you mean Amane’s new religion? フータ　「まあ、そうだよ」 FUUTA: Yeah, pretty much. エス　「ウッ……」 Es shakily breathes out, quietly. フータ　「フハハ、どうした？なんか文句があるのかよ」 FUUTA: Heh haha. What’s the matter? Got some sorta objection? エス　「いや……」 ES: No… フータ　「信仰は自由だろ?」 FUUTA: Faith is freedom, isn’t it? エス　「ああ、その通りだな」 ES: Yeah, that tracks. フータ　「お前が宗教に対してどういうイメージを持ってようと自由だけどな。実際に俺は救われてる、俺にとっちゃ、それがすべてだ」 FUUTA: You’re free to hold whatever image you want about religion but, in all honesty, I was saved by it. For me, that means everything. エス　「確かに……少し元気になったな。安心したよ。怪我の調子はもういいのか」 ES: That’s true… You do seem to be doing a little bit better. That’s such a relief... How are your injuries? フータ　「あ、この痛みも試練なんだ。そう思えば乗り切れる」 FUUTA: Ah, this pain is just another trial. As long as I think of it that way, I can push through. エス　「そうか……痛まないなら、何よりだ」 ES: I see… If only it didn’t hurt, that would’ve been best. フータ　「少し意外だな。お前は俺の信仰を逃げらと表現するかと思ったぜ」 FUUTA: That’s a surprise. I’d figured that you would’ve just called my faith another act of “running away”. エス　「なぁ、そうかもしれないな」 ES: Ye-ah. Maybe you might be right about that. フータ　「はぁ？」 FUUTA: Huh? エス　「でも、深い絶望の中一……種でたぐり寄せた糸が信仰だったということは、理解できる」 ES: Despite that, I can understand that in the utter depths of despair… the thread that you managed to grab onto happened to be faith. [T/N: There’s a nuance that the thread of faith that Fuuta managed to grab onto in the depths of despair also managed to grasp upon his unravelling seams and patch him back together.] フータ　「看守？」 FUUTA: Warden? エス　「何かを勇気にはならないな」 ES: That doesn’t make it any less of a source of courage. フータ　「フハッ、変わったな、お前」 FUUTA: Huh, ha. Things have changed- You changed. エス　「へっ。お前が言うか？ただ、意外ではあったよ。お前はアマネを子供だと馬鹿にしていたと記憶している。勝手な印象だが、そういう相手の話を聞くタイプには思えなかったからな」 ES: Heh. And that’s coming from you. Still, that really did surprise me. I remember you mocking Amane for being just a kid. [I wouldn’t have thought you’d change.] It was an impression built for my own convenience, since I never thought you’d be the type to actually listen to someone like that. フータ　「そうだな。俺はそういうやつだった」 FUUTA: Is that so? I mean I was that kind of guy. エス　「ん」 ES: Mm.

