aishalee

[aishalee]

hi yall its me from a year later. A year has passed and my birthday has aswell. My birthday this year went well. Though some relatives did sleep in my room which was kinda weird, It was alright. My mom bought me a gift. I was something simple that I literally use everyday. Overall an enjoyable birthday. (Also got to use a taylor swift song for my story)

So its my bday today and i thot i was gonna cry cuz i felt like shit and remembered some stuff that I did was stupid on my bday last year but thankfully i didnt and now i feel happy and my self esteem is high bcz i took some pics and felt like reaallyy pretty in them. It was the first time i felt like that in a while. Yeah thats all lol

[aishalee]

Aight this was a bad omen. I now feel like shit and kinda want to cry alot

So its my bday today and i thot i was gonna cry cuz i felt like shit and remembered some stuff that I did was stupid on my bday last year but thankfully i didnt and now i feel happy and my self esteem is high bcz i took some pics and felt like reaallyy pretty in them. It was the first time i felt like that in a while. Yeah thats all lol

[aishalee]

So its my bday today and i thot i was gonna cry cuz i felt like shit and remembered some stuff that I did was stupid on my bday last year but thankfully i didnt and now i feel happy and my self esteem is high bcz i took some pics and felt like reaallyy pretty in them. It was the first time i felt like that in a while. Yeah thats all lol

[aishalee]

This introduction thingy was loosely inspiried by @cutecinnamonrolls intro.

♡Introduction♡

Warning:Angsty shit

Aight so I started this blog thingy to just be a place for me to express my emotions ig, its hard to explain. But I'm basically just looking for a place to vent about my frustrations and worries without having to worry about people actually knowing me irl.

The more important parts are colored . Oh and there are also some things that are gonna be confusing so I'll have clarifications on the bottom. To indicate that I'll explain further on that thing there will be small numbers m on the side of them.

So here we go;

My name's Aisha,

I go by the pronouns She/Her.⁴

I am a minor¹,

And an a aquarius.

I am bisexual.(Edited)

I like anime.

And I hate spicy food.

I am also Agnostic(?)²

I'm open to meeting new people so just message me ig or however that works here in tumblr.

You can expect to see some pretty depressing and sad shit on my blog so if you don't like that just avoid my page.

I'll just have a warning thingy if things are getting a bit too emotional.

Also expect really bad punctuation and grammar bcz I have a hard time typing and explaining my feelings,

And also bcz english isn't my first language.

Why did I choose to do this you ask?

I don't know really...

I just I just feel like everything is gonna burst if I don't do or say anything.

I'm sick and tired of keeping it together and putting up a character infront of my parents.

I can't even tell my friends about it because I don't have any³

And for the things that I share on here that are really deep and sad and shit, I'll delete in a day or 2.

I'm probably a dumbass for choosing to vent my frustrations out on the internet but then again if i don't I'm probably gonna relapse onto my depressed state again

And I'm desperately trying to get better and as best as I can without the help of other people.

♡Clarifications♡

1. I'm choosing not to say my age bcz I just don't want to. Thats it really

2. I have a question mark on the end bcz my whole family's christain and I'm not. So when I'm with my family I have to pretend to enjoy going to church and 'praising the word of god'. With that being said I hope to not see any 'praise the lord allmighty', 'god bless you' or 'Love thy neighbor' shit.

3. I'm not including my relatives bcz again, they are christians and if they tell my parents about it they are most probably gonna send me to converison therapy.

4. Aight so this used to be only she/her but that changed cuz now I'm genderfluid lol. 1 year later Edit: And it has changed back to she/her I wont elaborate, just ask ya'll to respect it.

Anyways thats it basically. I'm feeling really tired rn so this was kinda shorter than I hoped it would be. I'm probably gonna change it tomorrow(key word probably), anyways good night and,

See yall later bitćhes

Edit:Omfg hi this is me like 4 or 5 months later I don't know what I was thinking when I did this but anyways a few things have changed since I wrote this so I edited it a little.

1 year later edit: uhmm hi hello. It has been a year.. I'm now year older and shit has changed. Like my mentality and sexuality. So il probs update it. Oh and a little life thingy I realized was that shit happens and that shit changes. I am not the same person I was a year ago. But that dosent mean I'm not myself and stuff. Like I'm still agnostic, still part of the lgbtq(I'll bet not as a pan person cuz its really hard to explain when they ask so I just settled on saying I was bi to make it easier on myself) still depressed(though not as much, I've learned how to deal with my mental problems and shit) I still hate spicy food. And the list goes on. But things have still changed, like how I'm not genderfluid anymore(I've settled on being identifying as a girl cuz its just all that easier for me, personally. My pronouns are just she/her again, now. Just saves me less stress and pain over myself. But who knows, things might change again for me) I have people I can call friends now(Even if they're just one) and little things like my hairs grown long again, my acne has gotten better and the weight I've been loosing. Anyways, I'll see you on the flip side. Byebye.

[aishalee]

Hello,Good to be here!!

I go by the name Aisha and I'm just here to have fun.

I'll be posting an about myself introduction thingy soon, or maybe next year. Just depends on whether I feel like it or not. Oh and I'm pansexual so if you're homophobic pls stay away.

This is just gonna be where I shitpost about my feelings and stuff, since no one knows who I am irl and I'd like to keep it that way. This is the only account I have bcz I'm not a content creator or writer of anything. I'm just here to have fun, and if I get famous then sure why not lol not that its ever gonna happen.

Bcz like if I say some shit here and my parents find out I'm most definitely gonna get kicked out. I don't even know why I picked tumblr of all places to share shit on. But anyways thats all for now,

smell ya later bitčhes

I don't know wtf I'm even doing.