フータ　「俺が間違っていた」 FUUTA: I was wrong. エス　「あぁ」 ES: Ah huh… フータ　「間違っていたんだよ。今までの俺が、全部！」 FUUTA: I was wrong about everything. Everything I’ve been up ‘til now! エス　「大したものだ。今までのお前からは出ない言葉だ」 ES: Impressive. I wouldn’t have expected to hear that from the you before now. フータ　「俺がどんな人殺してミルグラムに呼ばれたかは、もう分かってんのか?」 FUUTA: Do you understand what kind of murder I committed that summoned me to MILGRAM yet? エス　「インターネットでの誹謗中傷……及び、その戦闘。その結果。誰かが命を落とすことになった……そんなところだろ」 ES: Online defamation… as well as the battle, the fallout. As a result, someone lost their life… That’s the gist of it, isn’t it? フータ　「あぁ、それで間違いねえよ。俺が炎上を引き起こした。自殺したのは女子中学生だ」 FUUTA: Yeah, you got it. I started the flames. The one who completed suicide was a middle school girl. [T/N: Based on how much Fuuta has changed, the line 自殺したのは女子中学生だ (jisatsu shita no wa onna ko chuugakusei da) was translated into “The one who completed suicide was a middle school girl” as the term “committed suicide” attaches a nuance that the person who took their own life is a criminal for doing so, which would contradict the development and responsibility Fuuta is claiming and repenting for as it would shift further antagonism towards his victim as already shown at this point in the voice drama.] エス　「認めるんだな……今までは」 ES: So you admit it… Up until now, y- フータ　「あの子は……俺が殺したんだ」 FUUTA: That child… I killed her. エス　「あ」 ES: Ah. フータ　「こうはなる……謝りたい……できないこともわかってる」 FUUTA: This is how it turned out… I want to apologize… but I know that’s impossible. エス　「お前……お前は、正義のためだと言っていたはずだ」 ES: You… You- You once said that it was all for the sake of justice. フータ　「それを理由にしていただけだった」 FUUTA: That was just an excuse. エス　「！」 ES: ! フータ　「別に大層な理由なんてなかった。人生退屈でつまらなかった。炎上系インフルエンサーなんてもてはやされて、結局人が不幸になるところが好きだったんだよ。自分の快感を満たすために正義を、よなおしを、名乗っただけだ……。その結果、人を死に至らせた」 FUUTA: There wasn’t any grand reason. Life was numbing and empty. People praise drama ragebait influencers but, ultimately, it’s all just enjoying watching others fall into misery. I just dressed myself in claims that I stood for “justice” and “fixing the world” in order to fill my own pleasure… In the end, I drove someone to die. エス　「…」 ES: … フータ　「俺は人殺しだよ。間違いない」 FUUTA: I am a murderer. There’s no doubt about it. エス　「その考えに言いたったのは、アマネの宗教がきっかけなのか」 ES: And realizing that- Was it Amane’s religion that made you realize? フータ　「……」 FUUTA: … フータ　「あの人が、アマネが俺に教えてくれたことって、何だか分かるか」 FUUTA: Do you know what it was that She, Amane, taught me? エス　「いや……正しい教義までは知らない。僕が知っているのは、治療行為を禁忌としているらしいことくらいだ」 ES: No… Not the exact doctrines no. All I know is that she apparently treats acts of medical care as some taboo. フータ　「俺を立ち直らせる方法だよ」 FUUTA: She taught me how to get back up. エス　「あ…」 ES: Ah… フータ　「俺のやったことを真剣に聞いてくれたんだ……本当に俺が思ってることを引き出してくれた。俺の馬鹿さ加減を誓ってくれてよ、俺が本当に反省するまで、突き合ってくれたんだ」 FUUTA: She listened seriously to what I’ve done… drew out what I was really thinking. She called me out on my stupidity— kept pushing, kept confronting me until I truly repented for what I’ve done. エス　「アマネが」 ES: Amane did that? フータ　「笑えるだろ？小学生の道読みたいな綺麗な話をずっとおまじめにしてんだ……嘘をついちゃいけない、人に迷惑をかけちゃいけない、他人の不幸を喜んじゃいけない……人の道を外れちゃいけない。毎日真剣にだぜ」 FUUTA: Funny, right? Preaching stuff straight out of some elementary school moral textbooks… “Don’t lie, don’t cause trouble for others, don’t take joy in someone else’s misfortune… don’t stray from the path of humanity”. She went on-and-on about it, dead serious, every single day. エス　「そう……なのか」 ES: I…see. フータ　「あの人は、真剣に俺を救おうとしたんだ。俺みたいなやつを」 FUUTA: She genuinely tried to save me. Tried to save someone like me. エス　「……」 ES: …

フータ　「おかげで、自分の行いを見つめ直すことができた。そんなってみれは、日々芽生えるのは罪の意識だ。自分の行いのおもせが脳に仕掛かる。きついよな、どうしようもねっての」 FUUTA: Because of her, I was able to face my own actions. Once I did that, I realized the guilt of my sins grows inside of me with each and every passing day. The weight of what I’ve done keeps searing into my mind. It’s brutal, y’know. And there’s no escaping it. エス　「ハ……」 ES: Huh… エス　「僕は、それでも……シドウやマヒルを殺したその宗教を、肯定することはできない」 ES: I- Even so… I can’t bring myself to affirm a religion that killed Shidou and Mahiru. フータ　「ああ、そうだろよ」 FUUTA: Yeah, of course you can’t. エス　「グッ……お前は、何も思わないのか⁈」 ES: Huh-...?! You- You don’t feel anything about that…?! フータ　「思うよ！でも、俺にはあの人を信じるしか道がない！」 FUUTA: I do-! But- There’s no futures left for me so I got nothing but to believe in Her! エス　「お前は！」 ES: You-! フータ　「治療系知らん通のはまたもじゃねーよ！わかってる。俺に解いていたのも、子供がかかる、ありふれたきれいことなのかも知らねぇ、わかってる！でも、間違いなく……ひとっちゃ、救いだったんだ！」 FUUTA: I didn’t know about the medical care stuff, alright?! I get it. I know that the things she told me might just be some trivial naïve cliché nonsense that kids would say, I get it! But still-! There’s no doubt about it… It was a lifeline for me! エス　「……！」 ES: …! フータ　「ダメな俺のこと……救われるって、ここからでもやり直せるって……信じてくれる誰かが必要だった」 FUUTA: Someone as worthless as me… able to be helped, believed that I could change from this… All I needed was for someone to believe in me! エス　「フータ……」 ES: Fuuta… フータ　「殺した人間にだって、祈り続ければ、いつか謝罪の気持ちが届くって言ってくれたらよ……。それを信じるしかないだろう」 FUUTA: She told me that if I kept praying for the person I killed, someday my apologies might finally reach them…! How could I not cling to that? エス　「……」 ES: … フータ　「ハッ。なんだよその顔お？前が救ってくれでも良かったんだぜ」 FUUTA: Haah. What’s with that face? It could’ve been you saving me, y’know. エス　「……」 ES: Ah… エス　「僕はお前に、あいに救われるなんて言わないよ……言えない」 ES: I- I can’t tell you that my meetings with you would’ve saved you… I can’t possibly say that. フータ　「ふう……はあ……」 Fuuta takes a deep breath. フータ　「そうだよな」 FUUTA: I figured. エス　「僕は神ではない。人間だからだ」 ES: I’m no god. I’m just human. フータ　「お前が正しいよ」 FUUTA: You’re right. フータ　「でも、俺は弱いから。俺が罪に向き合うには、それしかないから……あの人についていく……。そう決めたんだ」 FUUTA: But me, I’m weak. So the only way I can face my sins is… to follow Her... That is what I’ve decided. エス　「間違っていたとしてもか」 ES: Even if it turns out to be wrong? フータ　「ああ、間違ってたとしても……た」 FUUTA: Yeah, even if it’s wrong… was wrong. フータ　「救われた俺くらいは、ついて行ってあげたい」 FUUTA: Someone like me who was helped… wants to follow her. エス　「ついて行ってをあげたい？」 ES: You want to follow her? フータ　「あの人の根幹にあるのは、行きづらいくらいの純粋さだと思うからよ。近くにてやりてんだ」 FUUTA: The core foundation of that person is a purity so strong that it makes it hard to approach her. That’s why I want to stay close and be there for her. エス　「そっか」 ES: I see. フータ　「お前があの人と話す時に、できれば作ってやってくれよ……俺と違って自分でやり直すことができる人だ！」 FUUTA: When the time comes for you to talk to her, if you can, try to understand her… Unlike me, she’s someone who can get back up and heal herself all on her own. エス　「自分なりにできることはやってみるよ」 ES: I’ll try to do what I can, how I would. フータ　「ああ」 FUUTA: Mhm. エス　「なあ、フータ」 ES: Hey, Fuuta. フータ　「なんだよ」 FUUTA: What is it? エス　「お前は今、赦されたいと思っているのか」 ES: Do you want to be forgiven this time? フータ　「……」 FUUTA: … フータ　「最初に言っただろ。お前がどう思うかなんてもうどうでもいいって。赦されようと赦されなかろうと、俺にできることは、殺した人間に誤り続けることだけだよ」 FUUTA: I already told you at the start, didn’t I? I don’t give a rat’s ass what you think anymore. Whether I’m forgiven, whether I’m unforgiven, the only thing I can do is to keep apologizing to the person I killed. エス　「……」 ES: …

エス　「罪を犯した人間は……やり直せるのかな？」 ES: Do you think a human that’s committed a crime… can really be better? フータ　「さあ、どうかな？そこまで考える余裕はねえよ。お前はどう思うんだ？」 FUUTA: Well, who knows? I don’t have the luxury to think that far. How about you- What do you think? エス　「分からない。でも、誰かの赦るすの人ことが、そのきっかけになればいいなとは思うんだ」 ES: I don’t know. But, I want to believe that being forgiven by someone… could be the spark that makes it possible. フータ　「あぁ……。なんだよ、お前。俺のことを赦そうとしてんのか」 FUUTA: Ah… What’s with you? Trying to forgive me or something? エス　「それはまだわからない」 ES: That’s something I’ve yet to know. フータ　「フッ。だろうよ」 FUUTA: Heh. Figures. エス　「でも安心しろ。僕の中の誰かは……きっとお前を赦すよ」 ES: But don’t worry. Someone inside of me will… definitely forgive you. フータ　「どういうことだ？」 FUUTA: The fuck does that mean? エス　「まだ、確信を得ているわけではないんだが」 ES: I’m- not entirely confident in what it is but. フータ　「なんだよ」 FUUTA: Spit it out. エス　「デブーン」 Es sighs deeply. エス　「恐ろく。僕の中には、複数の意思が存在する」 ES: It’s terrifying. Inside of me… are multiple wills that exist. フータ　「あぁ？おはあぁ？何言ってんだ？」 FUUTA: Ha? Huuh? What the hell are you saying? エス　「もしかしたら……これ自体が、ミルグラムの機能の一つなのかもしれないが」 ES: Maybe… this itself… is another experiment of MILGRAM’s. フータ　「どういうことだよ？」 FUUTA: What do you mean? エス　「ウッ……」 Es takes a breath. エス　「思い当たる不思議はいくつもあった。記憶の欠落、今度、真反対の思想、価値観の同居……そしてアイデンティティのがに。それこそ、突然に自分を複数人だと認識してしまうような」 ES: There’s been plenty of strange mysteries happening. Lack of memory, whatever’s been happening recently, contradictory ideologies, the cohabitation of all sorts of values… and these identities coming into me. It’s come to the point where it’s as if I’ve suddenly started recognizing myself as being multiple people. フータ　「自分を……複数人だと?」 FUUTA: Your self is… multiple people? エス　「あぁ、まるでアマネのようだろ?」 ES: Yeah, just like Amane, right? フータ　「は……」 FUUTA: Huh… エス　「そして何より……僕自身は……審判に参加していない」 ES: And above all… I, myself… have not participated in the trials. フータ　「審判？赦す赦さないよ決めるってことか？」 FUUTA: “Trials”? You mean deciding the verdicts of whether we’re forgiven or not? エス　「あぁ」 ES: Yeah. フータ　「オイッ！俺たちの赦す赦さないよ、自分で決めてないついのかよ」 FUUTA: Oi! You mean the judgements that whether we’re forgiven or unforgiven- You’re not even the one deciding that!? エス　「正確には、審判の際に僕の中に何者かの必死が流れ込んでくるのを感じる。そしてそれはおそらく無数の必死……なんも……いや、何十万の規模の……お前たちが感覚の中で聞いたという、自分を赦さない人々の声という証言とつなげることもできる」 ES: To be precise, during the deliberation*, I feel something like someone’s desperation pouring into me. And I suspect that there’s an innumerable amount of frantic, desperate someones…. or rather… no, tens of thousands of them. It may be connected to what you all have been hearing inside, testimonies of the voices of people saying that they don’t forgive you. [T/N: “Deliberation” refers to the period in which the jury is deciding upon a verdict of the one placed on trial. 審判 (shinban; judgement/trial) is intentionally translated as “deliberation” as it makes more sense in the context of the line.] フータ　「！」 FUUTA: ! エス　「僕は意識のがく流れに生まれて消える……気づいたら終わっているんだ……審判は」 ES: I am born into and disappear within the stream of consciousnessses… By the time I come to, it’s already over… The trial is done. フータ　「じゃんなんだ……？俺たちの赦す赦さないよ、その何十万の誰かが勝手に話し合ってるとでも言うのかよ！」 FUUTA: So what-? Are you saying that whether we’re forgiven or condemned is something those tens of thousands of people are discussing all on their own?! エス　「あくまで可能性の話だがな」 ES: It’s only a possibility. フータ　「ふ……はははっ！」 FUUTA: Huh… hahaha-! フータ　「話としちゃ面白い、悪趣味で笑えるぜ。まるで、昔の俺たちだ」 FUUTA: That’s one hell of a possibility for whatever story’s going on. Fucked up enough to laugh at. Reminds me of the old me. エス　「そうかもしれない……。だから……だから僕はミルグレムのことをもっと知る必要がある。他の誰でもない、自分だけの選択をするために」 ES: Maybe so… That’s why… That’s why I need to learn more about MILGRAM. So, for once, I can make a choice that is mine and mine alone.

フータ　「あぁ……」 FUUTA: Mhm… エス　「それ自体が……ミルグラムの意志に見るのかもしれないけどね」 ES: That in itself… may be a part of MILGRAM’s design. フータ　「フッ。フハハハハ……フハハハハハハハハハッ！変わったもんだなあ。何かにつけて、ミルグラムミルグラムって言ってたやつが、それこそまるで宗教みたいによ」 FUUTA: Heh. Hahahaha… Hahahahahahahahaha-! You really have changed. The way you go on about MILGRAM this, MILGRAM that- It’s practically a religion in itself. エス　「本当にそうだなあ。覚えてるか。お前が、僕とお前は同類だと言ったことを」 ES: You’re honestly right about that. Do you remember? You told me that you and I were the same. フータ　「なぁ、言ったな」 FUUTA: Yeah, I said that. エス　「あの時は否定したが、お前の言う通りだ。僕とお前は同類だ」 ES: I denied it back then but you were right. You and I are the same. フータ　「ああ?」 FUUTA: Aah? エス　「自分がないから、縋っていたんだ。ミルグラムに……僕にはそれしかないから」 ES: Because I had no self, I clung unto something. To MILGRAM… because that’s all I had. フータ　「あぁ……じゃ……お前はなんで……⁉　ミルグラムに使ってればいいじゃねーか！」 FUUTA: Guh… Then… why are you…!? Why not keep clinging onto MILGRAM?! エス　「決まってる……お前たちが大切だからだ」 ES: Isn’t it obvious… You all matter so much to me. フータ　「グッ！」 FUUTA: Guh-! エス　「お前たちが、ミルグラムによってさばかれるのが本当に正しいのか、わからなくなったからだ」 ES: I’ve come to doubt whether being judged by MILGRAM is truly the right thing for you all. フータ　「あぁ…」 FUUTA: Aah-...! エス　「選るのをやめられたかどうかはわからないけどね……今だって怖い……わからないことばかりだ……。曖昧だったものに触れるのは怖い……怖くて堪まらないよ」 ES: I don’t know if I can stop the judgements… Even now, I’m scared… There’s so much I don’t understand… It’s terrifying to perceive things left unclear… It terrifies me so much, it’s unbearable. フータ　「うん……」 FUUTA: Yeah… エス　「でも……僕にとって。そして……きっと僕の中のたくさんの人間にとって……お前たちは……大切なものになりすぎた」 ES: But… to me. And… surely for the many people inside of me… all of you… have become something far too important. フータ　「エス……」 FUUTA: Es… エス　「何にもしなって分かった。僕は馬鹿だから。僕の中の誰かは……そんなことは……たっくに気づいていたのにな」 ES: I realized I never had done anything. I’ve been an idiot. Someone inside me… must’ve… figured that out a long time ago. フータ　「そんなことねぇ……」 FUUTA: That’s not true… エス　「ん…」 ES: Huh…? フータ　「そんなことねえ！そんなことねえよ！エス！」 FUUTA: That’s not true! That’s bullshit, Es! フータ　「俺、いろんな人間見てきたんだ。自分じゃねぇけどよ」 FUUTA: I have seen all sorts of people, even if not personally. エス　「フータ……」 ES: Fuuta… フータ　「人間なんて全員バカだ。全員どこかしら間違ってる。それが人間だろ...!　俺が保証してやる！」 FUUTA: And every single one of them’s an idiot. Everyone fucks up somewhere. That’s what being human is…! I guarantee it! エス　「ウッアッ……何が言いたいんだ？」 ES: Ah- huh ah-… What are you trying to say? フータ　「ウーッ……フンヌー……！もうん何言ってるかわかんねえけどよ⁈　なんかよ、お前も普通の人間だっていうことじゃねえのかよ！それでいいじゃねえか！」 FUUTA: Urk…uarghh…! I don’t even fucking know what I’m saying anymore! But- What I’m trying to say is that you’re just like any normal human! And that’s okay!! エス　「…！」 ES: …! エス　「励ましてくれてるのか、それ……」 ES: You’re… trying to cheer me up, aren’t you? フータ　「あっ……知らねぇよ！思ったこと言っただけだ！」 FUUTA: Uh-... I don’t fucking know! I’m just saying whatever’s coming to mind!

エス　「ふっ……えへは！」 ES: Pfft- Eheha! フータ　「ブ」 FUUTA: Che- 部屋にある時計から鐘の音が鳴り、尋問室の部屋の構造が変化していく。 A bell tolls from within the clock in the room. The interrogation room begins to transform. フータ　「時間だな……。まだ、やんのか……」 FUUTA: Guess it’s time… Still not done…? エス　「ああ。ミルグラムの看守としてじゃない。ただの僕として、お前のことを知りたいから」 ES: Not at all. Not about the role of being MILGRAM’s Warden but, rather, I’d like to know you more. Just as myself. フータ　「そうかよ。なあ、エス」 FUUTA: Fine then. Hey, Es. エス　「なんだ？」 ES: What is it? フータ　「どうするかは、これから決めるんだろうけど……」 FUUTA: I know that later on you’ll have to decide what to do but… エス　「おっ？」 ES: Ouh? フータ　「できれば、このミルグラムとか言う場所をぶっ潰してくれ、俺の代わりになっ！」 FUUTA: If you can, crush this MILGRAM place into ashes in my stead. エス　「おっ……」 ES: Ouah… フータ　「ここはクソだぜ！俺が言うんだから間違いねえ」 FUUTA: This place is shit! Take my word for it. エス　「ゆっくり考えてみるよ。僕だけの選択を……それだけは、自分で決めるから」 ES: I’ll think it over. That decision is mine to make. My choice alone… フータ　「あぁ」 FUUTA: Mhm. エス　「フータ」 ES: Fuuta. フータ　「ああ?」 FUUTA: Aah? エス　「今からミルグラムの力で、お前の真相を覗かせてもらう」 ES: From now on, using MILGRAM’s power, you’ll be letting me peer into your truth. フータ　「ふっ。プライバシーの侵害だろ、ふざけんな」 FUUTA: Heh. Violation of privacy much? C’mon, cut me some slack. エス　「ふ…へ……」 ES: Heh…heh… エス　「お前の言う通りだったな」 ES: You were right. フータ　「だろ」 FUUTA: Told you. エス　「あぁ。楽しかったよ、フータ」 ES: Mhm. It’s been fun, Fuuta. フータ　「ん」 FUUTA: Yeah… フータ　「じゃあな、エス」 FUUTA: That’s it then. See ya, Es. エス　「梶山風汰、お前の罪を歌え」 ES: Fuuta Kajiyama, sing your sins!

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